sometimeslenwrites

[sometimeslenwrites]

2020!!

Hi guys! Before anything else, I want to greet you all a happy new year! May our 2020 be fruitful!

I know it’s been a while and I know I promised updates but life became crazy. That’s all I’m going to say.

Regarding my fic, I’m torn between finishing it or just deleting all of it! I’m kind of torn because I really liked how the story was forming but I don’t know how to keep going. I have the chapters written down and I have an ending but I’m not quite happy with it. I’m thinking of just posting one-shots for now. Just to get back to it! We shall see. I’m thinking of taking it down for now and start fresh for 2020... I might keep the first one up but the rest, I’m thinking of taking them down. I don’t know! HAHAHA! My brain is still mushed up so... But yeah. I plan on writing one-shots first. So I hope that will get the wheels turning and the gears working. We shall see.

For now, I just want to wish you all a happy happy new year!

Thank you for following me even though I’m so inactive around here. Thank you for supporting my story even though I’ve left you all hanging for so long. I will try to be a better writer this year. :) It’s something I’m working on.

Talk to you guys soon! <3

[sometimeslenwrites]

Hello Everyone!

I am so sorry for being MIA!! Work and life has been insane lately. My mental health was and still is my priority. I’ve been working on the finale of Bring Me Home! So stay tuned for that! I’ve also started working on a new project but I’m not sure when that will be out! I’m still debating wether it will be Jaehyun again or someone else! If you don’t know, I am very Jaehyun biased haha! I usually write for my bias but I promise I’ll work on spreading out my wings and start focusing on other members too! I also plan on writing for SVT since they’re my ult group! :) idk we shall see! So yeah! Stay tuned for the finale!

[sometimeslenwrites]

Bring Me Home pt6

Pairing: Jaehyun x Reader

Genre: Angst, Romance

Warnings: None

Word Count: 998 words

A/N: I know there’s a huge gap in between updates, I’m sorry! Work has been really crazy lately so I haven’t had the chance to sit and write. This series is almost over! I’ve decided to not prolong the series because I’m not really getting any feedback! The next update would probably be the last chapter! Thank you, everyone!

-Your POV-

I didn’t mean to ignore him. I just need to get my thoughts and feelings sorted. I can’t just assume that he feels the same way just because he tells me he loves me. There are so many types of love, you know. Maybe he sees me as just his best friend. Or maybe, a sister. Ew. Well, not ew but seriously.

To: PeachHyunnie I’m sorry I haven’t been in touch lately. Things have been crazy and school has not been kind. You know, graduation and final projects.. But it will be over soon, right? I miss you, Yoonoh.

I press send before I talk myself out of it again. I have drafted the same message every single day but I can never bring myself to send it. I hate lying to him but I can’t just tell him the reason. I can’t just tell him I’ve been ignoring him because I can’t figure out my own feelings. That would be unfair! I don’t want to put him in an awkward situation. I don’t want to end our friendship…

From: PeachHyunnie It’s fine. I know you’ve been busy so it’s all good. I just wish you’d text me more often 😞 After our last call, I can’t help but think somethings going on with you. You’re never this aloof with me so I’m just really worried. Hopefully everything goes well with your final requirements! Here’s to us finally graduating!! I miss you too, you little bean. And I love you, so so much. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

There it is again. Is it so easy for him to say it

To: PeachHyunnie Good luck with your finals, too! Talk to you soon, okay? 💕

-Jaehyun’s POV-

She hasn’t said it back in a while. Does that mean she doesn’t love me anymore? Or is it because she’s saving those words for someone else? What if she’s going out with that Wonwoo guy. I mean, they have more things in common than us. They’ve been spending more time these past few months! What if she’s in love with him? I won’t lose to him, not ever.

To: QueenPeach Say it! You’re making me sad right now, you know? 😠

If she won’t say it, I’ll squeeze it out of her.

From: QueenPeach Say what? I already said I miss you! What am I supposed to say? Silly!

Wow, she’s not making this easy.

To: QueenPeach Say you love me. I’m starting to think this love is on a one way track 🥺 you haven’t said it to me in a while and I’m starting to sulk. 😢

Am I needy or what?

From: QueenPeach I love you, you doof. ❤️

And just like that, everything is back to normal. Well, as normal is it can be.

After that message, I decided to get my ass off my bed and start getting ready for the day. I jumped in the shower and I can’t help but think of her. Her smile that just brightens everything else. Her laugh that makes my heart skip a beat. Her voice that sounds so sweet, I’ll never get tired of hearing it. Then I start thinking how she’ll sound, under me. How would she sound when my hands roam all over her body, my mouth kissing every inch of her skin.

What would her mouth taste like? How would she taste like? Sweet, I bet she tastes sweeter than the honey she puts on her tea everyday. How does she feel like? Soft. I’m sure she feels soft and smooth. What I would give just to have her now.

I shake my head, trying my hardest to push those dirty thoughts away. “Stop it, Jaehyun! You haven’t even seen each other in years. Who gives you the right to think of her that way!” I scold myself. I shouldn’t but I can’t help it. I can’t help but have the need for her. I can’t wait to see her again. Soon, soon I’ll have her back in my arms.

-Your POV-

“Y/N, let loose a little!!!” My friend yells over the music. “It’s our last day, for fucks sake! It’s time for you to let go of all the stress and just have fun!” She grabs me by the waist and pulls me towards the dance floor.

I’m not really the party type but lately I’ve been doing whatever I can to try and push Jaehyun out of my head. He’s been occupying my thoughts lately, more than usual. My heart both breaks and swells at the same time whenever I get a message from him. I just want to scream how much I love him. Maybe I should? If we stop being friends because of my rash decision, then that’s something I have to face. Am I ready for that?

I must’ve been deep in thought because the next thing I know my friend is pushing a shot glass in my face.

“Here! Drown this down and just forget about whatever it is that’s been stealing you away from us!” She winks. I grabbed the glass from her hands and stared at it. The clear liquid is threatening to spill. I’ve never been good at holding my alcohol, this could be a bad idea.

“Come on, Y/L/N! Just take the shot!” another friend of mine yells. What the hell! One shot wouldn’t hurt, right?

