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that mental illness feel where u get frustrated because u are unable to distinguish whether u are empty and void of all emotion, or if u are feeling so overwhelmed by ur emotions that u simply don’t know how to process it all at once

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“Because that’s the thing about depression. When I feel it deeply, I don’t want to let it go. It becomes a comfort. I want to cloak myself under its heavy weight and breathe it into my lungs. I want to mature it, grow it, cultivate it. It’s mine. I want to check out with it, drift asleep wrapped up in its arms and not wake up for a long, long time”

— Stephanie Perkins, Lola and the Boy Next Door (via thegoodvybe)

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“with tears in my eyes, i begged you to stay. you said ‘hey man i love you, but no fucking way.’”

- the front bottoms

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maybe in another dimension you’re in love with me too

at least one version of me would be happy

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“You make me want to believe in love. But you don’t like me. You don’t realize you give me butterflies when I can’t feel. I’m not allowed to love you. But I do. I’m sorry. I’m so fucking sorry.”

— (via justanothersocialfuckup)

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This always puts a smile on my face. If you ever need someone to talk to I’m always here to listen.

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it hurt like hell

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There’s so much I wish I could change, from the things I said to the way I acted

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Thoughts

I want someone to kill me so I don’t have to kill myself.

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