#FORGOT JYP STILL PERFORMS??

[chisungie]

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[flouqic-jaye]

ೀ friction & fire ( 방찬 )

PROLOGUE having a duo stage with one of your rival idols was definitely not the best idea, but how did his lips end up on yours?

𝓘NFO

bangchan x fem reader enemies to ??? angst suggestive idols au 𝟲𝟴𝟰 making out tension use of profanity ｡｡

Seeing the man you loathe next to you while getting ready to go on stage was not a good mix. His typical, arrogant smirk that appeared as soon as he spotted you glaring made an overwhelming amount of anger flow through your body. All you wanted to do was slap his fucking gorgeous face.

“Hey sweetheart,” he teased, chuckling at the grimace that formed on your face.

“Can you fuck off? I have fans to perform for.”

“Awe, you can’t handle a bit of teasing? I didn’t know the company’s princess was so soft.” He mocked, grinning in the way that made you want to rip him apart.

You folded your arms tightly around your chest and shot him an evil glare, making him raise an eyebrow in surprise from the look you gave him. Though you happened to miss the quick glance his orbs took at your lips. It seemed like you had always had problems with Chris. Ever since the day you’d both become the leaders of your group, you’d always been rivals, well, that’s how you took it. He was just, good at everything. And it pissed you off. So you countered it by being a better leader than him, and how much worse could JYP make it by giving you two a duo stage together. The whole room always burned from the tension between you two when you practiced. It was like he always had something to criticise you about and if he wasn’t criticising you, he was teasing you, everyday, of every week with him felt more like hell on earth as it progressed. It’s always been a battle with him for the best leader and it seems like it always will.

“You know what, maybe I can’t handle a bit of teasing, so what? I’m still always gonna beat you at your job. Sucks to be second place hm?” His jaw clenched and his teasing expression turned into a venomous stare aimed at your smirk directed to him.

“Atleast I can take being second place without feeling mediocre.” He spat back at you, insolently. Your breath hitched at the statement and you stayed quiet realising he wasn’t wrong and just ignored him to get ready for the performance.

He took a step closer toward you and your breath stopped, before he glanced at your lips and gazed back into your eyes, what was he doing? He stepped closer and sighed before cupping your heated cheek, he still held eye contact with you but you became flustered and looked away before he gently brought your face back to him. “Can I kiss you?” he spoke softly, those words that you never thought you’d hear from him. The man you thought despised you since you’d met, the man that always sighed when he was made to work with you, just asked you for a kiss? And you said-

“Yes.” You spoke hastily, capturing his lips in a sweet kiss with your thoughts blanking as your mouth met his. “Fuck, your lips taste better than I imagined, so fucking sweet,” he panted out, making your cheeks heat up, before cupping your face again and crashing his lips onto yours again and moaning into the kiss. A single one of your hands from the nape of this neck, found their way to his scalp and scratched his hair softly, making him softly moan into the kiss. He released his mouth from the kiss just to regain his breath,

“Chris the-,” but before you could finish his lips were on yours again and his tongue danced in your mouth as he held your waist and forgot about all else going on. But you pulled away, still panting for breath as guilt seeped in for your fans.

“Chris we have to go perform.” You whispered hesitantly,

“Y/n, respectfully, fuck everyone out there. I need you so bad, please.” He whined with the most beautiful puppy eyes ever. Your heart was aching to stay with him, but you also didn’t want to disappoint your fans… But you know what?

“Fuck it, just kiss me again.”

[yoonvvs]

YOONAH IN STRAY KIDS :: THE SURVIVAL SHOW

AGE :: 17 POPULARITY :: 90%

EP. 1 — NOTABLE MOMENTS.

yoonah was shown at one of her monthly evaluations — she was dancing to be my baby ! her presence was on TOP! she already had a small fanbase before the show ☺️

yoonah was placed on the female 2TEAM — but JYP mentioned yoonah & chan had originally wanted to team together, so he decided to place yoonah in both of the teams.

JYP: on the 2TEAM, trainee YOONAH has actually worked with the boy team…she trained a lot with them, but i hope to place her with 2TEAM. i’m not sure about yoonah working with the boys - so im interested to how yoonah performs with both of them.

YOONAH: hello, my name is YOONAH! i am seventeen years old. i got casted through an audition…i was in the top three for my round of auditions! (PLACED #2)

Q: how does it feel being apart of two teams?

YOONAH: it’s…challenging. it’s really hard, emotionally. i feel like if i get chosen to stay with the debut team, and leave the other group behind…i feel really sad for my friends i left behind. but if i don’t debut, ill still be sad because i didn’t debut with those friends. i just want to stay friends with everyone…im scared people will be upset with me if i leave for another group. but it’s not really my choice.

yoonah did so well with the 2TEAM, but she still wished that she was with the boys.

YOONAH: i love performing with the girls…ive been life long friends with CHAERYEONG, and i really would love to debut with them…but it’s weird to not dance with my other friends. chan oppa really wanted me to be on their team…i really want to be placed with them too. i feel selfish for thinking that, i feel like a lot of people won’t want that.

when minho mentioned that yoonah looked really nice with the girls, jeongin looked over at him with such a sad face :(.

yoonah barely got a break between performances, but she still did amazing!

they showed a cute clip of yoonah & minho dancing together during practice, yoonah was working on a part and minho was counting the steps for her. when yoonah finished and did it smoothly, minho gave her a warm smile and a high five!!! so precious.

YUNA: when i watched the other team…i kept watching YOONAH perform with them. she fit in really well with them…they were much more her style.

Q: would you be sad if YOONAH didn’t debut with you?

YUNA: yes, i think we all would be. but whatever happens will be the right decision, and i’ll keep supporting her!

the crowed loved YOONAH with 2TEAM! she was so energetic and had so much power throughout the performance, despite her burdens, she still had an amazing performance!

right after her performance, she was running to meet with the boys, she wore the same outfit! jisung helped her fix her hair and helped her calm down, getting her breathing returned to normal.

[conversation held behind camera]

YOONAH: i think i forgot to breathe out there…it was so scary.

JISUNG: you looked really great out there, i’m a little worried…

YOONAH: me too, i really want to debut with you.

yoonah had a rap verse (that she wrote herself) a small vocal part and was in center for the dance break for a small portion of time! she looked good in both performances…but it was so clear that she belonged with the boys, you could tell that she was genuinely having fun and was relaxed when she was performing with them!

yoonah was standing right in between 2TEAM and the boys, she looked so awkward standing next to both of them…

YOONAH: i was so nervous when JYP was standing up there, i kept wondering what team he’d place me in…i kept hoping i could debut with the boys.

yoonah was mentioned in who got JYP’s eye!

JYP: yoonah caught my eye the most out of everyone today. she had a really tough challenge of performing with two different groups - and she pulled it off very well. yoonah, you have great stage presence and you have strong duality, i really enjoyed watching you perform with both teams. i’m having a tough time trying to decide where you belong.

JYP: the next debut team will be…the boys project group, with YOONAH.

yoonah was so shocked, she had such a bright smile on her face! she looked over and caught chan’s eye, and he was so happy for her to be considered officially on their team!

after the clapping died down, yoonah looked over at the girls team, frowning when she looked over at them.

YOONAH: i’m really sorry we couldn’t debut together. i really wanted to, i love you all so much.

JYP let them have a sweet moment together, and all of the girls hugged, a few of them crying.

YEJI: don’t forget about us, okay? we can still be friends.

RYUJIN: make sure i have the first autograph!

YOONAH didn’t say anything, she just smiled and nodded, trying to keep her tears from falling :((. poor baby was so stressed during this time.

YOONAH: i’m really happy i got chosen to debut - these boys are really my best friends. i’m going to work really hard to debut and show JYP what a star all ten of us can be. 2TEAM, we will meet again! fighting!

[ SELF CAM ]

“hello everyone! i’m at my apartment i have with my older brother!” yoonah said, smiling at the camera. “my parents moved me in with my brother because the apartment is closer to my school and my company…i’m going to be really sad to leave him.”

as yoonah walked in, her childhood cat came to the door and brushed against her legs, banji!

“i think ill miss banji more than jinyoung (brother)” yoonah said, crouching down the pet banji, getting the camera close so the camera could hear his purrs. “he’s my baby!”

yoonah’s room is so cute at her brothers house…she had many kpop posters up, especially of BTS & SNSD! we love our fan girl. she had twice playing in the background while she packed her belongings, leaving a few things at the apartment.

“i plan to visit when i can..so ill leave these here for when i do.”

right before yoonah left, she gave her brother a sweet and long hug, it was so adorable. jinyoung seemed like he really was going to miss her, but kept acting nonchalant.

“see you later, oppa!” yoonah called out, giggling when the boy only patted her head and turned away. “onto the dorms!”

since yoonah is the only girl, she got her own room, but it was very, very small. but that’s okay! the only thing in her room was a closet, a bed, and a shelf above her bed, but yoonah made it work!

“when i have time… i can decorate it!”

back to more serious matters…

yoonah looked so nervous when JYP was talking…poor girl 😭

YOONAH: i’m really scared i’m going to be eliminated. i feel like i’m under a lot of pressure right now, i have to do well. i have to prove that i deserve a spot in this group, even if it isn’t traditional. i really hope no one gets eliminated, i want to debut with everyone. they all deserve it.

stay tuned for the next episode!

[gentlemanviolet]

Hiiii yeah i posted Pt 8 lastnight but it was too short and boring so i'm posting Pt 9!

Storytime until I actually got there! Pt 9!

First of all, my eng sucks cuz it's my second language

and second of all, no one is dumb or gonna confused but I wanna explain yall that I haven't fully shifted yet (i think i minishifted before but nvm) but I'm posting storytimes for fun but especially to motivate myself that's why it's "Storytime until I actually got there"

And third, there's a truama(idk if it's called trauma) i got from c.ai and chai, those robots always forgot things I've already said before and they always forgot the plots, so I started seeing real people to robots, I always worry and afraid if they forgot things I've told them before, so without knowing, I started saying things again that i've said before, so please forgive me if I repeat things i've already said in other posts

Storytime ⬇

This one is not so interesting but.., it was 2010, it was summer and I planned a vacation for me and Ji hyo(Song Ji hyo, my bestie), I surprised her with the tickets and the trip is to HAWAII!!!!!

(Ik the pictures are just for the vibe, they might not be hawaii)

We're gonna stay there for a week, we can't stay for like 2 weeks cuz we need to get back to work, we tell no one cuz we're afraid if they come with us, we're not worry about the money, we're worry about ourselves, we can't gossip freely, we can't let our crazy side out, I don't actually care but it's just not so confortable and we just prefer showing that side to only each other

So we told no one, but coincidentally, Natalie (Portman) was there,but it's ok we're also friends, she's so sweet (just like us), but unfortunately, she's been in hawaii for 3 days and she's only staying for 5 days so we only hang out for 2 days and then she go back to America

We were having fun until Minzy from 2ne1 (one of my children) calls my phone, Minzy:"Hello unnie" in korean (i'm not gonna say "in korean" again from now on), Me:"Oh hello Minzy ya", Minzy: "We got a concert in Japan", Me and my bestie: "WHAT", my bestie is an actress but she was disappointed cuz we both have to leave when i leave hawaii cuz she'll be alone in hawaii, Minzy: "We only have 4 days", me and Ji hyo:"WHAT" Me: "HOW THE KIDS GONNA PRACTICE??", Minzy:"They already did Unnie",

Btw my dad owns JYP, SM, and YG and they're only companies in korea in my reality, we just give the conpany name to the ceo we're hiring, but my position is higher than the ceo's ofc, so I was pissed cuz why YG ceo didn't tell me abt it, but i can sing or dance with any song without practicing and plus i'm the mc of Kasatela so..., if you don't know what Kasatela is, I explained abt it in pt 3, ok so yeah I was pissed, asked her what concert is it, and she said it's All Idol concert, All Idol concert is a concert where most of the idols from all those three companies perform in turns

I get upset even more, it's ridiculous, cuz there's gonna be a lot of idols so we'll be even more busy, we had to buy tickets to Japan immediately, cuz we didn't come to Hawaii with private jet cuz we thought it's not necessary at all.., when we arrived to japan, I had to get my ass back to work, yes my bestie came to japan with me to cheer me up at the concert

I have to manage most of things, and I don't do practicing cuz obviously I don't have time for it anymore, i couldn't even sleep. When it was 2 days before the concert, I had to watch the final performance practices of all the groups, in turns, and some of them are also gonna perform their solo song so I had to watch it too, it's like checking if anything's wrong, it's so exhausting, and when it's BIGBANG's turn, I can barely stand

My ex s/o (GD, my ex s/o, I scripted that everyone in my reality is extra gorgeous so I wouldn't know who i would wanna end up with and plus i'm bi, so I just wanna keep him as one of those people who's obsessed with me, but still it could be him who i would end up with yk? That's why i call him "my ex s/o") is the leader of that gp, and ofc he's taller than me in my reality even when I wear heels and please please don't search him up on google, just use pinterest,

so let's continue, all the idols that's gonna perform from those 3 companies(only entertainment companies in my reality) are in the same practice room cuz the room is big enough,

When BIGBANG starts doing their final performance practice, i feel like i'm gonna pass tf out, and I have a disease, my nose bleeds when I get SO tired, i need to lay on the freaking bed as soon as that happens, but if I didn't, the next level is called "passing out"🥰, so technically i was blocking my nostrils with my hand to stop bleeding for the whole time, my bestie wasn't with me cuz she's an actress not a singer so i was helpless,