To: PeachHyunnie

You have no idea how much I miss you. You don’t know how much it hurts to try and push you away but I just can’t! I’m so so so so so so stupid to think that whatever you told me before would remain the same. Gosh, what I would give to just hold you one more time. I miss you, Jung Yoonoh. I miss you every single day since the day you left. Why did you leave me? Why did you leave me behind? Why did you make me love you and then leave me? It’s not fair! It’s just not fair!

[sometimeslenwrites]

Me:

[sometimeslenwrites]

Chanson de Sirène: Chapter One

Pairing: Jaehyun x Fem!Mermaid!Reader Genre: Mermaid AU Warnings: Alcohol use Word Count: 2K A/N: I’m not altogether sure if this is wanted, but I wrote the first chapter anyway. Enjoy! xx

Prologue | Chapter One

Description: There’s an old tale that goes, that should a mermaid fall in love with a human, her cold, ocean heart warms and she becomes human for a short time. If her love is returned, she loses her immortality and becomes human for one lifetime. But, if her love is rejected, her heart turns to stone and she becomes a siren who must feed on the souls of men, using her angelic voice to lure sailors to their death.

Keep reading

[sometimeslenwrites]

Chanson de Sirène: Prologue

Pairing: Jaehyun x Fem!Mermaid!Reader Genre: Mermaid AU Warnings: Not sure yet? None here. Word Count: 835w A/N: Just testing the waters with this one. It’s gonna be a hefty fic if you guys like my idea. Consider this a little prologue to explain the mythology and the initial buildup of the story and the relationship! Hope you guys enjoy it! Title is tentative as I don’t speak French and it may be wrong lol feel free to correct me!!! xx

There’s an old tale that goes, that should a mermaid fall in love with a human, her cold, ocean heart warms and she becomes human for a short time. If her love is returned, she loses her immortality and becomes human for one lifetime. But, if her love is rejected, her heart turns to stone and she becomes a siren who must feed on the souls of men, using her angelic voice to lure sailors to their death.

Jaehyun, being a sailor, himself, was well aware of this tale. “But it’s just a myth,” he says to his crew, “So don’t worry about sirens out there trying to feed on your soul.”

A raucous laughter erupts from the crew and they set sail for the day, not wary of the sea that they loved so dearly.

But one night, an angelic voice dances through the air and finds the ears of one sailor. He finds his way to the bow of the ship, to find a beautiful woman swimming in the water. Long-haired and bare-breasted, she laughs as she beckons him down to her. He dives in to swim with her, mesmerized deeply by her song, to the point of oblivion.

Keep reading

[sometimeslenwrites]

Cafetière

Pairing: Johnny x Cece

Genre: Angst

Warnings: Probably grammatical errors. It’s 4:30am

Word Count: 1,685 words

A/N: I am currently finish up Chapter 6 for Bring Me Home. I needed a break for a while so I decided to practice on a different story. This is actually dedicated to my one and only bubs, @jeongcheolbaby. I don’t really know how to write anything else other than angst so, I’m sorry bubs! But I just really wanted to write something who isn’t Jaehyun or Seungcheol. I have a story in mind for Seungcheol so even though we share the same bias, I decided to use Johnny instead! I hope you enjoy this, bubs! I love you! 🥺🥰

All you did lately was fight. No matter what you do, it didn’t seem right to him. You tried to make him dinner, he said you should’ve asked if he was going to eat at home. You fixed his ever so messy closet, he thinks you’re being nosy. You stayed up late to wait up for him, he says you’re being clingy. You put it all down to him being exhausted and stressed from work but you can’t ignore the pain you’re feeling. You stopped going the extra mile for him. No more hot dinners cooked for him, you don’t pick up after him anymore, you go to bed at a proper time instead of waiting up for him, heck, you don’t even send him good night messages anymore. You were so exhausted.

〰️〰️〰️ Johnny walks through the front door to find the front room dark and cold. He placed his keys in the bowl by the door and hangs his coat on the hook. He was expecting dinner, a well lit room, a fiancé waiting for him on the sofa and a warm home after a long day in the office but he was met with nothing. Nothing except a dark cold house.

“Cece, baby?” He called for you. Hoping you were in the study but he didn’t hear an answer. “Baby are you upstairs?” He called out for you but his ears were met with silence. A small panic settles in the pit of his stomach. He ran upstairs to your shared bedroom to find it empty. He fished his phone out from his pocket and dialled your number. “Please pick up” panic evident in his voice.

He ran to your walk in closet to find it empty. “No. No. No no no no no” he runs around the house, hoping you were just playing a mean prank on him. “Come on baby, pick up!” But it just kept ringing and ringing.

He ran back down to grab his keys when he found a note stuck on the mirror by the door.

“I think we need some space from each other. Maybe this will be good for us, to figure out whatever it is between us. I won’t expect you to find me nor do I expect you to take the time to look for me but I’ll be fine. Give me some time, Johnny. I’ve waited for you now it’s your turn to do the waiting”

No “I’ll miss you”, not even an “I love you”. He was terrified. Memories of recent events flashed in his mind.

“Hi baby!” Cece greets you with a warm smile and open arms. You simply looked at her and gave her a nod. “I made you dinner, you must be hungry.” She coos at you.

“I’ve eaten.” You were cold, but you didn’t mean to. You were just exhausted from work and the stress just kept piling and piling.

“Oh. I didn’t know. It’s okay, I’ll just…”

“You should’ve asked first. You’ve wasted your time” you cut her off. “It’s not hard to send a simple text message, right? That’s all you have to do! Can’t you do that?” Your voice was harsh and you didn’t even realise it.

“Shit” Johnny mutters to himself. He sat in the dark living room, face held between his hands. “What have I done” is all he says before he allows the tears to fall freely from his eyes.

〰️〰️〰️ It has been two weeks since you’ve left your shared home with your fiancé. You’d be lying if you say you haven’t missed him. You’ve fought yourself over and over again, trying not to pick up your phone and just tell him where you are. He has been trying to call you, he was never the type to just write things down in a text message. No, he was the talking kind of man. That’s why you guys have lasted for so long. You guys always knew how to talk things out and it always worked out. Until recently.

