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feyd-meowtha · 14 days ago
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Just realised I missed the one year anniversary of me posting my first MOTA fic on ao3!! So happy Birthday Extinct Animals and happy birthday to me (and all the lovely peepul I have met in this fandom 💖)
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It was Rosie who took Gale's severed arm away in the end, vanishing it into the kitchen area before it returned as a collection of scrawny cuts that looked sort of like chicken and sort of like pieces of a human arm. Once Gale was safely installed in his new room, a store room that Kenny had cleared out while they were otherwise engaged, Bucky emerged to claim his share. He skewered it on a fork and roasted it over the fire, watching it curl up pink and juicy, and when he put a piece in his mouth it was the best thing he had tasted in years.  Then he raised a toast to Buck before walking outside and sticking his fingers down his throat until he threw it up onto the sand.
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drdemonprince · 3 months ago
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ive been thinking alot about agency, morality, and age a lot recently just because of where im at in my own life and trying to understand/process/adapt to my own shit (cptsd/did stuff basically) so the recent discussions on this blog and your substack writing have been very compelling to me. i feel often that i am procrastinating "getting my shit together" or "being an adult" and its a definitely a guilty/shameful feeling like im doing something wrong because im not living my life in an organised sustainable way atm and i feel like i "should" be doing that "by now" as i approach 30 (which i mean isnt really that old taking a step back, but still holds some cultural weight in my mind as a threshold). but yea aside from shame not really being a great motivator, it also loops into that like assumed passivity or like a denial of agency as in i tend to automatically frame things as obligations, like things that i have to do rather than things that i choose to do, and frankly its bullshit lol. often ill think about it as like, im not yet acting as "an adult" because im not making choices and being responsible but literally everyone regardless of age makes choices and is responsible for their actions thats kind of the human condition. i think i have this phobia of my own agency, or my own desire maybe, and this moral obligation framework is a defense against that, which idk i could relate this to being an ex catholic personally but i think its a part of the whole western christian hegemony in general. its this fake, poison comfort where i cant do/be wrong because i didnt "decide" what to do im just doing what im supposed to (which isnt even actually what im doing because im having a mental health crisis instead but yea). its scarier to accept the reality of being a subject than to deny it, especially when that denial (and personally, dissociation) has been your defense mechanism against stress/trauma/suicidality etc. like occasionally im worried if i really let go of this idea of a moral obligation to act a certain way or to fulfil some vague ideal role of "responsible adult" and i own up to my own emotional reality and my own wants and needs and agency then i dont know what ill choose to do with the suicidal ideation tbqh and i mean personally i feel like that should be up to me like theoretically i agree with what (i think) youve said before? that it cant really be up to anyone else what to do with my body and my life, and it shouldn't be. i mean when im in a good headspace, i think id choose to live anyway, and maybe (probably) allowing myself to fully exist as a person and be a little more honestly self serving will improve my qol a lot, but right now that idea of a moral obligation to live (and live a certain way) is my wall against that feeling that id really rather not so its terrifying to try and question that. but on the other hand the resentment toward myself, others, and life in general that builds up over time when treating life itself is an obligation is unsurprisingly fucking awful lol. but yeah anyway i dont think theres any conclusion to this other than that eventually we all have to face up to our own reality or end up trapped in some inevitably toxic framework that denies whatever aspect of being a sapient animal is hardest for each of us to accept. also unrelated (mostly) your taste in porn is peak
thank you so much for sharing this unpacking, anon. This is some real how to overcome white woman fragility brain type stuff! Even if it feels open and formless right now. and like a huge well could open up beneath you into which anything could happen and there is no reason to live. keep reflecting. more writing about this kinda thing coming on Monday
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blog-imtsupdates · 2 years ago
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week 3
Last week the client stated he liked my story boards but said that with the next few I should work in black and white so its easier to see. Since I also learnt grey scale painting last week i though I could put that to use here, i set out to make the storyboards as visually desciptive as i could without spending an absurd amount of time on them.
I also adjust concepts again keeping critique in mind, the client didnt like the player being non human, called it immersion breaking. Unfortunate in my opinion, but it is what it is and made sure that not only is the player human but also, sitting.
with these story boards i wanted to practice my grey scale painting more and very clearly convey the lighting and mood. also got to practice writing, anatomy, lighting and enviroments again. though im still having trouble using perspective grids i feel like I am improving alot.
prey POV > hunted POV
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Client noted that he liked the raptor story board but voiced concerns about accurcy of dinosaur as it would be hard to make an accurate dinosaur. bit conflicting for me as he was exited about dinosaurs and muscle simulations a two weeks prior.
He wasn't too intrested in the hunter POV, he suggested having the bear be a normal un altered bear. I dont understand the logic behind that the whole draw is that the bear has some sort of affiction that connects him to the deer that have gone haywire and they are comunicating some how and hell bent on maiming the player, its supposed to be weird and raise questions for the player. When things arent answered imediatly people keep thinking about it and thats a good hook. I also dont think its a good idea to demonize real animals like they are just vicous machines, not great for conservation efforts and also not true. But he didnt really care for the idea anyway so its scrapped.
gave hints at slenderman as a character design for the prey POV. So i decided to take inspirations from creepy pastas like slender man and the Rake. But i feel its worth mentioning you cannot out slenderman slenderman. not only is the design boring and uninspired nowadays. Tall lanky men have een done to death in the horor scene and i would very much like to have some actual character design in my portfolio that arent just exhausted horror tropes like "tall man" and "woman with long black hair" or rip offs of games like five nights at freddies, Bendy and the inkmachine, poppy play time or resident evil seven. Especially now that movies and games are bringing inredible designs to the table like Jean Jacket from Nope or the aliens from A Quiet Place.
I am very passionate about character design and this genre.
So avoid looking like already existing properties and create something new and interesting. I will do this by looking at already existing properties taking inspiration, boiling them down to thier bare essentials and then making my own thing keeping in mind what i gathered.
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bedlamgames · 5 years ago
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Q&A #103
Today we have the Twine conversion, lesbian training mantras, social lube, a bunch of random stuff from the discord, and a whole lot more. 
[Anonymous said]: I'm really curious what the tally means for your twine conversion posts. Can't seem to figure out what its suppose to represent progress wise...
- Answered this last Q&A. Because of you asking I’ve now also added the explanation to what it’s about to every stream post so I hope that helped with understanding what’s going on with that.
[Anonymous said]: Suggestion: For races that start with a random corruption (ie: Succubi), have an option in full custom to spend points to either narrow what that corruption is (to be one of the four types, for example) or to outright pick one (for a much higher cost).
- That’s a good idea. Being able to pick specifically I think would be too much. There are ALOT of corruptions so that would mean many many menus to be able to select everything. Being able to pick one of the four types seems fair to me as something to spend points on in Full Custom. Added it to my notes. 
[Anonymous said]: Have a succubus slaver who used to be a lamia. On level up, she had the option to get the Fleet trait, which I thought was off-limits for Lamia due to their body shape. I think it's a bug?
- Good spot and should be fixed as of the last update. 
[Anonymous said]: Noticed a bug with No Haven 0.903: If you select a human (or once-human) for your character, and then quick restart, your next character will keep the human's Racial aspect Social Lube. On the topic of that Racial, it says " includes one human, and three other different races/subtypes gain an additional Success" Does that mean one human and three non-humans, or one human and three slavers each of a different race from each other?
-Took me awhile to work this out as going from human to human seemed fine. However you’re right that those with a heritage like demi-angels or succubi will incorrectly keep the previous racial. 
The second so as long as you have at least one human you can get the buff by say having a northerner, noble, wastelander, and convent. 
[Anonymous said]: hi bud, xfto/x421 here, its been a long time i guess. wanted to ask about the status of the no haven/twine conversation. i joined your picardo lately but couldnt post some reports since you dont allow guest-posts. well anyway, the report is about something ridiculous i have found after some restarts, the chosen main charakter (lamia) starts as male with the hard carry aspect(immense shaft) and different description than the ones the perks would give. 1/2
another question, feels like i asked something similiar in the past, how about the integration of different artpacks/access to older pics, or deletion of those that never get used? i guess that would requiere some more access to the game than you allow atm. maybe with twine? do you have a roadmap on tfgames or somewhere for the future of no haven? i know there are some more races you want to implement and improve some systems, but thats it, hope you are doing well in these times. 2/2
I do an update on the patreon every two weeks which is linked on the twitter. You do not need to be a patron to read these and is the best way to stay informed about what I’ve been up to. That includes the status of the conversion. To quickly sum it up;
It's at a stage where all the RAGS to Twine code conversion is basically done. What I need to do now is translate all that work into something playable and there's currently big logic issues with a bunch of the conditions and passages. So what I'm currently doing is trying to tidy up the visual look of the code with a bunch of idents with the theory that will make finding the errors easier.
