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capacidad para manejar al cien por ciento su propio cuerpo, a su antojo, no le era posible por el alcohol en su sistema. sin embargo, logra que un par de arruguitas aparezcan en su entrecejo por risas provenientes por contraparte, ya que su interrogante no había sido en broma. aunque sí, puede que se le había olvidado el detalle que ya no estaban mas en la fiesta.. o el antro. ¿dónde es que habían estado antes? no lo recuerda tan claro. aún así, el punto de su pregunta iba en serio: ¿por qué no podía besarle como quisiera?. '' es que tu habitación no deja de dar vueltas '' y ahora es ella quien ríe, con su mano todavía en el marco de la puerta, apoyándose, intentando avanzar un pasito como tal cual infante aprendiendo a caminar, soltando poco a poco la madera de la que se había estado aferrando. ¿era eso por el que no avanzaba realmente? ¿la embriaguez o el temor de lo que podía ser capaz en ese estado y con su amiga a su lado? porque no sabe si son los mismos efectos de brebaje, pero maeve parecía aún más linda esa noche, así como sus sentimientos parecían estar más al flote. sentimientos que había estado ocultando ya desde hace meses.

[al-mayriti]

Out of all the speculated ships in OT which would you want the most to be true?

one thing about me is i am a polvorón truther through and through. so yeah, paul and álvaro being a thing would make me so very happy. i know it's also the most improbable so i don't really have any hope and that's fine i can live with that.

salma x violeta would be very funny too, ngl. although i've seen some stuff that could indicate salma is with a dancer which 👀

[enhaflixer]

hey <33 i don't mean to bother but i've sent a request about heeseung not too long ago, i was wondering if you got it or not? this by no means has to put you in a rush or anything ofc, i just am not very practical of tumblr and i'm afraid i probably didn't send it DJSDJSDJ anyways!! congrats on your honeymoon, can't wait to catch up with your latest fics tonight 👀💕

hi! thank you so much for your request i probably did get it, not to be rude or anything but just because ive gotten around ten or twenty requests a day lol but dw i will get to it eventually i just have like a hundred to do before that

[ducavalentinos]

Oh my god! we’re getting a second season! 😍😍😍

[klarabohringer]

oh no

[lazylittledragon]

Jsyk the links don't work on that last comic panel!

djsdjsdjs i meant to save it to my drafts and then i Didn’t

[pleasertozier]

cy freaking out about a tick is honestly the Biggest Mood of a kid who had lyme disease djsdjsdjs

[escarlatafox]

oh also 6, 9, 10 and 11 for the phantom. i got sidetracked

Character Ask Meme

Oh-ho!

Once again, spoilers for the fifth Ace Attorney game I suppose. Disclaimer here mainly for That One Friend Of Mine who is still playing through the trilogy. XD

6- Favourite thing this character has said?

Oh maaaaan I'd have to look over their canon dialogue... Okay firstly though, off the top of my head there is a line of theirs in the Chinese version which I especially like and is just... way better than the English version of it imo；

“啊啊。好担心被当成人质的重要之人啊。好可怕好可怕。亡灵好可怕。”

Translation:

"Aah. I'm so worried about the important people [to me] who were taken hostage. Very scary very scary. The phantom is very scary."

(The bolded part being the part I liked/found amusing.)

I THINK this is the English version of the same line?:

The English version of the line is just sooooo much more boring and less melodramatic, lol. The phantom in Chinese going "uwuuu the phantom is so scawy..... `(*>﹏<*)′" is just so great to me.

(This isn't necessarily my favourite line of theirs in the Chinese version, it's just one that stood out to me and made me go "omg")

Okay now let me pull up & look at some transcripts to see if I can pick out a favourite English line...

...Hmm, I'm afraid I wouldn't be able to choose just one. There's different categories of good phantom lines. There's lines connected to them messing up their emotions in case 5 when they're being cornered & just completely flunking making their cover story remotely convincing. There's super fun lines from when they're acting as Bobby, e.g. "I'd appreciate it if you'd let me have the cool lines..." [/pouts]. There are just so many. Too many to choose from I'm afraid 😅 I also really like their line(s) from when they call & make the bomb threat to Cosmos too! Planning another launch...?

9- What’s your favourite headcanon(s) for this character?

