#<- ok sure goodbyeeeee

[vernalloy]

I think the thing where the authors of these delusion! AUs are hitting my spine are that. They’re pulling from media portrayals rather than. Actually reasoning through or even researching what it’d be like.

So tips fur writing delusions! I’m going to make a lot of generalizations here, some people can’t double bookkeep, or don’t have positive ways of interacting with the delusion, or have short delusions, or respond positively to reality checks. I’m primarily pulling from my own experience here.

1. At least on the schizo-spectrum, the longer they last, the slower they come. Brief psychosis has a really short onset, schizophreniform has a shorter prodrome than schizophrenia/schizoaffective. Generally, delusions grow. They come together on nothing, but they take time to take root on equal or greater footing than reality.

2. Double bookkeeping! Exists! Even past this there’s just. If you knew something about the world that no one else did. That you knew they’d treat you violently for if you revealed it. You’d keep it under wraps. Keep your rituals subtle. Don’t talk about it.

3. They generally don’t vanish upon reason. They wax and wane and change, and rarely respond to logic past perhaps changing to accommodate or override new facts.

4. If you have a secret reality you have something to deal with it. A monster under the bed? Shove boxes under there. Feel everyone’s out to get you? Carry a bread knife (it sucks at stabbing) or keep your back only to walls. Feel you’re not human? Let it wash over you instead of insisting truth one way or the other.

Again, these masks often degrade as the illness runs its course. Delusions operate on dream logic, they’re flexible and like to spread.

Also pleasseeeeee acknowledge other symptoms than delusions + hallucinations when you write a psychotic character. Reading John Darnielle novels makes me jump for joy because his psychotic characters get thought blocking and fucked up cognition on top of hallucinations. In many cases they’re more significant than the positive symptoms! Alex’s affect is remarked upon more than his hallucinations.

Shrek voice they don’t even have repetitive self soothing movements in their psychotic characters

Keysmash. I don’t know how to articulate this last part but there are a lot of times where. It feels like psychotic characters can present in exactly three ways: the obvious psycho killer, and then in more sympathetic contexts: no illogic or heck even symptoms past hallucinations, or an unstable baby with no autonomy. And it feels. Like these arise from a gap the author sees between them and psychotics. And when writing anything other than a violent stereotype, they have a tendency to overshoot and leave out any unsympathetic symptoms. Like they try to write a neurotypical who hallucinates.

Which is frustrating because a lot of these authors have adhd/autism and the two share plenty in outward presentation with psychosis. We all have executive dysfunction and inappropriate affect and shit memory and poor audio regulation and hey you know what? Psychotic disorders are comorbid with autism & adhd! Because psychosis is understood to arise primarily from a combination of genetics and stress! And you know what causes stress? Being neurodivergent!!!

Idk id just like that when I open up AO3 I’m not hit with a wall of people who did next to no research when they wanted to write their angst fics about my sicko mind.

[sprocketsciencer]

Skinner read my post. With Ladd and Keets, we’re winning this. Kamon yanited!

Ayy another win, too bad it wasn’t another clean sheet. Props to leicester tho, they were pressuring the players well. Clear improvement from the last meet. Onwards to sunday, kamon yanited!

[crappy-danganronpa-imagines]

(I hope this isn't too specific!)

Can I get a Kokichi X reader where reader is a mind reader and every now and then they just hear Kokichi's thoughts and it's slowly revealing his feelings for them? >\\\\<

Absolutely!!

I took a lil break from writing but I'm back now! I'm also playing v3 now, so it's easier to write for the characters!

Please apply for mod, people >:/

-Mod Makoto

Kokichi x Ultimate Mind Reader!

(with a little bit of saimatsu added in)

Y/N... they're pretty.

That was just the first of the thoughts you heard, but it startled you nonetheless.

It had only been a few days since you, along with fifteen other Ultimate students, had been brought to this academy with no way of knowing how you got there. You, the Ultimate Mind Reader, were sitting at breakfast with everyone else when you heard that thought. It could be anyone here, you thought. You had just barely heard it over the buzz of everyone else's thoughts and words, after all. On top of that, nobody seemed to be too focused on you, all engaged in their own conversations. For all you knew, it could've just been Kiibo not knowing how else to word his thoughts, or Kiyo being, well, Kiyo. Ignoring those words, then, you took another bite of your breakfast.

That day, as you went about talking and hanging out with the others, you could've sworn you'd heard more thoughts like the first. The problem was, you hung out with many different people in the course of the day, but all of them apparently had thoughts like that overlapping with their ordinary thoughts. You'd never heard anything like it before, thoughts overlapping. You could be hallucinating them, you thought, or coming here might've messed with your ability, or...

Or what if Monokuma was the one who messed with your ability as a way to drive you insane? No, didn't seem likely that words of affection would drive someone to kill their friends. So either the people you visited were thinking these thoughts, or your Ultimate talent was failing you pretty badly.

