#( SELF ) 𓂃 ⠀✧.˚⠀ HARLEY

[macluver69]

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☠️ ⋅𓂃 ࣪ self para, PRAYER TO HADES 💖🔥👻

               winter knew that the vibes of the camp would immediately change when one of them would end up losing their lives. he was thankful knowing that harley would be alright. winter wasn't a dense. he pieced the pieces together and was certain that harley tried giving part of himself to the barrier. and yet he was okay. other's weren't so lucky.

he tossed and turned, struggling to fall asleep. how could he? with everything that was going on. he hadn't slept well in days.

winter turned to look at harley. the way he was in that moment, so peaceful sleeping next to him. winter's fingers gently touched his cheek, letting them slowly slide down the godling's jawline and his lips. the thought of losing him scared winter. he had never been more worried about a person like that before. when he heard about what had happened to gabe, he was worried about harley. and when he found him in the middle of the field, he was scared that someone had hurt him. but he was alive, he was breathing, he was safe.

after laying there for what felt like hours, he slipped out of the bed, and grabbed one of harley's hoodies. whenever he felt restless like this, he needed to walk and let himself drown in his thoughts if he needed to.

stepping out of the cabin, he walked around the camp. finding his way to his cabin. it was almost finished, probably done in the next few days, but he went inside. he grabbed his bags and a couple of items before heading out once more.

as he walked, he thought about his time here. it was strange that it had only been almost two months since they had arrived. but he felt like he had been here for a much longer time. perhaps time here moved slower or something, who knew. but as he walked around, he was starting to feel something he hadn't felt in a really long time. HE FELT HOMESICK.

when the young son of hades reached a more grassy area, he quickly took his shoes and socks off and begun to walk barefoot on the greenery field. feeling the wet, soft blades, he found his destination. seeing the lake, it was something that kept him grounded. he wasn't afraid of the water. not anymore, not like he was before. after a few lessons, winter felt a little more comfortable getting in. he learned how to swim.

but those thoughts never left him, of the accident, his sister. and even though those memories were ingrained in his memory, he had new ones that were also connected to the water, specifically this lake.

winter sat a few feet away from the shore, and he sighed. hand started to squeeze into a fist, and after a moment he opened it up, revealing a blue flame that danced around his hand.

" we're just lambs waiting for the slaughter, aren't we? " he whispered. " how are suppose to do anything when there are things we do that can be risks to our lives. people are leaving, people are dying, " he shook his head. he thought of gabe, how he was so green coming to the camp. their first interaction at the library and how stressed he was trying to learn about everything there was about the place, and of his godly parent. he was sad he was gone. the moments he spent with him, brief, still made and impact. he took a deep breath. he didn't want anyone else to die. he didn't want to die.

" dad, sometimes i don't want to be here, " he said. " but i'm trying. i'm trying to stay strong, trying to make you proud. but–– none of us should end up losing our lives so quickly, not when we have yet to fully live..." he said as he let the flame dance in the air and float off into the water.

" i wish you could give me a sign, to tell me that i'm doing things like i should. that i am in fact making you proud. i may not be a leader, or a shield. " winter waved his hand slightly, and the blue flames engulfed his hand now. " i may not be the most charismatic, feeling like i can't make proper connections, but i promise you dad, i'm trying. but i'm feel lonely sometimes, now that i don't have my dogs here, i guess i lost a connection of what home use to be. but there are people here that are becoming my new home and i would feel so lost if anything ever happened to those i–– love, or may love, i don't... "

winter waved his hand so that the fire could fizzle out. from his bag he grabbed the items that he picked from his cabin. he placed the offering bowl in front, and then grabbed the herbs he made tea with when he got to have with gabe. he placed them in, followed by some mint leaves, and one of his keys to his old home back in new york. with a flick of the wrist, a small flame appeared from his hand and he placed it in the bowl for it to burn the content inside.

