#I can’t wait hehe >:3💜💜💜

[casuallycontemplating]

"Scheming"

A 100+ Astronauts on Instagram celebration mini comic!!! :D

Woww guys, thank you so much for 100+ Astronauts on Instagram!! 🚀💜

⭐️Welcome aboard my spaceship through the galaxies!!!⭐️

I’m extremely grateful for what we’ve got going here; I love making art and doing stupid silly shit with and for you guys. I think we’ve gotta bit of an army going on here hehe >:3 I realize that most of you guys are Sonic fans like me, so I decided to celebrate with a mini Shadilver comic 😎✨

Again, I really appreciate you and your support, and I can’t wait to see all the shenanigans we get into together going forward 😊💜

[kaontic]

Sir, we have some questions for you, but first—

(I’m so sorry, you two—)

YAS BITCH RAINBOW WIRES SLAAAAAAAY— 💅

NO NOT LIKE THAT—! (　〇□〇)

*Facepalm* Okay.

(It’s time for more thoughts that are all over the place)

So you were just, sittin' on your aft in a cave, in presumably, the American Southwest (are those saguaros? Interesante… 😶🌵), with exposed wires that I just realized share the same colors as the Well of Sparks—

When you broke outta CC’s crib, in the North???

Now it’s just funny thinkin’ about how Megs made his way down there without, ya know, 6 star wanted level antics.

I mean, there’s def gotta be more to this, even if Megs really was just “wandering” around lol.

(Hehe, robots in disguise~🎶😉)

Like think of how embarrassing that must be for Cobra(-La), if they couldn’t locate + recapture a giant blind robot.

Unless…this is what CC actually wants, so that when Megs finally reunites with everyone else, Cobra will make their move.

Gotta catch ‘em all, I suppose. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Still doesn’t explain how the actual frag Laserbeak seemingly found him so goddamn fast (unless there was a timeskip), so—

Soundwave, you’ve got some explainin’ to do too boo. 😗

Yeah, especially to Thundercracker. 😑

(Side note: he looked extra despondent these past two issues. Prob cuz of him losin’ Shockwave, but also it’s like findin’ Megs was the last thing he wanted to do lmao

Well, that’s what happens when you can’t find your backbone

*Lower voice* Furthermore, you’re one to call others “brutes” when you send out these cassettes you call “family” to do your dirty work

Just somethin’ to think about in the flood of shame you find yourself in)

(˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶)

(Damn, Star! Save the punches for Megs! 😨)

Some extra questions (cuz what can possibly go wrong with askin’ ‘em, right? *Laughs nervously*):

. Y’all worryin’ about Ultra Magnus, but not Jetfire???

Is he dead for good?

(Please don’t let that be the case. He deserves more attention, and he’s got character potential, I promise

If it is what it is tho, can we at least confirm it, instead of makin’ Optimus look genuinely bad rn for this? Otherwise, it’s just a repeat of G1 writing at this point)

. I’m just gonna assume for now that Star had left the cat and the Cobra M.A.R.S. guy behind for (wow, if he even “cares” in that way) their safety, which would be one of the smarter decisions he’s made

Especially since he’s likely stuck until Astrotrain proves that, once again, he’s an MVP

. *Gasp* And Astrotrain has a love that Megs ended????????????? 😱

Oh, you just keep gettin’ better and better— 🩶💜💛

(And frag Megs for makin’ my train man upset like this! 😤)

. Wait Cliffjumper doesn’t wanna go back—?

(Well, I guess this at least means he could run into Springer and Hot Rod in the future)

Update: Oh, he does wanna go back after all…to Carly.

Oops.

(God there’s so much happenin’—)

. So the relationship between Cybertronians and the majority of humanity is officially cooked, right?

And every time Optimus is experiencin’ a crisis there’s gonna be a white background?

I like that. I like white backgrounds :3

. Do you think Roller and the Combat Deck are also experiencin’ the visions and the corruption stuff?

