#[ 🐾 ] ajay talks

[an-unloving-god]

"The simplest solution to Mar and Shoutos problems would be to just get rid of Lucinda and Enji. Then those two would be gone forever and my big siblings would feel better, right? Yeah, that's how that works."

[an-unloving-god]

"I thought you weren't allowed to mess with the human realm like that?? Shouldn't you have to ask someone or something??"

I should start giving humans soulmates, just to see what happens

[an-unloving-god]

Ajay: I sometimes forget that I'm an Emanator ,:3

Yanqing: You almost killed me

Ajay: On accident, unlike all of your other near death experiences :3

Yanqing: Your yo-yo almost took off my head

Ajay: It wouldn't be the first time you were almost decapitated :3

[an-unloving-god]

Yanqing: I can't believe you're dating my enemy 🥺

Ajay: Yunli isn't your enemy. If anything, you two are the enemy to proper communication, good coping mechanisms, and social compression. Teenagers smh.........

Yanqing: Aren't you also a teenager??

Ajay: I'm a teenager, you guys are teenagers^8

Yanqing: So you're saying I'm old.

Ajay: So I'm saying you're old, grumpy, and filled with teenage angst :3

[an-unloving-god]

Adapting popular sayings to the environment they're said in my beloved pt. 3

[an-unloving-god]

SHUUUUT the fuck up before I roll another nat 1 in combat on "accident" and you just so happen to die early

HOLD ON, WHY AM I THE ONE GETTING A CANON DEATH, WHAT'D I DO

[an-unloving-god]

Adapting popular sayings to the environment they're said in my beloved

[an-unloving-god]

"Why can I never simply be left on the ground?"

[an-unloving-god]

Ajay: I'm not autistic, I'm just a little silly

Ajay: And I'll instantly get defensive and end any relationship if I'm blamed for something I didn't do because I've been misinterpreted so much that I've learned that it's useless to try and correct people.... but that's unrelated :3

[an-unloving-god]

WB!Ajay: Hi.

Hua-Mei: Oh, who are you?

Morningstar: Who are you?

Mori: Who are you?

Aelius: "Ooo, who is this kid? What's he gon' do?"

[an-unloving-god]

Oswaldo: Onyx.

Ajay: Yeeeees?

Oswaldo: Have you been divulging company secrets to the criminals wanted by the IPC?

Ajay: Yeah :3

Oswaldo: You're not supposed to do that!!!

Ajay: I talk about secret stuff with you guys all the time though?

Aven: lmao

Diamond: Child, gossiping with us about what's happening on the Luofu is NOT the same as telling Boothill about the newest weapon Mr. Schneider is building 😃

[an-unloving-god]

Ajay: My curse..... it's doubled.....

Jenny: Huh, how?

Ajay, giggling: My brother.... two straight people🥺

Yanqing: You can't keep making this joke

Boothill, from a far: QUIT TELLIN EVERYONE I'M STRAIGH‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

[an-unloving-god]

[an-unloving-god]

The Apollo cabin: .........

Will: It's saint Patrick's day :3

Kayla: We really don't give a fuck, it's not a major holiday 🤨

Austin: It's really not bitch-

Apollo, wasn't paying attention: Damn?!?

Austin: You act like it's fuckin Christmas or something

Will: Fine then, fuck y'all and saint Patrick's day‼️‼️‼️‼️

[an-unloving-god]

Apollo: ...Sooooo.... that was a pretty big fight you had with your friend back there, and your mom. With a lot of harsh language too.

Ajay: Not my friend. Not my mom.

Apollo: Right, right. You seem pretty adamant on quitting this quest and leaving.

Ajay: I'm hot, I'm sweaty, I haven't bathed in three days, I have a head in my hands that's dripping blood on me, I haven't had a full meal since yesterday, and I'm feeling emotions I haven't felt in nine years. And I'm not talking to Luna.

Ajay: Really, I've accomplished what I set out to do and that was to make sure Jenny was safe. Whatever those three do now has nothing to do with me, I've got zero interest in this quest. The universe is stubborn and stupid, but so am I. I didn't need anyone then, and I don't want some big fix-it-all revelation about why I need anyone now.

Apollo: Oof. You're right. The universe is very stubborn. And sometimes it's also very stupid and makes mistakes...

Ajay: I since a "but" coming

Apollo: Buuut, what if the universe was also very sorry?

Ajay: ...Sorry?

Apollo: Mhm, sorry. For hurting you. For leaving you alone to defend yourself against a really harsh world when you were just a child. For making you think that you had to smother every part of yourself to survive. For never being there to ask if you were okay, or hugging you when someone should've. What if the universe is very sorry for the pain you had to go through?

Ajay: Even if it was, it won't matter in a few days. Emotions don't last forever.

Apollo: But it hurt then, it still hurts now, and that is what matters. You're in pain, and it's as simple as that. You don't have to rationalize it and hide it away. Your emotions use to play a big part in who you were as a child. I can't imagine that's changed no matter how hard they tried.

Apollo: So since emotions aren't the problem, then what is?

Ajay: ...Everything is so much, and I don't have anyone to tell me what I'm supposed to do or how to fix it. My guardians are gone- they were the only family I had left. I yelled at someone, probably hurt her feelings, I didn't mean most of it. My friends are hurt, my feelings are hurt, my head hurts.

Ajay: I thought that if I kept moving forward and dealing with everything, then it would all be fine and the pain would've been worth something. But now... I don't where I am, I don't know who I am or who I'm supposed to be, and I don't know what to do.

Apollo: Hmmmmm, then do nothing!

Ajay: Huh?

Apollo: Do nothing. Go nowhere. Be no one. The world really isn't spinning as fast as you think it is. The sun has been resting in the same spot for a few minutes now, I don't see why you can't rest here too. Maybe, when you're ready to move, you'll know what to do. And if you don't then I'm always here to help, and so is Jenny, her brothers, and your mother.

Ajay: Do nothing, go nowhere, be no one...

Apollo: Yup!

Ajay: ...Okay. I can do that.

Apollo: Good. You've been running for a long time, you know?

Ajay: Mhm.

Apollo: You deserve to rest. God's orders.

Ajay: For someone telling me to you sure are not letting a lot of resting occur

Apollo: Hey, I'll have your know that my voice very soothing and required for optimal rest! I could even sing you a lullaby with a lovely haiku

Ajay: Pfft, sure...

Apollo, watching Ajay sleep: ...Looks like I missed one... or two.

Luna: Good job. I probably wouldn't have been able to make them sleep so quickly.

Apollo: Magic touch

Luna: Magic touch, I'm sure. You have a lot more to apologize for and a lot more making up to do, Mr. Universe.

Luna: But I suppose I do as well.

Apollo: Yeah... we messed up, didn't we

Luna: Perhaps more than we knew. Nein would've known what to do.

Apollo: I guess we'll just need to learn from her

Luna: Maybe we do

[an-unloving-god]

Will: I don't know why I thought they could bake. If they keep going like this, the crepes will be ruined-

Ajay, was whisking, now looking up in horror: A WHOLE STICK OF BUTTER?!

Apollo, hand still in position after launching the butter: When it says "some butter" that means just one stick, right?

Kayla: Wait, looking at it again it says "add some melted butter"!

Austin: It does!! Aw no-

Apollo: We can put the whole bowl in the microwave to melt it!

Kayla: Yeah, good save!

Ajay, putting up a light shield: Wait-

Austin: Hey, why is it glowing...?

Will: Guys, that's a metal bowl