" dad, i always struggle asking for help. but i'm putting my faith in you. i ask for your help. i wish i there was a way i could help the others like they help me, like they help each other. i wish i could be a small shield somehow. " winter looked up at the water. " i don't want anyone else dying, and if i could help in some way. i wish there was a way to help sethan and alejandro. and i pray that gabe's soul is with you, or wherever his soul is, he's not suffering. "

winter looked back onto the bowl, the fire stirring, the blue flame shining bright. " i really hope i am making you proud dad. even after everything, i really hope you're not upset for choosing me as your heir. " winter finally said, ending his prayer and watching as the flames danced around in the bowl. even if his father didn't answer, he hoped that he was listening.

[macluver69]

ROMEO - 22 - HE/WHATEVA - AUTISTIC

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What's your most favorite thing about Mac? On the flip side what's the the thing he loves the most about you? - hyperionshipping

EEEEPPPPP oh man this made me sooo embarrassed to think about gwaaaaa >\\\\<

my favorite thing about mac & his favorite thing about my s/i i think go hand in hand really well its sort of the biggest reason i started self shipping with him at all!! what i find so endearing about mac is how he wants love so bad. he lived a whole life with neither his parents loving him and it led him to sort of living in his own delusions that his parents do love him and accept him as gay :( (sad. not good.) but to see him interact with EVERYONE and like. all morals go out the window, all opinions are forgotten, EVERYTHING is thrown out in the face of being approved of and loved by someone else. i really feel bad for him because i relate to it so much and its why its so important to me. i know what it feels like to feel what he feels and i want to care for him .. My really bad “i can fix him” symptoms set in and its lethal i think…….

so then in return in our au mac loves my s/i so bad because harley offers him this nonjudgmental place of unconditional love. unlike the rare approval he gets from strangers or the spotty support he occasionally gets from his friends harley’s love isn’t a switch he just flips on and off. it’s definitely hard to get used to for mac because he is so not used to being treated that way but when he acclimates to it i think harley and mac find such a place of healing in each other (because when theyre both autistic and really struggle with similar issues) 😵‍💫😵‍💫 harley feels a sense of completion and comfort having mac to care for and dote on and mac grows as a person i think so so much now that hes given a place to grow ++ that place isn’t judgmental and isn’t retracted EVER. they love each other so bad and can #heal and #improve so bad together and learn to #accommodate their lives in autistic ways you didnt even know were possible

[macluver69]

💢💌🎀! (@raylex)

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💢 What’s an unpopular opinion you have regarding your F/O? Okkkk im not toooooo well versed in the iasip fandom? the most fandom interactions i see are like. edits on my tiktok fyp hahahaa but i’ve seen ppl say that mac gets stupider as the seasons go on and i think its so WOEFULLY UNTRUE . he is a STUPID MAN and hes been STUPID from day one!!!!! did no one see the episode where he tries to go to an abortion rally just to pick up women. He is so idiotic in the face of getting what he wants. Please

💌 How did you/your F/O confess your feelings to one another? ATGGG we havent talked about that much yet but!!! i really think that harley (or nathan …) confesses to mac first because mac sort of assumes like. Well i guess ill live forever feeling obsessed with these two men .. That’s my cross to bear .. I have to just deal with it.. and then harley & nathan outright just tell him like . We are sooo obsessed with you baby girl. and mac is so shocked it takes him DAYS and DAYS to process this

🎀 What’s your favorite thing about your F/O’s appearance? PICKING JUST ONE. IS PAINFUL. GWAAAAAA….. i looooooove love love macs SWWET PUPPYDOG EYES!!!!! he has these big downturned brown eyes and looonnggg eyelashes and its SO adorable .. i love the pitiful little pleading emoji face he so naturally pulls when he has built in puppy dog eyes he is SO. so sweet.

sleepover inspired self ship asks!

