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M2 Evaluate: A Peer, This A Peer

If your fingers have not made contact with any device, or if your eyes were not dry from competing in a staring contest with the monitor, are you even teaching in this pandemic-pushed distance education? Whether we like it or not, we may just have to cling to our gadgets for a couple of years as we still blindly navigate the 2020’s kind of learning. Elmali et al. (2020) found out that preschool teachers and computer education teachers mainly use their gadgets for communication and social media purposes. Their difference is that the former more often use it for music listening purposes, and the latter tends to read news more. Since teachers are stuck with them, or maybe taking out a loan to purchase new ones, these gadgets hold secrets to the key of making teachers’ lives easier. This game of searching will be made easier if teachers remind themselves of their lifelong partners in delivering quality education since day one: their own peers.

It should be made clear that, even though teachers have a channel to teach their lessons (Microsoft Teams, Discord, and Google Meet to name a few), this is not considered as genuine online learning. A learning management system and utilization of ICT tools are surefire ways to differentiate online learning from traditional, face-to-face learning. And we have to address this as soon as we can because, until students of all ages are not able to meet each other again in the physical classroom, sitting in front of a laptop will eat out the depleting student motivation and engagement. Design agency, personalization, and creativity should be present in ICT-backed pedagogies (Lang et al., 2017). With this in mind, it is commendable that the International Society for Technology in Education assures every teacher that by engaging in professional growth and leadership, these to-be-acquired knowledge and skills benefit all educational stakeholders.

During our last in-service training, it was purposely allotted for ICT integration. I felt an urgent institutional direction that my colleagues should, at least, challenge themselves and comfortably try out even one ICT tool to upgrade our way of teaching. Even our school administrator was convinced that for this school year, a criterion in our annual evaluation is created just for masterful ICT integration. I can say that ISTE Standards for Teachers 5a is somehow achieved as the INSET 2020-2021 was filled with guided practice from our TLE teachers who have been the go-to persons for anything computer-related. These teachers were there to selflessly guide us during the March 2020 Community Quarantine lockdown up to the present. Without their missionary spirit, most teachers, if not all, would definitely garner an impression that ICT tools are just an extra burden in teaching.

By having our own local learning community, certain instances happened. In those learning sessions with our TLE teachers, it was evident that there are different paces of teacher participation; some decided to just watch the whole session without trying out the applications. I believe that my colleagues are very much open and patient in trying out new things and they know for themselves that they must upgrade their skills. It's just that they prefer face-to-face training. These seasoned teachers need more support in such implementation (Lang et al., 2017). For me, I can surely go along with the pace of instruction but I am having a hard time in matching the right application to the subject's topic. I also believe that even in distance education, teacher-centered discussion should be a big no, but time is of the essence here.

Lang et al. (2017) recommended that, in these situations wherein some individual teachers are having a hard time in absorbing the new ICT knowledge and skills, one-on-one mentoring should be done. Therefore, these ICT-focused INSET should never be left and done in the beginning of the school year, but I also recommend this be given as modules for teachers. It is a gospel truth that no stark transformation will be done in just a couple of days, so every teacher should be given the appropriate guidance and time in order for them to comfortably and confidently use ICT tools. So, in the second school year in this tumultuous times, teachers mentoring each other should be an overarching need amongst schools as in the previous school year, teachers have now the ample experience and expectations in handling online classes. It may be a shocker for some, but I also campaign that, besides students, no teacher should be left behind.

REFERENCES:

Elmali, F., Tekin, A., & Polat, E. (2020). A Study on Digital Citizenship: Preschool Teacher Candidates vs. Computer Education and Instructional Technology Teacher Candidates. Turkish Online Journal of Distance Education, 21(4), 251–269.

Lang, C., Craig, A., & Casey, G. (2017). A pedagogy for outreach activities in ICT: Promoting peer to peer learning, creativity and experimentation. British Journal of Educational Technology, 48(6), 1491–1501. https://doi.org/10.1111/bjet.12501

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Journal #1 - A Digital Divide, A Linguistic Bide

(This post details one of the causes of my mental breakdowns. I placed precursor sentences in bold letters as trigger warnings.)

It was always the elementary language teachers who were the strictest out of everyone about everything. I had to hold my book with my left hand, and it should be at my chest level, every time I was asked to read a passage in front of class. There was also the 45-degree between my feet, creating an isosceles triangle. My not-of-use right arm should be stiff and should lay flat on my side. If there is a grammatical error within the text, I should be able to correct it by saying out loud right there and then. Should I say more? Corporal punishment was still around in the early 2000's. Admittedly, I was only to sustain this perfect observance of reading until high school. There were lesser and lesser times and opportunities for reading aloud. Now that I am teaching, it was definite that reading would be the most used facet in language.

