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i love characters who do the âi worship the myth i make of youâ and in turn dehumanize and get wrong the object of their devotion and love. yes project a thing that does not exist onto a pedestal and kneel at it like it is your altar. this will surely not blow up in both of your faces eventually
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Every sales job Iâve worked has that one item. The white whale. The biggest ticket you can sell. The sale you brag about when youâre chatting with other industry people.
When I sold mattresses it was a split king adjustable base. Thatâs two twin extra long mattresses next to each other to make a king, but each side can move independently. Theyâre insanely expensive and honestly kindâve impractical but it was the biggest ticket thing to sell.
When I sold sex toys though our white whale was the 20lb ass. It was a female pelvis, a cut out from the waist to the tops of the thighs. It was hyper realistic material and cost about $500. I definitely had bigger tickets but not in one item typically.
In my time at the sex shop, I sold three. Each time was completely different in terms of how the guy acted about buying it. The first man was a little embarrassed and shy about it. I was professional and supportive as I rang it up. Once I handed him the receipt he looked at the box. Then he looked at me.
If youâve ever wondered how big a box has to be to fit a 20lb ass let me just tell you: itâs pretty damn big. Itâs an uncomfortably large armful of box and every side has a picture of the sex toy inside on it. Itâs not subtle.
âCould I get a bagâŠ.?â
There was no bag that existed that could possibly contain all that ass. âHang on,â I told him.
I got scissors and tape and covered the box in cut up black bags. Looking relieved he picked up his purchase and left.
The next man to buy one carried it proudly to the counter; self assured and not embarrassed in the least. When I said I didnât have a bag, but I could wrap it for him he gave a hearty shrug and hefted it into his arms, marching out the door with the butt on full display.
The last man to get one was just kindâve an odd guy. Not creepy, but eccentric. We got along great, and as I rang him up I said, âWell one guy wanted his taped over, and one guy carried it out. What would you prefer?â
âThereâs no bags?â
âNo store bags. I think our jumbo trash bags in the back might fit itâŠ.?â It seemed rude to suggest putting a $500 item into a trash bag, but he wasnât bothered.
He considered this then said, âBring me the trash bag.â
When I delivered it to him he still managed to surprise me. Instead of shoving the huge box into it he opened the box. He took out his new $500 sex toy, and all the little things it came with, tipping them unceremoniously into the trash bag.
âThere! Now I donât have to deal with the box later!â
I was slightly stunned but agreed that I could easily deal with the trash. Then in a move I still think about with delight he flung the trash bag over his shoulder like a Santa with a sack full of ass and sauntered out the door.
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CUMMING OF AGE
bsfs brother!Heeseung x f!reader - when you ask him to teach you how to masturbate. (pure porn with plot. MDNI 18+, explicit, masturbation, cunnilingus, phone sex, ANGST, fluff too so its fine.) âIf sheâs not cumming, sheâs not listening to her pussy.â âAnd if she wonât listenâŠâ âIâll make her.â
Youâve always had a hate-hate relationship with masturbation.
Not the âhaha I donât know what Iâm doingâ kind. Not the shy, innocent kind. The kind where you tried, over and over again, and every time it ended in that same aching, pathetic wayâpanties soaked, fingers numb, pussy throbbing, and absolutely nothing to show for it.
No finish. No orgasm. Not even a fucking twitch of satisfaction.
You rubbed and rubbed, like everyone said to. You found your clit. You circled it. Pressed it. Flicked it. Tried soft and slow, then fast and desperate. Tried with spit, with lotion, with fucking coconut oil once. But nothing ever felt right. Just this frustrating hum of almost. Like your body was teetering on the edge of something big and just⊠refused to jump.
Youâd end up sore. Agitated. Your legs would shake, but not the good kind. Your pussy would swell, throbbing like she was mocking you for trying.
It made you feel broken. Or worseâboring. Like your body was wired wrong. Like youâd missed the most basic feminine skill everyone else seemed to be born with.
Girls talked about cumming like it was breathing. Like they could do it in five minutes flat with one hand and a good imagination. Youâd hear them talk about shaking through the sheets, arching off the bed, seeing starsâand youâd smile and nod and laugh along, pretending like you got it, like you knew what it was like to get wrecked by your own hand.
Youâd never even come close.
You tried toys. You bought a vibrator and nearly cried when it did nothing but make your arms go numb. You tried grinding on pillows until the friction made you raw. You tried porn. You even tried watching yourself once in the mirror like some kind of twisted self-help therapy. Nothing worked.
Youâd touch and touch and chase and beg for it in your headâplease, just this once, just let me finish, pleaseâand still end up breathless, sticky, empty.
Youâd cry sometimes. Just a little. From the frustration of it. From the absolute humiliation of being so fucking horny and not being able to do anything about it.
You hated that about yourself. Hated the way your body seemed to enjoy the build and not the release. Hated the way your clit would throb for attention and then get overwhelmed the second you gave her any. Hated the need. The noise. The mess with no reward.
But the worst partâthe actual worst partâwas how much you still wanted it. How much you still tried. Like a dog chasing its own tail. Like some needy little loser who couldnât leave it alone.
You were eighteen, for fuckâs sake. You were supposed to know your body by now. You were supposed to be able to make yourself cum. You were supposed to own your pleasure.
Instead, you were stuck with a pussy that got wet at the idea of being touched and then shut down the second you did.
It made you feel fucking insane.
So you gave up. Mostly. You still touched yourself when you needed toâwhen it built up too much and made your thighs ache. But it wasnât about cumming anymore. It was maintenance. A reset button. A pressure valve. You did it in the dark, quietly, quickly, just to shut your body up.
You didnât even think about pleasure anymore.
You didnât dare.
-
EvieâHeejoo, but you only ever called her that when you wanted to piss her offâwas your best friend in the world. Ride-or-die since ninth grade, bonded over a shared hatred of your chem teacher and the fact that neither of you fit into your schoolâs carefully manicured social circles.
Where you were sharp and quick with your mouth, she was soft-spoken and wide-eyed, just sweet enough to disarm anyone who got too close. You balanced each other out. She calmed your storm. You stirred hers.
You were over at her house so often it barely felt like visiting anymore. You knew the code to their garage door. You had your own toothbrush in her bathroom. Her mom kept your favorite cereal in the pantry like clockwork. You even had a drawer in her room, mostly old hoodies and stolen pajama shorts that smelled like her perfume.
It wasnât unusual for you to spend the weekend there, or three nights in a row, or an entire spring break. Her parents didnât mind. They liked knowing where you both wereâliked having an extra body in the house, even if they never said it out loud.
And then there was Heeseung.
Her older brother. Four years up. Barely a presence.
When you were younger, he was just the older guy who sulked in his room and stole her chargers. Sometimes heâd give you a ride when Evie asked, sometimes heâd walk past you in the kitchen and grunt a greeting, but that was about it. He was there, and then he wasnâtâoff to college, off to god knows where, vanishing from your life as quickly as heâd drifted through it.
You had a tiny crush on him once, freshman year. The kind that sparked quick and stupid, fed by his lazy smirk and the way he wore his backwards cap while fixing his car in the driveway. It died fastâsuffocated by time and distance and his complete disinterest in acknowledging your existence beyond a nod or a side-eye.
By the time he moved back home post-grad, you barely noticed. He was older now, busier, always in his room with the door closed, voice low behind it, like he was on constant phone calls or late-night games or⊠something.
You didnât think about him much. He was just Evieâs brother. Part of the background. White noise.
Your focus was always Evie.
She was the one who held your hair when you puked. The one who lent you a dress before every shitty date. The one who knocked on the bathroom door when you were taking too long and said, âYou better not be edge-cumming again, bitch,â like it was the most normal sentence in the world.
She talked about sex like it was just part of the air. Blunt. Effortless. She could make herself cum in three minutes flat. She said it with confidence, like breathing.
You hated how easily it came to her. You loved her anyway.
You always felt safe in her house. Safe in her bed, tangled up under a shared blanket, legs overlapping like twins born too far apart. Her room smelled like vanilla and lip gloss and safety. It felt like yours.
-
The house settled around you like it always didâquiet, gentle, familiar in a way that made your muscles loosen and your brain drift. Even the silence felt padded here. The hum of the fridge downstairs, the occasional pop of cooling pipes, the subtle click of the thermostat shiftingâbackground noise youâd grown so used to, it almost felt like home.
Evie was out cold beside you, one arm thrown carelessly across your stomach, her breath hot against your ribs. She always slept fast after wine. She always slept on you, tooâlike her body never quite understood boundaries even after all these years. You didnât mind. It was comforting, the weight of her. Like a grounding wire for the anxious, electric static building low in your belly.
Sleep wasnât coming for you, though.
Youâd been lying there in the dark for the better part of an hour, phone dimmed to nearly unreadable brightness, eyes burning from the glow. Nothing on your feed caught your attention. Youâd scrolled past the same content three times already, thumb swiping out of pure muscle memory.
Something restless twisted beneath your skin, persistent and irritating. Not quite horniness, not quite insomniaâjust that same pulsing tension that had been sitting heavy between your legs all night. Like your body was trying to tell you something without using words. You shifted under the blanket, trying not to disturb Evie, thighs pressing tighter together to relieve the dull ache. It only made it worse.
The urge to do something about it had been growing for hours.
Youâd thought about sneaking off to the bathroom. Youâd done it beforeâquiet, quick, businesslike. Just enough friction to take the edge off before falling asleep, still unsatisfied but too tired to care. The idea barely tempted you anymore. You already knew how it would end: the usual mess of spit-slick fingers, your clit swollen and sore, pussy wet and pulsing and still refusing to give you anything real.
Just the thought of trying again made you clench your jaw.
It was pathetic, the way your body teased you. Wet for no reason. Needy without payout. Over and over again, like clockwork. Like punishment.
You turned your phone off with a quiet sigh and let the screen go black.
For a moment, all you could hear was the creak of the floorboards expanding under the weight of a settling house. A branch tapping against the window. The subtle drag of Evieâs breathing. You stared at the ceiling, tired but tense, willing yourself to shut down the frustration building behind your ribs.
A manâs voice, deep and casual, barely audible through the cracked bedroom doors. Not enough to make out words. Not yet. Just the soft cadence of speech, rising and falling like a secret being shared too close to the edge of the world.
Heeseungâs door was open. Or cracked. Just enough to let a sliver of sound spill out. You hadnât even realized he was home tonight.
Your body stilled, like it always did when you felt watchedâexcept this time, you were the one doing the watching. Listening, technically. Just barely.
There was a pause, then a laugh. Not his. Another voice. Someone else. Male. Maybe one of his friends from school, the ones who came and went without warning. You couldnât place the sound, and you didnât care.
Your focus sharpened the second Heeseung spoke again.
âItâs not that hard. Girls make it harder than it is."
âIf sheâs not cumming, sheâs not listening to her pussy.â
The sentence dropped like a stone in the middle of your chest.
Not whispered. Not dirty. Just⊠stated. Like a law. Like fact.
Your fingers flexed unconsciously against the blanket. Heat flushed your neck and settled low in your belly, familiar and unwelcome. You didnât move. Couldnât.
There was something about the way he said it. Not performative. Not like he was trying to sound cool. Just calm. Confident. Like the kind of guy who got women off without effort and never thought twice about why.
Every hair on your arm lifted. He didnât stop there.
âAnd if she wonât listenâŠIâll make her.â
No laughter followed that. No teasing. Just a quiet moment where it hung in the air, unchallenged.
You lay frozen in the dark, heart thudding, mouth slightly open. Your legs ached under the blanket, thighs tense and pressed together. You werenât just turned onâyou were caught. Cornered by something you werenât supposed to hear and couldnât let go of.
Something clicked. Not like a revelation, not some dramatic internal monologue, just⊠a shift. A tilt in the floor beneath your feet. A door opening in a room you didnât realize you were trapped in.
You didnât even know what you wanted in that moment.
But for the first time in your life, you wonderedâreally wonderedâwhat your body would feel like under instructions that werenât your own.
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You tried not to think about it for the rest of the day. Swore you wouldnât spiral.
You kept the overheard words tucked somewhere tight in your chest, smothered under fake laughter and half-listened stories while Evie walked you through her latest dating app disasters. You made it through brunch, through an entire Target run, through two face masks and one trashy Netflix documentaryâand you almost convinced yourself you were over it.
But when the house quieted again that nightâwhen Evie fell asleep curled up on the far side of the bed with her arm draped over a pillow instead of youâyou gave in.
You waited a while. Just in case she wasnât fully out. The kind of sleep that could crack open with the creak of floorboards.
And when her breathing evened out, soft and deep and oblivious, you slid out from under the blanket, grabbed your phone, and slipped into the hallway.
The bathroom door closed with a soft click behind you.
You didnât turn the light on right away. Just stood there for a second in the dark, breathing.
The air was cooler here. The tiles cold against your feet. The smell of Evieâs shampoo still clung to the roomâvanilla and something floral, sticky-sweet. You stared at your reflection in the mirror above the sink, barely visible in the silver sliver of hallway light. Your face looked flushed. Too open. Like something had already been peeled back.
You sat on the closed toilet lid, tugged your hoodie over your thighs, and pulled your phone into your lap.
No buildup. No browsing. You knew what you were looking for.
The video you always came back to. The closest thing youâd ever found to what worked. A deep voice. Slow instructions. Just audioânothing to watch, nothing to focus on but sound.
It wasnât him, but it didnât have to be. Not yet.
Your underwear stuck to the heat between your thighs as you slid it down. Still wet from the tension that had been building since that morning. From the second you saw Heeseung in the kitchen and felt your legs press together automatically.
The wetness shouldâve been a good sign.
But you already knew how this would go.
You played the video. Turned the volume down low. Closed your eyes.
Your fingers found your clit easily. Rubbed gentle circles, the way the voice said. You tried to breathe through it, tried to slow down, to listen.
There was too much pressure too soon. Your skin twitched with every touch. The angle was wrong. The rhythm never quite synced. Your body jerked between feeling almost there and feeling absolutely nothing.
You tried harder.
Tried picturing somethingâsomeone. His voice. His mouth. The way he looked at you this morning like you werenât just Evieâs friend, like he saw something else.
That made your fingers move faster. Your hips twitch up from the seat, trying to find somethingâanythingâthat would tip you over.
But it never came.
Just heat. Just sweat. Just the same stinging tension in your thighs and the wave that built up, crested, and refused to break.
Your hand dropped. Your chest heaved with a breath that sounded too much like a sob.
You sat there for a full minute in silence, pussy swollen, twitching, soaking your handâand still nothing. You hadnât cum. Not even close.
Not even fucking close.
Your palm dragged across your inner thigh as you reached for toilet paper, the wet slick of your own arousal catching against your skin, obscene and bitter and useless. You wiped your hand clean, flushed, washed it under the tap in a daze.
Your reflection stared back at you in the mirror, flushed cheeks, wild eyes, bottom lip bitten raw.
This wasnât working.
You couldnât do this by yourself. Not anymore.
The shame didnât even hit you until you opened the door, stepped back into the hall, and looked toward Heeseungâs room.
You didnât remember walking from the bathroom to his door. Not really. Your body moved on instinct, fingers still damp with failure, breath shallow and uneven like youâd been runningânot down a hallway, but in circles inside your own skin. Everything felt hot and wrong, like you were standing too close to something dangerous and still leaning closer.
The light from under his door was soft, pale blue. The kind of glow that came from a computer screen and sleepless hours. It made the hallway feel colder. Your skin felt clammy beneath your hoodie, thighs still tacky with your own arousal, pulse thudding hard behind your ears. You didnât even try to calm yourself before raising your hand. There wasnât enough time. There wasnât enough anything left.
You knocked.
Soft, quick. Regretted it immediately.
Nothing.
The silence on the other side stretched just long enough to make you feel stupid. You shouldâve gone back to Evieâs room. Shouldâve locked the bathroom door and buried your face in your hands like you always did. Shouldâve swallowed the shame and left it to rot where it always did: at the bottom of your throat.
Your hand was already dropping when the doorknob turned.
Heeseung opened the door halfway, leaning into the frame, and for a second you couldnât speak. You werenât expecting him to look like thatâhoodie sleeves pushed up to his forearms, collar askew, hair a damp mess like heâd run his hands through it one too many times. His sweatshorts hung low on his hips, legs bare, skin flushed warm like heâd just come out of the shower⊠or just come. You had no way of knowing which. And it made your brain short-circuit either way.
He didnât look surprised to see you. Just confused.
His eyes dragged down your body with a slow kind of calculation, and you swore you saw the moment they caught on the way your thighs were pressed together, your bare legs twitching under the hem of your hoodie. The way your breath hitched in your throat. The way your fingersâstill wet, still tremblingâcurled tighter at your side.
He blinked once, brows pulling in slightly.
âYou good?â
The question was simple, quiet. But it hit like an echo in a room with no furniture. You were not good. Not even close.
Your voice came out before you could soften it. Flat, direct. âDo you have a girlfriend?â
He blinked again. Caught off guard this time.
ââŠWhat?â
âI just need to know,â you said quickly, words tumbling over each other. âBefore I say anything. It matters.â
He stared at you for a beat, mouth twitching like he wasnât sure if he should be amused or suspicious.
âNo. I donât.â
You exhaled like someone had untied a knot inside your chest.
âFuck.â
His eyes narrowed slightly. âWhat?â
âIf you said yes,â you muttered, eyes darting to the floor, âI wouldâve had an excuse not to ask you.â
That made him pause.
He shifted his weight, crossed his arms over his chest, leaned into the doorframe like he was settling in. His voice was a little lower when he asked, âAsk me what?â
Your whole body burned. There was no easy way to say it. No casual phrasing. No safe distance between you and the truth anymore. You didnât have the energy to dance around it.
âYou said something last night,â you started, forcing yourself to look at him. âAbout girls who canât finish. About how theyâre not listening to their bodies.â
He watched you carefully. No expression, just the slow, measured study of a man waiting for the rest.
âI heard it,â you added. âBy accident. But itâs been stuck in my head. And I thoughtâI donât know, I thought maybe you were right.â
Still nothing. Just his gaze crawling over your face, down to your knees, like he was trying to see where this was going before letting himself speak.
You swallowed, the taste of failure still thick in your throat. âI tried again tonight. Bathroom. Just now. Iâve been trying for years, and itâs always the same. Nothing works. I canât finish. I touch myself, and it justâgoes nowhere.â
Your cheeks burned. You didnât even know why you were telling him all this. You barely knew the guy. The last time youâd had a real conversation was probably three birthdays ago when he offered you a ride and you said no because he smelled like weed and fuckboy cologne.
But here you were. Standing in front of him like some half-dressed, sweat-slick confession, spilling everything.
And he still hadnât said a word.
Your next breath shook as it left you.
âI donât want you to touch me,â you said, quieter now. âI just want to ask⊠if youâd tell me what to do.â
That got something out of him. A small breath through his nose, not quite a laugh, not quite disbelief. His eyes droppedâlower this timeâto your legs again, to the edge of your hoodie, to the bare skin flushed and prickling under the hallway air.
He nodded once toward you, chin tilting. âYour handâs still wet.â
You froze.
His voice was low, unreadable. âYou tried that hard, huh?â
You didnât answer. You couldnât.
He stepped back.
Just a few inches. Just enough to open the door wider. The light from inside poured out around him, cool and soft and full of static.
He held your gaze.
 âCome in. Close the door behind you.â
The door shuts with a soft click behind you, and just like that, the house disappears. Evieâs room, the hallway, your entire carefully contained worldâit all drops away. Thereâs only the low glow of his monitor casting pale blue light across the carpet and the quiet hum of something electric in the corner, like the room itself is holding its breath.
You hover near the door for a second, not sure what to do with your hands, your legs, your shame.
Heeseungâs already sitting, legs wide in his desk chair, turned toward you like he was waiting the whole night for this. He shifts, pushes himself up slightly, and drags the chair forwardâlazily, unbotheredâuntil it sits right in front of the bed. Close enough that if you spread your legs, heâd have a front-row seat.
Then he flips the chair around, straddling it backwards like some cocky delinquent in detention, arms crossed over the backrest, chin resting casually on top. His expression doesnât change. He just watches you.
âGo ahead,â he says, voice calm and low, like this is just another Tuesday night. âSit.â
You make your way to the bed, legs tense, breath shallow, and perch at the edge like it might bite. Your thighs clench on instinct, hoodie pulled low, trying to shield what you already know heâs seen. Youâre still warm from the bathroom. Still soaked. Still aching.
His eyes drift down. Slow. Lazy. No shame.
You fidget.
Heeseung doesnât move. âDonât get shy on me now. You came in here asking for a masturbation lesson, not a bedtime story.â
Your lips twitch. You almost laugh. Almost.
He lifts his chin. âTell me what you usually do.â
The question lands harder than it should. Not because itâs dirty, but because itâs so simple.
You blink. âLike⊠where I touch?â
âYeah.â
You hesitate. âI usually just go straight to my clit.â
âFigures.â He doesnât miss a beat. âAnd then what? Rub the fuck out of it âtil it gets sore and wonder why it doesnât work?â
Your mouth falls open in a small gasp. âExcuse me?â
He shrugs one shoulder, unbothered. âDonât take it personal. Thatâs what most girls do. Itâs not your fault you think the goal is speed over sense.â
You donât respond, but your silence is answer enough.
He leans in a little, forearms resting on the chair back, gaze glued to your bare thighs. Thereâs no hunger in itânot yet. Just observation. Like heâs assessing you.
âIf your pussy had a voice,â he says smoothly, âsheâd be screaming at you to chill the fuck out.â
Youâre quiet for a long second. Because the worst part is⊠heâs not wrong.
He watches you squirm, and something like amusement passes over his features. Not cruel, but smug.
âTake your time,â he says, gentler now. âYou rush her, she locks up. Doesnât matter how wet you are.â
ââŠShe?â you murmur, lifting a brow.
Heeseung shrugs again, like itâs obvious. âYeah. She.â His eyes flick to yours. âYou donât gotta name her or write poetry about her, but you should probably stop treating her like a vending machine.â
Your laugh breaks before you can stop it. Quick and sharp, nerves bleeding out of your throat. âYouâre so annoying.â
âAnd yet, youâre still here,â he says with a smirk, eyes dark. âGo on. Show me how you start.â
Everything tightens. You feel the weight of his voice low in your belly.
You donât move right away.
He raises a brow. âYou said you didnât want me to touch you. Thatâs cool. But I need to see what youâre doing wrong.â
Your breath hitches.
Your hand moves on instinctâslow, shakyâand dips beneath the hem of your hoodie, then under the band of your panties. Youâre already wet. Embarrassingly wet. And when your fingers graze over your clit, you flinch. Itâs too sensitive. Too much. Your hips jerk a little, and you pretend not to notice the way his eyes follow the motion.
You rub. Once. Twice. Itâs not bad. Itâs what you always do.
But stillânothing clicks.
Heeseung tilts his head. âYouâre too stiff.â
âIâm nervous,â you admit quietly.
âDonât be.â His voice drops half an octave. âYou look hot.â
The way he says itâit doesnât sound like a compliment. Just a fact. Like heâs telling you what time it is. Like your soaked fingers and clenched thighs are something heâs been picturing all night.
âYouâre thinking too much,â he adds. âTrying to force it instead of feel it.â
Your hand stills.
He leans forward slightly, his voice quieter now, more intimate. âTry this. Press your hand flat. Just hold her. No rubbing. No tapping. Just⊠feel her.â
You hesitate, then obey.
The flat of your hand settles between your legs, heat blooming up your arm from the contact. Your whole body clenches around it.
âFeel that?â
You nod. Barely.
âThatâs what she likes,â he murmurs. âYouâve been poking at her like sheâs a fucking keyboard. No wonder sheâs not putting out.â
You let out a breathy laughâhalf scandalized, half aroused. âYouâre unbelievable.â
âAnd youâre soaking through your panties,â he says, deadpan.
Your breath catches. Heeseung doesnât laugh. Doesnât look away.
He sits there like heâs got all the time in the world. Like heâs doing you a favor. Like heâs enjoying this. Youâre not even sure heâs hard yetâbut he will be. You can feel it building. Between you. In you.
He lets the moment hang.
Then: âNowâslow circles. Donât speed up unless she tells you to.â
âShe doesnât talk,â you whisper, teasing without confidence.
His gaze is heavy. Steady.
âShe does,â he says, voice like heat sliding under your skin. âYou just havenât been listening.â
The room feels hotter now.
Not just the airâyour skin, your mouth, your thighs. Sweat clings to the backs of your knees, damp beneath the bunched-up hoodie, and your panties are so wet theyâre practically glued to one thigh. Your hips keep twitching without your permission, rolling up slightly with every pass of your fingers. Itâs not graceful. Itâs not some porn fantasy. Itâs messy and uneven and real, and Heeseung is watching every second of it like itâs the only thing worth watching.
You keep thinking you should feel embarrassed. Ashamed. Youâre spread open on his bed, hand stuffed between your legs, whining softly every time you stroke a little too hard and have to ease back againâbut youâre too far gone now to stop. Your cheeks are flushed, lashes wet, lips parted, and you canât look away from him.
He hasnât blinked once.
Heeseung is still straddling the backward chair, elbows resting on the top, chin on one hand like this is casual. Normal. Like youâre just some half-naked girl jerking off in front of him for practice and heâs your substitute teacher for the night.
The only thing thatâs changed is his posture.
His knees are spread wider than before. His forearms are tense. One hand grips the edge of the chair a little tighter every time your body jerks, and you donât miss the way his jaw flexes every time your breath stutters or your voice cracks.
Youâre doing this to him.
But not enough.
Not enough to make it stop hurting. Not enough to make the ache go away. Not enough to finish.
Youâre trying. God, youâre trying.
Your fingers rub in slow circles, not too fast now. Youâre listening. You are. But your body keeps tensing at the edge, like itâs scared to fall off the cliff itâs been building for years. Your handâs cramping. Your clit throbs. Your stomach clenches like youâre closeâand then it dips, again and again.
Itâs good. So good.
But itâs not enough.
You choke on a frustrated sound, somewhere between a sob and a moan, and your free hand fists the blanket beneath you like itâs the only thing keeping you grounded.
Heeseung speaks, finally, voice low and steady. âStill rushing her.â
âIâm not,â you whisper.
âYou are. I can see it.â
You shake your head, breath stuttering. âIâm not trying toâI swear, Iâmââ You gasp. âItâs justâitâs notââ
You stop. Words catch in your throat. Your hips are rocking now, involuntarily, chasing a sensation that keeps pulling away the second you get close. Your fingers are wet, your pussyâs pulsing, and it still feels like youâre just rubbing up against a wall.
âItâs not enough,â you breathe out, broken. âIâI canâtâfuckâsheâs not listening.â
Heeseung leans forward slightly, something sharp flashing in his eyes.
âOh, sheâs listening,â he says. âYouâre just not talking to her the right way.â
You whimper. âThen tell me what to say.â
That makes his mouth twitchâjust barely. Like heâs been waiting for that.
âTell me what sheâs feeling first.â
âIââ Your voice cracks. âSheâs tight. Warm. I feel herâpulsing. Like she wants something butâsheâs not opening.â
He tilts his head slightly, gaze dark. âShe wants to be filled.â
You nod.
âNo,â he says. âSay it.â
Your chest heaves. Your hand hasnât stopped moving, rubbing slow, desperate circles around your clit. âShe wants to be filled.â
âSay it like you mean it.â
âShe wants to be fucking filled,â you whine. âSheâs throbbingâsheâs soakingâfuck, I can feel her squeezing nothing.â
Heeseung exhales slowly, eyes flicking down between your legs again.
âThere you go,â he murmurs. âNow sheâs talking.â
Your fingers glide lower, catching more slick and sliding back up. Everythingâs soaked. Youâre dripping down onto the sheets, and your thighs are trembling from the strain of keeping your hips lifted just right.
âShe needs more,â you pant. âSheâs clenchingâsheâs starvingââ
Heeseungâs hand flexes around the edge of the chair again. His voice drops, almost to a growl. âSo feed her.â
You moanâhigh and breathyâand press harder, circling your clit faster now, the way your body wants. Your lips are wet, your fingers slipping, but it doesnât matter. Everything is slick and hot and alive.
âYouâre soaked,â he mutters, eyes burning into you. âLook at your fucking fingers.â
You do. Itâs obscene. Your hand shines in the light, your fingers coated in slick. You barely recognize your own body like this. Ruined. Responsive.
âSheâs begging,â he says softly. âAnd youâre finally listening.â
You whine, eyes squeezing shut. Your free hand presses against your lower belly, trying to hold the heat in. Your pussy twitches at the pressure.
âSheâs so fucking greedy,â you gasp. âShe wonât stop pullingâI canâtâI canât keep upââ
âYou donât have to,â he says. âShe knows what sheâs doing. Let her take it.â
You donât even realize how loud youâve gotten until you hear yourself moan againâshameless, cracked open, shaking from the inside out.
Your legs spread wider. Youâre not trying to hide anymore. Not from him. Not from yourself.
Youâre right there.
Youâre going to break.
Heâs just watching. Like itâs his favorite thing heâs ever seen.
Youâre right on the edge, and this time itâs not teasing.
Itâs sharp. Fast. Inevitable.
Your legs are trembling now, hips jerking with every motion, and your fingers are soakedâslipping against your clit, coating your inner thighs, dripping down the crease of your ass like your bodyâs trying to fuck itself open. Every stroke sends another wave of tension through you, and thereâs no holding it anymore. Your body is begging. Your pussyâs leaking, twitching, clenching around nothingâand Heeseung watches like itâs the most natural thing in the world.
You donât even realize youâre moaning until you hear it echo back at you in the small room. High-pitched. Desperate. Wet.
The sound of your pussy is louder now too. Sticky and obscene, each rub slicker than the last. You can hear it every time you roll your hips into your palm.
Heeseung doesnât say a word for a second too long.
You lift your head, eyes glazed over, panting.
His eyes are darker now. Half-lidded. Focused on your pussy like heâs reading it better than your face.
He shifts in his chair. Spreads his knees wider. His hand dips into the front of his sweatshorts, slow and casual, like he canât ignore it anymore. You catch a glimpse of his fingers wrapping around himselfâand your breath catches so hard your vision blurs.
Heâs so hard.
His voice comes out deeper. Filthy. Measured like itâs the only thing anchoring him in the room.
âLook at that messy little cunt.â
Your body jerks at the word. Youâve never heard it said like that. Never felt it hit like that.
Heeseung strokes himself once, slow and firm under the fabric.
âSheâs drooling all over your fingers. So fucking hungry. Bet sheâs never been this loud for you before.â
âShe hasnât,â you breathe. âShe neverâshe neverââ
âYouâve been starving her,â he says, still jerking himself lazily. âTouching her like sheâs a problem instead of a fucking meal.â
Your hand speeds up, and he sees it. Hears the slap of slick. Youâre humping into your fingers now, sloppy and desperate and so close you could scream.
Heeseung leans forward, one elbow braced against the back of the chair.
âYou wanna cum, baby?â
You nod frantically, but itâs not enough.
âUse your words.â
Your voice comes out cracked. âYes. PleaseâI wanna cumâI need itââ
âNeed what?â he pushes.
âI need her to fucking break,â you sob. âSheâs clenchingâsheâs beggingâshe needs to cum, she needs itââ
âThen let her,â he growls. âDonât fucking hold it. Let her make a mess.â
You whimper, fingers frantic, back arching off the bed.
And thatâs when he says itâlow and hot and foul.
âLet her fuck your fingers, slut.â
You snap.
Your body locks up, then shatters. You cum so hard your legs shake, hips jerking forward, thighs squeezing around your own hand as your pussy gushes over your fingers in sticky, messy waves. The moan that rips from your throat is broken, cracked, half-wet from tears.
It doesnât hit you right away.
At first, thereâs just white. Blinding. A full-body seizure of pleasure as your cunt clenches around nothing, soaking your own fingers, mouth open in a moan that doesnât even sound like you.
It crashes over you fast. Wet. Messy.
You cum harder than you ever have in your lifeâharder than you thought was even possibleâand your body just keeps going, hips jerking, slick dripping past your knuckles, your voice cracking on every gasp.
Heeseung is still there.
You know he is. You can feel his eyes on you, feel his breath in the space between your bodies, but you canât look at him. Not right now. Not like this.
And then it fades.
That warm, bright static in your brain flickers out. Your thighs twitch. Your hand finally drops, fingers soaked, wrist aching, clit too sensitive to touch again.
Whatâs left is the sound of your breathing. The slick, wet mess beneath your hips. The embarrassment flooding in all at once like a second wave.
Reality slams back into you hard.
Youâre laid out across his bedâsweaty, flushed, thighs spread wide and soaked all the way down to the crease of your ass. Your pussyâs still twitching, swollen and glistening, your panties bunched at one knee, hoodie halfway pushed up your stomach.
Your fingers shine in the low light. Still wet. Still shaking.
You sit up fast, panic sweeping over your skin like ice water. âShitâfuck.â
Your hand fumbles to pull your hoodie down, yanking it over your thighs, shoving your panties back into place even though theyâre absolutely soaked through. The fabric clings wetly to your pussy and only makes the mess feel worse.
Heeseung hasnât moved.
Still in the chair. Still one hand inside his shorts. He looks completely unbothered. Calm. Like you didnât just cum your entire soul out in front of him.
You canât meet his eyes.
He watches you fuss with the hem of your hoodie, your hands still trembling slightly as you try to make yourself look decent.
âDidnât say stop,â he says mildly.
You glare at him, cheeks burning. âI came. Pretty sure thatâs the goal, right?â
He shrugs one shoulder. âJust surprised youâre acting all shy now. That pussy was practically talking thirty seconds ago.â
âJesusââ you squeeze your eyes shut, bury your face in your hands.
Heeseung grins. Not mean. Not mocking. Just amused.
âYou do realize how loud you were, right?â he adds. âI thought the bed was gonna snap in half.â
âPlease stop talking,â you groan, voice muffled.
âYou were crying,â he says like itâs a compliment, hand still lazily palming himself under his shorts. âThat shit was beautiful.â
You peek at him through your fingers. Heâs still hard. Still watching you with that same steady calm, like this is fine. Like this is normal.
He doesnât even seem fazed.
That somehow makes the ache between your legs flare again. Weak, overstimulated, but greedy.
You clear your throat. âI didnât realize Iâum. That I could⊠do that.â
He raises an eyebrow. âCum?â
You shoot him a look.
Heeseung laughs, finally letting go of himself. âYouâve been fighting her for years. All I did was give you directions.â
You tuck your knees up into your chest, arms wrapped around them. You feel like you just stripped naked in front of someone who stayed fully clothedâand now heâs just lounging there like you didnât just show him the most private part of yourself.
You sit in that awkward silence for a few seconds longer.
Heeseung stretches, chair creaking slightly. âSo,â he says, tone casual. âLesson two tomorrow?â
You blink.
ââŠThereâs a second lesson?â
He smiles slow, eyes dropping to your thighs again. âYou think sheâs done learning?â
Your pussy twitches beneath your soaked panties.
-
Your legs are still weak from the first night when you leave.
Just a few days back home. Just a quick visit. You didnât think it would matterâbut the second you cross the county line, your pussy starts aching like she knows sheâs been abandoned. Like she misses his voice already.
You think about texting him before you even unpack your overnight bag.
 It starts that fastâbarely through the front door, barely through dinner with your parents, barely through pretending to care about someoneâs new side hustle or whatever cousin just had a baby, and already your mind is slipping.Â
Already youâre restless. Already your body feels too awake. You can still feel the slick sticking to the inside of your thighs from last night, from the way he sat in that chair like he was doing you a favor while you touched yourself for the first time like it meant something. It hasnât gone away. The ache stayed with you.Â
That trembling throb between your legs that didnât fade after one orgasmâor twoâor three. And now, here you are. Sitting in your childhood bedroom like you didnât just learn how to listen to your pussy in someone elseâs bed with someone elseâs voice in your ear.
You last all of twelve hours. Maybe thirteen if you count sleep, but thatâs cheating. You keep checking your phone like a freak. Not even for a messageâjust to see his name.
 You scroll through the notifications like maybe heâll magically show up. You open his contact. Stare at the little circle icon. You type a text. Delete it.Â
Type again. Delete. Pace the room. Pull your hair up. Let it fall. Lie on the bed. Toss the blanket off. Roll onto your stomach, then your back, then sit up again because your bodyâs too hot and your thoughts wonât stop dragging back to the sound of his voice saying âGood girl. Sheâs listening now.â
You try to distract yourself. Put music on. Stare at the ceiling. Scroll through reels. But the tension is building and itâs not casual. Itâs deep. Itâs mean.Â
Like your pussyâs crawling up your spine and whispering call him over and over again. And finally, like a fucking addict, you give in.
You donât try to be subtle. Your fingers tremble as you type the messageââCan I call you?ââand hit send before you can regret it. Your breath catches in your throat. Heart pounding. Shame twisting in your gut like youâve already crossed a line and he hasnât even replied. But then your phone buzzes. Two texts in a row. You click without thinking.
No. Iâll call you.
Speaker on. Hands ready. Nothing else.
You donât even get a second to prepare. The call comes in instantly, and you fumble to answer it, press speaker, toss the phone onto your pillow and sit back, legs shaking under your blanket. Youâre wearing nothing but a big t-shirtâno bra, no panties. Like your body already knew what was coming.
His voice is in your ear the second the line connects.
Low. Thick. Wrecked.
âYou waited all day just to fuck yourself to my voice, didnât you?â
The sound alone makes your thighs clamp together. You canât answer. You donât know what to say. You feel called out, ruined, exposed, and he hasnât even seen you.
âYouâre pathetic,â he breathes, and itâs not cruelâitâs reverent. Like heâs turned on by the depth of your desperation. âYou left for less than twenty-four hours and sheâs already starving.â
Your breath comes out shaky. âShe hasnât shut up.â
âI bet. That little pussyâs been crying for attention, hasnât she? Soaking your panties, throbbing for no reason. Did you even try to touch her?â
Your hand slides down your stomach. Shame floods your chest. âI tried last night.â
âAnd?â
Your fingers drift over your mound, soft and slow.
ââŠDidnât work.â
âOf course it didnât.â He doesnât miss a beat. âBecause sheâs not trained to your fingers. Sheâs trained to my voice.â
You nearly choke.
âTake the blanket off.â
You do.
âT-shirt stays. I want you messy under it. Like a filthy little secret.â
You obey, chest rising. The air hits your bare skin and your nipples pebble instantly under the thin cotton. You slide your hand under the hem and find yourself dripping alreadyâyour folds slippery and warm, your clit throbbing at the first brush.
âFuck. Youâre already wet.â
You donât answer.
âDonât ignore me. Say it.â
You whimper. âIâm wet.â
âWhere?â
Your hand slides lower. âEverywhere.â
âLet me hear it.â
You drag your fingers through your folds, then lift them to the mic.
Squish. Slick. Wet.
âJesus Christ,â he breathes. âSheâs fucking leaking for me.â
âShe wonât stop,â you pant. âSheâs been clenchingâsheâs needy. I canâtâI canât even think straight.â
âShe doesnât need you to think. She needs you to listen.â
You nod like he can see you.
âYou touching your clit yet?â
âNo,â you whisper. âJust teasing.â
âDonât tease her. Feed her.â
You obey. Your fingers find your clit and press slow, warm circles into the swollen skin. Your hips twitch immediately. Your body jolts with relief. Like itâs been waiting for this.
âFuck. Thatâs it. Let her roll her hips. Let her grind on your fingers.â
You do.
And you moan. Loud. Wet. Pathetic.
âYou sound like youâre crying.â
âI might be,â you choke out. âIâmâIâve been on edge all day. Sheâs screamingââ
âThen shut her up.â
Your fingers move faster. Your breath turns ragged. The slick is everywhere nowâcoating your palm, sliding down your ass, soaking the sheets beneath you. You can hear itâslap, slap, slapâand you know he can too.
âGod, listen to her,â he says. âSheâs fucking talking again. Slapping wet, loud as hell, crying to be filled.â
Your thighs start to shake.
âDonât you dare stop.â
âHeeseungâfuck, Iâm closeââ
âShe wants to cum. So let her.â
You cum hard, back arching, legs tensed, voice cracking open around a sob as your pussy convulses around nothingâjust your fingers, just your shame, just his voice dragging it out of you with nothing but command.
âAgain,â he growls. âDonât you dare take your hand off her. You begged for this. You waited all fucking day for it.â
You keep going. Because you canât stop. Because this is his now.
-
You donât get a break.
Heeseung doesnât let you.
After that first callâthe one where you came so hard you swore you saw starsâyou thought maybe the tension would ease up. Maybe youâd get to breathe. But you donât. Because the second you wake up the next morning, thereâs already a text waiting for you.
Morning. She hungry?
Your pussy clenches on reflex.
You bite your lip, cheeks flushing under the covers.
Yes.
His reply is instant.
Good. edge yourself until youâre shaking. No cumming. No cheating. Youâll send me a pic of your fingers when youâre done.
Thatâs it. No teasing. No sweet talk. Just commands. Direct. Cruel. And of courseâyou obey.
You finger yourself that morning with shaking hands, grinding into your palm in the silence of your old bedroom with one hand over your mouth to muffle your cries. You stop just short of release three times. Your panties are soaked. The sheets beneath you are ruined.
You send the photo.
Two slick fingers, gleaming. One droplet hanging from your wrist like a taunt.
He doesnât reply until hours later.
Beautiful. Donât clean her up. Let her stick to your skin. I want her to haunt you all day.
Thatâs how it starts.
Sometimes itâs a call. Sometimes itâs just a photo prompt. Sometimes itâs voice notesâlow, slow, whispered filth that you replay in the bathroom on full volume with your thighs clenched so tight you can barely breathe.
Another day: make a mess on your favorite pair of panties. Send proof. Donât wash them. Fold them and put them in your drawer like a secret. Like she remembers.
When you canât callâfamily dinners, company in the house, a wedding eventâhe doesnât complain. He just adapts.
He sends you three voice notes in a row, each one filthier than the last.
âAre you wearing panties right now?â
âSheâs wet just from this, isnât she?â
âPut your phone between your legs. Let my voice buzz against her while you grind.â
You do. In the middle of the day. On the edge of your childhood bed. With the door locked and your hand clamped over your mouth to muffle the sound of you cumming on command.
Every time you text him, he knows what you need before you say it.
On your knees. Two fingers. Say my name when you finish. Thatâs all.
You cum like a trained animal.
By the end of the fourth day, youâre overstimulated and aching. Your cunt stays warm. Your clit stays swollen. You canât think straight without hearing his voice. You canât fall asleep without a pillow between your legs and your phone under your ear, replaying the way he said your name like it tasted good.
He doesnât let you get comfortable.
I want her ruined by the time you get back. Wet stains on your thighs. Bruised from your own fingers. No excuses. You belong to me now, yeah?
-
Youâre at the dinner table when the text comes in.
Thereâs a bowl of pasta in front of you. Your uncleâs talking about traffic. Your momâs pouring more wine. And your phone buzzes in your lapâone tiny, harmless vibration you almost ignore until you see the name on your lockscreen.
Heeseung.
Your chest tightens immediately. A hot ripple runs down your spine. You unlock it under the table, heart already picking up speed, thighs pressed tight together like thatâs gonna help anything.
You expect a voice note. Maybe an instruction. Instead, itâs just a single message.
Donât open this here. Iâm serious.
You excuse yourself. Bathroom. You try to walk casually, but your legs feel unstable, like your body knows whatâs coming and is bracing for it. You shut the door. Lock it. Sit down on the closed toilet seat. And then you open the message.
Itâs not a photo. Not a voice note. Just a block of text.
And it destroys you.
I want you dripping. Right now. I want your thighs sticky. I want your pussy hot and twitching and swollen like sheâs just been edged for an hour and sheâs still not allowed to cum. I want her pulsing around nothing. Squeezing air. Leaking like she misses my cock even though sheâs never had it. Thatâs how good I want her trained. That she misses me even though Iâve never fucked her. I want you to slide your hand into your panties and feel her spit for me. Feel how filthy sheâs gotten just from reading my words. Not even hearing my voice. Just letters on a screen and sheâs frothing like a brainless little thing. I want her throbbing. Sore. Pink. Aching. I want you to pull your panties to the side and look at what Iâve done to you. How she opens for nothing. How she clenches for nothing. How she cries, fucking cries, when she doesnât get touched. I want her messy. Slutty. Wet enough to embarrass you. Wet enough you canât clean it up with one tissue. Wet enough that if someone walked into that bathroom right now, theyâd smell her. No fingers. Not yet. Just pressure. Palm down. Let her hump. Let her grind. Let her get yourself dirty. She knows what to do. She doesnât need permission anymore. Youâre gonna leak down your leg just reading this, arenât you? Sheâs already twitching. Already soaking. She knows what she is now. A thing that exists to be used. To be made wet. To be trained.
You stare at your screen. Eyes wide. Chest heaving.
And you feel itâthat slow, steady drip.
You slide your hand down between your legs and whimper when your fingers meet your pantiesâsoaked through. Hot and sticky, your folds puffy and swollen, everything throbbing with need.
You spread your legs wider. Thereâs no stopping it. You have to.
You push your panties aside, just like he said, and when you look down, your cunt is shining. Slick lips parted, clit swollen and begging, a string of wet clinging between your folds when you breathe too hard.
You cup her with your whole palm and rock once.
You grind again. Harder. The heel of your hand pressing directly on your clit. Your hips move faster, panting now, forehead pressed against your bent knee as your pussy humps your own hand like sheâs starved.
Youâre fucking yourself with no fingers. Just pressure. Just filth. Just his words rotting your brain and your pussy loving it.
You donât stop until your legs lock, jaw clenched tight to muffle the moan that rips through your throat. Your pussy convulses, grinding down hard, cumming in waves against your own palm until youâre crying silently, thighs soaked, panties a mess, body twitching from the force of it.
When itâs over, youâre wrecked. You sit there in silence. Breathing heavy. Panties still pulled to the side, hand drenched, cunt gaping and twitching like sheâs still looking for him.
You snap a photo.
Not of your face. Just your hand. Soaked. Ruined. Slick covering your wrist, dripping down your knuckles.
You send it. No caption. A minute later, his reply lights up your screen.
Thatâs how sheâs supposed to look. Every day until you get home.
-
You donât even knock.
You could, but whatâs the point? He told you to come over as soon as you got back. No texts. No warning. Just a short message yesterday night:
You better show up dripping.
And you are.
The shorts you wore are damp at the crotch, your hoodie clinging to the sweat on your lower back. Every shift of your thighs against the car seat on the drive over made you squirm. By the time youâre standing in front of his door, your cunt is throbbing. Empty. Trained. Starving.
He opens it like he already knew you were there.
Barefoot. Hoodie. Nothing underneath.
He stares at you for a second, quiet. His eyes drop to your legs, to the way youâre fidgeting, clenching, trying not to press your thighs together. He doesnât smile. He doesnât speak.
Just opens the door wider and lets you in.
You step past him. Silent. Heat prickling under your skin. His presence is loud, even without words. You can feel the pressure building alreadyâyour pussy knows. Sheâs aware. Aware of the air, of the scent of him, of how close he is now after five days of only hearing him through a speaker.
He closes the door behind you. And waits.
You turn to him, hands still curled into your sleeves. âI did everything.â
He lifts a brow. âYeah?â
You nod. Swallow hard. âEvery day.â
Heeseung steps forward slowly. Stops in front of you. His eyes flick down, over your body, like heâs looking for confirmation.
âYou leaking?â
Your breath catches. âYes.â
âProve it.â
Your heart slams against your ribs. But you donât hesitate.
Your fingers hook into the waistband of your shorts and tug them down in one smooth motion. They hit the floor and you step out of them, bare underneath, thighs sticky and glistening. Your hoodie barely covers your hips now. One inch higher and heâd see everything.
He doesnât touch you.
âShow me,â he says, voice low.
Your breath hitches againâbut you drop to your knees. Not because he asked. Because your body knows what to do now.
You kneel between his feet on the hardwood floor, hands moving to part your thighs so he can see. You pull the hoodie up to your waist and slide two fingers between your foldsâdripping. It spreads so easily. Glossy. Viscous. Your pussy folds open for your own touch like itâs nothing new. Like sheâs been practicing all week.
You keep your eyes on him the whole time.
And when your fingers come back up, soaked and glistening, you hold them out. Heeseung watches you in silence.
Then leans forward, slow and deliberate. He takes your fingers into his mouth and sucksâdeep, slow, tongue curling around them like itâs a reward.
Your hips jerk slightly. Your cunt clenches hard. He pulls off with a wet pop and stares down at you.
âShe tastes trained.â
You nod.
âShe beg yet?â
You exhale. âShe never shut up.â
He clicks his tongue. âYeah?â
Then he grabs your jaw. Fingers firm but not rough, tilting your face up to his.
âYou want her filled?â
You nod again. âPlease.â
âNot yet,â he says. âSheâs not ready.â
âIâm readyâsheâs so ready, Iâve beenââ
âI donât care what you think. Youâre not here to make decisions. Youâre here to do what I say.â He lets go of your face. âYou wanna get fed? Earn it. Lay down. Show me how she begs.â
You scramble onto the bed.
Flat on your back. Legs spread. Cunt on display. Dripping.
Youâre already on your back, knees drawn up, thighs spread and trembling, cunt pulsing with heat thatâs been building all week. You donât try to hide it. You canât. Your pussyâs wet. Loud. Lips glossy and parted, folds flushed and twitching like she knows the moment has finally come. Sheâs been teased. Trained. Denied. Youâve been filling her with fingers and pressure and your own voice, but never this. Never him. And now heâs standing at the edge of the bed, staring down at you like heâs finally ready to eat.
But he doesnât touch you first.
He picks your shorts up off the floor, turns them inside outâand finds your soaked panties tangled in the legs. He peels them out slowly, sticky with your slick, the thin fabric darkened and clinging to itself. You watch, breath caught, legs still open, burning with shame as he brings them up to his face.
And sniffs.
Deep.
He inhales like itâs a fucking ritual. Eyes half-lidded. Thumb pressing into the crotch to smear the wetness around before dragging it across his lip. His tongue flicks outâtastes it.
âJesus fuck,â he mutters under his breath. âSheâs been marinating in this.â
Your body jolts. Your hands fist the sheets.
âSheâs loud, too.â His voice drops lower. âI havenât even touched her and sheâs already talking. Look at her. Fucking twitching. Dripping. Spreading herself open like she knows who she belongs to.â
âHeeseungââ You whimper.
âShut up.â
He tosses your panties to the side and climbs onto the bed, slow and smooth, eyes never leaving your cunt. He settles between your legs and just kneels there for a moment. Breathing her in. Hands on your thighs. Pushing them wider. Spreading you so open you can feel the air hit your slick.
Youâre soaked. You know it. You can feel it, the slick sliding down into the dip of your ass, the way your folds part with every breath, your clit poking out, hot and swollen.
He just stares.
