#Angst1

[f1amour]

heyyy! can i request “i’m scared of losing you” (from angst1) with oscar piastri?

❝ i’m scared of losing you ❞ — oscar piastri

pairing | oscar piastri x reader

content warnings | lots of miscommunication, angst, comfort, happy ending

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it had been a few months since you last attended a race due to your job obligations but in oscar’s eyes he only saw it as one thing; you’ve missed him winning a race, twice now.

in his eyes he thought you may no longer love him that he wasn’t worth enough for you. however, in your eyes you believed he no longer loved you especially due to his lack of presence in your life and never asking you to join him for a race weekend in months. both of you afraid to lose each other didn’t touch on the subject and living as if everything is okay.

until it wasn’t.

“i may not win another race this season but i would appreciate your support! you weren’t there for my two wins and i…i’m tired of this,” oscar argued back, you had both gone out to dinner in monaco after he returned from singapore. it started with a sweet conversation of what to do for the break to now bitter comments towards each other.

“tired of what? of me? i’m trying, oscar. i just started my third year of university and then work—.”

“work! it’s always work this work that. they always need you for something even though it’s not even in your title to do all that! you drop everything to be there for them but you can’t be there for me not even once…baby?” his mean words hit you immediately and you sit on the couch of your apartment hands covering your face as you sob uncontrollably.

“baby, yn…hey, hey breathe with me. it’s okay i’m here” oscar whispers on your ear, both arms cradling you now. was it okay? his approach may not have been the best but he wasn’t wrong. your job had been putting too much on your plate when you were meant to just be an underpaid intern who was doing multiple jobs that were not your responsibility.

“but you aren’t here, osc. i…i know that your career is demanding but you didn’t take a second to look back and realize i ease being left behind. i feel guilty i wasn’t there for your two wins especially your first. i begged my job to let me just visit you for a day to celebrate but they made me stay. it wasn’t even my day to work and i still stayed. i chose a job that doesn’t value me over you…you do care about me maybe not right now—.”

“i’m gonna stop you right there. i’m an idiot who didn’t bother asking how you’ve been recently and expecting you to support me more when i didn’t see what you’d been going through. i’m so sorry,” he whispers, his forehead pressed against yours kissing your tears away.

you whisper out five words you’d been feeling for awhile now, “i’m scared of losing you,” closing your eyes ready for oscar to say you’ve already lost him, “i’m scared too.” his voice matches your vulnerability.

opening your eyes looking at him in shock, “you are?” you felt like you were both taking a big step in admitting this. maybe, just maybe this would help in repairing your relationship.

“i am. i think we’ve been selfish towards each other but we also haven’t communicated right. i should have asked you more about how the job was treating you-,”

“i should have asked you how the team had been treating you.” you counter back and he chuckles.

“i know you want to be independent when it comes to your career. but i think you should quit that job and focus on school only. i know you don’t want me to take care of you financially but just let me do that for now until you graduate and find a job that will value the skills you have. i can’t lose us. i can’t lose you, yn. i love you.” his words filled with nothing but love, oscar meant well and for once you decide to take him up on the offer he’d been giving you since you started dating two years ago.

“okay.” a simple word replacing your frown into a smile on each others faces. there was work to do on your communication with each other but for now you both got to breathe a sigh of relief after facing a fear that would no longer happen.

[baileythebean]

GRRRR WHEN I GET YOU WHEN I FIND YOU FOR THE ANGST1!-!1!1!

RUNS AAAAAAA

[strawberryspotsstuff]

Has anyone ordered some agnst? No? Well im here with it and you cant have a refund. Doors gang (+Glitch pretty please) knows that their (S/O) is with the group of people trying to reach to the end of a hotel. Problem? Apparently the gang decided that (S/O) is slowing them down and decided to gang up and beat them up to death. (S/O) is dead. Gang moves on

Wonder how harsh the Door gang will be with them now huh

oh damn the first dead S/O. blinks.

yayyy!!! angst1!!!! (sobs) ((there is a little demon in my head who does like dead s/o angst :]))

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this one will,, have a "keeping reading" though. sweats.