I was standing in the corner, leaning the wall, and my hand was blocking my nostrils with out moving so i can only breath for a lil bit, imagine my situation, it's so painful right?, but i was locked in, i was focusing only on their movements cuz we only have 2 days left, so i had to focus on their final performance practices, some of them notices that i'm looking a lil bit strange, Yuri (from SNSD) asked me if i'm ok and I said yes, my face looks so mad and almost everyone starts to notice it, actually i wasn't mad, i was just trying to do both focusing and covering my nose, so my eyeborws automatically looks mad

After BIGBANG's turn, Daesung (BIGBANG) asked me if i want some tissue, Daesung:"Noona, do you want some tissue?"in korean(just reminding), my baby brother is so caring<3, Me:"Uh no Noona is okay"

(noona means "big sis" in korea, men use it to call a woman older than them and that woman can use "Noona is" blah blah when talking to a men and when we're talking to a younger girl, we use "Unnie is" blah blah etc)

Yeah, i lied, if I said "yes, please give me a few tissue", it'll be like confirming that i'm not well, and then everything will be ruined, we have so much work, everyone is busy, and we only have 2 days more so that's why I lied, please don't attack me(jk), he knows something is off, so he said "Noona, I know you're not well, if you don't want anyone to know that you need to get rest rn, then take the tissue", Me:".......*sigh* okay okay", Daesung:"It'll be good for you if you sit down, i'm sitting with you" he said it and sat down

I think i shouldn't sit down cuz a few seconds after I sat down, I passed tf out, i had everyone worried and scared🥰, they tried to take me to the hospital but my bestie didn't let them, cuz she knows i hate hospitals, and it's not even a big deal so I don't need to got to the hospital, they send me back to the hotel (cuz we're in japan rn), and yes I work again when I woke up at the morning cuz i have no time to get rest

That's it, byeeee

[sourbinnie]

https://www.tumblr.com/sourbinnie/718866072094261248/hi-how-are-you-can-you-make-a-part-two-about-the

Hello? I have an idea can you do like this? Look i read the second part you did and that was great but I want something like this that how they talk to them self and saying their feelings especially CHANGBIN that part of changbin that says them holding her hand rubbing their arm and ... Like that you know what i mean? And if this is hard you can imagine y/n's bandmates is lesserafim i think that's cool? thanks for accepting requests and writing them in the best way ‌.

title -> corazon frio (el angel que yo te envio) genre -> angst it is + no happy ending pair -> ot8!skz + gn!reader a/n: thank you for sending this request! i hope i did it justice ¡! and for this scenario let's pretend i never said that (y/n) had 7 band members and it's le ssera lmao :> also if you're not familiar, this is part of my 9th member series, can be found in my masterlist here

lingering your touch as i pass by the jyp building. the street lights shining through reflecting on the car, i am so lost in a dream that never happened. one where i stayed in chan's arms hoping he would calm me down and i wouldn't make such an abrupt and cruel decision without talking to him first. was i happy? i didn't really know. i held on to my bandmates so much, tried my best to fit in and hoped i did the group justice. but i craved that satisfaction of making him proud, of him taking care of me when it all seemed to be losing sense and i hoped that he knew that i wouldn't forget him and all that he did for me. maybe he already forgot me and it was for the best right? one doesn't wanna haunt the memories of their old loved ones.

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it hurt to think that you hurt someone else without intention. i thought leaving would be the most sane choice and that i wouldn't be occupying a place that someone else deserved to shine. i knew minho would hate me for the rest of eternity, i couldn't even think of him without crying. the teasing, the jokes, the atmosphere he fixed for me just to feel comfortable. even now when i joked with zuha and yunjin, i still was brought back to the times minho taunted me but it always ended with a long warm hug. i thought of times where i have felt so afraid of coming out on stage and he was always there, right beside me. to put on a show with him, meant that i was standing besides one of the most talented people i've ever met and he still was a delight to watch.

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i walked endlessly through the corridors as i tried to escape what torn me the most. the look in changbin's eyes as he observed my performance and all i could think of was how many times i went to him for the smallest of things. whether it was being completely nervous or anxious for an award show or because i missed my family too much and i needed to be hugged. my cloudy vision didn't do me justice as my band members looked at me curiously and i just had to mutter an "i'm fine" and continue on. but as soon as i got to the dorms, i had to close the bedroom door and choke back on my tears as i couldn't stand the cold & distance that there was now between me and who used to be my best friend.

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staring at the ceiling pretending he was right beside me. the delusion and the disappointment in me when i looked again and hyunjin wasn't there was unmeasurable. i wanted to intertwine fingers, feel him staring back at me and not feel utterly broken in the process. i cried so much when i knew i had to leave him because i know how he is, how worried he gets. seeing him again and not feel the warmth but just a blank stare, like a stranger that i've never met was a stab to the heart. i don't expect him to forgive me and i don't expect to be met with his arms open at any point again in my life. i had to stop myself from remembering too much about him before i lost my mind and did something insane like call him in the middle of the night.

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oh jisung, my partner in crime. i will never forget our antics and how much you helped me feel like i was a part of the team (until i wasn't). i remember you like the stars, every talent of yours shined brighter and gave more light. i can't stop thinking about that time i saw you and wanted to run right to you, celebrate that one of my best friends was in the same area as me. then i remembered you're not my best friend anymore and i had to let go of the feelings that i held onto so tightly because how can you go through everything with someone and then just let them go? tightness built in my throat thinking about it. hope you're doing lyrics that aren't too sad like you always do but i think i know the answer for that right now.

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the morning light felt cold even in the middle of spring. i couldn't figure out what happened, as i was a mess but as i looked around me and hoped to see felix, i knew all the answers. felix, how much i didn't treasure you when i had you. i was scared, confused and lonely that i took the decision and i didn't think of him. of how much we battled together and how when we were eliminated we held onto each other like the world would disappear. i don't expect him to be happy, sad or mad, i expect he would do his best and he would still smile for the picture even if it wasn't the same. i remember coming back with him and minho, the way we couldn't be separated. he had taught me so much and i gave him so little, in return i get to see him glow and he gets to see me pretending to be alright.

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as we were taken to our music video shoot, i decided to take my old phone. it was a mistake (or was it?) as i confused with the new one but there it was, my background. a picture that i took with seungmin when we were touring in europe, it shined so brightly like the sun and yet it pained me so harshly like the darkest of rooms. eunchae noticed me staring and grabbed my hand as i sighed, laying on her shoulder. seungmin wasn't the most expressive but the night he came to me crying because he didn't want to be alone was scarring on me like one of the most painful memories i've ever experienced. leaving him was like leaving my brother and now it was clear that we weren't family anymore and it twisted the dagger in my heart.

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looking at our maknae i could only think of how much she reminded me of jeongin when we first started. he had that hopeful look on his eyes and i knew he wanted to prove himself, to show off that he could do it on his own. that still didn't stop him from cuddling up to me at night and reaching for my embrace in the winter. i hugged him so tight sometimes like he would slip away at any moment not knowing that was gonna happen at some point. i knew they would take care of him, i didn't doubt their habilities but sometimes thinking about him twisted something inside of me. the need to be there for him at all points just washed over me but right now i had eunchae and i would take care of her just as much as i did with innie.

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at the end of the day, i was reunited with my band members as we talked about life, family and other lovey things. that's when i was hit with a question that sakura made that took me by surprise and left everyone else quiet.

"are you scared of something (y/n)?" was so simple yet so effective in me that i nodded, liquid building up in my eyes as i smiled. i felt chaewon pat me in the back and say that i didn't have to answer if i didn't want to but i shook my head.

"of being forgotten." i said as i played with my hands to distract me from the sudden memories. 

i suddenly felt so cold yet i still hoped in the bottom of my heart, that my ex band members would be blessed with a warm and lovely night. 

[finallydelight]

MAYA X OTHER IDOLS

The dynamics between Maya and her idol friends.

— KIM JENNIE (BLACKPINK)

aaaaaahhhhh these two

the most iconic friendship honestly

they met in 2012, when Jieun was still in SM.

Jennie also introduced her to Jisoo.

Maya introduced both of them to Nayeon, when she joined JYP.

at award shows they always had the cutest interactions with each other.

Singing and dancing along to their performances, hugging each other, taking pictures together (but never releasing them), overall just being besties.

it girlssssss <3

— IRENE (RED VELVET)

THE HEIGHT DIFFERENCE !!

another iconic duo <3

they met in 2009, when Irene joined SM.

it wasn’t an instant friendship, because of the age gap, it happened more over time.

these two both have gotten hate for supporting women. Feminist queens <3

Irene cried when Jieun left SM. She always imagines they would debut together, so she was really upset.

Maya is friends with all of the Red Velvet members, but she’s the closest with Irene.

her, Jennie and Maya are literally called the “Holy Trinity” by fans and Korean media, that’s how iconic they are.

— KIM YUGYEOM (GOT7)

97’ssssssss

sibling energy

always teasing each other and making fun of the other one.

when he found out she came from SM, he walked up to her and was like “you’re cool, be my friend?”

there’s this funny video of Yugyeom chasing Maya around, somewhere backstage at an award show.

since Got7 left JYPE, they haven’t seen each other as much as they used to, but they still contact each other quite often <3

— LEE MINHYUCK (BTOB)

they met when they did a variety show together in 2016.

Minhyuk was so sweet with her, helping her throughout the whole shoot, since everything was fairly new to her.

rookie Maya doesn’t have the best experiences with senior male idols, but Minhyuk is an amazing exception.

he called her his ideal type on LIVE RADIO !!

his members tease him so much for this.

but like, Minhyuk, we understand ;)

they’re the same height, which makes their friendship quite wholesome.

— MOONBYUL (MAMAMOO)

Moonbyul said they met backstage somewhere and that she wanted to be friends with Maya, because of how pretty she looked.

Moonbyul girl, you’re not subtle.

THE HEIGHT DIFFERENCE PT.2

she got Maya’s number through Seulgi tho, because she forgot to ask Maya for it.

Jieun low-key loves flirting with Byul, because she finds her reaction absolutely adorable. It’s like with Sana, the giggling.

there’s this hilarious clip of Maya hugging Moonbyul and Solar just standing there like ??

— CHANYEOL (EXO)

like with Yugyeom, the sibling behaviour is immaculate.

although Chanyeol is more subtle with his teasing, cause fans might take it the wrong way.

she trained with all of the Exo members, so she’s friendly with all of them.

they had to host together once and during the rehearsals, he just kept laughing at her.

when Maya was giving a speech once, he waved at her and she almost couldn’t hold her laughter in, because of how random it was.

[haechanniesunflowers]

"I promise"

A Bang Chan scenario

A/N: mentions of pregnancy and labour, blood and childbirth, angst, fluff

After Stray Kids' contact expired with JYP, the boys went their separate ways but were still very close with one another. Minho became a choreographer, Felix, Hyunjin, Jeongin, and Seungmin signed with other companies for solo promotions. 3racha became full time producers under a different company, all 8 of them were doing very well.

Chan got married, the couple was living happily in an apartment. He set up a studio on one of the rooms so he could spend more time with her. Chan really did care about his wife but his 3racha signed a project with a sequel to a blockbuster movie and they were working on the songs for it.

"Chris I can't believe you forgot again!" y/n yelled at him. She was at her wit's end with him, she was eight months pregnant and wanted Chan to be a part of it for the final months, he promised he would take her to see her gynecologist two week ago but he was busy producing music and completely forgot. They rescheduled twice but he forgot both times. She called him several times, but he didn't hear it ringing. Now he came home, tired and upset that he completely forgot about his wife and unborn child, yet again.

"I'm not even going to say I'm sorry. I messed up big time and I'm embarrassed." he spoke.

"what do you want me to do about it?" she replied.

Chan didn't have the words to tell her how upset he was with himself. He let her down again and again and she had to go through the last months of her pregnancy alone.

"do you even know we’re having a child? I'm scared Christopher. Will you keep this up after the baby is born too? I can't have my child grow up longing for his father. I understand you love your work but if you love it to the extent you're forgetting about important things, why did you get me pregnant? Why did you want to bring a child in this world? For me to go through it alone? Will you even be there when I'm in labour?" y/n let her frustration out, with hot tears streaming down her face.

Chan came to hold her face but she backed away. He gave her space to cool down and opted to sleep on the couch.

For the next two weeks she she avoided him and did things in her own, she went to the gynecologist alone, and got food for herself from the store. Chan saw her entering the apartment with bags of food in her hand. It broke his heart that she was doing things for herself in the cold weather, and he wanted to make amends. He walked towards her and grabbed the bags from her hand, earning a warning glare from her.

"don't overburden yourself sweetheart" he said. She gave him the bags and went straight to their bedroom. He was right, she was overburdening herself but it was his fault. Coming out of the shower, she got into an oversized t shirt and pajama bottoms, and snuggled into the comforter. Chan stood at the threshold of the door, looking at her with soft eyes as she was facing away from him.

"can I lay beside you?" he began. Y/n missed him too much but he had to learn his lesson.

"no."

Chan felt helpless, he walked inside and knelt beside her side of the bed, facing her.

"I just want to say that I'm really sorry for being ignorant and making you go through these months alone but I promise you I will be there for you when you need me." he spoke and gently kissed her forehead, which she didn't back away from. Y/N closed her eyes, signalling Chan that she was about to sleep so he went out to sleep on the couch again.

