I’m 22, Partners: @alexhelpsgems,@purple-steven, @bright-steven, Pan/Polyamorous, nickname: Venom, death count: 17, murder count: 7, forgets to eat but getting better
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*Venom looked at the Amber frightened, he was shaking, his mind racing, not sure what to do, frozen in place and scared about what's going on*
Whoever Lav interacts with is suddenly put in danger by whatever situation Lav fears most.
It's felt... forced, recently. Lav doesn't go out as much as he used to. He's been getting worse and worse. Everything that got better just slowly crumbled in front of him. Andrew ruined everything. He got what he wanted, and it felt horrible. But... there's nothing to do but move on.
The only issue is that he can't. So many bad places in such a short span of time and he can't get his mind off of it. He hasn't even been using his journal nearly as much as he normally does in these scenarios. He wants to keep it to himself because it felt like too much. Too much to tell anyone, too much to handle.
Plus, he doesn't need the help at the moment. It's not like he deserved it anyways.
...He promised Crow it wasn't a case of "not deserving it", and he knows he does deserve help. Or, at the very least, people think he's deserving of it. But the more this goes on, the more he spirals, the worse it gets.
But he doesn't want to tell anyone. They're all going to grow tired of it. Grow weary. There'll be a point where they don't want to deal with you or your problems anymore. And - even if he hates to admit it - he doesn't even 100% know if he's safe. He doesn't know if they still care. He doesn't know if they want him here.
He knows this is because Ender keeps feeding him these insecurities. He knows it's because of his own stupid paranoia that he feels like this. But he can't stop it.
...that's enough talk about that. But he looked tired. Looked as if he's... been through a lot.
So nothing new, really.
He sat on a bench, just... hoping that today would be slightly more normal.
He's unaware of what's coming for him.
//open rp!! @varian-the-unstable-alchemist @bubble-steven @suicidal-steven @anyone! I don't remember many urls so feel free to reply :D
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Um.. not really..
*He said shrugging, he was a terrible lier, seems they were both hiding things from each other*
Whoever Lav interacts with is suddenly put in danger by whatever situation Lav fears most.
It's felt... forced, recently. Lav doesn't go out as much as he used to. He's been getting worse and worse. Everything that got better just slowly crumbled in front of him. Andrew ruined everything. He got what he wanted, and it felt horrible. But... there's nothing to do but move on.
The only issue is that he can't. So many bad places in such a short span of time and he can't get his mind off of it. He hasn't even been using his journal nearly as much as he normally does in these scenarios. He wants to keep it to himself because it felt like too much. Too much to tell anyone, too much to handle.
Plus, he doesn't need the help at the moment. It's not like he deserved it anyways.
...He promised Crow it wasn't a case of "not deserving it", and he knows he does deserve help. Or, at the very least, people think he's deserving of it. But the more this goes on, the more he spirals, the worse it gets.
But he doesn't want to tell anyone. They're all going to grow tired of it. Grow weary. There'll be a point where they don't want to deal with you or your problems anymore. And - even if he hates to admit it - he doesn't even 100% know if he's safe. He doesn't know if they still care. He doesn't know if they want him here.
He knows this is because Ender keeps feeding him these insecurities. He knows it's because of his own stupid paranoia that he feels like this. But he can't stop it.
...that's enough talk about that. But he looked tired. Looked as if he's... been through a lot.
So nothing new, really.
He sat on a bench, just... hoping that today would be slightly more normal.
He's unaware of what's coming for him.
//open rp!! @varian-the-unstable-alchemist @bubble-steven @suicidal-steven @anyone! I don't remember many urls so feel free to reply :D
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Oh I'm fine!
*He brushed off the question, blushing a bit*
It's good to see you.. how've you been?
Whoever Lav interacts with is suddenly put in danger by whatever situation Lav fears most.
It's felt... forced, recently. Lav doesn't go out as much as he used to. He's been getting worse and worse. Everything that got better just slowly crumbled in front of him. Andrew ruined everything. He got what he wanted, and it felt horrible. But... there's nothing to do but move on.
The only issue is that he can't. So many bad places in such a short span of time and he can't get his mind off of it. He hasn't even been using his journal nearly as much as he normally does in these scenarios. He wants to keep it to himself because it felt like too much. Too much to tell anyone, too much to handle.
Plus, he doesn't need the help at the moment. It's not like he deserved it anyways.
...He promised Crow it wasn't a case of "not deserving it", and he knows he does deserve help. Or, at the very least, people think he's deserving of it. But the more this goes on, the more he spirals, the worse it gets.