You convinced yourself that two weeks was enough to make him suffer. You’ve missed him dearly and you just really want to go back home. Something was holding you back, though. You were worried.

“What if he doesn’t want me back” your inner voice kept saying “what if he’s fine without me and the reason he’s calling is to tell me to get all my things” you felt the pang in your heart.

“Don’t be stupid, Cece.” You scold yourself as you pack your suitcase in the trunk of your car. “If you don’t try, you won’t know” with that, you drive yourself back home.

〰️〰️〰️

Johnny has been working from home. He couldn’t bare to leave the house, afraid you’ll come home and he’ll miss you. He wasn’t going to take any chances, not this time. He has tried to call you multiple times. Texting you didn’t feel right. That and he was desperate to hear you voice. He just wanted to hear you even if it was going to end in a bitter fight.

Johnny got up from his desk and stretched. He walked over to the kitchen “maybe a cup of coffee would wake me up” he tells himself. He hasn’t been sleeping very well, you see. How can he when the space next to him was empty? Your bedroom still smelled like you. Your scent, though fading, was still in your sheets. Oh how he missed you. “Baby, please come home” he says as he stares at your face on his phone wallpaper.

The kettle started boiling and he didn’t hear the front door open. He poured the hot water in his cup and started making his coffee. “Where’s the coffee?” He asks himself out loud.

“Cabinet above the kettle, second shelf”.

He stopped his movements. He knew that voice but he was too afraid to turn around. His mind must be playing tricks on him again.

“Also, the coffee maker is right by the cups. We don’t have coffee granules, we have ground coffee so that wouldn’t dissolve” Cece walked into the kitchen to grab the cafetière. She grabbed the ground coffee and started putting some in the cafetière. “I usually just put 5 grams but you like yours strong so I would normally put 7grams”. She continues to make his coffee.

“You’re home” Johnny whispered.

“I’m guessing you haven’t gone grocery shopping so the milk would be spoiled by now. You’re going to have to drink this black. Your sweetener is in the same place as the coffee. Can you grab it for me?” She looked up when she didn’t hear Johnny move.

“Johnny, the swee” Cece didn’t have the chance to finish her sentence because Johnny encased her in an embrace.

〰️〰️〰️ “You’re home. You’re finally home” he started crying “you came back. You’re really home” he hugged you and cupped your face. Thumbs brushing along your cheeks “I can’t believe you’re finally home. I’ve missed you so much, baby.” He pulls you in for another tight embrace.

“Am I not supposed to come home?” You asked as your wrap your arms around his waist.

“I just thought you wouldn’t. You weren’t answering my calls, it’s been two weeks and I haven’t heard from you!” He was trembling “I asked all our friends and none of them could give me an answer. I was so scared. I was terrified” he confessed.

You took his face in your hands and wiped the tears that were staining his face. You looked at each other, afraid to say something. You stared at each other, basking in the presence of one another. His hold tightens, afraid you’ll disappear again.

“I’m so sorry. I know I’ve been an ass but I never meant to.” He started explaining himself. “With the weight of work, I was lashing out on you. Taking my frustrations out on you and it wasn’t fair. I didn’t even realise I was doing it until you were gone. I’m sorry baby, please don’t leave me.” Johnny begs like a child. Afraid to lose you again, he holds you close and tightens his grip on your body.

“Sshhh, baby I won’t leave again” you say as you stroke his back. “I promise. Let’s work this out, okay? I know we can work this out, we always do.” You pulled away, just far enough to be able to cup his face again. “I need to be more understanding but baby, I can’t read your mind. I won’t know what exactly is bothering you if you don’t talk to me.”

You take his hand and walked towards the dining room. You pulled out one chair and asked him to sit. Refusing to be away from you, Johnny pulls you on his lap and nuzzles his face in your neck. “I’m sorry, Cece. I’ll be better, just please….. don’t leave me again”.

You hear the sincerity in his voice.

“I wasn’t going to leave you for good, silly boy. I just needed time to think, to breathe.” You really were going to come back home. Never in a million years did you ever think of leaving this man behind. You both have been there for each other. In each other’s best and of course, lowest. There’s no way you would allow yourself to walk away from this. This is your home. He is your home.

“Look at me, please” you say “I will never leave you. I will never walk away from you, okay? I love you too much.” You kiss his forehead.

“I love you too, baby. I love you so much” Johnny cups your face with one hand as the other wraps tightly around your waist. You wrapped your arms around his neck and close your eyes.

You shared a kiss for the first time in a while. It felt like electricity was coursing through your body. He pecks your lips once, twice, three time and one more. You stared at the man who had your heart. Yeah, there’s no walking away from this. Not now, not ever.

[sometimeslenwrites]

Pairing: Jaehyun x Reader

Genre: Angst!

Warnings: I don’t think there’s any need for any warning so far! If I hurt you, I’m sorry. Haha!

Word Count: 519 (keeping it short for now)

A/N: I have been listening to my old 5SOS playlist nonstop for a solid week now and my heart just breaks every time I listen to Wherever You Are. So this story is actually inspired by that song. This will probably have multiple parts but I plan on keeping it as short as possible. :) I hope you enjoy my first work!! And tell me what you think!! ❤️

Summary: what happens when the person you call home suddenly leaves? What happens when coming home doesn’t feel like home anymore? How do you cope with a heartache?

-Your POV-

You and Jaehyun grew up together. With your houses side by side, and the tree in between your houses served as your bridge from your bedroom to his, it’s safe to say that you were each other’s best friends. Growing up at the same time, you both knew that you would have to leave eventually. What you didn’t expect was for Jaehyun to leave first.

You always thought that you’d both leave together. You talked about going to college together and getting a tiny flat to share. The thought of being separated never even crossed your mind. That is until his parents told him that they’re moving away.

You promised that things wouldn’t change. That things would remain the same but you know deep down that it was all changing. The time zones were different, heck! The countries were different! It was going to be weird not having him around.

You were both fifteen, babies in society’s eyes. But that doesn’t mean your feelings were invalid. You pretended that time wasn’t going fast. You pushed the thoughts of him ever leaving out of your mind. Maybe if you pretend hard enough, reality would catch up to your fantasies. Right?

