#GIVE ME MY WORDS DAMN IT >:(!!!

[clumsypuppy]

horrible truth bomb dropped on my head 20 min ago

[random-cockroach]

My brain malfunctioned and I was digging in MTMTE the whole day, forgot to blink, kicked pillow 8 times and was talking with my reflection 6 times

Ended up with 60+ screenshots of nerds being socially awkward/abnormal/straightforward because we use books to talk, not people, silly, cool or sweet, or just facts ahah

[writingdevil]

Hello there! Just wanted to drop by and say that your writing is very lovely! I loveee how you characterize everyone and the way you write is very compelling! <3

As for a request, anything with Paranoid will do! Buuut it's alright if not! I just really wanted to say that your writing is peak. Thank you for your time, oh great sage of stories!

(Thank you!! You're very sweet!! Also, you've given me the perfect chance to write about a ship that's grown on me- parastubb, so I hope you enjoy this ship!)

Stubborn's realised something as of late.

He usually doesn't dig too deep into things, more concerned with the heat of the moment and chasing thrills whenever he could.

But after enough times of it happening, even Stubborn couldn't be blind to it any longer.

Stubborn's a big guy. He knows it, the flock knows it- he's one of the biggest and strongest members of the flock.

That often meant that he was the one doing the heavy lifting or the fighting whenever a princess decided to test them, which Stubborn was more than happy to do.

Stubborn- liked being a protector. He liked knowing that he could keep his flock safe and happy. The fact that they all could turn to Stubborn to get stuff done and know that he could accomplish it- it just made him feel nice, for some reason.

He will admit, he can be a bit aggressive when it comes to verbal fights or heated arguments within the flock. It was one type of fight that Stubborn couldn't punch his way out of, but he sure as shit was going to try.

But because he's so zoned in on the arguing, he hadn't actually realised the other thing he had started to do.

Sometimes, when arguing got too out of hand, and voices were booming around the room, Stubborn would be engulfed in frustration and petty anger, and then someone would randomly snap their arms out in a wild gesture- and then Stubborn would hear someone yelp and rush behind his body for protection.

Stubborn didn't know when it started. He's no stranger to being protective of his flockmates. He's lost count of the amount of times he would carry Broken to bed, or drag Contrarian away from a dangerous stunt at two a.m. Stubborn wouldn't let them be idiots and get themselves killed.

But this was different.

The first few times it happened, feeling someone tremble and clutch at his back feathers, he actually thought it had been Hunted, who wasn't a fan of noisy environments in general, but Hunted would always rub his forehead or bury his face into Stubborn's feathers to feel safe, and he hadn't felt that in those moments during the arguments.

But then one time, he heard a yelp from behind as someone shouted, and the undeniable sound of, "Heart, lungs, liver, nerves."

It had been Paranoid hiding behind him.

That hadn't been too much of a surprise. Paranoid was a jumpy bird after all. But what surprised Stubborn was how much Paranoid rushed to him for protection.

He did it every time.

Paranoid was jumpy, but he was also argumentative- he wasn't one to back down from a fight either.

Stubborn confronted him about it one day. He caught him alone on night and just asked, "What's up with you? Usually you're always snapping at the others for being fucking idiots."

Paranoid had flushed, all his thin feathers fluffing up, and Stubborn actually thought he looked kind of cute with his feathers all standing up like that.

Paranoid avoided eye contact, staring at the ground as he stuttered, and Stubborn knew better than to snap at him, so he waited, until Paranoid eventually managed to get out, "Everything gets too much sometimes. Too much thinking,too much feeling, too much shouting- it all just makes me want to shut down."

"But I don't want to leave," Paranoid explained. "I don't want to run away while everyone else fights for the flock. I want to stay."

Then Paranoid finally met his eyes, and Stubborn's breath hitched at the fire he saw in them.

He looked beautiful.

"Being behind you makes me feel safe and it makes me feel brave at the same time. You're such a brave and confident guy that it just- blocks out all the noise and fears, and it makes me feel strong in return."

