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[loversbruises]

Little rant about yan fetishizers

I think a lot about how people who fetishize yanderes or obsessive love and how they don’t actually care about the effects on the yan/obsessive person. They act like they do but think about it. If they cared, most people who do that wouldn’t just drop the obsessive person after a few days. Or complain that they are too much. Darlings who just fetishize are attention seeking, not relationship seeking. They want the attention NOT the responsibility. And definitely not the person in their entirety.

But when I fall in love with someone, I feel disgusted with myself. If it wasn’t the fact I was with someone who understood that side of me, I know I’d be clingy and annoying to most. I’ve been pushed away for that very reason. Needy to the point of grossing people out. Being in love takes a toll on my mental sometimes. Especially the self questioning and constant reassurance needed. The possessiveness and obsession isn’t pretty. Not long term. Which is why fetishizers don’t last any longer than that. And desiring only that side of me is the most unattractive thing to me.

[mycyberqueen]

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Royal • She/Her • 40 • Bi • 18+ in my dms or in the spice cabinet tag (rare use), but im mostly sfw.

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[buyny]

you dont show no love..... - cc: frizo n art by frizo

[loversbruises]

Me when I choose to let people in but they remind me that I am an easy to abandon unlovable freak 😂😂😂😂😂

[a51cross]

I'm Trying To Kill Myself Just Let Me Do It.... RSE Day6

a51cross

[loversbruises]

I am simply a rabid dog on a leash waiting for you to let me go so I can fucking kill anyone who comes near you.

[loversbruises]

We are grown. We are calm. We aren’t going to freak out at the slightest tone change. 😌 Breathe in. Breathe out. We are a normal person.

[loversbruises]

I have so much love to give but too hurt of a soul to actually give it.

[loversbruises]

I’m desperate. I’ll cling to you in any way I can. I’m too attached. My heart physically hurts. I need you. I can’t lose you completely or I won’t be able to survive. Let me help you. Let me fix this. Let me make it up to you. Don’t make me find anyone else when all I want is you. Treat me like shit but just don’t stop talking to me.

[loversbruises]

Am I that easy to abandon? To ignore? Every time I let a guy get close to my heart they either hurt it or leave it. From family to relationships, why can’t I make them stay? I can’t let myself lose someone I love again and again and again. I’m dying here.

[loversbruises]

I hate being obsessive. I hate being a yan. I hate it. I don’t want to be like this. I don’t want to freak out when we don’t talk. I don’t want my emotions to depend on his tone. I don’t want to be spiralling when I don’t have him. I hate it. I hate every part of it. I don’t want to be like this. I’m tired of it being romanticized or glorified. It fucking sucks. I hate this side of me. I just wanted to find people who understood it but that doesn’t mean I like it. I don’t want my emotions to depend on him and that I spiral and need reassurance and I’m clingy and annoying and everything I despise. I’m tired emotionally and physically and I’ve been holding back spiralling all day for me but I can’t. I’m so exhausted. I’m done.

[loversbruises]

Fuck suicidal tendencies! I’m going to get homicidal instead!

[loversbruises]

I’m overthinking I’m overthinking I’m overthinking I’m overthinking I’m overthinking I’m overthink I’m overthinking I’m overthinking I’m overthinking I’m overthinking im overthinking I’m overthinking I’m overthinking I’m overthinking I’m overthinking I’m overthinking I’m overthink I’m overthinking I’m overthinking I’m overthinking I’m overthinking im overthinking I’m overthinking I’m overthinking I’m overthinking I’m overthinking I’m overthinking I’m overthink I’m overthinking I’m overthinking I’m overthinking I’m overthinking im overthinking

[loversbruises]

I see you in everything.

The simple things like DM’s, posts and tags.

But more than that.

I see you in a warm hot chocolate on a calm morning, the ones you used to drink.

I see you in the calm before the storm, the thing I clung onto.

I see you in a hot shower after a long day when I wipe the steam off the mirror.

I see you in eyebrow piercings and dark eyes, ones I pray won’t look at another.

I see you in the blurry stress, where the only focal point is how badly I want to hold onto you.

I see you in my escapism, in soft plush toys and cute animations.

I see you in the eyes of other pretty boys I want to use to move on.

I see you in everything. Because you were everything. I was so quickly turned to nothing. But you could never be nothing to me.

[loversbruises]

Hahahahaha I’m going to fucking do it he’s ignoring me again, I told him to tell me if he goes MIA again. He’s lucky he doesn’t know I’m like this omfg he hasn’t talked to me since Friday evening I can’t do this again and again I told him I didn’t like it I can’t I can’t I can’t

Update: had this in my drafts for a few days, that man is a loser and I hope he never dms me again. He liked my messages THIS MORNING and didn’t even respond with a compliment when I sent a photo of myself. DEATH TO ALL MEN EXCEPT LIKE 10 AND HALF OF THOSE ARE MY MOOTS ON HERE