As a perfectionist, it is uncharacteristic of me to leave any loopholes with my delivery of learning and announcements. I know that such written pieces are crucial to learning as these educational materials can serve the teacher and the students as common grounds. That is why when parents and students raise their queries, most of them are angrily said, it casted doubt on my vision and execution of my system. I cried a lot in AY 2020-2021. My created safeguards in distance learning were like the mightiest narra trees who bowed to Signal #5 rains and winds. I was, at times, numb, or uninterested, or agitated. Floods of nighttime doubts carry my self-confidence away. And it was on loop. Needless to say, I had hoped that the general public should acknowledge that teachers, too, are victims in this pandemic. When these complaints are now relayed to me by my superiors, it triggers something in me. I did not have the chance to explain my delicately set of announcements and use of Google Sheets. The common dilemma with students right now is that they do not read instructions, or maybe, do not have a habit of reading in the first place. It is highly ironic that learners have a Reading subject in their elementary but their final grades are not mirroring the actual and simplest things in an online learning set-up. My classmates in MALED/MAFIL 211 may come up with plagiarism, parent-answered modules, or the perennial grammatical errors. But as a budding Filipino language teacher, I worry that even if we have all the learning management systems in our hand, or even if we have integrated all appropriate and student-friendly ICT tools, if the students do not read, or their parents or guardians do not have the ample five minutes to check school's announcements, everything else is in jeopardy. A lifelong skill is what is at stake when this is not addressed.

Right now, kilometers worth of extending patience once again is needed, upon the megameters I had in my prior three years of teaching. I anticipate that there will be tens, if not hundreds, of clarification requests for this school year, but to ensure that reading instructions is observed, I must never be tired in replying each and every reply saying, "Hello :) Kindly refer to the (date) post in our Google Classroom." I can also seek help from my class officers, who will be elected by next month. This is not to relieve me of my duties, but for them to be empowered to serve their classmates, and to collectively pass their Grade 7 subjects. I can also foresee future problems, such as their classmates ganging up on my class officers just because they're their peers. With that, I should comfort first my class officers and then address the issue with my advisory class. Respect is not given relative to age. It should be maintained at the same level from the Principal up to the school staff that they may encounter at school.

I dearly hope that this student empowerment-based solution will come to positive fruition, and I humbly think it is just right for the last journal for MAED LANG 211/MAFIL 211 to be an update on this first one.

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➳♡゛𝒕𝒔𝒖𝒌𝒊𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒎𝒂 𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒛𝒖𝒌𝒖 & 𝒂𝒎𝒂𝒔𝒂𝒘𝒂 𝒔𝒆𝒊𝒋𝒊, 𝒎𝒊𝒎𝒊 𝒘𝒐 𝒔𝒖𝒎𝒂𝒔𝒆𝒃𝒂

𝐩𝐥𝐬 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞/𝐫𝐞𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐮𝐬𝐞 ♡

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luca’s delivery service! 🐟 

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“I’m far above and beyond you” ~ Erina Nakiri

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So this has been stuck in my head ever since I heard it three days ago.

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Click. Check. Crack.

Every once in a while, mostly at 1 AM, I go click  on articles of pure, sweet romance just to check myself whether if I got an ounce of hope left for mine to happen before I totally crack.

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I was thinking about how Love Story was the first song of Taylor I’ve ever heard and how Taylor has never stopped singing it throughout the years and it led me to do this… Sorry not sorry.

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2015 iHeartRadio Awards

1989 album cover

22 music video

2015 BBMAs

WANEGBT music video

22 music video

Our Song music video

2014 VMAs

2015 VMAs

2014 ACMs

(top right) 2006 ACMs

2016 BMI Pop Awards

SHake It Off music video

IKYWT music video

2016 Rockin’ New Years Eve

Red/Holy Ground/State of Grace performance

New Romantics performance

22 peformance at the 2013 BBMAs?

WANEGBT music video

AYHTDWS performance

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oh i remember.