It was a mystery.

And you happened to have a classmate who excelled at solving mysteries.

..

The soft melody drifting through the lab was so beautiful, you felt a little bad for interrupting it. The two were sitting side by side on the piano bench, the blonde girl playing the tune while the boy simply watched.

"Excuse me-"

"Aah!" The boy jumped a little and turned around on the seat. "Oh, it's just Y/N."

Kaede giggled. "What was that about, Shuichi?"

"I got startled, alright..."

"Well, why'd you come here?"

Now, what would be the least awkward way to say this?

"I keep hearing... extra thoughts. Like more than one person at a time is thinking things near me, even when I'm just with a single other person. I've been with a lot of different people today, too, and I hear these things from everyone."

Shuichi stopped for a moment to piece together what you'd said, then asked, "Can you hear them now?"

Surprisingly, you couldn't. Maybe this only happened outdoors? No, it happened in the dining hall too. Whatever the case was, Shuichi and Kaede were safe from it.

"Who did you hang out with today, then?"

"Kiibo, Kirumi, Tenko, and Gonta. Oh, and Himiko too, technically. Tenko and I met up with her after a while, and after that I got bored and left them alone."

"Hmm... and what kind of thoughts are the extra ones? Just random words or noise?"

"Well... yeah." you lied. "No noise, just random words. I thought Monokuma might've done this for some reason or another."

"Oh! You could try talking to Angie or Himiko or Kiyo about it!"

Shuichi looked confused about Kaede's sudden remark.

"Y'know, Himiko is always talking about magic and Angie talks about divine occurrences, so it could be one of those! I don't think technology can change an Ultimate talent like yours, so Monokuma most likely isn't the culprit here. And Kiyo is just as inclined to the paranormal as Angie, so if nothing else, maybe his anthropology could help in some way?"

"Mm... That's not a bad idea, Kaede. Y/N, try talking to Angie, and if her explanation doesn't seem logical, try Miu. Knowing their views on this should help."

..

Where are th- OH, THERE THEY ARE!!

You stopped walking.

There was nobody here. There shouldn't have been any thoughts at all, let alone any so loud. Someone would've had to be close by to sound so loud.

"Okay, who's there?"

Mmm, nobody much...

Dammit, why couldn't your talent tell the difference between inner voices!?

Well, this game is really, really fun, don'tcha think? I mean, I might keep this up for as long as we're both alive here, and nobody will ever know Y/N's secret admirer! Plus, it'd drive you to the limit, so maybe something funny will happen then!

There was a lot of noise from the vent above you all of a sudden.

"H- Ow! Hey, what are you- There's no rule in here that says I can't hide out up here, y'know!? Maybe I'm planning a murder, ya ever think about- No!"

"YOU-ARE-BLOCKING-THE-AIR-CONDITIONING-SYSTEM. YOU-WILL-BE-REMOVED."

"Oh, come on!! Ow!"

The metal panel gave way, and a boy fell face-first to the floor, followed by Monodam.

"Kokichi?!"

"Aw, man... just when I was really starting to have fun, too! Hmph." he pouted, getting up from the floor like it was nothing. "Welp, guess you won't need to visit Angie to know who's been bugging you. Dumbass bear." He looked over at Monodam, who was now standing in silence, then quickly perked up. "Whaaatever! Ooh, maybe I can ruin Kaede's little concert! I heard music over there earlier."

He walked away, humming cheerfully.

Now what do I do? More lies? More games? Sure, I guess. Messed that up, might as well mess up more relationships. Wait, can they hear me from this distance? Mm, don't think so.

But you could.

"Kokichi?" you called after him.

"Oh, now what? Don't tell me you wanna storm the piano room too. Only room for one person in the vents, ok?"

...

"Kokichi, about all those thoughts..."

"Lies."

"Huh?"

"Didya really think I liked you?! Hahahahaha!! Oh, that's just hilarious!! Nope, nope, nope, nope, nope, nope!! I don't really care for anyone in this academy besides myself, actually! Alright, I'm bored now. Goodbyeeeee~"

From there you two parted ways, but not before you  could overhear Kokichi's last thought to you that day.

That was all a lie, by the way! Nee-heehee~

[dollscircus]

ok lemme explain this fucking couple because i sound crazy rn

they were both a part of this super soldier called project freelancer and she was a mega reckless bitch (lovingly) and he just wanted to make sure she was ok and didnt push herself too hard

they've known each other for years and everyone fucking knew that they like each other but they never confessed because she was scared of her feelings and too focused on revenge and he never wanted to push her to do something that he thought she never wanted

Shenanigans happen and they get seperated AND THEY DONT EVEN HAVE THE CHANCE TO CONFESS BECAUSE HE DIED WHILE THEY WERE SEPERATEDDDDD

THEY DIDNT EVEN HAVE THE CHANCE TO SAY GOODBYEEEEE

- :)

Oh that’s hurts! And I don’t even know the characters!!