Your parents took the Jung’s to the airport. You did your best not to cry, you know how much he hated it when you cry. “It hurts me” he would say. So you chewed on your lip, stared at the ceiling, out the window, on your hands… anywhere but him. You put in your earphones to ignore the feeling that’s bubbling inside you. You just wanted to get this day over with.

When you finally got out of the car, that’s when it all fell apart. You couldn’t hold your tears back anymore. You still refused to look at him but that doesn’t mean that he hadn’t seen you. He walked towards you but you took a few steps back. Your little legs were no match to his longer ones. In a heartbeat, you were wrapped in his arms. Your comfort zone, your safe place, your best friend. In ten minutes, everything you’ve ever known would change.

No more waking up at 5am on Saturdays to watch the sunrise. No more midnight snacks whenever one of you wake up from a nightmare. No more Sunday cuddles and after school “dates” to the ice cream shop. Who was going to ask if you were okay? Who would comfort you in days where everything feels like it’s falling apart? He’d be thousands and thousands of miles away. No more Jaehyun.

You reluctantly let him go. With tears streaming down your face, he did his best to wipe them away. He cupped your face and made you look at him in the eyes, “You will always be my first love. I will always remember you and no matter what happens, I will always love you” with that, he kissed your forehead. You watched as he walked away from you. Just as he was about to enter the gate, he looked back at you and waved his final goodbye.

What now?

[sometimeslenwrites]

Bring Me Home pt2

Pairing: Jaehyun x Reader

Genre: Angst!

Warnings: apparently, it hurts…

Word Count: 523

A/N: This part is still based on Wherever You Are by 5SOS. I don’t know when the next part will be up since I’m back to work but my target is definitely this weekend! Thank you for the input on the first part! I’m still trying to learn things so please bear with me. ❤️

Summary: what happens when the person you call home suddenly leaves? What happens when coming home doesn’t feel like home anymore? How do you cope with a heartache?

First Part

-Jaehyun’s POV-

Hugging her goodbye was fine. Walking away and taking my last look, it was alright. Waiting impatiently at the gate to board the plane was excruciating. Finally getting on the plane was nerve wrecking. And when the crew announced that we’re ready for take-off, I broke down. It suddenly sunk in, you know? That was the last time I’ll probably hold her. That was probably the last time I’ll be able to tell her how much I love her. Will it?

I get it. Better opportunities for our family overseas. A wider horizon for my family and I but why does it hurt so much? Everything I’ve ever known is left behind in that small town. All the plans and dreams we’ve had had been shred to pieces. A little dramatic? Maybe. But that doesn’t mean it hurts any less.

I tried to keep it inside, I really did. I didn’t want her to see how this is breaking me. I didn’t want to her to see me cry. I want to be strong not just for me but for us. I have to because it’s the only way.

The last few weeks went by real quick. The amount of ice cream we ate is probably so unhealthy but I don’t care. The conversations we shared under the starry night sky and the promises we made. I feel like those nights are so far away. I feel like our days were so long ago. How can that be?

Maybe sleeping it off would be better. Or maybe I’ll just dream of her. Then waking up would just be a nightmare. How do I get over this? I don’t think I ever will.

- two months later-

It wasn’t an easy start. With a new school and a whole bunch of new people, I felt alone. She was always on my mind. The first one I think of when I wake and the last thought before I fall asleep. There was never a day where my thoughts didn’t drift to her. I hope she’s well. I hope she’s eating well, getting enough sleep but most of all, happy.

If she’s happy, does that mean she’s forgotten about me? No, she wouldn’t. But to give yourself false hope is not kind either. You know what, I don’t ever want to know. I don’t want to know if she’s forgotten me. I don’t want to know if she has someone new making her laugh and smile. Maybe if I keep pretending, it would hurt less?

-a week later- It’s not easy to ignore my feelings. The amount of times I’ve dialled her number just to lock my phone back again. I just want to check on her, maybe catch up but I know I wouldn’t be able to keep up with this routine. Life has to go on, right? Life needs to keep moving. Maybe our paths would cross again. We’re young, right? Maybe I’ll meet someone who would feel like home again. Maybe if I just keep moving forward, it will hurt a little less. Would I want that though?

What now, though?

[sometimeslenwrites]

Bring Me Home pt3

Pairing: Jaehyun x Reader

Genre: Angst!

Warnings: None aside from late updates from writer 🙃😏

Word Count: 788

A/N: Sorry if it took so long to update! I have been ill lately and it’s been clogging up my brain. I still am sick but I’ve been pushing myself to make an update. This particular part is based loosely around Close As Strangers By 5SOS. This is a little longer compared to my first two so I hope you guys enjoy this part. Let me know what you think! ❤️

Summary: what happens when the person you call home suddenly leaves? What happens when coming home doesn’t feel like home anymore? How do you cope with a heartache?

-Jaehyun’s POV-

“Things have changed so much, it’s weird.” she tells me. I can feel the sadness in her voice that she’s trying to mask. I know her better than that though.

“How is it weird? I mean, I may not be physically there but we still talk, right? We practically video chat every day!” I tell her in an attempt to cheer her up.

“You know what I mean, Yoonoh. It’s weird because I see someone else when I look out my bedroom window. It’s weird because I have no one to walk to school with. It’s weird because I feel like a part of me is missing”.

This is by far the hardest thing. Talking to her and seeing her through the screen is not enough. I’m a greedy bastard. I want more than just text messages and fuzzy video calls. I want the real thing.

I feel like this would be too hard on us. I’m afraid that one day she’d tell me she doesn’t want this anymore. Even worse, she’ll just stop answering. I know her better than that but you can’t blame me for thinking that way. Everyday I feel like we’re drifting further apart and it’s killing me.

“We’ll be okay, Jae. Don’t worry!” You try to cheer me up. It works, for now. “Didn’t we like make that promise back when we were five?” she try to recall.

“Which one? The one where I promise to eat all your boiled carrots? Or is it the one where I promise to sing you back to sleep if you ever get nightmares?” I reply.

