supposedtolveyou

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i’d apologise for being a bitch, but i’ve been trampled over so many times now— that i don’t really give a fuck anymore.

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                                                                                    нoℓу water ———                                                                c a n n o t..                                                                                                           help you now                                                        THOUSAND armies !                                                                                  couldn’t keep me                                                                                  out.                                                                     I don’t want your               mo n e y                                                                                          I don’t        WANT your crown                                                                                  see..                                 I’ve                                                              come to burn                                                                            your KINGDOM down !

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this is the place i feel at { home }   despite all my  B R U I S E S , 

— all the broken bones

           still there’s hope because you make me feel like i’m

               H O M E .

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                              I’m searching for a distant l i g h t

                                            { Someone who could save my life }

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A heart full of you.

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                                           ––; i’m an α η g ε ℓ with a shotgun

                                                [    fighting    ] til’ the wars won

                                       i don’t care if heaven won’t take me back.

                            i’ll throw away my ғαιтн, just to keep you [    s  α  ғ  ε    ]

❝ don't you know you're e v e r y t h i n g I have? ❞

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roleplayer questionnaire.

name: gemma

age: 15

timezone: gmt

how long you’ve been rping: nearly two years

least favorite fc: ew um zoe sugg or barbara palvin

do you play males or females more: idk tbh it's pretty equal???

fc you’ve been dying to play: scarlett johansson DAMN

rps you’ve applied for: right now? none, i don't really group rp anymore

do you 1x1: i used to a couple months ago, i actually am thinking of doing it again

how about indie rp: obviously

best friend in the rp world: don't make me choose

oc or bio: ahhhhhh it depends i love bios if i'm running it i love creating the cast but i love my own characters ow i guess oc then

favorite song: this year by the mountain goats

favorite artist/band: flo and the machine, matd, beyonce, tom odell wow everybody

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     "That isn't completely true, I'm just a jealous kind of guy, and you're a beautiful girl, it's not my fault if everywhere we go there's other guys starting at you and I can't compete with that."

       ”I don’t know why. You just think that the moment a guy shows a little attention towards me, I am going to run off with him, and leave you behind. That will never happen, and I hate that you insinuate that I am that type of girl!”

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;; like for a starter, and let me know if you want a specific muse? ;;

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Feeling her pull away, Kai dropped his hands and let her have her space, and ran a hand through his mess of dark hair in thought. He knew he'd ben suggesting the notion that they keep the baby, he wasn't sure what he meant by that, if he even meant it, he could possibly be the world's worst father ever and he wasn't even one yet, he was hardly a role model, but maybe they could do it together. Her smile on her lips warmed his insides, the thing he wanted most of all for her was her happiness, she deserved at least that, and he shrugged his shoulders. "I don't know what I'm saying, I guess what I mean is, if we wanted to keep it, I know that we could do it, we could be parents." 

Abigail remained silent, dropping her gaze from him and reopening the gap between them. She needed some space to breath, to let her thoughts run wildly and possibly find a solution to all of their problems. This evening wasn’t supposed to turn out like it did, but everything happened for a reason. The petite blonde still found it hard to focus on one thing when so many things had gone wrong in their lives. For that single moment, she’d forgotten everything Kai had told her; given it time to sink in. Her mother would go crazy if she ever found out, but that was a secret Abigail would bring to her coffin. She wouldn’t let anyone know about his true identity. “–– Are you saying that you want to keep it?” A smile had managed to form on her lips, her irises instantly sparkling as she managed to proceed his words in her mind. It was her first thought from the moment she came to him, but when she got to hear about the real him; that thought had vanished. 

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  A shrug of his shoulders and he spoke again, "Why would that be a surprise? I mean, you're a pretty girl, you're pretty great too. And I possibly am, I was waiting to see what you'd answer this question with."

 Blushing a bit before speaking,”I wouldn’t hate you.. I would just be surprised because I didn’t think you would want to; are you thinking about it?”

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     "No, I know you don't, I just get jealous sometimes!"

       ”I’m sorry that you do…but, do you honestly believe I have the ability to control whether a guy can flirt with me, or not?”

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   "No! Of course not, you know I wouldn't do something like that to you!"

  “So, do you plan on letting your anger out on me every time you’re mad then?”

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Oh, now that was embarrassing for the girl. "Oh, gosh, really? Where?"

            “Excuse me miss, I think you have a little something on your face.”

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  He watched her as she smiled, it was a beautiful smile. "I do too, and I know it will." He said, his words more sure than he'd ever been before. "I like the sound of that, so, will you be my girlfriend?"

  “Well, I want it to mean something.” Autumn’s lips curved into a grin, as she tried to conceal her nervousness. “Preferably something along the lines of me being your girlfriend if things go well.”

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There was so many reasons in Kai's mind why they should try, in a moment of anger they can say they didn't want it, but after thinking through their options, maybe keeping the child would be the best thing. Maybe, if things worked out, it could have two parents who loved each other –- even if this relationship was toxic –- it wouldn't be nothing before it was even something and it wouldn't have the resentment that he had about his parents giving him up, that was the last thing he wanted. "I don't know, but maybe we can do this, give it a chance?" It wasn't just the baby who needed the chance, it was Kai too, he wanted another chance, a chance to make things better, change things for them. "It has to know, it can't be lied to like that, this baby is going to be a real person, not just something we can discard like that. I know, and I am too." Nightmare wasn't exactly the words he wanted her to use, but in many ways it was fully correct.

"If we don’t want it, then why even try, Kai?" she was frustrated, more angry with herself than anyone would’ve been if they got to know what she was expecting. She couldn’t do this. She knew that she wouldn’t be able to proceed with the pregnancy and the trouble that would come with it only caused more doubt about keeping it. She didn’t want to kill it either, because that wouldn’t make her a better person. More like a hypocrite. She let out a deep breath, one she wasn’t aware was being held in. She wasn’t ready to let go of Kai yet, she just wasn’t. He was the one who kept her sane and healthy; without him, things would only go downhills for the female. Locking her irises with his dark hues - she tried searching for a possible answer to their problems. "It’s either keeping it or killing it, but the baby doesn’t have to know that we are the parents. Maybe the adoptive ones would look like us - at least a little, so the baby wouldn’t be confused when it grows up. And when it comes to us; I just don’t know anymore. I’m mentally exhausted and just want to end this nightmare."