#*•.¸♡ Musing: Lizzie Saltzman: ❝ I am getting back to me. I am who I am ❝

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@hcpemikaelscn | Raising children: Hizzie | Like for a starter

Things had been rocky between the heretic and the tribrid. Were they together or not because as far as Lizzie knew.. Okay no she had no idea what they were at this point. Confessing her love to Hope didn't really go as planned, first time drunk and she rejected her and then the second time sober and she rejected her. The blonde cannot take much more rejections at this point. Yet she was grateful that the other took her and her daughter in the moment she just had such a breaking point in her life. On one night she got a text and knowing her daughter was asleep, the blonde left and went to the bar. was it the best idea to do something like that? Absolutely not, was it really a Lizzie thing to do? Oh yes. She didn't let Hope know where she was, even turned off her phone at some point.

The next morning she woke up and looked besides her, turning on her phone to see she had lots of missed calls from Hope and not just Hope also Josie for some reason. Rolling her eyes as she then got up and left the place she had spent the night, like she would let anyone know that she met up with Sebastian and then one thing led to another. It's not like he could get her pregnant again, when she arrived back home or can she even call it home. It kind of is right.

She hadn't even set foot for a second or the blonde felt two eyes looking at her and she knows it's Hope. Her gaze went up to look at the tribrid. "Don't look at me like that, you give me a look if I did something horrible."

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"I know they want the best for us, I also know that my father isn't really fond of the supernatural. Mom would be more okay if I ended up being a heretic." Lizzie said, the way it felt so natural to just talk to Hayley about what has been bothering her. Normally she would be talking to Josie about these things, telling her twin about this. She rather than talk to someone who is more natural in it. "You sure that BOTH my parents will agree with my choices?" Right now she just wasn't entirely sure and she was really considering in becoming a heretic. That would make everything better right. That's at least the way of her and Josie both staying alive. It would also mean she will live forever in a sense and see her sister and father eventually die.

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“I don’t know, it just feels like the easy way out.“ Why was this so hard and the fact she can’t really talk to her parents about this. Yes she can talk to her mom just not her dad who wouldn’t even understand of why Lizzie wanted to become a heretic. Her mom the other hand would ask her if she was sure about her decision. “It’s a better option than me dying during the merge. Since I am 100% sure Josie will win. She’s the stronger twin and I kind of want to accept it, yet it is really hard.” She chuckled as she was listening to Hayley. “I do want to go that route, just don’t know how my parents no wait how my dad would think about it.” 

Hayley considered her words and nodded. “ I can understand wanting that. No one wants to die at such a young age Lizzie…but don’t be so sure that Josie will win. Besides the goal is to have you both alive - how that happens, well it’s up to the two of you.” She reached out and rested a hand on the girls arm. “ It’s going to be okay no matter what you choose. In the end while your parents may not agree with your choices, they’ll still have both of their kids with them and that’s what really matters. Living, thriving…and doing the best you can to get there.”

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“What are you talking about? I know nothing about that.”

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@hcpemikaelscn | Hizzie | liked for a Halloween themed starter.

Lizzie was in her room just going through her closet so her room was a mess with clothes laying everywhere and not even in the mood to clean it up just yet, as she didn't even noticed the door opened as she threw another shirt somewhere in her room. When Lizzie turned around and saw Hope standing in the doorway. "I can explain, I don't know what to wear, to this Halloween party. You are going too right? Please tell me that you're going too."

The heretic was looking at Hope, just hoping that she would say yes that she was going too. Not that Lizzie minded going alone, just with someone is always better right. Looking around in her room as she still don't know what to wear.

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@redemptivexheroics | Lizzie & Jackson

Lizzie was finally used to being a heretic and with help from her mom and MG to control her vampire side she was better at it, mostly since she isn't really a newby at it anymore. She had been so busy with controlling her vampire side and just spending time with her mom whenever she could. She kind of neglected spending time with Jackson. The blonde went to town to get coffee before returning back to the school and went up to his room and knocked on the door.

"I come bearing gifs." Lizzie said as she was going to do anything in her power to make it up to him. Especially since she had been spending a lot of time with MG too.

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"Mostly when he's worried is when I have episodes, since I haven't had any episodes in ages I just am surprised that he's worried about this." Which is the truth she hadn't had an episode in ages and they all know Alaric isn't really fond of the supernatural.

She started playing with a string of her hair as she was looking at her mother. Yes she and Josie are complete opposites of each other, where Lizzie is truly a mini Caroline in ways.

────── "come on Lizzie, don't be like that. Of course your father worries about you". Caroline frowned, the stark difference between the twins was confusing at times, though she did her best to treat them as individuals because that's what they were. Sometimes she found it hard to believe they were even related at all.

"what makes you think otherwise?" softening her tone and the look on her face. Caroline wanted to do her best to help her daughter, and if Lizzie was feeling like Alaric didn't care about her, Caroline wanted to get to the bottom of why.

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@fallsheavy | Lizzie & Josie | liked for a Halloween themed starter.

"So, I was thinking. Maybe watch some horror movies. It is the time of year again." She wasn't feeling doing anything else but to spent some time with her sister. It has been a while since she and Josie did something together, which is nothing like them. What better way to have a movie marathon with a lot of snacks. The blonde was looking at her twin. "Unless you have plans that you didn't tell me about." It was a joke the last part, as they both were being independent and not to rely on one another too much.

The heretic already bought lots of snacks and drinks, and made sure to write down some movies they could potentially watch, if they end up having a horror movie marathon, because of Halloween.