But he doesn't want to tell anyone. They're all going to grow tired of it. Grow weary. There'll be a point where they don't want to deal with you or your problems anymore. And - even if he hates to admit it - he doesn't even 100% know if he's safe. He doesn't know if they still care. He doesn't know if they want him here.
He knows this is because Ender keeps feeding him these insecurities. He knows it's because of his own stupid paranoia that he feels like this. But he can't stop it.
...that's enough talk about that. But he looked tired. Looked as if he's... been through a lot.
So nothing new, really.
He sat on a bench, just... hoping that today would be slightly more normal.
He's unaware of what's coming for him.
//open rp!! @varian-the-unstable-alchemist @bubble-steven @suicidal-steven @anyone! I don't remember many urls so feel free to reply :D
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*Venom looked up, smiling at Lav, waving back, his clothes were a lot looser than before, he went closer to Lav*
Hey Lav
Whoever Lav interacts with is suddenly put in danger by whatever situation Lav fears most.
It's felt... forced, recently. Lav doesn't go out as much as he used to. He's been getting worse and worse. Everything that got better just slowly crumbled in front of him. Andrew ruined everything. He got what he wanted, and it felt horrible. But... there's nothing to do but move on.
The only issue is that he can't. So many bad places in such a short span of time and he can't get his mind off of it. He hasn't even been using his journal nearly as much as he normally does in these scenarios. He wants to keep it to himself because it felt like too much. Too much to tell anyone, too much to handle.
Plus, he doesn't need the help at the moment. It's not like he deserved it anyways.
...He promised Crow it wasn't a case of "not deserving it", and he knows he does deserve help. Or, at the very least, people think he's deserving of it. But the more this goes on, the more he spirals, the worse it gets.
But he doesn't want to tell anyone. They're all going to grow tired of it. Grow weary. There'll be a point where they don't want to deal with you or your problems anymore. And - even if he hates to admit it - he doesn't even 100% know if he's safe. He doesn't know if they still care. He doesn't know if they want him here.
He knows this is because Ender keeps feeding him these insecurities. He knows it's because of his own stupid paranoia that he feels like this. But he can't stop it.
...that's enough talk about that. But he looked tired. Looked as if he's... been through a lot.
So nothing new, really.
He sat on a bench, just... hoping that today would be slightly more normal.
He's unaware of what's coming for him.
//open rp!! @varian-the-unstable-alchemist @bubble-steven @suicidal-steven @anyone! I don't remember many urls so feel free to reply :D
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*Venom was walking on the boardwalk, he's very skinny again, like deathly skinny, you can almost see his ribcage. He seems unfazed by this though, looking at the ground as he walked*
Whoever Lav interacts with is suddenly put in danger by whatever situation Lav fears most.
It's felt... forced, recently. Lav doesn't go out as much as he used to. He's been getting worse and worse. Everything that got better just slowly crumbled in front of him. Andrew ruined everything. He got what he wanted, and it felt horrible. But... there's nothing to do but move on.
The only issue is that he can't. So many bad places in such a short span of time and he can't get his mind off of it. He hasn't even been using his journal nearly as much as he normally does in these scenarios. He wants to keep it to himself because it felt like too much. Too much to tell anyone, too much to handle.
Plus, he doesn't need the help at the moment. It's not like he deserved it anyways.
...He promised Crow it wasn't a case of "not deserving it", and he knows he does deserve help. Or, at the very least, people think he's deserving of it. But the more this goes on, the more he spirals, the worse it gets.
But he doesn't want to tell anyone. They're all going to grow tired of it. Grow weary. There'll be a point where they don't want to deal with you or your problems anymore. And - even if he hates to admit it - he doesn't even 100% know if he's safe. He doesn't know if they still care. He doesn't know if they want him here.
He knows this is because Ender keeps feeding him these insecurities. He knows it's because of his own stupid paranoia that he feels like this. But he can't stop it.
...that's enough talk about that. But he looked tired. Looked as if he's... been through a lot.
So nothing new, really.
He sat on a bench, just... hoping that today would be slightly more normal.
He's unaware of what's coming for him.
//open rp!! @varian-the-unstable-alchemist @bubble-steven @suicidal-steven @anyone! I don't remember many urls so feel free to reply :D
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Oh.. that sounds painful...
//I've been busy with school but I'm back!
*Venom was on the boardwalk taking a walk, smoking a cigarette as he walked, that's new.. he never said he smoked..*
*He looked like he hasn't slept in a while and lost some weight again.. he's not taking care of himself like he used too.*
//open rp
@purple-steven @bright-steven @alexhelpsgems @corvid-steven @anyone!
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No.. I've always heard men talking about how great smoking was, not that it was bad.. sometimes one of my dad's friends offered me a smoke as a reward for cleaning up something they dropped..
