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When trans women are mocked and made into jokes in the media, I get very upset, and I am often told “Kay, you can’t go through life getting offended every time someone makes a joke.” And I sputter and object but they don’t hear me. So I want to be clear for once, about why the jokes make me angry.

I learned to hate myself for being transgender before I knew I was transgender. I laughed at the jokes in stand up comedy routines, and prime time sitcoms, and animated comedy shows, and in the movies, and in books, and in games, laughing at trans women for existing, about “men in dresses”, about people who “got their dicks chopped off”, and I learned to think that was worthy of ridicule.

And then a day came when I felt a pang of envy at what my female classmates were wearing and I repressed it, and felt guilty, and a day where I felt incomplete because I had no breasts and I repressed it and I felt disgusting And a day when I realized the only images of romance that made me feel anything showed two women together and I repressed it and I felt like a monster And a day when I realized I felt sick when I looked at myself in the mirror after every shower before work and couldn’t bear to look at my own face, and I hated myself. And then there came a day when I hated myself so much, and I thought I could never understand why, and so I just wanted it all to end. And it was just a miracle that I swerved my car back into my lane in time.

And all of it started with a joke that I heard on TV, and then kept hearing from all the voices from the ether, over and over and over, worming an idea into my mind before I was old enough to realize I was absorbing it, the idea that a man in a dress is funny, and that changing your body parts makes you a freak, and that women who have penises instead of vaginas are liars and hurt men. And they’re still making these jokes. And somewhere out there right now, just like all those years ago, there is a little girl in a t-shirt and cargo shorts with buzzed off hair watching the TV, hearing that joke and absorbing it without knowing it, who will someday have to pry herself apart to tear it out of her head, just like I did.

That is, if she doesn’t kill herself first.

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Transcript: "Nice outfit, dork." "'Cause I figure, if there is intelligent life out there, then let's teach them how to duel! [laughter]"

Please do not spoil who the character or voice actor is in the replies or reblogs. Thank you

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its not funny but i do think about it a lot

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What kind of stage...........?

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zero braincells

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samus's pursuit of a photo

rest under the cut

some writers notes below. thanks for readin

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it was kinda weird they had a trick question for the second puzzle but you gotta admit that its memorable

honestly a favourite of mine

Screw the present in a block of ice puzzle

All my homes hate the present in a block of ice puzzle

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By the way "some aroace people still date and have sex" and "it's weird how internet spaces makes every single aroace character romance and sex favourable" can and should co-exist. Sincerely, an aroace person

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the ace attorney fandom really has an entire day dedicated to celebrating the main character's entire life and career going to shit i love that for them

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I'm pregnant and I don't give a fuck whos it is

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Nerd

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i think draiwng images is impossible and everyone is playing some kind of tricks

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now that's commitment

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That Man! An Ace Attorney Fan Comic

More under the cut!

I really liked AA:I, so I had to make a silly comic about it (it probably breaks canon somewhere, but I'm okay with it!). Ace Attorney really inspired me to become a writer/comic artist, so I wanted to give back to the franchise. Hope you enjoy.

Full PDF version here!