“You know what I’m talking about, Jung Yoonoh!” she pokes her tongue out pretending to be annoyed. “The one where we said we’d always be friends. No matter how far or how old we get, we would always be there for each other! Remember?”

I do but I want to hear more of what she has to say so I shake her head. I watch as she rolls her eyes, still pretending to be annoyed.

“You are so annoying! I remember it clearly. We were sitting by the river while our dads fish. You were making paper boats and I was making flower crowns. Do you really not remember?” She said with a pout now. She’s adorable.

“You mean where our dads drove 12hrs just to go to that “special lake” cause “the fishes are bigger”? That day by the lake where you slipped and fell in the mud? You won’t stop crying cause you were drenched so I had to give you my extra clothes because your dad forgot your backpack on your front porch?” She gave me a smile, so I continued.

“You mean that trip where we sat by the lake making promises we thought we’d keep? Of course I remember. I remember everything clearly as long as it has you in it” I looked at her and took her silence as a sign to continue. “This is so hard. I miss you every single day. I miss every little thing about you. Things are different but you know what? I’ll work hard. I’ll work hard and I’ll come back to you. That’s a promise, okay? I promise that I’ll come back to you and we can be together again. I promise.” I choked so I looked away.

Silence is what I heard. Afraid that I said something wrong so I looked up to the screen. Her brows were furrowed and she was chewing on her lip. A sign she’s scared.

“We’re not five anymore, Yoonoh. We can’t make promises like that anymore. We have to be realistic and focus on what we have now.” Her tears are starting to fall now. “I miss you too. I miss you every day and it hurts because I’m so used to having you. But no matter how difficult this is, we have to face the reality. Okay?”

“I’m being honest right now. Why can’t you just take my word?” I was getting a little irritated.

“Because I don’t want to keep my hopes up!” she yells at the screen as her tears keep falling. “I don’t want to keep my hopes up anymore. I don’t want to expect things to happen and in the end just watch it turn into a dream. Please Jae, no more promises” she begs. She gave me one last look and the screen went black.

She’s right. I can’t keep making promises like that. I can’t just throw words around like that. I know it’s hard and I know how she’s afraid but I just hope that she can wait for me. I pray that she waits for me. I will come home.

[sometimeslenwrites]

Bring Me Home pt4

Pairing: Jaehyun x Reader

Genre: Angst!

Warnings: None

Word Count: 709

A/N: Here is part 4 from the mini series! I am not going to lie, I struggled with this one. Haha! I believe we have one part left! I don’t know when it’ll be up because I’m back to work tomorrow. My schedule is a little messed up so I hope you can wait! I’m halfway done with the final part but I want to make it really good.

-Your POV-

You lay in the middle of your floor crying your eyes out. “When did I become such a mess” you ask yourself. You don’t even know what came over you when you raised your voice at him. He was just trying to be sweet but here you were, ruining the mood.

It’s been amazing lately. Frequent text messages and video calls, all in an attempt to save whatever friendship you have left with the boy you know and love. The most painful part in all of this is the fact that you have this inkling feeling that it’s not going to last. You’ve managed to convince yourself that at some point in life, people move on. That’s a thought you hated but that’s also a thought you can’t push out of your mind. You’re young, but old enough to differ the reality that’s surrounding you.

When his day is about to start, yours is just about to end. Your mornings are his night, your beginning becomes his end. It’s all a jumbled mess but somehow you both managed to make it work. You’ve managed to make a routine of “late night calls” and “morning messages”. You laugh at yourself and the whole crazy situation.

You grab your phone and you start typing away.

To: PeachHyunie ❤️

I didn’t mean to just hang up on you and yell. I know you’re trying your best and I appreciate that. But I just want us to be real. We are miles apart with lives ahead of us. I don’t want you focusing on “coming back home” because let’s face it, there’s a high chance it may not happen. I pray every night for you to come back but things could be different one, two, three years from now. Please focus on yourself. Focus on your dreams and goals. Let’s keep going until we can’t go anymore. Okay? I love you, Jung Yoonoh. Yesterday, today and for all the tomorrows that will come.

You hit send. You don’t know why this is so hard for you. You’ve had this conversation with your mum so many times. “This is for his future, sweetheart” she would tell you. “It’s unfair but this is what’s best for him and his family. If we truly care for them, we will support them” she’d try to convince you.

That night as you lay in bed, your thoughts swam with the images of your best friend. “What have I done?” You internally cry. “I’ve made a big deal of something so simple. Why am I so stupid!” You groan as you hit yourself with frustration. You laid on your side facing your window. It’s funny how your blinds were never really closed unless you were changing and now, it’s closed ninety percent of the time. You reached for your lamp and pulled your covers up and decided to just call it a night. “I can’t inflict anymore damage than I already have” you whisper as you try your best not to cry again.

From: PeachHyunie ❤️

I understand where you’re coming from. But I swear I’ll see you again. It may not be tomorrow or this year. Or even the next but I swear I’m coming back for you. We’ll be alright, okay? I love you too, you little butthead drama queen. Thousands of miles is not going to bring Jung Yoonoh down. Not now, not ever. I mean come on, I’m captain America 😏😉 get some sleep, okay? I love you. And I miss you. So so much!

You kept reading his message over and over again. This brings so much joy and love but at the same time, it tightens your chest a little. He has always been the optimist between the both of you. Always the one to look at the brighter side of things. You want to believe all the words he’s saying but it’s scary. It’s scary to have to hold on to that and then just have it crashing right in front of you. But when has Jung Yoonoh let you down? Never.

So if he says he’ll come back for you, then he’ll come back for you. But when? That’s an answer you’re just going to have to wait for.

[sometimeslenwrites]

Bring Me Home pt5

Pairing: Jaehyun x Reader

Genre: I don’t really know. Is it angsty enough?

Warnings: None

Word Count: 1,385 words

A/N: I’m sorry it took so long for me to update! Work got really crazy and things were all over the place! Anyway, here’s Part 5 of Bring Me Home! I haven’t edited this yet. LOL! My usual proof readers are busy so if there are any errors, I’m so sorry! Tell me what you think? I might end this mini series on the next update but if you guys want me to keep going, just let me know! Also tell me how you’re enjoying the story so far! Feedback is always appreciated! Thank you!!

