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[beyondevilslut]

[juniperhillpatient]

This conversation between Shauna & Jeff in Digestif is SO interesting as a precursor to season 3. I wanted to rewatch some season 2 episodes because I said season 3 totally reframed season 2’s writing in a positive way for me & gosh I really do stand by that.

Shauna’s worst fear truly is being boring! And it ALL boils back down to that tragic unresolved tension between her & Jackie. Jackie made Shauna feel small. Jackie had charisma. Jackie was a natural leader. And it made Shauna feel so worthless - forever afraid of her feelings for Jackie & intimidated by her & jealous of her. Shauna loved Jackie but she also wanted to be her & she also hated her for the way she made her feel.

I unfortunately can’t find any screenshots of Shauna bagging the packaged meat containing human remains in her dream interaction with ghost Jackie while she’s sleeping outside Melissa’s house (god there really will never be another show like this.) But it’s such an interesting scene because Shauna is horrified that “this” is her life. She’s bagging groceries. It’s human meat but it’s packaged, it’s put away. She did all those horrific things for nothing. Just to have this basic life & the worst part of it all is that Jackie is STILL mocking her.

The real Jackie loved Shauna. She could be a little bitchy, but it was never intentionally malicious. That insecurity that Shauna feels deep in her bones is just like the unwell ness that Lottie talks about. I want to write a whole meta on the girls who can’t go home sometime but for now let’s focus on Shaunas insecurity. She projects it on everyone around her because SHE can’t be allowed to be boring.

I’ve seen it said that the thesis of Jackie & Shaunas relationship is “why didn’t you ever say anything?” And I would agree! To an extent! I do think that Shauna’s insecurity ran so deep that the relationship had a high potential to be toxic even if they both opened up. But I also think that if there’s NO version where the story has a happy ending then there’s no tragedy & also that there genuinely IS a world where these two could’ve healed if the circumstances were a little different. If it’s true that there were slumber party make outs before that makes it even more likely. They’re halfway there. They just needed to admit that it was real & talk about it & reaffirm what they meant to each other!

I was put off at first by the talk of “two realities” in season 3. I didn’t want another Lost. but I think I understand where it’s going now.

There was a tiny chance at a happy ending & positive growth somewhere for Shauna, in another life. But it crashed & burned with the plane. She destroyed it & consumed it along with Jackie’s flesh & her entire identity. And then there was Melissa!

I don’t want this to get any more excessively long then it already has but the entire reason I started talking about Shauna’s fear of being boring is her suicidal ideation in the finale.

The wilderness has twisted Shaunas perception of everything including normalcy vs “boring.” Way back in the pilot she “just wanted to win” hence her standing back & letting the plan to injure Allie go through. So yes, she was always a little twisted. But now? She’s lost Jackie. She held her dead baby in her arms. She butchered her pseudo little brother after everyone left him to die including her because they were starving to death. At this point, she doesn’t know how to exist except in chaos. That’s what trauma does. Shauna CANT deal with things being safe & normal.

Shauna would rather DIE than have Melissa be “boring” because she’s projecting her own insecurities onto Melissa. Shauna tried to play the role she PERCEIVED Jackie to have in her life by emotionally manipulating & degrading Melissa to the last. And Shauna has been making impossible choices & doing horrible things for months. For Melissa to make the merciful choice when Shauna never did? That’s worse to Shauna than Melissa killing her.

Shauna has always sought excitement & risk. Cheating with Jeff is the first glimpse we get of it. Cheating on Jeff with Adam is the first biggie in the adult timeline. She can’t sit still & that’s amplified in the wilderness.

