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ABOUT TIME (2013) dir. Richard Curtis

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Imagine finding both love and friendship in one person

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The Irish man walked in and turned back to look at her. "I didn't come here to fuck you, Bambi. This is our city and I needed to see you. " He watched her walk to the bed, clearly upset that he had popped up out of nowhere. "It doesn't matter how I found you, or who told me where you were. They knew I wasn't coming here to hurt you." He would never give his contact up because they would get yelled at. "Aren't you just a little happy to see me?" He asked as he sat on the edge of her bed and played with Lucky's foot. Her childhood teddy bear that always made her feel safe and she took everywhere with her. Few probably remembered that but Barry did. He remembered it on their bed every morning and on their dresser at night. "The other night wasn't supposed to happen but it did and it did for a reason. We still love each other, isn't that enough reason to try again?" His hand moved to her covered leg and have it a small squeeze. "Am I wasting my time, thinking maybe you could forgive me and us go back to us? I know you're confused, I am too but one thing I'm not confused about is that we love each other." She hadn't had anyone in her room which was a good sign to him. He didn't want to think she could forget him so easily even though six months had passed. "Doesn't' me coming all this way tell you anything?" His blue eyes connected with hers and he sighed softly and reached to rub his thumb over the top of her hand as she held the bear. He couldn't help to smile a small smile thinking how she called him Bear. "All you have to do is trust me one more time with your heart." Leaning his hand moved and rest on her chest where her heart was.

After the fashion show, Sabrina got to her hotel. she took a quick shower put pajamas on and then crawled into bed. It wasn't late, but she was still jetlagged and tired. She wasn't sure how long she had been asleep for before there was a knock on the door. Figuring it was someone from her team, she got out of bed and walked over to the door. she didn't have time to process who it was before she felt lips on her mouth. Her hands went to his chest and she pushed him off just as he pulled back. She blinked a few times, it was now registering her brain who it was. Barry. "What are..." She paused as she went into the room and shut the door. She closed her eyes before she opened it again a second later. "How did you find me? Who told you what room I was in?" She hadn't really spoke to him since their last night together. Mainly because she was still working her feelings through it. When he had left that morning she was so confused about what she was feeling. He had hurt the worst out of all her exes, but there she was wanting him. Maybe she liked the pain that these red flag guys had. Sabrina let out a sigh as Barry spoke, he wasn't wrong. Paris was where their relationship started, it was where they met. It held a special place in both of their hearts. She moved out of the way so he could come in, and she shut the door once he was. "We're not fucking. I'm keeping my clothes on, legs are staying closed." Sabrina knew him well, and she wanted to set boundaries right away. She warned as she pointed at him before she walked back over to the bed and crawled onto it. Pulling the covers over herself, she grabbed Lucky off the side of the bed and placed him on her lap. "What do you want, Barry?"

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The plane touched down in Paris and Barry made a few calls to people he knew that would know the information that he wanted. He arrived at the hotel and went to the elevator and hit floor 6. He was practicing what to say when he arrived but shook his head. "No it needs to come from the moment not what I think I need to say." The elevator chime signaled that he had arrived at the floor intended and he walked out and down the hallway. He stopped a in front of her rooms door and stood for a second before knocking. As the door opened he didn't give her time to say anything and just kissed her. "Bambi, I know I shouldn't be here but I needed to see you, talk to you and this is where it started. Can I come in, please?" He stepped back out of her personal space to let her decide what she wanted. @carpxbrina

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You think I like to see you hurting? I don't. I hate myself for how I did you if that makes you feel better. I'll make sure you're the first to know and you can be my date to the premiere if you want. Neither of us want anyone touching the other so we could take a leap of faith. We agree you're mine and I'm yours, so is it crazy to try again? We can't go back but we can move forward together if you want to. It's not a problem if you don't want it to be. Come on Bambi, let's let that night be a restart for us.

That is funny, I feel like it was the opposite. Gonna have to keep me clued in, gotta be the first one in line to watch it when it comes out. I am your girl. I don't know, I think part of me would hate to see you with someone else. Even thinking about it just doesn't feel right. Yeah, if only you thought about it then. The european shows were more recent after the breakup. I don't want to forget about the other night, though. That's the problem.