âYou fucking trained her like this,â he mutters, almost to himself. âYou really did it. Came like a good little slut every night just to keep her hungry.â
âSheâs starving,â you whisper, voice shaking.
âI can see that.â
His thumbs press into the crease of your thighs, holding you open. His face lowers. Inches away. His breath hits your folds and your hips twitch violently.
He doesnât lick you.
Not yet.
He just hovers. His nose skims your inner thigh. Then up. Right up the slick slit, dragging his breath across your folds until your body shudders. He breathes her in againâthis time slower. Longer. Right at the source.
âGod,â he mutters. âShe fucking smells like obedience.â
You sob.
And then he spits.
Right on your pussy.
Hot. Heavy. Messy.
It splashes over your clit, drips between your folds, mixes with your slick and makes everything worse.
Your hips roll. You canât stop it.
âDonât you fucking move,â he growls. âSheâs getting attention. She better stay still.â
And finallyâfinallyâhis tongue drags up your slit. A long, slow lick from hole to clit that ends with his mouth wrapped around it, sucking hard.
Your hands fly to his hair. Your spine arches off the bed.
But he pins you with one forearm across your stomach and doesnât stop.
He eats you like a man starved. Like youâve been feeding her for him. Keeping her ready. Keeping her needy. His mouth is everywhereâtongue licking up everything youâve been saving, spit and slick and mess pooling under your ass while he moans into you.
âThatâs it,â he groans against your clit. âLet me taste five fucking days of begging.â
You cry out, thighs clenching.
But he slaps your pussy with his handâsharp, wet, punishing.
âOpen.â
You go limp. You canât fight it. You donât want to.
He eats you like itâs personal. Tongue flat. Licking. Circling. Spitting again. Your clitâs too swollen, too sensitive, but he doesnât care. He mumbles into youâfilth you can barely understand because heâs too focused on devouring.
âSheâs so fucking loud. She wonât shut up. You hear that?â
You do.
Your pussy makes noise with every lickâsquelching, wet, obscene.
âI didnât even fuck her yet,â he growls. âAnd sheâs already creaming.â
You try to cum. You try.
But he pulls back just as your thighs start to shake, just as your stomach seizes.
âNope. Sheâs not getting fed all the way until Iâve felt her on my cock.â
You nod frantically, fingers gripping the sheets, desperate.
Heeseung leans back, licking his lips, chin soaked, eyes wild.
âSheâs ready,â he says. âSheâs starving.â
Heâs already got two fingers hooked inside you when he tells you to open your mouth.
Not to kiss him. Not to speak. Just to take it.
He shoves his fingers past your lipsâsoaked in your own slick, the same fingers heâs been curling deep inside your cunt, dragging against that spot that makes your eyes roll back. You gag around them, moaning as the taste floods your tongueâsalty, sour, yours. He pushes them down onto your tongue, presses hard until your spit leaks out around them and drips down your chin.
âSwallow it,â he mutters, eyes locked on your face. âThatâs what obedience tastes like.â
You do. Of course you do.
Because youâd do anything he says.
And he knows it.
He wipes the slick from your lips with his thumb, drags it down your throat, then shifts forwardâkneeling between your trembling thighs, lining himself up with your soaked entrance like heâs been waiting years for this moment.
You stare down at his cock, thick and flushed and leaking at the tip, and your whole body tenses. Youâre already open, already dripping, already fucked dumbâbut none of itâs going to prepare you for this.
âLook at her,â he mutters under his breath, dragging the head of his cock through your folds, smearing pre-cum across your clit. âSheâs fucking begging.â
âShe wants it,â you pant, voice shaking. âPleaseââ
He doesnât give you time to finish.
He presses inâslow, deep, cruel.
The stretch hits you all at once. Your back arches. Your breath leaves you in a choked gasp, and your pussy clenches hardaround him, sucking him in inch by inch like she never wants to let him go.
âOhhh, fuck,â he groans. âSheâs trained alright.â
You moan. Loud. Desperate. Writhing beneath him as he bottoms out, his hips flush against your ass, his cock buried all the way to the base.
Sheâs full.
Finally fucking full.
Your cunt grips him tight, fluttering around his cock like sheâs been starving for itâand she has. Every inch of him hits something you didnât know existed. Your body shakes under the pressure. Youâre soaked. Stuffed. Used. And you want more.
âSay it,â he growls. âSay what she is.â
âSheâs yours,â you gasp. âSheâs a holeâyour holeâsheâs been waiting for thisââ
He pulls out halfway, then slams back in.
You scream.
âYouâre goddamn right sheâs mine,â he snarls. âYou trained her just to take my cock.â
You nod frantically, crying now, pleasure too thick in your throat to hold back.
He starts to fuck you in earnestâhard, relentless, loud. Skin slapping skin. His cock slick from your wetness, dragging through every twitch and squeeze, pressing deep, deeper, forcing your body to stay open for him. You feel it in your stomach. Your spine. Your fucking brain.
Every thrust knocks your thoughts loose. And you want to thank him. You want to feel him. You want to taste him.
So you lift your headâtry to kiss him.
You lean up, lips parting, mouth open and begging.
He pulls back.
His hand grabs your throat, presses you flat into the mattress. You gasp, eyes wide, blinking up at him in confusion. He smiles. Cruel. Mocking.
âNo,â he says coldly. âYou donât deserve to be kissed.â
Your breath shatters.
âKisses are for good girls,â he spits. âYouâre just a trained little hole.â
Your pussy clenches around him so violently he groans.
âThatâs all you are now, isnât it?â he sneers. âA stupid little cunt that opens on command. You get used, not kissed.â
Tears spill over your cheeks.
And you cum. Just like that.
From the words. From the shame. From the humiliation.
Your pussy spasms around his cock, soaking both of you as you scream into his hand still wrapped around your throat. Your hips jerk. Your vision goes white. But he doesnât stop.
He fucks you through it, hips pounding, cock punching into your oversensitive cunt like heâs trying to reprogram you from the inside out.
âThatâs it,â he pants. âLet her milk me. Let her show me how much she needed this.â
Youâre sobbing. Gasping. Too wrecked to speak.
âFucking knew it,â he groans. âYou were never gonna be satisfied until you got split open.â
He leans down, mouth right by your ear.
âBut donât ever reach for a kiss again. Sluts like you donât get kissed.â
Youâre already limp when he flips you.
Your body gives out so easilyâshoulders pressed into the mattress, arms numb, legs trembling, hips cocked up on instinct the second he yanks you onto your stomach. His hands drag you by the waist like a ragdoll. Like something boneless, brainless, ruined. Your face is buried in the pillow. Your cheek sticks to the fabric. Youâre crying, still, but thereâs no shame left. Just the raw ache of your cunt pulsing around nothingâbecause he pulled out.
You whine, pathetic and wordless, hips rolling back into the air, leaking down your thighs.
âStill hungry?â he mutters behind you.
You nod into the pillow.
âSay it.â
âSheâs empty,â you whimper. âSheâs twitchingâshe wants you back inâsheâs not doneâsheâs never doneââ
You gasp when the head of his cock slides back in. Just the tip.
He doesnât give you the rest.
You wiggle. Cry. Press your ass back against him and moan when your folds stretch again, split open all over his length.
âYou trained her to take it,â he says. âNow youâre gonna train her to keep it.â
He presses forward.
His cock buries to the hilt in one brutal thrust, and your whole body spasms. Your hands claw at the sheets. Your cunt clenches so violently it forces a sob out of your chest, high-pitched and broken. Youâre still sensitive. Still throbbing from the last orgasm. But he doesnât care.
He starts fucking you again like he owns you.
The slap of skin echoes in the room, wet and obscene, his cock pounding into your raw pussy like sheâs just a hole to conquer. You donât even try to move anymore. Your body takes it. Open, obedient, used.
âYou like that?â he pants. âYou like being my little fucktoy?â
âYeah, you do. Youâre trained now. A good little cocksleeve who comes when sheâs told. Cries when sheâs full. Cums from being humiliated.â
âI do,â you choke out. âIâm yoursâIâm your toyâjust your fucktoyâuse meâuse herââ
âThatâs it,â he growls. âThatâs what she wanted, isnât it? Not kindness. Not kisses. Just cock. Just someone to shove it in and remind her sheâs nothing but a messy, wet little pussy.â
He thrusts harder. You scream into the sheets.
âSheâs so loud,â he snarls. âSo fucking wet. Sheâs gushing. Every time I pull out she cries.â
You donât even recognize your own voice when you cum again.
Itâs raw. Ugly. Loud.
You screamâclawing at the sheets, nails ripping fabric, your body wracked with spasms as you squirt all over his cock, wet exploding out of you in waves, soaking the bed, your stomach, your thighs. You canât stop it. You donât want to.
He fucks you through itâharder.
âLet her break,â he growls. âLet her fucking split.â
And when your body finally collapses, hips falling, spine trembling, Heeseung doesnât even slow down.
He grabs your hips, hauls you up, and drives in deep one more timeâand stays there. His cock pulses inside you. Thick. Hot. Flooding you.
You feel it. You feel his cum shoot deep, thick ropes filling your already ruined pussy until your belly aches with it.
He stays inside. Keeps you cockwarmed, plugged full, hands rubbing down your spine like this is the aftercare.
Not words. Not love. Just being kept full. Like you should be.
You barely breathe. Your eyes are glassy. Your mouthâs open. You feel him lean over you. Feel the slow drag of his lips against your ear.
âYouâre not starved anymore,â he whispers. âSheâs fed now. Finally.â
You nod. Barely. Weak. Fucked out. His cock twitches.
âSheâs still twitching,â he murmurs. âShe wants to sleep like this.â
-
You wake up to the burn in your thighs.
The stretch. The ache. That slick-dried, too-sensitive sting between your legs from being filled for hours without a break. Your skinâs flushed. Clammy. You shift slightly under the covers, still half-asleep, and you feel itâhim.
Still there. Still inside you.
You blink. Breathe. Try to make sense of your bodyâbut the pressure between your legs is still warm. Your cunt clenches instinctively, and his cock twitches in response.
A slow, deep ache spreads in your gut.
His arm is draped over your waist. His chest is pressed against your back. Heâs asleepâsoft breaths on your shoulder, jaw resting against the side of your head. And his cock is still buried to the base in your pussy. Warm. Heavy. Plugging you full like it belongs there.
But something else creeps in too.
You lie there for a moment. Silent. Still. Pussy fluttering, heartbeat slowing, and that awful little ache growing in your chest. The one that started the second he pulled away last night. The one that settled into your ribs when you reached for him and he said âYou donât deserve to be kissed.â
You swallow. You whisper it before you even think about it.
âAre you really not gonna kiss me?â
Itâs soft. Not needy. Just⊠there.
His breath shifts against your skin. His arm tightens slightly around your waist.
You almost regret asking.
Until he exhales through his nose and mutters, voice rough and low and real, âIâm still fucking inside you, you brat. You think Iâm gonna spend the whole night cockwarming my favorite pussy and not kiss her in the morning?â
You twist under him, face flushed, and turn your head over your shoulderâand his mouth is already there.
No hesitation. He kisses you hard.
Mouth slanting over yours, tongue sliding in with no patience, lips full and hot and filthy with morning breath and spit. You moan into it, deep and broken, cunt clenching around his cock again like sheâs reacting to the kiss like itâs touch.
His hand grips your jaw, thumb dragging over your cheek as he devours your mouth. He licks into you like he means itâlike youâve earned itâlike heâs been wanting to do it since before he ever called you a slut.
Youâre whimpering into his mouth when it happens.
Your lips slide against his, sticky with spit, your breath still uneven from how long you spent crying into the pillow, your cunt still fluttering weakly around his cock. He hasnât pulled out. Heâs still inside you. Still twitching, half-hard again already, thick and warm, stretching your still-leaking pussy while your body curls back into him, needy and clingy and soft in a way you didnât get to be last night.
His hand cups your jaw now. Gentle. Finally. His thumb drags along your lower lip, slow and possessive, like heâs re-learning your mouth after denying it. His tongue pushes into you with unhurried filth, and your hips shift just barely, like your cuntâs trying to pull more of him in. Like she doesnât even know how to be empty anymore.
And then you hear it.
âHeeseung?â
Itâs distant. Not loud. Sleepy. But your blood freezes.
âHeyâhave you seen Y/N?â
Evie. Sheâs awake. The breath dies in your throat.
Your eyes fly open. Heeseungâs hand freezes on your jaw. Your whole body locks. His cock is still deep inside you, softening now, but still heavy. Still leaking. You can feel him dripping down your inner thighs as your brain flips inside out with panic.
âShit,â you mouth, barely audible.
Heeseung exhales through his nose, calm, but his arm is already tightening around your waist like heâs trying to figure out his next move in real time.
âY/N?â she calls again. âWhereâd you go?â
You scramble out of the bed like youâve been shot. Legs wobbly. Pussy sore. You trip over the blanket as you reach for your discarded clothes, yanking your hoodie on over your head, trying not to scream as your shorts catch on your ankle. Youâre still soaked, your panties still twisted around your thigh from where he shoved them earlier, and you can feel his cum still inside you, wet and hot and fucking obvious.
Heeseungâs already sitting up, dragging his hoodie on, running a hand through his hair to make it look like he just woke up.
Youâre panicking. âDo I go back to her room? What do I doâwhat if sheâs in the hallwayâ?â
Heeseung stands up, grabs your shoulders, kisses your forehead onceâquick, mocking, cockyâlike this is funny to him.
âBathroom. Now.â
You sprint for it. Just as he opens his door.
His voice is casual. Sleep-rough.
âYo.â
âYou seen Y/N? I woke up and she wasnât in bed. Her stuffâs still there though.â
Heeseung stretches in the doorway, voice smooth as fucking silk.
âNah, havenât seen her. She probably went to the bathroom.â
âShe didnât text me.â
âShe probably didnât want to wake you.â
Youâre crouched in the bathroom, hands over your mouth, hoodie soaked at the hem, thighs still trembling. You glance down and see a smear of his cum on your leg, glistening in the morning light like a neon sign of guilt.
âWhatever. Tell her Iâm making pancakes.â
âWill do.â
Door shuts. Heeseung turns, leans into the bathroom, finds you crouched by the sink.
âYou owe me.â
You punch his chest.
He grabs your wrist. Kisses it.
âDonât worry,â he whispers, voice low. âYouâll pay me back tonight."
-
Itâs early.
Evieâs downstairs making coffee. You can hear the clinking of mugs, the stupid hum of whatever playlist she plays when sheâs in a good mood.
Youâre in Heeseungâs lap. Hoodie on. No underwear. His backâs against the headboard, his cock deep inside you, and youâre grinding slowlyâhips circling, cunt fluttering, hands pressed to his chest to keep yourself upright.
Youâre not allowed to bounce. Not allowed to moan.
Just slow, controlled rollsâlike youâre milking him without giving yourself away.
âYou sound like you want her to know,â he whispers against your throat.
You shake your head. Breathe through your nose. Keep moving.
âThen be quiet, baby. Or Iâll hold your mouth and your hips still, and you wonât cum at all.â
You almost cry. He grabs your ass. Tilts your hips just right.
âIf she walks in, you better keep her name off your lips while I fill you up.â
You do. Barely.
You cum with your hand clamped over your mouth, twitching around his cock like you were made for itâand Heeseung cums seconds later, low and quiet, mouth on your collarbone.
Downstairs?
Evie sings along to the chorus.
-
Itâs disgusting.
Thereâs no other word for it.
Youâre on all fours, face buried in Heeseungâs mattress, drooling, moaning, thighs trembling with every wet squelch of his fingers plunging into you from behind. His mouth is glued to your cunt, spit running down his chin, tongue working your clit in slow, sloppy laps while one hand spreads you openâand the other, lower, slick with your cum, is rubbing tight circles around your asshole.
Youâre whining his name. Filthy. Wordless. Brain-melted.
âFuck, sheâs drooling for it,â he mutters into your pussy. âShe wants both. Sheâs ready. One in her ass, two in her cuntâyou wanna be stretched like a proper little hole, huh?â
Your face is soaked. Your bodyâs trembling. Your pussy flutters around his fingers, slick squelching with every slow drag in and out. Your rim clenches, raw and wet from the friction. You try to answer, but all that comes out is a pathetic sob.
âSay it,â he growls. âSay what she wants.â
âI want it,â you gasp, voice cracking. âI want you to open my assâwanna be full, wanna cum like a fucktoyâpleaseâpleaseââ
And thenâ
âY/N?â
You hear your name like itâs being spoken through a tunnel.
You freeze.
Every muscle in your body locks.
Heeseung doesnât move.
You can feel his tongue hovering right at your clit. His finger is still circling your asshole.
And then you both look up.
In the doorway. Mouth open. Eyes wide. Chest heaving.
Evie.
Her face doesnât go red. It goes white. Like her blood just dropped to her feet.
She stares at your bodyâat your back arched, knees wide, your ass open, Heeseungâs hand buried between your cheeks, your best friendâs brother with his mouth on you and your spit in his beard.
And then she gags. Audibly. Violently.
Her whole body jolts forward like sheâs about to puke right there in the hallway.
âOh myâfuckingâgodââ she chokes. âWhat theâwhat the FUCKââ
She turns. Presses her palm to the wall. Leans into it. Her other hand clamps over her mouth and you see her shoulders jerk. Once. Twice. A horrible, broken sound crawls out of her throat.
âNoânoânoâno, no, noââ
Sheâs panicking.
Canât breathe. Her body is shaking so hard you think she might collapse.
âEvieââ you start, voice already wet. âEvie, pleaseâplease just listenââ
âDONâT.â
The scream hits like a slap.
âDonât talk to me. Donâtâdonât even say my fucking nameââ
Youâre sobbing now. Reaching for the blanket. Falling off the bed. Barely able to pull your hoodie down over your sticky, twitching body.
Heeseung moves. Not fast enough. Still shirtless. Still hard. His fingers still glistening.
âHeejooââ
âDONâT. CALL ME THAT.â Her voice is shrill, raw, wrecked. âYouâre my fucking brother.â
She looks at you. Like she doesnât even know you.
And then her expression cracks completely.
Her face contortsâpain, betrayal, disgust, hatredâall in one devastating collapse.
âYou were inside her,â she whispers, and her voice breaks. âYou had yourâyourâyou were licking her while you were fingering her assââ
âYouâre both fucking insane.â
You crawl toward her. Not thinking. Just begging. Your knees burn. Your hands shake.
âEvieâpleaseâplease just let me explainââ
She flinches.
Flinches.
Like your voice touched her skin. Then she goes still. Her breathing slows. Her hands drop to her sides.
She looks empty.
âDonât come near me.â
Her voice is flat now. Robotic.
âDonât talk to me. Donât look at me. Donât even fucking breathe in my direction.â
You canât speak. Canât move. She steps back.
Looks at Heeseung. Then at you.
âYouâre both dead to me.â
-
ââYou donât remember the walk home.
You donât remember grabbing your phone, or leaving the house, or what the weather was like. You donât remember how long you cried, or how many people stared, or how fucking long it took for the heat between your legs to fade into something cold and ugly. You just remember sitting on your bedroom floorâhoodie still wet between your thighs, your underwear balled up in your pocketâand trying to breathe without choking on it.
Because it doesnât stop. The image. Her face.
Evie, hand over her mouth. Evie, gagging. Evie, stepping back like you were something dirty.
She meant it. Every word.
âDonât talk to me. Donât look at me. Donât fucking breathe in my direction.â
She meant it.
You try to text her that night. You donât even know what to say. There are three different messages in your drafts: one with just her name. One that says âIâm sorry.â One that says nothing at all.
They donât send. Youâve been blocked.
He doesnât text either. You donât even know if he can.
The silence is so big it feels like a second death. You lie in bed every night with your phone face-up on your pillow, waiting for it to light up with anything. A call. A voice note. Just a name.
It never comes.
But you still feel him. In your body. In your bones.
Every time you try to sleep, your body curls like itâs expecting to be filled.
Some nights you wake up sweatingâpanting, pussy twitchingâbecause you dreamed of his voice again.
You still miss him. Even after all of it. Even after how it ended.
Even after Evieâs face broke in half at the sight of youâwet, spread open, her brotherâs finger sliding into your ass while you begged for more.
You still miss him. And thatâs the part that makes you sick.
-
Itâs been nearly two weeks since you watched Evie recoil in that doorway, hand clamped over her mouth like she was actually going to vomit.
You canât erase the memory of her faceâhow disgust bled into betrayal, how her gaze slid right past you like you didnât exist, then landed on Heeseung as if he were some twisted stranger in her own home. You tried to bury the image, tried to make it small and unimportant, but it lives in your chest now, swelling every time you breathe.
You havenât talked to either of them since. Not one word to her, not a single text to him.
Itâs as if the world paused on that moment: her voice ripping through the room, your body half-naked, his spit drying on your thighs, your stomach churning with guilt.
Now the doorbell rings, and somehow you already know whoâs on the other side.
You open it slowly, hesitation weighing on every movement of your hand.
Heeseung stands there in a wrinkled hoodie, dark circles stamped beneath his eyes. He looks thinnerâlike the shape of him has caved in from the inside out. His hair is unstyled, his shoulders hunched, and the way he stares at you feels desperate.
Neither of you speak for a few seconds, the silence pressing into your lungs.
Then you break it, because you canât handle him looking at you like that. âWhy are you here?â Your voice comes out flat, echoing the numbness youâve been living in.
Heeseung swallows, gaze skittering between your face and the ground.
âI had to see you.â
The words feel like theyâre meant to fix something, but all they do is twist the knife. You give a hollow laugh, but thereâs no humor in it.
âYou already saw enough.â
He exhales shakily, bringing a hand up to scrub at the back of his neck.
âIâm not asking you to forgive me,â he says, eyes flicking up to meet yours. âI know thatâs notâthereâs nothing I canââ He trails off, struggling, guilt carved into every line of his face. When he finally speaks again, his voice strains.
âYou think we havenât replayed it a hundred fucking times?â he asks. âThe door. The blanket. You moaning. MeâGodâwe were still fucking with each other right there, even when sheââ
âStop.â Your voice cracks. âDonât say it.â
âWe saw her face,â his voice keeps going, low and fast and pained. âWe saw it, and we still didnât stop, like fucking animals. I see it every time I close my eyes. I hear her say my name like I was never hers, like you were never her friend.â
You speak,
âI canât look at you without hearing her gag.â
The confession slashes the air, and his lips part like youâve slapped him.
âI canât hear your name without remembering what it felt like to be in her house, in her family, doing⊠that, while she thought I was asleep down the hall.â
For a moment, neither of you breathe. Then he forces himself to speak, voice cracking.
âI know. I fucking know, and I hate that we didnât let go even when we heard her. I hate that she looked at us like we were monsters. I hate that part of me still wanted to stay inside you, and part of you still wanted me there, when we shouldâve both stopped.â
You close your eyes, replaying Evieâs strangled gasp in your head, recalling the numb disbelief that followed when she told you not to speak, not to look, not to fucking breathe in her direction.
âI canât talk to you,â you whisper, voice trembling despite your best efforts. âI canât even hear your name without feeling sick.â
He swallows and nods, like heâs been waiting for those exact words. âIâm sorry,â he says, and he sounds like heâs about to shatter. âI wonâtâif you never want to see me again, I understand.â He drags in a breath that rattles in his chest. âI just needed to know you were⊠alive.â
For a moment, you want to ask him if heâs okay too, if heâs been eating or sleeping, if he wakes up sweating like you do. But you lock it down, because you canât afford to care right now.
âWell,â you say, and your voice is colder than you intend, ânow youâve seen me. Congratulations.â
A faint tremor passes through him, and he nods once. Thereâs nothing else. No lecture, no pleading. He just steps back, shoulders slumped, and turns away.
-
It happens in the grocery store, of all places. Youâre pushing a half-empty cart down the cereal aisle, trying not to think about how much quieter life has been since you lost your best friend and the boy you broke her heart with. Youâre scanning the shelves for something to distract you when you catch sight of a familiar figure at the other end of the row.Â
Your heart lurches, your fingers tightening on the cart handle as your stomach flips.Â
Because there, frowning at the boxes of cereal, is Evieâor Heejoo, or however she wants to be called now. You donât have time to decide whether you should turn and run or force a hollow smile. She glances up, and your eyes meet. Neither of you moves.
 The aisle feels too narrow. Her cart sits between you, an invisible barrier.
She looks differentâher hair is shorter or maybe just pulled back in a careless ponytail, dark smudges under her eyes, shoulders tense. She seems hollowed out in the same way you feel.Â
Some part of you wants to say hey or I miss you or please talk to me, but the words dissolve in your throat. Sheâs the one who steps forward first, letting her cart roll behind her. Her heels click on the tile, echoing your every heartbeat.
âHaving fun?â she asks, and it doesnât sound like a question so much as a thinly-veiled jab.
You grip the handle of your cart, mouth suddenly too dry to speak.
âEvieââ
âDonât call me that,â she snaps, eyes flicking away like the name itself stings. âYou donât get to pretend weâre okay. You donât get to act like weâre still friends.â
Her arms fold across her chest, nostrils flaring with each breath, and you feel your own pulse jump in your neck. âIâIâm sorry,â you manage, voice trembling. Itâs not enough, you know that.
She scoffs, a breathy, humorless sound. âThatâs it? Youâre sorry? You think that magically fixes everything?â She gestures sharply, and you notice how tightly sheâs clenching her fists. âYou screwed around with my brother like it was nothing, and I walked in onââ Her voice breaks, face twisting as she fights off the memory. âI was just the idiot friend who never saw it coming, right?â
Shame flares in your cheeks. You hold your ground, though it hurts to meet her eyes. âI know I betrayed you,â you say. âWeâGod, I donât even have the words for how messed up it was. We both knew better. We both let it happen.â
Her hand lifts to cut you off, shaking with the effort. âYou think itâs just that you hurt me?â Her voice wobbles between anger and heartbreak. âYou hurt him too, you realize that? He was my brother, you were my best friend, and you both blew yourselves up in front of me. Like you had no idea what it would cost.â
Your stomach knots in a way you havenât felt before. Sheâs right. It wasnât just herâit wasnât just you. It was all three of you, tangling and twisting until it snapped. âI know,â you say more quietly. âAnd weâre all paying for it. Heâs⊠heâs not okay. Iâm not okay. And youâre definitely not okay. Thereâs no part of this that isnât broken.â
She lets out a short, bitter laugh. âDo you think that helps? Hearing you say itâs broken doesnât change the fact that I canât even look at either of you without wanting to scream.â
You bow your head, voice almost inaudible. âI wish I could take it back.â
She swallows, and for a fraction of a second, the hostility in her eyes flickers with pain. âWell, you canât.â Her grip tightens on the cart handle until her knuckles whiten, and she exhales shakily.Â
âI want my brother back, you know. I want my friend back. But I donât get either of those things, because you two decided to⊠to destroy what we had.â
Your throat closes up, tears pricking at your eyes. âIâm sorry.â
She stares for another few seconds, jaw clenched as she holds herself together. Then she moves around you, snatching her cart by the handle, the wheels squeaking in protest.Â
âEnjoy the produce,â she mutters under her breath, voice dripping with bitterness as she passes.
-
It doesnât happen overnight.
 Thereâs no single conversation that wipes the slate clean, no perfect gesture that makes Evieâs betrayal vanish, no magic wand that repairs the gaping wound in your chest.Â
But over timeâslow, grudging, step by hesitant stepâyou all begin to realize that staying in this darkness is killing you. Staying strangers, orbiting the same guilt without looking one another in the eye, is worse than facing the truth. And that truth is messy, fragile, and riddled with scars.
It begins with Evie texting you, late at night, a week after the grocery store encounter.Â
Just three words: We need to talk.
You stare at the screen for a solid minute, heart pounding like itâs trying to break out of your chest.Â
Your hands shake as you reply, Yeah, okay.Â
Thatâs all. No apology, no second-guessing, just acceptance. You wait for her to say when or where, but she doesnât text back until the next afternoon, telling you to meet her at the park near her house.Â
And then she clarifies: Just you.
You show up after sunset, nerves jangling in every limb, expecting hostility, or silence, or both.Â
Instead, you find Evie sitting on a faded wooden bench under a flickering streetlight. She looks smaller than you remember, knees drawn up under her chin, arms hugging herself for warmth. As you approach, you open your mouth to say somethingâanythingâbut she holds up a hand, shaking her head.
âDonât,â she says, voice tight. âNot yet.â
You stand there, awkward and guilty, waiting for her permission to speak.
She lowers her hand and sighs, staring at a patch of dead grass near her feet. âI asked you here because⊠this is killing me,â she mutters. âBeing this angry all the time. Hating you. Hating him. I canât keep up with it. Itâs turning me into someone I donât recognize.â
Her words break something inside your chest, and your throat goes thick. You sit down on the far edge of the bench, leaving a wide space between you, unsure if youâre allowed to be any closer. âI⊠I know,â you manage, voice unsteady. âI feel it too. Itâs like Iâm rotting on the inside.â
She nods once, gaze flicking to you before sliding away again. âIâm not saying I forgive you,â she warns, and you nod, heart pounding. âIâm just saying I donât want this to be my life anymore. Thisârage. Itâs not me.â
She exhales, shoulders curling inward. âAnd I loved you. You were my best friend. And he⊠heâs my brother, and I loved him too. So how did we all end up here?â
Silence lingers. You fight back tears that threaten to spill.Â
âWe messed up,â you whisper, voice cracking. âWe both did. Me and him. We used your house, your trust, your everything for our own messed-up⊠needs, and it was stupid and selfish and we ended up shattering everything.â You swallow a lump in your throat. âI know none of that fixes it. But I swear to you, we never wanted to hurt you.â
Evie laughs bitterly, a hollow sound. âWell, you did. And I canât pretend you didnât.âÂ
Her gaze shifts to the distance, to the halo of light under the streetlamp. âBut I donât know if I can keep hating you. Or him.âÂ
She hesitates, words coming out slow. âI saw him last week. He lookedâGod, I hardly recognized him. Like a ghost of himself.â
You nod, biting back the urge to defend him or to ask a dozen questions. âHeâs⊠not doing great,â you say simply, remembering his hollow cheeks, the way his voice cracked when he said he couldnât sleep.
She wraps her arms tighter around herself, rocking slightly. âNeither are we,â she points out. âNone of us are okay. And I guess thatâs what Iâm realizing. That weâre all stuck in the same crater, staring at the same wreckage. Maybe we shouldnât be trying to fix it on our own.â
Your eyes burn with unshed tears. âWhat do you want to do?â you ask, feeling the weight of her words press into your chest.
Sheâs quiet for a long moment. Then she looks directly at you, tears shimmering at the edges of her eyes. âI want us to talk,â she says. âAll three of us. In one place. I want us to put it all on the table, no hiding, no running out. Because if thereâs any chance of moving forwardâtogether or apartâwe have to face it."
âIâll text him,â she says, voice ragged. âDonât expect miracles. But I canât do this alone.â
A teardrop escapes your lashes and slips down your cheek. âNeither can I,â you whisper. âThank you.â
She doesnât respond, just stands up and motions for you to follow.Â
-
Evieâs living room is dimly lit, and the air feels thicker than it shouldâas if everything youâve said to each other in the last hour is still hovering in the space between. Outside, itâs already dark, the muffled hum of passing cars bleeding in through the windows. Youâre all drainedâphysically, emotionallyâyet no one moves to leave. Not yet. Itâs not finished.
Evie is perched on the armchair, knees drawn close to her chest. Youâre on one end of the couch, Heeseung on the other, and thereâs still a gulf of guilt and confusion separating you. But you can feel the conversation building toward something bigger than apologies or confessions of regret.
Evie tugs at the sleeves of her sweater. She glances between you and her brother, mouth pinched tight, but her voice is gentler than before.
âIâm not pretending this is easy,â she begins, clearing her throat. âWeâve all hurt each other. I just want to know what you⊠what you both actually feel.â Her gaze settles on you, question clear in her eyes. âDo you two even care about each other beyond⊠beyond whatever it was you were doing?â
You swallow, your mouth dry. This is the moment youâve been pushing down for weeks, refusing to think about. The reason you woke up gasping sometimes, alone in your bed, missing a warmth you never should have craved in the first place. You take a shaky breath, feeling your pulse hammer in your temples.
âIââ you begin, then stop. Your voice wavers, but you force yourself to speak. âIâm in love with him.â
It comes out bare, unpolished, stripped of excuses. You feel the words echo in your chest, leaving you vulnerable. Across the room, Evieâs eyes widen for half a second, and you can see her guard tighten, just a bit.
Heeseung exhales sharply, his head snapping up. You canât bring yourself to meet his gaze. Instead, you focus on the floor, heart pounding.
âI know,â you continue, voice trembling, âthat he might not feel the same way. I know we started this all wrong, that I messed up your trust, that I hurt youââyou glance at Evieââand maybe I donât deserve a happy ending. But I canât keep pretending I donât love him just because Iâm ashamed of how we got here.â
Evie inhales like sheâs bracing for another blow, her arms tightening around her knees.
âYouâre saying you love him, even if he doesnât love you back?â she asks, carefully, like sheâs afraid of the answer.
You let out a breath that feels like itâs been caged in your ribs for months.
âYes. Itâs not⊠itâs not his responsibility. If itâs one-sided, thatâs on me.â You glance fleetingly at Heeseung, face flushing. âI donât expect anything from him, or from you. I justââ Your voice cracks. âI needed to say it out loud.â
Silence envelops the room, charged with tension. Heeseung is staring at you, eyes wide and glossy, like youâve knocked the air from his lungs. Evie shifts, chewing on the inside of her lip.
Heeseung finally speaks, voice rough.
âYou⊠love me?â
You manage a small, trembling nod. âI do,â you say, meeting his gaze at last. âAnd if you donât love me back, thatâs okay. I know how messed up this is. Iâm ready to⊠to accept that.â
He looks startled, as if no part of him expected you to be okay with that possibility. His hands flex on his knees, knuckles blanching. Then he breathes out, shoulders sagging.
âGod,â he murmurs, shaking his head. âYouâre unbelievably stupid.â
You flinch, heart joltingâthough thereâs no real malice in his tone, only a shaky awe and raw disbelief that seems to be tying him in knots. He forces himself to meet Evieâs eyes for a flicker of a second, as if silently asking for permission to go on.
âDonât call her that,â Evie snaps, voice quivering at the edges. She fixes him with a sharp glare, arms folded tight across her chest. âI donât care how you meant itâsheâs not stupid, and you donât get to insult her in front of me.â
âShut the fuck up Evie, one second,â He turns to you, âBecause you think Iâm not in love with you? That Iâd leave you hanging with all this guilt?â
Your heart stutters, the floor tilting under you. âHeeseungâŠâ
âIâm in love with you too,â he says, and the words hang in the air with tangible weight. âI canât believe youâd be ready to walk away, believing it was one-sided. That youâd⊠accept it. God, do you have any idea how much it hurts to see you in so much pain, thinking I donât feel the same?â
A soft sound escapes your throatâsome blend of relief and shockâand tears gather at the edges of your vision. Across the room, Evie exhales shakily, her eyes fluttering closed for a moment. You can see the swirl of emotions crossing her features: anger, hurt, jealousy, and underneath it all, a lingering care for you both.
Heeseung scrubs a hand over his face, then looks to Evie, voice trembling.
âI love her. I know I messed up. We messed up. We never shouldâve lied. But I canât take back how I feel.â
Evie drags in a deep breath. She pushes herself up from the armchair, pacing a short line across the living room. Her head is down, hands in her hair. When she finally looks at you both, thereâs pain in her eyes, but not the same raw fury as before.
âJesus,â she mutters. âYou twoâŠâ She chews the inside of her cheek. âI hate what you did. I hate how you did it. But if you love each otherâreally love each otherâI canât tell you not to.â
 Her shoulders slump. âI want to be angry forever, but⊠seeing you like this, Iââ She presses her lips together, tears brimming, then sets her jaw. âI guess I just want us to find a way to exist without destroying each other.â
A thick silence fills the space. Your chest feels ready to burst from conflicting emotionsâgratitude, guilt, longing, terror. You look at Evie and see the ghost of the best friend you once knew, who might be willing to stand beside you again one day, even if it wonât ever be the same.
You open your mouth.
âI know it wonât be easy,â you say softly. âI donât expect you to forgive everything in one night. But maybe⊠maybe we can start moving forward?â
Evie dashes a tear off her cheek and gives a tiny nod.
âYeah,â she whispers. âMaybe.â
Heeseung watches her, watches you, then rises from the couch. He hesitates, like heâs not sure if heâs allowed to touch you. You stand up, heart pounding, and drift closer. Neither of you quite meets in the middle, leaving a careful gap where all your remorse hangs. But itâs less than before.
Evie clears her throat, hugging herself.
âI canât stay down here with you two being⊠whatever you are. I need time, okay?â
You nod quickly.
âOf course.â
Heeseung nods as well, voice soft.
âAnything you need.â
She steps back, wiping her eyes, and thereâs a hint of a weary smile ghosting across her face, like sheâs relieved but not sure how to show it.
âYou two can talk, or⊠or go, or do whatever. I justâŠâ Her breath catches. âIâm gonna go upstairs. Thatâs all I can handle right now.â
You donât stop her.
Then you turn to him, tears slipping down your cheeks, a tremulous hope fluttering in your chest. He lifts a handâtentative, like heâs scared to break youâand cups your cheek, thumb brushing your damp skin.
He exhales shakily.
âI love you,â he murmurs, the words raw with emotion. âIâm sorry for everything.â
You nod, voice catching in your throat as you rest your hand over his.
âIâm sorry too,â you whisper. âBut I love you, and maybe⊠thatâs something we can start with.â
His eyes close in something like relief, and he presses a soft, uncertain kiss to your temple. It isnât a triumphant moment, not the kind of romantic victory you mightâve once imagined. Itâs tender, laced with guilt and fear. But itâs also realâgenuine and fragile, the only piece of warmth youâve had in a long time.
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Things shift slowly, almost imperceptibly at first. You and Heeseung start keeping your distance whenever Evieâs aroundâno subtle hand-holding, no lingering touches, certainly no sneaking off to lock yourselves behind the nearest door.Â
Itâs not that youâre ashamed of each other; itâs that you canât stand the thought of rubbing your relationship in her face. You both know youâre lucky sheâs even letting you in the same room without storming out.
So you dial it back. You let your bodies stop running the show.Â
Itâs harder than you expectâhe still sets your nerves on fire by simply looking at youâbut you remind yourself that Evieâs feelings matter, that you owe her more than just half-hearted consideration. You give her space, which means giving yourselves space too.Â
No sex. No heavy make-out sessions. No pressed-up-against-a-wall confessions. Just⊠time and gentle contact.
Heeseung seems as restless as you.Â
Sometimes, when itâs late and youâre on a phone callâwhispering so Evie wonât hear through the wallsâhe sounds downright desperate.Â
You can hear his breath catch when you say you miss him, can practically feel the tension radiating through the receiver.Â
Yet both of you agree: this is how it has to be for now. If you want Evie to believe that what you have is more than just an addiction to each otherâs bodies, you need to show her you can exist outside a bed.
So you go on dates. Real dates. Movie theaters, yes, but also bookstore trips, late-night drives to nowhere, strolling through a local fair when it rolls into town.Â
You hold hands only if youâre well away from Evieâs neighborhoodâfearful that any small sign of affection might break the thin thread of tolerance sheâs extended.Â
The first time you walk along the riverside in the evening, sipping cheap coffee from a convenience store, it hits you that youâve never really done this part before: the tentative, day-to-day romance of building a real relationship. Itâs both comforting and nerve-wracking.Â
You can feel the charge sparking under your skin every time he smiles at you, like youâre seconds away from losing your careful resolve.Â
But you donât. Neither of you wants to risk undoing the fragile progress with Evie.
And that progress is slow, but present.Â
She doesnât cringe as much when you and Heeseung enter a room together.Â
She no longer flinches if you happen to stand on the same side of the kitchen.
 Maybe sometimes she rolls her eyes, but she doesnât snap. You see the tension in her shoulders when youâre all in the same space, thoughâlike sheâs bracing for some new betrayal.Â
You canât blame her. You still offer to leave the moment you sense her discomfort rising. Surprisingly, sheâs started telling you to stay.
But the real sign that things might be healing comes one weekend night when Evie texts you, out of the blue:
Girlsâ night?
She doesnât dress it up with a cute emoji or an explanation; itâs bare bones, almost clinical. And you stare at your phone with your heart hammering, wondering if this is a test, or maybe a begrudging olive branch.Â
You answer with a shaky yes, and spend the next few hours trying not to read too much into it. You tell Heeseung youâll be hanging out with Evie, and he just smilesâwide and genuine, telling you to have fun, to text him if you need anything.
Evieâs room hasnât changed much since the night you snuck out of it to see Heeseung. The layout is the same, the posters the same, the bedspread the same. It all feels loaded with history.Â
She sits cross-legged on her bed, handing you a sodaâno alcohol tonight, no false bravado. You sense she wants you both stone-cold sober for whatever might be said.Â
Thereâs an awkward pause, and then she gestures for you to sit, too.
For a while, conversation comes in bursts: updates about random classmates, stories from her day at work, small talk about the show you both used to binge-watch together. Itâs stiff, but not hostile.Â
She picks at her blanket, and you notice how she wonât hold your gaze for too long. Yet each minute that passes without snapping or bitterness feels like a victory.
Eventually, she slides a bag of nail polish across the bed toward you. âYou, um⊠you still like doing this, right? Itâs been a while,â she mumbles, glancing at your nails.Â
Itâs such a small gesture, but it makes your throat tighten. You nod, and she exhales something that might be relief.Â
For a solid hour, the two of you paint and chatter, as if practicing how to be friends again. Her shoulders are less rigid. Youâre careful not to misstep. Neither of you mentions Heeseung.
At least not directly. But you feel his presence in the air, the unspoken pivot point around which your every interaction revolves. Itâs only when Evie finally fixes you with a long, assessing look, half-concern and half-uncertainty, that the moment arrives.
âAre you two, like⊠okay?â she asks. Her voice is laced with discomfort, but thereâs no hatred in it. âYou said no more sneaking around. But are youâhappy?â
You swallow hard, carefully blowing on your newly painted nails. âWeâre⊠doing our best,â you say. âTrying to be good for each other. Not just physically.â
She nods, lips twisting like sheâs turning over your words in her mind. âI guess⊠thatâs what I wanted to know,â she admits softly. âIt still weirds me out sometimes, but Iâd rather it matter to you than be some⊠fling.â
A wave of gratitude surges in your chest, making it hard to speak. You nod. âIt matters,â you whisper. âI swear.â
She blinks a few times, then sets her nail polish aside. The tension in her shoulders relaxes just enough that her spine curves against the headboard, more comfortable than youâve seen her in weeks. âGood,â she murmurs, tone stilted but earnest. âDonât⊠donât make me regret trying to rebuild this, okay?â
Your own shoulders slump in relief. âI wonât,â you promise. Your voice shakes with the weight of it. âAnd if I ever do, you canâand shouldâkick my ass.â
That draws a small, genuine laugh from herâa sound you havenât heard in what feels like ages. She nods, letting the humor fill the space that was once suffocating with tension. âDeal,â she says.
You stay up later than expectedâtalking about nonsense, painting your nails in mismatched colors, occasionally lapsing into awkward silences.Â
But each time, one of you breaks it before the air can go stale. By the time midnight rolls around, youâve settled into a strange new normal: not quite what you were before the betrayal, but not strangers anymore. Something between you is mending, fragile but real.
When you leave, she walks you to the front door. Itâs still weird, stepping out into the hallway where so much damage happened.Â
But Evieâs behind you, not in front, and you canât help feeling that the dynamic has changed in a way that actually might last. You glance back at her, and though she still looks tired, she doesnât look hostile or betrayed. Maybe just⊠cautious. Itâs enough.
âNight,â she says, one hand resting on the doorknob.
âNight,â you reply, voice quiet. âThanks, again.â
She nods and closes the door gently behind youâno slamming, no huffing. Just a simple, private goodbye.
 As you slip into the night, you realize youâre smiling, mind already whirring with what youâll tell Heeseung when you see him next. You catch yourself wondering if youâll meet up for another date soon. Or if youâll just call him on the way home, excitedly spilling the details of your slow but tangible progress with Evie.
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The new place is barely furnished. A couch thatâs still covered in plastic. A mattress on the floor. Takeout containers littering the kitchen counter. The floorboards creak with every step. The windows are wide open, and there are no curtains yet. Itâs not homeânot reallyâbut itâs his.Â
And most importantly, itâs finally, blessedly, fucking private.
When he opens the door and lets you in, he doesnât kiss you right away. He just watches you step inside like youâre something heâs trying to memorize. His hands stay in the pocket of his hoodie. His jawâs tight. His eyes flicker to the bag in your hand, then to your shoes, then up your legs so slowly it makes you feel exposed even though youâre still fully dressed.
You donât say anything at first. You set the wine down on the counter. You take in the spaceâempty and echoingâbut your skinâs already buzzing. You hear the door close behind you with a soft click, and something shifts.
He clears his throat.
âI havenât kissed you yet,â he says, voice low. âNot really.â
You turn to look at him. âNo.â
Thereâs a beat.
âCan I?â
You nod.
And thatâs it. Thatâs all it takes.
His hands are on your face before you can blink, warm and rough and needing. The kiss starts soft, but only for a breath. Then it turnsâhungry, desperate, filthy. Your back hits the counter with a thud, his tongue already in your mouth, his body pressing into yours like heâs trying to crawl inside you through your lips.
You moan into him, and he groans, deep in his throat, like the sound broke whatever shred of self-control he was hanging onto.
âYou have no idea,â he pants, mouth hot against your jaw, âhow long Iâve wanted to ruin you in peace.â
Your shirtâs pulled up before you can answer, his mouth already sucking marks down your neck. His hands are everywhereâgripping your tits through your bra, unbuttoning your jeans, fingers slipping into your waistband like he owns the place. Like he owns you.
You gasp as his hand slides between your legs, cupping you through your underwear, his breath catching when he feels the heat there.
âAlready wet?â he mutters, voice ragged. âFucking knew it.â
He yanks your jeans down to your ankles, then sinks to his knees on the kitchen tile without another word. His hands push your legs apart, pulling one up to rest over his shoulder. And when his mouth presses to the soaked fabric of your panties, you cry outâsharp, helpless, needy.
âYou wore these knowing Iâd take them off with my teeth, didnât you?â he growls, dragging the fabric aside with his nose, his tongue already lapping through your folds like heâs been waiting for this for months.
You can barely breathe. One hand flies to the counter for balance, the other fists in his hair. He licks you with obscene, wet sounds, groaning into your pussy like the taste is sending him over the edge. You grind against his face shamelessly, whining when he flattens his tongue and drags it up through your slit, over and over again.
âFuck, Heeseungâpleaseââ
He pulls back just enough to spit directly on your clit. âWhat do you need, baby?â he pants, thumb spreading it around with tight, deliberate pressure. âYou want me to make you cum with my mouth like a good little whore? Is that it?â
You nod frantically, hips rocking against his hand.
âI missed this pussy,â he mutters, diving back in. âMissed how fucking loud she is.â
And she is. Your pussyâs wet, sloppy, noisy, every flick of his tongue echoing off the bare walls. You cum hard, legs shaking around his shoulders, crying out his name as your vision blurs.
But heâs not done.
He stands, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand, then grabs you by the waist and turns you around, bending you over the counter.
âNo more pretending,â he growls in your ear. âNo more quiet. Youâre gonna scream for me this time.â
He pulls your panties down and spreads you open, groaning like a man unhinged.
âGod, youâre dripping. You fucking missed this too, didnât you?â
You try to answer, but heâs already stroking his cock against your folds, rubbing the head through the mess between your legs, smearing it everywhere.
âSay it,â he demands.
âYesâyes, I missed itâfuck, Heeseung, I missed your cockââ
He sinks into you in one sharp, brutal thrust, and you wail.
No condom. No pause. Just the stretch of him filling you up in one smooth, devastating stroke.
âOh my God,â he groans. âYouâre fucking swallowing me.â
Youâre moaning, writhing, drooling onto the counter. He doesnât start slow. He doesnât give you time. He fucks youârelentless, pounding, like heâs been waiting to do this since the moment you first touched him.
Your ass slaps against his thighs with every thrust. Your pussy is loud, the kind of wet, messy squelch that would embarrass you if you could think.
He slaps your ass hard, making you jolt forward. âListen to her,â he growls. âSheâs been crying for me.â
You donât stop him. You beg for more.
He grabs your arms and pulls you back onto him, using your own body to fuck you harder.
âKeep taking it,â he snarls. âBe my good little cumrag, just like you used to be.â
You scream. You scream for him.
You cum again, sobbing into the crook of your arm, your entire body trembling.
He pulls out and flips you around, lifts you up onto the counter again, and kisses you like heâs devouring you from the inside out. Your legs are trembling so hard you can barely hold them up, but he spreads them open and spits straight onto your cunt, rubbing it in with two fingers, moaning when you jolt at the sensitivity.
âWanna fuck you on the floor next,â he mutters against your lips. âWanna fuck you on the mattress, on the couch, against every wall. Wanna ruin this apartment with the sound of your pussy screaming for me.â
You grab his face, breath ragged. âThen do it.â
He throws you over his shoulder and carries you to the mattress on the floor, where he fucks you in every position heâs ever imagined. He keeps you cockdrunk and leaking. When your voice gives out, he fucks you in silence. When your legs stop working, he props them up and keeps going. And when he finally cumsâinside you, deep, claimingâhe doesnât pull out.
He just collapses on top of you, both of you drenched in sweat and slick and the aftermath of something feral.
You canât move.
You donât want to.
You just lie there, shaking, full, used, satisfied in a way that makes you dizzy.
Heeseung kisses your shoulder and whispers against your skin.
âIâm never being patient again.â
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â summary: you just moved into a new building, right across from three loud guys. two said sorry and the third couldnât care less.
pairing: pshx f!reader,wc: 14k words , genre: enemies to lovers ish, neighbor!au, fluff, romcom w: rude jokes, cussing, kissing
The elevator doors swung open, and soon you stepped out into the third floor hallway. You looked like you were moving in, which in your defenseâŠyou were. The oversized hoodie slipping off one shoulder, arms hugging a stack of takeout containers and a cactus you had that had pricked you far too many times, but that didnât matter. You were finally on your own.
Unit 3B. That was you now.Â
Your keys jingled in your palm as you found the door, nudged it open with one knee, and stepped into the apartment youâd stared at for months on rental listings. It wasnât huge, but it had a little kitchen with enough space for your mumâs rice cooker, and a balcony that caught the sun in the morning. You spun around in the centre of the room, grinning, almost knocking the cactus you had just placed on the counter in the process.
