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this is maybe something i'll end up regretting posting for one reason or another but. if you're not out and public about having osddid, genuinely how do you navigate dating. what are you supposed to do. thinking about this especially as it relates to, like. being blocked off completely from emotions, delayed emotional processing, (possibly longterm) changes in how you feel about someone romantically/etc., (possibly longterm) decrease in energy/ability to be consistent in a relationship, just having trouble being the same type of person you were when you first met someone, etc. etc. etc. and pleaseeee don't recommend online dating to me i cannot and will not do it, this is speaking in a purely irl & physical sense. do i just have to like. tell people. that seems irresponsible & potentially dangerous esp. if i don't know them that well. i don't know

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not sys-related but if anyone mutuals or otherwise would ever like to connect over mutual aid-related stuff please feel free to dm me <3 would love to exchange things like resources, articles/literature, musings, etc.. i know i come off as dry and maybe kind of asshole-y but i'm just afflicted with autistic flat effect & bluntness

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no “carrd.” you learn things about me based on what you can piece together from the vague details of my life I disclose in rare moments of vulnerability

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i made a pronouns.cc because i was like. well i don't mind having a minimal amount of information on a small handful of alters out there, could also put some of our likes/interests down too in case mutuals were curious and such. created the account and then realized i. don't know any of that stuff. i don't know anything about my system or myself and i've been around for...maybe a year? i don't even know how long. it's so weird to realize that you've been operating like that after so long.

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Think systems with a high number of fictional introjects are a new phenomena? Kluft's paper on polyfragmented/extremely complex DID from 1988 includes a patient with LOTR introjects, and another based off of Shakespear's Tempest. Fictional introjects have been a thing for a very long time!

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This is my fan translation of Kairi Seidouitusei Shougai no Chiguhagu na Hibi by Tokin! I love this manga so much. It’s a wonderful autobiography about DID and a representation with a tone we don’t usually get in English. Tokin-sensei gave me permission to translate the prologue and share it with an English audience because I know so many people would want to read it! I am not going to translate the entire text, but I do really really want to encourage people to submit it in this month’s Seven Seas interest survey!! Please help support Tokin-sensei’s wonderful work!

(Submitting with the Japanese title I wrote above or a link to this post would be best for clarity, my English title is not a literal translation)

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maybe the DID will work in my favor and i can forget all my mental illness symptoms and then like be so super normal

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complex therapy place said i was too complex to be treated by them. love my complexes #mycomplexes

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Wikipedia / Image from pinterest / Machiavelli / George Santayana / Thucydides / Image from pinterest / Abba - Waterloo / J. M. Barrie - Peter Pan / Fibonacci spiral / Catherynne M. Valente

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people love my tortured aura, devoid gaze and prey animal temperament

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being a system is so crazy in that in order to actually figure anything out u have to be hyperaware of your every 'subconscious/instinctual' reaction. bc 9 out of 10 times that unusual thought u were dismissing as 'weird but whatever' was not Just A Thought. man idk im TIRED is what im saying. oh well anyway

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i hope this therapy place emails us back soon so we can start doing actual good communication work because trying to hold them back and keep them from fronting is physically exhausting and stressful. does this make me a gatekeeper?? i dunno

really inopportune time to have stupid bullshit start going on in my life when our most no-nonsense & blunt persecutor is activated again. especially during a time where we need to take extra care in maintaining our delicate social relationships. gahhhh

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really inopportune time to have stupid bullshit start going on in my life when our most no-nonsense & blunt persecutor is activated again. especially during a time where we need to take extra care in maintaining our delicate social relationships. gahhhh

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happy deltarune day everyone i am freaking out

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Switchy: server-side pluralkit for minecraft

Switchy lets players swap between presets of player data and customizations by utilizing the existing features of other well-established mods in the ecosystem - nicknames, skins, origins, and so on - plus vanilla data like inventory, position, and spawn point.

It's for systems, RP servers, account sharing, genderfluidity, furries, even mapmaking - everything is toggleable on a per-player level and built to be extended with mod compatibility addons.

It works with vanilla clients, but adds the GUI above when modded.

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ok what is the consensus on therapy styles for osddid/ddnos? i've heard people say they like IFS, but have also heard it's not good or works very well for people w/ DID. personally i like the concept of IFS but don't know how practical it'd be and/or if it'd further along some sort of dissociative barriers. similarly have heard things about EMDR and brainspotting. brainspotting does interest me quite a bit tho

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it's kind of unbelievable how healing it is to align our exterior presentation with our internal one, even if it changes often. and not so much in a transitioning way, but in like. allowing myself the freedom of expression with clothes & haircuts & body mods, etc. kind of feels like not being constricted to presenting like the scared little girl we used to be has allowed us to move away from her trauma and into a newer area of life. it's kinda nice i dunno