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IF YOU’RE LUCKY ENOUGH TO BE DIFFERENT,

DON’T EVER CHANGE

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Patay Na Si Hesus {A Film Review}

Ang Patay Na Si Hesus ay ang unang pelikula na napanood ko mula sa Pista Ng Pelikulang Pilipino. Sa katotohanan, sa isang advanced screening ko ito naabutan, humigit-kumulang tatlong linggo bago pa magumpisa ang PPP. Sa kadahilanang ito tumaas ang aking antas ng pananabik kung ano ang maihahanda ng kauna-unahang PPP.

Sa mga unang sandali ng pelikula, mayroong sumagi sa akin na posibilidad na baka sobrahan nito ang pag-aarte kaysa sa nararapat. Ngunit sa hindi inaasahang bagsak ng kamao ni Iyay sa kanilang mesa, nakuha ni Iyay (Jaclyn Jose) nito ang aking saloobin kung dapat kong ibigay sa kanya at sa kanyang pamilya ang buong atensyon ko hangga’t natapos ang PNSH.

Dahil pinanood ko ito sa isang munting pook (Ili-Likha Artist Village) (P.S. Ang hirap tumawid sa maliit na malaalambreng tulay para makapunta sa teatro!!!), mas madali akong naging kumportable sa paligid ko. Sa tuwing tatawa ako sa isang eksena, lagi akong may kasabayan na humahalakhak dahil nga hindi naman mahirap na intindihin ang komedya na ibinabato ng mga tauhan sa manonood. Sinigurado ko sa mga pamunuan ng pelikulang ito na bawat manonood sa gabing ipinalabas ang PNSH sa Baguio ay nagbitiw ng mga salita bilang tugon sa mga linyang nabanggit.

Walang sandali sa pelikula na hindi gumalaw ang anumang muscle sa aking mukha. Lubha ko ngang nagamit ang aking noo, pisngi, at lalo na ang bunganga upang maipahayag ko ang aking saloobin. Kaya’t pagdating ng mga malumanay na eksena, nabibigyan ko ang aking sarili ng pagninilay sa mga maitutulad kong karanasan mula sa PNSH. Kung hindi naman sa pagninilay, inilalaan ko ang mga eksenang iyon sa paghahanda ng aking sarili sa isa na namang kabulastugan o twist sa kwento.

Mga Tumatak:

1. Normalisasyon: May mga pribadong gawain at usapin na dapat manatiling pribado; ngunit sa kaso ng PNSH, ang pagsasantabi ng ilang segundo para sa dalawang eksenang tinutukoy ko ay marahil ang unang beses kong masilayan sa anumang pelikulang napanood ko man, gawa man ng Pilipino o hindi. Ang una ay baka ang populasyon ng kalalakihan lamang ang makakaintindi. Pagdating ng pangalawang eksena, ang PNSH ay naghatid lamang ng isa sa mga pinakamatalinong pagsagot sa isang tanong ng bata na karamihan sa atin ay pinapagalitan ang bata o iniiba ang paksa ng usapan. Nakakamiss tuloy ang lutong-bahay ni nanay :(

2. Antas ng dedikasyon: Saludo para kay Ms. Jaclyn Jose at Ms. Mailes Kanapi sa kanilang pageensayo sa pagkatuto ng pagsasalita ng Cebuano upang maging malatotoo, kung hindi buong 100% ang daloy ng komunikasyon sa mga tauhan para sa mga manonood na bihasa sa wikang Cebuano. Bonus na paghanga na rin sa kayod ni Ms. Jaclyn sa pagmamaneho ng kanilang multi-cab. Makes me wonder kung nasa isang dinner si Ms. Jaclyn tapos badtrip siya sa mga kasama niya kaya nagrarant siya sa kanyang sarili in Cebuano para maivent out pa rin niya ang kanyang damdamin pero di siya magmumukhang masama hahahaha.

3. Paghahabi sa mga eksena: Hindi biro na magkaroon ng maayos na daloy ng pagkukwento sa biyahe ng pamilya ni Iyay habang kaliwa’t kanan ang pagbato ng mga pinakarandom na eksena. Tila sa bawat pagpapalit ng eksena ay magpapahiwatig ng pakakaabangang linyang ibibitaw ng isa sa mga tauhan na naglalayong makuha ang tawa sa kanyang manonood. Kung susuriing mabuti, ang pelikulang ito ay simpleng koleksyon ng mga pangyayari sa mga tauhan habang sila ay pupunta ng Dumaguete. Ngunit kudos sa pamunuan ng PNSH dahil ang transisyon ay hindi pilit, at mapapaniwala ka na sa anumang sandali ng iyong buhay ay mabibisita ka ng suwerte, kamalasan, o ang pagbibiro ng tadhana. Nasa sa iyo na lamang kung papaano mo ito tatanggapin at mamumuhay sa karanasan na ipamamalas nila.

