#''Hm...I guess. Wouldn't be the first time weird magic shit happened to me and not you.''

[angstandhappiness]

Neat

Conversation Prompt

“Thank you for not giving up on me. I didn’t - well, I didn’t expect anyone to have that sort of faith in me.”

“I don’t think it was faith. Not really. I feel like - if you died, I’d know it. I knew you were still alive out there, somewhere, because I felt like I’d know it the second your heart stopped beating. Is that strange?”

[punkscowardschampions]

Ali & Ro

NYD Catch-up

Ali: *Daintliy throws the tiniest of pebbles at our window 'cos I'm in trouble enough if this goes tits up without also breaking a window* Ropunzel, Ropunzel, let down your hair! Ro: allow me to busily make tea while I loudly quiz Tess and whoever else may be in earshot about their resolutions Ro: I can't believe you're only just getting home! I was going to ask how you're evening was but I think I can guess Ali: You're a 🌟 Ali: We need to fully mind-map and dream-board ours later, I've got so many ideas already but I at least need in on that tea action first, builder's brew please and thank you 😘 Ali: Shh 😉 I've been in bed since 1 💤 like an 😇 Ali: Hehe social media never lies, not mine at least Ali: I'll tell you all about it, whilst Ma tries to tell you she quit the fags years ago, like 🙄 Ali: 💃 Ro: Of course. Well, there has been a kitty there so the universe should stay on our side with that one, hopefully. Ro: Hm yes, if anyone asks you got back before I did, there's not much I can do if social media decides to answer instead though alas Ro: Oh Tess, no offense intended, but truly I'd much rather hear what you have to say Ali: Oh, Bluebs, hope she was alright with the fireworks, I paid Rocky with a selection box to keep her company but bet he was too busy being a hooligan come 12, nutter...but I'm sure she hid herself nicely warming the blankets for us anyway, like 😽 Ali: Did you and Meena have a good time? With all dem 💶💶💶 you can both more than make up for missing the hottest part night of the year, ay Ali: Bless her heart, though perhaps take her pack away from her still, you'll be helping her and, you might need one after I fill you in, like 😉 Ro: I can't tell a lie there was some bribery involved for us too with the older kids. They had me baking and the text advice I received from Tommy wasn't as helpful or coherent as usual Ro: We definitely earned our crusts it has to be said Ro: I think Meena would've liked to join you so you might want to play down the finer details when you fill her in but no complaints here, fussy children aside Ro: I draw the line at that level of trickery, we'd both be caught if I even tried I think Ali: I think its to be expected, babysitter rules are there are no rules, or very few, ESPECIALLY when it comes to sugar 😋 Lucky kiddos, I would kill for a sweet treat rn Ali: Maybe I can push it and see if the old man is any fit state to do a fry-up too, mmm Ali: We should deffo ring Tommo then and be annoyingly loud and cheerful 'cos he always gets hangovers un🍀 🦆y Ali: Payback Ali: Well her brother was there so she wouldn't have been able to have all that much fun, like, I'll be sure to downplay it though, tact is so my strong suit 😏😂 Ro: Oh? You'll be glad to hear then that I had the foresight to make enough cookies to bring a batch home. There's still a few that could be claimed by you if you're quick enough. Ro: I can make no such promises about a proper breakfast but time will tell I suppose, I'd consider it favorable if you work a little of your own magic Ro: You have plenty left don't you? Ro: We'll likely need an actual spell to wake Tommy after all Ali: Faster than a speeding bullet, me Ali: I can climb these drainpipes like nobody else 🐈💪 Ali: I'm sure we could concoct a pepperup potion, getting him to drink it is another kind of magic altogether Ali: even if we settle for calling it an energizer smoothie or something muggle Ro: Perhaps we could say it has lots of biotin that'd make him more inclined for sure Ali: When quiff is life Ali: He truly is sweet 16 Ali: And 15 is looking up for me too, fingers crossed and knock on wood rn, this is gonna be our year, Posy, and that ain't the after-affects still talkin' Ali: Wished on every 🎆 in the sky Ro: Wishing is very powerful so I'm not surprised, I am very intrigued though Ro: Go ahead Ali: I'm in 💚 Ali: 🙃 and now hiding under the covers eeeeeeeeeeeppppp bye Ro: Did Marlene get off work early last night and surprise you? That's so lovely Ali: No, no, no Ali: It's all but ended and it will be if my feeling is correct and reciprocated Ali: We'll be better off as friends, honestly, I can't give her what she wants but I can be there for as a mate so that's what's best, she'll see that given a bit of time, I'm sure of it Ali: That said...do you think I'm a total slag for who did surprise me last night now? 