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Not the crying himself to sleep thing. I seem to have a habit of breaking hearts. Sorry but my world fell apart, I got busy with movies and I'm trying to fix the mess I made. Substance wise, law wise, no. Love wise, yes. I know I was a jerk when I cheated on Sabrina, I really did love her and I still do but you know I've always had commitment issues. The other night, I went to a bar and she came in which I was dreading the whole face to face confrontation again but it wasn't like that. She was flirting with me and asked me to our house. Long story short, we slept together...made love, not fucked and she said she still loved me. I thought she was drunk and didn't mean it but she's sober now and still saying it. I love her too and want her back but she's scared I'll hurt her again. So I just touched down in Paris to go see her and try to talk to her about it again.

" That's exactly why I did. I don't need a party, I'm fine with how I celebrated. Remy misses you too, in fact he told me. I caught him crying himself to sleep last night because you haven't visited him in a while. You're breaking his heart. A lot going on? You're not in trouble again, are you? "

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You holding out on me when you know I love throwing birthday parties. I miss your dog and promise to come over when I can just a lot going on right now. I like doing both depending on the situation and if I'm spending it with someone.

" Yesterday was my birthday, and I wish I could say I spent the entire day celebrating. But, in reality I just stayed at home with my dog. Am I boring? Are you someone who likes to go big for your birthday? Or is it the more lowkey, the better? " - @starletsstarters

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barrykeoghan: fun night in paris at the dior show.

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if i annoy you please tell me and i’ll leave you alone because nothing sucks more than being unsure of whether someone enjoys your company or not

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He laughed and playfully pushed her lightly. "Those are expensive shoes and you did sing to a lamp before so you're a little nuts and I wouldn't put it past you to lob a lamp at me." He winked as he ran his fingers down her chest. "The only big head I have is on my cock and you wouldn't want to damage that since you need it." He could feel her shiver at his touch and leaned up to kiss her. "Just like I need you." He knew she was right and the media would of had a field day if he had gotten near her. "It wouldn't have so I put you first and didn't do it." Nodding he smiled and ran his fingers down to her abs. He always loved her body and made sure she knew it. "She didn't say anything, probably wishes she was you. You're prettier than she is. She didn't mean anything to me, it was just a fuck not like us. I know you feel it as much as I do or maybe I want to think you do but we just made love after six months and it's like nothing changed. The feelings are still there." He couldn't tell if she was being sarcastic or not about it making her feel better that he was thinking of her while fucking the other woman. She was witty and sarcastic at times but he hoped it told her that he wanted to be with her that night instead of who he was with. "I'm not going to say that I'm sorry that you love me because I'm not. I want you to love me and when you walked in that bar, I expected you to walk back out when you saw me, cuss me out or slap me." Corey probably knew that and so he didn't fight her on it. He had known her for thirteen years and knew how stubborn she could be when she wanted to do something. "Sarah will understand once you talk to her and tell her how you feel, we feel." Her next words caught him off guard. "That's what you want, Bambi? He sighed as she rolled off of him and let her curl up next to him. He put his arms around her and kissed her softly. "I'll hold you while you sleep." He assured her, not sure if he would get up and leave once she drifted off. He ended up falling asleep with her in his arms only waking when the light started to shine through the curtains. He looked at their naked bodies laying together and then got his phone to look at the time. Sarah would be arriving soon so he knew he had to go so Sabrina didn't get in trouble. "Bambi, you need to get up." He didn't want her to think he just left her alone during the night. "Sarah will be here soon so I'm going to get dressed and go." He gently kissed her lips and stroked her cheek. "No matter what happens from here, just know I love you. " He got out of their bed and got dressed then headed out of the house. Life had just thrown them a curve ball and he had no idea what was going to happen.