-Jaehyun’s POV-

“You should really start dating dude” my friend Johnny said. This has been the topic of our conversation ever since we met at orientation. Johnny is a couple of years older than me but we became good friends over the short amount of time we’ve known each other. He was my “senior buddy” during our orientation. It’s funny considering he wasn’t even a senior then.

“Not this again” I roll my eyes as I throw my towel at his face.

“Just look around dude. Every girl in this gym is drooling over you. All the girls around campus lose their mind when they see you walking around.” He said as he flails his arms around. “Look, how do you even know you’re still in love with your first love if you don’t even try dating other girls?” You looked at him unbothered.

“Wait no, that’s wrong. Let me rephrase that” Johnny attempts to save himself but you cut him off before he could even correct himself.

“Look, faraway or not, I’m just not ready to date yet. And I just haven’t really met anyone who’s caught my attention. Okay?” I sighed.

To be honest, dating was out of the question. If it wasn’t her, why bother? Don’t get me wrong, there are plenty of wonderful girls out there but I really only want one. I only need one. And she’s the reason why I’m working my ass off.

“Whatever man. All I’m saying is that if you’re closing yourself off, you won’t be able to move forward” Johnny gave you one last look and left for his class.

But I’m not closing myself off. I’m just saving myself for that one person. In ways, Johnny has a point. Of course thoughts have swam in my mind constantly. Thoughts like “what if I never see her again” and “what if she finds someone else”. We haven’t put any label on whatever it is we have but I just can’t bring myself to date just anyone else. Right now, all I really need and want is her. Just. Her.

-Your POV-

“So what do you say? Will you go out with me?” A boy named Wonwoo is asking you out. He’s been your thesis partner and you’ve gotten to know him quite a bit. You have to admit though, he’s amazing. Wonwoo is smart, funny and very mysterious. You’ve known each other for six months and it seems like you’re still finding new things every single day. You’d be lying if you say he’s not interesting, because he definitely is. You just can’t bring yourself to date anyone who is not Jaehyun.

“I’m sorry Wonwoo. Look, you’re amazing and anyone would be lucky to date you but..” you’re trying to reject him gently, your friendship on the line.

“But you’re not the lucky girl” he said with a soft smile that doesn’t quite reach his eyes. “You know, he’s very lucky” he starts.

“Who?” You’re genuinely curious because you’ve never once mentioned Jaehyun to anyone else aside from your common friends.

“Whoever it is you’re in love with! I hope he knows he’s got the best one out there.” He tucks a stray piece of hair behind your ear “really lucky.” And with that, he turns around and starts walking away from you.

“Why can’t I just let Jae go? It’s not like he’s here! It’s not like he wants me. At least, I think he doesn’t.” You’re having another internal argument with yourself and it’s frustrating you. You know your feelings towards the boy you’ve grown to call your home but you’re not sure about his. The word “love” has been thrown around so casually between you two that you have no idea if the meaning is the same.

You were about to put your earphones in when he calls you.

“Hey babe” he says with a cheerful smile. The smile you’ve grown to love and appreciate. The smile that has made your bad days end good.

“Hey you” you reply. You’re chest feels tight and it feels like you’re going to break down any minute. You have no idea why you feel so emotional all of a sudden. Is it because you miss him? Or is it because you think he only sees you as his best friend?

“What’s wrong? Are you still out? Y/N it’s late! I told you not to be out so late when you’re on your own.” He looks at you with worry and your heart starts skipping.

“I’m just around campus, don’t worry. I’m headed back to my dorm now” you tell him “I’ll be there in like five minutes.” It’s true. You’ve lived in the university campus since day one. You’re a few months away from graduating and you have no idea what to do with yourself next.

“That’s good. Stay on the line with me, just to make sure you can go back safe” he tells you. All you did was offer a smile and a nod.

“Seriously, what’s wrong? What’s going on in that pretty head of yours?” He asks you. He genuinely looked concerned and you can’t help the way your heart races.

“Nothing. Just a lot of things to think about. You know, graduation amongst other things” you contemplated telling him about Wonwoo. Mainly because every time you do, his demeanour changes.

“I’ve known you for so long, Y/N” he starts “you can’t convince me nothing is wrong when something is obviously bothering you”.

“Someone asked me out today.” Oh boy, here we go.

“What. Who?” His tone was firm.

“Wonwoo.”

“Oh.”

“I rejected him” you tell him. And you think you saw relief but he covered that up real quick. Maybe your tired eyes are just playing tricks with you.

“Oh!” He sighs. “Why?”

“Because…..” should you just confess?

“Because what?”

What if this goes bad? What if I confess and he doesn’t feel the same? What if distance has made things change? He said I was his first love but what if someone else has taken my place? Would I really want to risk it all?

“Never mind. Look, I’ll just call you back when I reach the dorm. Okay?” You we’re rushing to cut the call. Already making up excuses in your head on why you didn’t call him back. You were too tired and you fell asleep. Maybe you could say your phone died and your battery stopped working. No, that would make him panic.

“Wait! No!” he practically screams but you cut the call.

“Stupid! Stupid! Stupid!” You scold yourself. Why is it so hard to just tell him? Why do you have to make things so difficult? You have no idea either but maybe it’s better this way. Maybe it’s better if he doesn’t know anything, right? What he doesn’t know won’t hurt him. Right?

-Jaehyun’s POV-

“Did she just hung up on me?” I scratch my head. I’m so confused right now. She’s never done that before. Not even once. What’s gotten into her?

You send her a message:

To: QueenPeach

Hey, I know you said you’ll call once you’re back but I can’t shake the feeling that something is not right. Are you okay? You know you can always talk to me, right?

No response. Maybe she’s still walking. But she said she was near her dorm, right? What if something happened to her? Let me try and call her again.

Damn! Her phone is off!

Okay Yoonoh, don’t panic. Her phone probably died or something. Nothing is going to happen to her.

To: QueenPeach

Can you at least text me and let me know you got back safe? I’m kind of worried.