Stubborn wasn't sure why, but hearing that he made Paranoid want to be braver, made something light flutter within his chest. It was different than a rush of adrenaline or the thrill of a battle. It was somehow softer, but more powerful.

Stubborn said he could keep hiding behind him.

So that was how it went for awhile- whenever the flock inevitably had another fight, Paranoid would get overwhelmed and rush behind Stubborn, and then would work up the courage to argue from the safety of Stubborn's body.

It felt nice- comforting even- to feel Paranoid's body behind him, to know that he was there and safe behind Stubborn, and hear his voice loud and strong amongst all the other racket.

Paranoid was a different type of strength, and everytime Stubborn felt his palm flat against his back, it somehow felt like it was grounding Stubborn. He couldn't explain it, but he liked it.

Then he realised that he might've liked it too much.

One day, they were all having a fight about something that Stubborn couldn't have cared less about, so he just zoned out, arms crossed and focusing on the feeling of Paranoid pressing up against his back, when he suddenly caught a few words aimed at Paranoid.

He tuned back into the conversation, just as he heard someone say to Paranoid, "You can't do much either! All you do is not trust anything and-"

Suddenly, Stubborn had heard enough in that moment.

A rage that felt entirely new in that moment overtook him, and Stubborn growled and bore his teeth out at the crowd around them, snapping an arm and a wing out to fully shield Paranoid from their verbal onslaught.

The words were pouring out of him before he even had time to process them, "Don't fucking say that shit about Para! He's stronger than any of you spineless idiots just by saying a few words! I'd like to see you all try and take him on!"

Silence- enough for Stubborn to realise what he had just said, and for his face to heat up.

But the thing that really sent his mind into a frenzy was feeling Paranoid practically hugging him with his warm face pressed against his backside, right inbetween his wings.

Stubborn had no idea what to do, but then he saw Hero give him a soft smile and direct the conversation away from them.

As soon as the conversation ended, Stubborn felt a burning need to be close to Paranoid, to bask in his quiet strength and never leave him alone again. His head was spinning with many desires, and Stubborn wanted to satisfy them all, and Stubborn's always been greedy.

He met Paranoid right where he had first confronted him- pacing up and down the hallway of their bedrooms.

It was little awkward, he'll admit, having to lean down and mumble sorry to Paranoid for embarrassing him in front of the flock like that.

But then he heard Paranoid giggle- a sweet, light, and carefree sound- and then he felt a hand cup his cheek, and Stubborn found the courage to look at Paranoid's face, to find him smiling, so soft and loving and nervous- and when he leaned up onto his tiptoes to press a kiss to his cheek, Stubborn felt his knees buckle.

Instinctively, Stubborn's arms reached forward, and his hands settled on Paranoid's hips tentatively.

Paranoid leaned back, and their gazes lingered on one another, and then Paranoid whispered, "Thank you for being the courage I need."

Stubborn chuckled, the sound coming out breathless, and he grinned, their lips grazing, as he replied, "Trust me, you're braver than fucking any of us, sweetheart."

He heard Paranoid's breath hitch, and then their eyes met- and it felt like a jolt of lightning coursing through Stubborn's veins, and this was one thrill that he hoped never faded away.

They both leaned in, and their lips pressed together so softly, so gently, and it sent Stubborn's mind spinning, almost moaning instantly at the feeling.

Soon though, they grew hungrier, and the kiss deepened, with Paranoid wrapping his arms around Stubborn's neck, and Stubborn lifting Paranoid up while wrapping his arms around his waist, and Stubborn wanted to chase this high forever.

They could be each other's strength, Stubborn decided.

