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내가미안하다 근데 너도 나한테 미안해해라 / I'm sorry, but you should be sorry too.

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im just sick of crying myself to sleep

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i just need to go to bed instead of crying to myself

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Idk how many "maybe I'll feel better after I make myself cum"s I have left in me.

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Jeanette Winterson, from "Why Be Happy When You Could Be Normal," publ. in 2011

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i dunno what’s meant for me

i dunno what’s wrong with me

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secretly i miss having a dominant so bad

oh 2 slip peacefully into subspace and have not a thought in my head

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Opposite of "came back wrong" is "stayed exactly the same." Oh you want so badly to pretend that you have changed. You changed your face, you changed your name, you started leaning into a whole new role, but I know you. I know you. I know who you used to be, and I can see that person shining through you still. You can fool the world you can fool your friends you can fool yourself but you will not fool me.

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rlly wishing i didn’t have such a vivid imagination

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i just want to be so selfish and say fuck everyone else this is what i want i don’t give a fuck but the the guilt would open a black hole in my kitchen and eat me alive

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i might genuinely be crashing the fuck out just a little bit woooooow it’s MY fault but also whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy why it would be better if i could fucking find her anywhere i just need to know even though i knew i need to know

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i just want a clear path forward

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nauseous and overwhelmed and afraid