From: QueenPeach

Just got back. Phone died and I’m now charging it. I’m tired so I’m just going to head to bed. Have a good day and I’ll talk to you whenever. Okay?

To: QueenPeach

Get some sleep, okay? And cheer up. 😊 I don’t like it when you’re sad cause it makes me sad too. Okay? I love you!

I waited and waited for that I love you too but it never comes. I just put it down to her falling asleep. She’ll respond when she wakes up. I hope she will. I don’t know what I’d do if she doesn’t.

[sometimeslenwrites]

Bring Me Home pt5

Pairing: Jaehyun x Reader

Genre: I don’t really know. Is it angsty enough?

Warnings: None

Word Count: 1,385 words

A/N: I’m sorry it took so long for me to update! Work got really crazy and things were all over the place! Anyway, here’s Part 5 of Bring Me Home! I haven’t edited this yet. LOL! My usual proof readers are busy so if there are any errors, I’m so sorry! Tell me what you think? I might end this mini series on the next update but if you guys want me to keep going, just let me know! Also tell me how you’re enjoying the story so far! Feedback is always appreciated! Thank you!!

-Jaehyun’s POV-

“You should really start dating dude” my friend Johnny said. This has been the topic of our conversation ever since we met at orientation. Johnny is a couple of years older than me but we became good friends over the short amount of time we’ve known each other. He was my “senior buddy” during our orientation. It’s funny considering he wasn’t even a senior then.

“Not this again” I roll my eyes as I throw my towel at his face.

“Just look around dude. Every girl in this gym is drooling over you. All the girls around campus lose their mind when they see you walking around.” He said as he flails his arms around. “Look, how do you even know you’re still in love with your first love if you don’t even try dating other girls?” You looked at him unbothered.

“Wait no, that’s wrong. Let me rephrase that” Johnny attempts to save himself but you cut him off before he could even correct himself.

“Look, faraway or not, I’m just not ready to date yet. And I just haven’t really met anyone who’s caught my attention. Okay?” I sighed.

To be honest, dating was out of the question. If it wasn’t her, why bother? Don’t get me wrong, there are plenty of wonderful girls out there but I really only want one. I only need one. And she’s the reason why I’m working my ass off.

“Whatever man. All I’m saying is that if you’re closing yourself off, you won’t be able to move forward” Johnny gave you one last look and left for his class.

But I’m not closing myself off. I’m just saving myself for that one person. In ways, Johnny has a point. Of course thoughts have swam in my mind constantly. Thoughts like “what if I never see her again” and “what if she finds someone else”. We haven’t put any label on whatever it is we have but I just can’t bring myself to date just anyone else. Right now, all I really need and want is her. Just. Her.

-Your POV-

“So what do you say? Will you go out with me?” A boy named Wonwoo is asking you out. He’s been your thesis partner and you’ve gotten to know him quite a bit. You have to admit though, he’s amazing. Wonwoo is smart, funny and very mysterious. You’ve known each other for six months and it seems like you’re still finding new things every single day. You’d be lying if you say he’s not interesting, because he definitely is. You just can’t bring yourself to date anyone who is not Jaehyun.

“I’m sorry Wonwoo. Look, you’re amazing and anyone would be lucky to date you but..” you’re trying to reject him gently, your friendship on the line.

“But you’re not the lucky girl” he said with a soft smile that doesn’t quite reach his eyes. “You know, he’s very lucky” he starts.

“Who?” You’re genuinely curious because you’ve never once mentioned Jaehyun to anyone else aside from your common friends.

“Whoever it is you’re in love with! I hope he knows he’s got the best one out there.” He tucks a stray piece of hair behind your ear “really lucky.” And with that, he turns around and starts walking away from you.

“Why can’t I just let Jae go? It’s not like he’s here! It’s not like he wants me. At least, I think he doesn’t.” You’re having another internal argument with yourself and it’s frustrating you. You know your feelings towards the boy you’ve grown to call your home but you’re not sure about his. The word “love” has been thrown around so casually between you two that you have no idea if the meaning is the same.

You were about to put your earphones in when he calls you.

“Hey babe” he says with a cheerful smile. The smile you’ve grown to love and appreciate. The smile that has made your bad days end good.

“Hey you” you reply. You’re chest feels tight and it feels like you’re going to break down any minute. You have no idea why you feel so emotional all of a sudden. Is it because you miss him? Or is it because you think he only sees you as his best friend?

“What’s wrong? Are you still out? Y/N it’s late! I told you not to be out so late when you’re on your own.” He looks at you with worry and your heart starts skipping.

“I’m just around campus, don’t worry. I’m headed back to my dorm now” you tell him “I’ll be there in like five minutes.” It’s true. You’ve lived in the university campus since day one. You’re a few months away from graduating and you have no idea what to do with yourself next.

“That’s good. Stay on the line with me, just to make sure you can go back safe” he tells you. All you did was offer a smile and a nod.

“Seriously, what’s wrong? What’s going on in that pretty head of yours?” He asks you. He genuinely looked concerned and you can’t help the way your heart races.

“Nothing. Just a lot of things to think about. You know, graduation amongst other things” you contemplated telling him about Wonwoo. Mainly because every time you do, his demeanour changes.

“I’ve known you for so long, Y/N” he starts “you can’t convince me nothing is wrong when something is obviously bothering you”.

“Someone asked me out today.” Oh boy, here we go.

“What. Who?” His tone was firm.

“Wonwoo.”

“Oh.”

“I rejected him” you tell him. And you think you saw relief but he covered that up real quick. Maybe your tired eyes are just playing tricks with you.

“Oh!” He sighs. “Why?”

“Because…..” should you just confess?

“Because what?”

What if this goes bad? What if I confess and he doesn’t feel the same? What if distance has made things change? He said I was his first love but what if someone else has taken my place? Would I really want to risk it all?

“Never mind. Look, I’ll just call you back when I reach the dorm. Okay?” You we’re rushing to cut the call. Already making up excuses in your head on why you didn’t call him back. You were too tired and you fell asleep. Maybe you could say your phone died and your battery stopped working. No, that would make him panic.

“Wait! No!” he practically screams but you cut the call.