[0bticeo]

writing's haaaard anyway have a sneak peek

coming your way sunday

[thatneoncrisis]

crazy how barbie was simultaneously a really thoughtful and reflective movie about her legacy and how she can grow past it, a mid movie that just kind of parrots the most inoffensive introduction to feminism ass points about how its really hard to be a woman and all women on the planet have Definitely felt this specific emotion before, and a fun but brainless movie about the kens seizing power in barbieland bc they recognized their status as secondclass citizens and accessories which is resolved by placating them with a single seat in congress because women are obviously better equipped to lead. 6/10 movie

[lukolabrainrot]

That Damn Polaroid™ (and Some Thoughts on the Events in April/InStyle Stunt)

This polaroid... Nicola, Nicola, Nicola 😂

This polaroid still gets me today. Like, yes, this was for PR to some extent, BUT this was also SUCH a public statement. We know N has her phone ALL THE TIME. And (from what we know) the picture was on her phone for WEEKS (MONTHS technically). L appeared fine too with it being there (at least from what we know in the interviews where they talked about it). And that wasn't just like a cutesy little picture of two friends/coworkers. It was a 🔥/powerful pic. And as I mentioned here, N uses pictures as a way of communicating with others. And her excuse that she just "didn't have any pockets at the time", so she put the photo there (and proceeded to keep it there for MONTHS) 🙄 Sure Jan... So, with all of this context, I'm first going to talk about some of my thoughts on what was going on between L/A between the end of February to beginning of April, what was going on between L/N in April up until the Italy stops (including thoughts on the InStyle Stunt), and then at the end I will talk about my thoughts on WHY N had that photo on her phone for such a long time and the deeper meaning it might have had then just promoting the show.

Heads up, this is going to be a longg post...

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I think this post from @newghlan pretty much sums up what I think was going on between L/A during end of February to early April. There was MAJOR flirty energy between L/N during the VDay event and BAFTAs. I talked a little bit here about how there was a very brief clip from the BAFTAs where they look like they got caught when they were embracing each other. I highly recommend checking out the video if you haven't already, because the noverbal cues speak VOLUMES. And it's just interesting that they would look like they got caught at this public event? It read to me that for SOME reason, they did not want that small clip to be captured and put out to the public 🤔

My theories are that by the BAFTAs, A was NOT happy about L/N's chemistry and connection. Maybeee L promised to redirect his attention to A, which is why L wasn't seen at/didn't go to the Big Mood premiere, and why L took A to LA with him and agreed to the InStyle Stunt to appease her. I've never doubted that L has probably had feelings for A (although I still think it was/is fairly casual), but like tbh, I'm CERTAIN his feelings for N are SO MUCH DEEPER. So when those feelings came flooding back when they did reshoots in December 2023, and then had to proceed right into working on promotion in January (which I think just made all the feelings stronger), I feel like he probably had some guilt because he was TRYING to explore his relationship with A. BUT L was reconnecting with N, and I think emotionally, that's where his heart is at. And A noticed this, so she was upset (which honestly, is understandable imo- some of A's actions though because of these feelings she was having I definitely don't agree with). I think L was unsure though about going there again with N, and so he wanted to prove to A (and SPECIFICALLY to himself) that A was the one he wanted to be with. So he focuses his energies on A, agrees to the InStyle Stunt so she gets SOME kind of public acknowledgement (which was a BIG goal of hers in the relationship), and tries to distance some from N. That didn't reallyyyy work though, and then we got what we did for the rest of the tour between L/N.

Before I get to my thoughts on April between L/N, I want to list some specific timeline things around the InStyle Stunt:

L does the InStyle interview (in LA I believe?) near the end of March (so that's when L/A were in LA)

A posts the LA photos on her IG on April 7th and April 14th (and L likes these posts)- I believe she has since deleted another set of these LA photos, so idk what date she posted those photos (sometime in early April though I believe)

The InStyle article comes out on April 29th (with the accompanying Polaroid pics that prove A was in LA with him- this also confirmed that L had coordinated these photos with A to acknowledge (without publicly acknowledging) that he and A were an item)

L posts the non-polaroid photos from the InStyle article on his IG on April 29th (and N likes the post and comments (on April 29) "Yess dude!!")

