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Hey, I hope you're feeling better, you're a very strong person! Your little girl must be proud of you

thank you, Im really trying to work on myself a lot more and break thru the depression and grief slowly. I appreciate it a lot. Im telling myself she wouldn’t have wanted me to fall in this hole i’ve lived in for almost a year. Im in therapy a lot and hopefully starting an outpatient treatment program for mental health soon. I a need to work on myself if I ever want to have a family

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Such a sweet video of two dads having a home birth.

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Sometimes i want to kill myself. I won’t and Im nkt planning to. but i live with so much pain I don’t know how to grow past. I have so much trauma from losing my baby girl, to have people here while I was pregnant tell me they wish I’d miscarry or tell me after my stillbirth that the reason she died was because i’m trans. I ant to have a baby but i don’t know ifI want to bring a baby in this bad world with bad people.

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Idk when parents decide to try again after stillbirth. It doesn’t feel like it’s ever going to be right for us to try again. I see ppl trying soon after. I want to be a dad but i can’t let go of what we lost.

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do you not have any more trans Birth videos?

No, and I don’t really post anything else on here anymore since losing my baby girl.

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don't worry about posting "too much" about your grief it's entirely understandable, you're still in so much pain 😔💕 I hope you have many people supporting you, you're stronger than you know

thank you. i miss my daughter every moment I live and will ever live. I have my husband and my friends support me. but sometimes people don’t know how to support me. Her loss is so devastating I can’t begin to explain it.

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All i do is post about my grief now and im sorry. It’s the worst feeling i ever been thru in my entire life th worst pain ever and It never ends. My poor baby girl, i cey for you every day and feel the scar from them taking you from me, I wish we had gotten even one day together or one hour so i could look in your eyes and hear you cry and rock you to sleep. when does the pain stop

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was watching a show about witches and there was a scene in the hospital, a woman just delivered a stillborn baby. And they brought her back to life with magic. i was sobbing. Idk if i will ever heal from losing my sweet baby girl. I wish i could have heard her cries and saw her grow up, mt sweet girl. Daddy misses you so much every day for the rest of my life my love

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I wish i was living the life we were supposed to be living right now

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i can’t believe still that I gave birth to our daughter and she’s gone, it’s like i feel like she’s coming back to us somehow n Im just waiting for her

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My sister is pregnant, and I’m happy for her, but so sad and jealous. It’s hard to be around since losing my baby girl. and I think about if we should try for another baby but I dont want it to be like replacing her. I just want my baby. i feek hurt inside.

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hello! i just read your pinned post a minute ago and i dont really have anything useful to say except that i see you. its tough and unfair but life goes on, no matter what i hope you and everyone you care about gets everything they need.

ive never been a parent myself but my own mother had a stillbirth a bit more than a year before i was born. i knew about it since i was a kid but only today i found a photo of the baby that should have grown up to be my big sibling and ive been thinking about that all day. as a result of thinking about it more than i have before ive been trying to learn the hows and whys of stillbirth and of course its upsetting, but im actually kind of happy that theres evidence he existed. i didnt know when his birthday was, but now i do because my parents wrote it on the photo!

im sorry for rambling in your inbox, im just an emotional drunk and i want everybody ever to be okay <3

thank you so much for this message. It means a lot. i’m really glad your mom was open about your sibling before you came. my mom also had a still birth before I was born but there was no pictures of my sister tho we visited her grave as kids. if we ever do have another baby we do have pics of Aliza for her younger sibling and i hope they would be as caring for her as you are for your brother. it makes me glad to hear from someone who has been affected by stillbirth in the way you have. it’s encouraging in a way for if we do have another baby later on ❤️

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that nikki372023 person is a fucking monster, they've harassed me before as well but it was just plain uncomfortable, what they said to you is fucking disgusting 🤢 they need to get lost off this app cause they do nothing but harass others and apparently try to sexy rp with grieving fathers (also on their blog they constantly cry about people being rude to them, I WONDER WHY)

my deepest condolences for baby Aliza, I hope she rests easy 🤍

Yea, Its crazy how many people have bothered me i. messages and asks since losing her, and even when I was still pregnant being weird. I hope they all learn better but most don’t care I feel like. Thank you.

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I'm so sorry for your loss, your baby will always watch over you and hope that you can heal 💕💕💕 she wouldn't want her dad to be sad forever 💕💕💕

Also in one of your posts you said you'd keep things to yourself but if talking about stuff makes you feel better, then you shouldn't. This is your blog you should be able to post whatever you please :(( the right kind of people will always be by your side 💕

Thank you. It’s still hard and I have her in my mind all day still. I don’t wantto flood everyone with sadness. idk. Thank you ❤️