Shauna is homicidal but she’s also suicidal. She seeks risk like it’s an addiction. Adult Melissa accuses Shauna of wanting to blow up her life & she’s not wrong. (Of course Melisa ALSO specifically sought out her ex who once shot a gun inches from her & made her piss herself publicly then smirked about it & jumped Shaunas bones when Shauna held a knife to her throat & later after she & Shauna crippled a man together sooo… okay this is already too long we don’t have time to do an in depth on this crazy bitch too)

Anyway in conclusion Shauna will NEVER be satisfied. The most excited she ever was by Melissa was when Melissa almost killed her & she was disappointed when that failed. Then she turned her rage about it into sadism with Mari. Anyway never forget that Shauna Shipman might be destructive to everyone else around her but she is also destructive to herself & completely broken & twisted inside & THAT is why she is my poor little pookie meow meow forever. Thank you for coming to my TED talk 🫡

[sysig]

Do not separate them /threatening (Patreon)

[roominthecastle]

Siegfried & Audrey + the big divorce arc of S4

[rhaenicentpilled]

Gideon The Ninth is the first book im planning to read as soon as the clock hits 12am 1/1/2025

thoughts and prayers plz :3

[angelo-chuck-wagon]

Pride month may be officially over, but it ain't gotta end for us! We're like this every dang day! Today's the big day if ya wanna dress all pretty! Stop by this thread and have a good time! Remember, this part's all ages. Create a new thread if you wanna do anything... you know... more private!

(Fixed the poster since Angelo musta forgot to put my name.)

[kingkatsuki]

Specifically thinking about long distance relationships today.

So tell me how you and your f/o would first meet online?

[ljblueteak]

Discussion of Chase and religion, my beloved! I am loving these takes from the TWOP Chase thread (can't believe I only started reading yesterday!) This discussion took place after House vs. God but before Forever, and also after sherlock21b shared that "Jesse Spencer, in that recent TV Academy webcast said Chase does believe in G-d, but that he's pissed off at him."

Shanna Marie, April 26, 2006:

My take on Chase's religious issues, piecing together and extrapolating from what we've heard, is that he was the one who wanted to be a priest, but his father wanted him to be a doctor. Being the people-pleaser he is, and with his deep-seated need to get approval and attention from his father, he wasn't able to stand up to his father, so he dropped out of seminary and became a doctor. That then made him feel like he'd betrayed God, that he'd been given a test of faith, and his faith wasn't strong enough for him to be able to stand up to his father and stand up for his faith. He put something else ahead of God, which is rather frowned upon in religion. Then, of course, he tries to rationalize his choice -- such as when he went off on the nun about how she wasn't really doing any good locked up in a convent instead of out in the world actually doing something. It's like he tries to convince himself that he's actually doing more good by being a doctor than he would have as a priest. And then at times his rationalization seems to be that it doesn't mean anything, anyway, that maybe his religious beliefs were all wrong, and there really isn't anything to them, so he would have been wasting his life devoting himself to that. And then he feels more guilty because there's even more betrayal. Any staying away from the church that he does now is likely because he feels unworthy, and because it's a reminder to him that his faith wasn't strong enough (not to mention a reminder that in spite of his best efforts, he couldn't help but care what his father thought of him). He's not so much mad at God as he is worried that God is mad at him, and then he resents God for being mad at him.

I also really think D.C.'s point in that discussion—"I think most people have a faith that's on a sliding scale, one that slides back and forth throughout their life"—applies well to Chase, and that's one of the reasons he might seem to have faith more at some points than others.

[altarfates]

i have been rping for like fifteen years and ive just realised that i have no idea if i'm meant to reply to the thread as in reply to what's given to me or continue the fucking plot like ???????? this is why my replies become 200 paragraphs long and because im addicted to describing shit i need to stop talking abt eyes but the eyes MATTER TO ME.

[kelvingemstone]

sean finnerty is greatly enhanced by the costume and the accent sure but the core of his appeal is in how he is a barely controlled slavering set of jaws trying his best to put on manners and not seeing how it only serves to reveal how monstrous he has been made. a dog grown too big for the leash but you can still see the frayed collar around his neck, and he can feel it too

[carolperkinsexgirlfriend]

Steddie Upside-Down AU Part 39.5

(this takes place just before their first day back to school after the events of season one)

They slip out of the trailer. 

The park is just waking up around them, a few birds chirping, Mr. Robinson’s car starting up as he drives to work. One of their older neighbors must have fallen asleep with the television on – he can hear its static blaring all the way out here. 

It makes a shiver run up his spine. That almost familiar, eerie sound that resonates through a Demogorgon’s call.

But, the sun is shining and Steve’s safe and whole and warm at his side. So, he brushes it off, skipping over to the passenger side of the van and holds it open for Steve with a bow. 