Oh.

Oh no.

Oh to the actual no—

[ryuichirou]

Replies

Some replies about the Ace/Idia drawing from yesterday + some random ones!

Anonymous asked:

can confirm, priapus is really good, the anatomy is spectacular. to think i read it for the first time fifteen years ago and it still holds up. i was a tender 13yo graduating from naruto yaoi doujin.... practicing smushing two bodies is so hard but the result is so hot.

btw, i wanted to share that i asked for a drawing tablet this xmas (since i just graduated from college and have no money) so i can draw my own merch of shroudcest :D if i get good enough, i will come share a sketch nwn since your art helped me on the way to meet other shippers and nice yumeshippers who accept my shroudcest ot3

Oh Anon… reading Priapus as a 13yo would surely be an experience, especially if you read naruto yaoi doujin before… lol I can’t believe it’s already been 15 years!!

I remember Itto saying something about wanting to draw a new issue of Priapus with some other gods (he did one with Apollo!), and we were waiting for some Priapus+Zeus action… but I guess that never happened :”)

Ohh, congratulations on your new tablet!! Please do share, I’d love to look at your drawings <3 I am very happy and grateful to hear that my art could help you in some ways!

Happy Holidays, Anon.

Anonymous asked:

Merry Christmas to you two! The birthday boys art looks incredible. I'm not saying it for horny reasons! Yes, I'm saying it it also for horny reasons. No I'm not. Yes I am. No. Yes. No. No. No. Yes... Anyway, it's really impressive how you were able to organize all these characters in such a restricted space. Idk maybe it seems complicated to me because I'm not an artist, but I was really in awe.

Just for fun I was trying to imagine a similar scenario for the rest of the boys, and realized that by dividing them in two groups between the ones that were born in the first part of the year and the ones born in the middle of the year, you end up with a group that's made of 5 bottoms + Kalim and Ortho. Ortho might need to bring his full arsenal for this... Like a swiss army knife!

Happy Holidays!! <3

Hehe thank you so much!! I am very happy you enjoyed it. I couldn’t stop thinking about putting them all together like this when Katsu joked about this set being two bottoms sandwiching a bunch of tops between them lol I think this is the first time I drew a group thing with that many people… And somehow it went pretty smoothly, I guess yaoi gods were with me that day… But usually things like this really require some thinking and planning, and honestly anyone who does it regularly is just too cool… thank you for your kind words <3

Oh god, Kalim and Ortho with all those bitches around them!! It’s a harem scenario again!! Thank god Ortho has a lot of options, he really do be like a swiss army knife to keep all of the bottoms around him pacified…

But you know, I believe in him and Kalim. They can do that. 💪🥹🔥🔥🔥 (We both forgot Azul...)

Anonymous asked:

Merry Christmas/Happy Holidays! Give the blue boys a hug from me if you can!

-💜🌹

Thank you, Anon! Happy Holidays to you too <3

I love the implication that the blue boys are over here and we can give them hugs… I’d love to honestly…

unofficialwheatdog asked:

Ace is going to smash that box to bits. Also Merry Christmas, you two!

Happy Holidays!! <3

Oh no, he’d better be careful! It says “handle with care” for a reason..! If he wants something that doesn’t need to be handled with care, he should handle Idia.

Anonymous asked:

ace meet idia it is a coincidence or he wait until idia come out then he come and offer help?

>:3c Who knows… that Ace boy is such a sneaky bastard sometimes.

Jokes aside though, I think it really was a coincidence. I think he saw Idia and ditched everything he was doing to pester him, I mean, hang out with him lol

Anonymous asked:

The red(ace) and blue(idia) look nicely together, and you know what I think ace might not actually fuck up with idia i now find myself interested in it

Agreed, this really is a very nice colour combination!