I think a lot of my headcanons have been absorbed from other people & meta I've read. & I don't necessarily say favourite headcanon as opposed to "preferred interpretation of the character". My preferred interpretation of the phantom is that their performance is flawed & they are liable/prone to oversights and making mistakes!! Like yes, they are an extremely talented actor & an extremely talented spy; this absolutely cannot be denied. HOWEVER. They consistently overestimate themself & their own abilities; they are constantly trying to juggle soooo many things at once that they inevitably wind up overlooking things and making incredibly basic mistakes. Their impersonations require SO much attention to detail. They think they're pulling it off flawlessly but they are not. and then on top of that, they also have to focus on whatever mission/secret spy stuff they have going on. So like, in this interpretation of the character, the headcanon would be that when their shoes were stolen by Filch, they genuinely hadn't noticed them getting taken because they were too distracted by busily juggling absolutely everything else they had going on/would be happening in their mind - continuing to impersonate properly, having encountered ATHENA (!!!!), etc etc. This is not an Original Headcanon of mine, but it happens to be one I enjoy. A good example of this "prone to making mistakes" angle comes about in the Misailurist fic Just Fake It, when the phantom's secret stash of masks gets discovered because they'd accidentally been paying for the storage location with a credit card in Bobby Fulbright's name without realising. (!!!) And when they realise the mistake they're essentially like. Oops. (Just like they say "oops" when they start getting emotions wrong when trying to fake them in case 5 djsdjsdj). Oh, and from the same fic - in it, it gets established that the real Bobby was a competent investigator, and only after the phantom took over were there a whole bunch of mistakes in paperwork etc. This is a person who can't do everything perfectly with 100% accuracy, because no one can, but they sure seem to think they can. With no sense of self they just lack a proper baseline of what they are/aren't capable of and how much they can truly balance on their plate.

10- Who do you like to ship with this character? (If you do of course) Is it another character from the cast or is it an OC?

Blackquill.

11- Who do you not like to ship with this character?

Well I don't really have any ships outside of phantomquill and the possibility of spyshipping.......

Thanks for the asks..... <3

[carcinized]

@subwayfootlong JUNO BELOVED!!!! ur so e word holy shit do u have any idea. youre funny and kind and kind of lack an impulse control but its ok bc youre also smart as hell and SO SWEET youre a very good mix of a lot of good qualities. and then you go and say shit like "haha you know how you got a new name. u inspired me to get one like youres :]" and drop lines like "youre a very big inspiration for me with guitar" AND. E WORD YOU ARE SO ENDEARING DUDE. ur my little brother fr love u king. also im obsessed with piazza new york catcher now i played it for my mom on my guitar and she loved it also so thank u for the lovely song it is a good one for sure

we r ovepsoting. mutuals like my post and ill tell u a thing i love about you 💞💞💘💞💗💗 warning i hav e a migraine rn tho. migraine tobin will tell you what she loves you about <3

[dawnofus]

i thought you and maria both spoke spanish?😱

oh we do djsdjsdj but we use english/spanglish via text 🆘 

[ducavalentinos]

Hi ! Cesare What was your favorite painter? Thank you.