[HEADCANNONS/REACTIONS]

all: all of them, in the end, are all PISSED. ANGRY. They will hunt them all down to until they break every bone in their body, even break their routines if they have to. Angry wails can be heard from every room.

seek: WAH OH. Seek is not happy, is it? Any chase scene, Seek is itching to get it's fingers on their necks, ready to make it the most painful death. no mercy.

screech: since more rooms are being turned dark via ambush and rush, screech takes EVERY CHANCE to sneak upon them, not even giving them the classic 'PSSP'. NOTHING. Full on bite their heads, shoulders, etc.

figure: figure absolutely destroys the closets, it makes sure throw and tear any book the group finds, by the end of it, (if any do survive sobs) the library is a mess. all the shelves are tipped over, every book is shredded.

ambush/rush: ambush and rush don't follow their routines. They will go back and forth as many times, through as many doors if they have to. A new feature, is that they wail while chasing down the rooms :]

glitch: they better be on their mother fucking toes, ANY slip up on ANYTHING, if any one of the group members fall behind, even a step too late, their ass WHOOPED. neck? CRACKED.

jack: 5/6 CLOSETS? JUMPSCARES. jack will be working together with rush and ambush much more now, making sure, they have NO PLACES TO HIDE.

[love-over-matter]

Writing Prompts

Requests are always open!

These are just her for inso! If you have any ideas that aren’t including these prompts that’s totally cool too!

⚠️!Not my original prompts!⚠️!Lower case intended!⚠️

Angst

1· we both don’t want to do this, i know. but you have to understand that we need this.

2· w-why didn’t you say h-how bad it was?

3· everything is temporary, this is merely one of those things.

4· i’m not going to cry, it isn’t worth crying.

5· and then he left.

6· you hurt me and i still trusted you.

7· i deserve more than this

8· i’m not a lot of people’s favorite person.

9· i really think it’s easier for people when i’m not around.

10· i know but you didn’t have to use her like that!

11· don’t say anything else, just stay.

12· i never thought i would be the one to hurt you

13· we can start all over. i’ll do anything, everything can be perfect. Just please don’t leave me.

14· why can’t you see that?

15· i guess we just weren’t meant to be.

16· you’re always leaving me

17· i miss him

18· don’t do this to yourself!

19· why do you hate me?

20· are you happy now? huh!? DOES THIS MAKE YOU HAPPY?!

Fluff

21· your hair is really soft after you wash it.

22· ssh. stop fussing. i’m just braiding your hair.

23· you smell really nice.

24· would it be alright if i barrow your sweater? it smells like you.

25· i might have slept with your robe while you were gone.

26· if you steel the blankets i am going to put my cold feet on you.

27· here, let’s share the blanket.

28· you’re comfy

29· you are my new pillow.

30· you are very endearing when you are half asleep

31· we can talk over dinner

32· don’t be stubborn. try it!

33· don’t get up- i’ll do it.

34· will you let me rub your back.

35· care to give me a back scratch?

36· star-gazing was a good idea.

37· you look beautiful/handsome in the moonlight

38· i’ll always be here for you

39· i’ll be here to protect you.

40· i think i love you.

41· you are my love.

42· how about something warm? it’ll help you sleep.

43· it’s okay. i couldn’t sleep anyway.

44· don’t be silly. i want to stay up with you.

45· it’s not morning yet.

46· shush and go back to bed.

47· i heard you talking in your sleep.

48· your bed head is really cute.

49· we’ll do dishes together.

50· how about a kiss?

51· i love your hugs.

[endofthelinegang]

Prompts

Fluff

1. “Is that my shirt?” “You mean our shirt?”

2. “It’s you, it always has been.”

3. “You’re everything I could’ve wanted and more.”

4. “Kiss me.”

5. “Home stopped being a place when you entered my life.”

6. “You should probably go home.” “But I’m already home.”

7. “You’re an idiot.” “But you love me.”

8. “I’d do anything for you.”

9. “You took all the pillows so I’m using you as one.”

10. “Stop moving and let me braid your hair.”

11. “I’m so proud of you.”

