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I really think sex being treated as a taboo has made many adults and many CHILDREN go through uncomfortable situations because they were never properly taught about it.

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I just deleted all of my posts talking about loving Melanie Martinez. Not the ones with lyrics of the songs I like from her, but the ones where I said nice things about her.

I wore rose-tinted glasses for way too long because I grew up listening to her, and her fandom was like a cult. I did not want to believe she was a bad person because she was the first idol I ever had.

I still love a lot of her songs, but I don't support her, I don't like her.

She is problematic, and she is a bad person.

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I have a question for those of you who self harmed, stopped, but still have scars.

I am asking because I honestly feel most of those except for the proud feeling. I miss self harming, but at the same time I don't want to undo all the work I've been through and all the times I resisted the urge. It would be a disservice to myself. It's too much. I wonder if other people have the same mixed feelings about them or if it is simpler for them. I haven't self harmed for three years.

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The situation with my dad is so hard. He supports me financially. He helps me learn stuff when I ask him to. Yet he is still so emotionally abusive. When he is mad at me he uses abrasive language. When I don't understand why, he thinks I am being a manipulative bitch. He always says I know exactly what I am doing. He acts like I forget things on purpose.

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I think my dad loves punishing me. I think he genuinely enjoys finding new ways to punish me.

I keep forgetting the light of my own bathroom on, lately I have really trying to be better about it. First he said he would let any cat lingering around in my bedroom door in, knowing that three of those cats pee on my stuff and could potentially ruin things that are important to me. Now he says he will come into my room and steal stuff from me and hide it. It could be anything. And I felt like the last days I was doing good by turning off my bathroom's lights. Either way, it's things like these that make me wonder why did I even stop self harming. He can be forgetful. But the moment I get forgetful, I get a lashing out. Is it even worth working on trying to better myself if I am just punished anyways?

Maybe I am just playing victim, idk, he always says I do. When he forgot the fucking door for our house open all night when he went out with his girlfriend and he came back and noticed it was like "oopsie, I made a mistake", but if it was I that had forgotten that door open he would tear me a new one.

I can't complain. I can't tell him how he hurts me. I just have to take it LIKE A FUCKING PUNCHING BAG AND I AM SO SO TIRED. I want to slit my wrists open tbh but I fucking can't

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DOG MOTIF: COMFORT

Hold me;comfort me

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by arica_aki

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despite everything.

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My new favorite genre of picture is a very special thing that most animals (and humans!) do: face nuzzling as an act of greeting/comfort/intimacy. thank God that this is happening all over the world right now

Isn’t it wonderful?!

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