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April/Early May Between L/N

L/N attend the Bridgerton Season 3 London Photocall on April 12 (which is where the photo above was taken AND where the infamous polaroid was taken). Earlier that day (I believe), L/N also did a series of interviews for the show, and those interviews had some SERIOUS flirty/sexual energy to them (including one of L's (not so subtle) butt pinches with N). I would highly recommend rewatching those interviews if you haven't. If anyone has the links to these particular interviews (N is wearing the same necklace, and L the same tank top and jacket that they are wearing in the picture above), please link them in the comments below.

L/N are at events in Bowral, Australia from April 21-23

L/N in Milan May 9 (with the interviews where they are disconnected and likely beefing)

L/N in Verona May 10 (and they are all cutesy with each other and seem back on the same page)

So here are my thoughts (and why the InStyle Stunt/article might have come into play as to why they had been beefing in Milan):

As I mentioned, I think L was TRYING to distance himself some from N in March and refocus his attention on A. However, I think that pull with N was still really strong, and BTS they were still having to see each other and communicate in order to prepare for their upcoming promotional events. My guess is that all this sexual/flirty tension was building up between them BTS in March, which is why they were soooo unhinged in those interviews before the London Photocall on April 12. I also think early April is when L was starting to realize that his feelings for N were coming back full force, and was maybeeee getting a little green light from N that the feelings were reciprocated (but they weren't actually addressing it because I think they were scared/nervous). However, I think they continue flirting with each other in April (maybe secretly through messaging, and also when they were in person).

Note: We also have to remember that L gave those polaroids to InStyle (most likely) at the end of March when he did the interview. Therefore, the InStyle Stunt was set in motion by that point. I've been wondering though recently, if he had known what was going to happen between him and N in April and early May, if he might not have gone along/set up the InStyle stunt 🤔 Just some thoughts I've been having...

Then we get to the Bowral events near the end of April (BEFORE the InStyle article comes out though, confirming L had coordinated this with A), and it seems pretty obvious to me that L is trying to test the water with N and see how she's feeling about them (they are both being a little publicly flirty, but L much more so imo (N still seems to have a lot of her walls up in public)). It makes sense L might be hesitant to open himself back up to N when, as I talked about here, I think he got his heart broken a little by N. However, I think N was starting to open herself up to the possibility of really trying with L (because I think she has ALSO loved him for a while, but just was never in the place to really commit to the relationship for various reasons). I think she was finally feeling though that she was ready to give this relationship a serious shot, but knew L was kind of in a relationship. I think N was under the impression though that it wasn't super serious, so I think she was hopeful she and L might be able to figure it out.

A lot of people have been commenting that the InStyle Stunt/article wouldn't have upset N because she would have already known about it because of the pictures A posted in early April. I disagree. Now, we obviously don't know 100% if N knew that L was going to add those polaroids to the article. Tbh, we also don't 100% know if she even knew about the pictures that A posted of the LA trip (because I don't get the sense N exerts a whole lot of energy and time following what A does). Yes, N commented and liked L's post on April 29 related to the InStyle article. However, that does not confirm that she had already read the article. And she wasn't going to unlike and remove her comment, because fans would have noticed and flipped out. I am more inclined to believe that she really wasn't aware that this was all going to go down, mainly because I think L didn't want N to know/was trying to be sneaky about it. I think once N figured it all out after the article came out, the thing she was most upset by was how this article proved L had coordinated with A to indirectly publicly announce that they were an item (while L was continually putting out to the press at that point that he was single). Therefore, I think N was pi**ed because she didn't want this to impact their tour/her (their) public image. And secondly, I think she was upset because of the feelings she was having for him, and how flirty he had been with her the last few months. I think it all caught N off gaurd, and her walls went WAY back up. And we have to remember that this all happened just a few days before the Milan event, so I think that energy between them just spilled over and resulted in their very disconnected nonverbal cues in Milan.