12. “Could you say that again?” “Were you not listening?” “No I was, I just like hearing your voice.”

13. “I didn’t think it was possible to love someone this much.”

14. “You are my family.”

15. “I’m right here.”

16. “Can you just please hold me?”

17. “I’m pretty sure (you’re/she’s/he’s/they’re) my soulmate”

18. “You come here often?” “Well considering I work here, yes.”

19. “You know, I think my (mother/father/parents) would be proud if I brought (you/her/him/them) home.”

20. “I just want to see you happy.”

21. “I haven’t seen (her/him/them) smile like that in ages.”

22. “You made me a better person. Thank you.”

23. “I’d rather live in the woods with you than in a mansion with some (girl/boy/person) I barely know.”

24. “This reminded me of you.”

25. “Your hair is really soft.”

26. “You’re really warm.”

27. “Are you blushing?”

28. “Can I stay here tonight?”

29. “Because I love you.”

30. “I’ve been in-love with you since we were kids.”

31. “I’m never going to leave you. I promise.”

32. “Make a wish!”

33. “I love seeing you smile.”

34. “Why are you wearing my sweater?” “Because it smells like you.”

35. “I just want to be there for you.”

36. “I couldn’t get you out of my mind.”

37. “You’re just a softie.”

38. “You owe me.” “Fine, whatever you like.”

39. “You’re safe now, I’m here.”

40. “Why are you scared of loving?”

41. “You are crushing me right now.”

42. “Darling I love you and all, but please step out fo the kitchen.”

43. “I love you.”

44.“You’re an idiot.” “But I am your idiot.”

45. “Take my hand. Just trust me.”

46. “You’re hurt. Please just let heal it.”

47. “At least let me clean it.”

48. “I told you to take care of yourself.”

49. “You’re the only thing that matters.”

50. “Stay.”

Angst

1. “I’m leaving.” “Of course you are, that’s all you know how to do.”

2. “You started drinking again, didn’t you?”

3. “You promised you’d stop drinking.” “And you promised you wouldn’t hurt me!″

4.“But it’s my fault right?”

5.“I don’t want to feel this. I want to be numb again.”

6.“You’re lying to me again. Why can’t you just tell me the truth for once?”

7.“I love you.” “No you don’t”

8.“I can’t lose you.” “You already did.”

9.“Did it mean anything to you? Did I mean anything to you?”

10.“How was I such an idiot, to believe that you, out of all people, could ever love me?”  

11.“I loved you.” “Then why did you let (her/him/them) get in between us?”

12.“Maybe they were right, you never did change.”

13.“This is all in my head. It’s all happening in my head.”

14.“Don’t you dare walk away from this!”

15.“What gives you the right to just waltz back into my life after all the pain you’ve caused.”

16.“You’ve changed.”

17.“You win, happy?”

18.“Any other lies left to tell me?”

19.“Why did you wait until I moved on?”

20.“Don’t look at me like that.” “Like what?” “Like you still love me.”

21.“Its (her/him/them), isn’t it?”

22.“It’s always been (her/him/them).”

23.“When did you stop loving me?”

24.“Let me go.”

25.“You’re not you.”

26.“I miss the old you.”

27.“What happened to their happily ever after?” “Not all love stories get a happily ever after, sometimes it’s just once upon a time.”

29.“Move out of my way before I make you.”

30.“I risked my life for you.”

31.“I never would’ve thought (she/he/they)’d end up with someone else.”

32.“They were perfect for each other.”

33.“I was happier with you.”

34.“I would’ve done anything for you.”

35. “I loved you. I loved you so so much but you hurt me.”

36.“They warned me about this.” “About what?” “You.”

37.“Lie to me. I don’t care what you say, just lie to me. Make me feel okay again.”

38.“You broke me.”

39.“You just threw four years of friendship out the window.”

40.“Hasn’t this addiction done enough damage already?”

41.“Sorry doesn’t fix everything.”

42.“You promised.”

43.“I don’t need help! I need an end to this pain.”

44.“What am I in your life? Because as of lately I feel as though I’ve been nothing to you.”

45. “Leave”

46.“I can’t keep playing pretend.”

