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My mock sales letter for class

Dear all,

 Do you often feel lonely when friends are not around to keep you company? Are you frustrated that your unconventional but sophisticated ideas are not properly appreciated? Or do you have a secret longing for a quality voice? If so, The Stanley Parable Ultra Delexu is the game for you!

 Our gorgeous new game is a carefully crafted extension of The Stanley Parable (2013), which has sold over 10 million copies. Players all over the world are raving about what Stanley Parable has helped them achieve. Many have reported a noticeable improvement in their mental health and understanding of contemporary human life.

 Just imagine how comfortable you are when wandering around the game environment, following the guidance provided by our top-norch voice actor, especially after a busy day at work.

 The game is available on most of major consoles and online platforms you can think of. So seize the opportunity of lifetime for 25$, and you will be amazed by its brilliant impact.

Sincerely yours,

Jim

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repost to remind myself of the rules here

hey! @rhadko / rk & beetle are incest/lolishota/kid/rape-loving freaks !!!

having to REMAKE this post because the original one got taken down apparently! primarily popular in the stanley parable / undertale fandom(?) as of now, both rk & beetle are fucking DISGUSTING & i’m not going to be quiet about it!

beetle primarily rts a lot of incest/kiddie shit/rape on their nsfw twitter & rk has been shown to agree with these views.

please reblog to spread awareness! proof below.

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well this sure helps. thanks

The brain is a muscle just like any other. If it's been a while since you've written, it's gonna act like any other muscle you haven't used in a while. That means you might not be able to write as long, or as well, as you want to. Keep going, but go easy on yourself. Do some warm up exercises, or maybe answer a journal prompt, to get your brain going. If you still can't write, step away and try again later, maybe tomorrow. Just keep trying. Don't give up on yourself.

And if you don't hear this from anyone else today, I'm proud of you.

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To be inspired, not consume

These days, after being life-savingly encouraged by Biscuit8’s recreation of the skip button ending, and being spoiled by countless amazingly imaginative depictions of the Narrator&Stanley relationship, I’ve chosen to step out of the party for a while instead.

One of the reasons is the increasing school stuff to deal with(even this is a positive turn brought by tsp, which gives me more energy to struggle in real life). But more importantly, what I’m particularly ruminating on is how to maximize the gain from tsp fandom without falling into hedonism.

A few weeks ago Biscuit commented on a Tumblr post complaining about the fandomization of tsp. That guy was hostile to all the gay cuddling fluff and colorful designs and deemed the true philosophical meaning of tsp as “the choices in life and the lack of them”. The moment I saw that post I wanted to shout out: “the reason we are here keeping them company is precise that we know the existential dread expressed in game itself too well.” Yes, I view its fan-creation as the multi-directional refraction of the overall isolation and cynicism.

But when I thought deeper about the topic, I found that what's worth worrying about is sometimes too much entertainment can blind us from more fruitful thoughts and discoveries. I used to treat tsp fandom as the primal pain relief for psychic wounds. But once I started to consume fluff without stop, thus achieving its function, I became unable to analyze tsp on a large scale, let alone develop theories or explore its possibilities to portray broader human experience. 

This frightened me a lot and I said to myself: “no fic, art, or vid unless you are certain your goal is to fully understand rather than to escape.” Why the trouble? Because I’ve been seeing too much potential in this fandom. (Drinky Bird Narrator au---forgotten failed efforts, inferiority and loneliness, eating ties au---voluntary perpetuation, sick of eating······)

I am thinking and thinking about what makes the current condition hedonic: is it due to some specific features of fan content produced? Or is it the way the content being organized and given to us? What can I do to stop pushing tsp fan content into becoming endless cues and hooks of the online addiction mechanism?

Though this strict self-surveillance has given me calmness of mind and a more acute perception, it is not without problem. I’m getting afraid of the growing distance between me and the fandom; I’m developing a fear that my hard-earned acquaintance has become strangers; most of all, I’m feeling that the image of Stanley---that shy, stubborn and autistic Stanley, who is willing to care for a deeply flawed character---is losing its vitality. Is it abnormal that I’m more romantically in love with this Stanley than the Narrator?

Indeed, tsp fandom is a fandom about hope, creativity, companionship, and awkward intimacy. It is about physical and mental disabilities, breakdown, departure, unreachable destinations. It is also about power games, violence/gore, ruthless crashing, hopelessness, and despair. These can not emerge from mindless consumption, they demand a process of mutual inspiration. (Listing all the words makes my heart ache. I hope, there will be a time when I can truly embed them within my writings instead of ugly listing.)