I talked a little bit more about my thoughts on Italy here, but I think after L/N got back on the same page emotionally, it was pretty much game over emotionally with A for L. His heart wasn't really in it anymore (and tbh, I don't think it ever really was). Also, I've said this multiple times, but Italy is when N starts posting the "boyfriend pics" of L (which L obviously agreed to). Personally, I think N (and indirectly L) were sending a message to a certain someone 🤔 But just a theory... I have also already talked about it here and here on my theories on why L was never going to be able to publicly untangle himself from A for a while, regardless of what was going on BTS with L/N.

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What Could be the Deeper Meaning Behind the Polaroid?

So, my point with everything is this. I think early April was a MAJOR turning point for N in terms of her feelings/emotions for L. Here are my thoughts (outside of PR) on why N put THAT Polaroid on her phone from the London Photcall event on April 12 (and for MONTHS):

First, we need to acknowledge that L obviously approved of this photo being on her phone (or at least was complicit to it), which I think speaks VOLUMES about where L was at emotionally with N at the time (and where L WASN'T at emotionally with A). This confirms to me that things just weren't that serious with A, even if he was TRYING to refocus his attention on A. L's heart was still with N.

N wanted people to know that they were a unit through this experience, and that N truly loves him and their friendship/connection. She wanted to share to the world how special he AND their experience on Bridgerton is to her.

I think she put that SPECIFIC picture on her phone because her feelings were STARTING to change for L around this event/that general time period. I think N was starting to see L in a bit of a new light (in a positive way), and was seeing some real potential between them.

Lastly, I think one of the reasons she kept the photo on her phone for so long (outside of the PR), is because her walls were starting to come down, things were getting more serious between her and L, and she was happy (and she wanted the public to know 😉). And L/N could kind of hide behind this unspoken public narrative that it was just for "PR" (which I NEVER bought).

Now yes, she has since changed the polaroid. However, we have NO idea what the photo is of now (or if she is consistently changing it out/or completely changed her phone case). She knows our obsession with the Polaroid though, so I think she likes to tease us about it. She knows what she is doing 😉 That OG polaroid though during the PR tour had a MUCH deeper meaning than just promoting the show, and was a significant public statement about her relationship with L. Just my theory though...

[buwheal]

...Unfortunately, no. I don't doubt that you hear something, but we can't hear anything on our end. What does it sound like?

(If you’re going to help out, it’d great to also add something to distract him :-) )

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Happy very belated birthday.. I hope you had much time celebrating by digging for tubers : )

I'M DIGGING FOR TUBERS! AND NO ONE CAN STOP ME!

[avocado62524]

[cali-kabi]

~ Little vent callout (you can ignore or read it if you want I’m just so paranoid)

6 years ago when I made my first art account on insta, this user found my art account and keeps asking me and harassing me and my mutuals to make free art for him. (I dislike a certain pokemon falinks because of him) He’s such a manipulative and guilt tripping jerk. And when he messaged my tumblr a few days ago he’s STILL trying to get me to forgive him. Like I almost had a panic attack had anemia back then (I went to the doctor/hospital a few times because of my stress) and I feel like you want me to forget the harassment you caused me and many others (some people I know deactivated because of you) leave me alone I don’t want to forgive you for the trauma you caused me and many others.

If your mutuals with this person because of their “changed” ways I don’t care I don’t know what to tell you, just giving you a heads up that they still randomly ask you for free art after becoming friends with them. I find that suspicious. Before I blocked them I looked into their profile it seems to me that their still asking for free art (art trades now right after becoming mutuals with the person) (Artists your health is more important) please if this person finds your profile and talks to you don’t talk to them about or even mention me. I don’t want to hear anymore excuses from him. Their new is @/starpoyo99 bluesky and tumblr @/damiankirby99 just please don’t interact to them or talk to them about me.😓

The first two screenshots are from me and bottom two are from my mutual

In this screenshot you see their guilt trip behavior (sorry my words their back then I didn’t know some were typos I was saying I was busy helping my friend out) He has an obsession with me tagging him in my art I TAG MY FRIENDS NOT JERKS

Second screenshot when I mention I was sick I mean I had anemia.