And by nightfall, the place felt like yours. Your fairy lights were strung up across your living room. Your fridge held exactly a bottle of soda, some tuna you had eaten an hour ago and a bag of unwashed grapes. You lit a vanilla candle, the one your best friend, Jungwon, made you promise to use so you'd remember him⊠even while being so far apart. But Jungwon hated travelling, so in his mind, you'd basically moved to another continent.Â
Jungwon dramatically declared, âYouâre practically moving to another country.â
âJungwon, Iâm literally a two-hour train ride away.â
âThatâs basically Europe.â
You rolled your eyes at the memory, smiling to yourself.
Still, you were glad youâd made the decision to move. Three years ahead of you⊠of being on your own, of learning to be independent, part-time jobs, and what you hopedâŠa future incoming relationship. It should be easy. It should be peaceful. It should beâ
âDUDE!!!â
A scream ripped through your wall.
It came from the wall to your right, a thin wall nudged between you and your neighbours. You could hear celebrations. A voice shouted, âTHAT WAS INSANE!â followed by a loud thump like someone had jumped off the sofa.
You tried ignoring it at first, burying yourself under the blanket like it could block out noise. But 20 minutes in, another screamed âHEâS OFFSIDE, YOU DUMBââ loud enough to rattle the walls, you snapped.
You threw on your hoodie, jammed your feet into slippers, and marched out the front door like you were storming a battlefield. The hallway was dim and quiet, except for the muffled party behind door 3C. You knocked, hard, but polite.
The door creaked open mid-laughter, revealing three guys mid-snack, mid-game.
âHi,â you said, tight smile. âSorry to bother you, but⊠would you mind keeping it down a little? Iâve got a test tomorrow and itâs kinda hard to focus with all the screaming.â
The one with fluffy hair, cute little eyes, nodded immediately. âShit. Sorry, sorry. Totally our bad.â
Another one, long lashes and a goofy smile, actually winced. âDidnât realise it was that loud. Weâll keep it down, promise.â
âAre you new here?â the first one asked.
You nodded. âI just moved in today, actually.â
âOh shit. Mrs Kim moved out?â
âDamn, weâre not getting her kimchi anymore, thatâs for sure.â
âWe gotta eat those store-bought ones that taste like ass.â
The second boy looked at you again, more focused this time. âOh right! Iâm Jake! Itâs great to meet you! Iâm sorry it happened under⊠unfortunate circumstances. But weâll be quieter!â
âIâm Jay, by the way,â the first one added with a small grin, pushing his hair back.
You nodded, smiling slightly. At least they were nice about it. Well, two out of three, anyway.
You glanced past both of them, eyes landing on the third boy slouched on the couch, still holding the controller, gaze fixed on the paused screen like you werenât even there. His jaw clenched once. No name. No hello. Just a subtle, annoyed glance in your direction before he looked away again.
Cool. So he hates you. Thatâs cool with you.
The third guy didnât say anything. Just glanced at you once, then turned back toward the TV.
âUh, thanks,â you said, lips tight, already backing away.
You returned to your apartment and for a blessed thirty minutes, it was quiet.
Then someone scored a goal and the wall shook again.
You blinked slowly at your ceiling, arms folded under your head like the weight of your patience was finally starting to crush your ribs. Okay. So thatâs how it was going to be. You frowned.
And that was literally⊠how war started.
The next morning, fuelled by petty vengeance and two hours of sleep, you grabbed your pastel pink sticky notes and wrote:
âDear 3C, Iâve played FIFA before. It is not that damn fun for you to be out here screaming. Please tone it down. Regards, the zombie in 3B.â
You slapped it on their door. Nothing changed.
And the next day:
âDear 3C, I canât sleep. Kindly shut up <3 With love, the girl one more sleepless night away from writing to the landlord. 3B.â
You half expected them to ignore it. Instead, you found your note missing by mid-afternoon. Gone.Â
For a moment, you felt powerful. Maybe theyâd actually listened.
Then 8:43 p.m. hit and someone in 3C scored a goal so loud you swore the bass from their TV made your candle flicker.
Alright. So it was personal now.
You stormed over to their door again, hands on your hips.. It wasnât that late. You werenât unreasonable. You believed in joy. In freedom. But right now? Rage was the only thing pumping through your system.
You shuffled down the hall with your bunny slippers slapping against the floor, hair in a claw clip that was giving up. You looked deranged. And for the first time, you were fine with that. You banged on their door.
The door cracked open a second later, revealing Jake blinking like a deer in headlights. His hair was messy. He looked mildly afraid.
âWere⊠we being loud again?â
You stared at him, deadpan. âYa think?â
Jake rubbed the back of his neck. âOkay, okay. Iâm so sorry. Itâs Sunghoon. He keeps saying itâs not that loud and we were mid-tournament andââ
âTell Sunghoon that his egoâs not the only thing echoing through these walls,â you snapped, arms crossed. âSome of us are trying to study.â
Behind Jake, you heard a familiar scoff followed by a smug voice yelling, âGod, sheâs so annoying. We were literally whispering.â
You leaned to the side, locking eyes with the third boy slouched on the couch, controller in hand, feet on the coffee table like the world owed him something. He didnât even pause the game this time.
You didnât know what it was about his stupidly symmetrical face but your blood boiled.
âTell this Sunghoon guyâŠhis whispering sounds like a screeching cat,â you said flatly, before spinning on your heel and marching back toward your door when you heard his aggravating voice.
âTell her sheâs overreacting over a couple of friends simply trying to have fun,â Sunghoon fired back from the couch, not even raising his voice.Â
You turned your head just enough to glare over your shoulder. âWell, tell him, his shirt doesnât match his fucking pants.â
Jake looked helpless, standing between you both like a middle child caught in a divorce.
And then, with that same bored tone, Sunghoon called out again, âWell, tell her⊠those slippers are the best thing sheâs worn all week.â
You stopped.
Jake sucked in a breath.
You slowly turned, eyes narrowing. âTell him he wouldnât know good fashion if it came with a user manual and punched him in his freaking face.â
Sunghoon finally glanced away from the TV, meeting your eyes for the first time that night. His lips curved into the most irritating half-smile youâd ever seen.
âTell herââ
Jake stepped in between again, hands raised. âOkay! Okay. Weâre gonna turn the volume down. Like, way down. Like you canât even hear us tiptoe. Right, Sunghoon?â
Sunghoon leaned back against the couch and shrugged. âWhatever. Iâm not the one annoying my neighbors at 9pm on a Friday night. Get some friends.âÂ
You slammed your door shut.
War was back on.
-
The next morning, your plan was simple. A little petty, sure, but necessary.
You stood outside their door in your pyjamas, holding a fresh pack of neon yellow Post-its since your previous ones were used up by the ongoing Post-It war.The hallway was empty. Your bunny slippers made no sound as you padded up to 3C and stuck the first one of the week dead-centre on the door.
âDear 3C, just a gentle reminder that FIFA will not feed you, clothe you, or give you money. Kindly shut up. PLEASE. Warmest regards, 3B.â
You smiled to yourself and floated back to your apartment.
That night? For the first time� Silence. Beautiful, blissful silence. You actually managed to revise two chapters and fall asleep before midnight. You woke up in the morning feeling like a changed woman.
But then you opened your front door.
There, taped neatly to your door, was a blue sticky note with surprisingly neat handwriting.
âDear 3B, you sound like you narrate your life out loud. â 3C.â
Your jaw dropped.
âNarrate your life out loud?â you muttered. âThatâs literally called thinking.â
You marched back into your apartment, flung open your stationery drawer.
âDear 3C, apologies if my internal monologue disrupted your daily FIFA championship. I only talk to myself because your volume settings make it impossible to hear my own thoughts. With all due respect (and ear damage), 3B."
That afternoon, Jay knocked on your door. You hesitated, then opened it a crack. He was holding a bag of convenience store pancakes in one hand.
âPeace offering,â he said. âAlso, I think your notes are hilarious. Jakeâs been collecting them. I think heâs making a scrapbook.â
You blinked. âIs this a joke or something?â
Jay shrugged, leaning casually against the doorframe. âNo! Honestly, itâs kinda refreshing.â
Jake popped his head in from behind, grinning. âAlso, your handwritingâs really neat.â
You opened the door a little wider, cautious then shrugged. âYou want some⊠uh⊠spaghetti? I made it this morning.â
âSpaghetti?â Jay tilted his head.
You nodded. âYeah. I usually experiment with food. IâmâŠuhâŠin culinary school.â
Jakeâs eyes widened. âWait, so youâre like⊠a chef?â
âTrying to be.,â you said with a shrug, suddenly a little self-conscious.
They exchanged a quick look before barging in like you'd personally handed them invites at the door.
âThatâs so cool,â Jake said, practically bouncing as he flopped onto your beanbag. âI burnt instant noodles last week. Twice.â
Jay wandered deeper into your living room, his gaze landing on the dusty old guitar leaning against your bookshelf. âDude, check it out! She plays the guitar.â
You rubbed the back of your neck, awkward. âItâs just for fun. Iâm not that good.â
âIâm sure youâre great,â Jake said, already chewing through a mouthful of spaghetti heâd somehow found, and served himself in a bowl you didnât remember offering.
You blinked at him. âDid you justâ?â
âPlate was right there,â he said through a mouthful. âI took it as a sign.â
Jay nodded solemnly. âShe feeds us and plays guitar. Sheâs better than Mrs. Kim already.â
You sighed and closed the door behind them. âIâm starting to think Mrs. Kim left because of the three of you.â
In between bites, Jake nodded without hesitation. âI think so too.â
âWe can be loud,â Jay added, helping himself to another serving.
âHave you thought of⊠not being loud?â
âWe do,â Jay said. âBut then we get loud again.â
You rolled your eyes. âGuys, some of us have school andââ
âWe have school too,â Jake chimed in, mouth full.
âOkay⊠some of us care about sleep.â
Jay perked up. âThatâs why we got you this.â
He dug into his hoodie pocket and pulled out a tiny box, dropping it into your hands.
You squinted at it. âWhatâs this?â
âTheyâre sleep buds,â he said proudly. âThey go in your ears and play white noise and, like⊠ocean sounds or something. Blocks everything out. Even us.â
You stared at the box, then at them.
âInstead of compromising, you got me gear?â
Jake grinned. âYeah. We like you. We want you to be able to sleep⊠through us.â
Jay gave you a thumbs-up. âItâs called adaptation.â
You looked down at the sleep buds in your hands and then back up at the two of them absolutely inhaling your spaghetti like they hadnât eaten in weeks.
You didnât know whether to kick them out or thank them.
So you just sighed, defeated. âYou guys are the weirdest neighbours Iâve ever had.â
Jake beamed. âAww. Youâre the weirdest too.â
And somehow⊠the next day⊠they were back.
You opened the door mid-knock, confused, only to find Jay grinning at you.
âWhatâs for lunch today, boss?â he asked, already halfway through the doorway.
You blinked. âHowâd you know I made something?â
âWe could smell it,â Jake said, stepping in right behind him, holding up a comically large spoon. âSmells so good. Brought my big spoon today. Came prepared.â
âUh⊠I made chowder?â
Jakeâs eyes lit up. âOh my god, I love chowder.â
Jay had already plopped onto the floor cushion, flipping through your Spotify like he owned your iPad. âWhat kind? Clam? Corn? Pumpkin? Wait⊠do people put pumpkin in chowder?â
You stared at them, ladle in hand.
âCorn,â you muttered, shuffling back into the kitchen.
Then the day after that⊠they came again. At this point, it felt less like a surprise and more like a recurring appointment.
âNo fucking way. Kimchi stew? This shit is so good!. Jay, you need to try the beef. Itâs so soft. Howâ howâd you get it so soft? Is this like one of those expensive beef? Wakoo?â
âItâs Wagyu, Jake.â You corrected.
âWagyu~â He sang.
Jay, already mid-bite, nodded with a full mouth. âCan I havefth thefth reshepee?â
You wiped your hands on a dish towel, leaning against the counter with one brow raised. âDo you guys ever eat in your own apartment?â
Jake didnât miss a beat. âNot when you cook like this.â
Jay pointed his chopsticks at you like he was making a closing argument in court. âThis is technically your fault. You fed us once. Thatâs basically a binding contract. Weâre best friends now. Arenât we, Jake?â
Jake nodded, mouth full. âMhmff. Whatever he said.â
You sighed, setting your elbow on the table and dropping your chin into your hand. âIf youâre gonna keep doing this, at least wash the dishes after.â
Jake saluted you with his spoon like you were the captain of a very tiny, soup-based army. âYes, chef.â
You looked at the two of them, one already on his third helping, the other stealing more beef straight from the pot, and shook your head.
This wasnât how your independent, put-together, college life was supposed to go. You were meant to be focused. The mysterious girl on the third floor who only ever came out for groceries and exams.
But maybe⊠with the two of them barging in uninvited, eating like they hadnât seen food in years, and treating your living room like it was theirsâŠ
Maybe you wouldnât feel so lonely after all.
-
It was 9 p.m. Strangely quiet.
Usually, by now, thereâd be at least one goal celebration shaking the walls or someone shouting about a missed penalty. But tonight? Nothing. You didnât let it bother you. You took it as a win.
The balcony door slid open with a soft scrape. You stepped out into the cool night, cradling your little scissors and spray bottle like sacred tools. Your succulents were arranged in a neat line. A few leaves had started to curl. You knelt down, snipping the dead ends carefully.
You shouldâve felt peaceful.
But tonight, something tugged at your chest.Â
You missed Jungwon. You missed your momâs mismatched cutlery and the way your dad always forgot heâd already asked about your grades. Maybe even your pet fish, the one that never did much except float around looking confused.
Jay and Jake were friendly, sure. But they werenât yours. They werenât part of your before. They didnât know the town you came from or the versions of you that existed before now.
And even though you thought youâd settled in... even though you were coping...you were lonely.
Without meaning to, you started speaking out loud â just like you always did.
âItâs fine. Youâll do better tomorrow. Tomorrow you wonât feel as lonely,â you said softly as you misted the leaves. âYouâll be stronger. Youâre gonna get used to this. You can do it.â
But the lie caught in your throat.
Because you were crying already.
You wiped your cheek with the sleeve of your hoodie, frustrated, betrayed by your own body. You reached for your phone without thinking and hit the contact you swore you wouldnât keep calling every time you got overwhelmed.
Jungwon answered on the first ring.
âWhatâs up?â he asked, casual as ever.
âWonâŠâ you breathed out.
There was a pause. Then: âAre you crying?â
âNo?â
âI can hear you sniffling, you shit.â
âItâs justââ your voice cracked. âItâs hard. Iâm alone all the time. Iâve got no friends. Iâve got no one to talk to. Iâm alone, Won.â
âI know,â he said gently. âI knowâŠâ
There was a pause. You could hear him shifting in bed, his voice soft and serious now. âBut think about it this way, okay? Youâre barely in your first month. Youâre gonna get used to it. Youâre gonna find people. Youâre gonna build something here. It just takes time.â
You bit your lip. âYouâll visit if you can, right?â
âIâll visit,â he promised. âEven if it takes two bloody hours.â
âBut you hate traveling.â
âFor you, Iâd suffer.â
You sniffled. âYouâre just saying that so Iâll hang up.â
âYouâre right because Iâm exhausted from basketball. But also⊠I love you.â
âFine,â you mumbled. âI love you too.â
âChin up. Youâre talented and you deserve to be there. You can do this. Weâre all counting on you.â
âI know.â You exhaled slowly. âGoodnight, Wonnie.â
âNight.â
You ended the call and sat in silence for a moment, letting the cool night air settle on your skin. The tears had stopped. Your hands still smelled like mint and basil and the faint sweetness of the spray bottle. You stared at your succulents, wondering if they ever got lonely too.
Unbeknownst to you, just a few feet away, out on the connected balcony, hidden by the divider, someone had heard everything.
He hadnât meant to eavesdrop. Heâd stepped out earlier, just needing air, needing quiet, needing to be somewhere still for once. And then heâd heard your voice. The words that were not meant for anyone else.
And for the first time, Sunghoon didnât roll his eyes or make a sarcastic comment.
He just stood there in the dark, one hand gripping the railing, heart a little heavier than before.
He understood more than you thought.
And somewhere between your tears and Jungwonâs voice, he changed his mind about you.
-
The next few days, there was absolute silence. Maybe the food had finally worked some psychological warfare on Jay and Jake. Maybe it was their way of returning the favour. Either way, you werenât about to question it.
You were grateful, to say the least.
Because for the past week, youâd been moping around your apartment. Living alone and striking out as an âindependent bacheloretteâ sounded empowering in theory, but in practice? Maybe you werenât one of those girlies after allâŠyâknow the ones on Instagram who made solitude look like a season of self-discovery instead of a series of breakdowns.
It was Saturday. Youâd spent the entire morning in bed watching a Netflix documentary about some guy swindling people on Tinder, surrounded by crumpled tissue and scented candle smoke that had long turned suffocating. You were still in yesterdayâs hoodie, blanket tangled around your legs.
Three knocks echoed at the door.
You lifted your head from the pillow with a groan, barely alive. The sound came again.
Dragging yourself across the living room, you cracked the door open just a sliver, just wide enough to peek through but not enough to reveal the disaster that was your face, your hair, or your pride.
âUh.â The voice was hesitant. Familiar.
You squinted.
Sunghoon.
You blinked. âWhat are you doing here?â you asked, your voice hoarse from crying and a full night of narrating your own spiral.
âThere was a mix-up with the mail,â he said, holding up a small stack of envelopes.
âOh.â You extended your arm awkwardly through the tiny gap in the door and grabbed the letters. âThanks.â
There was a pause, âI can see your puffy eyes through the gap.â
You scoffed, immediately pulling the door closer. âYou just have to be a smartass about everything, donât you?â
He shrugged, completely unbothered, hands in the pockets of his hoodie. Still standing there.Â
ââŠAre Jake and Jay home?â you asked, trying to sound casual.
His expression twitched, almost amused. âWhy? Trying to steal my best friends again orââ
âNo,â you deadpanned. âI was just wondering. Itâs been⊠quiet this whole week.â
âThey went home to visit their families.â
Oh. Right. Come to think of it, maybe that explained why everything felt extra heavy lately. It was the time of year people usually went home. People surrounded themselves with comfort and familiarity. And here you were, stuck in the city because the train ticket home was just slightly out of budget.
âYou didnât go?â you asked softly.
âCanât,â he shrugged.
âOh.â
There was a beat of silence. Then he tilted his head.
âWell,â Sunghoon said slowly, âif you ever need someone to emotionally rejuvenate you by pointing out your hair looks like a ratâs nest, you know where to find me.â
The words came with the usual venom but the message behind them landed differently.
You stared at him through the gap in the door. You couldnât tell if he was trying to be funny, or⊠sincere, in his own weird, backhanded way. It was strange. Youâd only had three full conversations with the guy. And every single one ended in a WWE tournament.
You narrowed your eyes slightly. âAre you⊠being nice to me?â
He clicked his tongue. âDonât ruin it.â
And with that, he turned and walked back.
-
You finally got up.
There was no movie-worthy breakthrough moment. Just the dull ache in your head from crying too much and the feeling that if you shed one more tear, your eyeballs might actually eject themselves from their sockets. So you moved. You stripped your bed, tossed the mountain of tissues into a trash bag, sprayed half a bottle of disinfectant in the air, and opened every window.
Your apartment looked like it had survived an apocalypse, which, to be fair, was accurate. But you scrubbed it back to life.
By the time you were in the kitchen, your eyes were still a little swollen, but youâd pressed them with cool spoons and a sad little compress until you could see straight again. Kind of.
You pulled out ingredients from your fridge one by one, lining them up like you were preparing for war. Slicing, boiling, julienning, stir-frying. The sound of the pan crackling beneath the glass noodles filled the silence of your apartment. It smelled exactly like it did when your mom used to make it.
You plated it in a wide, shallow bowl. It was delicious. Of course it was. You took pride in it. You always had. Jungwon used to tease you, calling your hands âblessed by Gordon Ramsayâ like everything you touched turned into comfort food. Youâd swat his arm, trying not to smile as he reached for second helpings before youâd even sat down.
You missed him. You missed your family. You missed not having to eat alone on a day like this.
Your eyes drifted to the door.
Would it be stupid? To bring food to Sunghoon? Youâd never really done anything kind for him. Most of your interactions were lined with sarcasm and insults. And yet⊠that one line of his kept replaying in your head, âIf you ever need someone to emotionally rejuvenate you by pointing out your hair looks like a ratâs nest, you know where to find me.â
So maybeâŠmaybe he meant it. Or maybe you were just desperate for company and your noodles were starting to get cold.
Before you could talk yourself out of it, you packed the noodles into a clean container, wrapped a rubber band around it, and found yourself standing in front of 3C. Your feet had walked you here without permission. Your hand hovered in the air, ready to knock, but now⊠you hesitated. You werenât here to complain. You werenât here to yell. And that made it harder.
And just before your knuckles could land on the door, it swung open.
Sunghoon stood in front of you, coat already on, scarf looped lazily around his neck. There was a little shine to his hair like heâd styled it, and he looked surprised, mildly confused to find you on his doorstep without any anger evident in your eyes.
âWhat?â he said, voice dry.
You blinked, staring at him. Youâd never really looked at him properly before. Not when he was this put-together. The gel in his hair, the sharp line of his jaw, the way his scarf sat slightly off-center like heâd thrown it on in a rush. You knew he was attractive. You werenât blind. But seeing him now?
Sunghoon was actually⊠pretty handsome.
âIâuhââ you stammered.
His eyes narrowed slightly. âSpit it out.â
âIâuhâI made some⊠stir-fried glass noodles,â you said, stumbling over every syllable. âAnd I know how much it sucks being alone on a day like this, so I thought⊠maybe itâd bring you some kind of familiarity. From home, or something.â
You didnât let yourself overthink it. You shoved the container into his hands, heart pounding.
âBye,â you mumbled, before immediately turning around and marching back to your apartment like youâd just robbed a bank. The door clicked shut behind you.
You pressed your back to it, eyes wide.
Shit.
Was Sunghoon actually hot?
-
Sunghoon stood in the hallway, unmoving. The container in his hands was warm and he stared down at it for a couple of seconds longer than he probably shouldâve.
Jake and Jay had been raving about your cooking for weeks. At first, he thought they were exaggerating. How good could someoneâs food be that it made two of the loudest people he knew voluntarily whisper through a FIFA match?
But heâd seen it with his own eyes, Jake silently fist-pumping the air, mouthing âLETâS FUCKING GOâ after a goal, and Jay barely reacting as he scored. They even created a rule: first one to speak puts a dollar in the Silence Jar. A literal jar. With money.
Sunghoon didnât get it.
And he didnât particularly care to. Not then.
But now, standing in the hallway in his coat and scarf, staring at the gift you shoved into his hands with flushed cheeks, something felt different.
He had been on his way out, actually. There was a bar nearby, nothing special, just a dim-lit spot with quiet music and decent food where no one bothered him. He usually went there whenever Jay and Jake went back home, like they did this time every year. It wasnât that he didnât have familyâhe did. It just wasnât⊠warm. They were always busy. Always somewhere else, even when they were in the same room.
He peeled off his scarf, feet dragging a little as he headed back into the apartment, the door clicking shut behind him. He set the container on the kitchen counter, grabbed a pair of chopsticks from the drawer, and opened the lid.
Steam wafted up instantly, sesame oil, soy sauce, garlic, something subtly sweet he couldnât name. The noodles glistened. They looked homemade. No, they felt homemade.
He picked up a strand and gave it a tentative taste.
His eyes widened before he could even help it.
It was good. Like stupid good. Like how the hell is this girl not running her own restaurant kind of good. Better than anything he wouldâve paid for at that bar tonight.
He stood there in silence, chopsticks hovering mid-air, thinking back.
He wasnât proud of how heâd treated you. Three encounters, three arguments. He remembered each one too clearly. The snark in his voice. The way your expression hardened. The notes on the door.Â
But it wasnât really about you.
He hated being called out. Hated being the problem. Maybe it was ego, or maybe it was the way heâd always felt like he had to be put-together or to say the leastâŠcontrolled. Your presence threw him off. You were loud in a way that was sincere. You didnât filter your emotions. You wore your annoyance on your sleeve and your feelings on your face.
It irritated him. It also⊠made him feel something.
And then there was that night on the balcony.
He hadnât meant to listen. But when he heard your voice cracking through the divider, talking to someoneâŠmaybe it was your boyfriend? Your best friend? Whoever it was about how lonely you were, it hit him harder than it shouldâve.
Because he got it.
He felt it too.
Being alone in a crowd. Having people around but never really with you. That weight in your chest that didnât come from sadness exactlyâŠjust the absence of warmth.
Sunghoon felt it more often than he cared to admit. He loved Jake and Jay, loved them to pieces. They were the kind of people who filled a room with noise and an energy he couldnât really place and who made him laugh even when he didnât want to.
He wanted something more. Something real.
Someone who just⊠saw him.
He sat at his kitchen counter, staring at the container of glass noodles still warm with steam curling from the lid. He wasnât usually impulsive. He didnât do gestures. But maybe tonight called for something a little uncharacteristic.
He stood and reached up, opening the top cupboard where Jake and Jay kept what they called their âemergency date plates.â. The kind of plates you used to impress someone. They only ever brought them out when trying to convince girls they were not, in fact, living in a borderline condemned apartment flat.
He grabbed two.
And then, before he could second guess it, he walked out into the hallway and knocked.Â
Your door creaked open a few seconds later.
You blinked at him, confused. âWhat?â
It almost felt like deja vu. Except now, he was youâŠawkward at the door.
And then it hit him.
He looked at youâŠlike, really looked at you, and for the first time, he realised heâd never actually seen you before.Â
You were wearing a soft pink sleeveless dress, the fabric loose and falling just above your knees, cinched slightly at the waist. Your hair was tied into a side braid, fringe swept slightly to the side, with a few delicate strands left loose to frame your face. You looked like you belonged in a pastel painting.
Shit.
Were you actuallyâpretty?
Nope. Nope. Stop that. Sunghoon blinked hard, trying to erase the thought.
Damn it.
You probably had a boyfriend. Someone smart and warm and emotionally available who FaceTimed you every night and wrote you good morning texts. Someone who missed you from back home.
And besidesâŠsomeone who could cook like you? You could probably bag Jake and Jay at the same time in under a minute if you wanted. Not that you would. But still.
He cleared his throat.
âI, uhâŠâ He held up the plates slightly. âI thought maybe⊠you could join me?â
He wasnât good at this. But his voice was steady.
âOnly if you want to,â he added, quickly. âI just figured. Yâknow. Glass noodles taste better on⊠plates that arenât plastic.â
His eyes met yours.
He was trying.
And this time, it was your turn to blink in disbelief.
-
Sunghoon had returned with the container of glass noodles, now a little colder, a little stickier, but still giving off the faint aroma of sesame oil and soy sauce. Youâd reheated it and plated it up, slightly embarrassed that the presentation wasnât what it had been fresh off the stove, but he didnât seem to care. Or maybe he did, but you couldnât tell, because for the first five minutes, you didnât look at each other.
The clink of chopsticks, the occasional scrape of ceramic, and your ceiling fan. It was awkward. You wondered why he even came. Why he asked in the first place, if he was just going to eat in silence.
âSo,â you said.
âSo,â he said.
You paused.
âYou first.â
âNo, youââ
âOkay, Iâll go first,â he said, cutting himself off. He cleared his throat and set his chopsticks down. âIâuhâI just wanted to say thanks. For the meal.â
You blinked. âOkay.â You nodded slowly. âYouâre⊠shockingly formal when youâre not pissed.â
âIââ Sunghoon let out a breath and leaned back a little in the chair. âI was never pissed.â
âMhm,â you hummed, nodding, eyes narrowed. âSure.â
âI was annoyed, sure. Who likes being called out?â
âI wasnât trying to call you out,â you said, tilting your head. âBut put yourself in my shoes. I have to wake up at stupid oâclock to learn how to make a soufflĂ© or whatever, and meanwhile, Iâm treated to surround sound yelling and the occasional ceiling vibration.â
He gave a small shrug. âWell, we havenât done it in a while.â
âAnd Iâm grateful,â you replied, lips twitching. âTruly.â
âWe got a silence jar and everything,â he muttered, almost like he didnât want to admit it.
Your eyebrows shot up. âA silence jar?â
He nodded. âYeah. Jay implemented it. He said if we keep it up, weâll have enough for extra toppings on our next pizza night.â
You burst into laughter, the sound surprising even yourself. It came out light and real, and you covered your mouth halfway through. âThatâs⊠honestly? A decent plan.â
âIt can be,â he said with a grin starting to pull at the corner of his mouth. âUntil everyone starts trying to play FIFA like itâs an ASMR video.â
âYou guys actually whisper?â you asked, incredulous.
âWell, yeah. You told us to.â
âI didnât think you would listen,â you said, pointing your chopsticks at him.
Sunghoon shrugged again, his eyes dropping to the plate in front of him. âWell⊠they changed my mind, so.â
He didnât say what he was really thinking.
That it wasnât Jake or Jay who changed his mind. It was that night. The way your voice had carried through the gap in the balcony, fragile and cracking. The way youâd said Iâm alone, Won like it was something that had been sitting inside you for too long, waiting to spill. Heâd realised then maybe he wasnât just an annoying neighbour to you. Maybe he was part of the problem. Maybe heâd been making things harder for someone who was already trying to hold it all together.
âSoâŠâ he said quietly, eyes on his plate, âwhy are you alone during the holidays anyway?â
âCouldnât afford a train ticket,â you said eventually. âI meanâI could have, technically. But thatâd mean I wouldnât have enough money left to buy ingredients for my assignments the next few weeks.â
Sunghoon winced. âOof. Thatâs rough. Must suck.â
You gave a little shrug. âYeah. Itâs fine though.â
He knew it wasnât.
There was a pause. He glanced sideways at you.
âIf you ever⊠feel like you need someone to talk to,â he started, voice casual, âyou could just knock. I have FIFA.â
You snorted. âOh, like Iâd willingly join that mess.â
âItâs actually really fun.â
âHow fun can flinging a ball across a screen with your thumbs be?â
âIt is!â he defended, turning fully toward you.
You raised a brow. âI tried once with my friend and it was so boring.â
âThatâs âcause you werenât playing it right,â he insisted, already standing up. âCome on. Iâll show you.â
âIâm not playing FIFA with you.ïżœïżœ
âCome onnn,â he whined, grabbing your wrist and tugging you lightly toward his door.
âGod, this is gonna be so stupid,â you muttered, dragging your feet even as you followed him out.
Inside his apartment, the lights were warm, the couch sunken in like it had been through a war. You sat reluctantly, tucking your knees up as he handed you the controller.
âAlright,â he said, sliding in beside you. âThis is youâTeam Two. All you have to do is use the left joystick to move, the right one to look around. This button to pass, this one to shoot.â
You blinked. âSo many buttons.â
âItâs easy! Just follow what I say.â
âOkay⊠so now I justâ?â You pressed a button and immediately kicked the ball out of bounds.
âNo, noâmove left. Left.â
âI am moving left!â
He glanced over. Your tongue was sticking out slightly in concentration, eyes squinted, brows furrowed. He chuckled before he could stop himself, quickly looking away.
Then you screamed, âI DID IT! DID I DO IT?!â
He turned back just in time to see you score.
Sunghoon yelled, jumping up. âYeah! That was it!â
You stared at the screen, jaw dropping. âHoly shit. Iâm amazing.â
He looked at you again, this time longer. Your eyes were glowing, still locked on the TV. Your fingers tapped at the buttons like you already got it down. You bit your lip when you were focused, tongue sticking out just slightly when you were thinking.
And you were cute. So fucking cute.
The match picked up pace. Suddenly it was 2â2, and both of you were leaning in like your lives depended on it. You were yelling at the controller. He was shouting advice. At one point, your knees knocked, but neither of you noticed. The room was loud, just your voices and the music from the game and the way your laughter filled every corner of his flat.
Then it happened.
You scored.Â
You screamed, controller tossed onto the couch, and before Sunghoon could register what was happening, your arms were around his neck, squeezing him tight as you jumped slightly in place.
âI WON! DID YOU SEE THAT?!â
He froze. Your cheek brushed his jaw, your warmth right up against him. His hands hovered midair like he didnât know whether to hold you back or not.
And then you let go, plopped back onto the couch, and grabbed the controller again like nothing had happened.
Sunghoon didnât move.
For the first time in what felt like forever, his heartbeat stuttered. Sped up like it had been woken from a long, indifferent sleep.
He sat there, silent, staring at you as you shouted at your pixelated team.
And all he could think was well thatâŠhe hadnât planned on crushing on the new girl based on one single positive interaction.
God, he was so screwed.
-
The next few days passed in a blur of almost-conversations.
You and Sunghoon didnât talk much. Not like that night. Just a few polite waves across the hallway, a quiet âheyâ if you caught the elevator at the same time. Respectful nods. The occasional awkward glance if your eyes met for too long.
And then Jake and Jay came back.
And of course, Jake being Jake, invited himself into your apartment before you could even say no.
âI missed your cooking while I was gone,â he sighed dramatically, sinking into the dining chair like heâd returned from war.
âWell, todayâs your lucky day,â you said, flipping through your assignment folder and squinting at the weekâs task. âBecause for todayâs assignment, Iâm supposed toâŠâ you paused. âMake a really mean chicken pot pie.â
Jakeâs eyes lit up. He clapped his hands, nearly tipping his chair over. âCHICKEN POT PIE?!â
Before you could even blink, he leapt up, yanked your door open, and sprinted into the hallway.
âJAY! ITâS CHICKEN POT PIE!â he yelled like it was a fire drill.
From across the hall, Jayâs voice rang out. âWHAT?! NO WAY!â
And thenâanother voice joined them.
A quieter one.
âChicken pot pie?â
You didnât even have time to react before you were suddenly hosting three grown men in your kitchen, all leaning over your counter.
âGuys,â you said, elbow-deep in flour. âI canât focus if youâre all staring at me like that.â
âWeâre just excited,â Jake grinned, chin in his hands.
âWell donât be. Iâve never made this before. It might taste like ass.â
âYour hands are basically blessed by Gordon Ramsay,â Jay declared, grabbing a slice of carrot from the cutting board. âItâs impossible for it to taste like ass.â
You laughed, the sound soft and unexpected even to yourself. âJungwon used to tell me that all the time.â
âOh he did?â Jay echoed, voice teasing.
Sunghoon stood a few steps back from the others, arms crossed loosely, leaning against your fridge. He hadnât said much since stepping into your place, but now he watched the three of you.
The way you smiled when Jay made a joke. The way Jake knew where you kept your mixing bowls. The way your eyes sparkled, just slightly, when you laughed about something from home. The way they got it. The way they knew you.
And the way he didnât.
Sunghoon couldnât explain it but it made his stomach twist. Tight and strange and uncomfortable.
And then he heard it again.
Jungwon.
Who the hell was Jungwon?
His name sounded too casual. Too affectionate. The kind of name you didnât just drop without meaning.
Sunghoon didnât say anything. He just looked down at your countertop, at the flour dusting your hands and the delicate way your fingers shaped the crust, and all he could think wasâ
Why the fuck did he care so much?
You moved around your kitchen with the kind of ease that made it impossible not to watch. Sunghoonâs eyes were locked on you, the way your hair swayed behind your back as you leaned forward to stir something in the pot, the way your sleeves were pushed up.Â
His heart pounded harder than it shouldâve. He tried to brush it off. Maybe he was just hungry. Maybe it was just the smell of garlic and butter making him lightheaded. That had to be it, right?
Except no.
He hadnât planned on feeling like this today. Not when he woke up. Not when he brushed his teeth and went on his phone and told himself heâd stay in his apartment. He hadnât even planned on coming over. And that night the two of you shared noodles? Heâd chalked it up to vulnerability. Nighttime feelings. Nothing serious.
But now it was noon. He was awake. Sober. And you were still somehow making his chest tighten just by existing within ten feet of him.
God. He hated having a crush.
He didnât even realise how lost he looked until Jake spoke up from the side, breaking the spell.
âSo, is Jungwon finally coming?â
This guy again.
Sunghoonâs head whipped toward Jake so fast it mightâve snapped his neck.
You perked up at the mention, a smile blooming across your face without even trying. âYeah! Heâs coming in two weeks! I actually told him about you guys. Heâs kinda excited to meet you.â
That smile. It wasnât fake. It wasnât forced. You looked like someone who meant it. Someone who missed this guy. Someone who talked to him often.
Sunghoon clenched his jaw and looked away, grabbing a water bottle off your counter just to do something with his hands. He twisted the cap a little too hard.
He didnât know who the hell Jungwon was.
But he already didnât like him.
âHeâs coming over?â Jay asked, his mouth still half-full of pie filling.
âYeah,â you said casually, brushing a stray hair behind your ear as you peeked into the oven. âHeâs staying at my place for the week heâs here.â
Staying at your place?
Sunghoon blinked.
He looked around your apartment, eyes scanning every corner like they were going to magically reveal a hidden guest room. But there wasnât one. You lived in a studio. Everything was in one space. Your bed, your desk, your kitchen, your couch. Except⊠there wasnât even a real couch. Just a throw-covered loveseat that barely seated two.
No air mattress in sight. No hidden folding cot. No suspicious lumpy bags that might hold a spare futon.
Just one bed.
His chest tightened.
Where the hell was Jungwon gonna sleep? With you?
He picked at the label on his water bottle, teeth grinding quietly as he stared down at the floor, like it held answers. It didnât.
He wasnât even involved with you. This shouldnât matter. It shouldnât bother him.
But it did. In the most uncomfortable, teeth-clenching, mind-racing kind of way.
-
You stood in front of the three boys, arms crossed, heart racing slightly under your apron. The chicken pot pie sat on the tableâŠgolden brown crust, just the right amount of bubbling over on the sides, the smell of thyme and butter and garlic filling your apartment.
Jake, Jay, and Sunghoon each took a spoonful at the same time like theyâd rehearsed it. You watched them, nervous, scanning their faces.
One by one, their expressions lit up. Jakeâs eyes widened, Jay let out a satisfied groan. Well⊠except Sunghoon. Of course.
He stayed still. Always unreadable. But you caught it. The tiny pause, the way his brows lifted just a fraction. He liked it. He just didnât show it like the others.
âSoââ Jake started.
âGood,â Jay finished, already reaching for more.
Your eyes flicked to Sunghoon. Somehow, his opinion was the one you were waiting on. The one you needed.
âSo?â you asked, staring at him.
He blinked. âWhat?â
âHow is it?â
âItâs good,â he said, nodding once, tone flat as ever.
Your smile dropped. You frowned. âDoesnât seem like it.â
âWhat? I just said itâs good.â
âNo, you said âgoodâ and then frowned and put your spoon down. Usually itâs âItâs good,â then a second bite. Right, boys?â
Jake nodded enthusiastically, chicken still in his mouth. âSheâs right.â
âTotally right,â Jay added, already helping himself to more.
Sunghoon rolled his eyes, leaning back slightly. âYouâre all being dramatic.â
You scoffed, insulted. âI guess you donât want seconds then. Tch.â
You clicked your tongue and turned on your heel, storming off toward the kitchen, grumbling under your breath. Your apron fluttered behind you as you moved, and you didnât look back.
Sunghoon watched your little pout, the way your shoulders stiffened, how you exaggerated every step. He didnât know why, but he liked your reaction. No, he loved it. He found it ridiculously cute. Too cute, actually. That slight wrinkle in your forehead. The way your voice got higher when you were mad. The tiny stomp in your step.
The moment your back turned, his lips twitched upward.Â
When lunch ended and the three of them stood by your front door, Jake and Jay turned to hug you dramatically.
âNever move out,â Jake said into your shoulder.
You rolled your eyes. âYouâre just saying that because you get free food.â
âAnd precisely why we donât want you to move out,â Jay replied, squeezing you once more before the two of them shuffled out, bickering as they made their way into their apartment across the hall.
Sunghoon lingered. Just behind you.
You turned, raising a brow. âArenât you leaving?â
He nodded. âYeah.â He stepped back slowly, hands in his pockets, gaze flicking to the floor before settling back on you. Then he paused. Like he wasnât sure if he should say what he was about to say.
âThe chicken pot pie was good. I thinkâŠâ he exhaled, voice quieter, âI think it was one of the best things Iâve ever had.â
You blinked, caught off guard.
âIt reminded me of home,â he added, eyes still on you now, a little softer than usual. âNot in the way where itâs about the taste or anything⊠itâs just⊠you cook like home. If that makes any sense.â
You hadnât expected that.
Your cheeks flushed immediately. You turned away before he could see it, pretending to fiddle with a dish on the counter, fingers uselessly adjusting an already-clean plate.
âThank you,â you murmured, voice low, almost shy.
He lingered for a second longer like he wanted to say more. Then he gave a quiet nod and walked out the door.
-
It was raining.
It was only 4 p.m., but the sky had turned an eerie charcoal grey, clouds rolling thick above the city. Thunder cracked so loud you felt it in your chest, and the wind howled between the buildings, slamming against your windows.
You hated this.
You hated how much you still feared storms even at your age. How useless independence felt when you were stuffing tissues in your ears and jamming earmuffs over your head like you were five again. You turned on every single light in your apartment, lamps, fairy lights, even your microwave light and cocooned yourself under your thickest blanket, barely breathing, eyes wide.
Then the whole building shuddered.
The lights flickered.
And then everything went dark.
You screamed.
Your apartment disappeared into a blanket of pitch black, shadows curling up the walls like ink. Your heart pounded. You scrambled up from the couch, tearing off your earmuffs and patting the walls with shaky hands, trying to find a light switch like that would fix anything.
âShit,â you whispered, voice trembling. âShit shit shit.â
You fumbled for your phone. A message popped up from your landlord.
âThe building is experiencing a temporary blackout due to the storm. Electricity should resume in an hour. Thank you for your patience.â
An hour? Alone? In this? In the dark? Absolutely fucking not.
You jumped at another violent crack of thunder and instantly rushed out into the hallway. Your blanket trailed behind you like a cape. You beelined for the only door you knew.
You knocked. The door swung open almost immediately.
âNo time to explain but Iâm shitting bricks here,â you said all at once.
It wasnât Jake or Jay.
It was Sunghoon.
His brows raised. âThe thunderstorm?â
You nodded frantically. âAre Jake or Jay here?â
âTheyâre asleep.â He glanced behind him, then back at you. âBut I could⊠stay with you. If you want. Until it passes.â
You hesitated.
Then thunder cracked again, louder this time, right above your building.
You flinched. âOkay,â you breathed, defeated.
The two of you sat cross-legged on your couch, sharing a single candle as your only source of light. It flickered between you, casting long, warm shadows on the walls.
âSeems like youâre scared of the thunder,â he said gently.
âWell,â you sighed, voice tight. âIâve been scared of it since I was younger. It just⊠gets to me.â
He nodded. âItâs okay.â
You noticed it thenâŠthe subtle tremble in his shoulders. He was shivering. From the cold, probably. Your heater wasnât working without electricity, and the apartment was steadily turning into a fridge. You were wrapped up like a burrito, but heâd come in without anything but a hoodie.
Feeling guilty, you shifted toward him and lifted one side of your blanket.
âUhâŠâ he looked at you like he wasnât sure if he was being pranked.
âRelax. I can see you shivering like a dog,â you muttered.
âOh.â He blinked, then grabbed the other end of the blanket and scooted in beside you.
Now under the same blanket, his body heat pressed faintly against yours. You sat side by side, knees pulled to your chests.
And then, in a whisper, he said, âYou knowâŠâ
You looked over at him, startled by the sudden softness in his voice.
âI know Iâm not as close to you as Jay and Jake are,â he said, eyes trained on the candle, âbut⊠you donât always have to find them for help.â
You blinked. âHuh?â
âIâm sayingâŠâ he sighed, eyes flicking up toward you, and then away again. âNever mind.â
âNo, what? Just spit it out.â
He exhaled through his nose like it physically hurt to get the words out. âIâm just saying⊠you could ask me for help too.â
You stared at him, your eyes adjusting to the candlelight flickering between you.
âOh,â you said softly.
There was a beat of silence. You werenât really sure what to do with that. But you didnât want to leave it hanging either.
âIâll be sure to think of you the next time,â you mumbled, barely louder than the rain still pelting the windows outside.
You felt him nod beside you.
You turned your head slowly, resting your cheek against your knees, eyes drifting toward him. His face was tilted down, lashes long and dark as they blinked now and then, just slow enough for you to notice. His jaw had softened a little. He looked calm, in a way you werenât used to seeing him.
âWould you rather have a million dollars,â you said suddenly, âor have no problems in the world?â
He blinked, confused for a second, then turned his head toward you. His chin was on his knees now too, and with the two of you curled up in the same blanket, inches apart, it felt almost like whispering under covers at a sleepover.
âWhat kind of question is that?â
âA good one,â you replied, lips twitching. âSo answer it.â
He scoffed a little under his breath. âUh⊠maybe no problems in the world?â
âSmart answer. Why?â
He paused, âI think people ruin themselves trying to solve problems that shouldnât be theirs. If I had no problems, maybe I wouldnât waste time worrying about all the stuff that doesnât matter.â
You blinked at him. That was⊠not the answer you were expecting. It was a good one. Way too good, actually.
âRight,â you said softly, giving him a small nod.
He looked at you for a second longer before his eyes flicked down. âYour turn. Would you rather go back in time or go into the future?â
You puffed your cheeks out, thinking. âHmm⊠thatâs a toughie.â
Then your eyes widened, the way they always did when you had a lightbulb moment. âGo back in time!â
âWhyâs that?â
âSo maybe Iâd really weigh the pros and cons of moving to a city where I know no one,â you said with a grin, but it faded slightly at the end.
Sunghoon stayed quiet.Â
âYou must really feel alone,â he said.
You blinked, startled. âWhat?â
âI hear you talking about it sometimes. On your balcony. When you think no oneâs listening. You talk about how moving here feels like a mistake.â
You looked away, embarrassed. âItâs not a mistake. I just⊠miss everything back home.â
âI get it,â he said after a second. âI was like you. Back when I was home, I wanted to leave so badly. Thought being somewhere else would fix everything. But now that Iâm here⊠yeah, I have Jay and Jake, and theyâre great, but sometimes I come back to the apartment and everythingâs fine and normal and stillâI just feel⊠empty. And I donât even know why.â
You didnât say anything for a long time.
You just watched him. His face had turned thoughtful, distant. His eyes unfocused, drifting somewhere past the flickering candle, past your walls, like he was staring right through the quiet that lived in his chest.
You mumbled, âWell, yeah. But⊠I also donât regret it. Not one bit.â
âReally?â
You nodded. âYeah. I meanâIâm here doing what I love. Not many people get to do that. And I made friends with three incredibly annoying people in this building.â
He turned toward you again, eyes narrowing playfully. âSo weâre friends now?â
Your cheeks heated up instantly. You glanced away, pretending to roll your eyes. âAre we not?â
He let out a low chuckle, the kind that rumbled softly at the back of his throat. âIâm glad you think we are.â
âSo,â you said, tilting your head, âdoes this mean youâll finally be nice to me now? Or is that too much character development for one night?â
Sunghoon smirked, eyes flicking to you with a teasing glint. âYou want nice? From me?â
âYeah. Like a full sentence without sarcasm. I feel like thatâs a reward Iâve earned by now.â
âYou earned a participation medal at best.â
You laughed, nudging him with your knee. âUnbelievable.â
He was already looking at you againâcloser this time.
âHold on,â he said softly, âyou have an eyelash on your cheek.â
You blinked, caught off guard. âWhat?â
Before you could move, he leaned in.
His face hovered inches from yours as his thumb brushed gently against your cheek, his touch soft but sure. The pads of his fingers were warm. His eyes, now impossibly close, scanned your face with a kind of quiet focus you hadnât felt from him before. You swallowed.
Neither of you moved.
Your gaze locked, and the space between you slowly disappearedâŠinch by inch, breath by breath. It wasnât planned. It just⊠happened.
Then suddenly, his lips were on yours.
Then it deepened. His other hand pushed the blanket off his head, dropping behind your neck to pull you in, and your hands found their way to his thighs, then to the curve of his jaw. His lips parted just enough, and your pulse jumped as he moved against you.
His hands slid to your waist. He lifted you slightly and shifted you into his lap in one smooth motion. You were now straddling him, knees on either side of his thighs, and he didnât stop kissing you, not even for a second.
The kiss grew stronger. He tilted his head, hand moving to your chin to pull you even closer, his mouth parting yours with a low inhale as his tongue brushed against yours.
Your hands moved back down, gripping at the soft cotton of his hoodie, whenâ
Click.
The lights flickered on.
You both froze.
Your faces were still inches apart.Â
You slowly pulled back, still on his lap. He blinked, eyes searching yours like he wasnât sure what just happened. Like part of him wanted to keep going, and the other part⊠couldnât believe you just kissed him like that.
You stared at each other, the silence heavy now.
His hands were still resting lightly on your waist. Yours were still fisted in the fabric of his hoodie. Both of you breathless.Â
âI need to go back home,â Sunghoon said suddenly, voice low but rushed. His eyes darted everywhere except at you.
You blinked. âRight. Of course!â you said quickly, nodding way too fast. âYeah. Noâtotally.â
He shifted awkwardly underneath you, face flushing as he cleared his throat and muttered, âProbably⊠need a pillow or something.â
It took you a second.
Then you saw the way he was subtly covering his lap with the edge of the blanket.
âOh.â Your voice came out small. You quickly scrambled off his lap, cheeks burning so hot they couldâve powered your apartment during the blackout.
âSorry,â he mumbled, already halfway to your door.
And then, Sunghoon stormed out of your apartment.
-
It had been a couple of days since you last properly spoke to Sunghoon. Not for lack of trying. You hadâŠmore than once. But each time, heâd give you a quick nod, maybe a polite smile if you were lucky, before promptly power-walking away.
Maybe he just wasnât feeling what you were feeling. Maybe that kiss was a fluke, something in the heat of the moment. Maybe your little new crush was painfully one-sided.
But you pushed it aside. You had bigger things to focus on.
Jungwon was coming today.
Youâd spent the entire morning rearranging your apartment, cleaning it from top to bottom, fluffing cushions and spraying perfume not just on yourself but into the air like it could somehow mask how nervous you were. You even did your hair the way he liked it, soft curls and a side part.
And then, there he was.
The door swung open and your best friend stood in the hallway, suitcase in hand and a grin already on his face.
âWON!â you squealed, running up to him and leaping into his arms.
âHello, idiot,â he said, his voice fond as he hugged you back, lifting you off the ground with ease.
The shout mustâve startled the boys in 3C, because right on cue, the door across the hall creaked open and out came Jake and Jay, both peeking out.
They spotted you clinging to Jungwon like a koala.
You beamed. âGuys! Itâs him!â
âThe famous Jungwon,â Jay said, nodding in approval as he stepped out.
âAnd you must be Jake and Jay,â Jungwon said smoothly, setting you down.
Then came the third.
Sunghoon.
He didnât move from the doorway. Just stood there, arms crossed, expression unreadable.