Alas it’s not me disallowing guest posts... Picarto had some massive stonking issues and so they locked things down hard due to that preventing guests from chatting. I suggest a throwaway email site to get around that.
I don’t think there’s any art in the game file that’s not used as I try to keep on top of deleting the old ones. Not really down for doing art packs of the old ones as due to that not being my art so I see them as placeholder only until they can be replaced by commissions. 
I probably do need to do some kind of roadmap sometime. I’m less keen as it’s kind of a dirty word these days as due to the miss-use of them by others it’s got some bad connontations, but I’m also aware the alternative which is me randomly mentioning stuff on discord/picarto streams leaves the vast majority of my audience in the dark which is also really not ideal.
[Anonymous said]: [no haven 0.903] [Crit no longer grants Bimboborn] okay, but how do I get bimboborn now?
- It’s a corruption. Specifically Blessings of Perversion. 
[Anonymous said]: With the change to training where hypnotic slavers can fully embed the relevant mantras for blowjob, bimbo, and sissy training, could we also get that for lesbian training?
- Yes that’s the plan when I do the third part of lesbian training. Got a set of commissions planned just got to sort the funding and work out who I’m getting to do it. 
[Anonymous said]: hey bud, x421 here, again, might be already fixed because thats from no haven .903, but i recently had the witch queen super rare quest, you might want to proof read the quest and results, there are a few typos. i really did enjoy the writing nonetheless, just a quick question about that quest, as far as i understood this one, you only change your odds of the final result depending on how good you do on your way to the final, but the reward in the end only depends on the final result? 1/2
2/2 it just dawned on me that its been a while since you made an Q&A post so i guess i ll go and lurk on the tfgames forum in the next days, just one last question: i asked early in development about camp upgrades and you were not that convinced about that stuff, i understand you want the slaver camp as some bandit camp and not some castle/bastion or whatever, but since you added camp upgrades, maybe add proximity to a certain region? or something to spend supplies and gold in a 13month+ run?
- Hah! Okay will give it another read through.That’s correct yes. There’s also rewards on the way if you Critical those parts. 
There is a new gold sink coming soon in an upcoming update. I’ve also got plans for more camp upgrades coming later. 
[From the Patreon]: I'm that guy you replied to about the patch notes in Q&A 101. Solid updates. Bugs in the outfit system has driven me nuts since like, 2015, has it been that long already? I think it has. I like collecting them and something always blows up. This time, I ended up with a slaver wearing both the ooze outfit and ponygirl outfit. So there's that. Also I was disappointed the new Quicker then You'd Like wasn't interactive. Solid in any case though, thanks!
- I'll get them all one day I swear! Don't suppose you remember the chain of events that led to that? New QAYL was a patron requested one with the idea of having a big pay off for playing submissive which often involves playing sub-optimally.
[From the Patreon]: 1-ive been noticing when you choose to repick choices for an slave training assignment the slave gets added to the list of choices 2-also just how rare is the post-slave princess city assignment, cause i can never seem to get it even after selling multiple slave princesses 3-another thing is that the nightly puppet-leader stat is almost impossible to get again(either that or i have bedwarmers incapable of usurping me even thought i my current stats mean i couldnt win against even the subbiest slave)
- Will check 3 as you've not been the only person to mention that. 2 I know exists for sure as other people have definitely got it. Should be no rarer than any other rare City assignment, and thanks for the spot on 1.
[From the Discord]: Top 3 Animes of the 2010 to 2020
Mahou Shoujo Madoka★Magica the series was staggeringly good. Just redefined what anime could be to me. Film is a... well it was a thing. A beautiful thing with an ending which I still quite know how to feel about. 
Shirobako. It’s about creativity, craft, and about how people can come together to make something. It might not be something good, but dangit it’s been made and that’s worthwhile. It’s also from personal experience by miles the most accurate depiction of working in an office I’ve ever seen.
Oh man this is very very hard deciding on the third so pick one of the following and I could probably make a strong case for it. 
Kobayashi-san Chi no Maid Dragon, Darling in the FranXX (yes really, yes even the ending), Lupin III: Part 5, Kill la Kill, Monster Musume, Flip Flappers, Demi-chan wa Kataritai, Zombieland Saga, or Kaguya-sama wa Kokurasetai.
Also while I was taking the question to mean series both Your Name and Promare are absolutely phenonemal films. 
[From the Discord]: Best recent Eurovision Act
Lena. Always Lena. 
[From the Discord]: What's the agricultural technological level of No Haven like 
It’s not hit industrialization yet. What makes the difference is and allows cities like Aversol and even bigger to exist is that the organization of the human empire is far better than it has any right to be for the other levels of development being able to keep an incredibly complex supply chain constantly flowing even if on the ground level it barely seems to be moving at all. There are also some much, much larger farms both on the Great Plains and further to the north compared to the much more isolated single/couple of households ones that your slavers raid. 
[From the Discord]: What have been some of your all-time favourite assignments, both in terms of working on them and how they turned out?
Love When Week’s End Comes for a recent one. Writing all the results in colour commentary (and all the variations for weather, events and outcomes) was a real challenge and I do like how it came out. 
Witch-Queen and Arisin’ for being the first times I tried to go for a different, more potentially disturbing/freaky mood, and I’m pleased with the results. 
Sable Masquerade as I really like the ‘bad end’ I came up with. Actually I like the whole thing as while the pitch from the patron obviously helped, a lot of it was inspired by a random superhero bondage party picture I saw on HF, which I decided to run with, and had a bunch of fun exploring. 
[From the Discord]: Weirdest bug and most difficult bug
The one that resulted in a male wisp riding a griffon was a fun one. 
Most difficult has to be the clothing management which as a previous question suggests I’ve still not entirely solved. 
[From the Discord]: If No Haven was an MMO, what race/class would you play?
Kreen rogue mainly as I really like the edit I did for the portrait which MidnightonMars later translated into a commission. 
If not definitely a lamia. 
[From the Discord]: Knowing what you do now about the design of the game, are there any game mechanics you wish you'd have implemented differently?
Clothing management. So very much clothing management. I’ve redone it entirely twice now, and it’s still not where I want it to be. 
[From the Discord]: What was your inspiration for creating the setting of No Haven?  Has the direction the game has gone varied from your initial idea? If so what has been the biggest change?
- It started off with adapting the chan game Deeper Dungeons which was basically a certain popular mmo with nothing different about it outside of it being porn along with some possibly unwise options of personal abuse. I first changed it by ditching gnomes for neko which to my mind was a clear upgrade. There even used to be an examine refference in the RAGS version to suggest they’d been in the region of the dungeons before being driven out.
Then it was a gradual process of adding with the occasional subtractions to get it closer to a more Warhammer feeling setting which has always been a major love of mine when I was still doing Whorelock’s in RAGS.
With No Haven it was a case of building on what I’ve done there and expanding upon that with the race lore and assignment descriptions. Biggest was probably when I did the favoured/unfavoured stuff and added a ton of extra backstory to various races to justify the choices made there. 
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yuissamidare · 6 years ago
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@codes i think i may have put this on my artblog but... Here
i guess ill start w ichi bc i always forget about him somehow like i always come up short when im making lists and im like 'oh wait shit yeah that guy’ bc im stupid n i only think of fishing trio + choro. I’m an Idiot. idk i never thought too hard on ichi bc i so rarely think about him but he looks so high its really funny i said this on main but he looks like my friend when he decided to try a weed gummy bear then started babbling about hentai then watched to watch porn with me but got mad all the intro scenes are a billion years long and started ranting about the industry but now that i think about it he looks like someone who used to send me weird shit when he was high like bad pick up lines about body parts i wish i didnt have
and thats so funny that its Ichimatsu who looks like that but also proof that hes high. but anyway!! hes really cute and im mad hes boutta ruin my reputation for my complete and utter lack of care and interest in him no matter what im mad. my friend gwyn said 'Sp lubing us up for the fuckening that is the reason why Ichi is sad in present day’ im really curious at the change like if hes trying a fake it till you make it type thing bc really emotionally exhausted or if hes just genuinely having a good time or hes puttin on a front since like. nails who stand get hammered down right??? just gotta do your best n Never Relax n i can relate to all that. but uhhh old hcs i guess
in kun ichi was the most serious! really smart but just as bad w school as the rest of them apparently but!! yeah so id think that!! ichis that guy who participates in class discussion constantly and is always willing to debate the readings, but turns in sloppy papers with typos and no a coherency or stucture or anything. he’s A+ in participation but has an average of 60% on most of the written assignments with points knocked bc of lateness then more bc its A Mess. you could ask about the prompts for one of his papers, he could babble about his position on it complete with paragraphs and footnotes but like the day before its due hes playing rpgs and watching horror movies.
