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haven't felt right in a week and i'm thinning out.

and it hurts bad, i gotta get back.

hot head and dreamless sleep, i could just slip down and on the wrong track. i gotta get back.

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lately i wake up feeling fucking freaked, 'cause every time i fall asleep i see you and someone new under the cherry blossom tree.

we're gonna fall in love again someday. i think it's best you stay the fuck out of my way. i try to fix it until something breaks, i hope you're happy with the choice you made.

you're gonna wanna be my friend one day. i think it's best you stay the fuck out of my way. i hold you tighter until someone breaks. i hope you're happy with the choice you made.

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it doesn't matter what i say if you don't say anything in response. the final phrase of my last sentence hangs in the air, sounding stupider and stupider.

why can't you at least laugh? i tried so hard to find the right words. but it's a matter of timing, you only have so long to capture the feeling before it's gone.

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this place is a prison and these people aren't your friends...there's guards at the on ramps armed to the teeth...you are not permitted to leave.

i know there's a big world out there like the one i saw on the screen, in my living room late last night. it was almost too bright to see. i know it's not a party if it happens every night. pretending there's glamour and candelabra when you're drinking by candlelight.

what does it take to get a drink in this place? what does it take, how long must i wait?

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why is it so hard to speak with people i don't know? is it something that you learn when constantly alone? when did i become a man trapped inside a ghost?

if you could only see me now, i know i'd disappoint somehow. i'm stuck inside a fantasy where i could be all you would need.

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you'll keep your doors and windows shut and swear you'll never show a soul again. but isolation pushes you 'til every muscle aches, down the only road it ever takes. but everybody's scared of this place. they're staying away. your little house on memory lane.

if it's your decision to be open about yourself be careful or else.

i'm comfortable apart, it's all written on my chart that i take what's given me most cooperatively. i do what people say and lie in bed all day absolutely horrified. i hope you're satisfied.

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no one means what they say and you can tell as clear as deep-sea fish, all internal organs and glowing eyes.

i've been good, i've been busy. i've realized my friend's true intentions. cut all ties.

...when they let you down on cue, when you give up way before you even try. you know you've got the jitters.

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i don't really wanna know, don't ask me how's my day's been. i just wanna be alone.

stop talking about your past, i don't wanna hear it, just go.

only care about myself, 'cause everyone's trying to hurt me.

just leave me alone.

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I used to think of ferris wheel light sounds

The friday hum of neons and blue

But now they're like circular cages

Of grated tin and rusted wind

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i wonder what i'd be if all these bad things didn't happen to me

why'd you do this to me, i was your baby

you made me

you made me

you made me

you made me

you made me

you made me

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she hopes i'm cursed forever to sleep on a twin-sized mattress, in somebody's attic or basement my whole life.

never graduating up in size to add another

and my nightmares will have nightmares every night.

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i recall our codependence. i was always feeding you.

never ever leaving you alone.

we'd never be separated. i could never function all alone.

you're survived by a portion of my life but that's all you get. and i hope you stay dead.