47.“Give me one reason why I shouldn’t leave.”

48.“I wish we never met.”

49.“I’m sorry I’m not enough for you.”

50. “You scare me now.”

General

1.“I love you.” “Tell me that when you’re sober.”

2.“It’s pouring rain why are you here?”

3.“I love you.” “You shouldn’t.”

4.“Where are you?”

5.“What happened?”

6.“Have you been taking care of yourself?”

7.“Is that blood?” “Yes but that doesn’t matter right now, what does matter is-” “You are literally bleeding.”

8. “Is that my book?”

9. “Are they dead?”

10. “You want to play pretend? Well two can play at that game.”

11.“Did you know that you talk in your sleep?”

12.“Come back to bed. Please.”

13.“You’re who they warned me about.”

14.“Come back.”

15.“You should’ve listened to me.”

16.“I haven’t seen you in days.”

17.“Are you jealous?”

18.“Cheers, I’ll drink to that.” “You drink everything.” “Cheers!”

19.“Why is there a lion in the room?”

20.“Is that vodka? At 7 in the morning?”

21. “Can we take this home?”

22. “Hey, look at me. Focus on me alright?”

23. “I haven’t seen (her/him/them) smile in months.”

24. “(She/he/they) don’t belong with (her/him/them)!” “Than who do(es) (she/he/they) belong with?” “…..with me.”

25. Come home.”

26. “I hope you’re happy.”

27. “They don’t need to know.”

28. “I made this for you.”

29. “Why is arson always your first answer?”

30. “Is this really the time for jokes?”

31.“Wake me up when it’s over.”

32.“You look happy.”

33.“I’m sorry, do I know you?”

34.“Why can’t I get you out of my head?”

35.“Do you want that?”

36.“Don’t let go.”

37.“Just let me stay.”

38.“Can I at least tell my side of the story?”

39.“Do you trust me?”

40.“Are you flirting with me?”

41.“Is the weight of your sins too heavy?”

42.“Just let me see (her/him/them) one last time. Please.”

43.“Are you afraid to die?”

44.“Are they really ‘just a friend’?”

45.“I wasn’t lying when I told you that I loved you.”

46.“I won’t hurt you.”

47.“Have you been sleeping?”

48.“I didn’t know where else to go.”

49. “It’s not 8:00 AM, it’s 8:00 AM”

50. “We should just play our music louder, then we won’t hear theirs.”- “That’s so much noise.”

Mental Health

1.“I didn’t know where else to go.”

2.“you can talk to me about anything”

3.“I don’t understand but I believe you”

4.“I’ll stay with you as long as you need me to”

5.“take a deep breath”

6.“do you want me to give you advice or do you just want me to listen?”

7.“you don’t have to go through this alone”

8.“I’ll check on you again tomorrow”

9.“you’re not broken”

10.“let’s take a five minute break

11."I love you no matter what your brain tells you”

12.“I’m always here if you need anything”

13.“please don’t talk that way about yourself”

14.“let me know if you ever need a ride to therapy”

15.“don’t forget to take your medication”

16.“it’s okay to ask for help”

17.“I’ll go with you for moral support”

18.“I don’t know how to help you but I can help you find someone who does”

19.“do you want to talk about it or would you like a distraction?”

20.“you’re safe”

21.“there is always hope”

22.“I will do this with you, you’re never alone”

23.“No one is perfect.”

24.“I will sit outside this door for hours if that helps.”

25.“This is not your fault.”

26.“You do not owe anyone an apology.”

Wordless Ways to Say “I Love You”

1.Holding their hands when they are shaking.

2.Tucking the sheets around them when they stir during the night.

3.Traveling long distances just to see them.

4.Making their favorite meal when they are having a hard day.

5.Giving them a kiss before going to work and they are still in bed.

6.Tucking your head into their neck during a hug.

7.Lightly kissing on top of a freshly formed bruise.

8.Buying them something unrequested because it made you think of them.

9.Participating in their hobby even if it doesn’t personally interest you.

10.Sitting in comfortable silence while eating a meal.

11.Telling them a dumb joke just to see their smile.