his classmates think hes so smart n so intimidating. the family knows hes a hot mess. the teachers tell him he has a lot of potential but they don’t think hes applying himself. all are right. also he doesnt cheat or let people cheat off of him since hes always been about rules and boundaries and Rightness n he n jyushi were the only ones who Minded Themselves in kun
uhh jyushi!! let me talk about schoolwork again bc yeah i love jyushi so so so so much and thinking of him in a school environment is so weird i thought about it a lot n i thought about it him in kun n san and Woah!! i really really love delinquent jyushi, bc when i saw that i was like 'huh! that fits actually!!’ i love that like him and choro flip flopped completely from what i thought. his school must be so cold theyre too cheap to afford heating in the winter and in summer the acs Blast. he was so Shy and quiet and he cried and he liked to sing so i always thought that when he participated in chorus festivals hes always like right in front!! he hums a lot in class and also moves around alot bc he actually like school and people like primary trio are the types that make friends often. i wasnt supposed to talk about this yet whoops.
unlike ichi who relatively neat despite everything but has shit notes, jyushis notes are amazing and understandable and utterly illegible.
theyre covered in doodles, arrows and lines leading every which way, different colors but not like color coded n theyre not in order by date, but he opens to a random page every time yet somehow always seems to know where to find each lesson. he writes footnotes and caveats and corrections and criticisms of the teachers and random thoughts and just smears ink everywhere. sometimes his notes are on a completely different subject. the notebook itself is a horrifying mess, the front and back covers both covered in drawings and designs and falling apart, random papers shoved between the pages, coming apart at the seams, covered in stains of unknown origin. assignments are full of emoticons and informal language, and they always manage to make his teachers feel like hes smarter than they are (most likely). he does his projects the minute theyre assigned, and is finished a minute later so can talk to his friends. he loved school.
sophie told me once about how she thought was Like That was bc one of his main concerns is that he thought he had nothing that made him Jyushi n in kun she said he might have been the one who was the most concerned about having a distinctive personality and i talked about how that sorta carried over san and how he always blended in bc of how gentle and soft and push-overy he was. he was actually the and most gullible and weakest in kun so i was like :0 when i saw that and intentionally did stuff like only carry 14 yen in his pockets to be quirky but it always sorta fell flat and he was still invisible so i was like hmmmmm. and i can see how he couldve toughened up and thinking of this now!! i love that. oh im so happy. this is so much better than i ever couldve imagined ever.
totty…. i do not think he was very popular or good at school. i think he’s very decent at schoolwork but he never put much effort into it. just copies whats on the board but if the class runs out of allotted lesson time n he couldnt finish his work he just didnt do it like cram schools a pain in the ass. if he put effort hed be a star student but he just craps out whatever since hes was the laziest!! oh but something i noticed was that him and jyushi would play together often since sometime he felt overwhelmed by karamatsu a lot. also hes the money thief and scammer its great kun todo is so good. he gets shy and flustered easy too!!
but uhh yeah!! depending on the day im always like 'zaimoku love each other so much they are best friends and the perfect other halves!!’ then im like 'these mofos hate each other what the fuck is this trainwreck’ did you see their shitty small talk in the horse episode. what was that. like they are genuinely trying to communicate and are pretty easy with each other but they have nothing to say. its like when youre having a boring day at school and theres nothing to talk about with an acquaintance so you just look at the walls and go 'have you ever noticed how stupid these posters are’ then you both start reading posters aloud but you both know its not that funny and youre just doing it to waste time but you still enjoy their company you just dont want silence. thats their relationship. and i think they are just very similar in very different ways and like. the key things that make them both similar and different and the same fuck them up (like suiriku!! theyre both really similar even if it doesn’t seem like it at first which is why their compatibility in the relationship chart was so low in s1, but i saw a lot of improvement in both of their behaviours and their communication and honestly. s2 was worth it for that sophie was so happy to see her faves get along) like sometimes when you look in the mirror all the things you see are the things you dont like about yourself instead of what makes you wonderful and unique. also i didnt mean to talk about this but i guess i am.
but yeah. totty is bitter n resentful at kara during hs n karas more confused and upset at tottys behaviour in their twenties n thats bc like i said. theyre dumb. karamatsu!! i think was actually pretty popular in highschool n had a good amount of friends - i genuinely think theatre kids are well liked bc i literally know everyone in my department and im friends w a good amount of people and im not even That extroverted. my actual extrovert friends know everyone in the school by name and everyone in my department is so nice even though theres a lot of bitchiness and drama its not as bad as w other humanities studies (jesus christ humanity students outside of theatre are a hot mess.)
uh yeah n that ultimately makes totty feel a bit… betrayed? karamatsu is his partner! theyre supposed to be there for eachother! kara’s the first one to branch out, get friends etc etc and todomatsus left behind bc hes always the one playimg follow the leader and he breaks out of that once they graduate - he grows up resenting karamatsu slightly though he still cares. but this time Hes the one cancelling plans to hang out with friends instead. my friend katie put it best when, in response to me telling them this, they sent me:
'kara: totty you have so many friends now. We barely see you anymore.
totty, applying chapstick: well, I learned it from the best.’
when i told them about it. but at the time gwyn and i were babbling about possibilities and different storylines and how theres a possiblity the movie might break down into three manageable plotlines n she gave zaimoku 'popularity’ and this was me throwing out ideas but honestly. Good. (aha, the end of this scenario ended up with todo throwing hands and shoulder checking someone outside a window and then getting removed from the premise n hanging with atsushi all night after) why am i on this. shit what happened here.
uhh but yeah totty is Def someone with learned behaviours rather than being a natural extrovert honestly just look at him hes an introverted mess masquerading as a decent human being and i know full well how people like that are bc some of them have been my best friends for years n seein the new hs promos solidifies that fact bc look at him. Crybaby. He is Miniscule. A Child.
then its 'delinquent who looks like an honour student’ choro. i never studied him until sophie started liking choro n since i love sophie i wanted to take an interest in him too. n i started to think very hard about him! then gwyn planted this in me n its taken root and im just never not gonna think its great. yall see his shitty gokudo impression what a bossy lil shit. he pulled a whip on kara once and it was mad funny but also Gwyns Big Evidence for him just being the absolute worst not like a casually skips class type but a Choro was a legit a bully and really mean n sabatoged other classmates to make him look like he was 100% That Bitch. maybe not him being Mean and cruel but just an asshole who bums around, is something i really like that one a lot its been one of my faves since gwyn n i started talking about it but i just!! have a ton of other things too!!
hes a lot like karamatsu in that theyre both stupid and weird and embarrassing and they put on airs but they also!! dont try!! they talk so big and such high goals n expectations and they dont do shit bc they have so much hubris but i always talk about them bc suiriku is sophies Beloved so ill like. Not. but he acts like he’s better than all of them n forces the role of the straight man on himself because he wants to be seen as the responible, level headed one even if hes just. So Much.
i think the movies calling back to how touchy feely and clingy he was in kun and adding on to how jyushis a delinquent and kara… Is Like That he’ll be around them the most bc jyushi might either be really protective or push him away and then they do something to mend their relationship later on or hell cling to kara and they just. grow apart. sticking to my hc until the end bitches. oh.
for choro… personally!! i thought hed be a slacker instead of a delinquent but not in the way totty slacked - totty was lazy n knew the work but didnt want to put in effort but choro just. Doesnt. choro has so much energy all the time and choro Can Not deal with school situations. bc like… you always hear people say that studying is meant to be done at the desk, silently, no distractions what so ever!! focus on notes and nothing else!! ise a highlighter but dont use it too much!! make your notes legible but you only have five minutes before the board gets erased!! review!!! look at your notes or youll die! take breaks bit dont take too long and honestly. listen. kun choro wouldnt be able to stand that shit and id think hed just think he was doing it The Wrong Way n he just wasnt meant to do it.
he doesnt like quiet classrooms!! he cant study like that and hell get distracted. he cant sit still n thats why totoko broke up w him in the beer ad and why hes just Everywhere in kun!! hes understimulated and its just Ugh! you know??? he’ll fidget w his pens until he breaks them or hum or tap his foot and annoy everyone or leave for the bathroom at least three times a class just to get up and move.
eventually he just. gives up even though hes super smart he like, stops caring bc if you dont care to understand material then you wont have to read and read and reread and rereread something to get it! classes just make everything uncomphrehensible and makes any idea he may have sublimate into nothing. but he can work on the trains and the buses! he needs something kenetic to get him moving and trains n shit always have enough going on to work with, just like with home!! chorochoro motherfuckers. he works much better moving forward, ironic as that is. he feels sorta set apart from every thing like hes behind some big plane of glass doing everything wrong and being all set apart from everything. eventually he takes to acting like a real fussy mom to avoid his own problems and help everyone else out even though hes annoying and even when he graduates but it gets Worse bc then figures out how much!!! he fucked up!! then he kicks himself into high gear n still cant do shit. ahh.