😳🙈 Ro: Oh okay. That makes sense Ro: No Ali, I'd never Ro: Is it someone I know? You've mentioned Meena's brother already... Ali: Oh lordy no 😂 Drew is an alright lad really but no, he's not the sort, definitely would not be reciprocated, he's got half the girls at School after him and he loves that Ali: More power to him but you're getting warmer Ali: you know the lad him and Meena live with, don't you? Caleb Cavante, in my year too Ali: 😍 Ro: I think so? He's always in the music block isn't he? Ro: He smiles a lot. Not in a weird sense though I don't mean that Ali: Oh Ro 😂 you make ME smile Ali: sounds like him, cool hair Ali: obviously, I knew of him before last night but it was just like...right time, right place, you know? Ali: Sounded triter than all the 'new year, new me' posts aren't I? Ro: Not at all Ro: It sounds like a fairy tale and we're treating it as such! Ro: Did you kiss him at the end of the countdown? Ali: Oh no, I forgot to lose a shoe...Typical, on the one night to make throwing dancing shoes aside count! But I suppose he won't have to search the kingdom high and low Ali: Back at School Tuesday Ali: At least this promises to make my weekdays more entertaining at any rate Ali: Mhmm 😊 *Gameshow host voice* BUT THAT'S NOT ALL Ro: What else is there? Did he lose a shoe instead? I dread to think what I'm missing here... Ali: [Improptu selfie with the tattooed finger over her lips like a moustache] Ali: Not saying that trumps 'Facebook Official' but 😎 Ro: !!!! Ro: did Caleb get a tattoo too? Ali: Oh silly me, yeah Ali: [Photo they took together post-tattoo] Ali: Big n Lil dipper, its cute, right? Ro: Oh my god! You better not post these, Tess will kill you, but Ro: I think that's adorable Ro: Did it hurt so much?? Ali: She'll love it Ali: we did it ourselves, on each other Ali: thank god he wasn't really crap, unfair, I'd have to go over it myself 😂 Ali: Not really, doing lil dots like that by hand is probably the most chill way to do it, it really wasn't anything to think about even Ali: I could do one for you, really get the mumbot shorting a circuit 😈 Ro: Really?! Weren't you scared?! I would be. Ro: Ali that's so brave. He must have trusted you and vice versa to such a degree Ro: Only you'd get all of this out of the way before a first date has even happened Ro: No wonder you're so giddy Ali: Nah it's not scary, you can watch next time I do one on me, if you like, see for yourself Ali: Promise it isn't dead gory or anything Ali: I'm thinking of doing a Clitocybe rivulosa, our 👑 achievement in witchery to date, you want in? Ali: Won't show Mum that one forreal, she'd lock us in separate dungeons again 👎💔 Ali: Yeah...it felt good to get that shit out of the way, this way, if he wants to look down at his hand ever again and not be reminded of a bad memory, we'll have to make it good Ali: Clever, non? Everyone will think its ridiculous, I know, but I trust his intentions now, which is more than I can say for any of my previous Ali: Bar Marlene, of course, although technically she didn't set her intentions but not in a malicious way so we're letting it slide Ro: Do you sincerely promise? I'd like to see the whole thing for myself before I make any of my own but Ro: It does sound lovely. I'd be jealous if I wasn't so pleased Ro: No offense to Marlene, oops, I'm getting carried away here Ro: It is happy news though Ro: I mean, a love letter on skin, that's just Ro: It makes me speechless Ali: 🤞 Ali: ❌💚🙏☠💉👁 Ali: Me too, it's catching Ali: It'll be better in the long run, she can find her a wifey Ali: I know, I just- ahh Ali: He just text, asking if I got Home alright Ro: Sorry but this boy is a keeper Ro: that's so gentlemanly it's like we've stepped into Austen Ro: Are you nervous about school? It just sounds so magical and classrooms are so...well, not, aren't they? Ali: Better! He wasn't stand-offish and rude to me at the party, only to be won 'round by my wit, humor and independent spirit Ali: Clearly, he's more clued in and go-with-the-flow than Darcy, a win in anyone's books, even Jane's Ali: Hmm, not particularly, nah Ali: I'm not overly concerned with what other people think, so that won't spoil it, fat chance Ali: and we've always had a certain talent for making the mundane magical, haven't we? Ro: Jane would be spinning! Lydia with all her apparent lack of concerns for 'social conventions' has nothing on you and I have little doubt you'd be overjoyed by whatever 'disgraces' Caleb had in mind Ro: A much better match that anything she'd have conceived no doubt Ro: School seems so far off still but now I really am envious that you've made certain you'll have reason to look forward to it. Very unfair! Ro: The only fly in the ointment, potentially is what Marlene might say, how much are you going to tell her? Ali: 🙊 Ali: I'd be happy to regale you with the night's disgraces but I have even less doubt that you'd rather not hear about those details Ali: You're not trying to tell me you've previously nearly eloped with Caleb yourself though, are you? 