Hi! :) So, not much is known, or at least presented, about César’s relationship with art and the artists of his time, which I think was what you meant? it’s frustrating for me to say this because it's another theme about his life I am always very much interested in knowing more about, but it’s another one where we don’t have secure and extensive information on. Many documents and iconography of the Borgia family were destroyed during the papacy of Julius II and others, and/or were simply destroyed by time, and my impression is that this theme doesn’t spark much interest by scholars in general. César’s biographers, with some exceptions, seem convinced by the idea that César cared little for art, all he cared about 24/7, in their eyes, was warfare and power~~ lol, so their approach to this theme ends up being pretty basic and brief, I don’t think they see any reason to explore it further, or to present a more in-depth analysis. Then, there’s the great artists of the Renaissance, who were in the court of the Borgias, and their biographers. The situation is even more poor on this side, because there’s a discomfort on their part I'd say, to accept and acknowledge the association between César and their artist, even though these artists did had "worse" associations in their careers tbh, it's kinda bizarre to me, but anyways it is something they struggle to present in their works. I believe it is caused by the superficial knowledge they seem to have about the historical figure of César Borgia, and of taking the general history about him at face value. They see and present his legend, that being: as a terrible, evil tyrant of history, which puts them into a dilemma of sorts, of how to present the association between César and their artist? without tarnishing said artist’s exalted reputation? which leads to curious narratives, and with them usually trying to stay as little as possible on this subject, they avoid it like the plague basically dsjdjsdjs. César and his connection to their artist is either briefly mentioned, on a negative light of course, or it’s just not mentioned at all. As a result of these historical and academic obstacles, it is impossible to know who César’s favorite painter was, only he could tell us that, that’s the honest answer, I’m afraid. However, if you gather and connect all the historical material available about César and the artists from 1496 to 1503, it can lead to interesting possibilities. César grew up during the amazing Early Renaissance period, and he later actively interacted with the best artists and intellectuals of the equally amazing so-called High Renaissance period: Bramante, Sangallo, il Pinturicchio, il Perugino, Michelangelo, Raphael Sanzio, Leonardo da Vinci, Piermatteo d’Amelia, Copernicus, and many others. There is no doubt these surroundings and acquaintances had an effect on his life and his artistic preferences. As a man of his time, he seemed to have had the typical, genuine appreciation for the arts, and like any other nobles (both men and women), he was aware art was also a good tool to exert diplomacy, cultivating relationships, or to promote oneself and its court, and as a form of visual communication about their personality and power. The artists mentioned above gravitated towards pope Alexander VI's court in Rome, and later on César court as well, they all had a relationship with him, of different kinds, and one way I found of trying to have a better picture of his artistic preferences, or his role as a patron of the arts, was to look through his choice of artists, the number of commissions he gave them, the places, the favors he granted etc, and I think that can be helpful to indicate the most likely “candidates” to have occupied the role of his favorite(s), I selected a few of them here: I'll start with Antonio Sangallo and Donato Bramante, who tecnically were not painters, well, Bramante was too, but both of them are known for their architecture and it was in this role that they worked for Alexander and César for the most part, but at least in some projects it seems they were also encharged of the artistic decorations, and they did interacted with the other artists of this list.

- Sangallo first started working for César's father, a notable work is his involvement at the rebuilding of the University of Rome, la Sapienza, one of the projects Alexander patronized early in his papacy. He is also associated with two fortresses, the Forte Nettuno and the Forte Sangallo at Civita Castellena, these commissions started under the direction of Alexander, but it seems to have shifted to being partly or solely under César's direction in 1501, so here we have a likely date of when Sangallo started working for him, he was employed to work on yet another re-construction and re-decorations of the fortresses, alongside Bramante (as it is suggested by some scholars), Jacopo Ripanda, and Piermatteo d'Amelia.

- Donato Bramante, just like Sangallo, seems to have started to work for César around 1501, at the fortresses mentioned above, but according to Alvisi, César's best biographer, some churches in the Romagna were built by him: the Church of S. Maria a Monte, a little outside of Cesena, and the Church of S. Stefano (although it is uncertain if it was under César’s patronage) both of which he says it exhibits a bramantesche style in their architecture. Still at Faenza, Alvisi posits the possibility of the design of the Faenza's Cathedral having been another work of Bramante, adding that even if he truly wasn’t involved in the execution, at least its general proportions can be credited to be his. More interestingly is a document from July 15, 1502, bearing César's title as Duke of Urbino, where he grants some privileges to the men at Castel Durante, today's Urbania, which Alvisi remarks it might have been a grant that happened through the intercession of Bramante, who was already working for César at the time, and whose place of birth was in Urbania. Now, going the the artists/painters:

- Bernardino di Betti, known as il Pinturicchio, is one artist I think it’s the most associated with the Borgia family, his relationship with them goes back as early as 1492, when pope Alexander VI commissioned him to work on his private rooms at the Vatican, today known as the Borgia apartments. It’s hard to know when Pinturicchio started working for César, there’s a letter written by César on October 1500, to Cardinal Alfani, Vice-Treasurer of Perugia, to secure a personal favor Pinturicchio had requested of him in person at Diruta, where he writes that:

“Bernardino Pintoricchio da Perosa, qual sempre avemo amato per le virtù sue e l’havemo nuovamente riducto a li servizi nostri. Per la qual cosa desideramo sia in ogni sua facenda riconosciuto per nostro familiare.”

