stoprunningiloveyou

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Nobody I know understands how I’m feeling right now. How could they? I feel like I’m living in some kind of goddamn soap opera. My ex-girlfriend is pregnant. The woman that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, the woman that I loved more than I’ve ever been able to love myself is carrying the child of another man. And all this just 6 months after leaving me. Leaving me after nearly 4 years together, and during the most difficult part of my life when I really needed someone to lean on. 

I’m furious, upset, and hurt more deeply than I ever thought I could be. I thought my nights of crying myself to sleep over her were done, but here we are. I try to put on a brave face and be strong for those around me, but I’m not. I haven’t really told many people this, but when she left me, I seriously considered taking my own life. I didn’t, because I knew I needed to be strong for everyone around me. For my dad who was still in the hospital, for my cat who was still just a kitten, and for my friends for whom I’ve always needed to be a rock. I had to be strong and I had to get through it because I wasn’t the only one that depended on me. I had to wade through the shit and I came out the other side a different man. I didn’t, but I’d be lying if I said there weren’t nights I didn’t come close. I still keep a bottle of Draino and a pack of razors under my sink as a reminder of what I came close to. 

She doesn’t know that. She knows she hurt me, but doesn’t know how much. And I don’t know, maybe some part of me wants her to see this; wants her to suffer knowing that she broke me. And this is just rubbing salt in all those wounds. But I know I’m not a part of her life anymore. I know that it’s not fair for me to tell her this when she seems so happy without me. It’s so hard, and I need to get through it. But every time I say something to one of my friends they just say I need to move on. How can they know what I’m feeling? How would they have any idea? I’m not okay and I don’t know what to do about it. I’m not in danger of hurting myself; I’m past that and I’m working on learning to be happy again, but it hurts so goddamn much.

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Listen Up

If Any Of You Little Milk Boy’s Want Muscle Like These

Ore These

Your Have To Eat Mud And Run In Circle’s All Day That’s Jast How It Is

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GTA cops are like Terminators jfc

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from now on all of my reaction images are gonna come from ChristianPhotoshops.com

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me: how do my credit card bills get so big

me: i’m gonna fucking die if i don’t buy this Gone Squatchin hat

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*slaps football out my teenagers hands* no child of mine is being a jock in this house this is a goth family

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Game Show Host: Congratulations! You just won a lifetime supply of tangerines!!

Me: But you only gave me one tangerine...

Game Show Host, pulling out a gun: Yep!

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i love girls but they’re out of my league … like every single girl… all of them.. out of my league

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basically, i think the general rule of thumb is: if someone REALLY wants the blood that’s inside of your body, and they’re like… a vampire, or a dracula, or some sort of mansquito, then that’s probably okay. a dracula and a mansquito are made for removing things like blood and swords from inside your body. that’s basically fine.

if something wants to get at your blood, and they’re, say, some kind of murdersaurus, or maybe a really big frog, that’s where the problems start to arise. a really frog is not made for removing blood, and your blood knows this, which is why it is so vehement about wanting to stay IN your body instead of coming out. 

unfortunately this will not deter a really big frog, because a really big frog is full of things like prizes, and value, and quite a lot of hatred, and it would REALLY rather like to replace any and all of those things with your blood, and basically by any means possible.

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i’m having a stroke

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I can’t believe you don’t want bofa

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I can’t wait till women feel safe I can’t wait till Black people feel safe I can’t wait till gay and trans people feel safe I can’t wait till Muslim people feel safe I can’t wait till Latinx people feel safe I can’t wait till Asian people feel safe I can’t wait till all minorities wake up in the morning with a sense of tranquility and security and not have to deal with fighting for a basic human right that’s been deserved upon since the beginning

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This just does not become any more acceptable no matter how often i walk past this building

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to catch a bus you have to think like a bus