soony4h

[soony4h]

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[soony4h]

log i:

insanity. this is the type of insanity you see in drug addicts. i’m purposely going to try and make myself addicted to narrating my own fucking life life a supermodel is glued to laxatives and cocaine.

why, soonmi? you may ask. why do you want to be addicted to blogging and narrating your own life every day? consistently?

that’s why. i need to be consistent with SOMETHING in my life. personally i feel as though id thrive in a nunnery. i love consistency and structure, but im terrible at enforcing it upon myself. but today, on this humble tuesday, ladies and gentleman, i — your lovely narrator — will be delusionaly narrating my days out to you.

oh, another thing. i’m a firm believer in deluding yourself into success. i’m not the accurate, reliable, detached narrators of all those boring stories and movies you see. no, i am nelly. dare i say i am humbert humbert. i will mislead you and perhaps blatantly lie to make my day sound more sparkly. i will embellish, exaggerate, and exclude certain details. you, my dear reader, will be forced to guess what is real, what is fake, and what is warped.

but one day, the narrator will no longer have to embellish her words, will no longer have to make the day sparkle only in words because the universe will do it for her.

i will not narrate consistently. perhaps one day i am an outsider looking in. perhaps one day i am soonmi herself. maybe another i am an outsider perceiving a lamb a bit too intelligent, or a human a bit too animalistic.

through the glimpses i allow you see of me, dear reader, you will learn about me. you will not find me perfect, (i hope) nor irredeemable, but rather another person, someone far out in the world. an actual being with flesh and blood and consciousness, rather that the version of me in a screen you have seen before.

end narration.