Jungwon turned to him, a friendly smile still on his lips, chuckling. âYou must be Sunghoon, then.â
Sunghoonâs gaze narrowed slightly. âWhatâs so funny?â
Jungwon blinked, caught off guard. âNothing,â he said, clearing his throat. âShe just⊠told me you were like this.â
âLike what?â Sunghoon asked sharply, the scoff nearly audible in his tone.
Jungwon scratched the back of his neck. âNothing. She just said you were cool,â he said with a shrug, throwing you a teasing look.
Sunghoon rolled his eyes.
You stood there, suddenly awkward, unsure what the hell had crawled up Sunghoonâs ass. The hostility was as thick as the tension in the air and you hadnât done anything. Not really.
At least you didnât think you had.
Just stood there, arms crossed, a stiff expression on his face while Jake and Jay welcomed Jungwon like he was already part of the group. Jungwon, ever the social butterfly, fit in easily, throwing a few jokes around, complimenting the apartment despite its questionable decor, and even teasing Jake about the ugly dinosaur pyjamas he was wearing in broad daylight.
But Sunghoon?
He was frowning the entire time.
You couldnât figure it out. His jaw was tight, his responses were clipped, and every time Jungwon so much as glanced your way, you saw Sunghoonâs eye twitch.
You walked back to your apartment with Jungwon beside you, chatting excitedly about dinner plans and all the places he wanted to visit during his stay. But when you turned back, just for a second, you caught Sunghoon still watching. Still standing in the hallway.
His arms were still crossed.
And he didnât look away.
-
Sunghoon stood there, arms folded across his chest like they were the only things keeping him together. He stared ahead blankly, jaw tight, doing everything in his power not to glare a hole through the wall. He wasnât sure what he was feeling.
Sure, he knew he had a crush on you. Heâd known since the chicken pot pie, probably. Or maybe since you wrapped that blanket around his shoulders. Or maybe long before that. But what he didnât know was who the fuck Jungwon was, and why he was walking into your apartment.
âDude,â Jake muttered, throwing him a sideways look. âYou couldâve at least smiled.â
âI did,â Sunghoon growled, not bothering to hide his scowl.
Jay snorted. âThat was barely a smile. You looked like you were in the middle of passing a kidney stone.â
âWhy do I even have to be nice?â Sunghoon snapped. âI donât know him.â
âBecause your crushâs boyfriend just came into town,â Jake replied, like it was the most obvious thing in the world.
Sunghoon's head snapped to him so fast youâd think he got whiplash. âBoyfriend?â
Jay raised a brow. âNot denying the crush though.â
Sunghoon ignored him. âLet me ask you again. Boyfriend?â
Jake shrugged. âI mean⊠yeah, I guess?â
âWhat the fuck do you mean you guess?â Sunghoon hissed, dragging a hand down his face. âHe canât be her boyfriend.â
âBut he is,â Jay said with a shrug and an infuriatingly smug smile.
âNo, heâs not. He canât be. Because she and IâŠâ he paused, realising too late what was about to fall out of his mouth. ââŠkissed. Three nights ago.â
Jakeâs mouth dropped open. Jay blinked.
âIâm sorry, what?â Jake finally blurted.
âNothing,â Sunghoon muttered quickly, suddenly desperate to eat his words.
âYou canât say nothing when you just said everything!â Jake shouted, grabbing Sunghoonâs shoulders and shaking him.
âTell us right now!â Jay begged dramatically, gripping his own hair.
Sunghoon rolled his eyes, flustered. âIâweâkissed. Thatâs it.â
Jay blinked. âYou know we were kidding about the boyfriend thing, right?â
Jake grinned. âJungwonâs just her best friend.â
âWe just wanted to see if youâd admit you liked her,â Jay added, eyes sparkling with way too much joy. âWhich you did.â
âNo, I didnât,â Sunghoon argued weakly. âI just said we kissed.â
âOkay, Mr Visceral Reaction every time we mention Jungwon,â Jake teased.
Jay smirked. âSay it. Say you like her.â
Sunghoon groaned, eyes shut tight as if the ceiling could swallow him whole. Then, finallyâquietly, begrudginglyâ
âOkay. So what if I like her?â
Jay and Jake immediately turned to each other with identical gasps, smacking each otherâs arms excitedly.
âOh my god, he admitted it,â Jay whispered dramatically.
Jake clutched his chest. âItâs happening.â
âYou guys are disgusting,â Sunghoon groaned, pinching the bridge of his nose. âAnd if you keep acting like this, Iâm never telling you anything again.â
âOkay, okay.â Jake raised both hands, trying to suppress a grin. âWeâll behave.â
âBUT IâM SO EXCITED,â Jay squealed.
Jake smacked him on the shoulder. âStarting now.â
Jay nodded solemnly, rubbing his arm. âSorry. That one slipped.â
Sunghoon sighed and leaned against the counter, arms crossed again. âI started liking her last month⊠when you guys went back home for the week. She cooked me stir-fried noodles, and we ate together. Played FIFA. I donât know. I just⊠developed a crush on her.â
âThatâs so cute,â Jay and Jake said in unison, stars in their eyes.
âSeriously, can the two of you act normal for like three minutes?â
Jake shrugged, still smiling. âI just didnât expect you to have a girlfriend before me.â
Jay patted his shoulder. âYouâll get there, buddy.â
Jake tilted his head. âYou think?â
âYeah, you have nice eyes. Great personality.â
Jake beamed. âThatâs so kind.â
âCan we please get back to my problem for like a minute?â Sunghoon cut in, glaring at both of them.
âOh. Right.â
Jay cleared his throat and finally looked serious. âLook. We like her. Sheâs hilarious, and she makes good fucking food. And letâs be real, youâve never liked anyone. Weâve been trying to get you to double date with us for years and you just stare at your phone all the time. But with her? Youâre like... a guy with actual feelings.â
âBut now Iâm losing to Jung⊠whatever his name is.â Sunghoon sighed.
âJungwon,â Jake said. âAnd no, youâre not.â
âHow do you know she doesnât like him?â Sunghoon muttered, staring down at the floor.
âBecause,â Jay said, âif she did, she wouldnât have kissed you.â
âUnless sheâs indecisive or confused or something. I donât know.â Sunghoon exhaled hard, running a hand through his hair. âMaybe I was just⊠a moment. And heâs her person.â
Jake shook his head. âIâm telling youâjust talk to her.â
âYeah,â Jay added. âBefore you spiral even harder and start writing love songs about her. But if you do, I haved like a couple of guitars you could borrow.â
Sunghoon rolled his eyes. But somewhere, deep down⊠a part of him hoped they were right.
-
You were pacing back and forth on your cheap IKEA rug, while Jungwon was laid out dramatically on your bed, arms folded behind his head, thoroughly enjoying the show.
âIâm telling you, heâs avoiding me,â you snapped, pointing an accusatory finger at no one in particular. âWe kissedâKISSED, Jungwonâand now he wonât even look at me! I wave, he nods. I say hi, he nods. I breathe in his direction, heâguess whatânods!â
Jungwon hummed, annoyingly calm. âMaybe heâs nervous. Or maybe he wants you to go to him.â
âI do go to him! And then he speed-walks away like Iâm the plague!â You groaned, pressing your fingers to your temples. âIâm gonna lose it.â
âMaybeâŠâ he tapped his chin thoughtfully, âyouâre just a shit kisser.â
You whipped around and chucked a throw pillow directly at his smug face.
âAsshole.â
He caught it with a grin, clutching it to his chest dramatically. âIâm just saying. Maybe you scared him off.â
âYouâre lucky I havenât strangled you with this blanket,â you muttered, grabbing another pillow just in case.
Jungwon sat up, brushing imaginary dust off his shirt. âYou know, sometimes I forget we grew up together because youâre so unpredictable now.â
âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
He snorted. âYou used to be fearless. Remember that Heeseung guy you had a crush on in middle school?â
You blinked. âWhat about him?â
âYou were six, and you walked up to him at recess, said âI like your lunchbox,â then kissed his cheek and ran off.â
âAh,â you said flatly, âthe good old days. That girlâs dead now.â
âSheâs not dead,â Jungwon argued, grabbing your wrists and tugging you to sit beside him on the bed. âSheâs just⊠overthinking everything. Look, if Sunghoon doesnât like youâwhatever. But if he does? Youâre missing out just because youâre too chicken to tell him.â
You glared. âI hate it when you make sense.â
âI know.â He grinned. âItâs my worst trait.â
âI justââ you exhaled, flopping back beside him. âWhat if it ruins everything? We literally just got closer. What if I say something and it all goes to shit?â
âOkay, counter-offer.â He sat up straighter. âYou tell him, or I will. I will walk down the hallway, knock on his door, and go âHi, my best friend has feelings for you, she also has performance anxiety but can cook a great bowl of chicken noodle soup.ââ
âYou wouldnât,â you hissed, swatting at his arm.
âThen do it yourself!â he laughed, dodging your attacks. âBefore I start printing flyers and pasting them in the apartment lobby.â
God. Why did he always have to be right?
âFine.â
Your hand was already on the doorknob, breath caught in your throat, just about to leave when the door across from yours had swung open at the exact same time.
And there he was.
Sunghoon.
You both froze, hands still gripping the doorknobs, blinking.
You cleared your throat first. âSunghoon.â
He blinked like he hadnât already been staring. âWhat?â
You squinted. âIs that the only word you know how to say when I call your name?â
He paused. âSorry.â
You opened your mouth to say something else but were rudely interrupted by muffled snorts from behind Sunghoon. Jay and Jakeâs heads popped out from their doorway like nosy meerkats.
âHoon,â Jay said in a loud, exaggerated voice, âwe need more eggs.â
âDesperately,â Jake added, nodding like this was a national emergency. âGo to the store.â
Then Jungwon peeked out from behind you with an equally suspicious grin. âOh, and while youâre there, can you grab some ice cream too?â
You and Sunghoon looked at each other.
âWhat is happening right now,â you said flatly.
Before either of you could respond, four hands shoved the both of you toward the elevator. You stumbled in, the doors sliding shut just as Jay yelled out, âDonât come back without snacks!â
The elevator stopped at your floor.
Your shoulders brushed as you stood side by side, awkwardly watching the floor numbers light up.
Then, finally, you broke it. âAbout that dayââ
Sunghoon shook his head quickly. âDonât worry about it. I wonât tell Jungwon.â
You blinked. âWhat do you mean you wonât tell Jungwon?â
He looked away. âWell, arenât you like⊠crushing on him? I wouldnât want what we did to, you know⊠ruin your chances or something.â
Your entire face scrunched up. âWon and I? What? Ew. God, no. Weâre friends. We grew up together. Thinking about him that way would be like incest or something.â
And just like that, Sunghoon felt like heâd been hit by a shooting star and given a second chance at life. His heart did a full backflip. You were single. You were available.Â
He couldnât help it. He smiled.
âWhy do you suddenly look so happy?â you asked, eyeing him suspiciously.
âIâm not.â
âYouâre literally smiling.â
âIâm not.â
âWeâve hung out a couple of times and if Iâm being honest, Iâve never seen you smile thisââ
âCut it out.â He tried to brush it off, biting back the grin. âIâm just glad.â
âGlad about?â
âGlad that I didnât ruin your chances,â he said nonchalantly, looking up like he hadnât just panicked thirty seconds ago.
âMhm.â You narrowed your eyes at him, the golden-orange glow of the sunset casting warmth across his cheekbones. He was handsome. Frustratingly so. âWell⊠because I actually like this other guy.â
Sunghoonâs smile faltered.
âI havenât known him that long,â you continued casually, âbut he seems cool. I donât really know much about him yet.â
âThatâs⊠nice.â Sunghoon turned away quickly, jaw tight. He was definitely grimacing. Please donât let her see that Iâm grimacing, he begged internally.
âYeah, heâs really tall. Really handsome, too.â
âThatâs justâŠâ he exhaled. âGreat.â
âHe doesnât seem super friendly but he has a big heart. Even if he tries really hard not to show it.â
âSeems like a swell fuckinâ guy,â he muttered bitterly.
âItâs a pity though,â you sighed dramatically, still watching him. âI wish I could get to know him better.â
âWell⊠anyoneâs lucky to get to know you.â He tried to smile. It didnât reach his eyes. âI know I am.â
You tilted your head. âNot to mention⊠he lives really close to me.â
Sunghoonâs eyes darted to you. âHe does?â
âMhm.â You nodded, heartbeat accelerating.
âLike how close?â
You took a slow step toward him. âLike⊠just across the hall close.â
âOh.â He blinked. âThat close.â
Silence settled in the small elevator. You both just stood there, not looking at each other, tension hanging in the air like humidity.
Then, out of nowhereâ
âIâm just saying,â Sunghoon said, dead serious, âbut Jake sleeps with the lights on and Jay doesnât wash his hair as often as you think he does.â
You blinked. âHuh?â
âI sleep normal,â he added quickly. âI wash my hair. I do proper haircareâshampoo, conditioner, mask, mist. I could do your routine too. For you. If you want.â
You stared.
âI canât cook, but Iâll try. I can figure skate. I can spin twice in the air. Jay and Jake? Not even one spin. Jay can play guitar, Jake can sing but I can spin, okay? Without getting dizzy too.â
âSunghoon.â
âAnd those idiots never clean up after eating your food. Jay doesnât use coasters. Jake never makes his bed.â
âSUNGHOON!â
He looked at you, breathless. âWhat?â
You stepped forward. Slowly. Then, you mumbled, âItâs you.â
He blinked. âWhat?â
âI like you.â
And for once, Park Sunghoon had absolutely nothing to say.
âOkay,â he said. âCool. Okay. Iâwow. Okay.â
You raised a brow. âThatâs it?â
He nodded dumbly. âNo. Yes. I donât know. I justâholy shit. You like me.â
You smirked, the smile slowly stretching across your face. âYes. I like you.â
The elevator dinged. Neither of you moved.
He looked at you again, still dazed. âHold on, I kinda need a minute.â
You both stepped out into the empty lobby. The sun outside had just dipped below the skyline, casting a pinkish-orange glow through the glass doors. The streetlights flickered on. But you waited.
âItâs been a minute,â you said.
âI know,â he exhaled, hand raking through his hair. âBut you like me back, so I kinda need, like⊠a long minute.â
âBack?â You grinned, the corners of your mouth lifting all the way to your eyes. âSo you like me too?â
He nodded slowly. âYeah. I thought it was obvious from the, uh⊠word vomit.â
âWell yeah,â you shrugged. âBut I didnât want to assume. Didnât wanna be narcissistic.â
âI think even if you were,â he muttered, âIâd still think you were pretty cute.â
You blinked. âDid you justââ
âGross, I know,â he said quickly, face flushing. âI just said that out loud, didnât I?â
You laughed. âYeah. But you kinda canât take it back now.â
âFine,â he said, pretending to groan. âYouâre cute. Ugh. I said it again.â
-
A MONTH LATER
Jay and Jake found it fundamentally unfair. They were the ones who got close to you first. They were the ones who complimented you, made you laugh, showed up when you needed help. They loved you first or at least, thatâs what they told themselves. But here you were, doors locked for the first time in three months, cooking a full-course meal for Sunghoon to celebrate your one-month anniversary.
âYouâre not allowed to come,â Sunghoon told them flatly before slamming the door shut.
âButâ!â they shouted in unison, already mourning the steak they wouldnât get to taste.
Word on the hallway was that you were cooking the perfect medium-rare T-bone steak, paired with your signature brown sauce and a vegetable medley so crunchy and flavourful. Meanwhile, Jay and Jake sat hunched on the couch, scrolling through a food delivery app.
âIsnât it funny,â Jake said, arms folded, âhow we were the ones who befriended her first, and now weâre stuck with Burger King?â
âLifeâs unfair, bud.â
Back in your apartment, things were a little more romantic. Youâd decorated with fairy lights and candles, the room dimly lit. You were still being frugal, splitting every cost you could. But youâd managed to steal two T-bone steaks from the diner you part-timed at.
Sunghoon showed up in a black and white tuxedo, looking like heâd taken the prom theme you had placed as a joke a little too seriously.
âYou look absolutely gorgeous,â he said, leaning down to press a kiss to your cheek.
âAnd you look absolutely handsome,â you grinned.
He walked over to the table and took in the spread. âOkay, what do we have?â
âI made the steaks, obviously, and then thereâs the vegetable medley⊠and your favouriteâmashed potatoes,â you giggled.
Sunghoon exhaled, shaking his head with a disbelieving smile. âHow did I get so lucky?â
You shrugged. âI donât know either.â
He laughed. âThe guys are pissed, by the way. You made me all this, and theyâre over there with cold fries.â
âWhat?â you said, surprised. âI made them something too! Donât worry.â
âYou did?â he raised a brow.
âI had a feeling theyâd be hungry if you were over here.â
âBabe, you didnât have to do that. Theyâre grown men.â
âYeah, but technically my assignment this week was pasta and I have too many leftovers.â
âTheyâre spoiled by you.â
âAnd so are you.â
âTrue, but Iâm your boyfriend. Theyâre just two annoying shitheads constantly trying to butt in.â
âIâll be quick. Iâll just drop the dish off and come back.â
âNo,â he said, standing. âIâll do it. You stay here.â
He kissed your forehead, grabbing the lasagna youâd tucked into the fridge. âYouâre too sweet, you know that?â
âHe walked across the hall and opened the door to Unit 3C.
Inside, Jay was mid-rant. âI just donât get it. Sunghoon isnât even that hot.â
âI mean, he is,â Jake added, âbut she deserves better, you know?â
Sunghoon cleared his throat. âI can hear you two idiots.â
They both froze, turning around sheepishly. âWe were just joking. We love you, man.â
He held up the dish. âAnd to think I came here bearing gifts from my girlfriend.â
Jakeâs eyes widened. âWaitâis that lasagna?â
âShe felt bad we were eating good without you, so she made you dinner.â
âOh my god,â Jay gasped. âSunghoon, I donât mean to be pushy, but please marry her.â
âI canât,â Sunghoon muttered. âNot when you two are constantly inserting yourselves into my relationship.â
âOkay, okay, weâll back off. Justâcan we have the lasagna?â
âAnd can you tell her we love her?â
âI am not telling my girlfriend you love her,â Sunghoon snapped. âIâve barely worked up the nerve to tell her that myself.â
âWait,â Jake said suddenly, âyou havenât told her you love her yet?â
âItâs only been a month.â
âSo⊠you donât love her?â
âI do,â Sunghoon replied, almost too quickly. âI just donât want to come on too strong if sheâs not ready.â
Jay and Jake shared a glance before shrugging.
âWhat?â Sunghoon asked, frowning. âWhy are you looking at me like that?â
Jake cleared his throat. âItâs just⊠she already said it.â
Sunghoon looked up. âWhat?â
âYeah,â Jake replied casually. âYou texted her about picking up those heat packs for her cramps, and she went all soft and whispered, âGod, I love him so much.â Her words. Not mine.â
Sunghoon stood frozen in the doorway, the dish in his hands suddenly weightless.
You loved him.
âSo⊠youâre saying I should tell her?â he asked, voice quiet, almost unsure.
Jay and Jake both nodded enthusiastically. âDefinitely. Especially if it makes her our sister-in-law,â Jay added, grinning.
Sunghoon rolled his eyes. âGod, the two of you can be so annoying.â
âBut you still love us,â Jay shrugged. âSo whatâs the point of complaining?â
He hated that Jay was right.
Back in your apartment, Sunghoon sat across from you, completely transfixed. You were dressed in a soft pink satin dress that shimmered every time you moved. It hugged your shoulders delicately, the neckline simple, elegant. Your hair was curled softly, pinned loosely on one side with a vintage clip, and your lips were glossed just enough to make him stare longer than he shouldâve.
And God, you looked so beautiful.
He tried to pay attention. He really did. But his heart was too loud, his thoughts too full. How was he supposed to say it?
Sunghoon had never told anyone he loved them before. Not seriously. Maybe to his mom years ago, right before he left for the city. But this? This felt entirely new.
Because sitting in front of him was someone who made every quiet part of his life feel loud again. You filled in the spaces he didnât even know were missing. You made his apartment feel less cold, his world a little less grey. And the way he loved youâGod, it wasnât something small. It wasnât a flicker or a passing crush. It was all-consuming and terrifying and the best damn thing heâd ever felt.
He loved you like it was muscle memory. Like even if he forgot everything else, his hands would still reach for yours and only yours.
âHoonie,â you interrupted gently, frowning. âYouâre not listening.â
He blinked back into focus. âSorry,â he murmured, smile tugging at the corners of his lips. âI was just thinking about something.â
âWhat?â you looked up at him, ur big eyes shining.Â
Sunghoon unknowingly smiled, his eyes dripping with honey, god he loved you. He wanted to say that. So badly.
âIâŠI justâuhâfeelâŠthat,â His voice trailed off. âYou look really beautiful tonight. I mean, you always do. But especially tonight.â He hesitated, the words stuck behind his teeth.
You smiled. âThank you. You look very handsome too.â
-
Later that night, the two of you were in Sunghoonâs apartment along with Jay and Jake for the usual game night.Â
You were sitting cross-legged on the floor, your prom-night dress bunched awkwardly around your knees, mascara slightly smudged from earlier laughter, hair pinned half-up. Sunghoon sat slouched in the beanbag beside you, tie loosened, sleeves rolled up, brow furrowed in concentration. Jake was lying on his stomach, legs swinging in the air, and Jay had somehow made himself horizontal on the couch.
You and Jake were a team. Sunghoon and Jay were not handling that well.
âRevive me!â Sunghoon yelled.
Jay shouted back, âIâm busy trying not to die, dumbass!â
Button mashing intensified. Trash talk flew across the room.
âVICTORY!â Jake screamed, leaping up like a madman.
You followed suit, springing to your feet and clambering up onto the coffee table in your dress. âGET WRECKED, LOSERS!â you yelled, pointing dramatically at Sunghoon. âTHATâS RIGHT, LOSERS!â
Jake joined you on the table, doing a badly timed robot dance. The two of you jumped in sync, yelling in triumph, while Jay groaned into a throw pillow and Sunghoon watched with a hand covering his mouth, half to hide his smile, half to suppress a laugh.
âYouâre all bark, no bite!â you called, face flushed, hair falling loose. âYour character died fourteen times, Hoonie.â
âI let you win!â he shot back, grinning as he sat up straighter. âI was being a gentleman.â
âSure,â you scoffed, sticking your tongue out at him. âReal chivalrous of you, sir died-14-fucking-times.â
He chuckled under his breath, eyes lingering on you for a second longer than usual. Then, without a word, he stood and walked out of the room.
You blinked. That was...odd.Â
You gave Jake a gentle shove off the table and followed Sunghoon into the hallway. He was pacing outside, one hand in his hair, the other fiddling with the watch on his wrist.
âHoon?â you asked, stepping out and gently closing the door behind you.
He jumped slightly, turning toward you. âYou scared me.â
âYou okay? You just left so suddenâŠâ
âIâuhâyeah. I was just trying to figure out how to say something.â
You tilted your head, arms crossing over your chest. âSay what?â
âNothing,â he mumbled with a shrug.
Your expression softened. âAre you mad at me?â You sighed. Maybe your little victory dance had been a bit much. âHoonie?â
âNo, baby, I could never be mad at you,â he said quickly, leaning down to press a kiss to your forehead.
âThen whatâs wrong?â
âNothing, I justâŠâ
You stepped closer, teasing lightly, âDo you want me to redo my victory dance? I could. You just have to beatbox, and Iâll take it from there.â
That made him laugh.
âCome on,â you grinned, starting to move your body in the most ridiculous way. âIâm pretty sure I shouldâve been a dancer instead of a chef.â
He laughed again, this time louder and then, before he could stop himself, the words slipped out.
âOh my god, I love you.â
You blinked. Your smile faded. Your brain, for one impossible second, completely short-circuited.
âDid you just say you love me?â you asked, heart hammering.
His eyes widened in sheer panic. âNo?â
âI heard it.â
âYou misheard.â
âOh my god,â you gasped, practically vibrating. âYou love me. You love me!â
âFine!â he burst out, throwing his hands up like he was under arrest. âI do! I love you, okay?â
You smiled, âYou do?â
âOf course! I love the way you talk too fast when youâre excited. I love how you make my idiot friends feel like they matter. I love that you make me feel whole. That when Iâm with you, I donât feel hollow anymore. You⊠you make me feel like Iâm not empty.â
You grinned so wide it hurt. âThatâs because youâre not.â
âI used to be,â he said helplessly, gesturing vaguely like he was mourning his past self. âI was mysterious. Brooding. Sexy, even. And now? Now I smile at cat videos you send me on TikTok. Look what youâve done to me. This is all your fault.â
You scoffed, âMy fault?â
âYes! Who else could it be?â he said, breathless, like the truth had been waiting at the edge of his tongue for too long. âYou walk into my life with that stupidly perfect smile, that laugh that makes everything feel lighter, those eyes that somehow hold the whole damn sky and now Iâve got feelings. Big ones.â
He took a shaky breath, pausing for a minute.
âI used to think I was fine on my own. But now? I get out of bed just because I know I might see you. I hear your knock and my whole day lights up. For the first time, I feel like I know what living really means. Itâs you. Loving you. Thatâs it.â
You leaned in and kissed him right in the middle of his rant.
He blinked, dazed.
âYou sure talk a lot for someone who usually says nothing,â you murmured, forehead resting against his.
âI do it when Iâm nervous,â Sunghoon whispered, and then kissed you again.
âI find it cute,â you mumbled between kisses.
Sunghoon grinned into the next kiss, backing you up step by step toward your apartment door, his hands finding your waist. âGod,â kiss âI love you,â another kiss âso much.â
You let out a breathless laugh. âYouâre very handsy for someone who claimed to be brooding and mysteriou.â
âI told you,â he whispered, lips brushing your jaw as he reached behind you, fumbling for the door handle, âyou ruined me.â
Your back hit the door with a thud. He fumbled with the knob like he was drunk on you, eventually pushing it open and guiding you inside.
He kicked the door shut with the back of his foot.
You were still laughing into his kiss. He walked you backward until your knees hit the bed and you dropped onto it with a squeak.
He climbed over you, hands on either side of your waist, face flushed, heart in his throat.
âI fucking love you,â he said again, like it wasnât real until he repeated it.
You wrapped your arms around his neck, eyes sparkling. âI love you too.â
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u talk, i listen
summary: youâre loud, dramatic, and one emotional spiral away from a breakdown. heâs quiet, calm, and allergic to unnecessary words. at first, you drive him insane but maybe thatâs part of your charm. you make the chaos, and he makes sure you donât burn the whole world down with it.
genre: fluff | hyper gf x calm bf
characters: sunghoon x f!reader
words: 13k
warnings: none i think!
The first time you met Park Sunghoon, youâre pretty sure he hates you.
To be fair, it was your first day, and Ni-kiâwho you knew for exactly ten minutesâtold you pressing the green button on the espresso machine would help "wake it up."
It did not.
Instead, it made the machine scream, shoot steam into your face, and sent you stumbling backward with a noise that sounded suspiciously like a dying goose. A tray of croissants nearly went down with you.
âOH MY GODâNi-ki!â a voice shrieked from somewhere near the pastry display.
You coughed, flailed, and possibly cried, when someone silently reached past you and switched the machine off with a flick of his wrist. No words. Just calm, collected competence. The kind that makes you feel even more like a human disaster.
You looked upâand saw him. Park Sunghoon.
Heâs quiet. Like, unnervingly quiet. Dressed in black from head to toe with his sleeves rolled just enough to show his veins (rude), and eyes that flick to you once before looking away again. Not a single word. Just a blank expression like youâre a fly heâs choosing not to swat.
âDonât mind him,â Sunoo said, swooping in with a comforting hand on your shoulder. âThatâs Sunghoon. He doesnât talk much, but heâs not mean. I promise.â
âI didnât say he was mean,â you muttered, still trying to rearrange the croissants you nearly obliterated.
âYou thought it, though,â Sunoo grinned, like heâs already read your soul.
Meanwhile, Ni-ki was cackling in the corner, filming your breakdown for "training purposes."
Sunghoon, still wordless, wiped the steam wand clean, glanced once at the mess youâve made, thenâfinallyâmuttered, âYou shouldnât listen to Ni-ki.â
His voice was soft, low. Dangerous. Like he only spoke when absolutely necessary.
You blinked. âThanks for the early intel.â
He looked at you again. Longer this time.
And then, he walked away.
No other words. Just disappeared behind the back counter like you were the one who interrupted his day.
ââŠSo anyway!â Sunoo chirped, practically dragging you away, âLetâs get you trained before you break anything else, hmm?â
You glanced back once, just in time to see Sunghoon glance over his shoulder at you.
He looked away first.
And for some reason⊠that annoyed you.
â
Youâd worked four shifts now. Sunoo was basically your fairy godmother, Ni-ki was your unpaid therapist-slash-chaos agent, and Sunghoon?
Sunghoon was still a cardboard box with perfect skin.
He didnât talk to you unless he had to. Didnât smile unless he was laughing at something Sunoo said. Didnât even look at you unless you were actively on fire, and even then, you werenât sure heâd do more than mildly raise an eyebrow.
Which was extra annoying because somehow he was also weirdly funny. When he talked to Ni-ki or Sunoo, heâd drop the driest one-liners out of nowhere, and suddenly everyone was on the floor laughing. You tried to talk to him? Nothing. Crickets. Maybe a blink, if you were lucky.
You were cleaning the counter one evening when you caught him saying something to Ni-ki, low and casual, and Ni-ki absolutely lost it.
âOkay, that was actually good,â Sunoo wheezed. âWhere was that energy earlier when she knocked over the milk?â
âShe was already dying,â Sunghoon replied. âDidnât need to bury her.â
Your head snapped up. âExcuse me?!â
He looked at you, slow and lazy, like he was surprised you heard. âItâs a compliment.â
âHow is that a compliment?â
He shrugged. âYouâre resilient.â
You stared. âIâwhatâresilient?! I tripped over my own shoelace!â
âI noticed.â
Sunoo clapped a hand over his mouth like he was about to implode.
You blinked at Sunghoon. He blinked back.
You narrowed your eyes. âYouâre soââ
He lifted a brow. âYouâre loud.â
You opened your mouth, but Sunoo threw an arm around your shoulders like he was trying to defuse a bomb.
âOkayyy! Letâs all take a breath,â he sang. âSome of us process friendship through gentle banter and others process it by⊠doing whatever it is Sunghoon does... verbal sparring?â
âIâm not sparring,â Sunghoon said, already walking away.
You glared at his back. âYou never spar. You just vanish.â
âExactly,â he called over his shoulder.
You looked at Sunoo. âI donât get him.â
Sunoo just smiled. âYou will.â
You really thought you wouldnâtâuntil God bestowed upon you a tragic prophecy, disguised as the cafĂ© schedule for the following week.
MonâFri Closing Shift (5PMâ11PM): YOU + SUNGHOON
You stared and blinked, rubbed your eyes, tried processing.
Sunghoon saw it at the same time you did.
ââŠNo,â he said flatly.
You crossed your arms. âWow. Good to see you too.â
âSunoo,â he called toward the kitchen. âSwitch me. Please.â
âNope!â Sunooâs voice floated back. âYouâll thank me later!â
You both stared at the schedule like it had personally offended you. Thenâslowlyâat each other.
This was going to be a long week.
â
Monday was⊠quiet.
You tried to make conversationâabout the playlist, the new coffee beans, even the weatherâbut Sunghoon gave you absolutely nothing. Just a few nods and hums, like you were a podcast playing in the background.
You swore he spent more time restocking stirrers than actually speaking to you.
You huffed under your breath, finding him impossible to work with. The shift felt ten hours longer than it actually was, and you were convinced the silence was slowly killing your soul.
As the evening dragged on, you caught him sitting at the back counter, pulling out a laptop in between cleaning duties. You tried not to be nosyâbut it was hard not to peek.
Tabs upon tabs of schoolwork were open on his screenâassignments, lecture slides, even a color-coded spreadsheet. You blinked. Huh. Sunghoon was more hardworking than youâd expected. You thought he was just the type to show up, do his job, and disappear back into the voidâbut here he was, typing away like the shift never even ended.
You munched on your dinner, a sad slice of pizza you grabbed from down the street during your break. The cheese had hardened and the crust was borderline cardboard, but it was food. You leaned against the counter, chewing quietly, when you realizedâ
Sunghoon hadnât eaten anything. Not since the two of you started at five.
You watched him from the corner of your eye, fingers tapping against his keyboard, face unreadable in the glow of his screen.
You opened your mouth. âHey, do youââ But you stopped yourself. Closed it again.
Heâd probably just get annoyed. Or say no in that flat, disinterested way of his. And then youâd feel stupid. Still, you kept glancing over at him, stealing quick looks in between bites. At one point, you noticed his hands pressing lightly against his stomach, like he was trying to ignore it. His expression didnât change, but the movement said enough.
He was probably hungry. You looked down at the last bite of pizza in your hand and sighed.
Tuesday, you decided, would be different.
Tuesday, you showed up with an extra sandwich from the convenience store.
You didnât say anything. Just slid it across the counter around 7PM, because the night before, he hadnât eaten dinner and you werenât about to let him pass out mid-espresso pull.
He stared at the sandwich. Then at you.
You raised a brow. âYou didnât eat yesterday.â
He blinked. ââŠOkay.â
âYouâre welcome.â
You didnât hear a thank you. But he didnât give it back either.
Progress.
Wednesday, there was a cup of noodles in your locker.
Just sitting there. No note. No explanation. Just⊠sitting.
You marched up to Sunghoon, holding it in your hands like evidence. âDid you put this in my locker?â
He looked at the cup noodle. Then at you. Then blinked, deadpan. ââŠNo.â
âReally.â
He shrugged.
You squinted at him.
He walked away.
You were this close to launching the noodle at the back of his head. Instead, you ate it. And maybe smiled. A little.
Thursday, you both brought each other dinner. At the same time.
You froze at the counter, holding out your plastic bag just as he set his down.
ââŠI got you something,â you said.
He stared at your bag. Then gestured to his. âSo did I.â
You glanced at each other, at the food, and then away.
âThanks,â you muttered.
He nodded. âMm.â
You caught the tiniest tug at the corner of his mouth as he turned around.
You smiled too. But only when he wasnât looking.
Friday, you didnât expect anything. You were restocking the fridge when you heard it:
âHey.â
You turned around, startled. âWhat?â
Sunghoon was standing there, one hand on the fridge door, the other in his pocket. His voice was quiet, like he was testing it out on you for the first time.
âIâuh,â he started, eyes flicking to yours, then away. âYou always wear that hair clip. The pink one. With the sparkles.â
You blinked. âYeah?â
He nodded slowly. âI thought it was dumb at first.â
âOkayâŠ?â
âBut now itâs kindaâŠâ He paused, scratched the back of his neck. âI dunno. Cute, I guess.â
You stared at him.
âForget it,â he muttered, moving past you.
âNo wait,â you said, stepping into his path, a slow grin spreading across your face. âDid you just say Iâm cute?â
He didnât look at you. âI said the clip is cute.â
âThat Iâm wearing.â
âThat doesnât meanââ
âSunghoon thinks Iâm cute~â you sang, spinning in a circle while he groaned and walked away.
But you caught itâright before he turned around completely.
The smile. The real one.
And for the first time all week, you were pretty sure⊠he might have liked you back.
The silence didnât feel heavy anymore. It wasnât awkward. Just quiet. Comfortable. Like a pause instead of a wall.
You were sweeping. He was mopping. The usual end-of-shift rhythm. You hummed a song under your breathâsomething from the cafĂ© playlist that had been looping for hours. He didnât comment on it this time. Just kept mopping in sync with you.
The air smelled like cleaning solution and vanilla syrup. The lights were dimmed to their soft closing hour glow. Outside, the city buzzed quietly under the street lamps.
Then you heard itâhis voice. Low. Careful.
âI hear youâre starting college soon.â
You blinked, glancing up from your broom. He wasnât looking at you, just focusing on a coffee stain near the back corner of the cafĂ©.
âYeah,â you said. âOrientationâs next week.â
He nodded once. âSame.â
You stopped sweeping. âWaitâseriously?â
He nodded again, this time glancing at you. âBusiness major?â
âYeah. Are youââ
âSame.â
You stared. âYouâre kidding.â
He shook his head, mouth twitching like he couldnât believe it either. âGuess youâre stuck with me.â
You couldnât help itâyou grinned. âWow. And I thought this week was the end of my suffering.â
He smirked, just a little. âMutual, believe me.â
You rolled your eyes, but your cheeks felt warm. âThis is gonna be weird.â
âProbably.â
You leaned against your broom, tilting your head. âWhat if we get put in the same class?â
âIâll transfer out.â
You laughed. Actually laughed. And the look on his face softened in that tiny, quiet way he did sometimesâlike a blink-and-you-miss-it moment of fondness.
âSo,â you said, brushing past him on your way to put the broom away, âdoes this mean weâre friends now?â
He paused. Looked at you.
ThenââYouâre loud.â
You turned around, walking backward. âNot a no~â
He rolled his eyes. But he didnât say no.
â
Your first day of college started in a lecture theatre that looked like it belonged in a movie.
Wide rows of tiered seats. Floor-to-ceiling windows. A massive screen at the front welcoming new students with a generic but oddly comforting "Welcome, Future Leaders!" banner.
You slid into a seat at the back row, instinctively avoiding the eager clusters forming near the front. It was still early, and the place buzzed with chatter, nerves, and the rustle of free tote bags and pamphlets.
You opened one of the pamphlets a student ambassador had handed you earlier and scanned it while sipping on the last of your bottled tea. Campus map. Co-curricular activities. After-school programmes. There was even a flowchart on how to balance academic and personal development. It was cheesy, but a part of youâthe part that studied like hell to get hereâfelt⊠proud. You belonged here. You were surrounded by people who cared just as much as you did.
You let out a small sigh, the kind that came from contentment, then finally looked upâ
And blinked.
Sunghoon was walking toward you.
Brown coat sweeping behind him. A scarf looped casually around his neck. Glasses perched on the bridge of his nose, framing his face in a way that made him look straight out of a campus brochure. He carried two cups of coffee in one hand, the sleeves of his coat pushed just enough to reveal the band of his watch.
He didnât say anything at first. Just placed one of the cups in front of you like it was the most natural thing in the world.
You stared at it. Then at him.
ââŠYou stalking me now?â
Sunghoon raised a brow. âYouâre sitting in the back row. Thatâs the least stalkable seat.â
âMm,â you hummed, smirking as you took the coffee anyway. âSo you do want to be friends.â
He slid into the seat beside you. âI didnât say that.â
âYou didnât have to.â You raised the cup. âActs of service. Love language. Iâm flattered.â
He gave you a look. âItâs just coffee.â
âAnd glasses,â you added, gesturing to his face. âYouâre really committing to the college-boy aesthetic, huh? Next youâre gonna pull out a book of poetry.â
He rolled his eyes, but you didnât miss the way his lip twitched like he was holding back a smile. âYouâre annoying.â
You took a sip. It was warm. Slightly sweet. Exactly how you liked it.
âAnd yet,â you said, nudging his arm with your elbow, âhere you are.â
He didnât answer. Just looked ahead at the empty podium, his fingers wrapped around his own cup. But his shoulder stayed against yoursâlight, steady, unbothered.
And you⊠didnât move away.
Then, the two of you were a part of a routine.
Ever since you both found out you were classmates, Sunghoon would wait in the apartment lobby every morning with a drink in handâtea or coffee, depending on how late you texted him the night before.
Before 12AM? Chamomile. After 12? Iced latte, extra pumps of vanilla. No questions asked.
It had been a whole month of college, and while you were still adjusting, you were glad you had Sunghoon. (More likeâSunghoon was glad he had you.)
You were outgoing. People liked you, drawn in by your energy. Sure, you could be shy at first, but once you warmed up, you were easily the heart of any group. Loud. Expressive. A little dramatic. And though Sunghoon called you irritating more times than you could count, he couldnât deny it was part of your charm.
Part of why he noticed you in the first place.
Now here you wereâwalking side by side, warm drink in hand, on your way to your first class of the day. You were mid-story about something ridiculous your professor said in a group chat. Sunghoon just walked quietly beside you, listening.
And somehow, that felt like the best part of your morning.
You were walking across the quad with Sunghoon, your cup in one hand, rambling about something dumb from class when a football came flying almost knocking you out.
A second later, a tall guy sprinted into your path, trying to catch itâand collided right into you.
You gasped, stumbling back, but before you could even register what happened, Sunghoon had already pulled you aside, his hand wrapping firmly around your arm, shielding you behind him.
âShitâsorry!â the guy said, breathless, catching the ball. His cap was turned backwards, and strands of his hair stuck to his forehead from running. He looked at you, eyes wide. âYou okay?â
You nodded, eyes locking with his.
He smiled.
And for a moment, your heart stuttered.
He was cute. Really cute. Sharp jaw, dimpled grin, that kind of effortless charm that made you forget what you were saying.
âIâuh, yeah. All good,â you mumbled.
Sunghoonâs hand slowly dropped from your arm. You didnât notice. You were still looking at Yeonjun.
He looked at you too. âIâm Yeonjun, by the way.â
You smiled, just a little. âNice to meet you.â
Sunghoon stood still beside you, silent as ever.
But he saw it.
The look. The smile. The way you laughed, a little softer than usual. The way Yeonjunâs eyes lingered when he handed you back the drink you almost dropped.
Sunghoon didnât say anything.
He just looked away.
â
Yeonjun showed up at the cafĂ© on a Friday afternoon, all sunshine and charm, and you were too busy juggling orders to notice him at firstâuntil he waved from the counter with that same boyish smile.
Your eyes lit up. âOh my godâhey!â
He leaned over casually, glancing at the menu. âDidnât know you worked here. I guess Iâll have to stop by more often.â
Meanwhile, across the room, Sunghoon sat at a corner table with a textbook open in front of him and an untouched iced americano beside it. According to him, he was there to study. According to Sunoo, he was there to âkeep an eye out for Selenur.â (Sunooâs thoughtful codename for you, since he was very sure Sunghoon had a âthingâ for you)
Sunghoon told him to shut up.
Now, he watched silently as you and Yeonjun exchanged numbers, your head tilted toward the screen, smile wide. He saw Yeonjun grin, say something that made you laugh, and hand you his phone.
Sunghoonâs jaw tightened.
Not my problem, he told himself, eyes flicking back to his textbook. Not. My. Problem.
You walked over seconds later, practically skipping, still holding your phone like it was made of gold. âCan you believe it? He asked me out!â
Sunghoon didnât look up.
You slid into the seat across from him anyway, hitting his arm repeatedly with giddy little slaps. âSunghoon. He asked. Me. Out!â
He sighed, finally meeting your eyes. âStop hitting me.â
âSorry,â you giggled, not sorry at all. âIâm just excited!â
He watched you bounce in your seat, hair bouncing with you, eyes sparkling like you just won the lottery. He hated to admit how adorable you looked when you were like this. But he had a reputation. And emotions. And he was firmly committed to ignoring both.
Still. Something didnât sit right.
Sunghoon had done a little digging after the football incident. Nothing crazy. Just⊠a casual scroll through Instagram. And maybe a few archived posts. Some comments. A look at mutuals. Purely for research.
Yeonjun was a third-year business major. A senior. Popular. Handsome. And according to a few posts Sunghoon definitely did not saveâsomeone who changed girlfriends like he changed outfits.
He didnât like it.
He didnât like him.
Not for you.
But what did he know?
He looked down, turning a page in his textbook. Not my problem, he chanted in his head.
Definitely not.
â
Sunghoon stood in the apartment lobby, one hand tucked in his coat pocket, the other holding your usual coffee order. He checked his phone for the time, glanced toward the elevatorâthen froze.
You stepped out, smile already bright, your phone in one hand and the hem of your dress held lightly in the other. It was the prettiest thing heâd ever seen you wearâsoft fabric that fell just above your knees, cinched slightly at the waist, the color making your skin glow. Your hair was styled, subtle makeup dusted across your cheeks, and your lips were curved in that effortless way that made it suddenly very hard to breathe.
You looked⊠gorgeous.
His heart did something stupid in his chest, but he quickly cleared his throat and looked away, pretending to be fascinated by the vending machine.
âHow do I look?â you asked, voice playful.
He didnât meet your eyes. âThe same,â he muttered.
âOh,â you said quietly. âDo I?â
You sighed, and he heard the disappointment in itâsaw the way your shoulders dropped just slightly.
Guilt hit him instantly.
âIn a good way,â he added quickly, almost too quickly.
You blinked. âHuh?â
He finally looked at you, then down at the coffee he was still holding. âYou look⊠pretty today.â
He cleared his throat and shoved the cup toward you before you could say anything else. Then he turned and started walking first, trying to escape the inevitable teasing.
But it didnât come.
Instead, you smiled behind your cup and jogged up to walk beside him.
âWhy are you dressed like that?â he asked after a few beats of silence.
âMy date with Yeonjunâs today,â you said with a grin.
His step faltered for a split second. âYou like him that much?â
You shrugged. âI donât know about like, but⊠itâs justâIâve never been asked out before.â
You tilted your head as you said it, your voice soft. Honest.
Sunghoon frowned. âIâm surprised.â
âWhatâs so surprising?â you laughed. âYouâve met me. Everyoneâs either calling me loud or annoying.â
âIsnât that whatâs so charming about you?â
The words slipped out before he could stop them.
You turned to him, eyes wide, mouth parting. âDid you justâcompliment me?â
âNo,â he said immediately, gaze fixed ahead like it never happened.
You didnât press it.
You just smiled again, even softer this time, and walked beside him like nothing had changed.
But for Sunghoon⊠everything had.
â-
The date started off⊠nice. Not mind-blowing. Not movie-level magical. But nice.
Yeonjun took you to a rooftop cafĂ© near campusâfairy lights strung across the ceiling, soft music humming under the chatter. He pulled your chair out like a gentleman, complimented your dress, and told you you looked beautiful in the golden hour light. You laughed, cheeks warm, nerves fluttering. You werenât used to this. To being seen.
âYou know,â he said between sips of his coffee, âI heard you got into the business faculty because of some competition?â
You nodded, a little surprised. âYeah. The Young Entrepreneursâ thing in my final year.â
âThatâs so impressive,â he said, leaning forward with a glint in his eye. âYou must have had a really solid proposal. What was it about?â
You blinked. âUm⊠a sustainable student-run cafĂ© model. With profit-sharing incentives and local sourcing.â
Yeonjunâs smile widened. âThatâs genius. Seriously. Are you using it for any of your current modules?â
You hesitated. âWell⊠sort of. Iâm reworking the model for this semesterâs proposal project.â
He nodded slowly. âWow. You must be at the top of your class already.â
There was a pause. You tried to smile, but something twisted in your gut. He kept askingâabout the proposal, your outline, your ideas. Details most people would only bring up if they were in your group, or at least interested in the topic.
You excused yourself to go to the bathroom. The second the door closed behind you, you leaned against the sink, staring at yourself in the mirror. Something about this didnât feel right. You couldnât place it, but the way he kept circling back to your work felt⊠off.
When you returned, Yeonjun was all smiles again. Charming. Sweet. As if nothing had happened. As if he hadnât just gently interrogated you for thirty minutes under the glow of fairy lights.
You tried to shake it off.
The next day, your phone stayed quiet. And the day after that. And the one after that, too.
No texts. No calls. No explanation.
Yeonjun ghosted you. Completely. Like the date never happened. Like you never happened.
You told yourself it didnât matter. That it wasnât like you were in love with him. That it was just one date. One boy.
But it still stung.
It wasnât about Yeonjun, not really. It was about what it made you wonder.
Maybe you were hard to like. Maybe you were too loud. Or too awkward. Maybe you talked too much, or didnât say the right things. Maybe you werenât pretty enough. Or cool enough. Or quiet enough.
He smiled at you. Told you you were smart. Sweet. Pretty. And stillâhe left. Without a word.
And it made you wonder if all the things people always said about you were true. If deep down, you were too much of everything⊠and not enough of anything.
You didnât even like Yeonjun like that, not really. But being left behind like you didnât matterâthat part hurt more than you'd ever admit out loud.
Especially when all you did was try to be yourself.
Then came the worst part.
You were working on a different assignment, digging through your laptop for a reference doc when you realized⊠your final business proposal was gone.
Completely gone.
You stared at the empty folder for a long, frozen second. Then searched again. And again. You turned the whole desktop inside out, but the file wasnât there.
Panic bloomed in your chest. You didnât delete it. You never would.
Desperate, you made your way to the engineering block where your friend Heeseung was camped out, headphones around his neck and an energy drink half-empty beside him.
You dropped beside him and wordlessly shoved your laptop in front of him.
âI think my fileâs gone,â you muttered. âLikeâgone gone.â
Heeseung frowned, pulling the laptop toward him. Fingers flying across the keyboard. You sat still, breath caught in your throat.
After a few minutes, he leaned back in his chair.
âIt says here your laptopâs last file access was through a thumbdrive. Someone plugged one in, moved your business proposal, then took it out.â
You stared at him.
âWhat?â you said. Your voice barely above a whisper.
He clicked again, tilting the screen. âTime stamp says it happened the day before yesterday. Around 8:42 PM.â
Your mind flicked back.
Yeonjun. That was the night of your date.
No. No way. He wouldnâtâ He couldnâtâ
But the timing fit. The questions. The ghosting.
No. No fucking way.
â
You were pissed.
You wiped the counters with a little too much force, angrily scrubbing at invisible stains like they personally betrayed you. The blender hadnât even been used today, but you cleaned it twice. You huffed. You sighed. You muttered curses under your breath while flinging dishrags and slamming cabinet doors just a bit harder than necessary.
Sunghoon stood at the sink, quietly washing mugs like you were a rabid animal he didnât want to startle.
âIââ he started.
You grunted.
âYouââ
You sighed.
He blinked. You hadnât let him get out a full sentence all shift. At this point, you were acting like him, and he was the one trying to initiate conversation.
It was terrifying.
Thirty minutes of silence passed before you finally spoke.
âYou know what I hate about men?â
Sunghoon froze mid-dry. He glanced down at his own very male hands. Great. He was framed by default.
âYou people,â you said, voice rising, âand your terrible innate sense of justice.â
You slammed the rag down onto the counter. âStealing a personâs work? Pfft. How stupid do you have to fucking be?!â
Sunghoon stayed quiet, lips pressed into a thin line. He had no idea what you were going on aboutâonly that your date with Yeonjun clearly didnât go well.
He opened his mouth to say something, but you waved a wet dishcloth in his face like a white flag of fury.
âAnd you know what else?â you went on, eyes blazing. âYou people are just little gremlins who take. And take. And take.â
You let out another heavy sigh, leaning against the counter like you were carrying the weight of all modern betrayal.
âAnd for what?!â
Your voice hit a pitch so sharp that Sunghoon actually flinched. He snapped upright like youâd physically struck him.
âIâm guessing the date didnât go so well?â he offered carefully.