its illegal for me to talk about choukei bc i talk about them so much and im always being annoying n typing stupid essays about them bc theyre… my faves.. But this is so long…
it actually makes me super happy that he kara acne he still can be really fighty and he cries and he still does stupid impulsive shit for others and even though hes really sweet and caring is still an utter monster and fucking mess of a person. love him. i always like to think his shittymatsu nickname came from iyami n it just morphed from there bc in 66 you can hear iyami calling him specifically garbage. ive always been glad they kept his sewing hobby too. ahh, actually from what i see hes pretty similarities to kun so i wonder when he decided to air out that teremity. idk what to say about him that i havent in tottys section. he just Feels like someone who had a good support group and nice friends bc of how hes able to move in the world. kara feels like some whos doing their growing up in their twenties bc highschool came easy to them and now theyre just really struggling with the real world. like i shouldve expected softboy hs kara and i appreciate him very much!! i talk about choukei a lot bc they were the first characters that spoke so i immediately attached myself to them n i talk about karamatsu Specifically but im not sure i ever mentioned how much i appreciated how smart and cautious hes proved himself to be time and time again, like how hes the only one to point out totokos fish shtick aint doing her favours or how he was the first one to notice osos irritation n how you can pick out his voice warning jyushi to calm down in the bg of 24 or how in the comedian episode he was ready to take Notes from iyami and a lot of other small things!!
i would think hes actually a bit more serious n calm in hs and san is him amping up traits that drew people to him in hs and it backfiring on kara spectacularly - kara is always gauging people and their reactions and acting in a way he believes will get something positive, but at the same time is utterly oblivious when it comes to actually Getting them n i talked about the girls on the bridge but this is also prevalent with ichi who kara just. Doesnt Get and can not figure out how to maneuver their relationship. like oso, kara is and elder brother!! and elder brothers have an image theyre supposed to uphold, but while kara acts the part he doesnt do the shit a big brother does and shrugs that responsibility off on oso until oso fucks up until s2, where they share the role more evenly and his relationship with ichi improves but this is another essay entirely. what im trying to get with that is that hyperfocus on what other people think of him, but his complete disregard when it comes to their actual reaction and instead what he wants their reactions to be would also greatly impact him transtioning from a teen to an adult im sorry im getting sloppy now
osomatsu… i really adore him too much and i understand how totty felt in their episode bc i also lent my phone to a friend who needed to desperately jack it before meeting new people n i talk about him a whole lot too. hes mean and an asshole and garbage n i know a lot of people find him plain n boring but idk. i dont think thats the case hes a really complexed n nuanced character n hes literally has always been way back from kun n thats expected from a main character but… hes always been mean n dumb n sly and he can get so pathetically vunerable and thats literally!! him. hes a normal dude nothing wrong with that n it can be real refreshing. n i suppose im so fond of fishing trio+choro bc they remind me of my friends. but yeah even if hes 'plain’ i dont see why thats a bad thing. n this they always have the most interesting body language like despite kara being So Much his body language was always closed off n singled him out as everything But exuberant and bright, and osos quirks like how he stands on his toes a lot had always been so cute… its relaxed and open n screams Talk To Me!!!!
ahh but i always end up thinking oso was. oso??? theres not much to say that i havent before but i do think that he was a lot more like he was in episode 2 when ranting to chibita about having shitty brothers and then actively Chose to be a good brother even if he wasnt a good person and be a stable rock and be someone they could all come back to at the end of the day. and hes good at math im never letting this die.
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Just Right
what i’m actually aiming for in this song is to convey a message of living life freely, even with how messed up the world has become. Everyone should be able to do what they want to without getting “judged”((DISCLAIMER:except for illegal stuff, that ain’t cool))  
By right, the world will still judge but its up to the person themselves to decide whether they want to take it or not. this song still has a pretty generic message which is to live life freely
Wk 4 
I’ve already written bits and pieces, of it. Mainly the “hook” and such. Again, i had to fit chords to the melody. 
Initially, i had an intro of the hook and then it goes into the verse, which actually have the same melody. As i was singing along to it, it just came very naturally so i just went with it first.
the lyrics for my hook is 
Life’s a pain, it’s a shame
we can’t be alright
It’s all a game, let them play
all we need is time
Jump around, messed up fun
tear away the night 
why can’t we be just right?
and it just goes into the verse with the same melody with
Your pointless talk, you should stop
get out of my sight
roll your eyes, one more time
you might just go blind
maybe then you can see the minds
of humankind
why can’t we be just right
this verse is meant for the people that are giving you trouble so there’s a switch in the POV. because it starts off pretty hyped, it probably might have reached its peak already, in like the first two verses which kinda makes no sense. Naturally it just went to the Woahs which just seems even more “out of place” everything is just way too rushed. And i wasn’t sure where i could actually go from there. 
I was thinking about the lyrics as well, for the second verse. i was wondering whether it was rude to people that are actually blind so i had even more doubts on whether i wanted to use it
As i was fretting over all those, i still continued to write the lyrics just by going with the flow and more sentences came out and there was this one that went by
Hold on tight, you’ll be fine
wipe away those tears
Dry your eyes, it’s alright
there’s nothing to fear
ANd thEN this clashes with the 2nd verse, with that POV thing since i am directly addressing “you” but for two different groups of people. I didn’t want to have such a huge loophole with that POV thing so i tried to change it, from you’ll be fine to we’ll be fine and dry your eyes to dry our eyes but the latter is just weird. I’m not asking myself not to cry either so it doesn’t make sense if i used our. 
So, i decided to scrape that initial verse 2 and replace with the comforting one, which is a lot better as compared to the scolding one, which might be offensive to the visually impaired. It’s pretty ironic actually, with this song bout doing whatever you want. Still the main reason for the switch was to make sure that loophole is fixed ya know. 
Wk 5
Since i’ve already chosen a path, i just went with it. Then another chunk of lyrics was mentioning those people that are giving you trouble, so i still have that “scolding” segment just that its addressed differently now using words like ‘those’ and ‘they’ so at least it’s “solved” 
Even so, i still only had like a chunk of like an entire song, i didn’t know how and what, like how am i supposed to bring this forward. 
i was playing around with the groove as well, like since i had this intro thing with my hook. i was considering should i go more muted and slow at the intro because the 2nd part of the intro, it goes “down”. its either i go high with a BAM and then everything gets hyped into the verse or it goes down to a more mellow sound. I was considering coming in with an e.guit as well with like a riff and stuff
an option was if i were to get hyped, i’d repeat the hook and then it continues on with the verse. But then again, my verse has the same melody. and by this point, i was wondering what in the world i was doing, this can’t go on. 
WK 8, it was pretty sad that the lecturers had pointed out that the melody of the song was similar with a piece from their time. maybe im just unlucky but it had to go?
it just seems weird to not do anything when u’ve been told about the issue. i thought for a while and decided to just come up with another melody. to be fair, i was also kinda stuck with where i was so i figured why not actually just do something new. even though there wasn’t a lot of time, i decided to just go for it. 
Wk 9; i came up with some lyrics, i’m still focusing on what i’ve actually talked about; the song being about social issues. As i was thinking about what to actually write about, i looked back on what my idea was in the first place. the previous work was supposedly a ‘positive’ song, mainly talking about how we shouldn’t bother about the negativity that people can give you. instead focusing on living life to the fullest without caring about what those people say or think. 
that was the initial direction i wanted the song to revolve around but as i was really thinking on redo-ing the song, it got harder and harder to maintain that positiveness. Maybe because i’m just too full of negative energy, or maybe it’s just not realistic. 
So i decided to look at what i’ve written in my proposal, i spoke in a more general way, touching on the topics of social issues. and i thought, why not produce something that talks about the current day and age. instead of being all positive and empowering, let’s take a step back and look at how far we’ve come.
so that’s what the new lyrics revolve around.
i don’t really remember what made the melody come about but it just came and i just used it. Since i’m somewhat mocking the state of humanity, the song probably needs to be a lot more darker and just give those sort of vibes. 
i started with
it’s the 21st century 
we are living life on the edge
because ya know we have to mention the timing, and that we indeed are living life on the edge. 
Polka dots and neon bright lights
over a decades long affair
this line touches on the past, polka dots gained its popularity back then, neon lights reminds me of retro signs and such.
i went for that drawl effect in the vocals, to give that slight sleazy, lazy kinda sound. it just sounds pretty “nonchalant”
Wk 10
more lyrics were written and arrangement has to come in, so the genre of this piece is pretty all over the place. My previous one is more pop rock but i guess that’s going to change. Again, i don’t really know what happened. a drum beat came out and i added on stuff. Bringing in the bass, and stuff and it just came. 
