#1.10.2022

[bumzu-is-my-everything]

[puuvillaa]

I wrote most of By Appointment Only for The Fic That Haunts You, an event whose purpose was to finish a fic that has been haunting you. A part of that was to have a check-in each month and write a bit about what's going on with the fic, and I have all those check-ins saved.

If you want to get a look at what was going through my head as I worked on the fic, now's your chance.

—The fic

What is the concept?

Alphas need to have mates by the time they turn 30. Remus doesn’t have a mate, so he needs to be assigned one. He meets James and they decide to bond.

Why has it been haunting you?

I started writing it quite a while ago, then never finished. I like the idea a lot and want to write more omegaverse as well as wolfbucks.

What is your goal for TFTHY?

Posting the fic by the autumn of 2022

What is your starting word count?

23,775

—Check-ins

Date: 29.4.2022

Current word count: 28,915

How do you feel about the project today?

I’m excited about it

*

Date: 1.6.

Current word count: 38,264

How do you feel about the project today?

Okay. It hasn’t been the first thing on my mind for a while now

*

Date: 2.7.

Current word count: 42,649

How do you feel about the project today?

Still very excited over the plot twist I came up with, but haven’t had time to work on it much

*

Date: 1.8.

Current word count: 43,722

How do you feel about the project today?

I’m moderately happy with how it’s going. I finished ch 9, figured out how to finish ch8, and decided what to write for ch 10. This month, I want to add at least one full chapter to it.

*

Date: 1.9.

Current word count: 62,740

How do you feel about the project today?

I’m happy with my progress, but struggling to figure out how to end it. I have 12 chapters written, and I have started chapter 13 and have some notes for a future chapter. I also know what’s going to happen in the next few chapters. My goal for this month is to keep thinking about the plot and if I could possibly end it around chapter 15.

*

Date: 1.10.2022

Current word count: 71,763

How do you feel about the project today? I’ve decided that there will be more than 15 chapters. I’m currently writing ch14 and have some of ch17 drafted. I’m trying to squeeze everything into 18 chapters, but it’s looking uncertain. I haven’t had time to work on this much due to other projects. My goal this month is to finally figure out how to edit ch12, so I won’t need to take a break from posting once I get there. I would also like to finish ch14, but it’s not my main priority.

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Date: 1.11.2022

Current word count: 71,944

How do you feel about the project today? I haven’t had much time to work on it, but it has been in my mind. I restructured some of my future chapter plans, but still not sure if that works. I did end up having to take a break with ch12 because I didn’t have time to edit it enough before my posting day, but I did read it through and made some edits, so it’s going to be much more simple for the next round of edits. I didn’t really write anything new, my word count just went up from having to add stuff to ch12.

My goal this month is to keep thinking about this, edit ch12 and hopefully finish ch14, but this is still not my priority project. I’m just tentatively optimistic that nano will help me move several of my projects along.

*

Date: 1.12.2022

Current word count: 73,440

How do you feel about the project today? I finished the sex scene that was chapter 14, so I’m excited to move to the next chapter that won’t have a sex scene in it. This is still not my priority, but I’m hoping I’ll still get a chance to get at least some writing done this month.

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Date: 1.2.2023

Current word count: 73,440

How do you feel about the project today? Last month I managed to figure out the structure for the next chapters, and I’m really excited to start writing again, but I haven’t had time. I still won’t be able to prioritise this fic because of all the fests I’m doing, but hopefully I’ll soon have a moment to work on this.

*

Date: 1.3.2023

Current word count: 77,715

How do you feel about the project today? Excited! I wrote ch15 and started ch16, so there’s been good progress too. Slightly worried about future chapters, because I’m not sure what should happen in them.

*

Date: 1.4.2023

Current word count: 94,723

How do you feel about the project today? Excited still. I'm currently working on ch18, and I have good plans for two more chapters. I'm sure I'll figure out what should happen then while working on these chapters.