“Stupid! Stupid! Stupid!” You scold yourself. Why is it so hard to just tell him? Why do you have to make things so difficult? You have no idea either but maybe it’s better this way. Maybe it’s better if he doesn’t know anything, right? What he doesn’t know won’t hurt him. Right?

-Jaehyun’s POV-

“Did she just hung up on me?” I scratch my head. I’m so confused right now. She’s never done that before. Not even once. What’s gotten into her?

You send her a message:

To: QueenPeach

Hey, I know you said you’ll call once you’re back but I can’t shake the feeling that something is not right. Are you okay? You know you can always talk to me, right?

No response. Maybe she’s still walking. But she said she was near her dorm, right? What if something happened to her? Let me try and call her again.

Damn! Her phone is off!

Okay Yoonoh, don’t panic. Her phone probably died or something. Nothing is going to happen to her.

To: QueenPeach

Can you at least text me and let me know you got back safe? I’m kind of worried.

From: QueenPeach

Just got back. Phone died and I’m now charging it. I’m tired so I’m just going to head to bed. Have a good day and I’ll talk to you whenever. Okay?

To: QueenPeach

Get some sleep, okay? And cheer up. 😊 I don’t like it when you’re sad cause it makes me sad too. Okay? I love you!

I waited and waited for that I love you too but it never comes. I just put it down to her falling asleep. She’ll respond when she wakes up. I hope she will. I don’t know what I’d do if she doesn’t.

[sometimeslenwrites]

Sneak Peak

Here’s a little sneak peak of what’s to come. What is Jaehyun up to? Will there be a new girl in his life? How will that affect our girl? Wait, is our girl single? 😏 new update coming soon!

[sometimeslenwrites]

I know! I know! Haha! I’m sorry! There’s an update coming soon! I just got super busy cause I just got promoted and things kind of got crazy. Buuuut the update is coming soon. I’m still debating whether I should continue this series or end it! Lol!

Update

Hi guys!! I know I haven’t made an update but I am working on it! I’m contemplating whether I should end it or continue with a few more chapters! What do you guys think? Also I’m very curious on how you guys think it’ll end! It is my first fic out there so I’m super nervous about this haha!!

I also just want to say thank you to those who continuously support my mini series!! You guys are amazing!! I will try to put an update up this weekend! But let me hear what you all think :)

[sometimeslenwrites]

Update

Hi guys!! I know I haven’t made an update but I am working on it! I’m contemplating whether I should end it or continue with a few more chapters! What do you guys think? Also I’m very curious on how you guys think it’ll end! It is my first fic out there so I’m super nervous about this haha!!

I also just want to say thank you to those who continuously support my mini series!! You guys are amazing!! I will try to put an update up this weekend! But let me hear what you all think :)

[sometimeslenwrites]

Bring Me Home pt4

Pairing: Jaehyun x Reader

Genre: Angst!

Warnings: None

Word Count: 709

A/N: Here is part 4 from the mini series! I am not going to lie, I struggled with this one. Haha! I believe we have one part left! I don’t know when it’ll be up because I’m back to work tomorrow. My schedule is a little messed up so I hope you can wait! I’m halfway done with the final part but I want to make it really good.

-Your POV-

You lay in the middle of your floor crying your eyes out. “When did I become such a mess” you ask yourself. You don’t even know what came over you when you raised your voice at him. He was just trying to be sweet but here you were, ruining the mood.

It’s been amazing lately. Frequent text messages and video calls, all in an attempt to save whatever friendship you have left with the boy you know and love. The most painful part in all of this is the fact that you have this inkling feeling that it’s not going to last. You’ve managed to convince yourself that at some point in life, people move on. That’s a thought you hated but that’s also a thought you can’t push out of your mind. You’re young, but old enough to differ the reality that’s surrounding you.

When his day is about to start, yours is just about to end. Your mornings are his night, your beginning becomes his end. It’s all a jumbled mess but somehow you both managed to make it work. You’ve managed to make a routine of “late night calls” and “morning messages”. You laugh at yourself and the whole crazy situation.

You grab your phone and you start typing away.

To: PeachHyunie ❤️

I didn’t mean to just hang up on you and yell. I know you’re trying your best and I appreciate that. But I just want us to be real. We are miles apart with lives ahead of us. I don’t want you focusing on “coming back home” because let’s face it, there’s a high chance it may not happen. I pray every night for you to come back but things could be different one, two, three years from now. Please focus on yourself. Focus on your dreams and goals. Let’s keep going until we can’t go anymore. Okay? I love you, Jung Yoonoh. Yesterday, today and for all the tomorrows that will come.

You hit send. You don’t know why this is so hard for you. You’ve had this conversation with your mum so many times. “This is for his future, sweetheart” she would tell you. “It’s unfair but this is what’s best for him and his family. If we truly care for them, we will support them” she’d try to convince you.

That night as you lay in bed, your thoughts swam with the images of your best friend. “What have I done?” You internally cry. “I’ve made a big deal of something so simple. Why am I so stupid!” You groan as you hit yourself with frustration. You laid on your side facing your window. It’s funny how your blinds were never really closed unless you were changing and now, it’s closed ninety percent of the time. You reached for your lamp and pulled your covers up and decided to just call it a night. “I can’t inflict anymore damage than I already have” you whisper as you try your best not to cry again.

From: PeachHyunie ❤️

I understand where you’re coming from. But I swear I’ll see you again. It may not be tomorrow or this year. Or even the next but I swear I’m coming back for you. We’ll be alright, okay? I love you too, you little butthead drama queen. Thousands of miles is not going to bring Jung Yoonoh down. Not now, not ever. I mean come on, I’m captain America 😏😉 get some sleep, okay? I love you. And I miss you. So so much!

You kept reading his message over and over again. This brings so much joy and love but at the same time, it tightens your chest a little. He has always been the optimist between the both of you. Always the one to look at the brighter side of things. You want to believe all the words he’s saying but it’s scary. It’s scary to have to hold on to that and then just have it crashing right in front of you. But when has Jung Yoonoh let you down? Never.

So if he says he’ll come back for you, then he’ll come back for you. But when? That’s an answer you’re just going to have to wait for.