This piece came out alot more experimental than i expected but i guess thats the gist of experimental. right now, it’s a question whether i can still carry on from then forth or if it’s sufficient just the way it is.
i can say this was pretty frustrating since i wasn’t sure whether this was okay, that was okay since it’s some weird stuff. but i do like the vibes it gives so that’s that. 
i actually do like how it turned out, just a some more tweaking here and there and it should be “okay”
wk15
i tried recording the vocals again for the song, though it didn’t go that well, it took awhile for me to replicate the tone that i had from my first recording. i ended up not using the recording as the main vocal, i used it in the background so there would be this slight doubling that is going on, though it’s not very obvious. 
Mixing this piece was pretty interesting, i had to make sure the sound levels were even throughout, though there were different dynamics here and there so that was fun.
Raynard was in school one day and he gave me some feedback on my songs, he mentioned that i should probably bring the ghost piano up an octave if not.i should get something else to play with it. as the register that the piano was on was slightly awkward and it seemed out of place so i did that and there was indeed an improvement.
wk16 
this piece is pretty much done with the way it is, i just had to sort things out during the mixing process and it will be fine i guess.
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insarations · 8 years ago
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Here’s this survey thing
1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up. dont use itunes anymore so spotify but same thing...santeria by sublime. she likes girls by metro station. different people by no doubt. we can make love by SoMo. when the end comes by andrew belle. my humps by tbep XD
2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? Gwen Stefani, no doubt ;) :D
3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17. "yeah" he said. The light turned green. I braced myself.
4) What do you think about most? um well it depends on the day and time and what not but I guess lately just a certain person. and also about traveling and where I wanna go.
5) Ever had a poem or song written about you? yes both
6) Do you have any strange phobias? eh not really strange..theyre all pretty common
7) What's your religion? Christian/non-denom
8) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing? walking to the car or inside XD
9) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band? No Doubt
10) What was the last lie you told? hmm honestly i'm not sure. I'm not really the lying type
11) Do you believe in karma? ehh... in a sense but idk
12) What does your URL mean? um well its part of my middle name... play on the word daydreams...cause i daydream alot lol
13) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength? i hate that question lol
14) Who is your celebrity crush? it changes alot but currently Anna Kendrick
15) How do you vent your anger? depends. lately I workout. but sometimes I draw or paint or listen to music or just sleep really. sometimes i just reblog things on tumblr or write something
16) Do you have a collection of anything? um kinda... vans, i used to have a lot more cause I worked there but i guess i dont really anymore. books and dvds. um hmm...i feel like i used to collect something else but cant think of it
17) Are you happy with the person you've become? for the most part, yes. theres always room for improvement :)
18) What's a sound you hate; sound you love? hate-utensils scratching on a plate. love-my cats purring
19) What's your biggest "what if"? ugh, stop.
20) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens? yes to both...but probably in different sorts of ways than most people believe in them.
21) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm. right-beanbag chair. left-box of cheezits
22) Smell the air. What do you smell? the macncheese i just ate
23) What's the worst place you have ever been to? hmm good question... idk really. i've enjoyed pretty much all the places ive traveled to
24) Most attractive singer/s of your opposite gender? uh hmm no one comes to mind atm haha. im too gay i suppose XD but i guess ill say zayn
25) To you, what is the meaning of life? please dont get me started. i could write an essay
26) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed? well yes i drive but dont have my license... never crashed.
27) What was the last movie you saw? Pitch Perfect 3!!!! so amazing
28) What's the worst injury you've ever had? when I broke both arms at once
29) Do you have any obsessions right now? its something new all the time really im always obsessing haha i guess anna kendrick
30) Ever had a rumor spread about you? ugh yes
31) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong? not usually..it depends. a lot of times its not even a grudge..i forgive easy but bitter feelings stay a while in certain instances
32) What is your astrological sign? aquarius
33) What's the last thing you purchased? a movie ticket
34) Love or lust? L.O.V.E.
35) In a relationship? nope
36) How many relationships have you had? 4...and a 1/2 XD long story
37) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you? um just be myself..not really a weapon lol
38) Where is your best friend? i dont even know who that is anymore :/
39) What were you doing last night at 12 AM? sleeping
40) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend? yes i think so..id probably annoy myself at somepoint. hell i already do lol but im alright XD
41) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do? stop, help the dog. animals are just as important as people. if someone cant understand that oh well. i cant always find another job. but animals are life.
42) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? probably those most important to me b) What do you do with your remaining days? quit work. go traveling. spend time with my favorite people and my animals and eat a whole hell of a lot lol c) Would you be afraid? maybe a tad at first but i'm not too afraid of dying, I know i'd be with God and away from the pain of this world. i'd moreso be a little afraid of the pain i might possibly have while still alive
43) What's a song that always makes you happy when you hear it? hollback girl :D
44) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship? so many things but just... two people that love each other that click and mesh and would do anything for each other and just make each other happy and take care of each other... alot of things i suppose though.
45) How can I win your heart? hmm. just be yourself. be respectful. be sweet. be funny..even if in your own dorky awkward way. be kind and thoughtful. put me first just as much as i put you first. just be genuine and real and true and never lie to me. just, be real.
46) Can insanity bring on more creativity? oh yes
47) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far? hmm damn what a question. honestly.... I really don't know the answer to that. not that i havent made good decisions. but... idk what was the best. gotta think on that.
48) What would you want to be written on your tombstone? hmm ive never thought about it lol honestly when i'm gone...do whatever the hell you want haha but i guess if i had to choose..something about my kindness or uniqueness ? idk i try to be kind and different lol
49) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word "heart." cant say right now
50) Basic question; what's your favorite color/colors? purple, black, silver, blue
51) What is your current desktop picture? its just black no picture not sure why i havent changed it
52) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be? thats horrible. honestly i wouldnt do that to anyone..even the people i dislike most. well actually, maybe donald trump XD but no still even then i dont think i could do it even though i'm sure itd make america great again XD
53) What would be a question you'd be afraid to tell the truth on? hmm honestly idk im a very honest person
54) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power? those are too many words you couldnt just ask me what superpower i want?? XD so now i'm gonna be a bitch and not answer
55) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again? um. its between two. both of which involve time with someone important..cant choose which
56) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? losing people that were important to me
57) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be? hmm i guess if i had to choose right this second... anna kendrick.. pretty sure ive mentioned her like a hundred times in this survey
58) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go? right now ummm...boston
59) Ever been on a plane? many times
60) Give me your top 5 hottest celebrities. Anna Kendrick. Channing Tatum. Jennifer Lawrence. Nicole da Silva. michelle rodriguez
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My girlfriend of 4 months just told me she is pregnant today.   She is 20, I am 25.  It's unexpected but I believe she will be a great mother, and I will do my best as a father.   I graduated college with a bachelor degree in finance in 2012.  After college I started working but couldn't find an ideal job so I moved back with my parents to save money.   I currently live with my parents but just had my offer accepted to purchase my first home,  I move in June 1st.   When I created my monthly budget for when I move I had around $500 a month in excess income from my job.  I also run a small business in my free time, which is roughly another $1500 a month.  My plans were to continue working and expand my business but now I have no idea how tight money will be or what to expect.  How much should I expect to spend monthly on a newborn child?  We both have health insurance.  Thanks in advance!
Car insurance Questions!! HELP!!!?
My wife and I bought a used car the other day. The car dealership didnt require us to have insurance on it before we left because we paid cash for it. Well on the way home she got into a wreck. It was her fault. Someone said that the dealership covers the car up to 30 days from the time you bought it?? Does anyone know abt this? Or know how I can have it covered? Thanks
Anybody know of cheap but good car insurance?
i drive an SUV and i would like to have good coverage as well as being covered if someone else is driving my car....
Insurance for an SRT-10?
Hi is there anyone out there (in the UK) who knows of an insurance company that does a good deal on SRT-10 fully comp. I'm struggling to get it under 1200.00 per year, and the one I am going to buy is upgraded to 600BHP as well, so I know I'll pay more for this on top""
Good health insurance quotes websites?
Whats a good and reliable website where I can look up health insurance packages and quotes
What are the books that insurance companies use?
What are books that are full of the variations of ways that people have died, that insurance companies use to produce statistics called or labelled as genre.""
Can anyone give me a rough estimate on car insurance?
Im a male driver under 20. I have had one crash before (in my mums car) and no other troubles. Im planning on buying a 2001 Hyundai for 6,000. Its a pretty standard car, that is pretty tidy. What sort of insurance am i looking at per month for this car?""