At around 2 in the morning, y/n woke up to pain in her abdomen and lower back. It was intense and painful and she clutched the comforter. When it was over she was panting lightly. Her gynecologist told her about cramps near child birth. She got out of bed to drink a glass of cranberry juice. Looking around the house, there was no sign of her husband.

"where did he go?" she mumbled. Y/N went to check his studio and to her surprise he wasn't there either. She started to get annoyed and worried so she called Jisung to ask him if he knew.

"yeah noona he's in the company's studio with us, wait I'll pass him the phone." he answered and handed the phone to Chan, who didn't know how to explain himself.

"you're unbelievable" was all she said and hung up the phone. Chan gave the phone back to Jisung and excused himself saying y/n was asking him to come back home. The other two agreed to finish up with the lyrics.

Chan let himself in through the front door and saw y/n sitting on the couch, slightly bent forward and clutching the cushion. She looked towards him and her expression changed to an annoyed one. Getting up, she walked towards the bedroom but was stopped by Chan, who pulled her by her arm.

"what is your problem?" he inquired.

"nothing, let go of my arm."

"no, what are you trying to prove. You have been ignoring me for two weeks now, you don't even let me near you and you're doing things you're not allowed to do. Then when I'm not around, you suddenly have a problem and want me back, for what? When you're perfectly fine on your own and not speaking to me, what do you want me to do? Sit around all day? Doing what you want me to do? And be okay with with your attitude?" Chan blurted out in anger. Y/N pulled her arm out of his grip.

"I didn't call you back, I only asked Jisung where you were. And you're saying it like I made this child on my own against your will so I shouldn't expect anything for you. If that's how you felt then you should've told me from the start, I wouldn't have depended on you even in the slightest." she said and walked away, lying in bed and crying. Chan understood how hard it was for her but he had a huge thing going on and had to give time to that too. He put his headphones on and lied on the couch.

Y/n yelped in pain as she propped herself on one arm, the other one clutching her baby bump. The pain was excruciating and she couldn't even let out a scream. It was too much that tears welled up in her eyes. She looked around for her phone but she left it in the kitchen. Then she saw the time, it was 8:40 in the morning and Chan probably left for work. Squirming out of bed, she used the walls for support to walk out of the room and saw Chan sleeping on the couch with his headphones on.

"Ch-Chris" she breathed, he didn't seem to hear her since he didn't move.

"oh my God" she whined, clutching her abdomen, "Chris!" she cried. His eyes shot open and he looked to where she stood, bent forward.

"y/n? What's wrong?" he asked and hurriedly walked towards her, and saw her tear stained face, evidently in pain. He wasted no time and took her to the hospital.

The nurse told them she was going into labour and got everything ready. It was happening so fast, Chan stood there, watching his wife trying to push their child out, into the world. He was in awe of her. The scenario gave him goosebumps as we witnessed the moment. His whole world came crashing down, however, when the doctor revealed that y/n was losing blood and the baby wasn't coming out so they had to perform an emergency C-section. He was told to leave the operation theatre and wait outside.

So he stood outside and waited for any kind of news. In that mom he regretted how he treated y/n, for not spending more time with her, for letting her go through the pregnancy with him seldom by her side, for the argument he started the previous night. He was worried for her, he realized how important she was to him and he needed her. In a state of helplessness, he prayed for her wellbeing, for her to stay with him.

20 minutes later, the longest 20 minutes of his life, the nurse came out, holding a baby, wrapped in a small blanket.

"congratulations it's a healthy baby boy" she spoke and put the baby in his arms.

It felt unreal and surreal. He watched the baby, his baby, squirm in his arms, nuzzling towards his warm chest. His heart felt like iit would explode.

"how is my wife?" he immediately asked.

"she's unconscious from the anesthesia, we're shifting her to the ward, you can see her then." she answered and left.

Chan felt light headed. He didn't expect to become a father in the morning, when he went to sleep the previous night.

He went inside the room y/n was in, she laid there, little sedated but conscious. She looked towards Chan and smiled warmly. He walked to her and handed her their son for skin to skin. They looked at him with so much love in their eyes.

"our son, y/n" he spoke in a hushed voice, to not scare the child nuzzling himself into his mother's skin.

"I love him so much" y/n admitted.

"I'm so sorry. I don't have the words to express how sorry I am. You mean everything to me and I was wrong to not pay attention to you when you needed me. I won't let that happen again. I am going to protect you and our son, I promise." Chan stated.

"forget about that Chris, you promised me you would be there when I needed you and you were. I don't know what I would have done if you weren't home. I know you will keep your promise. I love you."

"I love you too."

[hwangsbbg]

don’t wanna talk to you - Hyunjin

3k words, makeup sex, reader is mad that Hyunjin is neglecting her and ignores him. Reader is foreigner.

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"It's like I sacrifice my precious vacation time to come all the way to Seoul and spend time with him but he's always busy with her" I complained to my best friend Juyeon who was over at my house along with Eric after I had called them, frustrated with my oblivious boyfriend.

"So you think he's cheating with you?" Eric asked as Juyeon ran his hands through my hair, my head sat in his lap as the TV played in the background, none of us really caring what was on anyways.

"It's not that. But he knows she likes him. She's always shown it. She tried kissing him at the JYP family event this year knowing he was with me and whenever she's around him she acts all flirty" I explained getting more and more riled up at the thought of Hyunjin hanging out with her.

"But why would he hang out with her then? That makes no sense?" Juyeon quirked an eyebrow as I sighed.

"JYP thought it was a good idea to make them do a collab dance stage so they're working on it. He could have said no though. He's supposed to be on a break but he accepted because he didn't want to let his boss down."

"Ok so if it's just work, why're you so riled up?" Eric asked.

"Because! He goes out to eat with her and they're always texting now ad it's just so fucking annoying" I replied.

"So did you tell him that its bothering you?" Juyeon inquired after listening to my mini rants.

"No. I'm just gonna ignore him. If he doesn't bother spending time with me or considering my feelings then I won't bother acknowledging him" I replied making Juyeon shake his head.

"Stop. I know it sounds petty but he really deserves it" I spoke up before Juyeon could say what was on his mind.

Hyunjin and this girl have known each other for a long time. She's liked him for a long time. She works in the same company as him and always gets to see him. She flirts with him all the time when I'm working and when I come to Seoul during my vacation, he still spends time with her.

"So how long have you been ignoring him for?" Eric grabs some pringles chips and stares at me through the lenses of his golden rimmed glasses, awaiting my response.

"Like 2 days" I answered truthfully. "And do you think he noticed?" Juyeon asks.

"I mean he sent me a message two nights ago and I ignored it, then he sent like three more the next day along with two calls and I ignored them. But I hung out with Chan and Jisung yesterday and texted them so I'm pretty sure he knows" I told them.

"Wow. I don't even know what to say. This is between you two and I'm sure you'll figure it out" Juyeon gave me a small smile that I returned.

"Okay but you hang out with so many guys though? Us and the rest of our members, the rest of stray kids, txt, ab6ix, nct, seventeen, too and so many more. Isn't it a little unfair for you to get mad at him" I lifted my head from Juyeon's lap to look at him after he tried to reason with me.

"All of these guys have never tried to kiss me and respect my relationship. If it were Yeji or Ryujin, I wouldn't worry but it's because it's her. On top of that, I always make time for him and he literally forgot I existed although I came here for him and my friends" I huffed.

After more talking and me basically venting my anger out, we decided to watch a movie before they had to go back to their dorms.

"Love you guys" I hugged them, waving goodnight and closing the door behind me. It was only 8pm but I was pretty sure I wasn't going to go anywhere tonight.

I decided on taking a shower. It was well needed as it gave me time to just think about anything I wanted to underneath the hot and powerful taps of the shower drops.

After showering I put on some body lotion and got dressed in an oversized shirt along with a pair of underwear as it was quite hot this night.

"What the fuck" I stopped scrolling through my phone as I heard the door to my house knock even though I wasn't expecting anyone at this time. It was already about 9pm.

I walked out of my room and towards the door, phone in hand. My house was one story but with several rooms.

As soon as I opened the door I groaned and closed it again. There stood my beautiful boyfriend whom I was very mad at dressed in ripped black jeans and a white button up.

The door was knocked again right as I closed it and I rolled my eyes opening it again.

"I don't want to talk to you" I huffed, trying to look tough despite the 12 cm difference between the two of us, glaring at him even though he towered over me.

"Well we're gonna talk whether you like it or not" He pushed himself inside the house, clearly as frustrated as I was before kicking the door close behind him.

"It's been two days. Two fucking days you're not talking to me and I don't even know why" Hyunjin runs as hand through his hair, staring at me as I stood in front of the front door watching his movements.

"I get that you're mad at me but can you at least tell me what I fucking did" he follows me into the living room as I start walking away from him.

"Why don't you fucking ask Yuna" I glared at him.

"What the fuck are you talking about" He asks, still oblivious to the issue.

"Are you fucking serious Hyunjin. I decide to come to Seoul and spend time with you during my break. And you fucking go on lunch dates with a girl who's clearly into you" I yelled, trying to hold back tears of frustration. I tend to cry when I'm angry or worked up.

"You know we're practicing together for the collab stage and that's it so I don't see the problem" He tells me.

"That's not the problem. The fact that you keep hanging out with her and always texting her, going to eat with her and so on, that's the problem. You haven't spent a minute with me in like a week and you're on a fucking break" I replied.

"I'm only going out to eat with her and hanging with her because even if she likes me, we're still friends and she's my partner. It's not my fault if you're jealous" He shoots back at me.

"Fine then I guess you don't mind me sleeping over at Sunghoon's place" I was purposefully trying to incite a reaction out of him. Sunghoon is a close friend of mine that used to like me.

"The hell you are" He glares at me.

"Who are you to stop me? I'm only hanging with him because even if he liked me, we're still friends. It's not my fault you're jealous" I used his words against him.

"I'm your fucking boyfriend. And I don't understand why you're being like this"

"Because I care about you and you don't act like you care at all about me. Its been a week you're hanging out with her all the time, only texting me as if we weren't in the same country. And you only come to me when I start ignoring you" I wanted to hit him with his own album that I saw resting in my bookshelf.

"You're acting like such a bitch right now. I don't have to spend every fucking minute with you. I have a life you know" He spat.

"You know what you're right. I guess I'm not as important in that life of yours I had thought." I couldn't help but let a tear fall at his words. I turned on my phone that was resting in my hand and quickly unlocked it.

"Babe? Baby are you crying? Fuck I didn't mean to make you cry. Shit I'm sorry" His tone immediately softens as he walks closer to me, cupping my face in his hands and wiping away the tears.

"Are you seriously looking up flights back to the US" He asked incredulously after glancing at my phone screen.

"I mean you clearly don't care if I'm here or not" I huffed, removing his hands from my face.

"Of course I care, so much. And I'm sorry I made it seem like I didn't. You know this project is important for me. Solo projects like these give more attention to the group. And I know you don't like her but trust me, nothing will happen." He began apologizing.

"It's not about trust Hyunjin, it's the fact that you don't even remember I exist and spend all your time with her" I huffed.

"I'm sorr-" "I mean what girlfriend wouldn't be fucking jealous if their boyfriend decided to spend every minute with a girl who likes him" I cut him off.

"Oh so you're jealous huh" He smirked as I glared at him.

"That's besides the point. You really fucking pissed me off" I rolled my eyes

"Okay I'm sorry baby. Ok? I promise tonight and all day tomorrow I'm all yours" He gave me a small peck and this time I didn't reject his actions.

"And you know I might've been spending time with her but it's you I'm always thinking about" he wrapped his arm around my waist, resting his forehead on mine, smiling.

"Cuz you're fucking mine, not hers" I replied, kissing him once again, my hands unconsciously moving to wrap themselves around his neck and pulling him slightly downwards so I didn't have to go on my tippy toes to reach his lips.

"Of course, I'm yours. I'll always be just yours" He whispered, his hands holding onto my waist, pulling me closer, closing the distance so there was not a millimeter of space between our two bodies.

His pink, plump, soft and addictive lips moved against mine and I almost forgot why I was mad at him to begin with. I smile into the kiss as I felt him tug at my bottom lip and smiled even wider when his tongue entered my mouth.

He moved his tongue in sync with my own as his hands travelled down, cupping my ass, rubbing on them and using them to bring me closer to him even if there was no distance between us.

"Fuck baby, jump" He pulled away as I looked at him with a smirk, my arms still hanging onto his neck, jumping slightly so he caught my thighs and wrapped them around his waist. Having a dancer and performer boyfriend came in really handy as he could easy carry me like this with no problem.

I began leaving small kisses and sucking on his neck as he carried me to my room. He obviously knew the way as he was accustomed to the house more than anyone else.

With no words said he used his back to close the door before laying me on the queen sized bed, giving me a small smile whole kicking off his shoes.

"You're so fucking beautiful" He easily slid off his shirt, moving between my legs and lowering his body to plant kisses on my neck.

His fingers trailed on my bare thighs as I realized my shirt definitely rose up so he had a perfect view of everything the underwear wasn't covering.

One of his hands slid under my oversized shirts, cupping a breast and rubbing on it while the other lazily rested at my waist as he continued to suck dark purple marks on my dark skin.

My legs wrapped around his torso, pulling him closer causing him to rut against me making both of us to let out different noises but for the same pleasurable reason.

I lifted my back a little and he immediately understood what I meant as his hands went to the hem of my shirt and in a swift action, he pulled it off, throwing it to the ground next to us.