“Bernardino Pinturicchio of Perugia, whom we have always loved for his virtues, and whom we have taken again to our service, for which we desire that he be recognized in all of his affairs as our familiar.”

This letter is important because it informs us of two things, one being that Pinturicchio had worked for César prior to 1500, most likely in Rome, and it’s sad there’s apparentely nothing more about these commissions, and that César clearly regarded him as his courtier and his familiar. In 1501, he granted Pinturicchio an annual payment as his personal painter, although again, there is nothing more about this commission either, as far as I’ve read. - Leonardo da Vinci is another artist who worked for César, they must have met not at Alexander’s court in Rome, but at the court of Milan in 1499. There’s actually a lot of material, direct and indirect, about their association. César was an important patron for Leonardo, more than that, the evidence suggests they had a genuine friendship, both of them had a high intellect, curious minds, and an innovative spirit. On a document César wrote on August 18, 1502, we see him referring to Da Vinci as his “Most Beloved familiar” a term similar to the one he referred to Pinturicchio. During the years of 1500-1501 it seems they were in contact with each other, so it is possible Da Vinci was already working for him then, but officially César employed him in 1502, as his military and ducal engineer, a position Da Vinci himself seems to have wanted from his previous patron. César also valued his talent as an artist because he commissioned some artistic projects from him. Between September and December of 1502 iirc, Da Vinci made various sketches, and began the painting of an altarpiece at the Santuario della Beata Vergine del Piratello, outside of Imola. And there is a drawing commonly known as Three Views of a Bearded Head, that is generally accepted to have been a preparation for a portrait of Cesare by Da Vinci, either for said altarpiece, or for some other project entirely.   - Raphael Sanzio and Michelangelo: the documentation for these two is a little more scarce, Sabatini, one of César’s biographers, mentions Michelangelo was in César’s court alongside Bramante in 1500, unfortunately he doesn’t give a source for this information, but it is likely he was correct, Michelangelo was working in Rome during the papacy of Alexander VI, and he and César seemed to have met around 1496, when César purchased the Sleeping Cupid from him, which supports the claim Sabatini and Sacerdote make about Cesare’s deep admiration for Michelangelo, how he was “ever held in the hightest esteem by the Duke.” Another interesting thing is that in 1498-99 Michelangelo’s Pietà statue was made for the St. Peter’s Basilica, and some scholars, Anna Maria Voci being one of them, links the statue to the Borgia family, as of being a reference to the murder of Juan Borgia, and his family’s grief. Whether this is correct or not, César certainly saw this particular work when it was finally exposed in the Chapel of Santa Petronilla, and he might had employed Michelangelo for his court afterwards, if he hadn’t already, in the following year of 1500, matching the date given by Sabatini. As for Raphael, a likely date for them meeting could have been around 1501/1502, in Rome, possibly through Pinturicchio or Pietro Vannucci, il Perugino. Raphael was good friends with the former, and had been the pupil of the latter, and both of these artists, Pinturicchio and il Perugino, were familiar and a part of Alexander’s court in Rome, and by extension César’s. It is recorded Perugino worked on the decorations of Alexander’s coronation, as well as the decorations of the Borgia Tower alongside Pinturicchio, he also seems to have done some work on César’s apartments in the Vatican, so Raphael was def. within the Borgia circle of artists. There are also some small hints suggesting César’s influence at the choice of Raphael for the Oddi Altarpiece in Perugia by the Oddi family, a known ally of his, and there was once a painting attributed as of being a portrait of César made by Raphael, but Yriarte, Cesár’s French biographer, dismissed the painting being a portrait of César, and other scholars have dismiss the painting having anything to do with Raphael or César. As a bonus, I thought I should include Luca Signorelli, I wasn’t going to initially, but given there is some evidence indicating a good relationship between him and the Borgia family, and more to the point of this question, of a connection between him and César, so I decided to add him on this list. There is no information about where and when they actually met, but it was probably in Orvieto, around 1499 because Signorelli was appointed this year to work in the Cathedral of Orvieto, in the Chapel of San Brizio, the planning of his frescoes dates from 1499 to 1502, and it is probable this appointement had the influence of César himself, Alexander had named him Protector of the Orvieto in 1494, and in 1495 he made him Governor of the city. As it was charactericially of César, he took this responsibility seriously, defending the city from their enemies in 1497 and 1500 (and for this Orvieto was loyal to the Borgia family until their downfall), but more interestingly here it’s that César also directed the chapter of the administration of the Duomo of Orvieto, which gave him the right to determine its decorations and possibly the artists involved, if this is correct, his choosing of Signorelli increases and it is significant. It can be further corroborated if César is indeed depicted in one of Signorelli’s frescoes, in his Predicazione e fatti dell’Anticristo, scholars have claimed César is the figure in the central foreground group, next to Vitellozzo Vitelli. Pinturicchio, who also made some work for this Cathedral in 1492, it’s also said to be depicted there. Additionally, Menotti, in his work I Borgia, mentions a painting, that as far as I know, cannot be found anywhere today, where he says the face of the main figure has the likeness of Cesare’s face, and he attributes authorship of this painting to an artist of either Siena or Orvieto, so maybe Pinturrichio or il Perugino, since there are clear connections between these men and César, but a scholar whose name I forget rn has also laid out the possibility of the authorship as of being Signorelli, if true, then it would reinforce even more their relationship. I think César’s favorite or favorites are there, you know, we can never know for sure, the info is fragmented, and I tried to only include here what was relevant to the question, and it is a lot of connecting and speculating, but I think these are plausible speculations, and for me at the least it did formed a broader picture of that side of César and his life, his choice of sitting for Pinturicchio (as well as making him his personal painter), Da Vinci, maybe Signorelli and Sanzio, his likely using his influence towards certain artists in the choice of commissions, his purchase of Michelangelo’s Sleeping Cupid, after all the drama attached to it involving Cardinal Sforza-Riario and one Baldassare lol, which seems to me he clearly saw something in the statue, he recognized the value of it, and the talent of young Michelangelo, it did not mattered to him if it was a proper antique or not, he appreciated the beauty of it, and he bought it, I find that super interesting. All of this subtly indicates his artistic preferences, the styles he might have liked more, in paintings, statues, building designs, and of the personal relations he had with these artists. I hope somewhere in all this i was able to answered your question somehow, feel free to ask anything else if you want, and I apologize for taking so long to post this.