âHe stole my business proposal.â
Sunghoon paused. ââŠWhat do you mean?â
You exhaled through your nose like a dragon mid-breakdown, pacing the space behind the counter as you told him everything. The date. The weird questions. The missing file. The thumb drive. Heeseungâs diagnosis. The awful, dawning realization.
By the time you were finished, Sunghoon just stood thereâspeechless. Stunned.
âHeâs an⊠asshole,â he said finally, slow and deliberate, like he needed to taste each word before letting it out.
âYuhuh,â you mumbled, flopping into the stool behind the register and dragging your hands down your face. âWhat am I gonna do? The deadlineâs on Friday. I spent two weeks on that thing. Iâm screwed.â
Sunghoon reached for the industrial bag of coffee beans under the counter, tearing it open like this was a normal Tuesday. âWell, itâs not like you can sneak into his house and steal his laptop back.â
You froze.
ââŠCome again?â
Sunghoon paused, one hand still buried in the bag. âNo. That was just a comment. Not an idea.â
âBut a good one.â You turned toward him slowly, a little too bright. A little too smiley.
He narrowed his eyes. âNo.â
âPlease.â
âNo.â
âYou have to help me.â
âWhy me?!â
âBecause you gave me the idea!â
Sunghoon sighed. Loudly. Dramatically. Like he already knew he was going to give in but had to fight for the sake of his pride.
âYouâre lucky I donât believe in karma,â he muttered.
You grinned, victory written all over your face. âSo thatâs a yes?â
â
It was 3:07AM when Sunghoon found himself walking through a quiet residential street, questioning every decision that had brought him to this point.
The address youâd sent him earlier lit up on his screen. He shoved his hands deeper into his coat pockets, exhaling into the chilly night, whenâ
âPsst!â
He turned his head toward a cluster of treesâand nearly jumped out of his skin.
You were crouched behind a bush, donned in an all-black ensemble: black beanie, oversized black hoodie, black jeans, andâŠ
âSlippers?â he blinked.
You grinned, proud. âI see you noticed the vibe. Iâm dressed up as a burglar.â
Sunghoon stared. ââŠIsnât that a little on the nose?â
âIsnât it cute?â you whispered, excited. âI got it all on sale just now.â
âAt what? A Target for burglars?â
You swatted his chest with the back of your hand, ignoring the way he flinched with a low sigh.
âThere,â you said, pointing toward the modest two-story house across the street. âThatâs his house.â
âOkay, and whatâs yourââ You swat him again.
âOur plan?â he corrected, exasperated.
You beamed. âGlad you asked. See that room on the second floor? With the string lights and the cracked window?â
He squinted. âYeah?â
âMy intel says thatâs his room.â
ââŠYour intel. You mean, Sunoo?â
âYes.â You wiggled your brows mysteriously before turning serious. âSo. We put up the ladder. I climb. I sneak in. I get the laptop. We disappear.â
âYouâre actually insane for this,â he muttered under his breath.
You ignored him, eyes locked on the prize. âThe windows are open, and I made sure heâs distracted tonight.â
Sunghoon raised an eyebrow. âHow exactly?â
âI texted him from a fake number pretending to be a girl he ghosted last semester. Heâs currently having a breakdown about his âreputation.â I give us twenty minutes.â
He stared at you like youâd grown a second head.
And then he sighed. Deep. Long. Existential.
Is this worth it? He thought to himself.
He glanced down at you againâeyes full of unhinged determination, your hoodie sleeves bunched at your wrists, that tiny pout on your lips as you tried to judge the ladder distance.
God. You looked ridiculous. And cute.
So yeah. It was worth it.
ââŠLetâs do this,â he said.
You grinned like the gremlin you were. âI knew you liked me.â
He rolled his eyes, cheeks just a little too warm. âRegretting this already.â
But he followed you anyway.
â
You set the ladder against the side of the house like youâd done this before. Sunghoon, meanwhile, stood beside it with the stiff posture of someone definitely not okay with committing a crime at 3:15AM.
You looked back at him. âHold it steady, okay?â
âJust⊠for the record,â he muttered, âthis is breaking and entering.â
âI prefer the term justice retrieval.â
He sighed so hard you thought his soul left his body. âJust donât fall and die. Please.â
You winked. âAw, you care.â
âNo, I just donât want to explain to the police why youâre dressed like a criminal and wearing slippers.â
You began to climb.
The first few steps were fineâuntil one of your slippers nearly slipped right off.
âOh, fuckââ you hissed, gripping the ladder.
âDo you need to wear those?â Sunghoon whisper-yelled from below, clutching the base of the ladder like his life depended on it.
âTheyâre comfy!â
âTheyâre a hazard.â
You ignored him, determined, as you reached the second-floor window. The breeze fluttered through the half-open pane, moonlight pooling gently across Yeonjunâs empty room. His laptop sat on the desk, closed. Glowing faintly.
Target acquired.
You carefully pushed the window open wider and swung one leg through.
Sunghoon watched from below, jaw tight, muttering to himself like a man saying his last prayers. âThis is how I go down. Helping a girl in bunny slippers commit theft.â
You managed to slide inside without knocking anything over. Heart pounding. Hands slightly shaking.
You tiptoed across the carpet, grabbed the laptop, and slipped it into your drawstring bag like the world's most underqualified spy.
You were halfway back out the window whenâ
âHEY! WHOâS THERE?!â
A voice rang out from somewhere downstairs.
Your eyes widened. You turned to look down at Sunghoon, who was still grabbing the bottom of the ladder.
âGo, go, goâ!â you whispered harshly.
You clambered down the ladder as fast as you could, nearly taking Sunghoon out as you reached the bottom. He caught your wrist before you could stumble, pulling you into a sprint without a word.
Your feet pounded against the pavementâslippers slapping, bag bouncing, hearts racing. Behind you, a door slammed open.
âHEY!â Yeonjunâs voice echoed into the street.
Sunghoon didnât slow down. âLeft!â he hissed.
You turned sharply, ducking into a narrow alley between two quiet apartment buildings. The shadows swallowed you both instantly.
âOver hereâquick,â he muttered, yanking you behind a large trash bin and squeezing into the tight space beside you. It was small. Barely enough for one person, let alone two.
You pressed your back to the wall, chest heaving, adrenaline thrumming in your ears.
Sunghoonâs face was too close. Way too close.
You turned to whisper something, only to notice the way his profile was still partially visible, his cheek nearly poking out past the safety of the shadow. Panic surged through you as Yeonjunâs footsteps grew louder.
Without thinking, you reached out and grabbed Sunghoonâs faceâgentle but urgentâand pulled him toward you, forcing him deeper into the corner.
He blinked, startled, his hands landing on either side of you to steady himself.
And suddenlyâeverything stopped.
His breath hit yours. Warm. Shaky. His nose nearly brushing yours. Your fingertips still on his cheek. You could feel the heat rising between your bodies, your heart hammering against your ribcage.
You were so focused on listening for footsteps that you didnât notice the way he was looking at you.
His eyes were locked on yours, soft and unblinking. Like you were something precious. Something fragile. Something he wasnât supposed to want but couldnât help reaching for.
But thenâhe cleared his throat.
You blinked, still slightly dazed, and smiledâcompletely unaware of how close you were until you finally pulled away.
He stepped back the moment you did.
You laughed, breathless, heart still sprinting inside your chest. âI canât believe we just did that.â
âI canât believe you dragged me into it,â he said, grinning despite himself.
Your laughter echoed down the alley, light and free and bubbling with triumph.
And even as the moment passed, and the footsteps faded, and you both stumbled back out into the quiet nightâ
Sunghoon couldnât stop thinking about how your hands had felt on his skin.
â
Sunghoon unlocked the door and stepped into the apartment as if nothing about the situation was even remotely unusual. You followed close behind, hoodie pulled low over your head, black beanie snug, sleeves covering your hands, andâmost incriminating of allâa pair of fuzzy bunny slippers completing the look. If anyone had seen you on the way over, they mightâve called the cops.
Inside, the living room was dimly lit, the glow of the TV casting flickering light across Jake and his girlfriend, who were curled up under a blanket, halfway through a rom-com rerun and clearly deep into their peaceful little couple night. That peace shattered the moment Jake looked up and saw you.
He froze with a chip halfway to his mouth. His girlfriend stiffened beside him. Their gazes locked on your all-black ensemble, eyes trailing from your hoodie to your slippers, as if unsure whether to scream, laugh, or call for help.
âSunghoon,â Jake said slowly, narrowing his eyes. âWhy is there a burglar in our house?â
You smiled brightly, completely unfazed. âHi!â
Jake blinked, turning to Sunghoon for confirmation. Sunghoon simply sighed, kicked his shoes off, and muttered under his breath, âNot how I wanted you to meet her.â
âYou brought her to the house,â Jake said, still staring. âAt 3 a.m. Dressed like that.â
You shrugged, strolling toward the desk and pulling Yeonjunâs laptop from your drawstring bag. âWeâre breaking into a computer, not the house. Totally different vibe.â
Jakeâs girlfriend leaned forward. âAre those bunny slippers?â
You nodded proudly. âTheyâre for stealth.â
âRight,â she said, blinking. âVery⊠quiet.â
Sunghoon dropped his keys on the table with a sigh, already preparing himself for the chaos about to unfold.
âSheâs trying to hack into a guyâs laptop,â he said, walking to the kitchen like he needed caffeine and therapy at once. âDonât ask.â
âWhy are you helping her?!â Jake asked, scandalized.
Sunghoon opened the fridge and grabbed a bottle of water. âIâm not.â
âYou literally held the ladder for me twenty minutes ago,â you called over your shoulder.
Jake choked. âLadder? What ladder?!â
You turned around, laptop booted up, the login screen glowing faintly. âThe one I used to climb through a second-story window.â
Jake gaped. His girlfriend quietly set the chip bag down, her expression somewhere between horrified and fascinated.
âI love her,â she whispered to Jake.
âI fear her,â Jake whispered back.
Sunghoon leaned against the kitchen counter, arms crossed. He looked at youâmessy hair peeking out from under your beanie, eyes focused, face lit by the laptop screen. Completely unbothered by the scene youâd walked into.
And for some reason, despite all the madness, he still thought you looked kind of cute.
âGod help us all,â Sunghoon muttered.
By the time you cracked into the laptop, Jake and his girlfriend had already retreated into their bedroom. Sunghoon had closed the door behind them with a roll of his eyes and a muttered, âThatâs just code for theyâre about to smash, so we should probably play some music or something.â
Youâd snorted at the time, but now the silence in the room felt heavy.
The soft hum of the laptop was the only sound between you, sitting shoulder to shoulder on the floor next to Sunghoonâs desk. He sat beside you, legs stretched out, arms loosely folded, eyes flicking over the screen with quiet interestâuntil he glanced at your expression and realized youâd stopped scrolling.
âWhat is it?â he asked.
You didnât answer.
Your eyes were fixed on the folder open in front of you. Document after document lined the screen, all titled neatly with class names andâoddlyânames. Different ones.
Mina. Elly. Jisoo. Grace.
And then⊠your name.
You clicked on it. Your proposal opened, just slightly reworded, your diagrams rearrangedâbut it was yours. Every piece of it.
You stared at the screen and crossed your arms tightly, a cold knot settling in your chest. The adrenaline was gone now. In its place was something much heavier. You felt small. Humiliated.
âI was just another one,â you muttered.
Sunghoon looked over, brows drawing together.
âJust another girl he got close to for an assignment,â you said, voice flat. âWas I that boring? That forgettable? Was I really soâunlikableâthat the only time a guy showed me attention, it was because he needed my fucking work?â
You laughed bitterly, shaking your head as the words tumbled out, unfiltered. âGod. What is wrong with me? What did I think was gonna happen? That someone like him actually liked someone like me?â
You let your arms drop and folded your hands over your face, pressing your palms into your eyes.
âIâm so stupid,â you whispered.
Sunghoon didnât say anything at first. He just sat beside you, close but not touching, eyes fixed on the floor like he was trying to figure out the right thing to say and coming up completely empty.
You wiped at your face with the back of your sleeve, but it was no useâyour mascara had already betrayed you, running in streaks down your cheeks. You were crying harder than you realized, tears silent but relentless.
You turned to him, half-laughing, half-sobbing. âSo youâre just gonna stay quiet?â
He looked up, startled. His gaze met yours, and for a moment he forgot how to breathe. You lookedâGod, you looked like a mess. Eyes red, lashes damp, your hoodie sleeves pushed up unevenly, and cheeks stained with tears.
And somehow, he thought youâd never looked prettier.
You werenât pretending. Werenât smiling for the sake of others or hiding behind jokes. You were just⊠you. Raw and hurting and real.
He cleared his throat and scratched the back of his neck. âWhat do you want me to say? Iâm not good at comforting people.â
âI donât know,â you sniffled. âSay heâs an asshole or something.â
Sunghoon shrugged a little. âWell, he is.â
You looked at him, still waiting, unsure if that was all he had in him. He looked like he was about to say more, and thenâhe did.
âHe is an asshole,â Sunghoon repeated, louder this time. âI donât know why you even agreed to go out with him.â
You opened your mouth, confused. âIââ
âYouâre loud,â he said suddenly. âYouâre pretentious. Youâre annoyingââ
Your eyes widened, and you flinched.
âWhatââ
âYou interrupt people all the time,â he continued, voice rising with something that wasnât quite angerâsomething messier. âYou talk too much. You never stop moving. Youâre chaotic and stubborn and you donât think things throughââ
Tears were streaming down your face again, this time faster. You looked away, chest tightening.
But then his voice softened.
â...And youâre also caring. Kind. God, youâre the only person I know who goes to the store at four in the morning to feed stray cats in an alley every two days.â
You blinked. Slowly turned back to him.
Sunghoon exhaled, running a hand through his hair.
âYouâre funny. Youâre thoughtful. You remember the little things people say even when they forget they said them. Anyone would be lucky to be your friend⊠let alone always be with you.â
He looked at you then, eyes steady and full of something warm. Something aching.
âIâm lucky,â he said, quieter now. âIâm the luckiest bastard alive, as long as I get to stand next to you and call you my friend.â
You stared at him, heart pounding, lips parted, breath caught somewhere in your chest.
Because for the first time⊠it felt like he wasnât just calling you a friend.
â
Maybe it was the crying. Maybe it was the emotional whiplash of the nightâthe heist, the heartbreak, the sudden unraveling of every thought youâd kept tucked neatly away. Maybe it was the way Sunghoon had looked at you when he said he was lucky.
But either way, you couldnât keep your eyes open.
One moment you were sitting beside him, the warmth of his words still lingering in your chest like a quiet heartbeat. The next, the world had blurred softly at the edges, and your body gave out beneath the weight of it all.
So now, you were on his back.
Heâd barely hesitated before lifting you, tucking your arms around his shoulders and hooking his arms under your knees. You didnât even protestâyou were too tired to argue, too comforted by the way he held you like heâd done it before.
Your cheek rested against his shoulder, eyes fluttering shut. You felt the steady rise and fall of his chest as he walked, the rhythmic sway of his steps, the subtle hum of a tune you didnât recognizeâbut it was sweet, and low, and made your heartbeat slow down.
Sunghoon didnât say anything. He just walked.
Past the quiet streets. Past flickering streetlamps. Past your favorite corner store and the alley you fed cats in and the bus stop where he first bought you coffee.
He didnât complain about your weight. Didnât tease. Didnât say a word about the mascara smudged against the fabric of his coat.
You didnât know if he knew you were still half-awake, but when he gently adjusted your leg, you heard him murmur so softly you almost missed it:
âYouâre not stupid.â
Your heart ached.
And then you let sleep take you.
Because if there was ever a place to restâ It was here. On his back.
â
You woke up warm.
Too warm, actually. Wrapped in layers you didnât remember putting on. The hoodie you had on last night clung loosely to your body, sleeves pushed halfway up your arms, and your slippers were neatly placed by the side of your bedâsomething you definitely hadnât done.
You sat up slowly, blinking at the sunlight streaming through your curtains. Your room was quiet. Peaceful. And completely unfamiliar in the sense that⊠you had no idea how you got there.
You rubbed your eyes, your body aching in the most confusing wayâlike youâd run a marathon, cried through an entire movie, and fought off an emotional breakdown all at once. Oh. Right.
The heist. The yelling. The crying.
Sunghoon.
You swung your legs off the bed, still a little dazed, and padded out of your room.
Thatâs when you smelled itâeggs. Butter. Something slightly burnt, but in a way that made your chest tighten.
You turned the corner and froze.
Sunghoon was in your kitchen.
His hair was messier than usual, falling into his eyes as he stood in front of the stove, flipping something that might have once been a pancake. He was wearing the same hoodie from the night before, sleeves pushed up, a spatula in one hand, your mismatched cat-print apron tied haphazardly around his waist.
You blinked, brain short-circuiting. âWhat the hellâŠ?â
He glanced over his shoulder. âYouâre awake.â
âIâŠâ You looked down at yourself. âHow did I get home?â
âYou passed out,â he said simply, turning back to the stove. âI carried you.â
You stared at him. âYou carried me?â
âLike a princess,â he deadpanned. âExcept you drooled on my shoulder.â
You gasped. âI did not.â
âYou did.â
You groaned and dropped your head into your hands. âThis is so embarrassing.â
He flipped another pancakeâslightly more edible this timeâand shrugged. âYou needed the sleep.â
You looked up at him again, softer this time. âWhy are you making breakfast?â
He didnât look at you. âFelt like you could use something warm.â
You felt your throat tighten. You wanted to say something, but the words sat too heavy on your tongue. So instead, you just stood there in the doorway, watching him quietly.
And for the first time in what felt like weeksâyou felt safe.
Breakfast passed in silence.
Not awkward, not heavyâjust... silent. The kind of silence that settled like sunlight through the window, warm and gentle and unspoken.
You sat across from him at your little dining table, your knees brushing every so often beneath the wood, your plate mostly untouched. He ate like nothing was different, like he hadnât carried you home last night, like he didnât make pancakes in your kitchen while wearing your cat-print apron.
And yet, something had shifted.
You kept stealing glances at him in between tiny sips of orange juice. The way his lashes dipped as he focused on his food. The subtle curve of his mouth as he chewed. The way his hair curled just slightly at the ends when he didnât style it.
Your heart fluttered.
Your stomach twistedâbut not in the way it did when you were nervous or sad. This was... different. Lighter. Warmer.
What is this? you thought. This weird, floaty feeling in your chest. This little ache every time you looked at him.
Sunghoon glanced up, catching your gaze.
You quickly looked down at your plate.
He didnât say anything for a momentâjust reached for his cup, took a sip, then set it down with a quiet clink.
âGo take a shower and get dressed,â he said casually.
You blinked. âHuh?â
He leaned back in his chair. âYou heard me.â
âBut itâs Saturday. I donât have anyââ
âIâm taking you out.â
You stared at him. âOut? Like⊠out out?â
âLetâs go,â he said again, nonchalantly, like it was no big deal. Like he hadnât just casually turned your whole world upside down with three words.
You opened your mouth, then closed it. You felt the heat rush to your cheeks.
âOh,â you said. Quiet. Surprised.
Sunghoon stood and collected your plate like it was the most normal thing in the world. âIâm not giving you the plan. Just go shower.â
And then he walked off toward the sink, sleeves rolled, calm as ever.
You sat there for another ten seconds, frozen, heart racing.
What is this feeling?
And why did you suddenly never want it to stop?
You stood in front of the mirror, adjusting the hem of your yellow chiffon babydoll dress for the third time. It swayed lightly around your thighs, soft and airy, the color bright against your skin. Youâd tied your hair into two loose pigtails, hoping it came off cute and not childishâjust⊠soft. Sweet. Something that might look good next to him.
Sunghoon, with his wardrobe of tailored coats and muted sweaters. All clean lines and high-end simplicity. He never had to try, and he always looked perfect.
You hopedâjust a littleâthat standing beside him, you wouldnât look too out of place.
You took one last look in the mirror, then stepped out of your room.
He was sitting on your couch, one leg crossed over the other, scrolling casually through his phone like he hadnât just changed your entire Saturday morning. He looked up when he heard your footsteps.
His eyes flicked up to meet yours.
Then back down to his phone.
No double-take. No compliment. Not even a blink.
âLetâs go,â he said, standing up with a stretch.
You stared at him, jaw tight. âStupid idiot,â you muttered under your breath.
âWhat was that?â he asked, turning toward you, brows raised.
You plastered on a fake smile so quickly it nearly hurt. âNothing.â
He watched you for a beat, unreadable as always, then looked away.
âYou look pretty,â he said softlyâso quiet it was almost drowned out by the rustle of his coat sleeve as he reached for his keys.
You blinked.
But before you could respond, he was already walking toward the door, acting like he hadnât said anything at all.
Typical Sunghoon.
Your heart fluttered anyway.
â
âAre we there yet?â you sighed for what had to be the fifteenth time.
Sunghoon didnât look at youâjust kept walking ahead with that maddeningly steady pace. âAlmost,â he said.
âYou said that two hours ago.â
âMm.â
Just a hum. No explanation. No sympathy.
You followed anyway, flats sinking further into the mud with every step. Youâd taken two buses, a ten-minute train ride, and now you were walking deep into a part of the park you didnât recognize at all. Far from your neighborhood. Far from everything.
You glanced down at your shoes, now spotted with dirt and regret. This dress, the hair, the whole effortâyou were starting to think it had all been a mistake.
Then Sunghoonâs pace suddenly picked up. His eyes lit up, focused on something just beyond the next turn.
âThere,â he said softly.
And before you could ask what he meant, he reached for your handâsudden, unthinkingâand pulled you with him.
Your breath caught in your throat.
His hand was warm, firm around yours, fingers interlaced like it had always been that way.
You didnât say a word. Just followed.
He led you past a line of trees, through tall grass, and down a narrow slope. Then finallyâyou saw it.
A small, glimmering pond hidden in a clearing. The water was still, mirror-like, catching the soft gold of the late afternoon sun. Willow trees bent low over the banks, their branches swaying gently in the breeze. Wildflowers bloomed in quiet clusters along the edgeâlilac, yellow, soft blueâand dragonflies skimmed the waterâs surface, their wings catching the light like tiny stained-glass windows. It was quiet. Peaceful. Untouched.
Like something out of a fairytale.
You stared, mouth slightly parted. âHowâd you evenâhowâd you find this place?â
Sunghoon didnât answer right away. He just stood beside you, still holding your hand loosely.
âWhen I was younger,â he said after a moment, voice softer than usual, âmy family came here for a vacation. My sister and I snuck out one morning and found this by accident.â
You glanced over at him. He wasnât looking at youâjust at the water, like it still held something sacred.
âI used to take her here when she cried,â he continued, âwhenever she got scolded by our mum. I donât know... it always calmed her down.â
You smiled, quietly listening.
âWhyâd you bring me here?â you asked, your voice barely above a whisper.
He laughed under his breath, the sound light, almost shy.
âItâs silly,â he said, eyes still on the pond. âBut last night, when you were cryingâŠâ
You looked at him thenâreally looked at him.
His expression was unreadable, caught between memory and now. He glanced at you finally, voice quieter.
âYou reminded me of my childhood. Of her. You looked so⊠innocent.â He gave a faint, crooked smile. âAnd maybe I thought this place would cheer you up.â
Your chest ached in the most unexpected way.
Not from sadness. Not even from joy.
Just from the quiet knowing that someone had thought of you that deeply.
You looked down again at your joined hands.
Still holding. Still warm.
The two of you made your way closer to the water, weaving past the low-hanging branches until you found a flat patch of grass near the edge. You sat down carefully, smoothing the fabric of your dress beneath you, your feet dangling just above the still surface of the pond.
Sunghoon dropped beside you, resting his arms lazily on his knees, legs slightly apart, sneakers almost brushing the water. The breeze was cooler here, brushing your cheeks with the scent of wildflowers and grass. The only sounds were the rustle of leaves, the distant hum of cicadas, and the quiet ripples of the pond.
He didnât speak.
Of course he didnât.
Youâd grown used to his silences. They werenât cold, or distantânot really. They were just⊠Sunghoon. Thoughtful. Still. The kind of quiet that made you want to fill the space, not because it was empty, but because he made you feel safe enough to.
So you talked.
About everything. About nothing.
You told him about the weird dreams youâd been having lately, about the girl in your class who kept trying to copy your notes, about how you once tried to bake cookies for your primary school crush and forgot the sugar. You pointed out shapes in the clouds. Gave names to the dragonflies. Talked about the playlist you made for a fictional road trip you hadnât taken yet.
And Sunghoon?
He just listened.
Not distracted. Not fake-listening like some people did, nodding along while their mind was elsewhere.
He listened with his whole body. Slight tilts of his head. The way heâd glance at you when he thought you werenât looking. The quiet little hums when something made him laugh. The barely-there smile when you said something completely ridiculous.
You kicked your feet gently above the water.
âSorry,â you said at some point, half-laughing. âI talk too much when youâre quiet.â
He shook his head slowly, still looking out over the pond. âI like it.â
You blinked. âYou do?â
âYou talk like youâre alive,â he said softly.
You turned to look at him.
His expression was unreadable, gaze fixed somewhere across the water. But his voiceâhis voice sounded like truth.
Your heart beat a little faster. You looked down at your hands in your lap, trying to will the blush away.
The two of you had been sitting there for a while now, feet dangling over the edge of the pond, sunlight dancing on the surface of the water. Youâd done most of the talkingânaturallyâand Sunghoon had just sat beside you, quietly listening like always, eyes half-lidded from the warmth, arms resting lazily over his knees.
You were halfway through a very dramatic retelling of the vending machine incident from earlier in the week when something soft landed on your head.
You paused, blinking. âDid something justâŠ?â
Before you could reach up to check, Sunghoon leaned in.
His hand came up slowly, fingertips brushing through your hair with careful precision. You stilled completely. He was closeâcloser than usualâand the moment stretched, your voice caught somewhere in your throat.
His face hovered just inches from yours, eyes focused as he plucked a single pink petal from your hair. The breeze tugged at your dress, your heart did a weird little somersault, and your brain short-circuited trying to process the proximity.
You barely dared to breathe. His breath brushed your cheek, warm and soft. He didnât move away.
And somehow, your mind made the leap.
Oh my god. Heâs going to kiss me.
Your heart leapt. You shut your eyes without thinking, every nerve in your body suddenly very, very aware of the shape of his mouth and the way your knees were touching.
But instead of a kiss, you gotâ
A throat clear.
You opened your eyes to find Sunghoon leaning back like nothing happened, examining the flower petal with the clinical interest of someone assessing a grocery receipt. Like he hadnât just completely hijacked your central nervous system.
You blinked at him, heat flooding your face.
He glanced up, clearly fighting back a smirk. âDid you justââ
âNo.â Your answer was immediate. Loud. Defensive.
âI didnât even finish my sentenââ
âShut up.â You whirled on him, hands flying dramatically as the full force of your embarrassment took over. âYou scooted so close to me, and you leaned in and, and IâI didnât know what to expect, okay?!â
Sunghoonâs eyes sparkled, lips twitching. âI was taking a petal out of your hair.â
âYou took your sweet time, thatâs what you did,â you huffed, arms flailing now. âGod, you and yourâcoldâcold boy exterior. I canât read your face! You could be about to kiss me or about to tell me my card got declined, and I wouldnât know the difference.â
He let out a soft laugh, the kind that made your chest ache a little. âYouâre being dramatic.â
âExcuse me for assuming I was about to have a romantic moment by a magical pond with a boy whoââ
He reached forward suddenly, both hands cupping your cheeks, and you froze mid-rant.
The world slowed.
His palms were warm. Gentle. Holding your face like you were made of something delicate. You couldnât speak. Could barely breathe.
Then his voice came, low and steady.
âDo you want me to?â
Your words died in your throat. Your heart thundered somewhere behind your ribs.
You stared at him, wide-eyed, unsure what to say.
He didnât press. Just looked at you with that infuriating, calm expressionâthe kind that made it impossible to tell if he was teasing you or being completely serious.
And somehow, that only made you fall harder.
You opened your mouth, then closed it again.
âIââ you tried.
Sunghoon waited.
You panicked. âYou took way too long with the petal.â
He laughed. This time, fully. And God, if your heart hadnât already betrayed you, that laugh would've done it.
âOkay,â he said eventually, letting go of your cheeks like he hadnât just gently cradled your entire soul.
You immediately buried your face in your hands.
You hated him. You adored him. You had no idea what this was.
But you kind of never wanted it to end.
â
The walk back was quiet.
Not the comfortable kind that usually settled between you and Sunghoon. This one was thick. Tense. A silence so loud it felt like it echoed.
You hadnât spoken a word since leaving the pond.
Heâd glanced at you a few times as you walked side by side, but you kept your gaze stubbornly forward, arms crossed, cheeks still warm from earlier. You couldnât stop replaying the moment in your headâhis hands on your face, that question, your silence, the way your heart had practically stopped beating altogether.
And now, here you were. Standing outside your apartment. Streetlights glowing gold above you. Crickets chirping. The air cool and still.
He hadnât said anything either.
Not until now.
Sunghoon cleared his throat softly. âYouâve been quiet since the park.â
You let out a small, unbothered-sounding tch, keeping your eyes fixed on the sidewalk.
What a stupid question. He knew why.
You were embarrassed. Flustered. Emotionally compromised and desperately trying to hold it together. And he just stood there, calm and collected, as if he hadnât casually almost kissed you and then walked away like it was nothing.
You turned toward him, fire rising again. âYouâ!â
You raised your hands, ready to start waving them mid-rant like you always did. But before a single word left your mouth, Sunghoon stepped forward and grabbed both your wrists gently, stopping them midair.
You blinked.
âWhat are youâ?â
And then he leaned in.
Soft. Quick. Certain.
He pressed a kiss to your lipsâjust a brief, featherlight touch that made your breath catch and your thoughts scatter in all directions.
It was simple. Barely a second long. But it knocked the wind out of you.
âThere,â he said, voice low and calm, as he pulled back.
You stared at him, completely frozen. Mouth slightly parted. Eyes wide.
âY-Youââ you stammered, hands still in his.
Sunghoon didnât flinch. âYou were being loud in your head. I could hear it.â
âIâThatâs notâYou donât justâ!â
He raised an eyebrow, completely unfazed. âFeel better now?â
Your heart was a mess. Your brain was fuzz. But still⊠you nodded.
He let go of your hands slowly, his touch lingering just a second longer than necessary.
âGoodnight,â he said, and turned to walk away.
You stood there, stunned, watching him go. And somewhere between your heart trying to reboot and your hand brushing against your lipsâŠ
â-
The library was quiet, save for the occasional turning of pages and the distant hum of the printer.
You were trying to focus. Really, you were. But it was hard.
Not because of your thesisâwhich was enough of a monster on its ownâbut because of him. Sitting right next to you.
Sunghoon.
The boy who kissed you once. Who sent you home after and said nothing. The boy who still picked you up for class, still shared his earbuds, still split convenience store snacks with you like nothing had changed. And maybe it hadnât. Not really.
You werenât kissing everyday. You werenât dating. There were no labels. Just⊠this strange, sweet in-between. And it was driving you insane.
Youâd been hanging out every day, and yet neither of you had brought up the kiss. Not the one by the pond. Not the one on your doorstep.
You were somewhere between friends and more, and he seemed perfectly content to sit in that quiet spaceâwhile you were losing your mind wondering what it meant.
You were currently scanning the shelves, tryingâand failingâto find a book for your thesis. You swore it was here. The catalogue said it was. But after combing through the aisle three times, you were ready to throw yourself into the return bin.
âUgh,â you muttered, turning to scan the shelf one more time.
And then, like some book-finding angel, Sunghoon stepped beside you. He reached forward casually, plucked the exact book from the shelf above your head, and handed it to you without a word.
Your jaw dropped. âAre you kidding me?â
You snatched it from his hand, dramatic as ever, and turned to him with wild eyes.
âIâve been here for twenty minutes! And youâ!â
Your hands flew up instinctively, ready to gesticulate in full rant mode whenâ
He caught them.
Both of them.
Warm fingers wrapping around your wrists, stopping you mid-rant with that infuriatingly calm expression on his face.
And then he leaned in.
And kissed you.
Just like that.
Soft. Steady. No hesitation.
Your breath caught completely. Your brain shut off. The library, the thesis, the confusionâall of it disappeared under the pressure of his lips against yours.
It was over in seconds.
He pulled back like nothing happened, still holding your hands.
âLoud,â he said, voice low and amused.
And thenâhe let go and walked away.
You stood frozen in the aisle, mouth still parted in disbelief, the book clutched to your chest like it had personally witnessed a crime.
Your heart was pounding. Your face was burning. You were sure your soul had just left your body.
And once again⊠He didnât look back.
Typical Sunghoon.
You were unwell.
Absolutely, fully, catastrophically unwell.
Because Sunghoon kissed you again.
In a library.
After handing you a book like it was the most normal thing in the world.
And when you raised your handsâto explain, to demand answers, to yell in three different emotional languagesâhe just⊠kissed you. Again. Calmly. Casually. And walked away like it hadnât just restructured your entire brain.
You tried not to think about it. You really did.
But the moment you sat back down at the table, book open in front of you, and he slid a highlighter across the desk toward you like he hadnât just emotionally detonated youâ
You exploded.
âOkay,â you said, too loudly for a library. âWhat are we?â
He looked up from his notes, blinking once.
You leaned forward. âBecause you kissed me. Twice. And you keep holding my face like Iâm a traumatized woodland creature and then walking away before I can process anything.â
He tilted his head, resting his chin on his palm. âSo you have been thinking about it.â
You sputtered. âOf course Iâve been thinking about it!â
Sunghoon nodded slowly, flipping to the next page of his notes.
You blinked at him. âAre you ignoring me?â
âIâm studying.â
âIâm spiraling.â
âNoted.â
Your hands flailed.
And just as you raised them again, fully prepared to unleash wave two of your emotional breakdownâ
He stood up from his seat, leaned across the table, and kissed you. Right there. Again.
Quick. Soft. On the corner of your mouth this time.
You froze.
âIââ you squeaked.
âYou were getting loud again,â he said, sitting back down like he hadnât just completely ended your speech mid-sentence.
You gawked at him, face on fire. âYou canât just kiss me every time I get dramatic.â
âThatâs what you think.â
You opened your mouth. He raised an eyebrow.
You closed it again.
He handed you your highlighter. âLet me know when youâre done with denial.â
You stared at him, heart pounding so hard you could hear it echoing in your skull. He was calm. Unbothered. Absolutely smug.
You hated him.
You wanted to kiss him again.
You highlighted the same sentence seven times just to avoid looking at his stupid perfect face.
â
You were walking home from the library with Sunghoon again. Just like always. Quiet sidewalk, golden streetlights, late-night hum of the city in the background.
Except nothing about it felt normal anymore.
Not after the kisses.
Not after the looks he kept giving you when he thought you werenât paying attention. Not after your brain had chewed itself into pieces trying to decode what you were to him.
And tonightâyou were done pretending you were fine with it.
âI just think,â you said for what felt like the fifth time, voice rising as your steps quickened, âthat if youâre gonna keep kissing me, then maybeâand this is wildâI deserve to know what it means!â
Sunghoon didnât answer. He kept walking beside you, hands in his pockets, face unreadable. Infuriatingly calm.
âAnd if it doesnât mean anything, thatâs fine,â you added, already lying to yourself. âBut then stop doing it! You canât just weaponize your mouth to shut me up like some human mute buttonââ
He stopped walking.
You blinked, still mid-rant, too fired up to notice that heâd turned until his fingers wrapped around your wrist and tugged you backâswiftly, gently, deliberatelyâuntil your back hit the cold brick wall of the nearest building.
The shock of it knocked the words straight out of your mouth.
âWhaââ
And then he kissed you.
Hard.
No hesitation. No teasing.
His lips found yours in one clean, fluid motion, like heâd been waiting, burning, counting every second leading up to this moment. His hand pressed firmly against the wall beside your head, his body angled toward yoursânot pushing, just close. Too close. Close enough that you felt the heat radiating off of him, the weight of everything he hadnât said.
You didnât even get the chance to breathe before his other hand slipped to your jaw, tilting your face up slightlyâand then his mouth opened against yours, and his tongue slid in. Slow. Confident. Sure.
You gasped softly into him, your fingers gripping the front of his sweater like it was the only thing keeping you from collapsing. And Godâhe tasted like mint and quiet danger, like late nights and secrets he hadnât told you yet.
He kissed you like he was trying to memorize your mouth.
Like he wanted you breathless and boneless and ruined in the best way.
And you let him.
You kissed him back like it had been building inside you too, like youâd been waiting for him to break firstâwaiting for this exact kind of dizzying, spine-melting surrender.
By the time he pulled back, you werenât sure where you were anymore.
Your chest heaved. Your lips tingled. Your back was still pressed to the wall, legs weak, thoughts tangled.
Sunghoon didnât move farâjust enough to speak, his thumb still brushing softly along your cheek.
âYouâre loud,â he murmured, his voice rougher than usual. âBut not when youâre kissing me back.â
You couldnât speak. You couldnât even glare. Your eyes were still wide and unfocused. Your body felt like it had been struck by lightning wrapped in velvet.
And him?
He just took your hand again like nothing happened.
âLetâs go,â he said, like he hadnât just absolutely wrecked you against a wall.
You followed.
Stunned. Silent.
And for the first time in your lifeâ You understood exactly why he did that.
Because nothing had ever shut you up like that before.
â
The next morning, Sunghoon was already waiting outside your apartment by the time you stepped out, bleary-eyed and still emotionally unstable from the night before. He stood there with his usual sleepy calmness, one hand in his pocket, the other holding your usual coffee order.
Of course he knew you hadnât slept.
He hadnât either.
Because while you were lying awake replaying that kiss over and over again, so was he. Heâd tried to read, tried to distract himselfâbut every time he closed his eyes, all he could feel was you against the wall. Your fingers in his sweater. The way your lips opened under his, soft and wanting. The sound you made when he bit down gently on your lip before pulling away.
He was in trouble.
You walked toward him slowly, eyes puffy, your hoodie a little crooked from sleep. You didnât say anythingâjust snatched the coffee from his hand and took three aggressive gulps like it personally wronged you.
âHmph,â you huffed, before storming three steps ahead of him like an angry little duck.
Sunghoon blinked.
Then he laughed.
God, he was so gone for you.
âWhy are you mad?â he asked, catching up easily.
You didnât look at him. âBecauseâbecause you wonât tell me what we are. You keep kissing me every time I get dramatic, and you donât say anything after, and you wonât tell me if you even like me, andââ
âDonât you like it when I kiss you, though?â he asked casually, like he wasnât setting your entire nervous system on fire.
You stumbled. âIâ! Iââ
He looked far too smug. You hated how good he was at this.
âYou canât just say smug shit like that and make me not want to choke youââ
You didnât finish. Because just like last time, he moved without warning.
In one sharp, fluid motion, he backed you into the nearest tree, the rough bark grazing your spine as your back hit it with a quiet thud. His hand slid around to the small of your back, pressing you against him, while the other gripped your waist and dragged slowly down to your hip, fingers curving around it possessively.
His mouth was on yours before you could speak. No hesitation this time.
His lips crashed into yoursâhot, hungry, open. He tilted his head, deepening it fast, his hand tightening at your waist as he pulled you harder against him. Your gasp disappeared into his mouth.
His tongue slipped past your lips, slow and deliberate. He kissed like he knew exactly what he was doingâlike he knew how to pull sound from your throat without a word. His body pinned yours to the tree, firm and steady, his hips brushing into yours just enough to make you lose your balance and grab his sweater for support.
He groaned lowly when you kissed him back, your fingers bunching at his chest, his thumb digging into your side as his mouth moved harder, needier, lips parting, tongue sliding deeper.
And thenâhe bit down on your bottom lip, just enough pressure to make your breath catch.
âYou didnât stop me,â he murmured, breath warm against your skin.
Your mouth opened. âBecauseââ
âBecause you like it,â he said again, low and certain.
You glared at him. âAnd what if I do?! At least Iâm being honest with my feelings.â
Sunghoon raised a brow. âAre you?â
âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
âBecause you havenât really told me anything about your feelings,â he said simply.
You threw your hands up. âIs it not clear?!â
You folded your arms, frustration bubbling up.
âIs it not clear that I clearly like you?!â
And just like thatâhe was silent.
Sunghoon had always been calm, collected, a little unreadableâbut something in his expression faltered then. His cool cracked just a little, the tiniest stutter of surprise flickering across his face.
His heart was doing things he would never admit out loud.
Because no matter how smooth he could be, no matter how many times he kissed you like he knew exactly what he was doingâyou were the only one who could completely unravel him.
He looked at you, smiling softly.
âLook under your cup.â
You frowned. âWhat?â
âThe cup,â he said. âTurn it over.â
You squinted at him suspiciously, lifting the cup over your head like it owed you answers. And thereâscrawled in slightly smudged black marker under the baseâwas one word, just barely legible in his messy handwriting:
GIRLFRIEND?
Your breath hitched.
Your arms dropped.
You stared at it, then at him.
He stood there with his usual hands-in-pockets posture, pretending to be all calm and collectedâbut you saw it. The way his ears were just a little too red. The faint twitch of his mouth like he was holding his breath.
You blinked. âYou wrote it⊠on the bottom of a coffee cup?â
âI thought it was romantic,â he said, completely deadpan.
You raised a brow. âYou know people usually use, like, their mouths to say these things, right?â
âI figured this way, youâd actually read it instead of yelling over it.â
You paused.
Touche.
âYou truly are a man of few words.â
He shrugged. âYou use enough for both of us.â
You rolled your eyesâbut your grin gave you away.
And then, quietly, you held the cup closer to your chest.
ââŠYes,â you muttered.
His lips twitched. âYouâre supposed to say it louder.â
You glared. âDonât push your luck, loverboy.â
He smiled, wide this time. âToo late.â
Before you could react, his hands wrapped around your waistâconfident, steadyâand he pulled you in all at once. You let out a small yelp, half laugh, arms instinctively catching onto his shoulders as he swept you closer like it was the most natural thing in the world.
And then he kissed you.
His lips pressed into yours like he already knew youâd say yes, like your quiet little âyesâ had unlocked something in him. There was no teasing this time, no smirk hiding behind itâjust him, kissing you like he meant it.
His grip tightened around your waist, grounding you against him, your body flush to his as his other hand came up to cradle the side of your neck, his thumb brushing just below your ear. You melted into him without a thought, your fingers curling around the back of his sweater, trying to pull him even closer.
You could feel his heartbeat, fast but steady, pressed right against yours.
When he finally pulled back, just barely, his lips hovered over yoursâstill close enough to steal another breath.
âIâve been waiting to do that properly,â he whispered, voice low and warm.
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When I was a TA for the freshman art class in senior year my students really adored me. It was so sweet. Iâd had classes that were more ambivalent toward me but these guys were all about me.
I loved working with that teacher too. He was the kind of crunchy art nerd whose own kid didnât know what candy was, who loved bird watching and wearing tweed. Weâd chat while they worked and it was just a three hour pleasure rather than work.
When the class switched from charcoal to gouache a devil medium, the evilest watercolor, the students struggled. Weâd have in class painting where theyâd spend the whole time trying to mix one color instead of just accepting something as good enough and trying to practice other skills.
So one day I showed up to my shift and announced, âI have stickers. If you get color down for the whole composition, you get a sticker.â
They wanted. The stickers. So bad. Students who had agonized before about keeping lines neat and perfect plowed ahead. The first student to call me over I tsked at. âPutting grey on everything doesnât count,â I chided, âI asked for colors on each object.â
The classroom worked in furious joy, young adults who had seen my bird and cactus stickers and gone feral. The teacher was flabbergasted. âWhy do they want stickers? They could just buy stickersâŠâ
I held up my water bottle and showed him a tiny 3D bubble sticker the program director had brought to my game teams space last week. âYou never grow out of wanting to earn a sticker.â
By the end of class everyone had a sticker. There was more visible improvement in the work too, which surprised them since theyâd been rushing. âGouache looks terrible before it looks good. Itâs okay to start messy and then refine.â The teacher had said the same thing but looking at their frantic sticker paintings they finally saw the truth of it.
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Kiss Me, Heâs Watching
fake bf!Heeseung x being stalked!reader - You kissed Heeseung to escape your stalkerâs gazeâbut the danger didnât end there. One fake kiss, and suddenly everything is terrifyingly real.
Warnings:Â stalking, fear, explicit smut, possessive dynamics
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The fluorescent lights of the subway car flicker overhead, casting an unflattering glow across the half-empty train. It's later than you'd usually be out on a weeknight, but your coworker's birthday drinks ran longer than expected. You check your phone: 11:43 PM. Only three more stops until home.
That's when you feel itâthe unmistakable sensation of being watched.
You glance up from your phone, trying to appear casual as your eyes scan the car. And there he is. Third seat from the door. A man in his thirties, wearing a dark jacket despite the warm spring evening, staring directly at you. When your eyes meet, he doesn't look away. Instead, his lips curl into what might be considered a smile, if it weren't so utterly devoid of warmth.
You quickly look back down at your phone, heart rate accelerating. It's nothing, you tell yourself. Just another weird encounter in the city.
The train slows to a stop, doors sliding open. You remain seated, two more stops to go. From your peripheral vision, you see the man stand up. Relief washes over youâhe's leaving. But instead of exiting, he simply moves to a seat closer to you. Your stomach drops.
When the doors close and the train lurches forward, you decide you're not waiting two more stops. You'll get off at the next station, find a busier platform, maybe even grab a taxi the rest of the way home. Anything to shake this feeling.
The next stop arrives. You stand quickly, moving toward the doors. As they open, you glance backâhe's standing too. Following you.
Panic rises in your throat as you step onto the platform. It's nearly deserted at this hour, just a few late-night commuters waiting for trains going the opposite direction. You walk briskly toward the exit, the sound of footsteps behind you matching your pace.
That's when you see himâa young man leaning against a pillar, scrolling through his phone. He's striking even under the harsh station lights, with delicate features contrasted by sharp eyes and broad shoulders. Something about him radiates both gentleness and strength. You make a split-second decision.
You approach him quickly, heart pounding in your ears.
"Excuse me," you say softly, your voice shakier than you'd like. "Can you please pretend to be my boyfriend for a minute? There's someone following me."
He looks up from his phone, confusion crossing his face for only a moment before his eyes flick past you, assessing the situation with remarkable speed. His expression shifts to understanding, then determination.
"Of course, babe," he says loudly enough to be overheard, smoothly slipping his phone into his pocket. "I was wondering when you'd get here."
In one fluid motion, he wraps an arm around your waist, pulling you closer. The warmth of his body against yours is startling but comforting.
"He's still watching," the stranger whispers against your hair. "Is that the guy? Black jacket, about five-nine?"
You nod almost imperceptibly.
"I'm Heeseung, by the way," he murmurs, maintaining the charade by playing with a strand of your hair.
"I'm Y/N," you whisper back.
You both stand there for a moment, locked in an embrace that feels both foreign and strangely safe. But you can still feel the stalker's eyes boring into your back.
"He's not buying it," Heeseung says quietly, his breath warm against your ear. Then, even softer: "Want me to kiss you? Might be more convincing."
Your eyes widen slightly, but the footsteps behind you seem to be getting closer. You nod again, bracing yourself.
Heeseung's hand gently tilts your chin upward. His eyes meet yours, silently asking one more time if this is okay. There's something unexpectedly tender in his gaze that makes your breath catch. Then he leans down, pressing his lips against yours.
The kiss is gentle at first, almost hesitantâthe kiss of strangers playing a part. But as his arms tighten around you, something shifts. His lips move more confidently against yours, and you find yourself responding, your hands instinctively moving to his shoulders. For a brief moment, you forget about the man watching you, forget that this is all pretend. There is only the softness of Heeseung's lips and the steadiness of his hands at your waist.
When you finally break apart, you're both slightly breathless. Heeseung's eyes search yours for a moment before he looks past you, his expression hardening.
"He's still there," he says, voice lower now, a protective edge creeping in. "What's this guy's problem?"
The stalker stands several feet away, his stare unrelenting, suspicious. Clearly, your performance hasn't convinced him.
Something in Heeseung snaps. He steps slightly in front of you, shielding you with his body.
"What are you looking at?" he calls out, his voice echoing in the nearly empty station. "You need something?"
The man doesn't respond, just continues staring.
"What?" Heeseung's voice rises, anger evident. "You need more proof? Want me to fuck her in front of you too?"
You grab Heeseung's arm, both shocked and grateful for his protective fury. The few remaining commuters on the platform turn to stare.
The stalker finally breaks his gaze, muttering something under his breath before walking toward the exit. But the look he gives you before he turns away sends ice through your veinsâthis isn't over.
"Hey, are you okay?" Heeseung asks, turning back to you, his expression immediately softening. "Sorry if I went too far. I just couldn't stand the way he was looking at you."
"Thank you," you manage, suddenly aware that you're trembling. "I don't know what I would have done if you hadn't been here."
"Which way are you headed?" he asks, concern etched across his features.
"I'm two stops down, but I think I'll just get a taxi now."
"I'll wait with you," he says firmly. "Or I can ride with you the rest of the way, if you want."
As you both head toward the exit, you feel Heeseung's hand gently rest against the small of your backâa protective gesture that makes you feel safer than you have all night.
Neither of you notice the stalker watching from the shadows as you leave the station together, his eyes narrowed with suspicion and something more dangerous simmering beneath.
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The taxi ride is quiet, the silence broken only by the occasional direction you give the driver. Heeseung sits beside you, a respectful distance between you now, but his presence remains solid and reassuring. The adrenaline from earlier is beginning to wear off, leaving you feeling drained and slightly embarrassed.
"I'm really sorry about all of this," you finally say, glancing over at him. In the dim light of the passing streetlamps, his profile looks almost ethereal. "I can't believe I dragged a complete stranger into my problems."
Heeseung turns to you, his expression earnest. "Don't apologize. That guy was seriously creepy. Anyone would have needed help."
"Not everyone would have helped the way you did," you point out. "Most people would have just walked away."
He shrugs, a small smile playing at his lips. "Well, I'm not most people."
The taxi pulls up to your apartment building, and you reach for your wallet, but Heeseung already has his card out.
"Please, let me," he insists, paying the driver before you can protest.
"You really don't have toâ"
"Consider it my good deed for the day," he says with a gentle smile that makes something flutter in your chest.
You both step out onto the sidewalk, and suddenly you're not sure how to end this strange encounter. A handshake seems too formal after what you've shared, but anything more feels presumptuous.
"I'd feel better if I saw you safely to your door," Heeseung says, breaking the awkward moment. "If that's okay with you."
You nod, grateful for his consideration, and lead him into the building. The elevator ride to the fifth floor is quiet, but not uncomfortable. Standing next to him, you notice he smells faintly of sandalwood and something uniquely his own.
When you reach your apartment door, you turn to face him. "Thank you again. Seriously. I don't know what I would have done if you hadn't been there."
"I'm just glad I could help," he says, and there's a sincerity in his voice that's rare these days.