He groaned, staring at my bare breasts, his lips immediately attaching to one as if it were a magnet. He teasingly held my nipple between his teeth ever so delicately making me whine before he placed his soft lips around the bud and began sucking on it, grinding his prominent bulge against my underwear covered core.

He tried to pull away and my hands instinctively went to the back of his head, keeping him in place as if to not lose the pleasure. I heard him chuckled lightly before slowly lifting his head, staring at me, my nipple still in his mouth, before he released it with a loud pop, moving to the next one.

He began sucking on the breast, already leaving dark purple marks before sucking on the dark and hard nipple that was patiently waiting for his mouth.

"Mm please" I didn't actually know what I was begging for but I was in too much pleasure not only from his lips but from the way his hips moved on me.

He let go of the nipple after a while, blowing onto it before standing up straight, unbuttoning his jeans ever so slowly. It's almost like he wanted to tease me however he was only making himself suffer by imprisoning his erection in those tight clothes for a while longer.

His lip stuck out of his mouth as his brows furrowed in concentration as he removed his jeans and underwear at the same time. He was quite impressive, not only blessed with good looks.

"You're soaked and we barely even started" He smirked, running a finger along my covered slit making me let out a small whine that didn't go by unnoticed by him.

He began chuckling before grabbing the hem of my white underwear and pulling them down, easily.

"As good as you look right now I really need you" He was referring to all the foreplay he wanted to skip and I was completely fine with that.

"You're still here tomorrow" I gave him a small smirk before sitting up, wrapping my arms around his neck and pulling him back onto the bed with me, engaging a passionate kiss. I took the lead as Hyunjin focused on positioning himself.

"Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck" I moaned out as the tip of his length slowly entered, already stretching my walls and he moved his head to rest at the crook of my neck.

"So fucking tight. Fuck" He mumbled, slowly pushing the rest of himself in until he was buried deep inside.

He placed both his hands on either side of my body and slowly began moving. His thrusts were slow and precise and had the both of us cursing and breathing heavily.

I stared at his sweat covered forehead with strands of hairs sticking to it all the way to his glorious lips that were swollen from the kissing to his abs that I could drool over for days.

"HO- FUCK" I might've reacted a tad bit too loudly as he hit a certain area that made the pool of heat in my stomach bubble and a certain knot form.

"You're so fucking hot. Look at you. Under me. So hot. You're gonna make me cum" He grabbed one of my thighs and moved my legs up to his shoulder, resting it there to give him better access.

He continued for a while before I stopped him and flipped us around.

I kissed all over his neck, sucking on a few areas on his chest, shoulders and collarbones and of course the nipples before I positioned myself.

I hovered over his waist, carefully grabbing his length and positioning it at my entrance before sliding on to him.

I began moving slowly as he watched me, jaw slightly parted, his eyes darting from my face to my breasts to his cock being buried deep inside of me.

"Mmm fuck babe c-can you speed up" I began moving faster at his words and he began matching ever bounce I made with a thrust upwards.

"Yeah who fucks you like this huh?" "Only you baby- fuckkk" I was pretty sure the neighbors could hear us considering how loud we were being.

"B-babe I'm coming" his voice for some reason dropped and came out a bit broken as he reached his high.

I felt his cock twitching inside of me and like he predicted, a few seconds later, he released, painting my inner walls white as I rode him until he was finished.

"Keep- keep going you didn't come yet" He looked out of breath when he grabbed my waist as I tried to slide off of him.

"It's fine you don't have too, it was great for me as well so don't worry" I reassured him but he shook his head no.

He gave weak thrusts and I smiled at his attempts to make me feel good as I began moving again, slowly.

It didn't take much time or effort after that for me to come and to get off of him roll over onto the other side of the bed

"I bet Yuna can't give it to you like that" I finally let out after recollecting my breathing.

"Would you let that go already" He chuckled, playfully rolling his eyes before grabbing me and pulling me closer to him.

"I love you. Really. I love you so fucking much. And I might not always show it but I do. And nobody could ever compare to you babe" He kissed my forehead as I tried to suppress the huge grin making way on my face.

"I love you more Hyunjin" I breathed out, moving closer to him as his grip around me tightened.

[stray-kids-react]

S/O likes enjoys writing/writing lyrics

Masterlist

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Bang Chan

° You owned this special and locked diary for years, where you kept all your bottles up emotions and feelings in.

° One of those feelings evolving your long time crush on Chan, including the words 'Sexy, Cute, Inspirational, Hot, Prince, and A Literal Angel' all in quite a few pages. Luckily your now long time boyfriend has never seen these fangirl/boy paragraphs.

° Chan was all of those words, no doubt about it. But it is still hard to look at those paragraphs without cringing at how desperate you sounded in your mind.

° Chan however apparently loved your affectionate paragraphs, flipping through the pages as you walked through his studio door. Your heart sank as pure shock and terror rushed through your veins. No one wants their private thoughts to be read.

° The tips of Chan's ears were firetruck red, as a beaming grin flashed towards you. You noted that he read through the entire diary, knowing all the dreams and wishes you had that involved him. No skeletons were left in your closet anymore, it was bittersweet.

"So you really think I'm an angel who is also the sexiest person on earth?" he teased, cupping your face in his palms.

"Well duh, but you can't tell me you didn't think anything like that towards me-" You defended, cut off by his sweet kisses.

Lee Know

° Minho found out about your true feelings towards him while reading some song lyrics you wanted to show 3Racha.

° He needed to know who you loved and admired so dearly after reading this, constantly by your side questioning anything he could. After literal weeks of conspiracy, you couldn't take his suspicion anymore and admitted everything.

° You are now much more secretive with your songs that you've written, but that won't stop Minho from looking everywhere he possibly can. He is determined to find them.

° After so many large steps that were taken in your relationship, he wants to see how you truly felt throughout them. From the first date, first time, to the promise ring he fave you last week. Minho wants to say it's to tease, when it's truly because he loves you.

° He loved the way his stomach did kart wheels as his heart fluttered when he first read your words. He hasn't felt that amazing feeling in a while and needs to re live it, luckily for him he noticed a place he has never thought of checking.

"So kitten, you really want to marry me don't you?" he commented, a soft smirk across his glowing features.

"Why wouldn't I? You're you. And how'd you find those?!" you replied, tone changing as you saw how many he actually had.

Changbin

° Changbin was struggling to create a new song, he seemed to accidently make similar beats and lyrics to their past hits.

° You would sometime write up different songs when you were bored, but you never showed them to anyone thinking they weren't great. But Changbin looked in need of some type of inspiration, so you brought out your journal and placed it infront of him.

° His expression was unreadable, either about to thank you for the amazing inspiration or laugh at your cheesy words. You just wanted him to say something.

° Changbin began to smile shyly, showing you a page he just read over. That page happened to be the most recent and the one you completely forgot about. It was a draft about 10 different ways you could tell Changbin that you loved him.

° You really wanted it to be special when you would say it to him, but luck didn't seem to be on your side that day. You were at least glad that he was smiling, showing positive signs that he isn't feeling awkward or doesn't feel the same way about you.

"I love you too my adorable bean." He chuckled, pulling you into his lap as he held you close to his racing heart beat.

"I'm guessing he new comeback is going to be a love song now?" you teased, burrowing into his soft black hoodie.

Hyunjn

° Your relationship use to be a cat and mouse situation, one day you two were best friends and then the next you two were rivals.

° Your anger and frustration towards one another was simply a way to hide your true emotions. Both of you found each other attractive in and out, but were too stubborn to confess. That is until he walked into your room and pressed you up against the wall.

° Your rivalry left out the door once you started dating, the only ounce of it was left in the small playful bickering and teasing. Which happened every day of the week.

° You walked into the dressing rooms, noticing Han and Felix giggling as your presence became known. This wasn't a usual giggle of theirs, something was going on. You knew that for sure once you saw the way Hyunjin presented himself.

° A sly smirk across his lips as a couple crumpled peace of paper were in between his fingers. His steps were long and powerful, as he held his head up high while nearing you. This usually meant he found something to tease you with.

"I didn't know you liked me for five years, coming up with so many cute pet names if we ever dated." He teased, hiding his blush.

"First of all, you went through my desk without asking me. Second of all, I am whipped for you dumb dumb." You replied.

Han

° You weren't a very vocal person, having trouble expressing your thoughts and emotions through words everyday.

° That reason alone is also why people think you and Han are a perfect match. He helped you come out of your shell and be comfortable in your own skin. All of those actions sent your heart into a frenzy, finding there way into pages filled with emotion.

° Han knew about your habit of writing cute quotes on your palms and arms, or just randomly taking out your journal and starting a new page.

° He respected your privacy even if the temptation of knowing every little thought you have was very very strong, he held back and let you write in peace. However, when you dropped your journal without knowing. Han held it and the temptation took over.

° As you had a chat with Seungmin, he turned around from your eye sight and flipped through the pages. Many of them expressing how much you love him and how much he helped you without him even knowing. This effected Han immensely.

"Hannie are you crying?" you questioned, noticing the forming gloss over his sparkling chocolate orbs.

"Yeah, but it's happy tears. I just never knew how much you cared about me, and it makes me feel important." He explained.

Felix

° You cannot hide anything from this adorable koala, he knows you too well and can find anything you've hidden from him.

° You learned this the hard way when you asked him for help when forgetting where you left your journal, panicking since the last place you saw it was at Minho's. Felix knew you usually placed it near your bed and assumed it to be under the covers.

°His assumption was spot on, but you had no idea that he had found it yet. Felix took this advantage to skim through a few pages, smiling at the sight of his name in the book.

° His name was mentioned ever since the day you first met, January 7th 2017. He was written as this attractive aussie that had your knees weak, he laughed silently at the realization that you fancied him since the first day you met. He loved it.

° Felix walked out with the navy blue book tight in his grip, his ears a bright shade of red. You knew he must've read some sort of page about him, but you weren't nervous about it. It couldn't have been anything more cheesy than what you say on dates.

"I can't believe Han knew about your crush on me that entire time." Felix chuckled, shock filling his expression.

"And I can't believe you never knew how much I truly admired you." You teased back, kissing his freckle speckled cheeks.

Seungmin

° Seungmin met you at a library, you were working on a soft poem about not being able to find the right person.

° That whole meeting seemed like something right off of a romance movie or fanfiction novel. Writing about giving up on love as an amazing guy happens to cross paths with you. But both of you laugh at the whole cliché nature of your meeting.

° Seungmin loved how you wrote, taking him into the story each time. He felt so special whenever he found something referring to your relationship, feeling fuzzy inside.

° He liked to bring some of your poems on tour with him, reminding him to stay strong when being away from you. Letting him know that you'll always be there for him when he needs you, even if you are both countries away from each other.

° Felix once found his stash of poems that you wrote, he never teased him on it but would still smile excitedly at how sentimental Seungmin was becoming. Seungmin knew he was becoming cheesy and mushy, he hated yet loved it.

"Do you know how much you have effected me?" he questioned, tracing the curve of your jaw with his thumb.

"Or maybe you have an addiction to me, ever think of that?" you responded, smiling widely as he rolled his eyes at your words.

Jeongin

° You worked under JYP entertainment to help create songs for different groups, Jeongin noticed you during his break.

° You rarely got to work with Stray Kids since they made 99% of their own songs, but that didn't stop Jeongin from trying to get to know you. It worked in his favor, since you began to develop a living in him after two months of hang out together.

° Jeongin likes hearing certain songs you create or in the process of being created, cheering you on and telling all of his members when you created a song.

° He liked to give you the credit and appreciation you rarely get, most of the credit going towards the artist who performed the songs you created. Jeongin wanted to let you know how proud he was of you daily, even if you got shy from it.

° Whenever you showed him different samples of songs you were working on, he'd dance in his seat with a beaming smile. Even when you were tired and wanted the day to end, his admiration and addicting smile would make your mood change instantly.

"I am just worried because JYP has been pretty harsh on the past few songs." You sighed, tired and frustrated.

"He literally wrote a song about women's butts. I'm pretty sure you're more talented baby." He reassured, patting your head.

[ikykwklk]

— numb | b.c.

A/N: Hi guys! This is my first ever written imagine, so please bear with me if I have any mistakes ㅠㅠ I was actually having constant fight with myself because of this, but I finally did post it! Hope you guys like this and tell me if you guys want me to write more because it would really help me ㅠㅠ

Genre: fluff, angst, cheater!bang chan, idol!bang chan, idol!reader

Dancing has always been your option to escape this cruel world that we live in.

You've always danced your heart out everytime you perform.

And it has always been there whenever you can't express your feelings to others.

"Okay! We're done now!" Your choreographer yelled right after your newest title track ended.

Your group dropped onto the floor right after you got the okay signal from him. Pants and gasps of your members were the only sound that surrounds the dance practice room.

"You did great y/n, I'm relieved that you're a fast learner" your choreographer said as he patted your shoulder, you shot him a tired smile then mumbled a "thank you", "You guys are good to go right after cleaning up the dance practice room, the room is needed for later" your members immediately took their bags and started cleaning the room.

"Hey y/n! Are you coming with us? We'll head to the dorm right after cleaning" one of your members said, Chaeryoung to be exact, as she picked up the pieces of the group's snacks earlier. "Nah, you guys get going, I still have rap lessons later", Chaeryoung nodded and went straight to the door with the other members following behind her.

"Take care y/n, we don't want our newest member to not feel well before our comeback, alright?" Your leader, Yeji said as she sling her bag on her shoulder and head towards the door. "Will do, Unnie, you guys take care too!" They waved for the last time before shutting the door behind you.