Also you’re right, Anon lol For some reason, with Ace/Idia, it feels like Ace would be that cool kohai. Not like he’s super cool or anything, but he’s so confident and chill in social situations, but also sleazy and cunning enough to be on the same wavelengths with Idia. With Idia he also doesn’t get all tsundere somehow and expresses that he finds Idia cool pretty confidently… what is it about Ace and acting cute for his senpais???

Anonymous asked:

Love it when Ace tries to fuck his seniors

YES EXACTLY. Maybe he’ll get lucky one day… at least with one of them…

Anonymous asked:

"Cardsoljer"

He sure is!

He absolutely is… I’m glad you noticed his super cool brand, Anon! lol

Anonymous asked:

LESGOO MORE ACEIDIA CONTENT IN MY FEED!

HEHEHE YESSSSS I’m glad you’re enjoying it!! <3 I should draw them more!

Anonymous asked:

i go to myreadingmanga but i don't see you? Where are you. Have you make any?

We’re not on myreadingmanga, Anon. 🤔

The only proper dj that I actually drew was posted on pixiv only (for now)!

[cubbieloves]

hi, new mootie! very nice to meet you and can’t wait to get to know you better! anyway, hopefully i’m asking the right blog (you have at least 2, i am taking a gamble lol!) but you get my point haha! mayhaps if it’s okay, top 5 moments or things you like about moze and jiaoqiu? :) (fellow moze enjoyer hehe) anyway, wishing you a wonderful day! if you need anything at all or just want to chat, feel free to dm me (here haha) or come into my inbox! mwah! -Airi 💜 enjoy my favorite hsr memes as a treat hehe~

OMGOMG HI NEW MUTIE AIRI!!! it is so nice to be muties with you!!! i remember reading your jiaoqiu x clumsy!reader ages ago and falling in love with it!!! im so happy that we can be muties now! and yes hueheh this is my main yume blog! (also the memes made me snicker in the cafe im in...)

as for minnie's five favorite moments/things abt moze nd jiaoqiu...

1) i love how jiaoqiu is so observant of even the smallest things concerning moze nd i! this is coming from one of moze's character stories where he notices that moze is silently in pain. hes so observant and i feel he would be the best boyfriend because of that. (AND. AND HE WROTE A LITTLE NOTEBOOK FOR MOZE TO REFER TO ON KEEPING UP WITH STARRAIL. he knows how socially awkward (moze) and shy (minnie) we are and he always does things like that to help us ☹️☹️☹️)

2) for moze i love how he seems very aloof but he actually cares so much. coming from the group chat he had with feixiao nd jiaoqiu where he instantly goes to clean the fish when jiaoqiu asks, and also when he helped find the stray tuskpir in the 2.5 special program, i feel like he would always help you with things. side note his love language i think is gifting.

3) going into headcanon moments with mozeqiumin: mqm did the blind deaf mute cooking challenge once after the entire situation with hoolay. it turned out about as well as you might expect (spoiler it ended with minnie (mute) laughing so hard she started crying, jiaoqiu (blind) nearly getting a concussion, and moze (deaf) having to finish cooking)

4) oo oo heres a little headcanon i love! mqm always go out on little hotpot dates, but after the incident with hoolay, jiaoqiu couldnt eat spicy foods. because of this, mqm instead started going on on tanghulu dates instead. now that he's better, mqm goes on upgraded hotpot dates, now with tanghulu for dessert!

5) my favorite thing tho (and what fully dragged me into mqm) was the scene at the end of 2.5 with feixiao, jiaoqiu, and moze. everytime i watch it i just cry nd think about how much love jiaoqiu and moze must have in their hearts, not only for feixiao but for each other (and for minnie)

[skibasyndrome]

Trick or treats ?

Margot!!!! Merci beaucoup! (especially for that fun gif, hehe)💜💜💜 Sorry for making you wait a day, but here! I brought you a snippet of a yet to be disclosed kinktober fic as a treat:

“Just friends then?,” Simon asks, putting a gentle hand on Wille’s upper arm. Wille can’t deny the small jolt of electricity that sears through him from the careful, but oh so intentional, touch. “Oh, one hundred percent,” [...]