"I wouldn't throw my high heels at you. That would damage them," she paused as a small smile curled along her features. "A lamp though. That'd be going straight for your big head," she teased. She loved that they could still joke around each other, but she wasn't sure if that was just because of the alcohol or just their personalities crashing together again. This time in a good way rather than when they were fighting all the time. She felt the chills run down her spine as his hands rubbed along her bare back. "Not approaching was a good idea. I don't think it would have ended well for either of us." She rose an eyebrow, a small laugh escaping from her lips. "You called her my name? Did she get mad and push off? Or just went with it? Honestly, she probably would have roleplayed as me just to get you." They didn't look a lot a like, except that they were both blondes. "But yes, that obviously makes me feel better to know that you were thinking and picturing me while fucking someone else." She let out a sigh, lifting her shoulders in a shrug. "I do love you, and that's the problem. I can't get over you, it's like you put a damn spell on me. I never would have let Corey pick me up. I would have thrown a massive fit and someone would have called the cops on him." She replied. She had wanted to talk to Barry, so she was gonna go down without a fight. She probably would have been fine once she got back into the car. "Sarah isn't ever gonna leave me with Corey again if she finds out this happened." And she probably would. Sabrina could never lie to Sarah. She was her best friend, they told each other everything. "You need to fall out of love with me, Bear." She said softly, unsure if she actually wanted him to. She wasn't sure if she could fall out of love with him. She leaned up and kissed him softly. "Will you hold me until I go to sleep?" She asked as she rolled off him. She laid down next to him, her back facing him."You can stay the night or leave. But you should be gone before Sarah gets here. We're having breakfast in the morning," she yawned as she settled in next to him.

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Funny thing is I hate to see you hurting to even when I'm the one causing you pain. Could happen but there's a lot more to be discussed. Our names are floating around there but nothing definite. It's hard not to be with you. You're my girl, like it or not and it's weird seeing you with someone else when it should be me walking in with you. Did you want me to be with someone else? I suppose that is a way to get over you but maybe I don't want to get over you. I think of it as cheating when I think about being with someone else. If only I thought about it like that when we were together. Why the European shows and not the states? So we forget about the other night and try to move on with other people?

It did, she trusted you as much as I did not to hurt me. And Paloma hates to see me hurting. You and Joey in a movie together? Well, that'll be fun to see. You are possessive, I've always liked that about you. Because it's an honest question, I can only imagine the woman you've been with over the past few months. Oh, so you haven't been with anyone? Glad that I'm finally in the back of your mind. I would have definitely had my security kick you out if I would have known you were at any of the Europe shows. I don't trust you not to break my heart.

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WHO’S THE CUTE BOY WITH THE WIDE BLUE EYES AND THE BIG BAD MM LIKE???

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"Then he would stay until she sobers up and throws her high heel at him." He cracked a smile and lightly stroked her face with his thumb. He had noticed she hadn't changed beds but then she may not have been home enough to get a new bed. He wanted to think that it made her feel close to him to sleep in the bed they had shared so many memories in. His other hand slide along her naked body stroking her side. It wasn't to try to make love to her again but more a loving gesture as they spoke of what just happened and the future. He saw the mix of love and lust in her eyes and was sure she could see it in his, two oceans as blue as the sky mixing. He had often joked their kids would have the prettiest blue eyes in the world, how could they not? "I wanted you so bad that night but wasn't going to approach you with everyone there and the media all over the place watching us." She was just as possessive as he was which was one reason it had hurt her so much when he cheated. "Good complications? Like taking you out on a proper date again and letting people talk? I never meant to be unfaithful to you. You were the last person I wanted to hurt. Does it make you feel better that I called her your name?" He didn't know how she would take that but he wanted to be honest with her about it. "It has to mean something. We didn't just make love for no reason. I'm not asking you to be my girlfriend, I know that may never happen but I don't want to go months or maybe forever without you in my life." Barry rarely got drunk, his culture drank all the time and so it was like water almost to him. He was speaking from his heart. "You love me, Bambi. You should have ran as fast and far away as you could. Corey should have thrown you over his shoulder and made you leave...but now here we are naked in our bed talking about where we go after making love to each other again. We're under each other's skin, in each other's blood and I don't know how to undo that but most of all, I don't want to. I want you to be mine and make all your dreams you told me, come true. "He smiled as she lay her chin on his chest. "I'm never going to fall out of love with you."