*

Date: 1.5.2023

Current word count: 96,726

How do you feel about the project today? I’ve been stuck on ch19 for a while now, but I did resolve the issue I was having with it, so I'm hoping to work on it soon again. I still don't know what will happen after ch20, but hopefully I’ll figure that out as I write.

*

Date: 4.6.2023

Current word count: 96,751

How do you feel about the project today? I haven’t had time to really work on it, but I did finish the scene I had been stuck on. I've been thinking about the chapter count and wondering if I should actually end it after chapter 20. I still need a bit more solid idea on how to finish chapter 19.

This month I won’t have time to properly work on this, but I could read through what I have written so that my plans will clear out.

*

Date: 1.7.2023

Current word count: 96,751

How do you feel about the project today? I haven’t had time to work on it, but I have thought about it.

This month I'll continue not having time to work on it, but I could possibly read through what I already have to see what to do with the end of ch19.

*

Date: 5.8.2023

Current word count: 96,751

How do you feel about the project today? I still haven’t had time to work on it, but I have thought about it.

This month I might read through it.

*

Date: 1.9.2023

Current word count: 96,794

How do you feel about the project today? I’ve started reading through it, and I wrote a couple of sentences. This month, I’ll probably just finish reading it.

*

Date: 1.10.2023

Current word count: 96,794

How do you feel about the project today? I wish I could work on it already. I’ve been thinking about whether I’m going to end it at chapter 20, and I’m pretty sure that’s the smart thing for me to do. This month I probably won’t have time to work on it at all, but if I do, I will.

*

Date: 1.11.2023

Current word count: 96,938

How do you feel about the project today? I just started reading through it today, and my goal for this month is to first read it and then finish it.

—Final check-in

Date: 30.11.2023

What is your final word count? 108,591

How do you feel about what you wrote? I'm sad it's over, but I also think that it tells the story I intended to tell. I'm already thinking about a sequel, though. I'm really happy that I finally finished it.

[gaiankys]

Sapanca

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1.10.2022

[septentrrional]

[sussietheotherme]

[phototagebuch]

1.10.2022: Biene auf Strauchbasilikum

Quelle: Ari Fink Photography

[godsnameisjoy]

PEACEFUL SHARPNESS

Date: 1 October 2022

Duration: 52 minutes at 11:27 PM

Depth:

I didn’t come out of this session drunk on Peace, but I did get my Peace high. When I stopped meditating, I was sobering up almost immediately. Pity.

When I stopped meditating I was shaking relatively harder than before. It was good to know that there were only about 10 minutes remaining on an hour long timer when I got distracted with strong spinal vibrations.

I tried affirming for harmony as many times as I could without slipping under liquid Peace. I must have managed about 5 affirmations correctly before I began drowning in the soul pleasure of Peace. I ended the session here.

It is quite an eye opener to me that ever since my first meditation decades back till the session last night, the recurring struggle remains the exact same. The struggle is with the attention drowning in the distraction peculiar to the depth of mind I am meditating in.

Having spent about 2 & 1/2 years meditating in the restless parts of intuition with a thin Peace, my attention is now getting drowned in feelings of Peace. I am not sure if Peace as a meditation distraction should be thrown away.

I have dedicatedly trashed distractions coming from the conscious via plan suggestions. I have, thereafter, dedicatedly trashed distractions coming from the subconscious via colourful dream imagery. The number one distraction in the intuition is a soul pleasure. Peace is a blessed distraction. ‘Not sure if I can call it a distraction.

I suppose that the faculty of attention has to mould or expand to incorporate Peace within it. My attention can’t afford to remain sharp, pointed and narrow anymore. So be it. May I be able to add enough meditations to the rest of my life to at least begin the process of change if not be able to complete the change.

[somebodyhassaid]

218 день війни

Наближається мій день народження. Цього року я буду святкувати його сама. Не вперше, не знаю чи в останнє. Піде 25 рік життя на цій Землі і я досі не можу зрозуміти, як жити це життя, хоч зі сторони так мабудь і не скажеш.

У мене є гарна робота, я отримую високу заробітню плату... ну в принципі це усе, чим можу похизуватись. Ще у мене є кохана людина та найкращий у світі пес, але це не моя заслуга. 