[seaitza]

Manipulación frecuente en ideas constantes

En primer lugar, luego de ver las cosas que te dije acerca de los diferentes perfiles de personas, he llegado a la conclusión de que esta tipa es una persona victimista…

Y el perfil de una persona así básicamente es que:

1.- buscan atención todo el tiempo para no sentirse vacías, porque de por si son personas inseguras, además de sentirse celosas cuando la persona que quiere que les de atención no lo hace…

2.- siempre le echan la culpa a los demás de sus problemas, ya que este tipo de personas no puede cargar con la culpabilidad y simplemente se deshace de ella (de la culpa) al momento de contarle a otras personas

3.- Son egoístas prácticamente ya que solo piensan en su bienestar, llegando a pasar a llevar a las otras personas o no importarles sus sentimientos con tal de llevar a cabo su cometido.

4.- como creen tener la razón en todo, son tercas y básicamente están a la defensiva todo el tiempo

5.- en cierto grado son dependientes de aceptación y atención en todos los ámbitos de su vida para poder sentirse bien con ellas mismas.

y mediante el lenguaje victimista y estos conceptos permiten manipular a la gente de cierta forma…

y todo este perfil lo saqué estas últimas horas, en base a ejemplos que te daré ahora que simplemente no había apreciado antes porque estaba sesgado…

Ejemplos reales no fake

1.- desde el momento en que empezamos a estar juntos, ella requería de mucha atención mía en todo momento ( y por eso me decía no me dejes sola porfavor), me iba a buscar a la u, me llamaba porque necesitaba verme, quería ver a qué hora salía para que estuviéramos juntos y ella sentirse mejor y que yo prácticamente le diera mi atención… ya que como soy un pollito básicamente se la daba…

Además de esto para abarcar el punto en el cual ella se ponía celosa de que yo no le ponía atención entra en los planos en los cuales… 2 veces le hablé de una niña Llamada Moira cachai y le decía que la quería conocer porque es muy amiga del nait y el punto es que ella en las dos veces que hice eso, ella me dijo… la primera vez cállate porfa no quiero seguir oyendo.. y la segunda básicamente me dijo no quiero hablar más y cortó el teléfono…

y el otro punto de celosa era cuando te decía… me preguntaba a cada rato si es que con la persona que estaba hablando era mi ex... onda ni siquiera decia con quien hablas “amor”? sino que directamente decia es tu ex a quien le enviai el audio? 

