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Dope af

Hôtel de Sagonne, Paris

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What in the fuck am I doing.

Brand new year an I countlessly find myself getting screwed over by individuals. An I am apparently supposed to sit with a dick in my ass an smile the entire time like as if I have no emotions as a human being cant expect help in return for what I lend to others or dignity or earn any mutual respect. Every fucking thing seems t be a loss and a waste of everyone's time. An I'm a bit dry from it. Like I am past the point of truly knowing I should have already understood the meaning of I don't fuck with ppl period. All I know is I miss Stephen I need to give up because no one is even going to come close to the perfectness we reached as a team. I cant seem to understand why people get off on watching others down or upset and want the worst out or from others that has never made any sense to me. I have no more feelings or care to lend out this year I plan to suck it up its time to put my big girl pants on an realize I'm supposed to be alone an I have allot more to understand about my own self. An not the nasty lies people salt my name with or try to pipe in what's been hear this or that, I'm over the childish bullshit out of everyone I'm miserable where I'm living its one awful to the next its just sickening how much id like to bash my head into my palms  how misused and treated I am from what I put out. I once heard what you put out is what you get back in life  I put more in than I ever get back out via family relationship friends who ever the fuck. an I'm understanding I honestly just do not care I just needed to bitch on my blog for the day but I just need to stop having any kind of expectation out of others so I never have to be let down.. but what ever it is,,, its pathetic the people we encounter tend to make people so salty towards everyone. we have the choice to act that way or not but its really the people an experience's I believe that make people turn so sour or not as positive as they once used to be. but fuck it. fuck today an most everyone I know up close an personal except family maybe a few of them 2 but damn... I'm searios.

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Everyone I hang out with the old group of friends we have.

It makes me feel like I am out of place. And I know for a fact I'll be there with you soon.

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Honestly the truth is.

No one knows with the math I'll be there soonwe before u know it . I will find you

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Alright...

Even though we know your not here with us. At times I get stuck with people when i get put in a moment questioning weather I should be here or not with everyone seems unfair.i miss you more than anything in this world and though no one will see I will be with you soon .. very very soon. I have plans... idk where u are but I've been trying to crack the math of 2... I'll be there soon.

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Yehhh.

So today. Let me just say..... That I'm not even going to post what I really would love to post right now. Only because like wtf.

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OZ Magazine No. 4 Tarot Cards: The Magician Martin Sharp 1967

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Have I mentioned how childish my life has been and how much it's went down the drain sense we met and actually got together.

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I just want this too finish too be honest. I hate just about every minute I've been stuck in this. This is not a team. This is not love this is something I know nothing of and wish no part in. It's pure hate I'm not pretending to love such hate. I'll just reciprocate the next message agree too disagree and walk away silently and leave no shadow.

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Did we get married too sleep alone? Too fight. Go to work early to avoid each other. Not me, last free weekend I have.

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I’ve teamed up with the #theoneclubforcreativity and New York print studio #piggybackletterpress as this year’s guest artist in the “On The Run” special. 🤷🏽‍♀️What is “On The Run”? During select times of the year, One Club and Piggyback offer members a chance to get 250 letterpressed business cards for only $95.00! 💸As part of the run, you’ll not only receive your exquisite cards, you’ll also get an uncut sheet, featuring you and the other nine artists on your run. The cards I’m printing are pocket-sized versions of my large scale black and white murals. They are beautiful single-sided Crane Crest cotton cards (484gsm) in Piggyback’s exclusive dense black ink. There are only 4 spots left on the run with me, so message #piggybackletterpress to come on board, or email info#piggybackletterpress.com for more details.

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Hayley Reeser

So lately ive been very depressed. I got married. An i know nothing about marriage. But its made me more sad then ive ever been. Seeing as too how the person im with is supposed too be my best friend. Were supposed to ralk about anything an we dont. Its just when ever he responds. Im not a material bitch. Yet he keeps thinking thats what makes me tick. I have an illness an am getting treated at rhe moment. Sometimes i wish it would just sweep me out. Im sick of feeling like the bad guy being made too look like a fool. And having to lie because naturally its not my nature to snitch or make someone look bad to there friends or family. But obviously have no problem besides opinions and terrible feelings ill swallow the ass end and keep bsing made out too be this fucking moron i keep being made out too be. Im sick of feeling like the wife thats holding my new husband and his child back. Sick of feeling bad for catching feelings and caring for his child thats not mine as if it were my own. Im sick of how everythings revolved arround whos spensing more on who. And im sick of my thinging getting broken my shit trashed amd my wedding ring thrown out the window amd have to lie to his family and say i lost it all in a bag at a rest stop. Im depressed more then i was when i lost my kids dad. Sometimes i wpnder when people treat one like this. When they are fone do they do all this searching roo see if they left a message somthing positive behind for themm.. Then het upset when they see the truth poured out. Idfk. But im sick of the mental abuse physical abuse.. Idk what too do but get the fuck out and leave seems they would be happier that way anyway. Fuck my feelings or opinions they dont seem to matter and when theybget put intonconsideration im ment to felt bad about it as ifnits disrupting everyones jolly lifestyle. Anhway fuck today and tomorrow. I need to get out of this as soon as possible. I cant keep fighting feels like it alone is killing me slowly.

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I'd really like to do my hair like this one day

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Model: Victoria Valiante Photography: Sara Elene Brauda

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