🤔 Georgiana Darcy is a pretty good fit for you Ali: Now that would be a scandal worth the gossip 😏 Ali: Perhaps you can join me and make the music block your new haunt for a bit, give the library chance to REALLY miss you, like Ali: Hmm, no doubt she'll say things she'll regret when her pride is less hurt Ali: but they aren't prejudices against my 'fake' sexuality I haven't heard before, from her as well, so 🤷 Ali: I understand why, not that I agree with her. For one, I can attest to the reality, and also, I've not got any issue with experimentation, whatever the outcome but I see her frustration Ali: Serious as she is, about, everything Ali: It'll be okay, if she doesn't want to be my friend then alright, her loss frankly, but I'll always be there for her if she chooses Ro: To be honest, no I would not. It's much too early in the year, and day, for all that Ro: Oh goodness! Flattered as I would be to considered an accomplished woman, I fall short in all necessary regards, least of all the elopement alas Ro: Hm, as much as I both enjoy, and clearly need the practice for that comparison to hold true in any sense, I think I'll leave you to the necessary haunting yourself Ro: True. She's always been very vocal, hasn't she? I can understand if you slightly relish the opportunity to leave her speechless just this once too Ro: And it really would be her loss if she chooses that path to go down anyway Ali: What can I say? I'm an overachiever Ali: Couldn't even help myself, like 😎😂 Ali: No you don't, and you're a year younger, you're well ahead of the curve set and it ain't even necessary for a lady to have pleasant hobbies and talents in our day and age so Ali: You're an overachiever too, that's why I loooooove you 💚 Ali: S'cool though, suppose we don't wanna turn up en masse, put him off his A game, bit rude Ali: It is one of the things I admire about her but less so her dogmatism Ali: No one is always right about everything, even me 😜 Ro: Thanks I suppose Ro: Though I probably shouldn't pass on that wisdom about not always being right to everyone else at the kitchen table Ro: Not if I would like to live to be a year older at any rate Ali: Honestly 🙄 Ali: No wonder they love Marlene so much Ali: Ma is gonna be gutted, no doubt it'll be all my fault Ali: like lowkey but damn, woman, show a little loyalty when your daughter can't 😂 Ro: She'll calm down as long as you keep your gentleman caller away from the door for a while I'm sure Ro: When is the first date set for actually? Oh so exciting! Ali: Yeah, we've both agreed as much Ali: For Lene's sake as much as mother's Ali: Gotta get my house in order Ali: I don't know, ooh, what should we do?! Ro: There's always the open mic if he'd adore being serenaded Ro: Sounds like you'd have time to work on a dedication if not a song Ali: THAT IS A FANTASTIC IDEA Ali: I'll bring out an old classic, best to stick with what I know and am best at for max best impressions Ali: Can always go new and exciting with the outfit 🤩 Ro: Exacty Ro: Your full of good ideas when it comes to that Ro: Oh! We should go donation diving. New year, new clothes to peruse through Ali: Yes! We must we must! Ali: Best time of year for it, ungrateful fuckers binning their unwanted presents Ali: Regift 'em our way 🙏 Ali: Marlene wants to meet up later Ali: Looks like we're doing this today then, ugh, we can hit the charity shops tomorrow maybe? The sales rush shoulda died down a bit at least Ro: That works for me, I'd rather not fight for my faux furs, somewhat defeats the desired purpose Ro: I'll be around if things with Marlene go according to plan, or otherwise and you need to talk it out Ali: Agreed, though I'm down for granny bashing our way to the bargains if needs must Ali: I'll be getting some practice in today, like 🙃 Ali: Thank you though, Posy Ali: Sure it'll be fine Ro: I know it will. You can do this Ro: I can condone that much at least, your shopping behavior less so Ali: 😽 Ali: With you on my side, how could I fail? Ali: She is getting narky though so watch me waltz down the stairs and out again like missed me missed me