Now what could this meeeaaaaan 🫣🤭 Am I being misleading? Is someone else being misleading?

send me "trick or treat" and get a little fic-related treat <3

[winteryreads]

character propaganda but not any men. everyone should love fugue because 1) she is very beautiful, 2) upon getting a second chance of life after being puppeted by an emanator she was like i think we should kill all the gods 😊 which is an awesome stance for someone who has no fighting background but just earnestly believes we should kill those guys!, and 3) she is very beautiful. also it’s crazy she’s basically yukongs 2nd baby... and looks like yukongs long lost situationship at that like. one million flowers for my sweet girl used as a pawn and came out thinking this will NOT happen again ! to me or anyone!

hi, new mootie, Lyra! hope you’re doing well! can’t wait to get to know you better hehe! thank you for sending in some propaganda! i actually ADORE Fugue/Tingyun and you gave me a couple more reasons to love her (though, unfortunately she’s not on my account SOBS)! she is so so gorgeous, love how you put that entry in twice lmao! XD i totally agree with everything you said and fully support it! one of my favorite things about Fugue is how determined she is, and i think you encapsulated that thought beautifully and perfectly! totally agree! thank you for stopping by and sending some propaganda in (you’re all welcomed and encouraged to send more in, i must know everything hehe!)! doesn’t have to be a male character so i got so excited to see this in my inbox! have a wonderful day or night, my friend! 💜

[iu-jjang]

[FANCAFE] 23.09.18 IU replies to uaena’s comments on her fancafe (Part 1)

IU replying to her own post:

Ah I forgot to mention one thing..

I really wanted to at least attend one of the movie screenings today and do a surprise stage greeting… but there’s a really big scene to be filmed today and I’m not in Seoul right now..ㅠㅠ I tried to arrange my schedule since a month ago, but it’s a scene that many actors appear on set together and matching everyone’s schedules is like catching a star in the sky, so it was difficult for me to meet uaenas today, whatt ㅠㅠ!!! Just saying in case there are any uaenas looking at the door, waiting for me to make my appearance and not being able to enjoy the movie today..

Uaena: I cried so much that I took a crying selca, unnie… if you read this on stage, I would have been submerged (in tears)…

IU: Show us -clap- show us -clap-

Uaena: I’m curious about whether you had your dinner, whether you’re filming right now, whether you’ve been sleeping well lately. I love you.

IU: I just reached my accomodations, washed up and wrote this letter. I’m going to bed now. Tomorrow will be a busy day from early morning to night! Nowadays, the moment my butt touches something, I fall asleep kekekeke 😍 Goodnight!!!!

Uaena: I was looking forward to (your surprise appearance), but it’s ok! We can’t ruin jingjjang’s schedule! Have a safe trip back. You worked hard for today’s momo concert!!! I’m wondering if you saw the uaena waving goodbye to you as you left? ㅠ

IU: Of course I saw all of it 😌 There were many people holding slogans and I saw many lightsticks too, so I put in effort to look at them, but I was told not to open the window for safety reasons, so I couldn’t open my window. Sorry ㅜㅜ

Uaena: -long post which mentioned that uaena’s love for IU is not one-sided but reciprocated by IU-

IU: What do you mean one-sided!!😡🔥🔥 I love you!!

Uaena: Unnie, when exactly do you sleep? Please sleep well! This middle schooler uaena will be going to bed first hehe Have a good night 🫶🏻

IU: Nowadays, I almost always sleep at midnight!!! After my middle school days, it’s the first time I’m having a routine lifestyle again 😍😍

Uaena: I really want to ask whether you think a serious bread includes salty bread. 🤨

IU: Salty bread looks cute, so it’s an excited bread.(TL note: IU mentioned before on IU TV that she prefers sweet bread and doesn’t like ‘serious’ bread like garlic baguette or pizza bread or sausage bread which tastes of food.)