2.- Y este punto básicamente tiene que ver con que... en el tiempo en que estuvimos juntos, siempre me contaba sus problemas pero a cada rato… onda porque no quería cargar con esa culpa y necesitaba que de alguna forma yo le dijera que iba a estar todo bien… onda en detalles como wn, me contaba mucho que estaba triste porque la mamá y el papá eran como el pico… osea está bien que lo haga pero no a cada rato sjdsjdsj y lo otro cuatico igual fue cuando hicimos el trío cachai… a ella le entró una culpa super cuatica y como que me contó que se estaba sintiendo super mal y la wea y el punto es que yo no le tomé en cuenta eso, porque me daba igual lo que habíamos hecho cachai en el entido de culpabilidad porque iwal en cierta forma queria probar y eso… entonces al no encontrar una atención mia acerca de esa culpa que estaba cargando tuvo que llamar a su amiga a las 4 de la mañana jasdjasd para decirle que se sentía mal y que porfavor la perdonara por lo que había hecho. Lo peor es que la amiga llegó al otro día en la mañana y ella terminó llorando ( la amiga) y básicamente le dijo que estaba bien y la entendía y que no se preocupara por la wea maricona que le había hecho sjdasjdajs y después como que la isi llegó a la pieza toda bien así djsdjsdj j

3.- y bueno este punto básicamente va en lo que te conté recién ( en el punto 2 ), y también en los constantes mensajes que te enviaba como a las 1 o 2 de la mañana en los cuales me sentía como la mierda porque no podía sentirme bien conmigo mismo porque me echaba la culpa de que no podía llenar lo que me pedía la isi y además de eso porque me sentía que no tenía un apoyo porque ella era super mezquina con las weas cachai… y como te decía esa vez que una vez me vio llorando y en vez de ver lo que pasaba… me dijo ya pero no falsees el llanto y yo como… qué chucha? Y aun así después de eso vino a la pieza pidiendo que siguieramos carreteando y weas asi si es que tenia mas tabaco o weas 

4.- y esta wea pasaba siempre, le intentaba enseñar algo no me pescaba o me decía que no quería, le intentaba ayudar con algún problema que me contaba pero no quería… solo quería mi atención pero no mi ayuda… o una vez entre jugeteo le dije ya pero “ amor, eres mia” y como que altoque me empezó a dar aun discurso qlo que ella no era mia y que era una relacion abierta y que no se iba a dejar manipular por nadie y weas así…

5.- y el quinto ámbito va ligado a que de cierta forma eso es lo que busca… en la vida aceptación y atención… onda todo lo que hizo … onda regalarme cositas o dedicarme weas lo hizo para que yo me sintiera cómodo y le diera todavía más aceptación y aceptara el estar con ella más de lo que una relación “abierta” lo pide... onda un ejemplo basico es como, estar con ella que se yo 4 o 5 dias “conviviendo en su pieza y weas asi”

y después de darte este mini ensayo

he llegado a la conclusión de qué

creo que  en cierta parte influyó los rasgos victimistas de ella para hacerme pensar que podiamos ser algo más... pero el punto es que esas palabras o acciones solo iban enfocadas a poder sentirse mejor ella consigo mismo nada más y no tenían nada que ver con el concepto de establecer algo más serio y creo que en gran parte esa wea influyó para que

1.- me enganchara de cierta forma y creyera que podiamos ser algo más

2.- sintiera una culpa porque veia que solo me contaba sus problemas y no la podia ayudar

