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I wish I could go back to 2023 with all the knowledge I have now and navigate with it

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I just want him to realize that he hurt me. Even if, in his mind, it doesn’t make sense or seem like a big deal — my emotions were hurt. I want him to show me how much he cares about me, about us. I want to feel that I still hold a special place in his heart. I want him to treat me the way he did when we first started dating — soft, kind, present. I crave that energy.

Those innocent smiles in class. The messages that made my heart jump, my head spin, and my stomach erupt with butterflies. I miss that version of us. I miss the way he used to make time just for me — how intentional he was. I want him to invite me again on those late-night drives, racing through quiet streets with our favorite songs blasting through the speakers.

That same car we’d take when running late to uni. The car where he asked me to be his girlfriend.

I think about our first date on Valentine’s Day — sushi at that fancy place, how he laughed while I struggled with chopsticks and tried to fit a giant California roll into my mouth. And how he laughed again when I smiled with a grin as big as a banana. I remember being so nervous, calling my sister to help me choose an outfit. Recording video diaries to capture how our relationship was growing.

I miss those moments. I miss that connection. I miss feeling like you really cared.

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Manifesting a good day

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I want to quit my job

I don't feel like PR is a thing for me... after 1yr of working in this world I'm fed upppp

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I was at The 1975 concert and I can officially die happy rn

I love their music so muchhhhhh

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IT’S HAPPENING

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This feels so…insane? I would pay milion $$$ just to learn how Lewis’ made that decision and what lead to it… all the behind the scenes convos

Lewis literally signed his contract extension few months ago… how did he suddenly decide to switch teams???

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i will not believe this until i hear lewis say „forza Ferrari” with his British accent

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I did a very very deep clean of my room (it took my literally 4 days to do this lol) and I got rid of so many papers and photocopies all the way back from high school. It felt very good to do this, since I haven't cleaned my room this thoroughly in like 1 or 2 years. Also I prefer to live in a clean space. It definitely reflects on my mind and I feel better both mentally and physically when I'm in an organized room where everything has its place.

And just to add a little sprinkle on top of that, since it's the beginning of the year it feels good to start 2024 with a clean room. I would like to try and stay more organized this year and learn to manage my free time so I feel like I'm ready for that :)

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I want to come back here

I'm coming back

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it’s giving me the ick i’m sorry

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I just want him to text meeeeeeeeeeee

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aw hell no he just texted me to send him answers to this one final project my group has been working very hard on

hell nah i’m offline

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okay i just texted him

breathe sophie just breathe

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out of sight

out of mind

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✨I spent so much time looking through mine and his messages I memorised them all ✨

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I want this motherfucker to text me again