An idea strikes you. "Wait here for a second?" You unlock your door and rush inside, grabbing a pen and scrap of paper from the entryway table. You quickly scribble your number on it, then return to the hallway where Heeseung waits patiently.
"Here," you say, offering him the paper. "In case you ever need someone to pretend to be your girlfriend." You attempt a joke to lighten the moment, though your heart beats a little faster as he takes the paper.
Heeseung looks at your number, then back at you, a slow smile spreading across his face. He pulls out his phone, inputs your number, and then you feel your phone vibrate in your pocket.
"Now you have mine too," he says. "If you ever feel unsafe again or if that guy shows up, call me. Doesn't matter what time."
"I couldn't possiblyâ"
"I mean it," he interrupts, his expression turning serious. "Promise me you'll call if anything happens."
Something about the intensity in his eyes makes you nod. "I promise."
"Good." His expression softens again. "Get some rest, Y/N. It's been a long night."
"You too, Heeseung."
He waits until you're safely inside with the door locked before you hear his footsteps retreating down the hallway.
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The next morning, the whole encounter feels almost like a dream. You might have convinced yourself it was, if not for the new contact in your phone: "Heeseung (Subway Hero)."
Life returns to normal surprisingly fast. You're more cautious on your commute, taking earlier trains and staying in crowded cars, but there's no sign of the creepy man. After a week passes without incident, you begin to relax.
You think about texting Heeseung several times. Your finger hovers over his contact information, but what would you say? "Thanks again for pretending to be my boyfriend and kissing me"? "Want to grab coffee sometime when I'm not being stalked"? Everything sounds awkward or presumptuous. He was just being kind to a stranger in trouble. You don't want to mistaken his kindness for interest.
So you don't text him, and the days pass.
Almost two weeks after the subway incident, you're working late at the office. The design project you've been assigned has a tight deadline, and you've lost track of time staring at your computer screen. When you finally look up, it's past 10 PM, and you're the only one left on your floor.
You pack up quickly, suddenly aware of how quiet and empty the building feels. In the elevator down to the lobby, you check your phone and see a notification for an email from an address you don't recognize.
The subject line reads: "I SAW YOU WITH HIM."
A chill runs down your spine. You should delete it without opening it, but morbid curiosity gets the better of you. The message contains just one line:
"I know he's not really your boyfriend."
Your hands start to shake. Below the text is a photoâof you and Heeseung leaving the subway station together that night. The angle suggests it was taken from a distance, from someone following behind.
As you step out of the elevator into the dimly lit lobby, another email notification appears. Same sender.
"You're alone now. Look up."
Your heart nearly stops. Slowly, you raise your head from your phone screen and scan the lobby. At first, you see nothing unusualâjust the security desk (empty at this hour), the entrance doors, the row of potted plants along the wall.
Then a shadow moves near the entrance, and you see him. The man from the subway, watching you through the glass doors, that same cold smile on his face.
Without thinking, you step back into the elevator and frantically press the button for your floor. As the doors close, you see him moving toward the building entrance.
Your fingers tremble as you pull up Heeseung's contact. It's been two weeks. He probably doesn't even remember you. But you promised.
He answers on the second ring.
"Y/N?" His voice is alert, not groggy despite the hour. "Is everything okay?"
"He found me," you whisper, watching the elevator numbers climb. "The guy from the subway. He's here at my office building. He has pictures of us. He knowsâhe knows you're not really my boyfriend."
There's a brief silence, then Heeseung's voice comes through, calm but urgent. "Where exactly are you now?"
"In the elevator, going back up to my office. I don't think he can get past building security without a keycard, but he was right outside."
"Okay, listen to me. Go back to your office, lock the door if you can. What's the address?"
You tell him, surprised at how clearly you remember his address despite your panic.
"I'm leaving now. I'll be there in fifteen minutes. Stay on the phone with me, okay?"
"Okay," you manage, stepping out of the elevator and hurrying down the hallway to your office. You lock the door behind you, then turn off the lights and move away from the windows. "I'm sorry to drag you into this again."
"Don't apologize," he says, and you can hear rustling in the background, the jingle of keys. "I told you to call if anything happened."
"I know, butâ"
"Y/N," he interrupts gently. "I'm glad you called. I've been thinking about you anyway."
Despite everything, a small flutter of warmth spreads through your chest at his words.
"He thinks I'm your boyfriend?" Heeseung continues, and you hear a door slam shut on his end. "What are you going to do about this guy?"
"I don't know," you admit, sinking down beneath your desk, phone clutched to your ear like a lifeline. "I guess I should file a police report, butâ"
Your sentence is cut short by another email notification. With dread, you open it to find another pictureâthis one of your office building, with a simple message: "I'll wait."
"Heeseung," you whisper, fear making your voice crack. "Please hurry."
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"I'm five minutes away," Heeseung reassures you, his voice steady despite the sound of rapid footsteps on his end. "Stay where you are and keep talking to me."
You curl up tighter beneath your desk, eyes fixed on the locked office door. The building is eerily quiet at this hourâevery distant sound making your heart race. Is that the elevator? Footsteps in the stairwell? Your imagination is turning every creak and hum of the building into a threat.
"Tell me about your day," Heeseung says suddenly.
"What?"
"Your day. What were you working on that kept you at the office so late?" His tone is deliberately casual, trying to distract you from the panic.
You take a shaky breath. "A design project for a new client. They're launching a sustainable clothing line and needed the branding finalized by tomorrow morning." Speaking helpsâfocusing on normal things makes the situation feel slightly less terrifying.
"You're a designer?" There's genuine interest in his voice.
"Graphic designer, yeah. What about you? What do you do when you're not rescuing strangers on the subway?" You attempt a weak joke.
There's a soft chuckle on the other end. "Music production, mostly. I work at a studio downtown."
"That sounds amazing," you say, briefly forgetting your fear. "Do you work with anyone I might know?"
"Maybe. I've worked withâ" He cuts himself off. "I'm at your building now. Is there a security guard?"
"There should be, but I didn't see anyone when I was in the lobby."
"There's no one here now either," Heeseung says, his voice lower. "How do I get up to your floor?"
"You need a keycard for the elevator after hours," you explain, anxiety flooding back. "But waitâif there's no security guard, where did he go? And how would the stalker get in without a card?"
There's a moment of silence before Heeseung responds, his voice tight. "I don't know, but I don't like it. Is there another way up? A stairwell?"
"Yes, but it needs a keycard tooâ" You stop as another email notification appears. With trembling fingers, you open it.
The message contains just three words: "I'M INSIDE NOW."
"Heeseung," you whisper, terror making your voice almost inaudible. "He says he's inside the building."
"Shit," he mutters. Then, more decisively: "I'm going to try something. What floor are you on?"
"Seventh."
"Give me two minutes."
The line goes quiet except for the sound of Heeseung's breathing and occasional grunts of effort. You're about to ask what he's doing when you hear a distant alarm begin to wail.
"What's happening?" you ask.
"Fire alarm," Heeseung explains, slightly out of breath. "Building security will unlock automatically. I'm coming up the stairs now."
Relief washes over youâuntil you realize that if the security systems are overridden, there's nothing keeping the stalker from accessing your floor either.
As if reading your thoughts, Heeseung speaks again. "Stay hidden. I'll be there soon. Which office number?"
"705. It's at the end of the hallway on the right when you come out of the stairwell."
"Got it. Almost there."
You hear the sound of a door banging open through the phone, then rapid footsteps. A moment later, there's a gentle knock at your office door.
"Y/N? It's me."
You scramble out from under the desk and rush to the door, pressing your ear against it. "Heeseung?"
"It's me," he confirms. "Open the door."
Your hands shake as you unlock the door. The moment it opens, Heeseung slips inside, immediately locking it behind him. In the dim emergency lighting, you can see he's breathing hard, hair slightly damp with sweatâhe must have run the entire way.
Without thinking, you throw your arms around him, the relief of seeing a friendly face overwhelming in your state of fear. He stiffens in surprise for just a moment before his arms wrap around you, holding you securely.
"Are you okay?" he murmurs against your hair.
You nod against his chest, embarrassed but unable to pull away just yet. His heartbeat is rapid beneath your ear, his body warm and solidâan anchor in the storm of your fear.
When you finally step back, you notice he's scanning the room, eyes alert and wary. "We should go. The fire department will be here soon because of the alarm, but I don't want to risk running into this guy."
"Okay," you agree, quickly gathering your belongings.
Heeseung peers out the office door, checking the hallway. "Clear. Let's go to the stairsâthey're closer than the elevator."
He takes your hand as you hurry down the corridor, his grip firm and reassuring. At the stairwell door, he pauses, listening intently before pushing it open.
"Stay close," he instructs as you begin descending.
You're halfway between the fifth and fourth floors when a door slams somewhere below you. Heeseung freezes, pushing you gently against the wall, his body shielding yours. You both listen, hardly breathing.
Footsteps on the stairsâcoming up.
Heeseung's eyes meet yours, his expression tense but determined. Silently, he gestures upward. You nod in understanding.
As quietly as possible, you both backtrack, climbing up instead of down. When you reach the eighth floor, Heeseung carefully opens the door, checking that the hallway is clear before pulling you through.
"We'll try the elevator on this floor," he whispers. "The alarm should have reset the security lockdowns."
The eighth floor is darker than yours, with only emergency exit signs providing dim red illumination. Heeseung keeps your hand firmly in his as you navigate to the elevator bank. He presses the call button, and you both watch anxiously as the numbers climb from the lobby.
The distant sound of a door opening makes you both tense. Heeseung positions himself slightly in front of you, his stance protective.
The elevator seems to take forever. Three... Four... Five...
"If something happens," Heeseung says quietly, "run. Don't wait for me."
You're about to protest when the elevator finally arrives with a soft chime. The doors slide open, and you both quickly step inside. Heeseung jabs the lobby button repeatedly, then the door close button.
As the doors begin to shut, you catch a glimpse of a figure at the end of the hallwayâa man in a dark jacket. Your breath catches.
The doors close fully, and the elevator begins its descent.
"That was him," you whisper, leaning against the wall for support. "That was definitely him."
Heeseung's jaw tightens, a mixture of anger and concern crossing his features. "When we get to the lobby, we're going straight to my car. No stopping, okay?"
You nod, trying to calm your racing heart.
The elevator reaches the lobby, doors opening to reveal chaos. The fire alarm has drawn several security personnel and what looks like the beginning of a fire department response. In the confusion, you and Heeseung slip out relatively unnoticed, his arm around your waist guiding you swiftly through the crowd and out to the street.
"This way," he says, leading you to a sleek black car parked half on the curbâhe must have been in a hurry when he arrived.
Once inside with the doors locked, you finally allow yourself to take a deep breath. Heeseung starts the engine but doesn't immediately drive away.
"Are you hurt at all?" he asks, turning to examine you with concern.
"No, I'm fine," you assure him, though your hands are still trembling. "Just scared."
He nods, reaching out to briefly squeeze your hand before putting the car in drive. "I'm taking you to my place," he says, pulling away from the curb. "I don't think it's safe for you to go home tonight."
Under normal circumstances, going to a near-stranger's apartment would set off all kinds of alarm bells. But nothing about this situation is normal, and the safety Heeseung represents outweighs any reservation you might have.
"Thank you," you say simply.
He glances in the rearview mirror frequently as he drives, checking that you're not being followed. The adrenaline is starting to wear off, leaving you feeling drained and slightly nauseous.
"I should call the police," you say after a few minutes of silence.
"Definitely," Heeseung agrees. "But let's get somewhere safe first."
His apartment turns out to be in a secure building with underground parking and a doormanâfacts that provide immediate relief. Inside, the space is surprisingly homey: a modern open-concept layout with warm lighting and comfortable furnishings. A keyboard and small recording setup occupies one corner of the living area, confirming his earlier mention of music production.
"Make yourself at home," he says, gesturing to the couch. "I'll get you some water."
As he moves to the kitchen, you sink onto the sofa, the events of the night finally catching up to you. Your phone chimes with another email notification, and you nearly drop it in fear.
Heeseung notices your reaction, returning quickly with a glass of water. "Another message from him?"
You nod, unable to open it.
"May I?" he asks, holding out his hand for your phone.
You pass it to him, watching as he opens the email, his expression darkening as he reads.
"What does it say?" you ask, not sure you want to know.
Heeseung looks up, his eyes filled with protective anger. "He says he knows you're with me now. That you've 'chosen your side.' And that he'll be watching both of us." He sets your phone down. "We're definitely calling the police. This is serious stalking."
While Heeseung contacts the authorities, you sip your water, trying to make sense of this nightmare. How did this happen? One random encounter on the subway has spiraled into a genuine threat to your safety. And Heeseungâa complete stranger two weeks agoâis now putting himself at risk to keep you safe.
When he finishes the call, he sits beside you on the couch, close enough that you can feel his warmth but not touching. "They're sending someone over to take your statement. They also advised documenting everythingâall the messages, photos, any evidence of him following you."
You nod, staring down at your hands. "I'm so sorry for involving you in this."
"Hey," he says gently, waiting until you look up at him. "None of this is your fault. And I'm not sorry I helped you that night, even if it means being involved now."
"Why?" The question slips out before you can stop it. "Why would you do all this for someone you barely know?"
Heeseung is quiet for a moment, seemingly considering the question carefully. "I've seen what happens when people look the other way," he finally says. "My sister had a stalker in college. Not as extreme as this, but scary enough. People knewâher friends, her roommatesâbut no one really did anything. They thought it wasn't their problem." His voice hardens slightly. "I won't be that person. Not ever."
The personal revelation surprises you. "I'm sorry about your sister. Is she okay now?"
He nods. "She's fine. It eventually stopped, but it affected her for a long time. Made it hard for her to trust people." He meets your eyes. "That's why I want to help you end this now, before it gets worse."
His words wrap around you like a shield, and for the first time since you saw that man on the subway, you feel truly protected.
"Thank you," you say again, the words inadequate but sincere.
The police arrive about twenty minutes laterâa female officer who takes your statement professionally and thoroughly. She confirms what Heeseung already said: document everything, file for a restraining order as soon as possible, and take precautions with your personal security.
"What about tonight?" you ask as she's preparing to leave. "Is it safe for me to go home?"
The officer hesitates. "We can have a patrol car drive by your residence periodically, but we don't have the resources for constant surveillance. Do you have someone who can stay with you? A friend or family member?"
Before you can answer, Heeseung speaks up. "She can stay here. I have a spare room, security building, doorman. She'll be safe."
The officer looks between the two of you. "That would certainly be safer than being alone," she agrees. "And it might be good to have someone with you for the next few days at least, until we can locate this individual."
After she leaves, a quiet falls over the apartment. You're exhausted but too wired to sleep, and the thought of imposing on Heeseung even more makes you uncomfortable.
"I can take you home if you'd prefer," he offers, reading your hesitation. "Or to a friend's place, or a hotel."
You consider the options, but the thought of being aloneâor explaining this bizarre situation to a friend in the middle of the nightâseems overwhelming. And a hotel doesn't offer the same security as Heeseung's building.
"If you really don't mind, staying here would make me feel safer," you admit. "Just for tonight. I can figure something else out tomorrow."
"I don't mind at all," he says, and there's such sincerity in his voice that you believe him. "Let me show you the guest room and find you something to sleep in."
The spare room is simple but comfortable, with a queen-sized bed and attached bathroom. Heeseung lends you a soft t-shirt and sweatpants that dwarf your frame but are clean and comfortable.
"Try to get some rest," he says, lingering in the doorway. "I'm right across the hall if you need anything. Anything at all."
"Thank you, Heeseung," you say, the words becoming something of a mantra between you. "For everything."
He smilesâa small, tired smile that still manages to reach his eyes. "Good night, Y/N."
After he leaves, you sit on the edge of the bed, overwhelmed by the events of the day. You should be terrifiedâand you areâbut there's also a strange sense of security that comes from knowing Heeseung is just across the hall. A man who was a stranger two weeks ago has become your shield against a nightmare you never saw coming.
When you finally lay down, exhaustion quickly overtakes your racing thoughts. You fall asleep to the distant sound of Heeseung moving around the apartment, the knowledge of his presence a comfort in the darkness.
-
You wake to sunlight filtering through unfamiliar curtains and the smell of coffee. For a moment, disorientation grips youâuntil memories of the previous night come flooding back. The stalker, the chase through your office building, Heeseung's rescue, and now... his guest bedroom.
After using the bathroom and attempting to make yourself somewhat presentable, you venture out to the main living area. Heeseung is in the kitchen, back turned to you as he works at the counter. He's wearing a plain white t-shirt and gray sweatpants, his hair slightly rumpled from sleep.
He turns at the sound of your approach, offering a gentle smile. "Morning. How did you sleep?"
"Better than I expected," you admit. "Something smells amazing."
"Coffee and breakfast," he says, gesturing to the stove where eggs are cooking. "I figured you might be hungry."
The thoughtfulness of the gesture catches you off guard. "Thank you. Again."
He waves it off. "Sit. Eat. Then we can figure out what to do next."
Over breakfast, you both discuss the situation more calmly than was possible the night before. You need clothes and personal items from your apartment, but the thought of going there alone makes your stomach clench.
"I'll go with you," Heeseung offers immediately. "And I still think you should stay here for a few days, at least until the police locate this guy."
"I can't impose on you like that," you protest.
"You're not imposing if I'm offering," he counters. "Look, this guy has clearly fixated on both of us now. It makes sense to stick together." His expression softens. "Plus, I'd worry about you being alone."
The admission brings unexpected comfort. "Okay," you agree. "Just until they find him."
After breakfast, Heeseung insists on driving you to your apartment to collect some essentials. The daylight makes the situation feel less threatening, but you're still jumpy, constantly checking over your shoulder. Heeseung stays close, his presence a constant reassurance.
At your apartment, everything looks normalâno signs of disturbance or intrusion. You quickly pack a bag with clothes and necessities for a few days, while Heeseung checks each room, making sure the space is secure.
"All clear," he reports when you finish packing. "But we should let your building manager know what's happening. And you might want to consider getting your locks changed, just in case."
The practicality of his advice grounds you. This isn't just a nightmare to be endured; there are concrete steps you can take to protect yourself.
Back at Heeseung's apartment, you call your boss to explain the situation (leaving out some of the more frightening details) and arrange to work remotely for a few days. Heeseung does the same, rescheduling his studio sessions to work from home instead.
"You don't have to do that," you tell him. "I'll be fine here alone."
"I know," he says. "But I'd rather be here. Just in case."
The rest of the day passes in a strange bubble of temporary safety. You work on your laptop from his dining table while he tinkers with music tracks at his home studio setup. Occasionally, one of you will make coffee or suggest ordering food, and you find yourself settling into an easy rhythm despite the bizarre circumstances.
In the evening, after dinner (takeout from a nearby Thai place), you sit together on the couch, the TV playing a movie neither of you is really watching. Your mind keeps returning to the danger lurking outsideâand to the stranger who has become your protector.
"Can I ask you something?" you finally say.
Heeseung turns to you, giving you his full attention. "Of course."
"That night on the subway platform... when you helped me..." You hesitate, searching for the right words. "Why did you believe me right away? Most people would have thought I was crazy."
He's quiet for a moment, his expression thoughtful. "The fear in your eyes was real," he finally says. "I've seen that kind of fear before. It's not something people fake." His gaze is steady, sincere. "And honestly, what did I have to lose by helping? If you were making it up, the worst that happens is I feel a little awkward for a few minutes. But if you weren't..." He shrugs. "Then maybe I could help keep someone safe."
His simple explanation touches something deep inside you. In a world where so many people turn away from others' problems, Heeseung's instinct was to step forward, to protect.
"Well," you say softly, "you definitely did that. Twice now."
A small smile tugs at his lips. "And I'll keep doing it until this is over."
Your phones sit side by side on the coffee table, both silent for now. But you know the stalker will contact you again. And when he does, you won't be facing him alone.
In this moment of quiet, with the city lights twinkling beyond the windows and Heeseung's steady presence beside you, you allow yourself to breathe. The danger hasn't passed, but for now, in this space, you're safe. And that's enough.
-
The following day, a detective calls to update you on the case. Heeseung sits next to you on the couch as you put the call on speaker, his presence steady and reassuring.
"We've identified the individual from the security footage," the detective explains, her voice professional but tinged with concern. "His name is Lee Minhyuk. He has a history of stalking behavior."
You feel Heeseung tense beside you. "What kind of history?" he asks.
There's a brief pause on the line. "I don't want to alarm you unnecessarily, but you should both be aware that this isn't his first fixation. He's been linked to at least two similar cases in the past three years."
"And?" you prompt, sensing there's more she isn't saying.
"And in the most recent case, the situation escalated to physical violence." The detective's voice becomes more serious. "The victim had a restraining order in place, but Minhyuk violated it. She was hospitalized with non-life-threatening injuries. He served eight months before being released on good behavior."
Your blood runs cold. Beside you, Heeseung's jaw clenches, his eyes darkening with anger and concern.
"So what happens now?" you ask, trying to keep your voice steady despite the fear churning in your stomach.
"We're actively looking for him," the detective assures you. "We have units checking his known addresses and places of employment. But until we locate him, you need to take every possible precaution."
"What about police protection?" Heeseung asks.
Another pause. "Unfortunately, we don't have the resources to provide continuous protection at this time. We can increase patrols in both your neighborhoods, butâ"
"That's not good enough," Heeseung interrupts, frustration evident in his voice. "If this guy is violentâ"
"I understand your concern," the detective says. "Believe me, I do. But the best advice I can give you right now is to stay together, maintain awareness of your surroundings, continue documenting any contact he makes, and call 911 immediately if you believe you're in danger."
After hanging up, you sit in stunned silence. The abstract threat has suddenly become terrifyingly concreteâa real person with a name and a violent history.
"Y/N?" Heeseung says softly, concern etched across his features. "Talk to me."
"I didn't think it would be this serious," you whisper, your voice barely audible. "A violent stalker? How is this happening to me?"
Heeseung reaches for your hand, his warm fingers wrapping around yours. "We'll get through this," he says firmly. "I'm not going to let anything happen to you. We just need to be careful until they find him."
You nod, but the detective's words echo in your mind: escalated to physical violence... hospitalized... released on good behavior.
That night, despite Heeseung's reassurances and the security of his apartment, sleep eludes you. You toss and turn in the guest bed, startling at every small noise in the building. When exhaustion finally pulls you under, your dreams are plagued by shadows and footsteps and cold, unblinking eyes watching you from dark corners.
You wake screaming sometime after 3 AM, drenched in sweat, the nightmare still vivid in your mind. In it, the stalkerâMinhyukâhad broken into the apartment and was standing over the bed, watching you sleep, something glinting in his hand.
Before you can fully register what's happening, the bedroom door bursts open and Heeseung is there, hair disheveled from sleep but eyes alert and searching for danger.
"Y/N? What's wrong?" he asks urgently, scanning the room before rushing to your side.
"Nightmare," you manage, still trembling. "I'm sorryâI didn't mean to wake you."
The tension in his shoulders eases slightly, but concern remains etched across his features. "Don't apologize," he says, sitting on the edge of the bed. "Do you want to talk about it?"
You shake your head, embarrassed by your reaction despite the lingering terror. "It was just a bad dream."
Heeseung studies your face for a moment, clearly unconvinced. "Would it help if I stayed? Just until you fall back asleep?"
The offer is so sincere, so free of judgment, that tears spring to your eyes. You nod, unable to voice how desperately you don't want to be alone right now.
Without another word, Heeseung moves to sit with his back against the headboard. After a moment's hesitation, you lay back down, surprised by how much safer you feel with him there. He doesn't touch you, but the sound of his steady breathing eventually lulls you back to sleep.
The pattern repeats the next night, and the next. Each time, the nightmares grow more vivid, more terrifying. Each time, you wake calling Heeseung's name, and each time he's there within moments, a solid presence against the fear.
The third morning after another disrupted night, you find Heeseung already in the kitchen when you emerge from the guest room. Dark circles shadow his eyesâclear evidence of his own interrupted sleepâbut he smiles warmly when he sees you.
"Morning," he says, sliding a mug of coffee across the counter. "Just how you like it. Two sugars, splash of milk."
You're touched that he's noticed this detail about you in such a short time. "Thank you. I'm really sorry about last night. Again."
He waves away your apology. "Stop apologizing. It's not your fault."
"But you're exhausted too," you point out, gesturing to the faint shadows under his eyes.
Instead of denying it, Heeseung reaches into a cabinet and pulls out a colorful box. "Nothing that sugar can't fix," he declares with a mischievous grin, presenting the box of Frosted Flakes with a flourish. "Breakfast of champions."
The childish delight on his face as he pours two bowls is so incongruous with the somber situation that you can't help but laugh. "Seriously? Frosted Flakes?"
"Don't judge," he says, defending his choice with mock seriousness. "Tony the Tiger has gotten me through some tough times."
You accept the bowl he offers, taking a bite and exaggerating your enjoyment. "Mmm, you're right. They're grrrreat!"
Your tiger impression is terrible, and it makes Heeseung burst into laughter, nearly choking on his cereal. The sound is bright and genuine, lightening the heaviness that's hung between you for days. For a moment, it's easy to forget why you're hereâthat somewhere out there, someone is looking for you.
"So," Heeseung says when you've both calmed down, "I was thinking we could watch a movie tonight. Something completely mindless and happy. No suspense, no thriller elements, nothing remotely scary."
"That sounds perfect," you admit.
That evening, after you both finish work, Heeseung makes good on his promise. He builds what can only be described as a pillow fortress on the couch, complete with every cushion and throw blanket in the apartment. He microwaves popcorn and pulls out an assortment of candy that would make a dentist cry.
"What are you, twelve?" you tease, but you're smiling as you say it.
"Sometimes," he admits with a shrug. "Being an adult is overrated."
You settle into the nest of pillows as he scrolls through options on the TV. He ends up selecting an animated film about dragons that's clearly meant for children but is visually stunning enough for adults to enjoy. As the movie plays, you find yourself relaxing more than you have in days, occasionally stealing glances at Heeseung as he laughs unreservedly at the funny parts.
When the movie ends, neither of you makes a move to get up right away. The comfortable silence stretches between you, broken only when Heeseung reaches for his phone.
"Oh God," he says suddenly, covering his mouth to suppress his laughter. "Have you seen this?"
He passes you his phone, showing a ridiculous viral video of a cat walking dramatically to music. It's silly and inconsequential, but soon you're both laughing uncontrollably, sharing more videos and memes back and forth, your shoulders pressed together as you huddle over the small screen.
For the first time since this nightmare began, you feel normal. Just two people enjoying each other's company, finding joy in the absurd corners of the internet. The shared laughter creates a bubble around you both, keeping the fear at bay, if only temporarily.
Eventually, the hour grows late, and you can't suppress a yawn.
"Time for bed," Heeseung says, noticing immediately. Something flickers across his faceâconcern, perhaps, knowing what sleep has meant for you these past few nights.
On the fourth night, after a particularly brutal nightmare where you couldn't scream, couldn't move as Minhyuk approached, Heeseung makes a gentle suggestion over breakfast.
"Maybe it would help if I just stayed in the room from the start," he offers, his voice careful, non-presumptuous. "The guest bed is plenty big enough. I can sleep on top of the covers if that makes you more comfortable."
The idea of not being alone with your fears is so appealing that you agree without hesitation. "Are you sure you don't mind? I feel like I'm completely disrupting your life."
"You're not," he says simply. "I'd rather be here than listen to you suffer alone."
That evening, a new kind of awkwardness creeps in as bedtime approaches. You've never prepared for sleep knowing Heeseung would be there from the beginning. The nighttime routine you've developed over the past few daysâbrushing teeth side by side at the dual bathroom sinks, moving around each other with careful politenessâsuddenly feels different, charged with awareness.
"I'll give you privacy to change," Heeseung says, retreating from the guest room after retrieving what he needs for the night.
When he returns fifteen minutes later, hair damp from a shower and wearing a soft t-shirt and sweatpants, you've already changed into the pajamas you borrowed from him (a t-shirt so large it reaches mid-thigh and a pair of shorts with a drawstring pulled tight). You're sitting cross-legged on the bed, scrolling through your phone, trying to appear casual though your heart beats a little faster at the sight of him.
"I found something," he says, holding up a small bottle. "Lavender spray for the pillows. My sister swears by it for better sleep." He looks suddenly self-conscious. "It's probably sillyâ"
"No, it's... that's really thoughtful," you interrupt, genuinely touched by the gesture.
He approaches the bed hesitantly. "May I?"
You nod, and he lightly mists the pillows with the fragrant spray. The gentle scent fills the air, surprisingly comforting.
"And I have one more thing," he adds, reaching into his pocket and producing a small portable speaker. He places it on the nightstand and connects his phone. Soft piano music begins to play, quiet enough to not be distracting. "I use this when I can't turn my brain off after a long day in the studio."
The care he's putting into making you comfortable brings a lump to your throat. "Heeseung, you didn't have to do all this."
He shrugs, a shy smile playing at his lips. "I want you to actually sleep tonight."
You both settle into the bed, Heeseung on top of the covers as promised, you underneath them. Despite the physical barrier of the duvet between you, there's an intimacy to sharing this space intentionally, rather than him rushing in after a nightmare has already claimed you.
"Good night, Y/N," he says softly, reaching to turn off the lamp.
"Good night, Heeseung," you reply, the lavender scent and gentle music already making your eyelids heavy.
You sleep better that nightânot perfectly, but the nightmares, when they come, are less intense. Heeseung's presence seems to anchor you, giving your subconscious something to hold onto when the fear threatens to drag you under.
The next morning, you wake to find Heeseung already gone, the side of the bed where he slept neatly made. For a moment, disappointment washes over you until the smell of coffee draws you to the kitchen.
"Perfect timing," he says when he sees you, sliding a plate of toast and scrambled eggs across the counter. "I was just about to come wake you."
"You didn't have to cook," you say, though your stomach growls appreciatively at the sight of the food.
"I didn't mind. Besides, you slept past nine. I was starting to worry you were hibernating." His teasing smile makes the kitchen feel warmer somehow.
Over the next few days, a new rhythm emerges. During daylight hours, you share the apartment comfortably, each working on your respective projects but coming together for meals and breaks. You learn that Heeseung is meticulous about some things (the organization of his music equipment) and charmingly chaotic about others (the state of his sock drawer). He learns that you're grumpy before coffee but surprisingly cheerful during thunderstorms.
Small rituals develop without discussion. Morning coffee prepared just the way you like it waiting for you when you wake up. Evening walks around the secure courtyard of his building, his hand finding yours whenever you pass through a shadowy area. Movie nights where neither of you watches the screen as much as you share childhood stories or debate the merits of different ice cream flavors.
At night, you continue to share the bed, the arrangement becoming less awkward with each passing evening. Your bedtime routine evolves into something almost domesticâHeeseung reading a book while you finish an email, you applying lotion to your hands while he sets the alarm, both of you gravitating to your respective sides of the bed with increasing comfort.
One night, as you're both getting ready for sleep, Heeseung emerges from the bathroom wearing a ridiculous sheet mask that makes him look like a cartoon character.
"What on earth is that?" you ask, unable to contain your laughter.
"Skin care is important," he says with exaggerated seriousness, his voice slightly muffled by the mask. "This one makes me look like a panda. There's a tiger one too if you want to join me."
"Absolutely not," you declare, still giggling.
"Your loss," he shrugs, before lifting his phone. "Wait, this requires documentation."
He sits beside you on the bed, holding up his phone to take a selfie. You try to duck away, but his arm catches you around the shoulders, pulling you into the frame. "Say cheese!"
"I am not posing with you looking like that!" you protest, but you're laughing too hard to resist properly.
He snaps several photos in quick succession, capturing your failed attempts to escape and your helpless laughter. When he shows you the results, you have to admit they're hilariousâHeeseung looking serene in his panda mask while you're caught mid-laugh, head thrown back, joy written across your features.
"Delete those," you demand without any real heat.
"No way," he replies, holding the phone out of your reach. "These are artistic masterpieces."
You make a grab for the phone, but he's quicker, holding it high above his head. What follows is a playful tussle that ends with you both breathless with laughter, the momentary physical contact feeling natural rather than forced or awkward.
Later, when you're both settled in bed, lights off and the now-familiar lavender scent surrounding you, Heeseung speaks softly in the darkness.
"It was good to hear you laugh like that," he says.
You turn toward his voice, though you can only make out his silhouette in the dim light filtering through the curtains. "It felt good to laugh," you admit. "Thank you for... all of this. For making this situation somehow bearable."
"You don't have to thank me," he says, and you can hear the smile in his voice. "Besides, now I have blackmail material with those photos."
You swat blindly in his direction, your hand connecting with what feels like his shoulder. He chuckles, the sound warming you from the inside.
By the sixth day of your stay, with no word from the police about Minhyuk's whereabouts, your new routine has solidified. During the day, you both work from the apartment, occasionally sharing meals or brief conversations. In the evenings, you watch movies or talk, carefully avoiding discussion of the situation unless there are new developments. And at night, you sleep in the same bed, the space between you a boundary neither has crossed.
Until tonight.
Something wakes youânot a nightmare this time, but some small sound or shift in the atmosphere. The digital clock on the nightstand reads 2:17 AM. The room is dark except for the faint glow of streetlights filtering through the curtains.
That's when you feel it. The sensation of being watched.
Your eyes dart to the window, heart hammering in your chest. The logical part of your brain knows it's impossibleâyou're on the twelfth floor, the windows don't open more than a few inches, and there's no balcony or fire escape. But in the shadows cast by the streetlights, every flutter of the curtain looks like movement, every reflection like eyes staring back.
You close your eyes tightly, telling yourself it's just paranoia, just your mind playing tricks in the aftermath of so much stress and fear. But when you open them again, the feeling intensifies. You swear you can see a figure in the darkest corner of the room, watching, waiting.
A sob builds in your throat, but you suppress it, not wanting to wake Heeseung again, not wanting to be more of a burden than you already are. Silent tears slide down your cheeks as you stare at the ceiling, trying to control your breathing, trying to convince yourself you're safe.
But your body betrays you. A small tremor runs through you, then another, until you're shaking with the effort of containing your fear.
Beside you, Heeseung stirs. You feel him turn toward you, hear the soft intake of breath as he realizes you're awake and crying.
"Y/N?" His voice emerges from the darkness, heavy with sleep and barely above a whisper. "What's happening?"
You can hear how deeply he'd been sleeping in the thickness of his words, the way he has to clear his throat softly after speaking. The digital clock reads 2:17 AM.
"I'm sorry," you whisper back, voice breaking. "I didn't mean to wake you. Go back to sleep."
There's a rustling of sheets as he shifts beside you. Even in the darkness, you can sense him fighting against the pull of sleep, forcing his eyes to stay open for your sake.
"No, s'okay," he mumbles, words slightly slurred. You feel his hand fumbling across the covers, searching until his fingers find yours. His touch is warm, clumsy with drowsiness. "You're shaking," he observes, concern gradually replacing the grogginess in his voice. "Another nightmare?"
You shake your head, though you're not sure if he can see the gesture in the darkness. "Not exactly. I just... I can't stop feeling like someone's watching me. Like he's here, somehow."
Heeseung makes a soft sound of understanding. You hear him yawn, then feel the mattress dip as he pushes himself up to sitting position. He reaches for the bedside lamp, missing it the first time, his movements slow and uncoordinated. On the second attempt, he manages to switch it on.
The warm glow reveals his face, softened with sleep. His hair is completely disheveled, sticking up at odd angles. One cheek bears the imprint of his pillow, and his eyes are heavy-lidded, struggling to stay fully open. Despite his obvious exhaustion, there's nothing but patient concern in his expression as he blinks slowly, trying to focus on you.
"It's just us," he says softly, his voice a comforting rumble in the quiet room. "Just you 'n me here. You're safe."
He rubs at his eyes with the heel of his palm, clearly fighting the heaviness of sleep still clinging to him. The gesture is so innocent, so childlike, that it momentarily distracts you from your fear.
"I know it's irrational," you say, wiping at your tears. "But my brain won't stop. I can't turn it off."
Heeseung's eyes drift closed for a moment before he catches himself, snapping them back open with visible effort. He studies your face, his own expression thoughtful despite the sleep that keeps trying to reclaim him. His eyelids flutter, heavy, but he persists, present with you even as his body begs for rest.
"Can I..." he begins, then pauses to stifle another yawn. "Can I try something? To help distract your mind?"
There's such sincerity in his sleepy determination to help you that you find yourself nodding, willing to try anything to escape the endless loop of fearâand to allow him to go back to sleep.
"Close your eyes," he says, his voice a gentle murmur.
You comply, though a small part of you tenses at the thought of not being able to see any potential threats.
"Focus on my voice," Heeseung continues, his tone soothing despite the drowsiness that makes his words flow together like honey, slow and sweet. "Nothing else matters right now. Just this room..." He yawns again, soft and unguarded. "Just this moment."
The bed shifts as he moves closer, his movements languid with fatigue. You can feel the warmth radiating from him, sense his protective presence drawing nearer despite how desperately his body must be yearning to return to sleep.
You try to follow his instructions, concentrating on the low timbre of his voice, the warmth of his hand still holding yours.
"Y/N," he says, his voice closer now. "Is it okay if I kiss you?"
Your eyes fly open in surprise, meeting his serious gaze. There's concern there, and something elseâa softness that makes your breath catch.
"To distract your mind," he explains quietly. "Give it something else to focus on besides fear."
The idea is so unexpected, so far from anything you'd anticipated, that it cuts through the panic clouding your thoughts. You find yourself nodding before you've fully processed the request.
Heeseung moves closer, the space between you disappearing as he gently cups your cheek with his free hand. "Tell me to stop if it doesn't help," he murmurs, his breath warm against your skin.
Then his lips meet yours, soft and questioning at first, giving you every opportunity to pull away. But instead of retreating, you find yourself responding, your body instinctively leaning into the contact, seeking comfort and connection.
When his tongue traces the seam of your lips, a soft "mmm" vibrates from his chestïżœïżœïżœa sound so quietly pleased it makes your stomach flip. You part your lips instinctively, and the moment his tongue slides against yours, a low, satisfied hum rumbles from his throat.
"Is thisâ" you try to speak, but his tongue sweeps deeper, stealing your words, your thoughts, your very ability to form sentences.
His kiss grows bolder, more insistent, and your brain begins to short-circuit with each stroke of his tongue. The fear that had been cycling through your mind evaporates under the wet heat of his mouth. He tastes faintly of toothpaste and something uniquely him, and when he gently sucks on your bottom lip, he makes another soundâa soft "hmm" that shoots straight down your spine.
You pull back slightly, trying to gather your thoughts. "Iâ" But that's all you manage before he chases your lips, recapturing them with gentle insistence, and whatever you were going to say dissolves into nothing.
"Shh," he whispers against your mouth, his breath hot against your sensitized lips. "Don't think."
And then he's kissing you again, deeper this time, his tongue sliding alongside yours in a rhythm that makes your toes curl. The hand in your hair tightens just enough to send a shiver through you, and a soft groanâ"Mmh"âescapes him when you respond by pressing closer.
His teeth graze your lower lip, and suddenly your mind is completely empty, wiped clean of everything except the sensation of his mouth on yours, his hand in your hair, his body so close you can feel the heat radiating from him.
The kiss breaks for a moment, both of you breathing hard. You open your mouth to speak, to try to articulate how effectively he's scattered your thoughts, but all that comes out is a breathy "Iâyouâ" before words fail you completely.
Heeseung's lips curl into a small smile, understanding in his eyes. "Not thinking anymore?" he asks softly.
You shake your head, unable to string together a coherent sentence. Your brain has turned to absolute mush, every thought process suspended in the warm haze he's created.
"Good," he whispers, and then his lips are on yours again, the gentle scrape of his teeth followed by the soothing slide of his tongue making you gasp. He makes a sound halfway between a sigh and a moanâ"Aahh"âwhen your fingers curl into the fabric of his t-shirt, pulling him closer.
Time loses all meaning as he kisses you again and again, each one melting into the next until you're not sure where one ends and another begins. Sometimes gentle and exploring, sometimes deeper and more intense, but always with that same effectâemptying your mind until there's nothing but sensation.
When he finally pulls back, his breathing uneven, pupils dilated in the dim light, you try once more to speak. "That wasâ" But the words won't come, your brain still offline, thoughts scattered like confetti.
"Did it help?" he asks, his voice rougher now, lower.
You nod, surprised to find that forming words feels like trying to catch smoke with your bare hands. "Myâ" you start, then swallow and try again. "Brain... empty," is all you manage to articulate, gesturing vaguely at your head.
A smile touches his lips, genuine and slightly pleased. "Good," he says simply, his thumb brushing your lower lip, still sensitive from his attention. The small touch sends another wave of blankness washing through your mind.
He starts to move back to his side of the bed, and you make a small sound of protest, hand reaching out to stop him. Again, you try to speak, to ask him to stay close, but all that comes out is a breathy "Don'tâ" before words fail you once more.
Understanding flickers in his eyes. He settles beside you, closer this time, one arm wrapping around your waist as you turn toward him. The position brings your faces close together, your breath mingling in the small space between you.
"Better?" he asks.
"Much better," you admit.
He kisses you again, slower this time, more deliberate. Your hands find their way to his shoulders, then his chest, feeling the steady beat of his heart beneath your palm. Each kiss blurs the edges of your thoughts more, until your mind is blissfully, wonderfully blankâno fear, no stalker, no danger. Just Heeseung, his lips on yours, his arms around you, making you feel safer than locked doors or security systems ever could.
When exhaustion finally begins to reclaim you, Heeseung presses one last gentle kiss to your forehead. "Sleep," he murmurs. "I'm right here."
And for the first time in days, you drift off without fear, your head tucked against his chest, his heartbeat a steady rhythm in your earâa constant reminder that you're not alone.
The nightmares don't come again that night.
-
Sunlight filters through the curtains when you wake the next morning. For the first time in days, you've slept through the night without nightmares. The space beside you is empty, but the sheets still hold the faint warmth of Heeseung's body. You stretch, a strange mixture of embarrassment and comfort washing over you as memories of the previous night returnâhis lips on yours, the way your mind had emptied of everything but sensation, how easily you'd fallen asleep afterwards.
The sound of movement in the kitchen draws you from the bed. You brush your teeth and attempt to tame your sleep-rumpled hair before venturing out, unsure what to expect after crossing such an intimate boundary with someone who was a stranger just a week ago.
Heeseung stands at the counter, back to you, humming softly as he measures coffee grounds. He's wearing a faded t-shirt and sweatpants that hang low on his hips, his hair still mussed from sleep. The scene is so domestic, so normal, that for a moment you forget why you're hereâthat somewhere out there, someone is looking for you with dangerous intent.
He turns at the sound of your approach, a soft smile spreading across his face. No awkwardness, no regret, just warmth.
"Morning," he says. "Sleep okay?"
You nod, relief washing over you at his easy manner. "Better than I have in days."
He pushes a mug of coffee across the counterâalready prepared the way you like it. The simple gesture of remembrance makes your chest tighten with something you're not ready to name.
"Thanks," you say, taking a sip to hide whatever might be showing on your face. "For the coffee. And for... last night."
Heeseung's expression softens, understanding in his eyes. "You don't have to thank me for that."
An almost comfortable silence settles between you as you both drink your coffee, the events of last night hanging in the airâacknowledged but not discussed.
"I thought I'd make us a real breakfast," you finally say, needing to do something, to contribute somehow to this strange partnership that's formed. "Since you've been cooking for me all week."
"You don't have toâ"
"I want to," you interrupt, already moving toward the refrigerator. "It's the least I can do."
Heeseung watches with amusement as you examine the contents of his fridge. "What did you have in mind?"
"How do you feel about omelets? You have vegetables that need to be used."
"Omelets sound perfect," he says, leaning against the counter as you gather ingredients.
The simple task of cooking is grounding. You wash and chop bell peppers, onions, and mushrooms, concentrating on the steady rhythm of the knife against the cutting board. Heeseung moves around you, setting the table, occasionally brushing against you in the small kitchen. Each brief contact sends a small jolt through youânot unpleasant, just heightened awareness.
You're halfway through dicing an onion when a notification sound from your phone breaks the peaceful bubble. Your hand falters, the knife slipping slightly. It's probably nothingâan email from work, a news alert, anythingâbut your heart instantly accelerates, your mind immediately jumping to the worst possibility.
Heeseung notices the change immediately. "Hey," he says gently. "Want me to check it?"
You nod, hating how easily your calm has been shattered, how quickly fear reclaims its hold. Heeseung picks up your phone from the counter, checks the screen, and his shoulders relax.
"It's just an email from someone named Sarah. Subject line says 'Project Updates.'"
Relief weakens your knees. Just work. Not him.
But the damage is done. Your hands have begun to tremble, and the vegetables in front of you blur slightly as your mind slips back into the spiral of fear. What if he figures out where Heeseung lives? What if he's watching the building right now? What ifâ
"Y/N." Heeseung's voice, closer now. You didn't notice him move, but suddenly he's right behind you, his chest nearly touching your back. "You're shaking."
"I'm fine," you lie, but the knife trembles visibly in your grip.
Heeseung gently removes the knife from your hand, setting it safely on the cutting board. Then his hands are on your shoulders, warm and steadying, turning you to face him. You expect to see pity in his eyes, but there's only warmth and understanding.
"You're not fine," he says softly. "And that's okay."
"I hate this," you whisper, frustration bleeding through the fear. "I hate that one notification can do this to me. I hate that he has this power."
Heeseung's hands slide from your shoulders to cup your face, his touch so gentle it makes your breath catch. "He doesn't have power over you," he says firmly. "This reactionâit's just your brain trying to protect you. It's not weakness."
You close your eyes, trying to believe him, trying to slow the racing of your heart. When you feel his breath against your cheek, your eyes flutter open to find his face much closer, his gaze questioning.
"Let me help you think about something else," he murmurs, his voice dropping to a register that immediately sends warmth spreading through your chest.
You nod, barely perceptible, and then his lips are at your jawline, not quite kissing, just brushing against the skin there. Your hands find his waist, needing something to anchor you as he traces a path down to your neck. When his mouth settles against the sensitive spot where your neck meets your shoulder, a small sigh escapes you.
The first gentle scrape of his teeth against your skin makes your thoughts scatter like startled birds. He follows it with the soothing warmth of his tongue, and your grip on his t-shirt tightens involuntarily.
"Is this okay?" he whispers against your skin.
"Yes," you breathe, tilting your head to give him better access. "Don't stop."
His lips curve into a smile against your neck, and then he's kissing the spot again, more purposefully this time. One hand slides into your hair, cradling the back of your head, while the other rests at the small of your back, drawing you closer until you're fully pressed against him.
The fear that had been building melts away with each press of his lips, each gentle scrape of teeth. Your mind empties of everything but the sensation of his mouth on your skin, the solid warmth of his body against yours, the faint scent of sleep and coffee that clings to him.
When he finds a particularly sensitive spot just below your ear, your knees actually weaken. Heeseung notices, his arm tightening around your waist to support you.
"Still thinking about the notification?" he murmurs, his breath hot against your ear.
You try to respond, but your brain feels deliciously fuzzy, unable to form words. Instead, you shake your head, managing only a soft "Mmm" that makes him chuckle.
"Good," he says, pulling back slightly to look at your face. His pupils are dilated, lips slightly parted, and the sight sends another wave of warmth through you. "Because the eggs are getting warm and the vegetables are only half-chopped."
It takes a moment for his words to register through the pleasant haze in your mind. When they do, you glance back at the abandoned breakfast preparations on the counter and can't help but laugh. "Oh god, I forgot all about breakfast."
Heeseung's answering smile is bright enough to chase away the last lingering shadows of your fear. "Mission accomplished then."
You reluctantly step out of his embrace, turning back to the cutting board. "Let me finish this before I get distracted again."
"Distracted? By what?" he teases, but he keeps a respectful distance as you resume chopping, though his eyes never leave you.
The rest of the morning passes in a comfortable rhythm. You finish making breakfast together, moving around each other in the kitchen with growing ease. The omelets turn out perfect, and the simple accomplishment of creating a meal feels significant somehowâa small island of normalcy in the storm of the past week.
After breakfast, you settle in to work on your design project, which your boss has been understanding enough to let you complete remotely. Heeseung works on his music in the corner of the living room, occasionally humming or playing soft melodies on his keyboard. The peaceful coexistence reminds you of how it might feel to share a space with someone by choice, not necessity.
But reality intrudes every time you check your email or glance at your phone. Each notification makes your heart stutter, each unknown number that calls either of your phones sends a spike of adrenaline through your system. The stalker hasn't contacted you today, but his absence feels more like the calm before a storm than any true reprieve.
By late afternoon, your eyes are burning from staring at your laptop screen, and the tension in your shoulders has returned despite your best efforts to focus on work. You save your design file and stretch, rolling your neck to release the stiffness.
Heeseung glances up from his keyboard, noting your discomfort. "Break time," he announces decisively. "You've been hunched over that laptop for hours."
"I need to finish this project," you protest weakly, but your body betrays you with another stretch.
"The project will still be there after a proper break," he counters, standing and moving toward the kitchen. "I'm making tea. Then we're going to do something completely unproductive for at least an hour."
You find yourself smiling at his determined tone. "Is that so? What did you have in mind?"
"I'm thinking..." he pauses dramatically, filling the kettle with water, "a heated battle of Mario Kart."
The suggestion is so unexpected, so delightfully normal, that you laugh. "Mario Kart? Really?"
"Don't tell me you're scared of a little competition," he challenges, raising an eyebrow as he sets the kettle on the stove. "Unless you don't think you can beat me."
"Oh, it's on," you declare, grateful for the distraction. "I'll have you know I was the reigning champion among my college roommates."
"We'll see about that," he grins, the playful light in his eyes making him look younger, carefreeâa glimpse of who he might be outside the strange circumstances that have thrown you together.
The promised hour turns into two as you both get increasingly competitive, shouting good-natured insults at each other when one pulls ahead or drops a particularly well-timed shell. You haven't laughed this much in daysâmaybe weeksâand the release of endorphins leaves you feeling lighter, the constant undercurrent of fear temporarily pushed to the background.
"That's it, I'm cutting you off," Heeseung declares after you beat him for the fifth time in a row. "You're too good at this. It's embarrassing for me."
You raise your controller in victory. "Told you I was the champion."
"Yeah, yeah," he concedes with a mock scowl that quickly melts into a genuine smile. "Hungry yet? I was thinking we could order in. Maybe that Thai place again?"
"Sounds perfect," you agree.
As Heeseung pulls up the restaurant's menu on his phone, you find yourself studying himâthe way his brow furrows slightly in concentration, the gentle slope of his nose, the fullness of his lips. The lips that were on your neck this morning, that were on your mouth last night, emptying your mind of everything but sensation. Something warm unfurls in your chest at the memory.
He looks up suddenly, catching you watching him. Instead of looking away, embarrassed, you hold his gaze. A moment of silent understanding passes between youâan acknowledgment that whatever is happening between you isn't just about distraction or safety anymore.