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@thesnowfelled​  | Lizzie & Josie | closed starter 

She hasn’t seen her sister in what seems like ages. Wait, Lizzie hadn’t seen her sister since she became a heretic to be honest and she misses her other half. it just wasn’t the same and knowing maybe this is what they needed. Although now their mother is headmistress of the boarding school it just feels weird not having Josie here with them. The heretic opened the door of her room to go inside when she spotted her sister there. “Josie? Is this real or are my eyes deceiving me. You bitch, you didn’t told me you were coming on the phone the other night?” 

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@thegoldenheiress​ | Hizzie | closed starter

She had been staying with Hope for what was it? Lizzie lost track of time with how long she had been staying with the tribrid. What she did know that she was back in this state that she was missing Sebastian, especially now Aleeah was just crawling around. Remembering the time that Hope had rejected her and ever since the blonde just didn’t made any move. One night she went to a bar to get a drink, Aleeah was asleep anyway and she needed a drink, which ended up with suddenly running into Sebastian, which turned into an argument and which led the heretic to leave the bar and go back home. 

Lizzie may have been a heretic for some time now and still at times she just lost control with her magic anyway. Holding a bottle of bourbon in her hand tears streaming down her cheek. Sitting down on the floor when she heard footsteps as she looked up. “Am I really that unloveable?” Taking a sip of the bottle of bourbon while taking a deep breath. “Sebastian left me when I was pregnant with Aleeah, you rejected me, months ago. Just a few minutes ago, Sebastian made me feel like I can’t be loved. Maybe he’s right.” Finishing the bottle of bourbon when she then threw the empty bottle against the wall out of frustration. 

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@hcpemikaelscn​ | Raising Children 

It was maybe strange for outsiders to see that they were raising their daughters together. They aren’t dating they’re exes who live together and raise kids together.  Maybe it was weird in a way and Lizzie does still have feelings for Hope, one thing is for sure that she learned from her mistakes - maybe. No way that she was going to express her feelings to Hope again she did twice and she got rejected TWICE. not going through that pain again. As long as she doesn’t get drunk and being all sad she will be alright. The heretic got back home after a walk with Aleeah in the stroller. “You have such an easy life, Aleeah. So simple.” 

Taking her phone to see she had a few texts from someone she didn’t wanted texts from, because knowing herself she will end up with another episode and well, Hope had to try and calm her down once again. Picking her daughter up from the stroller and walking inside and then up the stairs to put Aleeah down for a nap. Trying to hear where Hope is and once she knows she vamp sped to her. “You know who can’t stop texting me.” Lizzie said while looking down at her phone. “Oh and Aleeah is finally asleep.” 

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@thesnowfelled​ | mother/daughter | closed starter.

It was nice to have her mother nearby again. Just having here at the school, it just felt right. Yet it was a day that Lizzie was actually too lazy to go to classes which she decided to skip on and stay in bed. What would be the odds that her mother would find out, which was really a stupid thing to think about. Long live vamp hearing. “Five more minutes.” Lizzie mumbled as she really didn’t wanted to get out of bed, it was way too comfortable. 

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@heavensbounty​ | closed starter.

A groan escaped the blonde her lips when she was looking at Hope. “Do you still get to the point of your story?” She lifted an eyebrow while she folded her arms over each other. Taking a sip of her drink while she was sitting on her bed looking at Hope. 

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redemptivexheroics​:

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Alaric was in his office working on something when the door opened, and in walked Lizzie; he arched a brow when she said nothing but instead collapsed into the chair in front of his desk; sighing, he placed his pen down and moved what he was working on aside and gave his daughter his full attention. “Okay, I’ll bite, what’s bothering you, Lizzie?”

Lizzie had just decided to bother her father for god knows what actually, maybe because she hadn’t really heard much from him ever since she became a heretic and well.. No she doesn’t even know what she was thinking right now. The blonde sighs when she put her feet up on his desk while sitting on a chair. “You.” The teen said not even being specific at this point. “I haven’t heard you say anything about the fact that I am not a heretic. How much do you hate me? Now that I am part vampire?”

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@dereliquitpactum​

Did she took a risk when she was going after Hope? Yes she did but of course the blonde didn’t go unprepared as she drank vampire blood beforehand and the fact that Hope snapped her neck means she was going to be in transition of becoming a heretic. She didn’t told anyone where she was going to or what she was up to. Could anyone blame her? Yes, Jo is back into her life and still it feels weird to have her in her life while she still doesn’t really know her. now things just have been getting worse of Lizzie just wanting to have revenge on what Hope did to her father. Alaric may not be the greatest father but he’s still her father. No one knows where she was and with Josie out of town she just have no one in Mystic Falls anymore. 

The moment she walked outside when she heard something the blonde turned around as she was scanning the area. When she spotted her birth mom. “Jo? What are you doing here?”

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@popularmxnster​

Lizzie was mad no, mad was an understatement. Lizzie was just angry at her father. After getting in an argument with him the blonde packed a bag and just left the school getting into her car and drove away. she was definitely not in the mood to be around her father at this point and this seems like the best option for her at this moment. Without warning or whatever she was driving to Billy’s place the heretic parked her car and got out. Grabbing her bag and phone before slamming the door close and locking int. She didn’t had to get the car, she’s part vampire so she could just vamp speed here but no, she wanted to take her car. It is her car so why not take it. It’s not like Josie was going to use it. 

Once she walked towards the front door she rang the doorbell. “Billy!!” 

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“i can’t sleep.” to Lizzie from Hope (Verse: Raising children)

Lizzie turned around so she was facing the tribrid when she said that. A soft sigh escaped her lips as she had the same problem. "You and me both. And I have been tossing around for what it seems forever and just can't seem to fall asleep." The blonde said while she then looked at the ceiling briefly before looking back at Hope. At least the girls are asleep which made things easier and yet they are what seems to be wide awake.