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Diary of a Mad Pregnant Woman

Day 2

No one can describe the feeling of being torn from enjoying a first time pregnancy (and most likely only pregnancy) and dealing with the decision of your mother choosing to stop chemotherapy.  While my logical self knows why my mom is choosing to stop treatment, the side effects are unreal at this time, throwing up, diarrhea, sleeping all day, is no quality of any life especially since we don’t know how much time she has left with us.  The selfish side of me wants her to continue as I want her to be with us for as long as possible, to see her first grandchild, to help me learn how to care for my baby, to watch her grandson grow up (even if it is for a few months).  What makes me even more upset through this process is that COVID-19 has STOLEN everything from me, due to stay at home orders and now a travel warning, I cannot go to CT to see my dying mother, I will be harassed and forced into self quarantine.  Today is a rough day, tomorrow will be even worse as we are on the even of my mothers doctor’s appointment where she will tell them her decision of stopping treatments.  A time where family is needed to be together cannot be together thanks to all of the selfish people in this world that cannot take orders and just stay at home unless absolutely necessary........ 

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Diary of a Mad Pregnant Woman

Day 1

Today I sat and thought that I would create a blog.  Not for attention, but for a way to vent.  I am 36 first time mom2b in this crazy COVID-19 world.  I wish I could say that is the worst of my problems...but its not.  Try being pregnant, going through COVID-19 (now with stay at home orders in your state), losing your best friend of 16 years (my cockapoo, Skrappy), and having a mother battling stage IV pancreatic cancer.  This is a diary of a mad pregnant woman.