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SOLACE lyrics

Because I'm not paying a hundred dollars a year to have them on Spotify until I make money off the music.

The countdown

I hate how the crosswalk counts down:

Guess how old I am?

Guess how old I am now?

Feels like I'm asking

for a license for a teacher for drive.

Feels like I'm asking to be sixteen again

so nobody assumes I want anything.

Einstein's Commandments

I lay in your bed

listening to Einsteins Commandments

and the freeway overhead.

Are we better off married or dead?

In a month we move in together.

I consider myself your savior.

You consider me consider me convenient to

pull a canoe through dark water.

If I do as you say can we love another day?

If I don’t cry or beg but pray can we love another day?

Call me strong like I wasn’t born to prove

I got more to lose like I wasn’t born to prove

I am not just somebody's daughter.

Catch a fish and watch it die with a smile

is that me for a little while?

Toss it back and watch her sink

using me up is your favorite kink.

Cutting trees

I am big

I am big for men

Who like to look down on women.

I am proud

I am proud for someone who should be asking

to be forgiven.

Will you please cut me down?

Maybe ill be inspired and move to another town.

Will you please watch me fall?

You were blocking the view after all.

I meet you at the hanging tree without a man or plea

I'm not asking to be free

life and death are the same to she

who wears pain beautifully.

A devotee

You're named after a cult leader

I should of known better following you.

I should of known better I should of known better

following you into the forest days after we meet.

You smile sweet and the wind is music through your hair

I think I'd follow you anywhere.

When will I leave not just to see

if you'll run after me?

You say come so you can say go

I trip over my feet tryinng to call you bow

never fast enough to catch what you throw

take your place in the row.

I wish you could always be

Eddie running with me through the trees

did he say I love you or was it the breeze?

You are god in reverse

because wanting this is a curse.

You lie with her lay with me laugh about it shamelessly.

I love you, is it clear I'm bluffing?

I just fucked her so now you feel like nothing x2

Echo

I add more sugar to the fly trap

I lay listening to power run through my phone

wishing it were you running through me.

Which parts will you take

which parts will you take as memory?

The most painful goodbyes

are the ones that have been coming.

Why are we why are we running?

We know how this will end when we meet

it's bittersweet.

Now I toss in bed trying to make up for your heat.

I hate laying in empty rooms that felt like home

I hate looking at the garden we used to roam

filled with dead flowers counting the hours we didn’t care.

Death must be in the air

Know me by absence

You measure my devotion by

how much I would give away

to call you mine for a day.

You measure my devotion by

how unwell I look in my desire to be taken

by death herself.

How small to make you feel big?

You dig and dig and dig.

You know me by absence

you see me as something

to fall in to climb out

you walk around me carefully.

I slowly erode

taking everything down with me.

I slowly resemble you.

They say that happens

when you spend a lot of time with someone.

I love you so much, I would like to become you

even if that’s nothing.

An ocean field or sky

I hold you in my hand

just a whisper you don’t understand why

I hold you in my hand and suddenly remember

why I begged you to lie.

Little tastes of it little tastes of it used to

make me want to throw myself

off the highest thing I could find

to make sure I leave nothing behind.

Will you be mine until tomorrow

or someday when nobody is ever going to ask me to play

because you took my heart when you went away.

Now all I know is emptiness:

An ocean filed or sky

waiting around to cry

doesn’t really matter

only the wind makes me wonder x2

wonder if I'm the one crying at all because

my face is a wall

my heart an empty well you're under her spell

and I'm really fucking thirsty

and I have no will.

Forever

Everything you say echoes on:

We cant be together

but we will forever.

Ever love ever touch

ever you refusing to feel that much.

It's raining because I'm crying

haven't had sex in a year

think I may be dying

for your sins or because there's nothing good

at the grocery.

Looking for patterns on the wall

I must be crazy afterall

I see is your face

dancing in time or space

losing it for an embrace.

I sleep on the floor

you call me a whore

our relationship consists of nothing more.

I walk boundary lane

heard you calling my name

but you lock the door

and I don't have strength to beg

anymore x3

Am I learning to love myself

or falling out with you?

Are they the same thing?

Will daylight tomorrow bring?

Pink moon

Pink moon shining down

on my side on your side

of this town.

Pink moon why don’t you some around

follow your shadow lost and found.

I'd do anything to have you in my room tonight

thought we kissed it was a trick of the light

I don’t really wanna fight

but your silence is a slight.

I buy white gloves to soak up the pain of reflection

but you do not want protection.

You look up with naked eyes

and like all the other guys

beauty is your demise.

White moth

White moth hovering over the lilac tree

outside my window

your wings glow

in the evening light

flat and circular like

the palms I hope to trap you with.

It's never going to happen

so why go outside

to be left standing in the front yard

looking around as though you could be hiding

in the green beans we planted together?

Did you plan on leaving or did something come up

change of weather?

I aim my camera as I like to capture you:

there for me to admire.

Do you love me x3

or the light?

I'd do anything to hold you tonight.

I'd like your heart sometimes it comes with strings

you disappear on silent wings

I kiss you in the morning like

we don’t speak of such things.

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My next album is looking like

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I put lipgloss on my camera for etherial photos

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I love my 60smod outfit.

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My mood most of the time

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Good to know there have always been people like this

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My album cover is based on this photo my sister took of me summer 2021 not a pigeon who stole my intellectual property. Third person cant even take your own photos looser

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It's also come to my attention people can change release dates on music to invalidate you easily. It's already happened to me.

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