""If I get a pull-behind trailer for my car, will I need to insure it?""
Probably a stupid question, but I'm clueless.:) If insurance is required, what happens when I want to loan it out to friends and neighbors? Thanks!!""
Insurance for a mustang?
All the insurance sites I have seen require me to register, and add my personal details before get a quote, and i do not want to do that. so i will ask for your opinion. I am 25, just got my drivers license, and have a 1997 mustang. I am in Louisiana. How much would the basic insurance be? I have never been in an accident, and the mustang is just the basic model. I need the cheapest coverage, and do not plan to use full coverage, because the car is not worth that much.""
How do insurance company's value cars?
i had a 07 impala and just got a new 2010 impala and my insurance is cheaper on the new car than the old car why is that?? is the older the car the more it is?? or what really takes place on the prices??
What would be insurance on a Sentra SER/Spec?
I'm 16 and looking for a car. Im not getting this car, I just want to know. Ok, so I have no accidents or tickets and a B average student or higher. I'm a safe driver and everything. How much would it be for 6 Months?""
""Car accident, my fault, my insurance company not paying for one of the cars involved. what to do?""
I was involved in an accident involving 3 cars. It was my fault. I'm fully insured. My car and one of the other cars in the accident are being repaired with my insurance company. The third car involved, which is a taxi had little damage around the tires and was not towed on the scene of the accident. The cab driver is now claiming 1700, after repairing the car without talking to my insurance company and without his damage estimated. He is calling me and telling me that my insurance company is not answering his calls and they are not handling his claim. He is calling and telling me that he is going to sue me. What shall I do? At the scene of the accident I gave him my insurance card, should I get involved in this. Please advise me. I'm really worried.""
Car insurance for a 16 year old?
How much would car insurance be for a 16 year old male? The car is a 2010 Ford mustang V6 Premium. If it matters, im a straight A student. Would the car being a convertible change the price, if so by how much? Thanks!""
How much would these roughly cost to insure?
17 year old girl, first car. -2000 Fiat Punto. 1.2L ELX. Petrol. -1999 Renault Clio. 1.1L, Petrol. So yeah anyone know roughly how much the insurance would be? If you know what does have cheap insurance please let me know! Thanks :)""
Only eligible for group insurance?
My husband is only eligible for group insurance due to multiple injuries/surgeries obtained from playing sports. His employer does not provide benefits, nor does mine. I was able to get insurance privately, but they refused him. What else can we do?""
Does U.S. car insurance (Allstate) cover you in Puerto Rico?
I'm going to be renting a vehicle from Thrifty car rental in Puerto Rico next week and I would like to just use my own insurance for the car. Does anyone know if Allstate covers driving in Puerto Rico? Thanks.
I want to buy a car i am 15 and i want to know which car should i get and how much is the insurance gna b??
I LiVE IN FLORIDA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
Car Insurance?
Last year I paid my car insurance in one hit, online. This year, renewal price was higher because I got 50 cash back last year. I saved 120 by searching around and went ahead with the new deal. Unbeknown to me the first company renewed my insurance without my knowledge because they had my credit card details from the year before. I ended up being insured with 2 companies for 3 days and I went 109 over my limit on my credit card. Not only is it illegal to be insured by 2 companies at the same time, they did it without my knowledge! Are they allowed to do this? I have, I hope, resolved it but if any charges are incurred either for cancelling my previous insurance or going over my credit limit are these retrievable?""
""Car insurance estimate, please help?""
i want to get my license but im not sure how much the car insurance is going to be. i live in boca raton which is in florida, im a 17 year old boy, and i have higher than a 3.0 gpa... if i were added to my parents insurance do you have any idea or estimate on how much i would be paying a month""
""There have been caps of $250K for healthcare lawsuits in California for years, and insurance premiums didnt?
....go down one cent! If fact they are still among the highest in the country. How will this help reform healthcare according to conservatives? When in fact all it does is funnel more cash into their Wall Street supporters pockets?
Anyone in pennsylvania know of an affordable dental plan that covers everything?
Does anyone have good dental insurance for a fair monthly price? I need something that covers crowns root canals check ups fillings and xrays. I don't really know where to start. ...show more
Can i get my car insurance reinstated?
Hi, my insurance was paid in full for 10 months. i had a crash end september went down i was at fault. I still had till end march on policy and obvs its been cancelled as car was right off. I am sure the woman said i can reinstate policy as i paid in full?? Any help would be good thanks""
After a motorcycle wreck how much will my insurance go up?
After a motorcycle wreck how much will my insurance go up? I'm 21 and just got the bike a few months ago.
Can my car be on my parents car insurance?
Im 19 years old and im buying a car and would like to know if my car can be on my parents insurance. The car will be in my name only, my old car was in their names so therefore it was on the insurance. I have been under their insurance for the past 3 years. i would like to know if im able to be under my parents insurance.""
Should people be required to have health care coverage like they do for car insurance?
That way if someone's not covered the hospital can refuse to treat them just like a car insurance company can refuse to cover someone who didn't have coverage with them. Problem solved, no need for the gov to intervene. Only those over 65 years old should be allowed to apply for medicaid, all other working age bodies should buy it themselves especially if they can all afford monthly cell phone and internet bills and clothes and vacations and stuff.""
Why is fully comprehensive much cheaper then 3rd party for a 17 year old?
Hello I am getting close to passing my test and i have been looking at the types of cars that i can get that will give me the cheapest insurance quote. I am planning to go on my parents insurance as an Additional driver an they would own the car. I was looking quotes and was surprised to discovered to fully comprehensive was much much cheaper then 3rd. about 1400 compared to 3200 what is going on, also a renault 1.2 Clio is more expensive then a 1.6 renault Megane. Any advice on getting low insurance and why is fully comp cheaper? thanks for any help""
Just found out my girlfriend in pregnant, what kind of financial obligations can I expect?
My girlfriend of 4 months just told me she is pregnant today.   She is 20, I am 25.  It's unexpected but I believe she will be a great mother, and I will do my best as a father.   I graduated college with a bachelor degree in finance in 2012.  After college I started working but couldn't find an ideal job so I moved back with my parents to save money.   I currently live with my parents but just had my offer accepted to purchase my first home,  I move in June 1st.   When I created my monthly budget for when I move I had around $500 a month in excess income from my job.  I also run a small business in my free time, which is roughly another $1500 a month.  My plans were to continue working and expand my business but now I have no idea how tight money will be or what to expect.  How much should I expect to spend monthly on a newborn child?  We both have health insurance.  Thanks in advance!
Car insurance is very cheap or very expensive?
Car insurance is very cheap or very expensive?
""Please help, student health insurance?""
I live in New York i'm 19 and go to college. Recently i have been having this heartbeat rhythm in my ear for the past couple of weeks. Anyways i want to see a doctor because my ear is starting to hurt a little.But i have no health insurance or anything in NY. My parents live in VA, when i used to live in VA i was covered through my parents health insurance. Is there anything i can do ? Any affordable health insurance companies i can look into? Any health clinics ? Does the state of NY provide anything for college students?""
Do you know of a good health insurance plan?
I need to find a plan that is affordable outside a group plan or is there a group plan available to me? I do not want the discount card type of plan I want an actual insurance policy accepted by many doctors and hospitals. 80/20 coverage is great with annual deductible choices.
What is the best insurance company?
I am buying a Cadillac Cts and need a good and cheep insurance company. I am 16 and have taken my drivers Ed. Should I get Gieco, allstate, state-farm, or nation wide. please help what do you have. I live in florida 32967""
Car insurance question?
Im an 18 year old female and insurance is ridiculously high priced, and I was wondering, at what age will it star to get cheaper. I understand that insurance is gonna be more expensive for younger driver, but isn't 350 a month a bit much? At what age will my insurance start to get cheaper?""
Should I buy Home Owners Insurance or Renters Insurance?
I am buying a home on a land contract. Should I get home owners or renters? Also if I carry the insurance does the owner have to carry a policy too?
Show car insurance for 99 mustang?
I have a 1999 Mustang show car and My insurance is really high. I have no tickets etc. I have been looking for some show car insurance so my dad does not have to pay soo munch. Most show car insurance say that you have to have it in an enclosed garage or something but I don't have room so it is in my drive way covered up.is is there any show car insurance or good insurance that is not so high??
What should my average house insurance cost?
I'm buying an older house (1920's-1930's) in a working class neighborhood in California for about $200K. What should I expect to pay for my standard homeowner's insurance?