Uaena: Has your skin recovered from the mosquito bite??? I noticed you stuck a sticker to hide it cutely today kiki

IU: … It keeps swelling up..ㅠㅠ I think this evil mosquito released its poison all the way inside my bones (insert mosquito bite selca)

Uaena: Jieun noona, have you watched the show in the movie theatre?! It’s almost like going back again to last year, it’s no joke!!

IU: Have I watched it, or have I not~?

Uaena: I’m curious about the drink you often order from the coffee truck. Please let us know your TMI.

IU: Babamba latte. When it’s hot, I go for ICE, when it’s cold, I go for HOT 😌 (TL note: It’s a mix of chesnut, walnut and milk with some honey)

Uaena: Have you seen the Unique Dayooki (TL note: IU 15th anniv contest on fancafe)?! The creations are hilarious 💜

IU: Uaena are.. really (in a good way) crazy.

Uaena: Unnie, to you what is the most legendary song of Golden Hour?

IU: The 3rd section of the concert is really… awesome…

Uaena: How are things between you and your brother lately?

IU: Getting better as we get older 👍

IU replying to herself:

Ah I really need to go to bed now!! 🐥🐥🐥🐥 I’m really going to bed!!! I’ll be back tomorrow if I have time during my breaks. Today is an important day for us ❤️ Let’s keep the conversation going. Goodnight!!! 😊😊😊

Translated by IUteamstarcandy

Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4

[lipglossanon]

little late but HIIII so glad you’re back!!! i hope you had a very nice break, much deserved :3 can’t wait to see what you’ve got in store for your devoted fans hehe <3

- 🎐

🎐 anon, howdy! 👋

Hey always better late than never ya know 😉 and thank you!!! 🥰 I’ve been feeling all the love and it’s nice 😭 💜

[magicalgirlmindcrank]

oh my god just read dog of war in a day and oh my god i think MY brain was rewired along the way. got some ideas to do with my wife hehe :3 love the work so much, can’t wait for more 💜

Damn the WHOLE thing in a day? It's almost as long as Don Quixote XD We're super happy to hear that though! Means we must've done something right~ Hope you have fun playing some of it out with ur wife :P

[skymoonandstardust]

My dear Hannah,

Happy Birthday!!

I’m sending lots of love your way, and I hope you will have an amazing day 🥰 But I can’t leave like that, oh no, I have a lil birthday delivery for you <3

First we have some cake of course (chocolate obviously),

And then I got you some flowers, because a sweetheart like you deserves lots of flowers,

Yes it’s fall themed hehe

Finally, a certain god asked me to give you this for your special day… so I’ll leave it here <3 He wrapped it himself, too:

I love you lots my friends!! You’re the most wonderful person ever, really 💜 mwah

Thank you Alix!!!

You're too sweet <3

That cake is so perfect! i love it--and chocolate too! my favorite. how ever did you know? . . .it almost looks too good to eat but it would be a crime to waste chocolate lol and flowers too? you're spoiling me!! thank you so much, they're so lovely. the fall theme is spot on.

but wait--what's this?! a gift from loki?!! for ME?? this is too much. i wonder what's inside.

I love you too alix <3 thank you so much for all of this. you're the best, really. my day has been good so far but you defintely just made it better <3

[zoieru]

hi, new mootie! so nice to meet you, can’t wait to get to know you better! you seem so nice and sweet, hehe! anyway, dropping this image off (and a bonus image woah), hope you have a wonderful day! 💜

heh~ hi hi !!