12.Following their family traditions that they enjoy.

13.Singing and dancing to their favorite song.

14.Calming them down when they have a bad dream.

15..Having a tickle fight until you’re breathless.

16.Folding their clean laundry and putting it away.

17.Sharing a soft smile across a crowded room.

18.Bringing them a plate of their favorite sliced fruit.

19.Washing their back/hair in the shower.

20.Sharing your umbrella with them in the rain.

21.Listening to them while they vent.

22.Taking a picture together to print and hang later.

23.Tracing your names together in the sand.

24.Wearing clothes in their favorite color.

25.Doing a chore for them that you know they aren’t fond of.

26.Leaving a plate of food in the microwave for when they have a late shift.

27.Sharing a drink with them from the same straw.

28.Tucking their hair behind their ear to help them get it out of their face.

29.Helping scratch that itch on their back they can’t reach.

30.Pulling a chair out for them to sit down at the table.

31.Wrapping a blanket around them when they are sitting on the couch and watching a show.

32.Throwing away their piles of tissues when they have a cold.

33.Mending an item of their clothing that was ripped.

34.Running out in the middle of the night to get a food item they’re craving.

35.Helping brush their hair after a shower.

36.Making sure to be quiet while they’re taking a nap.

37.Letting them warm their cold hands under your shirt.

38.Giving them your dessert when you eat out because it’s their favorite.

39.Making a goofy face until they notice and laugh.

40.Giving them space when they express wanting to have some time alone.

41.Holding their hand while walking, even if there isn’t a crowd.

42.Holding shopping bags that are too heavy for them.

43.Standing between them and a busy road.

44.Rubbing the back of their hand with a thumb.

45.Giving them a back massage when they flop on the couch or bed.

46.Staying up half the night to finish a game with them.

47.Getting them a coffee just the way they like it.

48.Giving them a tight hug that makes them lose their breath.

49. Buying them a special treat when you go out shopping.

50. Watching shitty horror movies

(from @soupytimewrites)

[thewriterowl]

how much we will cry because the next chapter of "Hope"?

well...I mean, it is still sad luke hours...?? soooo...it’s possibly since it’s always hard for Luke to be sad. But maybe not too many tears! just mildly intense Luke angst1

[joeys-piano]

 Inspired by the following pages of @crimson-chains ‘ mafia AU: angst1 & angst2

Notes: Fast piano, calm/explosive, represents inner turmoil within Viktor’s mind as he holds onto the man he loves Download Link: Link

“And for the first time, I desperately wished that I was just ‘Victor’” --Viktor Nikiforov (Crimson-Chains)

He and Yuuri had fallen into an intimacy, neither of which could recover from, but was it too late for Viktor to right whom he did wrong?

[persephinae]

I got this sample book that takes Little Red Riding Hood into a more fantasy setting and the world building sounds cool but it's YA, so there's a love triangle, angst about the love triangle, and LOOK AT MEE!!! I'M 19 AND DRINKING AND I'M THE MAIN CHARACTER!! MAKING THE HARD CHOICES!

>:( ANGST1 ONE

So it's like ehhhhhhhhh for me

I'd be more worried about being sacrificed to the Wood than some punk in a love triangle, which the MC isssss worried about, but there's the love triangle and ehhhhhhhhhh

Think I'll drop this one

[cherryaire]

Could you write a following for your egobang fic Angst1 from your ao3 account? It really stuck with me the way you wrote it, thanks

I dunno if I can or not. It was written a long while ago and some things aren't necessarily meant to be continued. I'll see if my brain conjures anything up. Thank you!

[alloftheangels]

@teenage-angst1 thank you!! i read up a bit on it earlier so i'm gonna try some natural stuff (coconut oil, vitamin e oil, aloe vera, lemon juice etc) then if that doesn't worked i talked to my mom and she said we could go see a dermatologist. i hope yours heal well, all the best to you <3

[muggle-writes]

WIP Word Search

tagged by @elizabethsyson, this time looking for the words silent, sun, breath/breathe, and fear/afraid. Thanks, as always for the tag.