Heeseung breaks the moment first, clearing his throat slightly. "The usual? Or did you want to try something different?"
"The usual is fine," you say, grateful for his tact in not drawing attention to the charged moment.
After placing the order, you both gravitate back to the couch, but with a new awareness of each other. You sit closer than necessary, your thigh just barely touching his. When he reaches for the remote to turn on the TV, his arm brushes yours, and neither of you moves away from the contact.
He finds a cooking competition show that requires minimal attention, and you settle in to watch, the domestic scene surreal in its normalcy. At some point, his arm drapes over the back of the couch behind you, not quite touching but close enough that you can feel his warmth.
"This is nice," you say after a while, the words slipping out without conscious thought.
Heeseung glances at you, his expression softening. "Yeah," he agrees quietly. "It is."
His fingers begin to play absently with a strand of your hair that falls over the couch. The gentle tugging sensation sends pleasant shivers down your spine, and you find yourself leaning subtly into the touch. Each brush of his fingers against your neck seems to short-circuit a different part of your brain until you're barely processing the show at all, focused instead on the points of contact between you.
The doorbell rings, startling you both. Heeseung's hand withdraws from your hair as he stands to answer it.
"That'll be the food," he says, but you notice he checks the peephole carefully before opening the door.
The reminder of the danger lurking outside your temporary sanctuary dampens your mood slightly. As you set up dinner on the coffee table, your phone buzzes with an incoming email. You freeze, fork halfway to your mouth, that familiar dread pooling in your stomach.
Heeseung notices your reaction and reaches for your phone. "Want me to check it?"
You nod, setting your food down, no longer hungry.
He scans the screen, relief washing over his features. "It's just a receipt from the Thai place." He hands the phone back to you. "We're okay."
But the moment has been tainted. The fear is back, hovering at the edges of your consciousness, threatening to overwhelm the fragile peace you've built throughout the day. You push your food around on your plate, appetite gone.
Heeseung watches you for a moment, then sets his own plate down. Without a word, he shifts closer to you on the couch, his thigh pressing firmly against yours now. When his hand comes up to tilt your chin toward him, you meet his eyes without resistance.
"He's not here," Heeseung says softly. "Right now, in this moment, it's just us. Okay?"
"Okay," you whisper, trying to believe him.
His thumb traces your lower lip gently, and your body responds instantly to the touch, a pleasant haziness beginning to cloud the edges of your fear. When he leans in, you meet him halfway, your lips finding his with growing familiarity.
This kiss is different from the othersânot desperate or distracting, but slow and deliberate. His tongue slides against yours with unhurried confidence, and your mind begins to empty in that now-familiar way, thoughts evaporating like morning dew under the sun.
By the time he pulls back, you've forgotten what triggered your fear in the first place. Your food sits cooling on the coffee table, entirely unimportant compared to the warmth spreading through your body.
"Better?" he asks, his voice lower than usual.
You nod, offering a small smile. "You're getting good at that."
"At what?" There's a playful glint in his eye that makes your heart skip.
"Turning my brain off."
He tucks a strand of hair behind your ear, his expression growing more serious. "For as long as you need it," he promises.
The rest of the evening passes in comfortable closeness. You eventually return to your food, eating while leaning against each other on the couch. When you finally head to bed, the routine feels both new and familiar at onceâbrushing teeth side by side, Heeseung waiting in the hallway while you change, the brief moment of adjustment as you both settle into the bed.
But tonight, there's less space between you than before. He still stays on top of the covers while you slip underneath, but when you turn off the lamp, his hand finds yours in the darkness, fingers intertwining naturally.
"Good night, Y/N," he murmurs, his voice already heavy with approaching sleep.
"Good night, Heeseung," you reply, squeezing his hand gently.
You fall asleep with his fingers still linked with yours, the weight of his hand an anchor against the night terrors that might come. Your last thought before drifting off is that you've never felt safer than in this strange limboâtrapped by circumstances beyond your control, yet somehow freer than you've been in a long time.
The morning comes too quickly, sunlight streaming through a gap in the curtains and painting a stripe of gold across the bed. You wake to find yourself curled toward Heeseung, who's still asleep on his side facing you. In sleep, his face is completely relaxed, all traces of vigilance gone, making him look younger and impossibly vulnerable.
You allow yourself a moment to simply look at him, to memorize the sweep of his eyelashes against his cheeks, the slight part of his lips, the way his hair falls across his forehead. There's a strange ache in your chest at the sightâgratitude mixed with something deeper that you're not ready to name.
As if sensing your gaze, his eyes flutter open, landing immediately on your face. A slow, sleepy smile spreads across his features, unguarded and genuine.
"Morning," he mumbles, voice husky with sleep.
"Morning," you whisper back, strangely reluctant to break the peaceful bubble around you.
Neither of you moves for a long moment, content to exist in this quiet space between night and day, between danger and safety, between strangers and something more. Then reality intrudes in the form of his buzzing phone on the nightstand.
Heeseung rolls over with a groan, reaching for the device. As he checks the screen, his body goes rigid, sleep vanishing in an instant.
"What is it?" you ask, dread already pooling in your stomach.
He sits up, running a hand through his hair as he reads whatever message has appeared. When he turns back to you, his expression is carefully controlled, but you can see the tension around his eyes.
"It's from the detective," he says carefully. "Minhyuk was spotted near my building yesterday."
The fragile peace of the morning shatters completely. Fear rushes back in with a vengeance, your heart rate spiking so quickly you feel light-headed.
"He knows I'm here?" Your voice sounds distant to your own ears, panic rising like a tide.
Heeseung's hand finds yours, squeezing tightly. "We don't know that for sure. But the detective thinks we should consider relocating, just to be safe."
"Where would we even go?" The thought of leaving this apartmentâthe only place you've felt secure in daysâsends another wave of anxiety through you.
"I might have an idea," Heeseung says, his thumb rubbing soothing circles on the back of your hand. "But first, breakfast. And coffee. Lots of coffee."
You nod, clinging to his steady presence as your mind races with terrifying possibilities. The tiny window of normalcy you'd carved out for yourselves is closing, and the world with all its dangers is forcing its way back in.
But as Heeseung helps you to your feet, his hand never leaving yours, you realize something important: whatever comes next, you're no longer facing it alone. And for now, that will have to be enough.
-
The detective's news about Minhyuk being spotted near Heeseung's building leaves you both on edge. Despite Heeseung's attempts at normalcyâbreakfast, coffee, casual conversationâthere's a new tension in the air, a heightened vigilance in the way he frequently checks his phone and glances at the door.
You try to work on your design project, but concentration is impossible. Your mind keeps conjuring images of Minhyuk watching the building, waiting, planning. By mid-afternoon, you've accomplished almost nothing, your anxiety a living thing crawling beneath your skin.
That's when your phone chimes with a new email notification.
You freeze, looking up to find Heeseung already watching you from across the room, his expression tense. Without a word, he crosses to where you sit, placing a reassuring hand on your shoulder as you open the message.
The subject line is blank. The sender's address is unfamiliarâa string of random numbers and letters.
Your trembling finger taps the message open.
There's no text, just an image: a photograph of you and Heeseung standing in his kitchen from earlier that morning, clearly taken through the window of his apartment. The angle suggests it was shot from the building across the street. Below the photo is a single line of text:
"Glass won't protect you forever."
A strangled sound escapes your throat as the phone slips from your fingers, clattering to the floor. Heeseung snatches it up, his face darkening as he views the message.
"That's not possible," he mutters, moving quickly to the windows. "We're twelve floors up."
But as he pulls back the curtain to scan the building opposite, you feel it startâthe tightening in your chest, the sudden inability to pull in enough air, the roaring in your ears. The room seems to tilt and spin around you.
"He can see us," you gasp, each breath becoming more difficult than the last. "He's watching us right now. He can see us right now."
Heeseung is at your side instantly, closing the curtains and guiding you away from the windows. "Y/N, breathe. You need to breathe."
But you can't. Your lungs refuse to cooperate, each shallow gasp more painful than the last. Dark spots dance at the edges of your vision, and your hands have gone numb, fingers tingling.
"He's going toâhe's going toâ" You can't even finish the thought, terror consuming every rational part of your mind.
"Y/N, look at me," Heeseung says firmly, his hands framing your face, forcing you to meet his eyes. "Focus on me. Just me."
He tries all the techniques that have worked beforeâdeep breathing instructions, gentle reassurances, even pressing his lips to yours in that way that usually empties your mind. But the panic is too overwhelming, the fear too visceral. Even his kiss, which normally blanks your thoughts completely, barely makes a dent in the terror.
When he pulls back, your breathing is still erratic, tears streaming down your face. "It's not working," you choke out. "I can'tâI can't turn it off. My mind won't stop."
The helplessness in Heeseung's eyes is devastating. "Tell me what you need. Anything."
"Make it stop," you beg, clutching at his shirt. "Please, I don't care what you have to do. Make me go dumb. Turn my brain off. I can't take it anymore."
His eyes darken at your words, understanding dawning in his expression. "Y/N..."
"Please," you whisper, desperation making your voice crack. "Fuck me until I can't think anymore. Until I can't remember my own name. I need to not be in my head right now. I need everything to just stop."
Heeseung's breath catches, his pupils dilating until there's just a thin ring of brown around the black. You watch the struggle play out on his faceâdesire warring with concern, restraint battling with the need to help you.
"Are you sure?" he asks, his voice lower than you've ever heard it. "Because if we do this... I want to help you, Y/N, more than anything. But I don't know if I'll be able to hold back once we start."
A sob escapes you, your hands fisting in his shirt. "I don't want you to hold back. I want you to make me forget everything but you." You're openly crying now, beyond shame or hesitation. "Please, Heeseung. Please make it all go away."
Something snaps in his expression. His hand slides into your hair, gripping firmly as he searches your eyes one last time. Whatever he sees there must convince him, because in the next moment, his mouth crashes against yours with none of the gentleness from before.
This kiss is differentâhungry, almost desperate. His tongue pushes past your lips immediately, demanding rather than asking. One arm locks around your waist, pulling you flush against him as he walks you backward until your back hits the wall.
When his teeth sink into your lower lip, pain mingling with pleasure, your thoughts begin to splinter. His hand slips under your shirt, fingers splaying across your ribs, and your mind fragments further.
"Tell me to stop and I will," he says against your mouth, his breathing ragged. "At any point."
"Don't stop," you gasp. "Don't you dare stop."
His eyes meet yours, something primal and protective darkening his gaze. "I'm going to help you forget everything," he promises, his voice a rough whisper. "Everything but this."
Heeseung's eyes lock onto yours, dark with a raw intensity that makes your heart pound violently in your chest. His fingers twist harshly into your hair, pulling your head back sharply, fully exposing your vulnerable throat. His lips crash against your skin roughly, teeth biting deeply, marking you as his own with bruising kisses that send sparks of pain and pleasure shooting through your veins.
Your breathing is ragged, erratic, your entire body trembling beneath him. His other hand moves urgently down your body, gripping your waist tightly, fingertips pressing deep enough into your flesh to leave bruises, marking you unmistakably as his. You arch your body against his, desperate for more contact, craving the harsh intensity that only he can provide.
"Harder," you plead breathlessly, voice quivering with desperation. "Heeseung, pleaseâuse me, ruin me. Make me forget everything else."
A dark, feral growl tears from his throat, his eyes blazing dangerously as he claims your mouth roughly, tongue pushing aggressively past your lips. You moan helplessly into the kiss, surrendering completely to his dominating embrace, your nails scratching feverishly down his back, urging him to take you harder, deeper, to erase every lingering thought from your mind.
Heeseung breaks away, his breath hot and ragged as he trails searing kisses down your trembling body, biting roughly at your collarbone, chest, and stomach, each sharp nip igniting fiery jolts of pain and pleasure that tear gasps from your lips. You writhe helplessly beneath him, mind unraveling with each aggressive touch.
"Please," you beg desperately, voice nearly incoherent, tears gathering at the corners of your eyes. "Heeseung, Iâll do anything. Anything you want, justâjust make me forget."
A fierce, primal growl resonates from deep in his chest. "Anything?" he rasps darkly, his eyes blazing with barely controlled hunger. "You're going to regret saying that, sweetheart."
He pushes your thighs apart roughly, fully exposing you to his hungry gaze. His mouth descends aggressively, tongue plunging deep and fast, consuming you without mercy. You scream out sharply, hips bucking uncontrollably against him, your hands clutching desperately at his hair, pulling him even closer. Every intense, relentless movement of his tongue drives you closer to a devastating climax.
But before you reach that peak, he stops abruptly, leaving you sobbing in frustration. Your eyes plead desperately for release as you gasp, "Pleaseâdon't stop."
Heeseung positions himself swiftly over you, gripping your hips with bruising intensity, plunging deep and brutally into your aching core without warning, tearing a raw scream from your throat. He sets an unforgiving pace, each powerful thrust ruthlessly tearing apart your remaining thoughts, overwhelming you completely.
"Feel that?" he snarls roughly, hips pounding mercilessly against yours. "That's me claiming you. I'm going to fuck every last thought out of your head until you're nothing but mine."
His filthy, possessive words make your entire body shake uncontrollably, tears streaming down your cheeks as you cry out shamelessly for more. His grip tightens painfully on your wrists, pinning them roughly above your head as his hips drive harder, deeper, faster, each brutal thrust sending shockwaves through your body.
"You're mine," he growls harshly into your ear, teeth scraping your sensitive skin. "Say it."
"I'm yours," you choke out weakly, mind fracturing under the relentless assault of sensation.
"Louder," he demands fiercely, slamming even harder into you, movements ruthless and unyielding.
"I'm yours!" you scream, voice cracking from the intensity.
"Good girl," he snarls, rewarding you with deeper, fiercer thrusts, pushing your body to its absolute limits. His hand wraps around your throat firmly, just enough to make your vision blur, enhancing every overwhelming sensation tenfold.
Your body writhes violently beneath him, unable to form coherent words anymore, reduced to sobbing gasps and broken pleas. Heeseung continues relentlessly, his body driving into yours mercilessly until you're utterly consumed, your mind blanking entirely, eyes glazing over, unable to do anything but feel him, hear him, lose yourself completely to him.
"Cum for me," he commands roughly, his voice low and dangerously seductive. "Show me exactly how completely you belong to me."
Your body reacts instantly, violently, shattering beneath him into waves of devastating pleasure that tear through you, obliterating any remaining thought. You collapse, trembling uncontrollably, completely and utterly surrendered to him, mind blissfully empty, lost entirely in the overwhelming force of his claim.
Then his hands and mouth begin their relentless campaign to empty your mind completely, and thinking becomes impossible.
-
Hours later, you lie boneless and spent in Heeseung's arms, your mind blissfully, wonderfully blank. No fear, no anxiety, no thoughts of Minhyuk or danger or what comes next. Just the pleasant hum of your body and the steady rhythm of Heeseung's heartbeat beneath your ear.
He's been silent for a while, his fingers tracing idle patterns on your bare shoulder. When he finally speaks, his voice is soft with something that might be concern.
"Are you okay?"
You have to concentrate to form words, your brain still deliciously fuzzy around the edges. "Mmm. Better than okay."
His chest rises and falls with a deep breath. "I didn't hurt you?"
You shake your head against his chest. "You did exactly what I needed."
His arms tighten around you, and you feel his lips press against the top of your head. "Your mind quiet now?"
"Completely empty," you murmur, surprised to find yourself smiling. "Mission accomplished."
You feel rather than see his answering smile, his whole body relaxing beneath yours. For several long moments, you both drift in comfortable silence, the world beyond this bed temporarily forgotten.
Until Heeseung's phone buzzes on the nightstand.
The tension returns to his body immediately, but he doesn't move to check it, unwilling to disturb the peace you've found. The phone buzzes again, more insistent this time.
"You should get that," you say softly. "It might be important."
Reluctantly, he reaches for the phone, keeping you tucked against him with his other arm. You watch his face as he reads the message, preparing yourself for bad news.
"It's the detective," he says after a moment, his voice carefully neutral. "She thinks we should consider temporary relocationâsomewhere Minhyuk wouldn't think to look."
The fear starts to creep back in at the edges of your consciousness, but you fight it, focusing on the warmth of Heeseung's body against yours, the lingering pleasant numbness in your limbs.
"She says they can arrange a safe house, but it would take a few days." He scrolls through more of the message. "Or... we could go somewhere on our own. Somewhere only we know about."
You push yourself up on one elbow to look at him properly. "Like where?"
A thoughtful expression crosses his face. "My family has a cabin in the mountains. It's remote, secure. Only a handful of people even know it exists."
"How far?"
"About three hours' drive. Completely isolated." His eyes search yours. "We'd be alone out there."
The thought should be terrifying after everything that's happened, but instead it brings an unexpected sense of relief. Somewhere Minhyuk can't find you. Somewhere you could breathe again.
"When can we leave?" you ask.
Heeseung studies your face, perhaps looking for signs of fear or hesitation. "Tomorrow morning, first light. We'll need to be careful, make sure we're not followed."
You nod, settling back against his chest. "Tomorrow then."
His arm wraps around you again, protective and warm. "Get some rest," he murmurs, his lips brushing your forehead. "I'll be right here."
As sleep begins to claim you, one last coherent thought floats through your mind: whatever happens next, whatever Minhyuk tries, you're not alone. You have Heeseungâyour protector, your sanctuary.
Your mind emptier.
-
You wake before dawn, the sky outside still ink-dark. For a moment, you forget why you're rising so earlyâthen memories of yesterday's message flood back. Minhyuk knows where you are. You're no longer safe here.
Heeseung is already up, moving quietly around the apartment, packing essentials into a duffel bag. He pauses when he notices you watching him, a small smile crossing his face despite the tension in his shoulders.
"Morning," he says softly. "I was trying not to wake you."
"I don't think I was really sleeping," you admit, sitting up. "Too much on my mind."
He crosses to sit beside you on the bed, his hand finding yours. "We'll be okay," he promises. "The cabin is safe. My family's owned it for generations, and it's not listed under my name. There's no way he could trace it."
You nod, drawing strength from his certainty. "What do you need me to do?"
"Just pack whatever you need for a week or so. Clothes, toiletries. I've got everything else coveredâfood, first aid supplies." He squeezes your hand. "And we should get moving soon. I want to be on the road before the city wakes up."
Thirty minutes later, you're both ready. The apartment is locked downâlights on timers to simulate occupancy, mail delivery paused. Heeseung has even arranged for a neighbor to occasionally move his car in the garage to maintain the illusion that you're both still here.
The detective has been notified of your plans, though not your specific destination. "Just tell her we're heading north," Heeseung had instructed during your call. "The fewer people who know exactly where we are, the better."
Dawn is just breaking as you slip into Heeseung's car in the underground parking garage. He drives cautiously, taking a circuitous route through the awakening city, frequently checking the rearview mirror for any signs of being followed.
"You really think he could track us?" you ask, watching Heeseung's vigilant eyes scanning the traffic behind you.
"I'm not taking any chances," he says simply. "Not with your safety."
The city gradually gives way to suburbs, then to open countryside. With each mile that passes, you feel the vise-grip of fear around your chest loosening slightly. By the time you're an hour into the journey, the weight of constant vigilance has lightened enough that you notice your surroundingsâthe spectacular autumn colors painting the landscape, the mountains rising in the distance, shrouded in morning mist.
Heeseung must notice your gaze, because he reaches across the console to take your hand. "Beautiful, isn't it?"
You nod, surprised to find yourself capable of appreciating beauty after days of seeing only danger. "I didn't realize how much I needed to get out of the city."
His thumb traces circles on the back of your hand. "We both did."
The drive continues, winding steadily upward into the mountains. Cell service becomes increasingly spotty, then disappears altogether. The isolation that would have terrified you days ago now feels like a blessingâa barrier between you and the danger you've left behind.
"Almost there," Heeseung says as he turns onto a narrow dirt road that seems to disappear into the forest. "It's a bit hidden."
'A bit hidden' proves to be an understatement. The roadâlittle more than a trailâwinds through dense trees for nearly a mile before suddenly opening into a small clearing. And there, nestled against a backdrop of pines with a breathtaking view of the valley below, stands the cabin.
It's not what you expectedânot the rustic, primitive structure the word "cabin" had conjured in your mind. This is a beautifully crafted home of stone and timber, with large windows facing the valley and a wide porch wrapping around two sides.
"Heeseung," you breathe, taking in the scene. "This is..."
"Home," he says simply, a soft smile playing at his lips as he watches your reaction. "At least, it always has been for me."
He parks beside the cabin and comes around to open your door, offering his hand to help you out. The mountain air hits you immediatelyâcrisp, pine-scented, revitalizing. You take a deep breath, feeling something tight in your chest unfurl.
"Come on," Heeseung says, retrieving your bags from the trunk. "Let's get inside before it gets cold."
The interior of the cabin is even more beautiful than the exteriorâan open-concept living area with soaring ceilings, the far wall dominated by a stone fireplace. The furnishings are simple but high-quality, clearly chosen to complement the natural surroundings. Large windows frame the valley view like living paintings.
"This is incredible," you say, turning slowly to take it all in. "Your family built this?"
"My grandfather," Heeseung confirms, setting the bags down. "He wanted a place where the family could escape, reconnect with nature. I spent every summer here as a kid." A wistful smile crosses his face. "Haven't been back in a couple of years though. Work always seemed more important somehow."
You move to the windows, gazing out at the panoramic view. The valley stretches below you, a patchwork of golds and reds and deep greens in the autumn sunlight. In the distance, more mountains rise, their peaks ghostly in the afternoon haze.
"I've never seen anything like this," you admit, momentarily forgetting why you're hereânot a vacation, but an escape from danger.
Heeseung comes to stand behind you, his hands resting lightly on your shoulders. "Good," he says softly. "I wanted you to see something beautiful after everything you've been through."
The simple statement, so earnest and thoughtful, brings unexpected tears to your eyes. You turn to face him, finding his gaze already on you, warm and steady.
"Thank you," you whisper. "For all of this. For keeping me safe."
His expression softens further. "You don't have to thank me."
"I do," you insist. "Most people wouldn't have done half of what you have for someone they barely know."
Something shifts in his eyes at that. "I think we're well past 'barely know,' don't you?"
Heat rises to your cheeks as memories of yesterday flood backâhis hands on your skin, his mouth on yours, the way he'd made you forget everything but him. "Yes," you agree quietly. "I guess we are."
The moment stretches between you, charged with unspoken things. Then Heeseung clears his throat, stepping back slightly. "I should get the generator going and check the water. Make yourself at home."
As he busies himself with the practical aspects of opening the cabin, you explore the space that will be your sanctuary for the foreseeable future. Besides the main living area, there's a well-equipped kitchen, a bathroom with a surprisingly modern shower, and two bedroomsâone large, one small. You peek into the larger one, noting the king-sized bed with its blue-and-white quilt, the bedside tables with reading lamps, the large window offering the same spectacular view as the living room.
Your exploration is interrupted by Heeseung's return. "Everything's working," he announces. "Water's running, generator's humming along. We're all set." He glances at his watch. "I should try to call the detective while we still have daylight. The satellite phone works better outside."
You nod, suddenly remembering the reason for this idyllic retreat. "I'll unpack some of the food supplies."
While Heeseung steps onto the porch with the satellite phone, you busy yourself in the kitchen, organizing the groceries you picked up on the drive. The domesticity of the task is soothingâarranging canned goods in cupboards, filling the refrigerator with fresh produce, setting out cooking utensils. For a few minutes, it's possible to pretend this is just a vacation, a romantic getaway rather than a desperate flight from danger.
When Heeseung returns, his expression is more relaxed than before. "Good news," he says, setting the satellite phone on the counter. "They've got leads on Minhyuk. Apparently he's been spotted in the city, which means he doesn't know we've left."
Relief floods through you. "So we're safe here?"
"For now, at least," he confirms. "The detective says to stay put. They'll contact us as soon as they have him in custody."
You lean against the counter, suddenly exhausted as the tension of the day catches up with you. "So what do we do now?"
Heeseung steps closer, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear with gentle fingers. "Now," he says softly, "we rest. We breathe. We let ourselves feel safe for a while."
"I'm not sure I remember what that feels like," you admit.
His hand cups your cheek, thumb brushing along your cheekbone. "Then I'll help you remember," he promises.
The first evening in the cabin passes in a peaceful haze. Heeseung builds a fire in the massive stone hearth while you prepare a simple dinner from the supplies you brought. The routine feels surprisingly naturalâhim pausing to taste the sauce you're making, you passing him logs for the fire, both of you moving around each other with an ease that belies how new this closeness really is.
After dinner, you settle on the comfortable sofa facing the fireplace, a blanket draped over both of you. Outside, night has fallen completely, the darkness absolute in a way it never is in the city. Inside, the fire casts dancing shadows on the walls, bathing everything in warm golden light.
"What are you thinking?" Heeseung asks, noticing your contemplative expression.
You consider the question, surprised by your answer. "That I can't remember the last time I felt this calm."
His arm around your shoulders tightens slightly. "Good. That's what I wanted for you here."
You turn to look at him, studying his face in the firelightâthe strong line of his jaw, the fullness of his lips, the warmth in his eyes as he returns your gaze. Something swells in your chest, a feeling too new and fragile to name.
"What about you?" you ask. "What were you thinking?"
A small smile plays at his lips. "That I've never brought anyone here before. Not like this."
The admission sends a pleasant warmth spreading through you. "Not even your...?"
"No," he says simply. "No one. This place has always been just for family." He pauses, his eyes never leaving yours. "But having you here feels right somehow."
The words hang in the air between you, weighted with meaning. Then, as if drawn by an invisible force, you both lean in, lips meeting in a kiss that's different from any you've shared beforeânot desperate or distracting, but slow and deliberate, a question and an answer all at once.
When you break apart, something has shifted between you yet again. The pretense that this is merely about safety, about distraction from fear, has fallen away completely. What remains is something new and uncharted, fragile but intensely real.
"It's getting late," Heeseung murmurs, though he makes no move to pull away. "We should probably get some sleep."
The practical concern brings a sudden awkwardness. There are two bedrooms in the cabin, but after everything that's happened between you, the thought of sleeping apart feels strange, almost wrong.
As if reading your thoughts, Heeseung adds hesitantly, "I can take the small room if you want space, or..."
"No," you say quicklyâtoo quickly perhaps. "I mean, I'd rather not be alone. If that's okay."
The smile that spreads across his face is like sunrise. "More than okay," he assures you.
The nighttime routine you establish feels like an extension of the easy domesticity you've been buildingâbrushing teeth side by side at the single bathroom sink, taking turns changing in the bedroom, pulling back the covers together. When you finally settle into bed, Heeseung's arm wraps around your waist, drawing you against his chest as naturally as if you've been falling asleep this way for years.
"Good night, Y/N," he murmurs, lips brushing the nape of your neck.
"Good night, Heeseung," you whisper back, marveling at how quickly terror has given way to tranquility.
As you drift toward sleep, one last coherent thought forms in your mind: here, miles from civilization, cut off from the world, entirely alone with a man who was a stranger just days ago, you've never felt safer in your life.
-
Heeseung's eyes soften, his gaze lingering warmly on yours as sunlight filters through the window, bathing your tangled bodies in golden warmth. His thumb brushes gently over your lower lip, sending a shiver down your spine.
Over the next few days, your intimacy deepens, boundaries dissolving entirely as your desire grows increasingly insatiable. Mornings find you waking to his warm body pressed firmly against yours, his hands already exploring your skin, teasing sensitive spots until you're fully awake, panting and desperate for him.
Afternoons turn into hours spent in relentless pursuit of pleasureâHeeseung pressing you against cabin walls, your bodies colliding roughly, passionately. His hands gripping your hips tightly, thrusting deep and mercilessly, leaving you screaming his name, your thoughts scattering as he repeatedly takes you over the edge. His mouth is everywhere, biting, sucking, and marking you until your body feels entirely claimed.
Late nights, he has you bent over the couch, his fingers tangled in your hair, holding you firmly in place as he drives into you with powerful, possessive strokes, whispering filthy praise into your ear. He loves seeing how quickly he can make your eyes glaze over, leaving you utterly mindless and completely his, each climax more intense, more consuming than the last.
One rainy afternoon, your bodies slam together against the window overlooking the forest, your cries blending with the sound of raindrops hitting the glass. Heeseung lifts you effortlessly, pinning you hard against the cold surface, entering you sharply and deeply, pushing you to the edge with a brutal, relentless rhythm. You cling desperately to him, sobbing from pleasure, your vision blurring as you lose yourself entirely to the sensations he's inflicting upon your body.
In quieter moments, he lays you out on the bed, spreading your legs wide, taking his time teasing you mercilessly with slow, torturous strokes of his tongue and fingers, pushing you to the brink repeatedly until you're begging him shamelessly for release. He enjoys reducing you to pleading incoherence, knowing that only he can unravel you so completely.
One evening, under the flickering glow of candlelight, you ride him slowly at first, then harder, more desperately as your need overtakes you. His fingers dig painfully into your hips, urging you on, thrusting up into you roughly until your body shatters, leaving you trembling, tears slipping down your cheeks from sheer overwhelming pleasure.
"How did we ever survive without this?" you whisper afterward, your voice soft, your body warm and languid against his.
Heeseung smiles darkly, pressing a possessive kiss to your temple. "I don't know," he murmurs, pulling you impossibly closer. "But I plan to make sure you never forget exactly who makes you feel this good."
This time, there's no fear driving you together, no desperate need to escape your thoughts. There's only wantâpure and simple and mutual. Every touch is deliberate, every kiss intentional. And when you come together, it's with a sweetness that brings tears to your eyes, your mind emptying not from desperate distraction but from sheer overwhelming pleasure.
"That was..." you begin afterward, struggling to find words as you lie tangled together in the sunlit bed.
"I know," Heeseung says, pressing a kiss to your forehead. "For me too."
The admission brings a smile to your lips. "How is this real?" you wonder aloud. "two weeks ago, you were a stranger."
He traces patterns on your bare shoulder, his expression thoughtful. "Maybe sometimes life compresses. A week feels like months because we've experienced so much together."
You consider this, watching sunlight play across his features. "I like that explanation."
His fingers continue their gentle exploration of your skin. "Or maybe," he adds more softly, "this was always going to happen, somehow. Maybe we were meant to find each other, even if the circumstances were..."
"Completely terrifying?" you supply with a small laugh.
He smiles, but his eyes remain serious. "I would never wish what you've been through on anyone," he says. "But I can't regret that it brought you into my life."
The simple honesty of his words makes your chest tighten with emotion. You lean up to kiss him, trying to convey without words what you're not yet ready to say aloud.
The satellite phone rings that afternoonâthe detective with an update. They've narrowed down Minhyuk's location but haven't apprehended him yet. The news casts a brief shadow over your idyllic retreat, a reminder that the danger hasn't passed. But somehow, it doesn't hold the same power to terrify you anymore.
"We're safe here," Heeseung reassures you after the call. "And they're getting closer to finding him."
You nod, surprised to realize you truly believe him. The panic that has been your constant companion for days has receded to a dull concern, manageable rather than overwhelming.
That evening, a storm moves in, bringing wind and rain that lash at the windows. You build the fire higher, creating a cocoon of warmth against the elements. The electricity flickers once, twice, then goes out completely, leaving you in firelight and shadows.
"Generator must have cut out," Heeseung says, already reaching for a flashlight. "I'll go check it."
"Be careful," you call as he heads for the door, suddenly anxious about him leaving, even briefly.
He pauses, returning to press a quick kiss to your lips. "Always am," he promises. "Keep the fire goingâI'll be back in ten minutes."
While he's gone, you add logs to the fire, then gather candles from the kitchen cupboards, placing them strategically around the living area. The storm seems to intensify, rain drumming against the roof, wind howling through the trees outside. For the first time since arriving at the cabin, you feel a prickle of unease, attuned to every sound.
When the door finally opens, admitting a rain-soaked Heeseung, relief rushes through you so strongly that you cross the room in seconds, throwing your arms around him despite his wet clothes.
"Hey," he says, clearly surprised by the reaction. "It's okay. Just a blown fuseâI fixed it, but the power company's out anyway. We'll have to wait out the storm."
"I don't care about the power," you murmur against his chest. "I just... I didn't like you being out there alone."
He pulls back slightly to look at you, rainwater dripping from his hair onto his face. "I'm right here," he says softly. "Not going anywhere."
You help him out of his wet jacket, insisting he change into dry clothes while you make hot chocolate on the gas stove. By the time he returns, you've created a nest of blankets and pillows on the floor in front of the fireplace, the closest source of warmth.
"What's all this?" he asks, a smile playing at his lips.
"Camping," you declare with mock seriousness. "Indoor version."
He laughs, the sound warming you more than the fire. "I like the way you think."
You settle into your makeshift camp, sipping hot chocolate, listening to the storm rage outside while remaining perfectly safe and warm within. The contrast isn't lost on youâhow something that would have terrified you a week ago now feels almost romantic.
"Thank you," you say suddenly, looking up at Heeseung.
"For what?" he asks, brow furrowing slightly.
"For this," you gesture around you. "For keeping me safe. For... everything."
His expression softens. "You don't have to thank me."
"I know," you admit. "But I want to. Not just for the practical thingsâthe protection, the cabin. But for making me feel..." You search for the right word. "Normal again. Like myself, not just someone who's afraid all the time."
Heeseung sets down his mug, turning to face you fully. "You're extraordinary," he says, his voice low and sincere. "The way you've handled everything that's happenedâmost people would have broken down completely. But you're still here, still fighting."
The earnestness in his eyes makes your breath catch. "Only because of you."
He shakes his head. "No. I may have helped, but the strength was yours all along." He takes your hand, threading his fingers through yours. "Do you know what I thought when you first grabbed me that night on the subway?"
You shake your head, curious.
"I thought, 'This person is brave.' Not just because you asked a stranger for help, but because I could see in your eyes that you were scared but refusing to be paralyzed by it." His thumb traces circles on your palm. "I still think that. Every day."
Emotion swells in your chest, too big to contain. You lean forward, closing the distance between you, your lips finding his in a kiss that tries to convey everything you're feelingâgratitude, yes, but also something deeper, something that's been growing quietly in the shadow of fear.
The kiss deepens, hands beginning to wander, the storm outside forgotten entirely as you create your own tempest within the circle of firelight. Heeseung's lips trace a path down your neck, finding the spot that makes your mind go blissfully blank, and you surrender to the sensation, to him, to the unexpected gift of feeling safe in a world that had become nothing but danger.
The warmth of the fire bathes the room in soft golden light, shadows dancing gently across your intertwined bodies. Heeseung's fingers glide slowly over your skin, tracing sensual, languid patterns that ignite a slow-burning fire within you. His eyes meet yours, heavy-lidded and filled with desire, making your heart race with anticipation.
He gently guides you to move above him, hands firmly gripping your hips, positioning you carefully until you're comfortably settled with your thighs on either side of his face. A thrill of excitement courses through your body, and you tremble slightly at the intimate vulnerability of the position. Heeseung's gaze reassures you entirely, filled with warmth, adoration, and undeniable lust.
"Take your time," he whispers huskily, warm breath teasing your sensitive skin. "I want to savor you."
His hands slowly stroke your thighs, fingertips pressing lightly into your skin as he draws you closer. Your breath hitches when his lips press softly, sensually along your inner thighs, lingering kisses growing hotter, more intense, making your muscles relax as desire pools deep within your core.
You release a soft, breathless moan as his tongue finally makes contact, moving slowly and deliberately, dragging in slow, teasing strokes, sending waves of languid pleasure cascading through you. Your fingers thread into his hair, guiding his movements gently, hips beginning to rock instinctively, chasing the irresistible sensations he creates.
"Heeseung," you sigh, voice thick with desire, body melting under the slow, sinful movements of his tongue. He hums appreciatively against you, the vibrations rippling pleasure deeper into your body, making you gasp softly.
His touch remains unhurried, deliberately teasing, each slow, tantalizing swipe of his tongue pulling you further into a blissful haze of sensation. He explores every inch of you thoroughly, lips and tongue moving expertly, alternating between slow, gentle strokes and firm, demanding pressure, making you whimper and moan his name repeatedly.
"You taste so good," he murmurs, voice deep and rough, eyes blazing with passion as he briefly pulls away to gaze up at you. "I could do this all night."
Your hips move more insistently now, grinding slowly against his mouth, savoring the deep, languid rhythm you've fallen into. Pleasure coils tighter within you, slow-building yet powerful, as he continues to worship you expertly, driving you steadily toward the edge.
Your breathing becomes ragged, body trembling with need, fingers tightening in his hair as the exquisite sensations push you gently yet inexorably toward release. Heeseung senses your closeness, intensifying his efforts, tongue moving deeply, urgently, drawing you over the edge into a languid, shuddering climax that leaves you breathless and softly trembling above him.
When you finally sink back beside him, his arms wrap around you possessively, pulling you flush against his chest, your bodies tangled intimately as he presses slow, sensual kisses along your skin. The firelight flickers warmly around you, creating a perfect cocoon of warmth, sensuality, and unspoken promises.
Heeseung's fingers trace lazy patterns on your bare skin, his breathing slow and even against your hair.
"What happens when this is over?" you ask softly, the question that's been lingering in the back of your mind finally finding voice. "When they catch him and we go back to the city?"
Heeseung is quiet for a long moment, his hand stilling against your shoulder. Then he props himself up on one elbow, looking down at you with an expression so serious it makes your heart stutter.
"Whatever you want to happen," he says simply. "But I hope... I hope we don't go back to being strangers."
The vulnerability in his voice melts something inside you. "I don't think we could if we tried," you confess. "Not after everything."
Relief softens his features. "Good," he says. "Because I've gotten used to this. To you."
"Me too," you admit, reaching up to trace the line of his jaw. "I can't imagine waking up and you not being there."
His smile is so tender it makes your chest ache. "Then don't," he says, leaning down to brush his lips against yours. "Don't imagine it."
As you drift toward sleep in his arms, the rain pattering gently against the roof, you realize something profound: in running from danger, in seeking refuge, you've somehow found something you weren't even looking forâa connection that transcends the circumstances of your meeting, a sanctuary not just in this remote cabin but in each other.
Whatever comes nextâwhether Minhyuk is caught tomorrow or weeks from nowâthat connection remains. And for the first time since this nightmare began, you find yourself looking toward the future with something like hope.
-
The storm rages through the night, wind howling around the cabin and rain lashing against the windows. Despite the exhaustion weighing on your limbs, sleep comes in fitful bursts, each crack of thunder or creak of the cabin jolting you awake. Beside you, Heeseung maintains his vigil, dozing occasionally but never fully surrendering to sleep. The baseball bat remains within reach, a grim reminder of the danger lurking beyond the walls.
Just before dawn, the storm begins to subside, rain softening to a gentle patter against the roof. Through a small gap in the blanket covering the bedroom window, you can see the sky lightening from black to deep blue, the first hint of morning approaching.
"We should start packing," Heeseung says, his voice low and tense. "I want to be ready to leave as soon as it's fully light."
You nod, slipping from the warmth of the bed into the chill morning air. The satellite phone still shows no signalâthe storm's aftermath continuing to block transmission. You move through the cabin with careful efficiency, gathering only the essentials, keeping away from windows despite the coverings.
"Do you think he's still out there?" you ask, your voice barely above a whisper despite the unlikelihood of being overheard.
Heeseung pauses in his methodical packing, his expression grave. "I don't know. But I'm not taking any chances. We leave in twenty minutes, head straight for the car, and don't stop for anything."
The gravity of his words settles heavily between you. For all your planning, there's still the most dangerous moment to navigateâthe brief exposure between cabin and car, when you'll be completely vulnerable.
As the minutes tick by, tension builds in your chest, a familiar tightness that signals the approach of panic. You focus on your breathing, on the practical tasks at hand, on Heeseung's steady presence beside you. When everything is packed and ready, you stand together in the kitchen, the duffle bags at your feet, steeling yourselves for departure.
"Ready?" Heeseung asks, the baseball bat in one hand, car keys in the other.
You nod, swallowing hard against the fear. "Ready."
He moves to the door, checking through the peephole before unlocking the deadbolt with deliberate quietness. The metallic click of the lock releasing seems unnaturally loud in the pre-dawn stillness. Heeseung turns the knob slowly, easing the door open just enough to scan the porch and clearing beyond.
"Clear," he whispers, opening the door wider. "Let's go."
You step onto the porch, the wooden boards still slick with rain, the air cool and misty after the storm. The clearing surrounding the cabin is eerily still, trees dripping quietly, no wildlife sounds yet greeting the dawn. Everything appears peaceful, normalâand that, somehow, makes your nerves stretch tighter.
Heeseung goes first, bags slung over his shoulder, bat held ready. You follow closely, your footsteps seeming thunderous despite your attempts at stealth. The car is only thirty feet away, but the distance feels vast, exposed, each step taking too long.
You're halfway to the car when you see itâmovement at the forest edge, a dark shape detaching from the deeper shadows beneath the trees. Heeseung notices in the same moment, his body tensing, placing himself between you and the approaching figure.
"Get in the car," he says, voice low and urgent. "Now."
You fumble with the bag, trying to move faster, but your limbs feel heavy with dread. The figure steps fully into the clearing, and even in the dim pre-dawn light, there's no mistaking who it is. Minhyukâhis face gaunt, clothes dirty and wet from the storm, eyes fixed on you with a terrible intensity.
"Go," Heeseung urges again, pressing the car keys into your hand. "Get inside and lock the doors."
But before you can reach the car, Minhyuk calls out, his voice carrying clearly across the clearing. "Don't bother. I cut the fuel line."
Heeseung freezes, a curse escaping under his breath. You can see his mind racing, calculating options, weighing the truth of Minhyuk's claim against the risk of finding out too late.
"What do you want?" Heeseung calls back, his voice steady despite the tension evident in every line of his body.
Minhyuk takes another step forward, and now you can see what he's holdingâthe metallic glint of a knife catching the growing light. "I just want to talk to Y/N. To explain things." His voice is eerily calm, almost reasonable, which somehow makes it more terrifying. "You've turned her against me. I just need a chance to make her understand."
"She understands perfectly," Heeseung responds, his grip tightening on the bat. "You need to leave. Now."
A strange smile crosses Minhyuk's face. "Always the hero, aren't you? Playing the protector." His eyes shift to you, somehow both pleading and menacing. "He's not really your boyfriend, Y/N. We both know that. This is all an act."
Fear roots you to the spot, but anger rises alongside itâanger at this man who has terrorized you, forced you from your home, hunted you across counties. "It doesn't matter," you find yourself saying, your voice stronger than expected. "I don't know you. I don't want to know you. Leave us alone."
Something shifts in Minhyuk's expressionâthe calm facade cracking to reveal something darker, more volatile. "You don't mean that," he says, his voice hardening. "He's manipulating you. Making you say these things."
"No one's manipulating anyone," Heeseung says, taking a half-step forward. "Y/N has made herself clear. You need to go."
Minhyuk's gaze snaps back to Heeseung, hatred twisting his features. "This is between me and her. You're the intruder here."
"Heeseung," you whisper, terror clawing at your throat as you watch Minhyuk's grip tighten on the knife. "Please."
The tension stretches between the three of you, the clearing silent except for the dripping trees and your own heartbeat pounding in your ears. Then Minhyuk movesâa sudden lunge forward that sends panic surging through your veins.
Heeseung reacts instantly, pushing you toward the cabin. "Run!" he shouts, raising the bat as Minhyuk charges.
Time seems to slow and accelerate simultaneouslyâMinhyuk closing the distance with terrifying speed, Heeseung bracing to meet him, the sound of your own ragged breathing as you stumble backward. You want to run as instructed, but can't bear to leave Heeseung alone, your feet refusing to carry you to safety while he faces danger.
The two men collide with violent force. Heeseung swings the bat, forcing Minhyuk to dodge, buying precious seconds. But Minhyuk is fueled by obsession, by a deranged determination that makes him reckless and unpredictable. He feints left, then strikes right, the knife slashing through the air.
Heeseung avoids the worst of it, but the blade catches his arm, tearing through his jacket. He doesn't cry out, doesn't falter, swinging the bat again with controlled precision. This time it connects, striking Minhyuk's shoulder with a sickening thud.
Minhyuk staggers back, but doesn't fall. The injury seems to fuel his rage rather than slow him down. "You think you can protect her?" he snarls. "You think you deserve her?"
"This isn't about deserving," Heeseung responds, voice steady despite the blood now visible on his sleeve. "This is about her choice. And she didn't choose you."
The words seem to strike Minhyuk more powerfully than the physical blow. His face contorts with fury, and he charges again, knife held high.
You're still rooted to the spot, terror paralyzing your limbs. But as Minhyuk rushes toward Heeseung again, survival instinct finally kicks in. Not for yourselfâfor Heeseung. Without conscious thought, you grab the nearest objectâa large rock dislodged during the stormâand throw it with all your strength.
It strikes Minhyuk's back, not hard enough to injure seriously, but enough to distract him, to disrupt his attack. He whirls toward you, eyes wild with betrayal and rage.
"You," he hisses, changing direction, now advancing on you. "After everything I've done to find you..."
Heeseung doesn't hesitate. He lunges forward, tackling Minhyuk from behind before he can reach you. Both men go down hard, grappling in the mud and wet grass. The knife glints in the growing light as they struggle for control, a deadly variable in the chaotic fight.
You search desperately for another weapon, anything to help, when a new sound cuts through the terrible sounds of combatâsirens, distant but approaching. Relief floods through you, followed immediately by renewed fear. Will help arrive in time?
The sound reaches the fighting men as well. Minhyuk freezes for just an instant, his head turning toward the roadâand in that moment of distraction, Heeseung strikes. His fist connects with Minhyuk's jaw, a powerful blow that sends the stalker sprawling backward. The knife falls from his grip, landing on the wet ground between them.
Both men lunge for it simultaneously. Your heart seems to stop as they grapple again, the knife now the focal point of the struggle. Then Heeseung shouts in pain, and you see a flash of redâblood, his bloodâand terror unlike anything you've ever known seizes your heart.
But Heeseung doesn't falter. Despite the wound, he manages to knock the knife away, sending it skittering across the clearing. Then, with a final surge of strength, he pins Minhyuk to the ground, his knee on the stalker's chest, one hand gripping his throat.
"It's over," Heeseung says, his voice ragged with exertion and pain. "Do you hear those sirens? It's over."
Minhyuk struggles for a few more seconds, then goes still, the fight seeming to drain from him as the sound of approaching vehicles grows louder. Heeseung maintains his grip, not trusting the sudden compliance.
The sirens grow louder, then headlights appear through the trees, illuminating the clearing with harsh white light. Police carsâthree of themâbumping down the rough access road, followed by what looks like an ambulance.
"Here!" you shout, waving frantically. "Over here!"
Everything moves quickly after that. Officers pour from the vehicles, guns drawn, shouting commands. Heeseung carefully backs away from Minhyuk, hands raised to show he's not a threat. Minhyuk is immediately handcuffed, his expression eerily vacant now, the manic energy gone.
You rush to Heeseung, heart pounding violently in your chest as you see the blood staining his sleeve, another patch rapidly spreading across his side. His jacket is torn open, revealing a deep gash that makes your stomach lurch.
"You're hurt," you cry out, your voice breaking as tears immediately flood your eyes. Your hands hover over his wounds, afraid to touch and cause more pain but desperate to help. "Oh my god, you're hurt. You're bleeding so much."
"I'm okay," he assures you, though his face is alarmingly pale, his breathing shallow with pain. "It's not as bad as it looks."
"Don't say that!" Your voice rises with panic, tears now streaming freely down your face. "Look at you! This is all my fault. You're hurt because of me."
Your hands tremble as they finally settle on his face, cradling his cheeks as if he might shatter. "You're my baby and you're hurt," you whisper, the words tumbling out without thought, raw with emotion. "Please, you need help right now."
His eyes widen slightly at your words, a softness passing through them despite his pain. He tries to lift his hand to wipe your tears but winces with the movement.
"Don't move," you plead, becoming more frantic as you notice how the blood continues to seep through his clothes. You turn toward the approaching paramedics, desperation in your voice. "Please hurry! He's losing too much blood!"
You turn back to Heeseung, pressing your forehead gently against his, uncaring about the mud and blood. "Stay with me," you whisper fiercely. "I can't lose you. Not now. Not after everything."
Paramedics approach, guiding Heeseung to sit on the steps of the cabin while they examine his wounds. You hover anxiously nearby, unable to tear your eyes from him even as a female officer gently questions you about what happened.
Across the clearing, Minhyuk is being loaded into a police car, his vacant expression finally shifting as his eyes find yours one last time. There's something in his gazeânot remorse, not exactly, but perhaps the first glimmer of understanding that his obsession has led him to ruin.
"He'll be going away for a long time," the detective says, appearing at your side. She looks tired but satisfied. "Attempted murder, stalking, violation of restraining ordersâthe list goes on. He won't hurt anyone else."
Relief makes your knees weak. You look to where Heeseung sits, enduring the ministrations of the paramedics with stoic patience. When he catches your eye, he manages a small, reassuring smile despite everything.
"You should go to him," the detective says, following your gaze. "We can finish the statements later."
You don't need to be told twice. You cross to Heeseung, carefully sitting beside him on the cabin steps. The paramedics have cut away his sleeve to reveal a long gash on his forearm, already partially bandaged. Another wound at his side has been dressed, though blood still seeps through the white gauze.
"How bad is it?" you ask one of the paramedics.
"He'll need stitches," she replies. "But no major arteries were hit. He was lucky."
Lucky isn't the word you'd use. Brave. Selfless. Incredible. Those come closer.
"We need to transport him to the hospital," the paramedic continues. "Would you like to ride along?"
"Yes," you say immediately, your hand finding Heeseung's uninjured one. "I'm not leaving him."
Heeseung's fingers tighten around yours. "It's over," he says softly, just for you. "Really over."
As they help him onto a stretcher, you remain by his side, your hand never leaving his. Behind you, the cabin stands silent in the growing daylight, its brief role as both sanctuary and battleground now complete. Around you, police officers document the scene, take photographs, collect evidence. Minhyuk is driven away, the police car disappearing down the access road toward a future of concrete and steel bars.
In the ambulance, as paramedics hook Heeseung to monitoring equipment and start an IV for pain medication, he keeps his eyes on you, as if afraid you might disappear if he looks away.
"You saved me," he says, his voice slightly slurred as the pain medication begins to take effect. "With that rock. You saved me."
Tears fill your eyes as you shake your head. "No. You saved me. From the very beginning, you saved me."
His lips curve into a tired smile. "Maybe we saved each other."
As the ambulance begins its journey down the mountain, you hold tight to his hand, to that simple truth. Whatever comes nextâhospital rooms, police statements, the eventual return to normal lifeâyou'll face it together. The nightmare is over. Minhyuk can no longer reach you, no longer control your life with fear.
For the first time since that night on the subway platform, you feel truly, completely free. And despite the trauma of the morning, despite Heeseung's injuries and the lingering shock, there's something else growing beneath the reliefâhope. Hope for what comes after fear. Hope for a future neither of you expected to find in the midst of danger.