Не можу зрозуміти, як у світі поєднуються найкращі та найжахливіші речі. Я звісно не у ваакумі жила увесь цей час, і знаю, що завжди так було, є, і буде, але дашок трошки їде від того, що за день бачу 100 мемів про ядерний вибух, “інсайди” що він буде завтра, потім читаю і бачу світлини з місць смертей невинних людей у Дніпрі, Миколєві та Запоріжжі, а їду до сестри-росіянки на весілля у Нью-Йорк та вмовляю батьків не їхати або ж хоча б не залишатись у Миколаєві довше, ніж на день. І так по колу. Так, а це велика завантаженість на роботі, яка хоча б не дає мені так фокусуватись на новинах, бо просто не вистачає часу.

Не жаліюся, але в реальності дуже хочеться виплакати усе, що відчуваю. Боляче, душить всередині. 

Тітка-лібералка, яка 30 років тому п��реїхала у москву і до цього “була за нас” сказала наступну фразу моїй мамі: “Та живи своє життя, що ти плачешся. У тебе є чоловік, дах над головою. Що ще треба тобі?”. І це просто не вкалдується у мою голову. Для мене кожна смерть, про яку я читаю, або дивлюсь світлини - це, як мінімум, поріз всередині себе. А таких новин багато, тож іноді відчуважться, наче всередині вже давно внутрішня кровотеча. Звісно, виглядає, наче драматизую, але, мені здається, що для багатьох, - навіть для тих, хто в тилу, - ця війна залише на собі слід. Тому подумки я вже тиждень, чи навіть більше, пояснюю це тій тітці, але, не впевнена, що зможу відповідати на її повідомлення в прнципі після цього. 

Сумбурно, без логіки. Завершу. Дякую подумки Польщі, що прийняла стільки українців.

[sontse]

selective  &  response - based  alina  starkova  of  leigh  bardugo’s  grishaverse,  re-examined  through  the  lens  of  the  marvel  universe.   inspired  by  the  netflix  series  &  the  marvel  cinematic  universe,  written  with  comic  &  cinematic  knowledge.  currently reading  the  shadow  &  bone  trilogy.   𝐴𝐿𝐼𝑁𝐴    𝑆𝑇𝐴𝑅𝐾𝑂𝑉𝐴,   𝑇𝐻𝐸   𝑆𝑈𝑁  𝑆𝑈𝑀𝑀𝑂𝑁𝐸𝑅,     𝐺𝑅𝐸𝐴𝑇𝐸𝑆𝑇   𝑆𝑈𝐶𝐶𝐸𝑆𝑆    𝑂𝐹    𝐷𝐸𝑃𝐴𝑅𝑇𝑀𝐸𝑁𝑇    𝑋'𝑆    𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐉𝐄𝐂𝐓: 𝐆𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐇𝐀.  reimagined  by  molly,  she/her,  21+.

☼     𝐢𝐦𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐬 —

 carrd (wip).  •  worldbuilding (wip).  •  interest tracker!  •

STATUS: replies will be queued. obviously on hiatus, though I never made a post.

[moonsacebitch]

Not me getting all touchy-feely over cleaning my room for the last time before shipping all my important stuff to my uni flat :')

[dubmill]

Enfield Chase, London; 1.10.2022

[septentrrional]

Over the past 2 days I've went out with a friend now living abroad and it was so pacifying to my mind.

[nanadia0u0]

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Перемальовка кадру з мультфільму "Острів скарбів" 🏝️💰 (1.10.2022)

[katoisha11]

كل ما توكلت على الله تلقائياً ستجد ان استحقاقك يرتفع، لأن التوكل على الله هو اتصال بأعلى درجات التمكين والقدرة العالية واللي تجعلك تشعر انك تستحق الافضل من كل شيء.

صباح التوكل والتسليم 🌿

1.10.2022

[emocafe247]

Balboa with Samy!

Warsaw, Poland, 1.10.2022 (video by me)