Y además de esto influyeron cosas como

que amaba como era ella y eso con los datos de arriba se entrelazaron formando una aberración de ceguera pero amaba como era ella no por el victimismo o acciones en cuanto a eso. sino que a como era ella, escribia poemas, tocaba instrumentos, vestía de cierta forma en mis gustos, carretiaba harto como yo, le gustaba fumar, nos gustaba contemplar y explayarnos harto en cuanto a sentimientos, eramos genios creativos en cierta parte, escuchaba casi la misma musica y weas asi

además de esa wea en cuanto a los primeros puntos que te contaba

básicamente me contaba todos los días un problema que tenia con ella misma, que se sentía mal, que esto que lo otro, de hecho las primeras veces que nos conocíamos me empezó a contar weas tristes de una sajdajsdj para que sintiera pena por ella o algo así…

de hecho una vez me dijo que el nait... se estaba como propasando con ella ( estando yo acostado ese rato en la pieza de al lado y ellos dos conversando un poco más allá ) y que le insinuaba de tirar y la wea cachai y yo como... no sé me quedé callado porque algo me hacia ruido y no la pesqué mucho y pasaron como 20 segundos de silencio y después me dice ay pero no le vayas a ir a pegar o a reclamarle.. onda insinuando que practicamente fuera a encarar al nait por una wea que ni sabia si era verdad o no ....

 de eso o también en el sentido que nunca me apoyaba a mi sino que siempre terminaba llorando ella por las weas tristes en su mente y me dejaba de lado y puta otras weas más claras supongo que, era cuando me decía que se sentía muy mal y que de verdad quería que yo fuera para estar con ella, onda no me decía que tenia ganas de verme sino que de por medio me decía me siento triste y puta ojala poder verte para que se me pase…

Y al final… puedo decir que ella estaba cociente de que ella no quería ni una mierda conmigo desde el principio( tan solo se había aburrido del ex, y quería probar weas nuevas… ), solo que en algún punto se dejó llevar por toda la atención que yo le brindaba y se ponía mas amorosa para que solo le siguiera dando esa atención que tanto le falta pero no para que fueramos algo mas… porque desde que había terminado con el pololo había estado con caleta de weones antes que mi cachai… y el punto es que los wns estaban con ella un rato y se iban porque básicamente ninguno era como yo… el cual ama de cierta forma en la cual da todo por la otra persona… y supongo que lo que me salvó en cierta parte de seguir con una persona así era que en temas de carretes o salidas en publico por asi decirlo, no estaba pendiente de ella cachai sino que iba en la mía nomas y si ella se mandaba una cagada yo no iba a cargar con su culpa o darle atención para que se le pasara… entonces ella al no recibir esa atención por mi parte se sintió mal con ella y terminó básicamente volviendo con el ex porque el de cierta forma le daba en el gusto en todo en la vida cachai… osea le aceptaba las weas y le decía no te preocupes aunque ella la hubiera cagado básicamente el se quedaba con la culpa… y como yo no lo hacia en su totalidad ella comparó y vio que volviendo con su ex era lo más rico para su estado mental… ( de hecho ahora todo cobra sentido del por qué me dejó después de una fiesta sjdjasd ) sjadjsadjj pobre tipito weon debe estar pal hoyo… porque el wn de vd está muy enganchado de ella de hecho una vez llegó llorando a verla así para decirle que volvieran y eso jsadjadja

y al finalll de todo estuve mal porque no entendía esta wea… y me enganché de una persona que me decía que me amaba y que quería estar mucho tiempo conmigo pero solo con la intención de que yo le diera todo esa atención porque la necesitaba o sino estaría perdida… posible en ese pequeño lapso de tiempo…  básicamente siendo una persona mezquina que solo quería sentirse  “mejor o aceptada” al recibir ese tipo de atención y eso….

otras reflexiones anexas unu

la primera es en la cual, si de cierta forma le daba igual que yo fuera una relación abierta y que no tenia importancia en su vida mas allá de hacerla sentir bien emocionalmente me haya sacado de su vida así re cuatico borrando todo de mi

es algo raro la verdad, onda si alguien no te importa, te da igual dejarlo en tus redes sociales o basuras así... porque para nada terminamos en mala o alguna basura así, como para que me borre y mierdas así y de hecho cuando hablamos por ultima vez me dijo somos personas grandes ya... y es como no sé se dice persona grande pero me elimina de todo (?) dsjdj siendo que solo le aportaba experiencias buenas y era un amor de persona con ella

pero de cierta parte siento que una persona "Grande" y que estuvo en relación con alguien libremente, y  yo siendo esa persona, no le hice mal y le di solo amor, al eliminarme de esa forma siento un dejo de dolor o incomodidad al saber que soy como una tentación para su zona de confort (la paz mental que le da el ex y que ella necesita para sentirse mejor con ella misma por ser una persona que necesita atención en todo el espectro de la vida) pero que al final si vuelve a mi se sentirá como el pico después de un rato ya que para mi ella podía hacer lo que quería carreteando y si me llegaba a contar ese malestar yo no cargaría y tampoco cargué con su culpa en esos momentos...