[april132009]

TT: Whatever actually went down, they're surely both dead now.

TT: I guess it had to happen like that, though.

TT: There's no way the Condesce would allow us to be born within even a century of our genetic forebears. The thought of that was completely disgusting to her.

TT: But I really would have liked to be able to meet them.

TT: I guess some things would just be too awesome to ever stand a chance of happening.

GT: Yeah i know the feeling. :(

GT: Wait...

TT: What?

GT: Dirk didnt you tell me at some point that you did find evidence the witch killed them?

TT: As of now? No.

GT: Are you sure? I SWEAR i remember you saying something about that.

TT: How could I have said anything like that before today? This was obviously the first time I mentioned any of this.

GT: Oh.

GT: I am just having the NUTTIEST deja vu thing going on now. I feel weird.

TT: ...

GT: I guess i am mistaken. Never mind.

TT: Ok.

TT: I will disregard your anomalous observation for now and continue conversing as if it never happened.

GT: Right. Good plan.

GT: Um.

GT: Anyhoo thats a heck of a tragic and thrilling tale dirk.

GT: I am still totally cockeyed and catawampus about it all i dont even know what to think.

TT: But you believe me, right?

GT: Oh yeah every word of it!

TT: Wow.

GT: Why shouldnt i? You are my friend and i trust you.

TT: I still just think it's impressive, is all. Even after all this time. You are pretty much a one of a kind dude.

GT: Heh not really i just like believing stuff and believing in people.

GT: Wait what do you mean?

TT: About what?

GT: When you said after all this time?

GT: You just told me now!

TT: Yes.

GT: Hang on.

GT: Blarg! The deja vuey shit is happening again!!!

GT: Okay i am SURE weve had this conversation before so many things are familiar.

GT: I remember you saying the one of a kind dude thing and i remember saying the word catawampus and...

GT: All of it!

GT: Whats going on?

TT: Took you long enough to figure it out.

TT: Pages really are a slow burning class. Damn.

GT: Figure what out!

TT: You're asleep.

GT: Oh.

GT: Thats right. I fell off the platform thing and i guess i got knocked out?

