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glorious

how does it feel to be adored?

how does it feel to be loved by you?

let me have a taste?

an ounce?

a sprinkle of your love

rain down on me

let me soak in your love

let me be seen in your light

let me bask in all your glory

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no water, no life. no blue, no green

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cacao ceremony 11/02/2024

My reflections during a cacao ceremony in nyc.

Cacao ceremonies promote feelings of completeness, ecstasy, and love.

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Grammy and Papa are together

They are still dancing in the clouds

and swirling together in the seas of hawaii

We are making monkey faces

I am curled up on Grammy's lap

I am picking her lemons and

we are making lemonade

She is giving me neck kisses

until I laugh and can't take anymore

Their love is unconditional

I see Papa singing "You are my sunshine"

with tears rolling down his freckled face

They are finally together again

and their love has never run out

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Mustard Plaid - Patrick Neal , 2008

American , b. 1966 -

Acrylic on canvas , 36 x 36 in.

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Lelies  22   -   Margot Olde Loohuis

Dutch, b. 1973  -

Oil on canvas , 80 x 120 cm

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My grandfather read our futures in the sand

It's no wonder

I can see without eyes

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when will love come?

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there is beauty in resistance

there is safety in community

there is discipline in our efforts

there is love in one another

focus on why you are here

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clench

Do you ever catch yourself balling up your fists?

Squeezing so tightly

Holding onto... nothing?

As if nothingness is what you are afraid to lose

As if you haven't lost every part of yourself already

Are you holding onto what is left of you?

Desperately aching to restore what is left

Clenching to soothe the touch you've been deprived of

The kind of touch you wanted all this time

Instead of the touch that was forced onto your small frame

When you realize your hands are aching from clenching so tight,

Are you able to release them?

Or is this your homeostasis, your norm?

Afraid to let go

Scared to lose even more of yourself

Trying to hang on to what remains

Will you ever rest again?