ese sabor me deja la verdad

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DJSDJSDJS THANKS ! ! ! Yee I tried to mix up the designs and this is what came to mind (if that makes any sense lol)

You mentioning how it looked on Warren makes me image Leo with some H U G E AND B U F F arm and I can’t help but laugh at the thought HAHA!

Imma now doodle a bunch of fanart since I have a better grasp for the design mwehehehe >:))

I just wanted to see what your thoughts are of how I image the gauntlet looking like in your au ! :]

Mainly for approval so I can draw Leo with the gauntlet :>

Like, should I add anything or subtract anything to the design ? :0

THAT IS SO SO COOL ZACK! I love that it is a combination of the canon design and you adding the scales that I described (which have actual relevance for the plot, I swear :,D) I don't have any specific vision for the gauntlet either, except that it's rather slim looking to fit Leo's equally slim frame (just basically not as super buff as when Warren wore it) but you can really go wild with it! You absolutely have my approval and I'm beyond excited to see what you intend to draw!!!! ♡ ♡ ♡

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Cesare’s letters to Juan are even better when I remember the context, that being: he was with Rodrigo at Orvieto, after leaving Viterbo when two of Cesare’s familiars died of the plague, so you know the trip didn’t had a good start, they arrive at Orvieto and there’s all these ceremonies, longg ecclesiastical ceremonies, that he had to take part of, alongside Rodrigo (let’s keep in mind he was about 19-years-old here, by the standards of his time he was a grown man already, but still he was very young) and he just seems to be having the worst time™, there’s even a remark iirc saying he looked bored and withdrawn wherever he appeared in public. And that’s the time where this little family crisis with Juan happens (whether the rumors about his bad behavior are true or partially true, or not) and I just can’t stop picturing Cesare sighing tiredly after trying (in vain) to convince Rodrigo to chill a bit, it can’t be as bad as they are writing it, and Rodrigo totally distressed and obviously venting his frustations to him, so much so that Cesare actually writes to Juan in his letter that if he has any compassion for him, he will put an end to Rodrigo’s sadness, and it almost reads like him saying: I can’t take it anymore brother, please have mercy on me and do something about this asap djsdjsdjsdjsjds. And there’s not even a trace of anger in his words and tone towards Juan. He is calm and direct (as it seems it was his way), but affectionate and brotherly at the same time.  I just...Cesare has an incredibly interesting, if limited, correspondence, but his letters to Juan are definitely my favorite among them, and I feel grateful we have that, I really do.

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The feeling I always get when I read Sacerdote is that two very different individuals wrote this book because he says one thing and even shows evidence for it, and then he turns around and says another thing. At this point I've given up trying to understand his thought process really, I think he def. wanted to come across as balanced  towards Cesare and on some occasions he achieved that, he offers reasonable analysis here and there, however he is far from being the“impartial historian” he judges himself as, and for the most part his biases and his passion, his world view are all over his writing lol, naturally since impartiality is impossible. The only thing that I think differentiates him from other Cesare biographers, I mean apart from the huge importance of his work to the advancement of Cesare’s historiography back in the day, is that he brings an impeccable, almost thorough research along with all the usual unnecessary drama, moral judgments, absurd statements, and misleading conclusions over Cesare’s character and actions that I really do think were the result of the time he was living in, and it’s why I say it is outdated today and should be challenged instead of dutifully repeated as a fact.

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[…]The duchess took everything that the Pope permitted her to remove. He refused to have an inventory made, as Beneimbene the notary had advised. “I desire,” so he stated to the Ferrarese ambassadors, “that the duchess shall do with her property as she wishes.” He had also given her nine thousand ducats to clothe herself and her servants, and also a beautiful sedan-chair of French make, in which the Duchess of Urbino was to have a seat by her side when she joined the cavalcade.

Lucretia Borgia according to original documents and correspondence of her day, Ferdinand Gregorovius.