TT: Yep.

GT: So im dreaming.

TT: Kinda.

TT: It's a dream bubble.

GT: Whats that?

TT: A place in the infinite abyss where sleeping people can share dreams with each other while revisiting memories.

TT: Also where they can meet dead people.

GT: So we are sharing a dream together?

GT: And youre currently asleep too? Uh. Currently in the future?

TT: No.

TT: Even if I was, I wouldn't visit a dream bubble. That only happens when your dream self is dead, like yours is.

TT: Mine is not.

GT: Hm. I guess i understand?

GT: So whats the deal then? Wait.

GT: You said this is where they meet dead people too...

GT: Shit! Dirk are you dead? Are you a ghost!?

TT: No, dude. Chill. I'm fine.

GT: Then what the fuck is going on! Who am i talking to?

TT: Well, who are the people you talk to when you have a regular dream?

GT: What? Uh...

TT: Like just a boring normal dream, and there's a person you're talking to. Who is that?

GT: I dont know?

TT: It's nobody. Just a projection of your own mind.

TT: Dream bubbles don't always need to be shared by dreamers or dead people. You can go to sleep and wake up in one alone, reliving an old memory.

TT: Kind of like a normal dream. Until you remember it's just a memory, which is where we are now.

GT: Okay.

GT: So.

GT: I am having like a lucid dreamy thing in a magic bubble and you are just like a figment of my imagination?

TT: Yes, basically.

GT: So im talking to myself! Thats kind of stupid!

TT: Well, yeah. But not quite.

TT: You could view me as a projection of the real Dirk within your mind, as expressed through all of your thought patterns about him.

TT: So I'm kind of a splinter of his corporeal self who happens to live in your awareness.

TT: I'm a startlingly close approximation to the real thing, for all intents and purposes.

GT: Just how startlingly close are we talking?

TT: I'm not going to give you a bogus percentage like the glasses cause that's not my shtick.

TT: But pretty damn close.

GT: Okay thats fair.

GT: But.

GT: Man.

GT: There is something that feels kind of weird about this. You being in my head... its a little messed up!

TT: What's messed up about it?

TT: You were the one who put me here, with your intimate understanding of all his mannerisms and predilections.

TT: And a splintered existence is pretty much how he rolls.

TT: This is how shit is bro.

GT: Ok im sorry for saying its messed up but...

GT: Its still a bit frustrating! Ive been trying to talk to you all day.

GT: But all i get is your pesky responder bedeviling me at every turn and your friggin robot punching me across the ocean and then throwing a weird tantrum and ripping his nuclear heart out in front of me.

GT: And if that werent enough i tumbled off the doohickey and knocked myself out and now im strolling down memory lane with your fake brain ghost!

GT: Its like you are surrounding me from all sides with imitations of yourself but never the REAL YOU!!!

GT: Cheese and fucking crackers when do i just get to talk to the actual dirk?

TT: Jake, what do you even know about someone's actual self?

TT: What makes it actual? What is "actuality?"

GT: What a horseshitty question!

GT: I dont know anything about actuality i guess but i know some philosobabble horseshit when i dadblasted hear it.

TT: I'm just saying, this isn't really your field of expertise.

TT: Dirk is the heart guy. He's the one walking the path of self, even when he doesn't know it. Like right now.

GT: But what does that mean?

GT: And how can you really be made of only my thoughts when i dont even know what youre talking about sometimes?

GT: Or when i didnt know some of the things youre telling me? Like about being in a dream bubble?

GT: How can i tell myself about that stuff through brain ghost dirk!

TT: Who says you don't know those things on some level?

GT: I dont think i do!

GT: I have no business knowing those things.

TT: Pages have a lot of untapped potential.

TT: That's practically all there is to the class, actually.

TT: But when they eventually find it, look out.

TT: And the ones who deal in hope? Shit, man.

TT: I'm scared of you already, and I'm not even real.

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