She paused, just staring into his blue eyes for a moment. "What if she ends up not wanting him to leave?" The words slipped out so easily. She didn't want to give him false hope . Mainly because she knew herself and sober her would have kicked him out of the house before he had a chance to dominate her. But now that they were here, naked, and made love.... yes, made love, she wasn't sure. Her feelings for him were slowly floating back in. She couldn't take her eyes off of his, and she was sure he could see the love and lust that filled them. "We just made out. Was too drunk and tired to do much of anything else. If I remember right, we got close." She nodded at the mention of her hating it, and she probably would. She never liked anyone else touching him. Someone could look at him and she would get annoyed. She had always been hers, and hers only to touch. Even if he proved that wasn't true time and time again. Her hands rested against his chest, moving down to his abs as she got comfortable on top of him. "You could start giving me good complications to my life, you know. I never cared that you made things hard for me, I love chaos and complications. I just hated the unfaithfulness. I started questioning everything. When you were on your phone and would leave the room, who you would be talking to." she said softly, she moved so her chin was resting against his chest, and she was looking up at him. "I don't know what we're doing either. I don't want to say this means we're getting back together. I don't know if I'm there yet," She said honestly. She was scared if this turned into more that she would eventually get hurt in the process. A small smile crossed her features, and she pressed a kiss against his chest. "I missed you too, Bear. I missed us," she said honestly. She could feel herself sobering up already, she had definietly worked off the alcohol that was in her system. But she wasn't hiding her feelings anymore. She had done that for months now. She did miss him, she missed coming home to him. Curling up on the couch every night to watch a movie. The jokes that they would make to get each other laugh. Feeling loved by him. All of it. "I don't think I could ever hate you the way I should and that's the problem. I should already hate you to the point that I would have walked out of that bar instead of walking to you."

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I know and think it hurt her almost as much as it did you. She wanted you to have finally found your soulmate. You for the most part as well as movies. Might be in one together soon. I'm surprised but I'm glad. You know how possessive I am. Why did I know you were going to ask me that? Surprisingly no. Every time I even think about it, you're there in my mind reminding me what I did and that if I had been faithful that we would still be together. I did but didn't want you to know. I wasn't sure how you would feel about it and I didn't want to throw you off focus. Bambi, no one was a better girlfriend than you. It was scary how good things were going and how much you loved me. God I hate that word. I think we did too but the question now is where do we go from here? I still love you but are you ready to try and trust me not to break your heart again?

I'm sure you guys could get along well again. She'd play nice if I ever decided to actually get back together with you. I saw you guys together, but wasn't sure what you were talking about. should have figured it was about moi. She's right, I haven't been with anyone since we broke up. I've been a bit too busy to really date, y'know. Needed time to try and heal my heart. Have you been with anyone? I'm not mad at her, I won't even let her know that you told me. Your secret is safe with me. You came to some of my shows? It's hard not to blame myself sometimes. Like I know it's all you, but sometimes I'd let the thoughts wander in. It was a very special night. I think we needed it more than we knew. I don't what it means, I guess that we both still love each other.

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♡ SABRINA CARPENTER & BARRY KEOGHAN please please please music video bts

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And Paloma and I used to get along so good but that's when I was treating you right. I talked to Joey that night trying to get some gossip on if you were seeing anyone. She said you weren't which I was happy to hear but then told me not to tell you she said anything. I think it slipped out and she didn't mean to say anything. Don't be mad at her. I don't want to put this on you. I came to some of your shows when I wasn't working. Would I have liked you home more or on set with me? Yes but we both have careers we love and you had to tour to promote your album. I want to say I would have been faithful since you would have been with me but my past makes me doubt myself. Don't do that Bambi, don't blame yourself to make it less my fault. It was all my fault and I own that. It was a special night that I'll always remember. I enjoy hearing it too even if I'm not sure what it means.

I was very embarrassed in the aftermath of it all. I'm pretty sure Paloma and Sarah were holding back, 'i told you so's. I get it. It was weird going to the Met without you. To not have you next door while I got ready. Would things have been different if I wasn't touring? Like if I was home more, would you have been faithful? Or would the end result been you cheating? I keep thinking if I did something different, maybe something would have worked out. I do know that. The other night just proved that, for both of us. Guess I just like to hear it.