//I've been busy with school but I'm back!
*Venom was on the boardwalk taking a walk, smoking a cigarette as he walked, that's new.. he never said he smoked..*
*He looked like he hasn't slept in a while and lost some weight again.. he's not taking care of himself like he used too.*
//open rp
@purple-steven @bright-steven @alexhelpsgems @corvid-steven @anyone!
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It's not?.. oh... I didn't know that. I'll try to smoke less then...
*He was surprised*
//I've been busy with school but I'm back!
*Venom was on the boardwalk taking a walk, smoking a cigarette as he walked, that's new.. he never said he smoked..*
*He looked like he hasn't slept in a while and lost some weight again.. he's not taking care of himself like he used too.*
//open rp
@purple-steven @bright-steven @alexhelpsgems @corvid-steven @anyone!
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*Venom held his hand*
Sure, what is it?
//I've been busy with school but I'm back!
*Venom was on the boardwalk taking a walk, smoking a cigarette as he walked, that's new.. he never said he smoked..*
*He looked like he hasn't slept in a while and lost some weight again.. he's not taking care of himself like he used too.*
//open rp
@purple-steven @bright-steven @alexhelpsgems @corvid-steven @anyone!
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Yeah I've been alright. Just Spinel getting on my nerves is all
//I've been busy with school but I'm back!
*Venom was on the boardwalk taking a walk, smoking a cigarette as he walked, that's new.. he never said he smoked..*
*He looked like he hasn't slept in a while and lost some weight again.. he's not taking care of himself like he used too.*
//open rp
@purple-steven @bright-steven @alexhelpsgems @corvid-steven @anyone!
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*Venom nodded in agreement*
//I've been busy with school but I'm back!
*Venom was on the boardwalk taking a walk, smoking a cigarette as he walked, that's new.. he never said he smoked..*
*He looked like he hasn't slept in a while and lost some weight again.. he's not taking care of himself like he used too.*
//open rp
@purple-steven @bright-steven @alexhelpsgems @corvid-steven @anyone!
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Really?.. I mean I'll take it but your sure?
//I've been busy with school but I'm back!
*Venom was on the boardwalk taking a walk, smoking a cigarette as he walked, that's new.. he never said he smoked..*
*He looked like he hasn't slept in a while and lost some weight again.. he's not taking care of himself like he used too.*
//open rp
@purple-steven @bright-steven @alexhelpsgems @corvid-steven @anyone!
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About that, well Spinel broke my phone so I haven't been getting my reminders to eat..
//I've been busy with school but I'm back!
*Venom was on the boardwalk taking a walk, smoking a cigarette as he walked, that's new.. he never said he smoked..*
*He looked like he hasn't slept in a while and lost some weight again.. he's not taking care of himself like he used too.*
//open rp
@purple-steven @bright-steven @alexhelpsgems @corvid-steven @anyone!
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Got it.... And, I'm sorry for not being around...
*He sighed, putting out his cigarette*
//I've been busy with school but I'm back!
*Venom was on the boardwalk taking a walk, smoking a cigarette as he walked, that's new.. he never said he smoked..*
*He looked like he hasn't slept in a while and lost some weight again.. he's not taking care of himself like he used too.*
//open rp
@purple-steven @bright-steven @alexhelpsgems @corvid-steven @anyone!
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I'm okay, although Spinel's been a pain lately. How about you?
*He asked, wondering if he'd missed something important.. he knows that he has been distant recently*
//I've been busy with school but I'm back!
*Venom was on the boardwalk taking a walk, smoking a cigarette as he walked, that's new.. he never said he smoked..*
*He looked like he hasn't slept in a while and lost some weight again.. he's not taking care of himself like he used too.*
//open rp
@purple-steven @bright-steven @alexhelpsgems @corvid-steven @anyone!
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I'm alright, how about you?
//I've been busy with school but I'm back!
*Venom was on the boardwalk taking a walk, smoking a cigarette as he walked, that's new.. he never said he smoked..*
*He looked like he hasn't slept in a while and lost some weight again.. he's not taking care of himself like he used too.*
//open rp
@purple-steven @bright-steven @alexhelpsgems @corvid-steven @anyone!
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Well it's been a while since I've started... Probably since I was 17 or 16? I'm not sure.. I smoke a few to relax.
//I've been busy with school but I'm back!
*Venom was on the boardwalk taking a walk, smoking a cigarette as he walked, that's new.. he never said he smoked..*
*He looked like he hasn't slept in a while and lost some weight again.. he's not taking care of himself like he used too.*
//open rp
@purple-steven @bright-steven @alexhelpsgems @corvid-steven @anyone!
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