wowee thanks for that lmao, i am a devout member of the church of aventurine indeed <3

it is very good to meet you too !! have a beautiful timezone~

[delugyu]

hehe im back after the heartbroken gyu meal 😁 firstly, hope you’ve been well!! it’s already been over a week since my last ask?? where has time gone :0

dude. so sorry to beomgyu. idk if i manifested his downfall (yes.) or if it was always written in the stars but… so sorry to that man. i mean FUCK i still stand by the fact how you gonna mess around with the reader knowing she’s actively being ✨properly courted✨ by tyun yet think that she’d pick you instead…? idk if gyu would be a pisces in this world but that would be typical pisces delulu land behavior 😭 somehow i still feel slightly 🤏🏾 bad for him after this part..

what im curious about is where does tae come into play here… 🤔 i hope im not getting ahead of myself here, can’t help but be curious!!! there’s no way he doesn’t sense some tension esp after that bar scene in part 4. i feel like he’d be keeping close eyes on gyu and if anything that’s part of why he only posted instead of telling him directly (assuming they were once close friends)!!! where the reader probably felt guilty and didn’t want to say anything, tae was waiting for a like, comment, ANYTHING and when there was none after awhile, he sent him that video or whatever at the end on purpose!!!! ok am i losing it. i think im flying too close to the sun here. omg it’s so late im supposed to be sleeping 😨

as always THANK YOU! for sharing your works with us, wish i could give ur brain smooch 😙💜

— ♐️ stellium anon

i’m doing good!!! lowkey classes have been kicking my ass recently but that’s okay. the last 6 weeks of the spring semester don’t count anyway (deluding myself). hehe how have u been? hopefully school or work or life in general has been treating u well<3

all manifestations for gyu’s desperation and suffering to be turned to the max have been answered 🙏 LMFAO right like he signed up for this when he let mc use him for sex lessons!!! now that she’s with taehyun gyu’s like pause this isn’t what was supposed to happen. DELUSIONAL!!! and speaking of delusional ur so right on that pisces part. likeeee he is living in his own head at this point and that is just such pisces behavior.

hehehe i loveeeee that ppl getting curious abt taehyun cause im dying to bring him in for a longer scene. i’ve been putting off letting him and gyu have a convo abt mc (for reasons explained here) but i feel like for plot purposes its a little necessary now. there’s so much potential for some delicious jealousy and pettiness in that convo *twirls hair* from both sides too eek 🙈 now the competitions really on

but yes!!!!! gyu finding out thru taehyun’s instagram instead of taehyun telling him himself is soooo revealing abt their friendship and im glad u pointed it out! taehyun texts him some funny video link, yet can’t bother to update him on his personal life….. lolllll maybe he learned something after the phone call in part three… taehyun’s a smart guy, it doesn’t take much for him to put some pieces together. then in part four when gyu immediately left the table when taehyun came… and beomgyu doesn’t like or comment on taehyun’s post like he usually would. taehyun’s probably got some gears turning in his head right now. wait omg i finished reading the rest of ur paragraph and u pretty much followed my exact line of thought GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!! lmao u get a gold star ⭐️

the brain smooch has been received and flowers have started blooming all over it omg isn’t this beautiful 🤍 lol thank u so much for coming by this was so funnnn !!!

[millermouth]

Hihi 💜! For the ask game:

Vaguely spoil one of your fics without telling us which one it is.

What two fandoms would you write a crossover for?

What was the last thing you researched for a story?

hi angel girl!!! thank you so much!! 🩷

1. does this mean a wip or is this a fic I already haveeee? We’ll do both just in case hehe.

Spoiler for wip: misattribution theory meets thanatos theory 🖤🥀🩸 (aka turned on by fear, the destructive pull that humans have to danger)

Spoiler for finished fic: Tommy shows up unexpectedly, and Joel thinks you moaned his brother’s name and not his as you’re riding him 💀

2. I mean cmon twd & tlou! Imagine Joel facing the walkers he’d be all “this is all you guys have to worry about? they can’t even run!” and then Daryl realizing how terrifying the infected are in tlou. Like imagine a horde of infected??? How much more terrifying that is than a horde of walkers?

