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Skyland Dolls Pigi

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So I have completely Redone the Taru Dolls, and also the Sugarbunns dolls may have gotten new life in Taru

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Fox Boi, another sculpt, right now I know I have to fix his legs but I'm unsure of the rest of him, I think his head is perfect the way it is, but his torso is giving me side eye, and so are his arms

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I've changed up the dolls a lot from the Last time I posted them... Lala is now Taru

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Redid Ms F72s Face

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My pretty bad attempt at a faceup

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Can I just day I afore the makeup on my f72

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Got my new Volks SD13 F72 to get her wig to stay put today finally with the help of a wig cap, I think she’s absolutely lovely

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Chichi and Lili, two different bodies same heads! WIP

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I’d say I’ve gotten much better at digital sculpting, as evidence by my sculpt Wee Tanwen, a little anthro Dragon BJD

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So I’m trying to make a BJD in Zbrush now too, it’s going *great*

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This is such a sad state of affairs, and they really should not have been filming in this situation in any case. The local 44 is currently on strike which means that the normal unionized film crew wouldn't have been on set to check the props/make sure it was a prop gun. I really hope her family sues the people involved with this decision to cut corners and hire non union workers, as well as whoever brought the loaded gun onto set and didn't check it!

Halyna Hutchins was shot and killed yesterday with a misfire from a prop gun by Alec Baldwin (who, yes, is dealing with the unbearable weight of having accidentally taken a life). I don't understand why real guns are still used as props. Brandon Lee, perhaps the most infamous death from a prop gun misfire, died in 1993. It should only take one time to make drastic changes.

No, I don't know anything about filmmaking and what the technicalities are but if the gun can shoot real bullets, it's not a prop. If the bullets can cause death, they're not props.

My minimal understanding is that the guns are real but the bullets are supposed to be blanks.

The director of the film, Joel Souza, was also injured but I believe he is expected to recover.

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I had this commission done a while ago as a dnd character, but I just got confirmation from the artist that I can use her as a sticker for my dice as well! Thank you @osatosama ! She's an awesome artist and I love her style. #art #dice #stickers #tiefling #cute https://www.instagram.com/p/CRHWh57CgFO/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Support Groups

I recently joined a support group for people who've been sexually assaulted. While I can't share what other people have gone through, group confidentiality and all that, I can say that it makes me feel like what happened to me is much lower on the spectrum of terrible things that could happen.

And that... isn't fair, not to me, and not to other girls, boys, and non-binary/genderqueer folks whose stories and pain are similar to mine. Pain is pain, and just because someone had it worse than you doesn't negate what happened to you.

Group has as a whole though been good for me, it's cathartic to talk about my abusive relationship with my ex. The group also teaches me grounding methods, and as a group we all share our ways of dealing with our feelings. I would definitely recommend a support group for anyone whose dealing with mental health related problems, especially if those problems involve PTSD, depression or anxiety, having other people who've been through similar things, can give a fresh perspective on issues you might be struggling to work through.

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Therapy Update

It's always interesting when you find out a new thing about yourself, like last Thursday I found out I have a mild case of schitzophrenia, whatever a mild case of that means. I suppose life just has ways of throwing curve balls at you sometimes. But you just have to pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and keep on pushing through.

I start school in another two days, it was supposed to start tomorrow, but the weather caused classes to be cancelled. I'm in a much better position than I was last year, so this time I won't drop out, and I only have another 11 classes after this to go before I can graduate. That's just another year and a half, so I think I can do it. I just need to work hard and keep my goals in sight.

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So, I'm technically disabled

Legally I qualify as disabled, due to my depression, and PTSD, and anxiety and the like, and that's ok. It doesn't make me weak, or lesser, or helpless, actually it's a good thing. It means I have resources available to me that I would not otherwise have to help me get my life back on track. It was hard to admit that I wasn't fully able minded, but it also wasn't helping me to stay in denial. There was some paperwork involved, and I was given a social worker from a program in my local county who would check on me every few weeks.

My social worker is a great help, and she's there to help me, she can drive me places, or find out information that I've been trying to get that I've been having difficulty getting a hold of, and she's there to talk in case that's what I need. She's also knowledgeable about groups and resources that I'm not aware of that can help me, ranging from dbt groups to disability resources.

It feels weird to think of mental health as something that qualifies as a disability, but it does. So you shouldn't feel shame in how it can slow you down and make life more difficult for you, but there are resources to help you out. It's just a matter of finding them, which admitedly your mileage may vary. I'm lucky enough to live in an area with decent mental health care.