""Someone reversed into my car, is it better to go through maaco instead of insurance? its jus ta minor scratch?""
i was at a stop sign and i was abou tthe 4th car, well the 3rd car decided to reverse to leave and backed up and hit the front of my car. its not really that bad but its still a big scratch. is it best to just have her pay my estimate at maaco? or deal with insurance? i don't want to get jacked up insurance rates because someone doesn't know how to reverse.""
I recently moved to Brooklyn and I need to find affordable auto insurance for my car. Any suggestions?
I know car insurance in NY is expensive in general, but any suggestions would help!""
Insurance quotes and reviews?
l've found a reasonable insurance price on a Vauxhall Corsa 1.0 litre Club, but l was curious as my Dad has never heard of this company so l reviewed it and it said 1* for most websites! Should l go by reviews or does it matter? l want to make sure that it is a reliable insurance company just in case anything was to happen! lt's called Brokerking. Thanks in advance xxx""
""Classic Car Insurance for Young Drivers, Help.?""
In the UK how old does a car have to be before it comes under classic car insurance also how cheap is classic car insurance? I'll be 19 when I come to buying a car and was looking at cheap insurance, will have been driving for 1 year, I will have no, No claims bonus' If it's cheaper than smaller newer cars, What classic car would be worth looking at? How old does the car have to be before it's classed as a 'Classic' Make your you answer relates to UK rules/laws and what ever else USA rules/laws mean nothing to me and won't help.""
Who has the cheapest insurance for a 2004 Chrysler sebring lxi touring?
Who has the cheapest insurance for a 2004 Chrysler sebring lxi touring?
How much does Car Insurance for a teenager cost?
How much is car insurance for a 15 ( starting drivers ed) year old girl if you are only a part time driver, like if you dont own a car you just use your parent' car in Illinois? Like how much is added on to your parents insurance bill? and how much does it cost if you have your own car?""
How can a college student find an affordable therapist?
I'm 18 and still under my parent's insurance coverage. I have loads of issues including social anxiety, and I think that I'm starting down the path to clinical ...show more""
Shall I buy Loss Damage Waiver (LDW) at car rental?
I have car insurance for my Honda compact car via Geico. I need to rent a car at an airport for a small vacation. When I rent the car from Hertz or Enterprise or Dollar, shall I buy the Loss Damage Waiver (LDW), which is about $10/day ? I already have insurance on my car and the insurance company said that my existing Geico coverage will be transferred to the rental car. So it really so? Just wanted peace in mind and I do not want to spend unnecessary price either. Could you please comment? Thanks a lot.""
I need help with car insurance !?
i am a young driver and i am am hoping to go on my mothers insurance but only for 3 or 4 months as i am going uni soon, i wanted to know how flexible it is to go on her insurance and them remove my self, what are the financial implications this may cause ? i already know it may cause the premium to increase but will this premium decrease back to her existing premium once i am taken off the insurance ? i would also like to pay monthly while i am on the insurance as i am likely to be quoted 1000+ for the year! so after 3 months payment i will take my self off- if this is possible once i am taken off the insurance will my mums premium go back down as she currently only pays 350 for the year please help i know this sound complicated but i will be grateful for any feedback""
What is liability insurance for?
If I drive my cousins car and I get pulled over by a cop and show him my cousins insurance will I get a ticket for not having insurance that's under my name even though I have his insurance?
Collecting on insurance policy?
Ok, so here it is. A guy hit me, police report said his fault. Totaled my truck and I got a huge amount of med bills. Now I know his insurance co. is payin for my truck and my med bills, but can I also claim on my insurance for pain and suffering, etc?""
Why is car insurance so expensive for an 18 year old?
I was looking at quotes and they all range from 1000-1400 just for six months on a Nissan Sentra SR-E spec v. Which insurance is the cheapest and you would recommend. Its for a college student just for school and work.
Car insurance broker or direct to insurance company?
I'm about to get a car, and i'm thinking about car insurance. The thing is, I don't know whether should i go to an insurance broker, or just shop around doing all these web quotes and find the cheapest out there and call them directly. Should i just do this or should i contact an insurance broker? What are the pros and cons of dealing w/ insurance broker? thanks""
""Insurance on rx7 fd , sti , and evo 9 ?""
I'm currently 16 and I got the money to buy rather a rx7 fd, sti, or a evo 9. I'm getting the car one I turn 17 and I would like to know the cost of insurance ! I wanna know both full and basic insurance. I am studying to be a mechanic and I was wondering if will give me a discount of I'm a mechanic ?""
Which company has the best deal on maximum coverage car insurance?
I live in Ohio, and I have a lease which requires that I have extremely good car insurance. I was paying 140 a month on my fathers plan with a discount which was ridiculous in my opinion. Now I have to get my own policy, which places would be the best to get quotes from? I need it asap.""
Health & dental insurance?
who has the best health & dental insurance for a small business of less than 10 people?
Insurance Savings Plan?
What types of these are available at insurance companies?
Just found out my girlfriend in pregnant, what kind of financial obligations can I expect?
My girlfriend of 4 months just told me she is pregnant today.   She is 20, I am 25.  It's unexpected but I believe she will be a great mother, and I will do my best as a father.   I graduated college with a bachelor degree in finance in 2012.  After college I started working but couldn't find an ideal job so I moved back with my parents to save money.   I currently live with my parents but just had my offer accepted to purchase my first home,  I move in June 1st.   When I created my monthly budget for when I move I had around $500 a month in excess income from my job.  I also run a small business in my free time, which is roughly another $1500 a month.  My plans were to continue working and expand my business but now I have no idea how tight money will be or what to expect.  How much should I expect to spend monthly on a newborn child?  We both have health insurance.  Thanks in advance!
""Maximums for lawsuits in California have been capped at $250,000 for many years, and insurance costs haven't?
...gone down one bit. Lawsuits are only 5% of insurance companies costs - it's been proven many times including during the 2004 Presidential debates. Why is this the only suggestion they ever have?
Do you need car insurance if you only have your permit?
Do I need car insurance? I've only got my permit and I drive my parent's car. What about after I get my license? Do I still need insurance even though I drive my parents' car?
What are the minimum state requirements for car insurance in california?
What are the minimum state requirements for car insurance in california?
Can I my Dad's car without being on his insurance?
I am a 17yr old student living with my parents and i have just passed my driving test. Everyone keeps saying i can drive my Dad's car once he is in the passenger seat, but i am not sure. My dad has insurance on his car, but i am not a named driver. So can i drive my dad's car if he his in the passenger seat, without being named on his policy.""
I am buying my first car and I want a 2005 scion tc how much would insurance be ?
I am 18 years old so I'll probably have my parents co sign if that will help me have lower insurance.
Anybody could give me a estimated how much money do a 18 years olds would pay for a car insurance a full cover?
Anybody could give me a estimated how much money do a 18 years olds would pay for a car insurance a full cover? He is going to buy a 2007 Dodge Durango SLT He will fianced the car on his name! The car is for my son. We live in the states of Florida ! If you guys can give me some information about a cheaper insurance Thanks!
How much would Safe Auto basic liability insurance be for my 2000 ford focus?
I need a basic/ cheap insurance.. i'm a college student that's all i can afford so please no LECTURES... I just need an answer THANKS :)
Driving without insurance?
I got pulled over for driving someone else's car in the wrong lane. He had his insurance in the glove box, but all i had was my license. I got my license less than a month ago, but dont have any insurance of my own. i got a ticket for improper lane and have to go to court. Is there a grace period for insurance or am i completely and utterly screwed? I live in Illinois btw""
Buying a new car on pay monthly + insurance ?
Hello, I am 17 years old. If I were to buy a new car on pay monthly (e.g Ford Fiesta/Fiat 500 at 150 per month) then does this include road tax and insurance? If not, then what would it cost me in terms of insurance (I live in london, and will keep my car in a locked garage)""
""Car Insurance claims, time limit to file claim?""
I got in a auto accident a few days ago it was a three car pile up. The guy who caused the accident was cited and his car was towed away from the scence. Out of all three cars his brand new lexus was the least damaged, my car on the other hand is a total. His insurance company progressive is telling me and the other victim there is nothing they can do as far as a rental car for us or payments for our medical bills or to fix or total out our cars until they speak with there client who is avoiding them. Is there not a time limit? Because I have to go to work, I have childern and I am pregnant so this is a bad situation for me, my insurance company is not going to pay for all the damages just a few so it would be pointless for me to file thru them. What can I do and expect?""
How much would i expect to pay insurance on a chevy nova?
I might be getting chevy nova from a guy in town but i need to know how much insurance will b or else i cant get it.... i know there are a lot of variables it is rwd(obviously lol) and has 350cid engine.... i believe we have nationwide insurance so ya... i would use it as a an everyday car too...
Is minimum coverage car insurance the same as an SR22?
In Tennessee, is minimum coverage car insurance the same as an SR22? I already have minimum coverage but am now required to get an SR22. Is this something that needs to be added on or will minimum coverage suffice? Thanks.""