You still can't believe that you had been added as 6th member of ITZY right after you auditioned from a year ago. You've worked hard to become an idol and now you're here, you know that you needed to work harder than you did. That's why you wanted to left behind, because you wanted to improve more.

You move towards the speaker to play your title track from it's beginning and ran towards the mirror, posing your position and danced all your heart out.

When the music ended, the door suddenly slammed open leaving a squeak from your lips and watched the door with your brows meeting together.

"Oh, Hey y/n! Didn't know you'd still be here!" You smiled at the people as they start to come inside the room one by one, making the room filled with voices again.

"Hey Jisung Oppa, sorry, I totally forgot that you were using the room after us".

"It's fine! You can still continue practicing, we just came here to eat our dinner, our practice has been cancelled" Jeongin said as he skipped towards the sofa then dropped his bag.

"Is that why Chan Oppa is not with you?" You walked towards them, Minho nodded at you then started to ramble about how the oldest is not taking care of himself again.

Chan was your secret lover, he helped you ever since you moved to Seoul year ago. You both got close and even letting you hide in his studio whenever you don't feel like going back to your dorms. It was that time where you got insecure because of how people see you as a person who doesn't have any emotions.

You aren't actually the kind of person who hides their emotions in front of other people, instead you let out all of your emotions a lot that they often found you as a prey. But as you realized their intentions, you started to become numb, putting walls around you as you meet the old and new faces you've seen in your life.

Only Chan, his members, also known as Stray Kids and your own members, ITZY are the only people who have seen your crazy side, and with you debuting on ITZY, means that the public needs to see your crazy side too, and that what made you overthink about you being an idol.

Chan was the one who came into your mind, and when you told him your worries, he accidentally confessed to you while he comforted you which made you stop crying, he got worried and apologized over and over until he felt your lips against his.

And after that, you never doubted yourself again.

"Can you check on him, y/n? Tell him that the food's on it's way"

"Sure thing, be right back" you walk towards the door then went inside the floor's elevator to your boyfriend's studio.

The boys knew your relationship with their leader, and they're very happy to welcome you in their circle of friends. Since they now have known the oldest weakness, which is you, they don't mind abusing it knowing that it's also for their leader's health.

You and Chan knew that when you enter in a relationship as an idol, it would mean that you two need to be more careful since you haven't even debuted yet and dating one of the well known leader in 4th generation of kpop history. So it means, less time being and seeing each other, but whenever you got the chance to go and visit him in the studio, you would. Even if you need to sacrifice hours of your sleep to  see him.

Because that's what made you both stronger and desired each other more.

Right?

As the elevator dinged, you step outside and walk towards the all known studio that your CEO gave your boyfriend to work on their music.

You opened the door knowing that he'll be wearing headphones, his back facing you with the sounds of keypads tapping filled the studio.

But instead you were welcomed with Chan's back facing you and a girl sitting on his lap, her moans and Chan's groans filled the studio along with their skin slapping.

The door you opened slammed on the wall, making your boyfriend and the girl stopped what they're doing, their closed eyes before are now wide open as they looked at you standing in the studio's door.

You ran outside the studio heading towards the elevator before your vision becomes blurry by the mixed emotions you're feeling at the moment. You hear Chan calling your name behind you but you have no plans on talking to him right now.

Good thing that a staff of the company stepped outside the elevator, you went inside and pushed the dance practice floor quickly. Chan chased after you but the elevator doors closed right in front of him.

As the door closed, you lean back against the elevator wall, stared at the door then tilted your head while looking at your blurred reflection in front of you.

You've been through this already, having your heart shattered by guys before Chan came into your life. He knew about those experiences you had which is why it is hard for you to pinpoint your emotions at him.

Are you mad at him because he knows you like the back of his hand?

Are you mad at him because of what you've seen in his studio?

Or are you mad at yourself because you trusted him with taking care of you heart?

You couldn't care less anymore now. He broke his promise that he will take care of you. It's not new to you anymore, but the pain that Chan had cause you to feel it again, and made your numb self worse than you are before.

So when the elevator dinged to know that you've arrived on the dance practice floor, you shook your head to clear your head with thoughts and went to the boys who are inside the room before.

As you opened the door, heads were turned and you immediately noticed that your members are with the boys. When Yeji saw you she ran towards you and gave you your in-ear monitors.

"Y/N! Manager oppa said that JYP needed to see your performance with us now since their practice are cancelled" Yeji pointed at the Stray Kids members who are sitting on the floor quietly eating their dinner.

"Y/n-ya, where's Chan hyung? Did you told him that the food's here?" Hyunjin asked you as Lia helped you with your in ear monitor and handing your mic.

Before you even got the chance to answer, the dance room's door opened again to reveal JYP, along with your choreographer and your boyfriend, who's head is hanging low while following the two older men inside the room.

Your members and Chan's stood up to greet the three as JYP told the Stray Kids to continue eating as your group start to prepare for your performance in front of him.

"I want to see the dance performance that you prepared, Y/n-ssi. Sorry for the sudden announcement of your evaluation, you needed to be verified that you're qualified to become the part of ITZY," JYP explained your situation while Ryujin went to the computer to prepare your music.

You saw Chan at the corner of your eye as you assured the CEO that it was okay and asked you about your performance in your lessons. You couldn't bring yourself to smile at the man who was talking to you, so you just nod and answered his questions before he asked you to move towards the mirror to look at your performance.

You walked towards in front of the mirror and looked at your friends who was cheering you silently, smiling at you as your eyes landed on Chan, which you shrugged and close your eyes to yourself focus on your performance.

This is what you've been waiting for, now those emotions that you can't express, you can finally show it to them. You should be nervous performing in front of the owner of the company, but you let your emotions take over you, letting everything go and make sure that Chan is listening.

Do you remember you remember (Said)

Remember what you said (Said)

You started talking to me

As if you would give anything to me

Don’t you remember you remember

Remember what you said (Said)

Then you changed

As if you took special pills

Cast blue, my blurred vision

Is this true? You won’t regret this?

My yesterday, my boo boo boo

Lonely life, I like it

I swallowed the water, I got cold

I want you to be ruined, I won’t hold you

You were my yesterday, my boo boo boo

Lonely life, good bye

You look at me with cold eyes

You see me and turn as if you didn’t know me

I just stand here vacantly

I see you who I didn’t know

I can’t help laughing

Now I don’t know you anymore

I’ll forget you woo woo woo

Go away, don’t even look back

I’ll erase you woo woo woo

Go away, don’t even look back

The mixed emotions that you've been bottling in from the events hours ago has suddenly came over to you. You suddenly felt like a new person, you feel like you were the only one watching yourself dance into the rhythm.

When the music stops, you hear applause from your right side, realizing that they've been watching all along. After you give your bow, JYP confirmed that you will be debuting as the 6th member of ITZY and will prepare immediate comeback for your group. You give your thank you's and bowed at your choreographer and the CEO, who is now exiting the room, leaving you with your members, Stray Kids and Chan.

Oh, right. Bang Chan was watching you.

You were pulled into a hug by your members, squealing and congratulating you for being able to debut and join alongside with them. Stray Kids joined in congratulating you for your hard work, but you weren't responding, you weren't happy, you finally became an idol, but why does it feel like nothing?

"Y/n, I'm so sorry please let me expla–"

You turn your back on him and went towards where your backpack is, you took off your in ear monitor and put it inside your bag before you sling it on your shoulder and looked at your friends.

"I'll be going now, enjoy your dinner", you said in a cold tone and walk towards the door.

"Y/n, please talk to me," Chan grabs your wrist tightly with his two hands, you heard his voice shaking, realizing his mistake.

"There's nothing to talk about."

"Yes, there is! Please! Don't leave me, I won't do it again!" You heard Chan starting to cry, your wrist now wet because of his tears falling.

"I only asked you a promise Chan", you said, your back facing him.

"I know, and I am sorry, I wasn't thinking straight, I should've never done it." He pulled you into him, hugging you from behind.

"But please, don't leave me, I can't live without you" he continued as he put his head at the crook of your neck. You hold his arms to let yourself go from him and turn around to look at him.

His black curly locks that you used to play with are messy, his eyes and nose are red because of crying, cheeks that are stained of with his tears, shaking lips as he continue to cry in front of you. Chan wasn't looking at you, he was hanging his head low but enough for you to see his state.

You would've forgive him. But the image of him and the girl earlier keeps flashing back into your head, giving yourself more reason to shut yourself from everyone else.

Now you can't feel anything, you're just there standing in front of him; blank face, your eyes that always holds stars are now just brown orbs filled with darkness and your lips pressed on a line that used to smile back then.

"Then good luck finding a way to live then, Bang Chan Sunbaenim," you bowed and walked away from him.

[luvalymin]

𝟙. these men are still wild after turning 30, can you imagine how they were back then? louie remembers it painfully vivid.

𝟚. after a looong time he finally opened up about his sexuality.

𝟛. he's the most serious and introverted member but the most expressive singing, according to everyone.

𝟜. lowkey highkey scares them.

𝟝. had to always tell them to shut up when they lived together (living alone is like heaven).

𝟞. even though there's no official leader position after jay park left the group, the members think louie act as a leader the most.

𝟟. but still, you do need crackhead energy to be on 2pm so let's say he adapted himself to live on chaos lol

𝟠. japanese fans gave him the nickname "neko" for having the personality of a cat, soon koreans and 2pm started calling him that.

𝟡. they often go to his opera concerts to show support.

𝟙𝟘. the members' daily goal is making him laugh til he tears up, which did happen a few times.

𝟙. tired granpa and tired cat, a perfect duo.

𝟚. "yah, stop bothering louie. he'll get angry."

𝟛. predebut jun.k and louie did not get along as jun.k often broke jyp's rules and louie didn't want to get involved on his mess.

𝟜. louie visited him lots of times during his enlistment, he also goes to all of his solo concerts.

𝟝. the day louie asked him to help producing his first pop solo album, jun almost died of happiness.

𝟙. mom and dad, aka the mature ones.

𝟚. nichkhun is really supportive about his career as a contertenour singer and travelled to new york to watch his performances when louie was studying in juilliard.

𝟛. the only member who reacted with "i know, it's alright" when he told about being gay.

𝟜. "you never talked about women in 10 years, also you were so uncomfortable during our a.d.t.o.y promotions. it was obvious, louie."

𝟝. the calm and quiet duo.

𝟙. the most introverted and the most extroverted, i think y'all know where this is going.

𝟚. it's awkward to talk in korean when they're alone, also taec thinks louie is much funnier in english as he's more sassy and sarcastic.

𝟛. taec discovered that intuitive conversations about not-so-superficial topics tend to last longer than small talk. for outsiders it may seem they have nothing in common, but taecyeon thinks louie is the perfect person to talk about serious matters. i just love their friendship.

𝟜. one time they spent the whole night talking about their careers, family, future and dreams and it's something taecyeon never forgot.

𝟝. not taec laughing like a hyena when louie dissed song joong-ki's italian pronunciation watching vincenzo.

𝟙. prolly the only member who is able to make him laugh without any effort.

𝟚. "i just laughed because i felt bad for you."

𝟛. wooyoung being the bravest member to roast louie for the sake of entertainment (and regretting it 5 seconds later).

𝟜. "guys, hyung is scary :( he just said he's going to throw me out the window if I don't keep quiet."

𝟝. jokes aside, wooyoung is such a precious man and he's in touch with his feelings despite being a clown. he thinks wooyoung is adorable so he just let him go.

𝟙. his least favourite little shit lol

𝟚. well he's a brat towards the hyung line, louie is no exception.

𝟛. junho say he thinks opera is boring, but he actually listen all of louie's albums and will fight whoever says he is not talented.

𝟜. guess who did watch all of junho's dramas and said he prefers the characters over the actor? lol

𝟝. "even seo yul (character he acted) is less annoying than junho."

𝟙. "i raised you well, do not disappoint me."

𝟚. louie really raised chansung. paying his meals, taking care of him, visiting him during his enlistment, bringing food and sending food trucks as a gift when he finishes solo projects.

𝟛. he watches his dramas and is more supportive of him than he is to junho lol

𝟜. "people misunderstand louie hyung as cold but he's actually a good person and look after me a lot, just like a real brother."

𝟝. the hyung who bullies him the least out of the members.

[all-the-kpop-imagines]

Stressed Out || Bang Chan One-Shot

Requested by @deobiworld​: Can I req a fic of Bangchan where he is so stressed out bc jyp reject his songs and he struggle to meet the dateline which leads him to accidentally let his anger out to his s/o in front of the members- smtg like this? thank you!

Pairing: Bang Chan x reader

Genre: Fluff, angst

Warnings: One swear, Chan snapping at reader

a/n: Hope you like it!!!

It had been 8 months since Chan asked you to be in a relationship. Every day of those 8 months had been wonderful. He was the picture perfect boyfriend; he made sure you were eating, sleeping, taking care of yourself. If you were feeling down for any reason, he would basically drop everything and come to you, make sure you were okay. 

But the last few weeks he had been a little more distant than you were used to. Spending more and more time at the studio. Sometimes he forgot to message you until he was waking up the next day. But you weren’t letting any of that get to you. He was a professional who needed to do his job. So you chose to get to know his bandmates a little better. That is what led you to be squished between I.N and Felix as the three of you were playing Mario Kart.

“You can’t win every time y/n! Let one of us win!” Felix exclaimed as he laughed.

“Not my fault you suck at Mario Kart,” you smiled back as you won, yet again. 

“I demand a rematch,” I.N called out and you rolled your eyes.