Silent

from my upcoming MCU/Harry Potter crossover

She purses her lips in thought. Beside her, Vernon is scowling but silent.

Sun

There's several mentions of Tony's sunglasses in that same crossover but to find the word "sun" on its own I had to open up Angst 1 (which is my only specifically-angst WIP now that I’ve published Chasing Shadows). No spoilers, and the sentence shouldn’t be triggering on its own.

Eventually, however, he decided that since the sun was streaming right into his face, he had no excuse to seem asleep anymore.

Breath/Breathe

from Eavesdropping chapter 11

“His life’s not in danger, but he’s lucky not to have lost his hand,” Takagi answered.

"Yet," Haibara grumbled under her breath. Saguru shot her a surprised glance - weren't most children more optimistic than that? - but he found himself agreeing. Nothing was guaranteed.

Fear/Afraid

here's all of the things I apparently type when characters are afraid (based on the WIPs I have access to online and therefore on my phone. Which is, admittedly, less than half of them)

nervous

startled

panic/panicked/panicking

anxiously

horror/horrified

seriously, just a lot of characters expressing horror or reading it in each other's eyes/faces

"sent a chill down his spine"

"she paled noticably and her eyes went wider than the spoon Adler was stirring his coffee with"

"the chill from earlier briefly froze her in place"

"she was in soft, clean pajamas, soiled with nothing worse than the cold sweat she had woken in."

and apparently never the actual word "fear" ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

also I have an entire fic featuring a character suffering from nightmares (which that last excerpt is from) that somehow doesn't include any synonyms for fear at all. (the closest is "horribly" which doesn't actually count as a variant of "horror") I'm not sure whether to be proud of overdoing "show don't tell" or just baffled at myself for somehow leaving out such a thematic word.

ETA: back on my computer, I found a deleted scene (deleted because I couldn’t get the character voices right and I was planning for the fic to have an open ending anyway) from Awakening which included this excerpt

“You didn’t know?” Megure guessed, interpreting the length of their mutual silence and the growing fear on Conan’s face.

So apparently I do use the word “fear” just... not often.

I have one person on my tag list, and she’s been too busy to do the last, identical tag game I tagged her in, less than a week ago (it’s okay @knightbusofdoom have fun at camp) so anyone who wants in, find where you’ve written friend/friendship, height, pressure, and curl (or any derivatives of those words), share the lines with those words, and tag me back. Or anyone can reply or send me a message to ask to be on my barely-existent tag list (specifically for tag games)

[whilefloatinginthesky-blog]

ANGST1 from Alejandra Vaca on Vimeo.

[justjohnlockstuff]

Johnlock Fic Rec

Angst

Alone on the Water - Mad_Lori

Sherlock Holmes never expected to live a long life, but he never imagined that it would end like this. (7,725 words)

Sink Like a Stone - pennydreadful

After defeating Moriarty at the pool, life isn't quite the same around 221B Baker Street...it's more peaceful. And stranger. (4,348 words)

it's clear in the animal's eyes - deadspy

He wants to reach out and touch him. He wants to press his dry lips against John’s. He wants to tell him it’s fine. He knows now that it’s fine. He wants to scream, but Mary’s standing between them. (2,489 words)

He Gets That From Me - CrayolaDinosaurs

Sherlock discusses the traits that Hamish gained from John and himself. (1,163 words)

Where I Cannot Find You - withoutawish

When Hamish is diagnosed with cancer, his parents have two entirely separate ways of coping. (22,211 words)

Software Malfunction - tiger_in_the_flightdeck

"You think I can’t love you? Just because you’re made with metal, and detailed programming?” The doctor propped himself on his elbow, and looked down at it. “I am nothing but blood and bone, and tissue. Things just managed get mashed together in a manner that made me like this. Just like you were put together to make you how you are. When I kiss you-” he did so, briefly, to prove his point. Then more deeply, and lingering, because he could. “When I touch you, or smile at you, does it make you feel different from when others have done it in the past?” (16,682 words)

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[recommendlarry]

Louis is a magician, Liam is his cleaning lady and Harry's the prince of a country on the brink of war.