#(not enough to study properly apparently💀💀)

[aroaceofthesea]

I passed the 2 scariest exams life is beautiful everything is good

[chrollo-lucilfers-chains]

Hiii I only read few of your posts about chrollo because I am stressed due to my exams 😔 but as soon as they are over I am going to read all of them because the ones i read are amazing!

But could I request a really sweet and gentle chrollo? 🥺 because there are so many yandere chrollo (which i also enjoy reading) on tumblr and so few of fluff chrollo like maybe chrollo who helps his s/o to relax and tell her that everything is fine? 🫂

And I also apologize for my bad English since its not my first language 💀

No worries love, I feel you with exam season...

You close the door behind you with a huff and groan, leaving behind a wet trail of water. Finally this shitty day will be over!

You'd went to a Cafe to get some studying in. Usually this works great for you and the buzzing environment helps you focus, but today was just not it. Apparently three families had decided that today would be the perfect day to have a family lunch and neither the kids nor the parents felt the need to be discreet about the incredible intricacies of their abismally boring private lives.

Coincidentally, on the way back, a sudden rainstorm had decided to make your day even worse, with making you soaked and you having to sprint home.

Now you just feel bad for not having done nearly as much as you'd originally planned for the day and you're cold and wet on top of it.

Sighing in self pity, you drop your keys into the little bowl at the door, relishing in the familiar quiet of your flat.

There is some light shining from the study so you make your way to the door. Peeking into the room your mouth forms a smile.

Chrollo is sitting in your beloved armchair, reading one of his books.

"Hello dear, welcome home," He says and reads one more sentence before tearing his eyes away from the page to look up at you with his steel gray eyes.

Before he can say anything else, you crawl on his lap and slump into his arms, burying your face in his chest with yet another dramatic groan of frustration.

He lets out a chuckle as you rub your wet face on his shirt.

"Hard day studying?" He asks, stroking your cold cheek with his thumb. You nod and wrap your arms around him in a tight hug. He pulls you closer as well and boops your hairline with his nose.

Slowly, the cold from you body begins to dissipate, wrapped in his embrace.

"I feel like I haven't done nearly enough for the exams that are coming up soon. It was just soo much and the cafe was soo loud today... " You sniff. "I couldn't concentrate at all!"

Chrollo listens to your complaining, while stroking your hair calmly. You look up at him and he smiles, quickly kissing your lips.

"I'm sure you did as well as you could, given the situation at hand. You've been studying so much the last few days too so don't worry. You'll be fine!"

He's so pretty in the low light of the study. Rain and the evening darkening the sky outside. Now that you're inside, it's quite the nice sound, to hear the pitter patter on the windows and the storm outside blowing through the street.

Listening to his sympathetic voice you smush your face back into his chest. He smells nice, you notice...

"I also got drenched on the way back," you murmur quietly and he laughs at that.

"Yes, I can feel that, dear. You're quite literally sitting on top of me." The hand on your waist squeezes your side as if to bring home the point that you're getting him all wet.

"Sorry." You bump your head against his peck with a smile, not sorry at all. But he only chuckles and pats your head in a gentle motion.

"It's fine. I was going to wash the shirt tomorrow anyways. Might as well add the pants and your clothes to that."

Your smile widens. Surely, your boyfriend is the best of all the boyfriends in the world.

Chrollo softly lifts up your chin to look at you. You blink at him and he presses a kiss to your ice-cold nose.

"We should quickly hop in the shower together, you know? For warming-up purposes only, of course." You snort and kiss him properly on the lips.

"Of course."

[ponytailwoman]

14 December, 2021

After much deliberation, I have decided I’m going to make my dead tumblr Ariana Grande blog into my personal diary. I figured this would help document my life, and my thoughts on life properly without having to write in a physical journal, which I write in ONCE A YEAR despite literally making a resolution to write every single day at the start of each year. Besides, it hurts my hand to write a lot since I haven’t had to use my hand for writing since THE TENTH GRADE. This limits the length of each diary entry and I’m not able to air out my thoughts as well as I would like to. This way I’d also get to document my life through photos and videos !!!

Although I think it’s sad that my switch is suggestive of how everything has become digital now.

ANYWAYS, to start off, today is the 14th of December, 2 months after my 18th birthday (!!) which was very underwhelming. I cannot believe I’m 18 now !!! I’m constantly thinking of how far I am in life already and it never seems to click for me because I simply haven’t experienced much at all in these 18 years. I constantly daydream about the girl I’d be right now if I’d had a better upbringing, or put myself out there more, I actually had a LOT of opportunity to do so as a result of the people I was always around. I constantly regret not doing so, when I scroll through instagram and see my childhood best friends absolutely living it up and being amazing people 😩🥺

I wonder when I’ll get over it? Probably when I do get a chance to redeem myself. I’ve noticed I’ve always wanted to be in the center of whats “happening”, I’ve always wanted to surround myself with the “popular” kids😩 I hope this dream comes true when I start college in India?

And yes, I’ve decided going to study in India, it’ll be the best way to save money while still getting a good educations (not possible in the UAE) and have a social life at the same time. Living in India will also make me much more independent and i’m SICK of being so sheltered and clueless. Right now I’m taking a gap year, partially because I graduated high school having not a single clue what I was going to study and partially bc my dad hadn’t paid school fees and I didn’t have my marksheet so no school would take me teehee😆

I’m going to list the courses I was planning to study and why I didn’t just for future reference:

Veterinary Medicine: I actually went into IB thinking I would be studying this in the UK, and picked all my subjects accordingly. Although my dumbass never really put thought into who was going to PAY the thousands of pounds for me studying in the UK? I didn’t do enough research at all, and besides when I graduated I didn’t even have the grades to apply. So lame. Currently there is only one Vet Med school in the UAE and apparently it’s pretty shit. India doesn’t seem that advanced in terms of Vet Med schools and besides they don’t take IB students anyways 💀 So there goes my childhood dream.

Psychology: This was the next best option according to me after my school career counselor (also my psych teacher) informed me that I would indeed not be able to study Vet Med in India. This is because one of my favorite subjects at school (even though I did horribly grade-wise), and I was about to enroll in the Psychology course at Heriot-Watt here in Dubai (spoiler alert I couldn’t because my dad hasn’t paid the school fees and I haven’t gotten my IB marksheet yet) but after much research I came to the realization that Psych degree holders don’t really get PAID MUCH even if you do end up becoming a therapist, and that just seems like a boring job and then I realized Psych isn’t really my passion like THAT that I would want to pursue it career-wise. I just like it as a subject! So I gave up, and since I couldn’t enroll anywhere yet this gave me time to think.

It’s good I considered psychology because i slowly realized what I really wanted was a high paying job with whatever degree I chose to get, my number one priority is MONEY MONEY MONEY !! which brings me to the next major: FINANCE. there isn’t really much to say about this decision lol because I kind of get anxious when I think about it, but the most important thing is that I have enough money to live the lifestyle that I want and do what I like on the side as well. That’s my priority. Although right now finance sounds boring as hell, I’d taken some business classes in 9th grade and dropped immediately cuz it was so boring, but let’s see if i can cultivate an interest for finance?