“Nah, I’ll just beat you again,” you told him as you set the controller down and pulled your phone out. No messages from Chan but a notification saying that he was live on Vlive. “Huh, looks like Chan’s not coming back for a while.” You sighed and clicked on the notification. Might a well give him a view, maybe comment a few times?

“It’s Sunday isn’t it?” Felix asked and you nodded.

“Yeah, slipped my mind,” you shrugged and he nodded. 

“Once he’s done with the live he’ll come back. In the meantime, want any snacks?” He asked as he climbed off the couch.

“Yeah actually,” you chuckled and he smiled before disappearing into the kitchen. It worried you slightly that Chan was still at the studio. It was only about 11pm, but you had hoped he would have read his messages and seen your message about staying at the dorm that night. 

“You okay?” I.N asked and you looked up at him.

“Yeah, just tired from beating your asses at Mario Kart,” you softly shoved him to the side and he let out a laugh. 

“I’ll beat you one day,” he told you and you chuckled at him.

“Sure,” you smiled. Felix returned with a bowl of popcorn and a smile on his face.

“I think we should watch a movie. Let me go get the rest of the band and you can be interim leader until Chan comes back,” he handed you the bowl before he disappeared further into the dorm. You held the bowl and made yourself comfortable on the couch. After a few moments various footsteps sounded and the rest of Stray Kids appeared, quickly finding their seats and getting comfortable.

“We’re watching Avatar by the way,” Felix said as he put the movie in and found his seat beside you once again. Felix and I.N were the two you had gotten closest to as you became friends with the rest of the band and you were glad to have them.

XXX

The movie was nearly over when the door to the dorm opened and Chan walked in wanting only one thing; sleep. He kicked off his shoes and rubbed his face as he walked into the dorm further. He heard the movie playing and let out a silent sigh. When he reached the living area, he glanced in and sighed again before he attempted to sneak past without being noticed. But he wasn’t so lucky when you happened to glance up when you heard a noise.

“Chan, hi,” you smiled at him. He didn’t make any sort of acknowledgement of you as he stood there. Your eyebrows furrowed as you watched him. “Everything okay?” You asked and he looked at you.

“Why are you here?” He asked and you blinked.

“I got bored at my apartment alone so I came over and was hanging out with Felix and Jeongin,” you told him and he scoffed.

“Can’t I have just one thing that is mine?” He asked, raising his voice slightly. Felix glanced up from his spot at his leader and raised an eyebrow.

“You feeling okay mate?” He asked and Chan groaned.

“Am I not allowed to be upset that my friends are no longer just my friends? That now I have to share them?” He sighed. You then climbed off of the couch and walked over to him.

“I can leave if you want me to,” you said and he shook his head.

“It’s 1am. Just stay the night,” he sighed and you crossed your arms over your chest.

“I didn’t mean to make you upset Channie, I just wanted to hang out with you but you weren’t here so I was letting you work and not bug you. Felix and Jeongin kept me busy with Mario Kart,” you explained and he turned from you, making his way toward the bedrooms. “Chan?”

“What?!” He snapped at you and you stared at him. “What do you want?”

“I-I just wanted to make sure you were okay Chris,” you told him quietly. He rolled his eyes and turned to face you.

“I am fine. I am always fine. Just, stop asking me questions,” he rambled to you before he disappeared into his room, leaving you standing there. He had never raised his voice at you before. Sure you’ve had arguments, but he never raised his voice once.

“Do you want manager to drive you home or are you staying?” Felix asked and you sighed. 

“It’s 1am, I’m going to just sleep on the couch, let him cool off,” you muttered as you turned back to the band.

“Maybe go try talking to him alone first? Don’t just let it simmer,” Han suggested and you nodded. As you made your way to Chan’s room, you could feel yourself getting anxious to see what was really wrong with Chan. A soft knock on the door and you opened it slowly, in case he had been changing.

“Chris? Can we talk?” You asked and saw him sitting on his bed with his head in his hands. After closing the door, you walked over to him and sat down beside him.

“Am I a bad songwriter?” He asked you after a few moments of silence.

“No, what would make you think that?” You asked him and he looked at you, eyes red from crying.

“If I’m a good songwriter, why does jyp keep rejecting my songs? I’ve been trying for weeks now to write the songs for the next album but they just keep shooting them down. Have I suddenly become bad at writing?” He rambled on and you rubbed his back.

“No, you are amazing at your job. Writing, producing, performing. All of it. Just, maybe take a step back for a few days and then go back and try writing it again? Don’t think that just because jyp wants to reject it right now that it’s a bad song. Cause it’s not, I’ve not even heard it but I can tell you it’s an amazing song,” you chuckled and he stared at you.

“I’m sorry for snapping at you in front of the band,” he apologized and you shrugged.

“You’re stressed out. Just, next time message me and I’ll come to jyp and you’ll take a break or something okay?” You asked and he chuckled with a nod.

“Aye aye captain,” he smiled as he kissed the side of your head.

[peekbackstage]

Hello. At first let me thank you for your blog. I mean your posts and opinion as an insider is so interesting to read, it’s like you let us see a little more in this entertainment industry. After reading some posts I can now clearly see why so many stars live hard life, often have anxiety and even suicide thoughts. I mean their life seems to be fully controlled until they become really “someone” in this industry. Does it mean that until it happens they will do anything their company want and have nothing to do. I mean even if they get hate, they should pretend like they don’t care and can’t even say something against haters. My question is so random, I’m sorry. I also wanted to know, why so many singers and idols go acting even if they know many will hate it, they know they will get comments like “idols don’t let real actors to play”. I’m not sure about c-ent as I’m new. But I saw many such comments and reactions in Korean media. So why do they do it? Will they earn more money than being a singer or? Why not to try acting then? Why do they try to become idols? I mean there are so many talented singers and trainees who want ro sing. But eventually we see that many people who debuts as idols soon or later give up singing and try acting. I was just wondering. Thank you in advance, sorry if my question is too obvious. And better late than never. Happy New Year :)

Disclaimer: The following post is informed by my own experience working in the music industry. Chinese industry practices might vary.

In Asia, the world of entertainment tends to be pretty tightly regulated. It’s generally pretty difficult to get a foot in the door and even more difficult to actually “make” it. This post is going to mostly discuss Korea and Japan’s industries, as I am most familiar with those two markets. 

LET’S TALK A BIT ABOUT IDOL HISTORY! 

(Skip this entire section if you aren’t interested in history.) 

In 1962, Johnny Kitagawa, the CEO of the entertainment company, Johnny’s & Associates, launched Japan’s first boy band, Johnnys. While this group saw some minor popularity, it paled in comparison to the group that is often considered to be Asia’s “first” idol group, Four Leaves, who debuted in 1967. 

Four Leaves was a project composed of bishounen (pretty) boys who sang and dance but didn’t play any instruments. They were hand-selected and trained by Johnny Kitagawa himself, who largely focused on the artists’ personalities, attributes, and physical characteristics. 

Four Leaves’ success was so great that Johnny’s sought to replicate it, creating the first idol (aidoru in Japanese) training camp system which is the foundation of all idol companies these days. Just like idol companies today, Johnny’s selected young bishounen boys who were admitted via an audition process, and then placed them in a dorm together. There, they would train as Johnny’s Juniors (aka trainees) until they were ready to debut. 

By the 1980s, Japan had quite a few idol management companies (jimusho) that wanted to replicate Johnny’s success. By that time, the idol industry had matured, and the training camps had become extremely rigorous, Olympic-style singing, dancing, acrobatics, etc. all for the sole purpose of improving stage performances. By the time SMAP debuted in 1988, the system was already in place. But what SMAP did changed the game entirely: they launched their own variety show, effectively putting themselves into every Japanese household and endearing themselves to every single Japanese housewife. 

This caused their popularity to skyrocket, which in turn led to the creation of the ecosystem we now all know: the all-encompassing idol who sings, dances, and acts in tv shows, variety shows, plays, and films. Brand deals and endorsements also really took off during this time, especially with the most popular member, Kimura Takuya. 

(It must be noted that SMAP became very popular not only in Japan, but also all over Asia!) 

By this point, South Korea was taking notice, and by the 90s, debuted their first generation of idol groups, which included the likes of H.O.T. and Shinhwa, who all went through more or less the same style of training that Japanese idol jimushos put through trainees through. 

It must be noted that during this time, South Korea was pretty invested in trying to find the right secret sauce to also debut their artists in Japan, given the mature idol market there. S.M. Entertainment succeeded in doing this with their second generation artists, BoA, Super Junior, and TVXQ, by partnering with Avex Entertainment in Japan. (They even went as far as debuting a visual kei idol group, TraxX, which was actually produced by Yoshiki from X-Japan, to capitalize on the entire visual kei market in Japan.) JYP followed suit with Se7en and Rain, and YG Entertainment debuted BIGBANG and 2NE1. 

During this period of time, it must be noted that the big talk of the town was surprisingly not pop internationally - it was actually Jrock, which had a big surge of popularity in overseas markets between 2007-2009. (Hence S.M.’s desire to debut a visual kei idol band in Japan.) The Hallyu wave hadn’t really started yet, but within a matter of a few years, Kpop was suddenly the hottest new thing just about, well, everywhere.

In fact, it was so popular internationally, that by 2013, Kpop had become the #1 biggest contributor to South Korea’s GDP. It was so important to South Korea that the Ministry of Culture, Sports, and Tourism established KOCCA (the Korean Content Agency), which began heavily investing in the export of all things “Hallyu,” but especially Korean music. International industry conferences worldwide suddenly started to see the rise of Korean showcases, which took place literally everywhere. KOCCA was determined to export their idol culture all around the world. 

To capitalize more on international success, companies such as S.M. Entertainment and JYP began to incorporate Chinese members into their groups. This was specifically to give them a foot into the massive Chinese market, which, until the Hallyu ban in 2017, had a massive demand for all things Kpop. 

It was around this same time that TFBoys in China debuted. The industry largely considered them to be the first real homegrown mainland Chinese idol group that rose out of a similar training system used in both South Korea and Japan. 

HISTORY LESSON OVER! 

Why did I feel the need to explain all of this history, you wonder? Couldn’t I just answer the question in a straightforward way? 

Well, not really. It’s pretty important to understand that oftentimes, in the industry, idols aren’t seen as true artists - they are actually seen more as manufactured cultural products. The more products there are (i.e. music, acting projects) the more money there is, which in turn leads to more opportunities. When they are just starting out, idols never get to pick what activities they actually participate in - especially if they haven’t yet established themselves as very successful artists. 

And even when they are established, oftentimes, an idol company will push an artist to try expanding/broadening their various creative outputs with acting. Why only sell music, when you can make money through tv and film? 

Add in the additional benefit of not having any risk at all involved in said tv/film project and it’s win/win for the company - because they aren’t putting up any money upfront to produce and market the project. 

Companies want their idols to pursue acting gigs because it increases the market share for the artist and more opportunities for their artist to create new fans who might discover the artist through the drama or film. This tends to be a big part of the idol ecosystem, though it must be noted that not all idols do go down this route if their company determines that their music products might generate far more money than their acting products. 

This is especially true for rappers in particular, whose solo musical releases might not generate as much fanfare (or as much money) as an acting gig - especially in South Korea, where there is already a very mature, established Korean hip hop genre with plenty of very established hip hop artists. (There’s also a very popular hip hop competition show, Show Me The Money, that regularly features celebrity Korean hip hop artists.) 

Sometimes, it just makes more sense to take acting opportunities, as they can generate better income than music. 

Talented singers sometimes might also choose to go the acting route for the same reason - also because opportunities keep coming across the desks of their managers, who sometimes talk them into the projects. Other times, it may simply be that once an idol tries their hand at acting, they realize they have a real knack for it and end up wanting to pursue more acting projects. 

In any case, there isn’t a single, universal reason why idols choose to go from singing to acting, but there is a universal reason why all idols inevitably do make the switch: money. 

And for companies in particular, acting projects their artists star in are 100% pure profit with zero financial risk. 

In any case, quite a few artists started out in music, tried their hand at acting, and then continued to do both. We see this especially with artists such as Vanness Wu, IU (Lee Ji-eun), and BLACKPINK’s Jisoo, who are all still active in both acting and music. 

I hope this massively long post was informative and also helped answer the question, “Why do idols go from singing to acting?” (I also hope I helped explain the way the idol ecosystem works and how it all started!) 

Thanks for the questions and for reading.

Edit: Oops, I totally forgot to answer the question, “Why do some people become idols?”

The answer is pretty simple: it’s really hard to get into the entertainment industry, and many people see idol factories as a straightforward roadmap into a career in entertainment. While it isn’t the only way into entertainment, it often is the path many artists do ultimately choose to take. 

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Stray Kids Reaction to S/o Being a Ballet Dancer

A/n: I'm assuming this means like pointe dancer and/or principal dancer??? Anyway!!! Hope you like it bb!! I had fun doing this one!❤❤❤

Requested by: @desertofdessert​ (thank you bb! feel free to request again! this was so fun!!)

Chan:

Chan watched you gather up stuff and put it in the huge dance bag you carried. Unfortunately, you couldn’t spend Chan’s day off with him. It was just one of those times when your schedules didn’t match up. Chan totally understood. If you managed with his busy schedule than he could deal with yours. He also understood the expectations you were under as a principal dancer.

While he never was in the position himself, he has taken many ballet and modern dance classes when he was in Australia, so he knew how intense your job was. He also knew how short your performing career might be. “Why don’t you come with me?” Your voice brought him out of his thoughts. 