A future together.
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Three months later
The afternoon sunlight filters through the cafĂ© window, painting golden patterns across the table between you. Heeseung sits across from you, absently tracing the faint scar on his forearmâa permanent reminder of that morning in the mountains. You reach across the table, your fingers covering his, interrupting the unconscious movement.
"You're doing it again," you say softly.
He smiles, turning his hand to intertwine his fingers with yours. "Sorry. Habit."
It's been exactly twelve weeks since Minhyuk was arrested. Twelve weeks of healingâboth physical and emotional. Twelve weeks of rebuilding what had been so violently disrupted. Twelve weeks of discovering who you are together when fear isn't the foundation of your connection.
The legal proceedings had moved swiftly. Minhyuk pleaded guilty to all charges, perhaps finally recognizing the gravity of his actions. His psychiatric evaluation revealed a disturbing pattern of obsessive behavior dating back years before he ever saw you on the subway. The judge had been uncompromising in his sentencing: fifteen years with mandatory psychiatric treatment. You'd attended the sentencing hearing, Heeseung's hand tight around yours as you faced your stalker one final time.
"Whatever made him fixate on you wasn't your fault," the detective had told you afterward. "Some people just break in ways we can't understand."
Those words had helped, as had the therapy sessions you began shortly after returning to the city. But what helped most was Heeseungâhis unwavering presence, his patience as you worked through lingering fears, his understanding on the nights when you still woke gasping from nightmares.
"What time is your appointment?" Heeseung asks now, bringing you back to the present.
"Four o'clock," you reply, glancing at your watch. "Dr. Kim says this might be our last weekly session. She thinks we can move to bi-weekly."
Pride flickers across Heeseung's face. "That's great. You've come so far."
You nod, a small smile tugging at your lips. "I have a good support system."
His thumb traces circles on your palm, his eyes warm with an emotion neither of you has put into words yet, though you both feel it. "Are you still okay with dinner at my parents' place tonight? We can reschedule if you're tired after therapy."
"I want to go," you assure him. Meeting his family had been a major stepâacknowledging that what began in crisis had evolved into something lasting. His parents had welcomed you with genuine warmth, never asking too many questions about how you met, somehow understanding that those details weren't what mattered.
"They like you, you know," Heeseung says, as if reading your thoughts. "My mother keeps asking when you're coming back."
You laugh, the sound still feeling like a small victory each time. "She just wants someone to appreciate her cooking more than you do."
"True," he concedes with a grin.
The waiter arrives with your check, and Heeseung reaches for it automatically. You let him, having learned to pick your battles. Some protective instincts run too deep to challengeâand if you're honest, his devotion is something you've come to cherish rather than resist.
Outside the café, the early autumn air carries just a hint of the coming cold. Heeseung's arm slips around your waist, a gesture that has become as natural as breathing. You lean into him briefly, savoring the solid warmth of him.
"I'll walk you to Dr. Kim's office," he says. "Then I need to stop by the studio for an hour before dinner."
Your paths have settled into a comfortable rhythm over the past months. You returned to your design firm, picking up old projects and beginning new ones. Heeseung resumed his work at the music studio, though he now keeps more regular hours, prioritizing evenings with you. You still have separate apartments, but most nights are spent together, switching between your spaces with easy familiarity.
The walk to your therapist's office takes you past the subway station where it all beganâa route you initially avoided but now traverse without the surge of anxiety it once triggered. Progress, Dr. Kim calls it. Reclaiming your city, your life.
"I'll see you at my place around seven?" Heeseung confirms as you reach the office building.
"I'll be there," you promise. "Should I bring anything?"
"Just yourself." He pauses, then adds, "And maybe pack an overnight bag. My parents usually insist we stay late, and I don't want you taking the subway alone after dark."
Once, you might have chafed at the protectiveness in those words. Now, you recognize it as care rather than control. "Already packed," you admit. "It's in my work bag."
He smiles, leaning down to kiss you briefly. "That's my girl."
As he turns to go, you catch his hand, pulling him back for a moment. "Hey," you say softly. "I've been thinking."
"Dangerous," he teases gently. "About what?"
You hesitate, then take the plunge. "My lease is up next month."
His expression shifts, a cautious hope lighting his eyes. "Is it?"
"I was thinking maybe I shouldn't renew it."
The implication hangs between you, clear but unspoken. Heeseung's hand tightens around yours, his voice dropping to match your quieter tone. "Any particular alternative in mind?"
You hold his gaze, your heart beating faster but not with fearâwith anticipation, with certainty. "Your place is bigger. And you have that spare room you're using as storage that would make a perfect home office for me."
A smile slowly spreads across his face, transforming his features with such joy that it takes your breath away. "I think that could be arranged."
"Yeah?"
"Definitely." He pulls you closer, public setting forgotten as he kisses you properly this time, his hands cradling your face with the same tender care he's shown since that very first night.
When he pulls back, you're both slightly breathless. "Go talk to Dr. Kim," he says, reluctantly releasing you. "I'll see you tonight."
You watch him walk away, struck by how far you've come from that terrified person who grabbed a stranger on a subway platform. The journey hasn't been easyâthere are still moments when fear creeps in, still days when you check over your shoulder more often than necessary. But those moments are becoming rarer, overshadowed by new memories, better ones.
As you turn to enter the building, your phone buzzes with a text. Heeseung, already missing you:
"Just realized we never used the small bedroom at the cabin. Maybe we should go back someday. Make some better memories there."
You smile, typing your reply:
"I'd like that. As long as you're with me."
His response comes instantly:
"Always."
A promise that began in crisis, tested by danger, and nowâfinallyâhas the chance to unfold in peace. You pocket your phone and head into your appointment, ready to talk about the future rather than the past.
A future with Heeseung. A future without fear.
A future that began with two strangers on a subway platform, and against all odds, became home.
fin.
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LEE HEESEUNG FIC REC LIST
s, smut | f, fluff | a, angst | suggestive is noted
since my fic recs are super popular on my nct blog, I decided to start on this blog! fics with less words and less plot/more smut are near the bottom of the list.
i don't want to be your roommate, i want to kiss your neck [ bestfriend's brother!heeseung x fem!reader ] s,f,a
let's collab [ camboy!heeseung x camgirl!reader] s
lee heeseung - the brother's best friend trope, part two [ brother's bestfriend!heeseung x fem!reader ] s,f,a
only if you say yes [ enemies to fwb au ] s,f,a
traces of you. [ loser!heeseung x tutor!reader ] s,f,a
cherry [ pervert!heeseung x virgin!reader ] s,f,a
you plus me [ ex-friend!heeseung x fem!reader ] s,f,a
tides of regret [ ex bestfriend!heeseung x fem!reader ] s,f,a
coffee & cream [ virgin!heeseung x virgin fem!reader ] s,f,a
falling alone [ lieutenant!heeseung x therapist housewife!reader, strained marriage au ] s,f,a
player rank: platinum [ simp gamer!heeseung x fem!reader, sister's bf au ] s,a
only if you say yes (please say yes) [ enemies to lovers au ] s,f,a
two's a company [ incompatible friend!heeseung x fem!reader, forced proximity au] s
i offer you my everything [ basketball captain!heeseung x virgin!reader ] s,f
m.o.r.e. - my only ruined escape [husband's friend!heeseung x fem!reader, toxic marriage au ] s,f,a
not if it's you, part two [ nerd!heeseung x fem!reader, strangers to lovers ] s,f,a
racing, beating [ illegal-racer!heeseung x model!reader, arranged marriaged au ] s
one hundred and one [ little brother's bestfriend!heeseung x fem!reader ] s,a
how to get back at your ex [ ex!heeseung x fem!reader, coworkers au ] s,f,a
what you need [ boyfriend's friend!heeseung x fem!reader, roommates au ] s,a
you make me [ stranger!heeseung x insomniac!reader ] suggestive
wrong doings [ stepdad!heeseung x stepdaughter!reader ] s,a
cross the line [ childhood best friends to lovers ] s,f
prince charming's mismatch [ prince!heeseung x princess!reader ] suggestive
pool party [ brother's bestfriend!heeseung x fem!reader, pool party au ] s,f,a
saint matthew's academy [toxic rich!heeseung x innocent!reader, private school au ] s,f,a
playground crush [ neighbor!heeseung x fem!reader, strangers to lovers ] s
as long as you'll let me [ virgin!heeseung x badgirl!reader ] s
i hate you [ bestfriend's brother!heeseung x fem!reader ] s,f
the space between [ rich basketball player!reader x flowershop owner!reader ] s,f,a
give it time [ inexperienced!heeseung x jake's sister!reader ] s
conflict of interest [ pool cleaner!heeseung x rich fem!reader ] s
heavenly [ established relationship, stuck inside due to storm au ] s
âjust sit on my lap, itâll be fineâ [ gamer!heeseung x fem!reader, no nut november au ] s
two moons [ plug!heeseung x fem!reader ] s
want [ boyfriend!heeseung x fem!reader, first time au ] s
tethered [ emo!heeseung x fem!reader, childhood friends to lovers au ] s,a
mine or yours? [ stepbrother!heeseung x fem!reader ] s
helping hand [ bestfriend!heeseung x fem!reader ] s
let me show you [ experienced friend!heeseung x inexperienced fem!reader ] s,f
the girl from the bar [ bartender!heeseung x fem!reader ] s,f
easy access [ ex!heeseung x fem!reader ] s,a
a sucker for the taste [ experienced husband!heeseung x virgin!reader ] s,f
apple cider [ roommate!heeseung x fem!reader ] s
something new [ established relationship au ] s
taste [ munch!heeseung x fem!reader ] s
90 days of pleasure [ enemies to lovers ] s,f,a
teddy bear pajamas [ heeseung x jay's sister!reader ] s
surprise [ established relationship au ] s
plushies and headsets [ bestfriend!heeseung x petite!reader ] s
addicted [roommate!heeseung x tutor!reader ] s
wet [ water gun fight au ] s
road trip [ friend!heeseung x fem!reader, smut in car w friends ] s
diet pepsi [ bestfriend's brother!heeseung x virgin!reader ] s
the love game [ gamer!heeseung x fem!reader, established relationship ] s,f
wet dreams [ roommate!heeseung x fem!reader ] s
attention [ gamer boyfriend!heeseung x fem!reader ] s
tasty [ bestfriend!heeseung x fem!reader ] s
breaking free [ stoner!heeseung x fem!reader ] suggestive,f,a
forced roommates or forced to be lovers? [ popular pervy!gamer heeseung x popular cheerleader!reader ] s,f
homecoming [ idol!heeseung x fem!reader, established relationship ] s
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JUST THIS⊠TWICE? | JJK
summary. when you complain to jungkook about your lack of action in the past year, you're not really asking for a solution. but when he casually offers to help, you just can't seem to bring yourself to say no.
after all, what's the worst that could happen in hooking up just this once?
pairing: jeon jungkook x f!reader
genre: friends to lovers, smut, fluff
word count: 8.3k
warnings: more porn but with a tiny bit more plot :0, swearing, explicit sexual content, car sex, kissing, making out, oral (f. receiving), again heâs very cocky but can we blame him, breast play, multiple orgasms, banter and teasing as dirty talk, petnames (baby), jk's actually a menace but lowkey down bad, the ending deserves a warning (iâm sorryy), let me know if i missed anything!
notes: thank you SAURR much to my bae j @tranquilreign for beta reading!! (iâm still giggling at all ur comments pls :3) likes, comments, reblogs, asks and feedback are so so appreciated. enjoy reading my angelss <3
ps. READ PART ONE HERE!!
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You wake up to the dull throb of sunlight pressing through your curtains and the sharper ache between your legs.
It's not unpleasant â just a lingering reminder. A hum under your skin, like a bruise you donât mind touching again and again.
You blink slowly, your eyes gritty from sleep, mouth dry, brain hazy in that half-dream state where everything feels like it could be made up. The heavy comforter is kicked down to your hips, your legs tangled in each other, and for a second â just one â you think maybe it was a dream.
But then you shift, and your thighs protest, and it all comes back.
The couch. His fingers. His mouth. The way he looked at you like heâd already had you a thousand times in his head. The things he said â low, teasing, mean. The things you said back. Your stomach tightens, breath hitching as your body tries to replay it too fast, too much.
You squeeze your eyes shut and will your brain to shut up.
You donât usually let people sleep over. Not like this. Not in your bed, under your sheets, in your space.
But Jungkookâs always been the exception to things. Itâs not new, waking up with him in your apartment. Heâs been here for movie nights that turned into sleepovers, for hangovers that turned into late mornings, for heartbreaks that turned into shared pints of ice cream and shit talk.
Youâve seen him in your space more times than you can count. But never like this.
You breathe in slow and exhale even slower, eyes fluttering open. The room is still, the air thick with the kind of silence that begs to be broken but doesnât quite want to be. You shift again, turning onto your side, and your eyes land on the shape beside you.
Heâs lying on his stomach, one arm thrown across your pillow, the other tucked under his chest. The blanketâs halfway down his back, exposing the mess of tattoos curling across his shoulder and the dip of his spine. His hairâs a wreck â pushed off his forehead, flattened in the back â and his lips are parted, soft. He looks young like this. Calm. A little too good for your peace of mind.
You stare at him a moment too long.
And then you very, very carefully roll onto your back again.
You feel like youâre in a minefield. Like one wrong move will detonate something you're not ready to name.
You slept with your best friend.
Not just slept. Fucked.
Fucked him like you meant it. Like youâve wanted to for longer than youâre willing to admit, even to yourself.
You exhale again. A sharp, quiet puff of air through your nose. Maybe if you stay still long enough, heâll just keep sleeping. And you can sneak to the bathroom. Or back in time. Whicheverâs easier.
Youâre not panicking. Not technically. Youâre just⊠thinking. Overthinking. Remembering how you sounded begging him not to stop. Remembering how he looked at you like you were the only thing heâd ever wanted. Remembering how, when it was over, he held you like it meant something.
You feel his warmth next to you, steady and real. His leg brushes yours, his knee nudging slightly against your calf, and your whole body goes still again.
You wonder what he's going to say when he wakes up; if he'll still smile at you like he did last night â like nothing about this is complicated. Like your world didnât tilt just a little off its axis the second he kissed you back, like he wasn't allowed to and never planned on stopping.
You should feel weird. You should feel guilty. Or ashamed. Or something more than this weird, electric calm.
But mostly, you just feel like you donât want to move.
His breathing shifts â subtle, but enough that you know heâs starting to wake up.
Your heart trips a little.
He shifts, and the arm heâd slung over your pillow curls slightly in, fingers brushing the back of your hand. He lets out a groggy hum, the noise half in his throat.
You freeze, eyes still closed.
âMm,â he mumbles, voice thick with sleep. âWhat time is it?â
You swallow. Your voice doesnât come right away, caught somewhere behind your tongue. When it does, itâs soft, a rasp. âNo idea.â
He exhales. Shuffles a little closer. You can feel the heat of him now, bleeding through the sliver of space that still separates you. A moment passes. Then another. You brace for it â for the tension, the shift, the stammered joke to smooth over the jagged memory of last night.
But all he says is, âDamn. My back hurts.â
You blink, startled by the normalcy of it. âYouâre not supposed to sleep like that. You looked like a crime scene victim.â
âSexy,â he mutters, eyes still closed. âThatâs what I was going for.â
You huff a quiet laugh. And weirdly, the knot in your stomach loosens just a little.
Another silence stretches. But itâs not bad. Not heavy. He makes a small sound as he shifts again, propping himself up just slightly on one elbow. You donât look at him, not yet, but you can feel his eyes on you.
âHow do you feel?â
You hesitate.
He waits.
You turn your head slowly toward him, and finally meet his gaze. His hairâs a mess, his eyes still sleep-warm, but thereâs something sharper under the surface. Not regret. Not even nerves. Just⊠attention. Heâs watching you the way he did last night â carefully. Like you matter.
You chew your lip for a second. "Sore," you eventually say, voice quiet.
He smiles. âGood sore or bad sore?â
You raise an eyebrow. âYou want a Yelp review?â
He shrugs, still smiling. âI mean, if youâre offering. Iâd love a star rating.â
You stare at him for another second. Then you snort, burying your face in the pillow. âYouâre such a dick.â
âYou didnât mind last night.â
You groan, muffled. âPlease don't. It's too early for this.â
He laughs â really laughs â and you feel it wash over you like a warm breeze. Heâs not weird about it. Not cagey or distant. And maybe itâs a little disarming how himself he still is. Like nothingâs changed.
Like everything has, but itâs fine.
He shifts again, flops onto his back beside you with a loud sigh and an arm flung dramatically over his eyes. âI donât think Iâve ever been this hungover and this smug at the same time. Itâs honestly kind of impressive.â
You glance at him, lips twitching. âYour egoâs going to explode.â
He peeks at you from under his arm. âCan you blame me? I mean, damn.â
You roll your eyes and toss a corner of the blanket over his face.
But your heartâs still racing.
You donât know what you were expecting â some awkward shuffle out of bed, a strained goodbye, maybe even him pretending it hadnât happened. But heâs still here. In your bed. In your space. Making you laugh.
Just like always.
Your fingers brush against his under the covers. Neither of you pull away.
You stare at the ceiling for a moment, letting yourself breathe. Letting the silence settle between you again. It feels different now, not loud with questions or demanding anything from you.
It feels like⊠him.
And maybe youâre not ready to ask what it means yet.
But for now?
This doesnât feel like a mistake. Not even a little.
Youâre standing outside your office building, arms crossed and scowling.
The sidewalkâs sticky with the leftover heat of the day, and thereâs a cluster of your co-workers behind you laughing about something youâre not a part of. Their voices blur into the honks and hum of Friday traffic, and all you can focus on is the time.
Jungkook is two minutes late.
You know how stupid it is â two minutes. But today, even two seconds of anything feels like too much.
You shift your weight from one foot to the other, the back of your neck damp with sweat, the strap of your bag digging into your shoulder in just the wrong way. Your phone sits heavy in your palm. No new messages. No âalmost there.â No âsorry, trafficâs ass.â
Nothing.
The week has wrung you out like a wet towel. Every day, some new tiny disaster: deadlines moving without warning, your boss micromanaging you like youâre an intern again, and a meeting yesterday where a client talked over you so many times you wanted to crawl under the table and scream.
Youâve barely slept. Your eyes are scratchy. You snapped at someone in the break room this morning because they made a passive-aggressive joke about your âresting bitch face.â And now, Jungkook is late. On your day. Friday. The one consistent thing in your life.
Every Friday, he picks you up from work.
It started almost a year ago, after a breakup left you crying into your salad at your desk. When Jungkook had texted you to come down that day, you'd expected takeout and tissues. But instead, heâd cranked up the music in his car and driven you to a late-night ramen spot where you ended up laughing so hard you nearly choked on your noodles.
It became tradition. No matter what kind of week youâd had, no matter what mood either of you were in â Friday nights belonged to you two. You didnât even have to plan anything. Sometimes it was tacos in the car and talking shit about your co-workers. Sometimes it was video games at his place or walking around the city until your legs ached and your cheeks hurt from laughing.
He always showed up. Early, even.
But today, the sun is setting in your eyes, and heâs late.
You tap your foot. Then stop, because thatâs annoying. Then sigh loud enough to get a look from a passing stranger.
You grip your phone tighter, squinting down the street. Still no sign of his car. Your thumb hovers over the call button.
Three minutes late now.
Your stomach twists â not from worry, but frustration. Because this â this quiet, unnecessary delay â is the cherry on top of the shit sundae that has been your entire week. And you hate that itâs him. That even Jungkook gets to be a part of the unravelling now.
You lean against the metal pole of the bus sign, letting it bite into your spine. A bead of sweat slips down your back. The sun is way too bright for this hour.
Your phone buzzes.
Finally.
You snatch it up like youâve been waiting for a lifeline, and there it is:
Kook đ: here in a min
You glare at the screen. Then type:
You: Youâre late.
Kook đ: exactly 3 min. thatâs barely anything
You: Youâre lucky Iâm too exhausted to castrate you.
Kook đ: bet you'll still get in the car
You donât respond.
You just shove your phone back in your bag and take a breath that doesnât do anything to help.
Jungkookâs car pulls up slow, music low, window already halfway down. Heâs in that stupid black bucket hat he always wears, curls pushed out from under the brim. You catch the grin heâs wearing before he even says anything â wide, lazy, like heâs proud just to have found parking.
He leans over and calls out through the window, âDamn. Which poor intern did you kill today?â
You glare at him.
His smile falters a little, but he keeps going, still trying to crack you open like usual. âI mean, youâre kinda glowing with hate. Itâs kinda hot. Veryââ
âJungkook,â you cut in, sharp.
His eyes snap up to yours.
You immediately hate how sharp your voice came out. You look away, fingers curling around the strap of your bag.
âSorry,â you mutter after a beat. âI just⊠Iâve had a fucking awful week, and Iâm really not in the mood for jokes right now.â
Thereâs a pause. Just the hum of the engine and a soft beat coming from the speakers â some song with a lazy bassline and breathy vocals.
Then he shifts. You hear the click of the lock before he leans over to push the door open for you. âGet in.â
You do. Without arguing.
The cool air hits your face the second the door closes, and you let your head lean back against the seat. He doesnât say anything right away. Just starts driving, hands loose on the wheel, his bottom lip tugged between his teeth like heâs thinking.
âYou wanna talk about it?â he asks eventually, softer this time.
You shake your head. âNot really. Just one of those weeks where everything goes to shit in slow motion. Work, people, the world. My brain. I think I hate everyone.â
He hums. âCool. We can start a club.â
You huff a laugh, just barely. But itâs something.
He glances at you sideways, like heâs measuring how far he can push. âSo when do I get to punch your boss?â
âIâm serious, Kook.â
âI'm serious too! Iâve been doing push-ups.â
You snort, against your will. âYou do three push-ups and call it training.â
âFirst of all, way more than three. Second, the form was perfect. Donât disrespect me in my own car.â
You smile â tiny, fleeting â but itâs the first time today youâve felt even remotely human.
âThanks for picking me up,â you murmur after a second. âEven if you were late.â
âExactly three minutes,â he says, defensive. âAnd I was texting you while driving, which is dedication. Illegal, but dedication.â
You glance over at him. Heâs wearing his usual all-black like heâs trying to look tough, but the corners of his mouth are soft. His grip on the wheel is loose. Familiar. Like this is just another Friday, like nothingâs changed since last week.
But something has. You feel it.
You clear your throat. âCan we just go back to mine? I kind of want to curl into a blanket and pretend I donât exist.â
âNope,â he says instantly.
You blink. âWhat?â
âI have a plan.â
âA plan?â
âYep.â
âWhat kind of plan?â
He just grins, eyes still on the road. âYouâll see.â
You narrow your eyes. âI swear to god, if this ends with me getting roped into karaokeââ
âNo karaoke,â he says with a laugh, holding up one hand solemnly. âI promise. Youâve suffered enough.â
You sigh and let your head fall against the window. The glass is cool against your temple, and you let your eyes slip closed for a second. âIâm serious though, Kook. I really donât think I have the energy to be around people right now.â
âNo people,â he assures you. âJust us. Little detour. Nothing dramatic.â
You peek one eye open at him. âYouâre being weird.â
âIâm being nice.â
âThatâs whatâs weird.â
He smirks. âOkay, thatâs fair.â
You fall quiet again. The road noise fills the silence, the gentle whir of tires and the low pulse of the bass. Itâs soothing in a way, the way riding with him always is.
Your fingers drift to your lap, fidgeting with the hem of your shirt. He doesnât ask again about your week. He just drives, one hand on the wheel, the other resting casually near the gearshift, fingers tapping to the beat of the music.
You glance at him again.
He looks good when heâs focused but relaxed. The way he hums along to the music without realising. The way the light paints the side of his face gold as it streams through the windshield. You feel it crawl up your chest: that annoying, warm pressure. That thing you havenât named yet.
That thing youâre starting to feel more often when heâs near you.
And itâs so stupid. So inconvenient.
You stare out the window, try to shake it off.
He turns down a street you donât recognise.
âSeriously,â you say, finally. âWhere are we going?â
He just grins again, eyes still forward.
âYouâll see.â
Youâre parked at the top of a hill you didnât know existed.
Below you, the city stretches out â tiny glints of light catching on glass and metal, and cars threading through the streets like slow-moving ants. Itâs not some tourist lookout spot. Thereâs no crowds, no fences or coin-operated telescopes. Just a dusty turnout on the side of a winding road and a view that makes you feel like the world finally shut up for a minute.
Itâs quiet up here. Real quiet. Even the music in the car has been turned down to a soft background hum â just instrumental now.
Youâve got a milkshake in your hands, condensation slipping down the side and catching on your fingers. Itâs thick and rich, the kind that takes actual effort to sip through a straw. The sweetness coats your tongue, dulls the bitter edge thatâs been living in your chest all week. In your lap is the discarded wrapping of a burger so good you had to ask where the hell it came from.
âIâve literally never heard of this place,â you say around a mouthful of fries. âIs this one of those âsecret menu, donât tell anyone or theyâll kill youâ joints?â
Jungkook grins around his own bite, sauce already on the corner of his mouth. âMaybe. The guy who owns it doesnât even do social media. Total off-the-grid.â
You nod like that explains the magic burger. âThey probably sold their soul to the devil for the recipes or something.â
He laughs, mouth full, and leans over to wipe the sauce off with the back of his hand. âYou okay now?â
You pause.
The question isnât heavy. He doesnât even look at you when he says it â just stares out at the view like heâs asking casually. But you hear the real version underneath. You always hear it with him.
You take a slow sip of your milkshake before answering.
âYeah,â you say. âI think I am.â
And for once, itâs not a lie. Your body still feels wrung out, your muscles sore from being tense for too many days in a row, but something about this â about being here, with him, with real food and fake silence and a breeze that smells like clean air and french fries settles something in you.
You glance over. Heâs sitting back against the driverâs side door, one knee propped up. His hatâs on the floor somewhere â he'd thrown it off after complaining about the heat â and the curve of his neck is exposed just enough to distract you when you look too long.
Which you are. Looking too long, again.
âSo,â you say, casually. âHow many women have you brought up here to seduce with mystery burgers and pretty views?â
He snorts. âYouâre the first. Most of my dates prefer the classic âcome over and watch a movie, but donât actually watch the movieâ route.â
You raise an eyebrow. âWow. Such effort.â
âRight? Iâm kind of romantic like that.â
You toss a fry at him. It bounces off his chest and lands in his tray.
He doesnât flinch. Just picks it up and eats it. âThanks.â
You roll your eyes, but you can't help the smile that tugs on your lips.
The air settles into a rhythm again. You chew slowly, the kind of silence between you that doesnât need filling. It's never been hard, being around him. Even now â after everything â you find yourself slipping back into the easy groove of just existing next to him.
Your phone buzzes in your bag, but you donât reach for it. You donât even want to know.
You glance over at him again.
Heâs still working on his burger, brows furrowed like heâs trying to solve it. Like heâs mad at how good it tastes.
It should be funny.
It is funny. But your heart stutters instead.
You donât laugh. You just watch.
The way his lips press together before each bite. The little crease between his eyebrows. His jaw, flexing with each chew. The thick column of his throat when he swallows.
Youâve seen him eat a thousand things in a thousand places. Messy tacos. Gas station snacks. Instant noodles straight from the pot. But somehow, this moment feels different.
Or maybe you do.
Something in you has been tilting all week.
Youâve been tired, angry, brittle with exhaustion. But under it â every time he texts you, looks at you, shows up â thereâs something else rising. Warm and low.
Youâre not sure when being around him stopped feeling simple.
Maybe it was that night. Maybe itâs been creeping in longer. But itâs louder now. Clearer. It fills your throat and sits behind your ribs and presses up against the edges of your self-control.
He licks ketchup from his thumb.
And you canât stop staring at his mouth.
He glances up and catches you looking, raising an eyebrow. âWhat?â
You blink. Swallow. Try to think of something else, anything else, but your bodyâs already too aware. Too wired.
âWould you hate me if I did something?â you ask, voice low.
His head tilts. âWhat kind of something?â
âWould you?â you repeat, ignoring his question.
He puts his empty milkshake cup and spare tissues into the paper bag you got the food in, then puts it on to the dashboard of the car before meeting your gaze again.
âYou know I could never hate you,â he says, voice casual.
Your pulse stutters.
And before you can talk yourself out of it, your fingers fist in the front of his shirt and youâre moving across your seat, crashing your mouth into his.
Itâs not sweet or delicate.
You kiss him like youâve been holding it back for weeks. Like youâve hit your limit and thereâs nowhere else for the feeling to go. Your teeth scrape his lip. Your noses bump.
He makes a startled sound, hands finding your waist instinctively. You pull back a bit, heart hammering in your chest, and for a beat, neither of you move. He just stares at you â wide-eyed, lips parted â like heâs trying to memorise this exact second.
His mouth opens and closes for a second before his lips are on yours again, chasing your mouth like he needs you to breathe.
Fuck. You weren't actually expecting him to reciprocate.
Then again, you hadn't been thinking at all.
"This is a horrible idea," you mumble.
Jungkook smiles into the kiss. "Mhm. Terrible."
But neither of you stop. You're not sure you could even if you tried. Jungkook's an addicting man, especially when he's kissing you like this.
You grunt into his mouth when your knee hits the centre console, frustrated â not at him, not at this, but at the fucking layout of his stupid car.
You pull back just far enough to say, breathless, âThis car is the worst possible place for this.â
Heâs panting a little, lips flushed. âYouâre the one who launched yourself at me.â
You roll your eyes, shifting your position to try and get comfortable, but your impatience only grows with every second that your lips aren't on his.
âFuck,â you mutter, pushing your hair out of your face. âThis is soââ
âHot,â Jungkook cuts in, his hand sliding under your shirt to palm your waist. His touch is warm. Steady. âItâs hot.â
You pause. Look at him.
His gaze is on your mouth again and his hand flexes against your skin like heâs trying to stay in control. But you see it â how much effort itâs taking.
And thatâŠ
Yeah, that does something to you.
With the help of his hands, your weight sinks down into his lap, both knees straddling his thighs.
The position isnât comfortable â your head almost knocks the ceiling â but itâs better than before. Your mouths press together again, desperate.
Your tongue slides against his, your teeth catch on his bottom lip, and he pulls you tighter like you might disappear if he lets go.
One of his hands snakes up your back, under your shirt, fingers splaying across your spine like he wants to map it. You grind down against him, slow and deliberate, and his breath stutters.
âFuck,â he mutters into your mouth. âDo that again.â
You do.
He tilts his head and deepens the kiss, like heâs trying to taste everything youâve never said out loud. You lose your balance for a second, your body leaning into him, your chest flush with his. His hand slips up to your jaw, thumb brushing along your cheekbone.
You roll your hips again, slower this time, and he breaks the kiss with a gasp, resting his forehead against yours.
âShit,â he says, voice wrecked. âWe canât do this here.â
âWhy not?â you murmur, mouth still grazing his.
He laughs â short, breathless. âBecause Iâm gonna break the gearshift with my dick if we keep going.â
You laugh too, the sound getting lost between the kisses you press to his jaw, his neck, the line of his throat.
His fingers dig into your waist. âYouâre evil.â
You bite his earlobe gently. âYou like it.â
He groans, the sound full and needy, and his hands are on your ass, dragging you harder into him, his hips rolling up to meet yours.
You both freeze at the contact.
Your breath catches. His does too.
You pull back to look at him. His eyes are blown wide. His lips are red. His chest rises and falls like heâs run a mile.
His mouth breaks from yours, breath ragged, lips swollen.
âBackseat,â he says, voice a little raspy.
You blink, still breathless. âWhat?â
He grabs your waist again, eyes dark with lust pooling in his pupils. âBackseat. Now.â
You donât question him this time.
You clamber into the back with far less grace than youâd like â knees catching on leather, thigh knocking the steering wheel hard enough to make the horn let out a pathetic chirp. Jungkook laughs behind you, but itâs breathless and reverent, the kind of sound that makes you feel seen. Wanted.
You fall into the back seat, legs tangled, heart hammering, your skin hot beneath your clothes. Before you can even fix your hair or adjust your position, heâs climbing in after you.
His body slots over yours, knee between your thighs, hands bracing on either side of your head as he dives back in.
You fist his shirt, tugging him impossibly closer as his mouth breaks from yours and moves lower â along your jaw, down your neck. His lips are soft but relentless, nipping at the skin just below your ear before sucking hard enough to make your hips buck into him.
âFuck,â you whisper, head falling back. âYouâreâgodââ
âStill not tired of me?â he murmurs against your throat.
You grip his shoulders, legs falling open to make room for him between them. âShut up.â
He huffs a laugh against your skin, but he listens. Fingers move to your buttons, surprisingly nimble despite how wrecked he looks. He doesnât tear anything. Doesnât rush it. He undoes each one slowly, as if heâs unwrapping a gift heâs been waiting way too long to open.
As each button pops free, his mouth follows â kissing down the newly exposed skin between your breasts, over the curve of your ribs. His hands slide beneath the fabric, pushing it open until your chest is bared, and hooks a finger beneath the centre of your bra, tugging it down and out of the way until you're fully exposed beneath him.
He pulls back to look.
And when he does, he breathes your name.
Low. Like a prayer.
You watch his eyes drag over you, dark and worshipful. One hand cups your breast, his thumb brushing over your nipple in slow, lazy circles while the other grips your waist, holding you steady as your back arches into him.
He leans down again, tongue flicking over your nipple before his mouth closes around it â sucking just hard enough to make your toes curl. Your fingers fly to his hair, anchoring yourself in him as his teeth graze sensitive skin and his free hand teases the other side, drawing a sharp gasp from your throat.
âKookââ you breathe, hips shifting beneath him, desperate for friction.
His mouth drags away with a wet sound. âYeah, baby?â
The pet name sounds dangerous in his voice. Too natural. Like it belongs.
You donât even call it out. You just say, âNeed more.â
Thatâs all he needs to hear.
He drops one hand between your thighs, pressing it there over your pants with firm, maddening pressure. Just enough to make your breath stutter. His mouth is back on your chest, and his fingers start moving â slow at first, then harder, more purposeful, dragging against the seam of the fabric like he knows exactly how to push you to the edge.
He does.
And youâre already spiralling, body burning under his touch, chest heaving, lips swollen, the back seat of his car too cramped, too humid, too perfectly wrong for whatâs happening.
But youâve never wanted anything more.
Your head drops back against the seat, a soft moan catching in your throat as Jungkook keeps working you over through your pants, his fingers circling you like he has all the time in the world and none of the patience to waste it.
âI swear to god,â you pant, âif you donât get these off me right now, Iâm gonna lose my fucking mind.â
He laughs, still panting himself. His mouth presses hot and open to your neck, teeth grazing skin thatâs already buzzing. âBossy tonight, huh?â
âYou started this.â
âAnd Iâm gonna finish it,â he mutters, breath warm against your collarbone.
He shifts down your body and you feel him fumble with the button of your pants, tongue poking at the corner of his mouth in concentration.
âI can do it,â you say, breathless. âYouâre slow.â
He blinks up at you, eyebrows raised. âOh? Iâm slow?â
You undo the button in one motion, zipper halfway down, and shoot him a sarcastic smile. âThere. Congrats.â
He smiles, wide and wicked, and in the next second, heâs got your pants halfway down your thighs, your panties bunched right after. âCool. Iâll just use my mouth then.â
That wipes the smugness off your face in an instant.
You freeze.
âKookâ wait, noââ
He pauses, glancing up at you from where heâs knelt between your legs, hair falling into his eyes, hands gripping your thighs with intent. âDid you just try and say no to that?â
âI meanâŠâ You squirm, thighs twitching under his touch. âLast time was alreadyâ like, I came. A lot. You donât have to do the whole⊠yâknowâŠâ
âThe whole what?â he asks, voice dangerously innocent. âThe part where I make you forget your own name with my tongue?â
You glare at him. âDonât say it like that.â
He smirks, leaning in until his nose brushes your inner thigh. âSay what? That Iâm gonna eat you out until youâre dripping into the seat?â
Your whole body jerks. âJesusâ Kook.â
âThatâs not a no.â
He presses a kiss to your inner thigh, slow and warm. Then another. And another. Higher. Closer.
âDidn't get to do it last time,â he murmurs. âAnd Iâve been thinking about it. All fucking week.â
âYou think about this?â you ask, trying for teasing, but your voice wavers as his mouth brushes closer to your core.
âEvery night.â
Your breath catches.
âEvery time I jerked off, it was to the sound you made when I had my fingers in you. You remember that?â he asks, dragging his mouth up until heâs just hovering over you, warm breath ghosting across your heat.
You nod, because you canât speak. Your fingers are curled tight into the edge of the seat. Your thighs twitch.
âYou remember what you said? âPlease, donât stop,ââ he mimics, voice low and mocking. âBut now you wanna tell me to stop this?â
You open your mouth to fire back some bratty reply â but then he presses a single, firm kiss against your cunt.
Your brain blanks.
Your hips buck.
âFuckâ okay,â you gasp, voice breaking.
He grins like heâs won a bet. âKnew youâd cave.â
Then his mouth is on you.
Hot and slow at first â just one long lick from bottom to top that has your eyes rolling back. His hands pin your thighs apart, anchoring you in place as he buries his face between your legs.
His tongue is obscene. Soft and firm in perfect rhythm, flicking over your clit before sealing his mouth around it and sucking hard enough to make your vision blur.
You cry out, hips stuttering up into his face, but he just groans against you.
âFuck, youâre so messy already,â he mumbles against you. âIs that for me?â
Youâre beyond words.
Your fingers snake into his hair, anchoring yourself as he eats you out like a man with something to prove. He moves with precision and hunger, memorising your every twitch, every gasp, every breathless curse.
âGod, Kookââ you pant, eyes squeezed shut. âYouâre such a fucking overachiever.â
He pulls back just enough to look up at you, chin slick, pupils blown. âYou gonna dock my grade if I make you come too fast?â
You glare down at him, chest heaving. âYouâre insufferable.â
He presses a kiss to your clit, slow and sharp. âAs if it doesn't turn you on."
You canât argue. Not when he dives back in, tongue sliding over you with maddening confidence, his nose bumping against your clit as he hums.
The pressure builds fast.
Too fast.
And you know itâs coming â the kind of orgasm that starts at your toes and climbs like a fuse to the rest of you â but you donât care.
You come hard, shaking through it, barely aware of the sounds leaving your mouth. Everything goes white-hot for a second â your grip in his hair, the tremble in your thighs, the pleasure that pulses through you.
Youâre still gasping, thighs trembling, when he finally pulls back. His lips are slick, his chin wet with you, and he looks fucking wrecked.
He wipes his mouth with the back of his hand.
âYou good?â he asks, cocky and a little breathless.
You shoot him a look. âDo I look good?â
He smirks. âYou look like I just rocked your shit.â
You scoff, weak but grinning. âYouâre so full of yourself.â
He kisses your inner thigh, then leans up, mouth dragging over your ribs as he moves back over you. âJust calling it like I see it.â
Your hands slide under his shirt as he settles above you again, dragging it up over his toned stomach until he gets the hint and peels it off. You press your palms to his chest, warm and solid and slick with sweat.
Then your hand starts moving lower.
Jungkook freezes above you, eyes flicking down to where your fingers are tugging at his waistband. You smirk up at him.
âMy turn?â
âYour turn to what?â he asks, voice already hoarse.
You shift, nudging his hips up so you can start pulling his jeans open. âYou think Iâm gonna let you have all the fun?â
He groans â actual, full-bodied groan â as you work the zipper down and slide your hand beneath the waistband of his boxers.
But the second your fingers wrap around him, he grabs your wrist.
You look up, surprised. âWhat?â
Heâs panting now, jaw tight, brow furrowed like heâs holding on by a thread.
âI canât.â
You blink. âCanât what?â
âIâ fuck, if you put your mouth on me, Iâm not gonna last.â He grips your wrist tighter, not pulling away but not letting you move either. âAnd I need to be in you first.â
You raise a brow, amused. âWhat happened to all that stamina you brag about during Mario Kart?â
He glares, cheeks flushed. âThatâs different. You donât suck me off during Mario Kart.â
âMaybe I should.â
âDonât joke right now,â he grits out, pushing your hand out of his boxers with an almost painful kind of restraint. âIâm serious. Iâm already dying.â
You pout, dragging your nails lightly down his stomach just to be a brat. âSo needy.â
His eyes narrow, before moving back onto you.
You squeal as he pins your hands above your head, his body crashing into yours, mouth crashing against your neck.
âIâll show you needy,â he growls, voice thick and dark.
Your heart kicks hard in your chest, and youâre smiling â giddy, wrecked, turned on beyond belief.
âYou promise?â you whisper, voice almost mocking.
His hips roll down into yours.
âOh, baby. I promise.â
The second his hips grind down again, dragging against your soaked heat, you feel your breath punch out of your lungs.
He lets go of your wrists and shoves his jeans and boxers down just far enough to free himself, cock flushed and heavy, already leaking at the tip. You reach for it instinctively, wanting to feel him, stroke him slow just to tease â but he swats your hand away like itâs nothing.
âNo,â he growls, leaning in to press a kiss to your collarbone, rough and reverent all at once. âYou had your chance.â
You open your mouth to argue, to push his buttons just a little more â but the head of his cock nudges your entrance, and whatever snark you had queued up melts into a gasp.
Jungkook groans under his breath, burying his face in the crook of your neck like the restraint is killing him. âFuck, youâre so wet.â
âYeah,â you rasp, gripping his shoulders, nails digging in. âWonder why.â
He shifts his hips, just a little, dragging the thick head through your folds. Not pushing in yet, but slicking himself up with you. You moan despite yourself, arching into him, your body desperate to be filled.
âYou ready?â he mutters, voice ragged.
You look at him â really look at him. His hairâs a mess, stuck to his forehead. His lips are kiss-bruised and red. His abs flex as he holds himself up over you, barely restraining the shake in his arms.
And youâve never wanted anything so badly in your life.
âYeah,â you whisper. âPlease.â
He doesnât need to be told twice.
He pushes in slow, thick and stretching, and your breath catches at the burn. Your back arches. One hand flies to the window for leverage, the other fists in the back of his neck.
âJesus,â Jungkook groans, barely halfway in. âYou feelâ fuckâ you feel insane.â
You laugh, short and winded. âThatâs what you said last time.â
âYeah, and I meant it.â
He bottoms out with a curse, hips flush to yours. For a moment, you both just breathe â heavy and ragged, bodies locked together, the air thick with sweat and want.
His movements are slow at first â just a shallow roll of his hips that drags his cock along every nerve ending inside you. You moan, legs tightening around his waist, heels digging into the backs of his thighs.
âFaster,â you breathe, already twitching around him.
He leans back just enough to watch your face, eyes locked on yours like heâs chasing every reaction. Then he picks up the pace â slamming into you with long, deep strokes that have the car rocking.
You cry out, snapping your hand up to press against your mouth. âKookâ fuck, donât stop.â
He laughs â laughs, breathless and wrecked. âYou think I could?â
Every thrust punches a gasp from your lungs. You canât think. You canât do anything but hold on.
He shifts, bracing one knee on the seat and angling his hips just right â and when he hits that spot inside you, your whole body jerks.
âOh my god,â you moan.
âRight there?â he grits out, sweat dripping down his jaw. âFuck, I feel itâ your pussyâs so fucking tight, youâre gonnaâ shitâ youâre gonna make me come.â
âThought you said Iâd be the one begging.â
He groans, pulls out almost all the way, then slams back in so hard you scream.
âStill wanna be a brat?â he growls, panting.
You nod, grinning through the moans. âAlways.â
âFine.â He grabs both your wrists again and pins them above your head, his body pressing into you harder now, relentless, sweat slicking your skin. âThen you can take it.â
And fuck, you do.
Your second orgasm creeps up on you fast â your whole body tensing as his thrusts get rougher, deeper, desperate. You cry out his name, high and wrecked, and the sound makes him snap.
His rhythm falters. His mouth crashes against yours, sloppy and hot, all teeth and tongue as he chases his own edge.
âIâm gonnaââ he gasps, pulling back to look at you, eyes wild. âFuckâ can Iâ?â
You nod fast, moaning. âInside. Just do it.â
Thatâs all it takes.
He buries himself one last time and shatters â groaning low in your ear as he spills into you, body shaking, arms trembling with effort as he holds himself up.
For a moment, itâs just the sound of breathing. Wind through cracked windows. The slow drip of sweat down your temples. The burn in your thighs. The mess between your legs.
Jungkook lets out a choked laugh and slumps down, burying his face in your neck. âOkay,â he mumbles. âThat mightâve been the best sex Iâve had in a fucking car.â
You laugh, dazed. âYou say that like itâs a long list.â
âGive me some credit,â he says, voice muffled against your skin. âIâm not that trashy.â
You stroke your fingers through his hair, still catching your breath. âWe just fogged up every window in your car.â
âWorth it.â
He doesnât move.
Youâre still tangled together, his weight heavy on you, his softening cock still inside.
After a moment, he shifts slightly and lets out a low, satisfied sigh. You can feel the smile against your neck before he presses another kiss there. Then another. And another.
You squirm, half-laughing, half-exasperated. âYouâre clingy as fuck after sex.â
âMm-hmm,â Jungkook hums, completely unashamed. âDeal with it.â
You roll your eyes, still grinning. âYouâre like a weighted blanket.â
He lifts his head just enough to look at you, sweaty curls falling into his eyes. âYou love it.â
âDebatable.â
He snorts, then finally pulls out, slow and careful. You both groan at the feeling, and you feel it immediately: his cum, warm and slick, already starting to slide out of you.
You shift to reach for your underwear, cringing at the sticky feeling.
âIâll clean you up,â he says, voice quiet but certain. âWhen we get home.â
You blink at him. âYou donât have to. Just drop me offââ
âNo.â His tone is firmer now, jaw set. âIâm not just dropping you off.â
You stare at him for a beat, surprised by the sharp edge in his voice. Then you glance down pull up your bra and button up your shirt, suddenly very aware of your heartbeat again.
He watches you the whole time, his eyes dragging over your skin like heâs memorising every inch of it before covering it back up. And when you finish with the last button and reach for your jeans, he leans forward and kisses your jaw â soft, almost reverent.
âI mean it,â he murmurs. âLet me take care of you.â
And for some reason, you donât fight it.
Youâre lying in his bed, hair still damp from the shower, the curve of his hoodie soft against your bare thighs. The sheets smell like fabric softener and his cologne, and the room is dim â just the small lamp by the closet casting a low amber glow. Thereâs a bowl of ramen on the nightstand, still steaming. Youâre not hungry, but he made it for you, so you took a few bites anyway.
Outside, the city hums. A car passes on the street below. Somewhere down the hall, the radiator clicks.
It should feel normal. Comfortable. It did feel normal â until maybe twenty minutes ago.
Things were fine when you got here. Heâd pulled you toward the bathroom and handed you a towel, that stupid grin still half on his face. He even said something about making noodles if you promised not to pass out in his bed again. Youâd laughed. Called him a housewife. Everything felt fine.
But when you came out of the shower, something was different.
He was sitting on the edge of the bed, scrolling his phone like he didnât hear you walk in. And when he looked up, the smile was there, yeah â but it didnât fully reach his eyes. You shrugged it off. Maybe you imagined it. Maybe he was just zoning out.
But then it kept going.
Quiet, too quiet. Heâd made the ramen without talking. Brought it to you, set it down, and just... sat on the floor for a while, scrolling again, saying nothing. When you asked what he was doing, he just said, âChecking something,â and didnât elaborate. Eventually he stood, turned on a random playlist, and flopped into the chair in the corner with a bottle of water.
Now heâs across the room, scrolling again, leg bouncing slightly like heâs keyed up and trying to burn it off. He hasnât looked at you in a few minutes. You watch the light from his phone flicker across his face, the way his brow furrows every now and then, and something in your chest tugs.
Itâs not dramatic. Heâs not being rude or distant. Heâs not treating you like a stranger. But heâs not treating you like you, either â not the way he usually does.
You know him too well not to notice. The way heâs moving isnât right. Like heâs stuck in his own head. Like thereâs something he wants to say but doesnât know how to bring up.
Or maybe heâs trying not to say something. Either way, it sits in the air between you, subtle but heavy.
You pull your knees up under the hoodie and wrap your arms around them, resting your chin there. Watching him. Waiting, maybe, for him to snap out of it. Say something dumb. Make fun of your hair. Crawl into bed next to you like itâs nothing.
But he doesnât.
You shift slightly, tugging the hoodie down over your thighs even though itâs already covering you. The ramenâs gone lukewarm on the nightstand.
âKook?â
His head lifts just a little. âHmm?â
You hesitate. âWhatâs going on?â
He blinks, finally looking at you. His eyes are soft. Tired, maybe. Or just dimmer than usual. âWhat do you mean?â
âYou just feelâŠâ You trail off, unsure how to word it without sounding dramatic. âI donât know. A little off.â
He smiles, and itâs almost convincing. âIâm good. Just tired.â
You donât push. Not really. You know him. If he doesnât want to talk, he wonât. And whatever this is â it doesnât feel sharp enough to cut yet. It just feels strange.
âOkay,â you say quietly.
He glances down, then back at you. âEat your noodles before they go gross.â
You glance at the bowl, then back at him. âYou eat yet?â
He nods. âEarlier.â
You donât believe him, but you let it slide.
He shifts in the chair, stretching his legs out and resting his head back for a second before sitting up again, like he was about to let himself relax and then thought better of it.
âIâm gonna get some work done before bed,â he says, standing up slowly. âCouple things I need to catch up on.â
You watch him move toward the door, half expecting him to stop, change his mind, come back and say something dumb like he always does. But he just opens it, hand braced against the frame.
His voice is gentle when he adds, âDonât stay up too late, alright?â
You nod. âYeah. I wonât.â
He gives you a small smile â soft, careful â and then heâs gone.
The door clicks shut behind him.
You stare at it for a long moment. The hoodie sleeves are pulled over your hands now. The ramen sits untouched. The playlist keeps playing, quiet and aimless in the background.
You let out a soft sigh before reaching over to flick off the lamp.
The room goes dark, soft shadows stretching over the walls. The sheets rustle as you shift down into them, tugging the comforter over your legs, the warmth doing nothing to quiet the noise in your head.
Maybe this is why people donât sleep with their best friends.
Maybe this is exactly why those lines exist â because crossing them means risking everything else. And maybe you knew that. Maybe you ignored it anyway.
Because it was him.
Because part of you has been circling this for longer than you want to admit.
You close your eyes, breathing slow and steady. The scent of him still clings to the sheets. Still wraps around you like he should be here. But heâs not.
Regret settles low in your chest, dull and heavy. You hate the way it sits there, thick in your ribs, twisting slow in your stomach. Youâve always hated how it creeps in after the fact, when itâs already too late to take anything back.
You shift onto your side and pull the blanket up to your chin. Try to sleep. Try to stop thinking.
He said everything was fine.
You just wish you believed him.
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