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thegreatyin · 5 months ago

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an important element of the shadow's backstory, both in a thematic and narrative sense, is that caeru's motivation for creating him/the act of creating him period is Intrinsically Incredibly Selfish. and not even caeru himself realizes this. but it is. it very very very much is.

i think the worst part of the Shadow Creation Incident™ is that caeru has legitimately learned nothing. like he wouldn't hesitate to do it all again if louise or the scoundrel got murked. he wouldn't even have to think about it. the silverer somehow dies and when she wakes up her boyfriend is putting together horrifying mad science equipment to bring her back from the dead, y'know, as men do

#this will become more clear whenever i get around to talking in-detail abt the shadow's body compared to the real greylu #+ his entire. Memory Situation. which is a suitcase unto himself #it's a shitty thing to do! caeru did a shitty selfish self-indulgent thing because he Could Not Let His Grief Go!#he covers it with the same veil of selfless altruism that drives all of his other actions but deep down.#even if he doesn't know it consciously.#he really just did it all for himself and himself alone. and that's fucked up. and now greylu is the one who has to live with that #i love and have thought about their doomed yaoi a normal amount #scoundrelventures #this is also the reason why if i had to choose i'd put caeru more towards the chaotic neutral side of the spectrum #rather than the chaotic good he falls into 9 times out of 10 #he's a morally dubious guy. all of my guys are. some are just more obvious than others #fallen london

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