#08062017

[faeryaesther]

[08062017] keinishikori Instagram update:

Tough quarters battle! Thank you France for the support. See you next year 🇯🇵🎾 #rg2017

[galaxialdarktale]

My Sun, Stars, All The Galaxies, And Beyond

2017 was not a good year and the further into it I got, the worse it seemed to get. I had just moved to Florida from Indiana, a cross-country move of my own choice, with my family the day of my graduation the previous year and I was utterly alone. I rarely left my room, typically only to eat or use the bathroom, and I had yet to even consider going back to school to further my education. I had started finding solace in my solitude, the emptiness of my bedroom during the day, and in the brief two to three hours of sleep I was managing every night.

When I was awake, I was drowning - metaphorically, of course. My emotions were out of control, my mental health in shambles, but I had two things to keep me steady: fanfiction, which I had come to see as my closest companion when I discovered it when I was 12, and YouTube - specifically, YouTube Gaming. Gaming wasn't something I watched ever. I was more the "YouTube is for music or vlogs" kind of person before, but I was desperate for any kind of interaction I could get, and at the time, those communities were a safe haven. And that's how I found Markiplier and Jacksepticeye - well, actually, I found them through fanfiction, but got into their content through the wide world of lets plays, but I digress.

The past year had been a whirlwind. When my emotions got to be too much, I found happiness in their ramblings to video games. And, the two had just started their "ego" stuff. So it was of no surprise that on August 6th, 2017, the day Jack uploaded the Henrik video with Anti in it - we all know the one - I immediately went to Tumblr, here, an account I have long since abandoned. My request was simple: I wanted someone, anyone, to talk about the video with. I didn't have any friends and I was terrified to reach out to my mutuals, so I made a post asking if I could talk about this video with anyone because I was so excited. I made this post at roughly 2PM EST. Not long after, my family decided it was a beach day and I was dragged out of the house, away from the safety of my computer, until close to 6PM that night.

Tumblr mobile wasn't something I used at the time, though it is something I'm quite familiar with now, so I didn't have notifications going off for me while I was sitting on that beach and then in the restaurant for dinner. I didn't know I had a reply, an ask!, until I got home and booted up my laptop and pulled open Tumblr. When it loaded, when I saw that little "1" next to the envelope, my heart stopped. Surely, I thought, this is where the hate starts. I hesitantly clicked on it and waited on my ancient computer to load, only to be greeted with a message from a user saying that they'd love to talk to me about that video, about any of Jack's content, about anything. That their dms were open and, if I was comfortable, x was their Discord tag.

Now, here I sit, 5 years later - and god, has it really been 5 years? - , on Skype every single day with this person. Here I sit, thanking any God that will listen that I found them. Here I sit, so in love with them that they take my breath away. Because that user, the reason behind the tattoo on my wrist, the big bold numbers in their handwriting - "8617" - is who I'm spending the rest of my life with.

I would cross any ocean, climb any mountain, take down any enemy, whatever it took, to get to them. And that will never stop. A smile, a laugh, an "I love you" from them and my day has brightened immeasurably and I will not lose that, not for any price in the world. I would lay my life at their feet if they asked and do so willingly, for they already own me, body and soul.

[sincerelyegg]

Day 949: it’s magic, you know…

[fuckyeahkimwonpil]

[rainwhisper]

ölüm için ayırdık geceleri..

[einsamegefangenheit]

Ich vermisse dich so unendlich sehr. Danke dass du immer da warst. So weh es auch tut, noch viel mehr als ich es erwartet habe, so sehr erleichternd ist es auch. Ich bin froh das du dich nicht mehr quälen musst. Heute war ich bei euch zu Hause und Papa, Oma, Mama, Onkel Helmut und ich habe alle zusammen gelacht und geweint. Am meisten darüber wie sehr du dich gefreut hast als Oma einmal im Leben ein Braten verbrannt ist, wie du mitten auf dem Hof standest und dich so gefreut hast und sie bis zum letzten Tag damit aufgezogen hast. Ich vermisse es so sehr das du nicht mehr von hinten angeschlichen kommst pfeifst und unser komisches Geräusch machst, über das ich bis heute gelacht habe, dass du nicht mehr mit mir hochgehst und Akkordeon spielst, mich nicht mehr, egal wie groß ode schwer ich war hoch hebst einfach weil du es immer gemacht hast, dass du nicht mehr mit mir an Weihnachten und Ostern Märchen guckst, dass du nicht mehr neben mit sitzt und sagst "Renate wenn mein Enkelkind nicht mehr schafft, schafft sie nicht mehr!", dass du Oma nicht mehr vorführst oder mir deine Geschichten erzählst egal wie oft ich sie gehört habe. Dass du nicht mehr mit mir vor Heimweh in meinem Zimmer bei euch schläfst anstatt in deinem Bett, ich vermisse dein Lächeln. Egal wie schlecht es dir ging es war immer aufrichtig. Ich vermisse dich. Du warst,bist und wirst IMMER der beste Opa überhaupt bleiben. Ich vermisse es so sehr dir zu sagen wie sehr ich dich liebe wenn ich gehen muss. Ich liebe dich Opa.

[seridayla]

[iscreamnails]

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[littlelionleah]

Some days I forget all about my reality and other days I cry in my car when I'm driving. Today was both. I miss you, but I miss the you I thought you were. The you that you swore to me that you were. I will never forgive you.

[ryenleemee]

#KWONJIYONG #GDRAGON #Untitled2014 #08062017

[fuckyeahkimwonpil]

[kuroinekolove-blog]

Siang itu dia menelponku, menceritakan apa yang terjadi pada hubungan mereka. Aku tak begitu peduli karena menurutku itu bukan urusanku, diakhir pembicaraan dia menceritan bahwa ia memimpikan bertemu seseorang selama empat kali berturut - turut. dan ia pun menanyakan kepadaku apa arti dari mimpinya itu, aku pun tak tau apa arti mimpinya, lalu ia mengatakan

“dari buku yang aku baca kalau memipikan seseorang secara terus menerus berarti orang yang dimimpiku sedag merindukanku” sambil tertawa dia melanjutkan ceritanya “benarkah seperti itu? apa orang itu sedang merindukanku?”

akupun menjawabnya sambil tertawa “aku tak tau dengan hal yang seperti itu”

dia melanjutkan ceritanya dan bertanya lagi “apa kau tidak merindukanku?”

sambil tertawa aku menjawabnya “ah tidak kau kegeeran sekali”. Dalam benakku bertanya tanya merindukan seseorang itu rasanya seperti apa?

[rainwhisper]

bir başkasının yönettiği bu dünyada canını yakmak istemiyorum o yüzden sadece hayallerinde yaşat beni unutma beni..

[mackenziebourgdaily]

[feaji]

Shoes 08062017 by xFeajix

[charmmatias]

🎶 But miracles come true, I know 'cause here we are . . . . Two less lonely people in the world And it's gonna be fine Out of all the people in the world I just can't believe you're mine🎶 ||Movie date with this earthling.😊😍|| #08062017