Steve rolls his eyes, but there’s no more desperation bleeding into his expression. He’s like a caged bird, freed. He even settles his fingers daintily into Eddie’s flourished out hand, like he’s a maiden being helped into a carriage. 

Eddie closes the door once all of Steve’s limbs are in and accounted for, and damn near skips around the front of the van and flings himself into the driver’s seat. 

Dio blares out of his speakers when he turns the key until Steve reaches over to turn the dial down. Eddie tries to pout about it but the edges of his mouth keep turning up.

Steve’s slumped over in the passenger seat, arms crossed as he lolls his head sideways against the headrest to glare over at Eddie. “You’re really not going to tell me where we’re going?”

“It’s a surprise.” He bites his lip against a grin as Steve huffs and rolls his head the other direction to glare out his window. 

Eddie taps his fingers to the quiet beat of the song, blood sizzling with anticipation. 

It’s a short drive, made longer by the careful way he’s stopping and starting, taking each turn ten below his usual. There’s precious cargo barely on the mend in here, and he won’t risk damaging it any more.

He pulls into an empty parking space, easing his foot onto the break. There’s only one other car in the lot, but the open sign in the front window of the diner is lit up. It’s a lurid red, but Eddie’s willing to forgive it.

“This is the surprise?” Steve asks. He’s not glaring anymore, but he’s looking doubtfully out of the windshield, eyebrows raised as he eyes the diner’s front door like he’s never seen it before. “Breakfast?”

Eddie reaches over to pinch his side – softly, gently – until Steve laughs that honking pig laugh that Eddie loves so much and has so rarely heard.

“You don’t remember?” Eddie asks, teasing. “You said you’d kill for some bacon, and now you don’t even want to go in?”

There’s something fathomless in Steve’s eyes as he finally looks over at Eddie. It makes heat pool in Eddie’s gut, sinking into him until he’s aflame. He wants to scoop out Steve’s brain, figure out what’s ticking away in there. He wants to rip out one of Steve’s eyelashes and make a wish. 

“I remember,” Steve murmurs, looking up into Eddie’s eyes. 

He still looks sallow and tired, but there’s a rudy pink blooming on his cheeks by the time Eddie rounds the van again to open his door. He doesn’t hold out his hand this time, but Steve still settles his fingers onto Eddie’s shoulder and uses it to lever himself up and out.

Eddie rushes back around to lock the van. Steve doesn’t wait for him, but he holds the door open wide to let Eddie in. There’s a little bell dangling off the handle that jingles under Steve’s shaky grip. 

Eddie hurries in. 

The waitress moves at her usual sleepy pace, calling out a quiet, “mornin’”, as she heads over to their chosen booth with unnecessary menus. 

Her eyes widen when she catches sight of Steve’s state, but she doesn’t comment, just takes their orders and walks away without writing anything down.

They settle into sleepy silence. 

Eddie’s breath stutters in his lungs when he feels Steve’s foot hook atop his under the booth. He taps the toes of his boot three times against Steve’s tennis shoe and smiles across at him.

The cook must be raring to go because it takes less than ten minutes for their waitress to round the partition, arms laden with dishes piled high with food. 

Eddie’d followed Steve’s lead, so there’s two of everything. The pancakes are fluffy, squares of butter melting at their centers, sides of warmed maple syrup just waiting to be poured. The hashbrowns are greasy and crip on the outside, soft on the center.

The bacon’s bubbling with fat, edges crisp, steam still rising from its surface. Fresh off the griddle. Eddie skewers a piece on his fork. He thrusts it up toward the middle of the table, nudging Steve’s sneaker repeatedly.

“What?” 

“A toast!” Eddie calls, beaming across at Steve when he finally gets with the program and raises his own fork and its dangling bacon. Eddie clinks their forks together. Fat drops in fat drops down onto the previously clean table. “To fresh starts!”

Steve brings his fork down to his mouth and takes a huge bite, closing his eyes in apparent ecstasy. “To good bacon.”

“And a monster free life.”

“And staying right-side-up.”

“Here, here!” Eddie cries, ignoring the way the waitress is glaring at the mess and ruckus their making. 

Because Steve’s smiling down at his food, taking big, savoring bites. The edges of the morning have been sanded down. 