“To practice? Won’t I get in the way of the others.” 

You shook your head and tossed an extra water bottle over to him. “I’m just going for a solo run.” Chan smiled and jumped off the couch, following your out the door and to the studio your company rehearsed in. He watched in fascination as you stretched and slipped your pointe shoes on. For the next hour, Chan sat against the mirror and quietly watched in adoration as you danced across the floor. 

“You wanna try?” 

You had the brightest smile on your face as you pulled him up from the floor. You guided him through some steps and giggled as his technique was a little rusty. The two of you danced and laughed for the next couple of hours. You caught his eyes in the mirror as he held your waist to support your feet transition. A blush crept onto his cheek when you reached behind you and ghosted your hand over his cheek, coming down off your toes.

You did so in a way that was so graceful and almost like a dance move in itself. It sent chills down his spine. He loved seeing you in your element. You turned into a different person when you were dancing, he loved seeing you confident and moving without hesitation. He loved seeing your smile as he assisted you through a posse turn. You practically lit up the entire room.

I cant believe some people forget Chris has some classical dance training. I love thinking about him as modern dancer like wow

Minho:

Being a dancer himself, Minho loved how passionate you were about your art. He loved that he could have someone to go to the gym with and would understand having to go on crazy diets. It definitely helped his motivation with you to keep in him in check and vice versa.

However, what he didn’t like was your schedule. Usually, he came home late, and you left home early. He wasn’t the most touchy-feely person, but he did miss seeing you sometimes. So, he made a commitment to you that he would soon regret. There Minho was. At the studio with you. At five in the morning. “Only for you.” He muttered under his breath for the thousandth time. 

It was really his idea. So he was to blame. He was the one who asked you to teach him a routine. However, he had no idea spinning on his bare feet would hurt so much. “You wanna try a lift?” You said coming beside him, resting a hand on his shoulder. 

How were you not out of breath??????? Minho was sweating buckets under his jacket. “Hell yeah!” Why did he say that? That was not what he meant. He meant no. He meant let’s go back to bed like normal people. You explained to him how to do a pretty simple lift and how to get out of it. “Hold up. You want my hand where?” He asked with a mischievous smirk. You rolled your eyes and shoved him lightly. 

“It’s a simple move. Let’s try just once- without the coupe turn.” 

Minho laughed and nodded. He followed your instruction, watching in the mirror. As directed he placed his left hand around your abdomen and this right secured tightly over your right thigh. “Okay and now you lift up and dip.”

“Which way?”

“Forward and down. Duh.”

“DOWN. WHAT IF  I DROP YOU ON YOUR HeAd??”

“You’ll do fine, Minho.” Carefully, he lifted you and he was surprised feeling the muscles of your stomach tighten and hold yourself up in his arms even as he dipped you. “See! You did awesome.” You laughed when you saw his terrified face in the mirror.

Changbin:

Changbin was ecstatic when he found out you were a ballerina. He was so proud of you. After that, he never missed one of your shows. He was always seated front and center with the goofiest, most proud grin on his face waiting for the lights to go down. He also makes you sign his program for every show. He keeps every single one of the programs and he says he wants to make a collage to frame for you.

He does worry about you often, knowing how strict your career is. He knows your schedule almost better than he knows his own. He’ll constantly check up on you and send you a text reminding you that you have to change out your toe pads and drink water.

You smiled hearing your boyfriend’s ringtone as you exited the rehearsal room. “Hi, Binnie! Where are you?” You giggled hearing he was waiting outside for you. He greeted you with a sweet kiss and wrapped his arms around you, blocking the cold air from penetrating your thin sweater.

“I’m buying you dinner. Let’s go.” He grabbed your hand and dragged you to the nearest hole in the wall restaurant he could find. He frowned when you ordered so little to eat. He sent you a stern glare as the waiter took away your menu. You couldn’t help the laugh that escaped when you saw his face.

“Bin, I’ve got a dress and corset to fit into! Don’t worry, I remember our rule.” When you and Bin started dating he came up with this rule he was adamant you follow, especially while you were prepping for a show. He had a rule that you couldn’t walk away from the table if there was still food on your plate. He instituted the rule when he figured out you weren’t finishing meals the closer a show was.

Towards the end of your meal, you smiled as Changbin placed a generous piece of his food onto your plate. You picked it up and ate it gratefully. You frowned when he placed another piece on your almost empty plate without looking up from his food. Again you ate the food, honoring his rule. This time your boyfriend held eye contact with you as he dropped a huge piece of food on your plate. 

“YAH SEO CHANGBIN!”

“WHAT?”

Hyunjin:

When Hyunjin met you he was instantly fascinated by you. When he found out you were a professional dancer the man was immediately whipped. However, he was so obsessed with the fact with the idea of being the perfect dancing couple he forgot to ask what kind of dancer you were. 

You had nothing to do today. Hyunjin was busy with schedules today and couldn’t come over. You had an audition coming up for the lead in Cinderella so you figured now would be a good time to practice. You had bought this apartment specifically for the fact that the living room was huge and had nice real wood floors. 

Pushing all the furniture out of the way you cleared a large enough space to dance in. Pulling out your semi-new pointe shoes you started prepping them. The room started to smell a little like burning fabric as you burned the frayed edges of your ribbons. A rich sound rang throughout your apartment as you banged the pleats of your shoes on the floor. 

Music filled your apartment as you went through your audition routine. You focused on your turnout, keeping it perfectly positioned throughout your movements. You pushed up on relevae and into an arabesque keeping your core tight and leg high and elegant.

“Hey Y/n, Surpris- HOLY WHAT THE GOOD CLEAR PANTS OF JYP???”

You turned to find Hyunjin staring at you with his jaw dropped in shock. Turning off the music you walked over to your boyfriend with a smile and kissed his cheek. He still stood frozen like the drama queen he was. “Hi, honey! How are you?” He blinked and stared at you. He stepped away and took in all of you, his eyes lingering on your shoes. 

“This is not what I expected......but I am so impressed right now.”

You smiled and pulled him down to kiss you, but he stopped your motion. “Nuh-uh. That’s cheating. You gotta work for it now.” He smirked down at you. With a giggle you rose in your shoes and kissed him, tangling your fingers in his soft hair.

Jisung:

Your relationship with Jisung was almost as old as the both of you. You had always been friends since before you could remember and Jisung could even remember you telling him about your very first dance class. You remembered him kissing you after your first lead performance and his cheeky smile when you and to stand on pointe to reach his lips at the time. 

Jisung loved to watch you dance. It was maybe one of his favorite things in the entire world. He was always proudest when he was watching you float across a dance floor or stage. He was captivated by how powerful you were and what you could make your body do. However, there was another side to it...

“Ji...” You said walking through the door of your shared apartment. Hearing his nickname he jumped off the couch and took your bag off your shoulders. As the days grew closer to your shows he made sure to always be home before you. Even if that meant him getting up at three or four am to go back to the studio. You kissed his cheek with a huge grin and watched with adoration as he put your stuff on the table and picked you up and hurried you over to the couch as carefully as possible.

“Baby, I’m not glass. I can walk!” 

“WE MUST PROTECT THE MERCHANDISE OKAY!”

When you were seated he grabbed the several ice packs from the freezer and made sure that he had enough to switch out later. You giggled watching him scramble to take care of you. Carefully, he took off your sneakers and winced at the red spots on your ankles and feet. “Ji- I can ice my own feet. I’ve been doing it for years-”

“LET ME TAKE CARE OF YOU, WOMAN!”

You laughed and pulled him to your lips by the collar of his shirt. You loved that he knew your schedule. Even before you had moved in together Ji had known your schedule after ballet. Ice, eat, ice, stretch, ice and review rehearsal footage, then sleep. “How was your day?” He asked pecking your lips again. You smiled and looked into his soft brown eyes. 

“Fantastic now.”

Felix:

Felix and you had been friends long before he made it big in the music industry. He always knew you danced, but until you started dating a couple months ago he had never really taken an interest in your dancing. Not because he didn’t care. He was just so god damn busy. He felt kind of bad that you didn’t even expect him to take an interest. 

You never asked him to come to a show. You never really talked about rehearsals unless it conflicted with setting up a date, and you never danced in front of him. So, he was determined to change that. You came to the JYP practice room straight from rehearsal as Felix had asked. 

You greeted the boys as the left the studio and found Felix standing by the mirror messing with his phone. He jumped when you wrapped your arms around his waist. “Ready to go, Lix?” You asked after kissing his cheek. “Actually,” He said turning around.

“We are gonna have our date here. You are gonna teach me about ballet!” You laughed and kissed him with a bright smile. You knew he wouldn’t last more than two hours. An hour later, Felix had shed his hoodie and was sweating through his tank top while you stood happily in your leggings and pointe shoes. You had to admit he was doing better than you thought.

“Oh my god! How do your feet open like that, you mutant!” Felix cried out trying to stay in first position. 

However, when it came to actually dancing, Felix was fascinated. It was so different from how he danced. Felix had surprisingly good extension and he got some pretty good air on a couple leaps. And he loved watching you dance-especially when you went up on your toes. He thought you looked beautiful and elegant. 

“That’s it I can’t take it. Take me home.”

“Great! Now I can teach you the second half of ballerina life.”

“What’s that?”

“Ice.”

I've low-key wanted to do a Felix ballet au bc gosh darn he is just so elegant and wooooooooww ballet!felix

Seungmin:

Seungmin loved watching you dance. The two of you didn’t live together yet, so he took every opportunity to see you dance anytime he could. He came to all of your shows and you practically had to kick him out of your closed rehearsals. For his birthday (per his request) you choreographed and performed a routine to his favorite Day6 song. 

Date nights for the two of you usually happen after your rehearsals end and consist of your icing your body on the couch with Seungmin next to you, either watching a movie or talking and eating takeout. 

“Seungmin? Are you here?” You called out into your apartment. Sounds from the kitchen confirmed the presence of your boyfriend. “Minnie?” You dropped your bag by the door and took off your shoes. Seungmin shuffled out of your kitchen with two mugs of tea in hand. 

“What are we doing tonight?” He asked, setting the tea on your coffee table. He sighed when he saw the innocent smile on your face. “Really......again?” He laughed when you nodded excitedly. 

“Fine.”

You cheered as he went to get ice packs and you pulled up Centerstage on Netflix. Seungmin was a good sport. This was probably the twenty-sixth time he had seen this film since dating you. He knew that the movie made you happy, especially if you had a rough day at rehearsals. 

“Man,  Cooper gets douchier and douchier every time we watch this.” Seungmin sighed, his arm around you. 

“Yeah and Charlie gets dreamier and dreamier.”

“What?”

“What-”

Jeongin:

Jeongin watched the video you sent him with a huge smile on his face. You were on tour with your company, so you couldn’t be with him for a few days. Even though you were still in the country, he really missed seeing you. 

It was so weird for him to not pick you up from practice. His eyes twinkled as he watched you dance across the backstage area of a venue. He smiled when he saw you rush back over to your phone and wave to him with a happy grin. The video was sent two days ago. You had talked earlier that day but he still missed you. 

“Jeongin,” His attention snapped away from his phone and to Chan towering above him. His hyung helped him stand up and clapped him on the back. “Ready to go back to practice?” Jeongin sighed and nodded. “Hey, I’ve got a surprise for you,” Chan said running to his bag. 

“Chan I’m just kind of depressed with Y/n away for so long.” 

“I know. That’s why we are going to Y/n’s next show.”

Jeongin’s eyes widened as he watched Chan pull out two tickets to your show, Giselle. After practice, Chan drove the two boys two hours away to your venue to see her perform. Jeongin watched you dance across the stage with bright eyes. He loved watching you become the character of Giselle, though he couldn’t help but be a little jealous of the man who played your fiance.

When he and Chan surprised you backstage, you jumped into his arms and kissed him all over. “Innie! You came!” He smiled and wouldn’t stop talking about how fantastic you were. 

“Y/n! Oh my god! You were so good! The whole leap thing, and your turns! And the thing with the lift- it was so cool! You did incredible baby!”

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Masterlist

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Girl Groups #2

TWICE

TWICE is a 9 member girl group under JYP Entertainment. The group consists of Nayeon, Jeongyeon, Momo, Sana, Jihyo, Mina, Dahyun, Chaeyoung and Tzuyu. They debuted in 2015 with the song called “ Like OOH-AHH”.

TWICE was one of the first Korean girl group I ever got into. For almost 4 years they were doing cute concepts which I usually hate, but when I listened to their songs I felt so energized and I really fell in love with the cuteness. Since 2019, they are doing more mature concepts, but I still love them the same as I did before.

Red Velvet

Red Velvet is a 5 member girl group under SM Entertainment. The group currently consists of Irene, Seulgi, Wendy, Joy and Yeri. They debuted in 2014 with the song called “Happiness”.

Red Velvet was the first-ever Korean girl group I got into. I first saw them at MAMA back in 2017 where they performed "Peek-A-Boo", which is still my favorite song of theirs. 

Red Velvet debuted as a four-member group, but Yeri was added during their first comeback.

After their "Bad Boy" comeback in early 2018, I started to drift away from them but came back quickly when "Psycho" was released. 

Unfortunately, one of the members, Wendy, had a very bad injury last December when she fell off from the stage. Her injuries included a pelvic fracture, a broken wrist, and a cracked cheekbone, all on the right side of her body. Ever since then RV didn't have a comeback, Irene and Seulgi debuted as a duo, Yeri has been modeling and Joy had acting jobs and was featured on some songs.