Third screenshot my mutual needed to do commissions and not wanted to doing art requests (free art)

Fourth screenshot (from mutual) Again the guilt trip manipulative bullshit sorry for the swear word

I wish I could share more screenshots but I deleted them and those were way worst than this…

I know this is like 5 years old but this behavior is unacceptable

[woodsborostabathon]

my mom jus sent me this picture from last month of me at jack c’s table when we were right abt to take a picture together and im crying. why does it look like i’m his grandma and he showing me how to work the facebook mobile app or smth 😭

[dafpork]

dafpork is like a modern day speakeasy to me because everyone comes in like it’s forbidden but since it’s the modern day it’s perfectly normal. Little secret club

LMAO YES!!! THIS IS A REALLY GOOD ANALOGY.. AND SEE IT'S SO FUNNY because i'm like I DON'T WANT IT TO BE FORBIDDEN... i'm such an accidental hypocrite in that regard because i'm like "i want more people to talk about them i want people to be loud and proud it makes me sad to hear that people might have been initially embarrassed to ship them there's so much to love :(((( anyway here's my SHITTY ART of these people i HATE i'm so EMBARRASSED thanks for putting up with me in my SHAME CORNER UGH i'm so EMBARRASSED they're so EMBARRASSING i SUCK they SUCK it all SUCKS" LOL and i do mean it in a joking manner... mostly... but i'm kind of now at the point where i'm like. Okay well you're going to have to put in some more legwork if you want people to talk about them. (but, again, just the fact that people talk about and support them enough is so great! it's so weird and wonderful to me that people are calling it on dafpork on platforms other than this one, people who may not know i exist... it's cool hearing a term you and your friend came up with in a private discord be used, it shows how much growth there HAS been since there really used to be nothing!)

a dafpork speakeasy sounds so cool though oh my god can you imagine Porky and Daffy themed cocktails...............

COME JOIN US AT THE DAFPORK SPEAKEASY. which, you are not supposed to advertise that a speakeasy is a speakeasy. but it's subversive. like Daffy. or something. this is your sign to play pig and duck with us. yes you

[moldy-flowers]

Fym "?" Just tell us bitch

[aldisobey]

What. What the fuck DO YOU MEAN you've only been writing fic since Veilguard?

???!!!???!!!!!!!!

And it's so good?????

@excited-hiss

I uh. I’m blushin. My eyes burn. I didn’t consider myself a ‘writer’ until a few months back. Reading this—from you? Meltin. I line tile. now one with grout.

I’ve always written! Always. But you’re only a writer if published right? See I am also dumb. and a coward. And writing a character I didn’t create terrifies me. Because then you can get it wrong? I didn’t make that voice how could I write it?! Fanfic?!! Never. Sacrilege. I’m not even a writer I wouldn’t defile…

BUT EMMRICH. I had to see him. I had to see more. And I wanted to show what I thought HAPPENED. I didn’t have an AO3 account. I worked on that for weeks. The hours would be embarrassing. But that was my first post on tumblr.com. Bless those first likes. I was seconds from deleting. And I would’ve missed all the friendship and community being a WRITER of fanfic of all things brought!! I love you all.

And it’s been so fun to share that and get to see other takes. I worried for nothing. There are no rules. We are all writers if we’re writing and it’s a glorious thing. I don’t know how to put it…but hmm. I love the writing and Emmrook community, sincerely. Earlier hangups scared me off fanfic when it’s all fun.

[flaming-toads]

Welp, my time has come y'all

[starly-amazing]

Well that's the worst one of my fics has ever done. 7 kudos 0 comments

Worse than my rushed 9SxDimitri crackfic, worse than the fic I inserted my friend into to do unspeakable things to Hero omori. 3x worse than an april fools fic which was literally just copypasting the bee movie script with 100 kink tags

I was hoping to get another commission done before posting it here but everyone I've contacted about it has ghosted me so no new art.

Everything is fighting against me regarding this AU so

I give up