Besides, it’s only fair. All Eddie had wanted when he got out was to hug Uncle Wayne, and he had. Steve doesn’t have a Wayne, so if he wants bacon, he gets bacon.

Eddie’d make sure of it, for as long as Steve will let him.

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[swordmaid]

PAUSE. thinking of changing the thumb on her mouth to a dagger on her tongue and now perhaps I am thinking about a scenario where she comes across a drow absolute cultist in act 2 wielding the very same dagger, and upon that drow’s death she finds out she was sent by her matriarch to kill her - bc she was never meant to survive her trip up the surface.

[mbirnsings-71]

(26/365) Me when I said I would do writing but I'm blanking so hard on words-

[not-poignant]

ok so I saw that you dont get many asks about this so i've worked up the courage to finally ask this but for Anton and Flitmouse in TGATNW, have you thought about how it would develop in that universe compared to UTG. Tbh, I was originally actually interested in them bc Flitmouse wants monogamy and has self-worth issues about himself while Anton is confident and has fucked just about everyone and likes it that way. But in UTR that kind of conflict doesnt really work the same way and seems to be heading for a different route. Would Anton have dedicated himself to Flitmouse (like in UTG) or would Flitmouse have grown to be less insecure about it all?

Btw, I love them both lotss, and they were the pairing that got me to read the rest of the UTR series <3

Tbh one of the reasons I stopped writing the story in The Golden Age that Never Was is because I knew it would never have a truly happy ending and I struggle to commit to stories like that.

Like, Flitmouse is mortal, Anton is immortal. Flitmouse is highly jealous, and Anton is immortal literally because every mortal he knows and loves will die and that grief kills him, for decades upon decades. Flitmouse knows Anton's love for him will do this and that Anton will then go on to have sex with lots of other people, and Anton knows that this breaks Flitmouse's heart and refuses to compromise because Flitmouse isn't a golden warrior.

In Underline the Gold they still get to have a happy ending. Because Flitmouse can be jealous or possessive but Anton is committed to him literally through their job. I can touch on an age discrepancy without having one literally live forever.

I do think in All The Loose Threads Flitmouse would have eventually adjusted, but I still think he would have always been a bit bitter and cynical about it in a way that's like... I always imagined his last years alive as an old man being quite painful for him because of it. After a while I was like 'I...can't write these two characters in this specific format because I love them so much and I want them to have a happy ending.'

It was just hard to imagine that without thinking of the weight of Flitmouse's and Anton's knowledge that it would all end in a level of heartbreak for Anton that we can't imagine for ourselves, because we're not immortal.

[longagoitwastuesday]

ngl it sort of pisses me off the way adults regard Gojo in Jujutsu Kaisen at times. Which could be a very interesting and poignant point in a good way if well written, but as it is it becomes mainly just frustrating and sad in a negative way.

Nanami saying Gojo never cared about anything or anyone other than himself crashes interestingly with Kusakabe saying the whole situation was just all his fault because he refused to kill Itadori. The students are very aware of those aspects of Gojo's personality, but overall they seem to regard him with way more kindness and fondness even when at their rudest, not truly coinciding with either Nanami's or Kusakabe's views.

[darabeatha]

ㅤ/ It's been a long while since i've done one of these (or if I've ever done one at all) but!! currently, this is the list of my muses in here that I currently feel most inspired to write for! meaning that chances are that I might (big emphasis on might) feel more inspired to write with these characters than the rest / might be easier for me to cook replies with them;

Fresh from the oven (the top rn basically) :

Dante

Salieri

Would tip my fedora if asked to write them, aka: cannot miss with these guys (no specific order) :

Asclepius

Constantine XI

Odysseus

Saito Hajime

Moctezuma II (?)

Arjuna

Camazotz

L.ucifer (~)

You can always ask for them and chances are, I will probably always be able to cook something with them :

Gilgamesh

Arthur

Arjuna

Jason

I can vibe with them if requested :

Robin Hood

Karna

Arash

Tezcatlipoca

Edmond Dantes (an old time favorite but im putting him here bc I would have to re-read a lot to remember stuff! it's been a long while!)

Nitocris

Nero Claudius

Sherlock Holmes

Moriarty

Ashwatthama

Tlaloc (?)

Oberon