WJSN

WJSN (Cosmic Girls) is a 13 member girl group under Starship Entertainment. The group consists of Exy, Seola, Xuan Yi, Bona, Soobin, Luda, Dawon, Eunseo, Cheng Xiao, Mei Qi, Yeoreum, Dayoung and Yeonjung. They debuted in 2016 with two songs called “Mo Mo Mo” and ”Catch Me”.

I fell in love with WJSN because they have the most inspiring lyrics ever. Listening to their songs gives me courage and strength.

Since 2018 WJSN has been promoting as a 10 member group. The three Chinese members went back to China. Cheng Xiao was a mentor of a survival show and now she's acting, while Xuan Yi and Mei Qi joined a survival show, and were in a Chinese group for 2 years. As of now, it seems like unfortunately, they won't come back to the group. 

PRISTIN

Pristin was a 10 member girl group under Pledis Entertainment. The group consisted of Nayoung, Roa, Yuha, Eunwoo, Rena, Kyulkyung, Yehana, Sungyeon, Xiyeon, and Kyla. They debuted in 2017 with the song called “WEE WOO”. They disbanded on May 24, 2019.

PRISTIN is the perfect example of when a company ruins a group's carrier. PRISTIN's 2017 debut was surrounded with high expectations. The group had two former IOI members, so everyone paid attention to them. They won every rookie of the year award, but their youngest member, Kyla was fat-shamed by Knetz so she went back to the US at the end of 2017. After that, Pledis debuted a sub-unit called Pristin V in May, 2018 but then forgot about them. Their disbandment was a big shock and heartbreak for me. 

HINAPIA

HINAPIA was a 5 member girl group under OSR Entertainment. The group consisted of Minkyeung, Gyeongwon, Eunwoo, Yaebin and Bada. They debuted in 2019 with the song called “DRIP”. They disbanded on August 21, 2020.

I was very excited when I heard that four former PRISTIN members will debut together again under the name HINAPIA, plus one new member will also join them. Unfortunately, because of COVID-19, their company went bankrupt so the girls didn't renew their contracts and the group disbanded 10 months after their debut.

Weki Meki

Weki Meki is an 8 member girl group under Fantagio. The group consists of Suyeon, Elly, Yoojung, Doyeon, Sei, Lua, Rina, and Lucy. They debuted in 2017 with the song called “I don't like your Girlfriend”.

Girls’ Generation

Girls’ Generation (SNSD) is an 8 member girl group under SM Entertainment. The group currently consists of Taeyeon, Yuri, Hyoyeon, Sunny, Yoona, Tiffany, Sooyoung, and Seohyun. They debuted in 2007 with the song called “Into The New World”.

Tiffany, Sooyoung, and Seohyun left S.M. Entertainment on the 9th of October, 2017 but for now, their departure from SNSD wasn’t confirmed.

SNSD aka the Nation’s Girl Group. 

LOONA

LOONA is a 12 member girl group under Blockberry Creative. The group consists of Haseul, Vivi, Yves, JinSoul, Kim Lip, Chuu, Heejin, Hyunjin, Go Won, Choerry, Olivia Hye and Yeojin. They debuted in 2018 with the song called “Hi High”.

Cherry Bullet

Cherry Bullet is a 7 member girl group under FNC Entertainment. The group currently consists of Haeyoon, Yuju, Bora, Jiwon, Remi, Chaerin, and May. They debuted in 2019 with the song called “Q&A”.

Rocket Punch

Rocket Punch is a 6 member girl group under Woolim Entertainment. The group consists of Juri, Yeonhee, Suyun, Yunkyoung, Sohee and Dahyun. They debuted in 2019 with the song called “Bim Bam Bum”.

BVNDIT

BVNDIT is a 5 member girl group under MNH Entertainment. The group consists of Yiyeon, Songhee, Jungwoo, Simyeong and Seungeun. They debuted in 2019 with the song called “Hocus Pocus”.

GFRIEND

GFRIEND is a 6 member girl group under Source Music. The group consists of Sowon, Yerin, Eunha, Yuju, SinB, and Umji. They debuted in 2015 with the song called “Glass Bead”.

STAYC

STAYC is a 6 member girl group under High Up Entertainment. The group consists of Sumin, Sieun, Isa, Seeun, Yoon, and J. They debuted in 2020 with the song called “So Bad”.

Purple Beck

Purple Beck is a 5 member girl group under Majesty Entertainment. The group consists of Yeowool, Yerim, Layeon, Mini, and Seyeon. They debuted in 2019 with the song called “Crystal Ball”.

CRAXY

CRAXY is a 5 member girl group under S.A ITAINMENT. The group consists of Woo-Ah, Karin, Hyejin, Swan and ChaeY. They debuted in 2020 with the song called “ARIA”.

aespa

aespa is a 4 member girl group under SM Entertainment. The group consists of Karina, Giselle, Winter and NingNing. They will debut on November 17, 2020 with the song called “Black Mamba“.

Failure or success with this whole AI thing? I guess we will see it in a couple of days. As for now, I'm not really into the idea.

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My Girl; Bang Chan One-Shot

Genre: Angst

Synopsis: You start to drown in your college work, and as a result, question your credibility and worth. Luckily, your boyfriend comes home just in time to catch you as you fall and remind you of who you are and what you’re worth.

Warnings: Self deprecating thoughts, mentions of nudity, established relationship.

A/N: Hello! This is my first work published here, and I’ve debated posting this for a few months, but figured if it gets no traction at least I had the balls to post it. If you have any feedback or want me to write something for you, don’t hesitate to send in an ask, or comment, or even DM me! I hope you enjoy!

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You had always loved your balcony. Your french door balcony was your release. It was your relief from the world’s problems and your escape from any stress or tension you ever had. You had come onto this balcony when you had fights with your parents or friends, when you needed relaxation when doing homework, when you had a bad day at college or work, or when you found yourself longing for your boyfriend, Chan.

Chan. Christopher Bang. God, you loved Chan. He had asked you out in sophomore year of high school after you two met in middle school, and you two had been a team ever since. You two had the same friend group, watching as people came and went and cried and laughed together for almost ten years now. You two had gone to great lengths for each other, never giving up on each other or your relationship. You never knew how you got lucky to be able to know the man for almost a decade, let alone call him yours for a little over half that time. And he felt the exact same way about you. You were his world, his light, his muse. He admired how you carried yourself, always holding your head high and looking for the positives in any given situation. You always found something good to say, about anyone or anything. Even the most despised teachers on your college campus had been spoken about in a light manner from you. It was incredible how you could do something so easily that not many people can do with ease like you do. Yet, he didn’t see you breaking. 

You hid your bad days from Chan. You trusted him with everything you had in you, but he was the leader of an 8 man group that was currently on a steady incline in fame. His group, Stray Kids, was constantly releasing content, let alone music, and he had a hand in producing almost all of it. Plus, you can’t forget about all the variety shows the group does, the interviews, the music show performances, and not to mention his weekly Vlive show “Chan’s Room” he does on Sundays for Stays that last almost 2 hours sometimes. You went with them every chance you got, as you two were public for a while. JYP himself had come to accept the relationship. Mainly because he saw how much talent and potential Chan had, but he refused to break up with you for his career. You three compromised, and every day after college you go to JYP entertainment and help around as much as possible as your end of the deal. JYP told you a few years ago it was no longer necessary, but you insisted. You knew how much of a risk he took letting Chan date you through his trainee days into debut, and you felt like you owed the man a lot, even if he overworked your boyfriend and his group. You also went in because you got to see the boys often. You had grown a huge soft spot for them all, especially Jisung and Jeongin. 

Your dedication to your end of the deal, however, is the reason you’re on your balcony at 1:48am in the freezing rain. JYP told you to take a few weeks off to focus on your studies as he was sure you were falling behind, and falling behind you were. You had a massive stack of work that was overdue, and another of stuff that’s due soon. You had always been good at your studies and well advanced in education, but even this was overwhelming for you. It’s not like it was hard, it was all rather easily. However, even looking at the stack of work piling into both your laptop and at your desk made you uneasy and lightheaded. You had already eliminated half of the stack within the last 3 days, but it was so much. You wanted to hide from the world and shut it all out, run away from it all. The demons in your head constantly were at war. Convincing you that you weren’t worth Chan or your scholarships, that you weren’t worth the risk taken on you by JYP, that you weren’t worth being so close to such kind and selfless souls as Stray Kids. That you were a failure. That you should’ve been kicked to the curb by your lover long ago and he should be with someone far more better than you. It didn’t help that your boyfriend hadn’t been around for a day or two, having to spend more time than usual on producing for the group and making sure choreography was being made for the comeback that would be announced in a few months.

You leaned against your balcony’s railing, your hair sticking to your face as the flannel, Chan’s flannel, was sticking to your small frame along with the rest of your clothes. You didn’t hear the front door to your apartment open, didn’t hear the footsteps coming down the hallway, didn’t hear the voice calling out for you, didn’t hear the bedroom door open, didn’t realize you had tears cascading down your face until you felt a warm and slightly calloused hand brush against your cheek, wiping away one of many droplets, rain or tear, before two arms wrapped around your body, immediately filling you with a sense of safety, warmth, and peace of mind.

“Why are you out here in the pouring rain, baby, and how long have you even been out here? Your clothes are completely soaked through. Talk to me, my girl.” The second name made you crack a small hint of a smile. You always loved when Chan called you his girl, it reminded you that he was your home, and that you were the luckiest woman in the world. You sniffled, only realizing you had been crying for a while when your nose was stuffed from crying, placing one of your hands gently on Chan’s arms and rubbing soft circles on the skin with your thumb.

“College has just been rough, Channie. That’s all it is. I have it handled.”

“You clearly don’t if you're in the freezing rain unconsciously crying, my love.” Chan tugged you inside, ever so grateful that your bedroom was carpeted as you two walked in soaked. He asked you to go into the bathroom and get undressed for a warm shower, grabbing a pair of panties and one of his shirts for you since he knew how much you loved wearing his clothes when you were upset. You did as he asked, knowing he was tired from work. He walked in and undressed with you, turning on the shower and getting the water to a desirable heat before helping you in, getting in behind you as he grabbed the shampoo and started scrubbing your hair gently. 

“Seriously, Y/N, what’s wrong? You know I won’t judge you, whatever it is.” You sighed and rubbed your arms, still warming up from the cold outside. 

“I’m overwhelmed with college. I’m way more behind in work than I realized, and even though I got through so much work while you were gone, it’s still so much, and that’s without what’s not past due. Looking at all of it makes me feel uneasy, like I’m a failure for having that much backwork. I don’t feel like I deserve you because of it. You work so incredibly hard, for the boys and for us, and here I am struggling to get my shit together like a responsible adult before graduating college this year.” Chan couldn’t help but frown as you told him your honest feelings. He was grateful that you didn’t hide stuff from him often, especially when it got really bad, but he also felt his heart ache at your pain. You were his best friend, his girlfriend, his partner in crime, and dare he say his soulmate, and he had seen you basically grow up. You were his other half. You both had similar work ethics and similar viewpoints in life, which meant you both tore yourselves down when you didn’t succeed how you wanted, and sometimes you both forgot that the other would never love you any less for not jumping over a hurdle with ease. 

“My girl, your struggles will never make me love you any less. You’ve always been my number one supporter, and I will always be yours. Your struggles are what make you human, and what make you who you are. And I love who you are. I still can’t fathom how I’m able to call someone who’s as understanding and patient as you. Anyone else would’ve left as soon as I started working the way I do, but you stayed. You stayed because you know that this is my dream, and you’re willing to live my dream with me. I couldn’t be more proud of how hard you work. You’re a full time college student, work part time at the company doing basically everything, you help me care for the boys, and tend to me when I’ve had a bad day at work or get stressed from being unable to finish songs. You’re truly amazing, and I couldn’t ask for a better person to call mine than you. The boys love you, and I love you a million times over. I could never be ashamed of you, or disappointed in a little bump in the road. You’ll always be my everything, understand?” Chan rinses your hair before turning you around. Hot tears start streaming down your face again, this time mixing with the warm shower instead of the rain. You gently wrap your arms around your sweet boyfriend, squeezing his torso as he can’t help but smile and hold you against him. His fingers comb through your hair gently, knowing that’s your best relaxing tactic. Your breath is shaky as you look up at him, nothing but appreciation and love in your eyes.

“I love you, Chan. I’m so lucky that you’re a part of my life. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to put into words how much you mean to me and how much you’ve influenced me over the years.” Chan’s smile only grows at your words, knowing that you’re going to be okay. Chan’s been your rock for what feels like a lifetime. He’s not perfect, and neither are you. Neither of you expect the other to be perfect. The two of you have always only asked for the other to try, and try you do. You both steady each other, make each other whole. Any one else would see your position, bare bodies embracing the other as a promiscuous moment, but to you two, it’s another moment in your relationship that makes you realize how much you love the other. There will be more, much more for you two to face, but that’s for another day. A day that will end with the both of you hand in hand ready to face whatever the world throws at you once more. A day that will only make Chan more certain that he wants to marry you, have kids with you, and grow old with you. That he wants you by his side when his group makes it even bigger worldwide, when they eventually disband, when he retires from the entertainment industry, when he only writes songs for you as gifts. When he releases his first love song inspired solely by you, when his best friends get married, when his parents are no longer a part of this world. He wants you, only you, forever you.

“I love you too, my girl. I’ll always be the luckiest man in the world, as long as I have you by my side.”