I need help for cheaper auto insurance... any suggestions in my situation?
I was really stupid as a kid. When I first got my New York State drivers license within half a year I had gotten 2 speeding tickets, a DWI under the age of 21 (I blew a .16 and was reduced to a dwai luckily), seatbelt violation, talking on the phone while driving, and not fully stopping at a stopping at a stop sign. I got my license suspended for a year and I've been able to drive for over a year now. Ive matured a lot sense I was in high school and regret all of it but because of all the stupid, irresponsible, things I did when I was a teenager my insurance just to drive is putting me in debt its so high. Does anyone have any advice to get cheaper insurance in the same situation as me? And please no your a bad person you could have killed someone responses. I've learned my lesson and would like to go on with my life without paying thousands of dollars for insurance. Thank you!""
Average health insurance COVERAGE?
I need to do a little research on this, I'm not interested on how much you PAY, but how much your insurance will COVER for hospital stays, surgeries, lab tests, etc. Example: if you stayed in the hospital for 2 weeks, up to how much will your company cover (after your deductible)?""
Why is it that insurance rates are so high in the state of New Jersey?
The insurance rates in New Jersey are higher than any rates in the entire United States. I demand an answer to this outrage! It makes no sense that in California you can pay like $140 for the whole -year- to insure a car, while in NJ you pay like $140 every month.""
How much is car insurance for 17 year old?
how much is car insurance for 17 year old? i want to buy a 2001-2005 Vauxhall corsa 1.2 and i wondering how much the insurance is. also do i have to pay the full amount of insurance upfront or is split into months for example if the insurance is 3000 am i be ale to pay 250 a month
Health insurance help?
does anybody know if a good and inexpensive family health insurance that I can pay on an individual plan? it is way too expensive through my employer. Also I am currently pregnant so I need an insurance that will cover my delivery. I live in California.. please let me know if you know of any. thank you!
How do I know what value to put on my home insurance?
I have a flat in London that I want to insure. The flat is 64 metres squared and is 100 years old. The market value is about 200,000 to 210,000. A similar flat, in my town, in the North is valued at about 100 000 One would assume that the insurable value would be less for than the market value in London. My question is for what value should I insure the flat in London?""
Car Insurance?
So I got my license the other day I'm 16 turning 17. I don't have a car yet, but I want to drive alone. My mom has a car but my name isin't included in the policy. I heard somewhere that I could still drive the car. Is that true? How much would it cost if my name is added to the car? the car is on AAA Insurance.? . Another question. Im going to be working soon, how much would it cost for a 17 year old to drive his own car with his own insurance, BUT if im added to my DAD's policy.?""
What would have more insurance a 2007 dodge charger 3.5l or a 2004 Nissan 350z?
Need to know just overall what would be the better car and what would have better insurance rates
What's the cheapest car for insurance?
What's the cheapest car for insurance?
Can you pay car insurance monthly without extra charges?
Most car insurers charge a direct debit fee up to 30% APR if you pay monthly - are there any free ones (or at least cheaper ones)?
Home hazard insurance vs. home owners insurance?
What is the difference?
""Used Car, How Much Insurance?""
How much would I have to pay for insurance on a 1998 Nissan Sentra for $1,495? How much are taxes in Canada? 13%?""
Do I need to get tested for smoking to get health insurance?
Im not a smoker but I can have the occasional cigarette with friends
Just found out my girlfriend in pregnant, what kind of financial obligations can I expect?
My girlfriend of 4 months just told me she is pregnant today.   She is 20, I am 25.  It's unexpected but I believe she will be a great mother, and I will do my best as a father.   I graduated college with a bachelor degree in finance in 2012.  After college I started working but couldn't find an ideal job so I moved back with my parents to save money.   I currently live with my parents but just had my offer accepted to purchase my first home,  I move in June 1st.   When I created my monthly budget for when I move I had around $500 a month in excess income from my job.  I also run a small business in my free time, which is roughly another $1500 a month.  My plans were to continue working and expand my business but now I have no idea how tight money will be or what to expect.  How much should I expect to spend monthly on a newborn child?  We both have health insurance.  Thanks in advance!
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anxiety & shyness
hold up guys. this is gonna be a really deep in sight into the deep and dark depths of my mind so, if you don’t want that click off the page now haha. i can’t explain to you why i feel the need to write this post. i guess i just want all of that absolute shit that has weighed down on me for quite a few years now out and in the open ya know? i guess in the hopes that someone out there finds solace in it and maybe just maybe they feel slightly less alone. so here we go.
I suppose i have always been a quiet person. when i was younger it always took me longer to come out of my shell than the average person did, it took an hour or so whilst spending time with someone i didn’t see on a regular basis for me to fully loosen up and be fully out there with them. primary school was for the majority of the time a pleasant experience though. I wasn’t particularly quiet during that period, in fact i was quite a bossy person (which i regret hugely), i always used to force people to play the games i wanted to play at playtime, that sort of thing. I don’t remember ever being paranoid about others views of me or being particularly socially conscious at all to be honest. In fact i used to think i was quite funny and had a good sense of humour. I did go through one bad experience in this period of primary school though, my first experience of rejection. It all sounds a bit lame but i suppose thats where the paranoia really began. My best friend at the time started rejecting and ditching me and i suppose her and this other girl started bullying me to an extent, i was only allowed a certain distance away from them and that sort of thing. I started walking around by myself at playtimes and started to dread school, i guess that’s when i first became so aware of others perceptions of me. Things did improve though and i left primary school feeling pretty good and with a solid group of friends.
Secondary school. That’s when i fully changed from a flourishing butterfly to a cocooned caterpillar. I faced alot of rejection there. I went there with a good friend but pretty soon she began to change towards me. I blame myself partly for this particular moment as I clung to her alot, my shyness held me back heavily from making new friends but then again she was meant to be my friend. I suppose i struggled with making friends back then because it was honestly so overwhelming coming from a tiny primary to school to a huge secondary school with a 1000+ people in it. So yeah, she changed towards me and gravitated towards your stereotypical popular people and basically told me to go away. Honest to god it did make me feel a bit like a fish out of water, i didn’t know what to do. I was alone. At this point everyone was solidly in friendship groups so it was a real panic. I started walking round by myself and became sort of reclusive, finding it hard to socialise with anyone. Those memories of being alone haunt me to this day even though it was 5 years ago. I remember wishing i was invisible, then no one could see me and i wouldn’t feel so embarrassed to be alone. It felt like everyone was staring at me and it felt they all thought i was a joke and don’t get me wrong i got the odd bit of teasing. That’s when the anxiety began. Just getting up for school felt like the worst thing in the world. I used to eat my lunch alone, with my head down, trying not to look at anyone. I also used to sit in the toilets for as long as seen fit in order to avoid looking and feeling so stupid as i did. I did try and get into other friendship groups but the same thing happened. Rejection and ditching. That’s when I started to develop a very negative thought process, i thought i was so annoying and idiotic no one wanted to be friends with me, i lost alot of self worth and just felt very alone and pathetic. I get those feelings still sometimes even though I’m in a different place. I still feel paranoid the people in my life now are gonna leave and think I’m annoying and secretly hate me. It’s not fun at all. I guess that’s why I clam up with all new people now, that fear of annoying them.
I’ve come on a lot since then but the older i get i do feel worse as i do wonder if i will ever manage to get close enough to someone to begin a romantic relationship. Sometimes now i will send out a text to anyone and if they don’t reply i begin to get anxious and think that they hate me or i’ve annoyed them. I am certainly not close to alot of people due to feeling so uncomfortable around new people but i suppose that’s okay as the only relationships i have with people are deep and meaningful and with them i never actually shut up which is quite odd to be honest but i roll with it. I do sometimes feel like my teenage years are wasting away due to my anxiety, i wish i could be social with people and go to parties and all that but i get that maybe thats just not me, i’m not there yet but maybe one day i will be. I do get very upset about this and wish i had more friends and stuff but this is my life and its unique to me. 
My friends now have doubted me sometimes and made me feel a little pathetic that i can’t socialise well and it does hurt my feelings but i believe one day i will get where i want to go. A couple of months ago i even had a job but it was a very hard experience as well ya know anyone with similar issues will know. You ever hear someone laugh and instantly think they’re laughing at you? Because i do all the bloody time. This obsession with people see me is like a curse and i understand appearing so very closed off comes across to some as arrogant but it is the opposite. 
I do have criticisms of who i am as a person due to all of what i have written about but i am beginning to challenge these destructive thoughts and i know one day i will find a way out.
THIS WAS SO HARD TO WRITE OUT BUT ITS OUT THERE NOW. thanks for reading xxx
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