[macluver69]

bug and water for the pokemon ask n_n/

[Bug]: How do you comfort one another when you get scared? Is there any teasing involved? i think absolutely NO teasing is allowed actually!! mac is canonically very very touchy when he's upset and thats 100% still the case with his boyfriends too, and i think harley is the same way. with them being so similar i think mac and harley both get very defensive and more upset when they feel like theyre being made fun of, especially when theyre scared. harley and mac's whole dynamic is built off of their taking care of each other and comfort that they find in each other so i think in the event that either of them are scared they both probably go the route of trying to hug each other and cuddle, and they tell each other that everything will be okay, and i think in the case of harley helping mac especially harley tries a lot to prompt him to talk to him about what was wrong and to vocally process it together

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pkmn themed self ship asks!

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water & fireeeee smile

[Fire]: Who’s the better chef between you and your f/o? Do you ever cook together? If so, what’s your favorite dish to make? oohh well mac definitely cant cook . canonically he cannot cook at all and thats 100% true. even dennis (or charlie i cant remember) later said that all mac eats is energy drinks and mac and cheese :sob: harley i dont think is very GOOD at cooking either bc it takes so much of his energy and it is really really exhausting for him to do, and he just does .. not really care about it at all... but well reality is SOMEONE has to make dinner for them and it most likely would have ot be harley. i think him having to cook with nathan or mac around him just stresses him out more esp bc mac cannot cook and so now its just more shit to worry about

[Water]: What does a beach day with your f/o look like? Do you go swimming or check out the boardwalk? awwwww. mac loves playing in the ocean and swimming in the ocean and he would even just enjoy laying in a raft/floatie (for a little while)... i think harley also to an extent enjoys the ocean but well. he probably would enjoy more sitting on the beach and drawing or reading or something? nathan probably likes going in the ocean the very least out of the 3 of them if he likes it at all. i can imagine both nathan and mac enjoy going to the boardwalk too but with harley being me i cant imagine he especially WANTS to do that

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fun fact about harley is i have NOT decided on a specific age for him mainly because the actual timeline compared to canon source material of when him and mac meet is suuuuper blurry and im not totally sure when in mac's life they meet and get together and stuff. however i do know that he's probably right around mac's age, maybe like 3-5 yrs younger, and then nathan is a little younger than harley too :p

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[deathscn]

☠️ ⋅𓂃 ࣪ self para, but can be open starter ≻ location ; the lake

               winter had been thinking about everything that had been going on. it hadn't been a week and the departure of son of hera was feeling rather fresh. for a while now he had been holding in a lot of emotions, building up after each blow that he received. people leaving, sethan's death, more friends leaving, and then harley. he was just tired of feeling like he was putting so effort into relationships and realizing how quickly those relationships could be taken away.

was it him? was he the reason why people in his life end up not being part of it any longer. his father told him that being the prince of the dead meant he would know loss too well. he had lost a lot of people he cared about. either from age, from sickness, from mere accidents. but he also lost people he had good relationships with, friendships, either from distance or because there was falling out. but it was never his choice.

maybe he was cursed. and even with the only people he felt very close with, reassure him that they will never leave, he still heard the voice in the back of his head. they're going to leave or they are going to die. he hated that these voices were becoming louder now. he felt like before, he didn't think this way. maybe he avoided people so he wouldn't get too close for this to happen, and he was figuring out why he was such a loner before. maybe now he was realizing that this was the reason.

he looked out over to the water. " fuck, " he mutters, feeling the emotions coming out. he was trying. trying to be strong. and even during the quest he felt like he didn't do his best. he was knocked out twice. he was thankful for isaac for helping him. but still, he felt like had done terrible. harley was on his mind too much. he was making some of the worst decisions out there. he needed to get him out of his head, he needed to just feel all this. he let it out with corey, but he was still not okay.

he didn't want to become this. he didn't want to feel the ache of a broken heart. he wanted a chance to be happy, but even when he found that happiness, somehow it was taken away. he sobbed quietly. winter was feeling overwhelmed, his emotions being too much in that moment so he jumped into water, clothes and all, and he started to let himself sink. he then let all his emotions out and started to scream.