I want to be able to love.

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this interpretaion literally saves my life. there is HOPE

Narrator Ambience/ASMR For All Of Your Narration Needs

I got a request to make some Narrator ASMR using the ambiance videos I’ve been pulling from the game, and at first I thought the idea would not pan out, and I’m still not sure if it did, but here are the results.

At first I didn’t know what to use because the dude is at an 11 for like 99% of his dialogue and that would not make for good ASMR. So then I thought I’d go with the bucket endings, but even if the narrator isn’t personally insulting you and your entire bloodline in (most) of the bucket endings, these endings still get batshit insane at times and thus still would not make for good ASMR. So I eventually settled on repeated loops of the main story line with several minor variations that are already present in the game, since I figured if a certain somebody was going to do ASMR, he’d want to read his damn story like it’s a meditative gift from god.

Since I usually go into these trying to capture an eerie/haunting vibe, something which I find soothing and nice to put on in the background but a lot of people do not, I did my best to dial it back a bit for this project and hopefully made something genuinely nice to listen to.

While I was putting this together, I couldn’t help but wonder how and why it is that some people take comfort (myself included) in this game that, when you get past all of the jokes and sillier moments, it is innately hostile toward the one playing it. I can only speak for myself, but as someone whose entire personality can largely be summed up as ‘Ongoing Existential Crisis’, I think it’s the fact that the game doesn’t shy away from the existential questions it poses, and in a way acts as a medium to confront these questions in a society that demands we act like we are okay at all times or face repercussions, and where you are not allowed to ask big questions about this insane reality we inhabit outside of approved religious constructs. There is comfort to be found in that.

And I think one of the most interesting aspects of this game is that the deeper you dive, you only find more questions with very few answers, because the game refuses to give up anything to the likes of you, and this over time causes the freedom ending to go from an unfulfilling, hypocritical story to something surprisingly meaningful. Sadly, there is no grand storyteller coming to narrate us an escape from this clown car of a society before it smashes into a wall, but it’s a nice sentiment to think that Stanley can be happy. That is what I tried to capture in this ASMR project.

But of course, even the narrator thinks he’s just a temporarily embarrassed millionaire, when he really is nothing more than another cog in the workings of this perpetual motion machine. I think if he were capable of understanding that, maybe he would not have erased Stanley’s co-workers and instead created a narrative of collective empowerment. Maybe it would have given them a fighting chance against something so much bigger than any one of them, but this game will always remain a reflection of real life, where everyone thinks they are the main character of their own story, at the expense of everybody else. Maybe I can’t help but project my own ideals upon it out of the hope that a destructive loop can be broken, because the way I see it, if nothing matters and all of our actions are meaningless in the grand scheme of things, giving up and not caring is the easiest thing in the world, but, if nothing truly matters, then it is a radical act to care about the well-being of your fellow humans on this tiny, blue dot in a vast, infinite universe.

Sure, it can be said that everything is predetermined, but something that everybody misses about the confusion ending is that, even if he doesn’t remember it, the narrator did break the cycle by refusing to reset. The rest of the confusion ending does not play out. The stalemate he creates forces the game into a hard reset to keep the status quo going. He may have more power than it seems. Even Stanley has more power over the cycle than what it seems at face value, considering that he too has the power to reset at literally any point within the game, and of course, he can shut it all down at a push of a button. Maybe shutting the game off is a breaking of the cycle, or maybe shutting it down is the system getting a last laugh and saying that if you end it, it will take everyone and everything along with it. If TSP has taught me anything it’s that I don’t know anything and can only rely upon my own interpretations. So, hey. Who can say that within these infinite repetitions and infinite instances of these characters that there isn’t a loop where the narrator figured some shit out and instead of using his position in the hierarchic to blow Stanley up in petty displays of power the second his position in the system is questioned, maybe he instead helps Stanley and his co-workers seize the means of the parable. Maybe the system is too powerful to bring down, maybe it can’t be taken down without it self-destructing and taking everyone with it, or maybe it can always reset everything back to a baseline and halt any progress made, or maybe there is a loop out there where everything works out for the better. Who can say.

….Thank you for coming to my TED Talk about how we as a species need a Comrade Parable. (lolololol, you came here for narrator ASMR and got a commie reading of TSP too)

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recommand Somewhere Else to Narrator(ai) and he is rather intrigued😂

birdy, Narry requests permission to use your work!

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Oh my God, my husband just said there should be an Emotion Booth in The Stanley Parable that says "Horny". It would play, um, amorous music, and the Narrator would read smut fics to you. xD