Bonus: Nagawa ng PNSH na ipakita ang mga iba’t ibang aspeto ng kulturang Pilipino, gaya ng sa burol, sa relasyon ng ina sa kanyang mga anak, sa mga magkakapatid, sa pamilya at sa alagang hayop. Plus points!

Mga Tataglayin Pa

1. Pagbibigay-linaw sa gym sessions ni Jay: Ito lang yata ang pasilip sa mga katangian ni Jay na walang relasyon sa kasalukuyang estado ng kanyang buhay. Paumanhin po sa spoiler!

2. Pagguhit ng rutang tinatahak nila: Bilang isang mamamayan ng Pilipinas na limitado lamang ang aking mobilisasyon sa pagitan ng mga lupain sa Baguio at Tarlac, makatutulong sa akin, at siguro sa iba pang mga manonood, kung dadagdagan ng isang mapa na magpapakita sa layo ng kanilang nilalakbay mula sa Kamaynilaan. Tiyak din ako na kung isasama nila ang suhestiyon ko, tiyak na papatok ang mga pook na tinampok sa pelikula, at makatutulong ang turismo sa paglago ng mga lugar na naging stopover ng pamilya :)

3. Silip sa buhay ng mga tauhan matapos ang burol: Kahit pasilip lang sa buhay nina Iyay, Jay, Jude, Bert, at lalong lalo na si Sister sa puntong nakarating sila sa kanilang dapat na kalalagyan ay ang curiosity ko sa pelikula na dapat kong maatim. Sa taglay na kakaibang katangian ng bawat miyembro ng pamilya, nasabik ako kung hanggang saan aabot ang pagkamalikhain ng scriptwriter para sa mga tauhan. Ngunit, sapat na sa akin na hindi nila tinuloy ang gasgas na ending ng mga roadtrip movies kung saan binigyan pa ng screentime ang kanilang biyahe pabalik sa Kamaynilaan.

Hanga ako sa diversity ng pamilya ni Iyay at kay Iyay mismo. Si Iyay ay ang tigasin mong nanay, o ng kakilala mo, ngunit pinapakita ang likas na aruga at instinct ng isang nanay sa mga nangyayari sa kanyang mga anak. Napagtagumpayan ni Jude ang kanyang mga pagsubok bilang tao. Kung wala sa eksena si Bert, si Jude ay ang nagsisilbing sandigan ng kanilang nanay at ni Jay. Mabuhay ang LGBTQIA+ community!

Kaya’t itong si Jay ang repleksyon ng mga taong kinakapitan palagi ng mga dahilan kung bakit siya dapat na maging malungkot, pero sila pa ang naghahatid ng mga ngiti  pabalik sa mukha ng kanyang mga mahal sa buhay. Kahanga-hanga din ang exposure na ibinigay kay Kuya Bert. At mas kahanga-hanga ang pagtrato ng PNSH sa mga katulad ni Bert. Ipinakita ng pelikula ang kawalan ng pangungutya sa mga nakasalamuha ni Bert; lalake man o babae, sa Luzon man o sa Visayas. Para kay Sister Linda, siya lang naman ang karakter na malaya, masaya, at random, ang pambansang Tita of Visayas, na siyang nagsilbing mansanas sa lechon na naghahatid ng saya at pananabik sa mga nakakakita dito, gaya ng Patay Na Si Hesus.

Ang pananaw at paglalahad sa daloy ng pelikula ay isang bagong ihip ng hangin sa kasalukuyang estado ng mga pelikulang komedya ng bansa. Napatunayan ng PNSH (kahit napagbulaanang isang lapastangan sa diyos dahil sinuri lang ang pelikula batay lamang sa pamagat nito) na kaya nitong magkaroon ng rerun sa mga sinehan sa anumang araw ng taon nang mag-isa.

9.0/10

I. Patay Na Si Hesus

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Dysmorphed

The worse thing than us, romance hopefuls, in a state of wartorn daydreams and of ill smiles after a love unbloomed, is love itself, not knowing what herself is anymore.

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heat up all night long

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Art Deco by Lana Del Rey | La Dormeuse by Tamara de Lempicka

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Nothing

There’s nothing like hearing the breath of a song, noticing the breathlessness of a moment.

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Lana Del Rey: Lust for Life (feat. The Weeknd) | 2017