3. The last thing I researched for a story was probably what the hardest vegetable is to grow in a garden for ATR lolol orrrrrr what it feels like to drown for ATR as well!!

Im stuck waiting around for blood work to get done! Send me an ask 🩷

[kitten4sannie]

lyssieeeee 🌸🩷🌸🩷 ~~ welcome back to tumblr lovie we all missed having u here <3 and we can’t wait to see whatever filth u decide to share :3 i love u so so so much 🩷💜💙🩵💚💛🧡❤️🩷 (in a gay way)

ps……… 18 days til kisses >< 💌🍒

my gracieeee 💗🦋💗🦋 awww that’s us ;-; thank you for saying that hehe >< i can’t wait to share more filth with you all either! i love you sooooooo much too also in the gayest way possibleeee dhskdh in fact my love can’t be measured with any human technology we would have to get some aliens to measure it all ^^ ahhhhhh and 15 days now 👀 and we get to see ateez together wtffff this feels like an actual fever dream but it’s gonna be realll dgsjhdhdh it’s all so close i can taste ittttt <333

[engardeitsme]

SHE'S BACKKKK!!!!😭😭💜💜💜 i swear i grinned the biggest grin when i got the notification for this update:'))) and then cursed my lack of free time for hindering me from reading it immediately aksks BUT NOW I'M HERE AND I'M READY FOR MORE YEN/HEIMDALL SHENANIGANS YEEESSSS😌🤭🙌

“I heard you. It’s just a stupid question, so I was allowing you the opportunity to change it.” 

lmao classic heimdall (still love this line hehe<3)

“Didn’t your mother ever tell you not to say things about a person’s appearance they can’t change?

...oh, wait! I guess she couldn’t.” 

RUTHLESS omg

“Yeah well, didn’t your precious All-Father ever tell you-... oh wait, that’s right he’s too busy ignoring you to teach you any manners.”

lmao yeeeessss tell him tell him!!!👏

The wind was knocked out of her as she suddenly hit the grassy floor, and the two were rolling to the bottom of the hill, a jumble of loose limbs and shouting. Their bodies settle at the bottom, and Heimdall and Yen lay sprawled out next to each other.

idk why but this little scene right here gave me the cutest ghibli vibes😭💜 their interactions are just so like, natural and comfortable here, it's like i'm watching a movie while reading haha<3

She was very passionate about her findings, though Heimdall could not stop the sinking feeling of worry. How many times she had gone into the woods alone before he started coming with her.

CUTE🥺

“sure it’s a little risky, but to be able to depend on myself? That’s not something I want to give up.”

very smart, but he's a spoiled prince so i doubt they will see eye to eye here lol

“Eh, sure. Would be better if it did something though. Is it for you to make flower crowns for everyone while they sign peace treaties.”

AKSKSKD little shit...!

“Obviously by the time we will be old enough to go on missions, no enemy will be able to lay a hand on me. So I’ll never be hurt.”

i like that he's so boastful about that, even in game-canon, totally oblivious to the fact that there's more ways to hurt someone than to cause them physical pain...will make for some excellent angst material though, when Yen will eventually [redacted]🤭🤭

“I wouldn’t have to if you stopped and just told me what was bugging you… I didn’t know the old goat had started shutting you out too.”

aww look at him! using his powers for good<3 proud of you boyo (even though he's still mindreading without her consent but at least he doesn't do it to hurt her anymore lol small progress is still progress! ajsks)

“But I don’t mind it anymore…”

MY HEAAAART😭💜💜 it's so full rn but it also hurts so much bc i know what's coming😭😭

“Well, it’s not working. If anything she’s become stir-crazy. I don’t care if she loses control. I can do damage control! What I can’t do, is use a scared little girl that’s too afraid to use her powers, to help me gain control of the realms!

i couldn't not read this in his voice, perfect characterization👏👏

“their reports say she is unable to grasp basic concepts, her understanding of both Vanir and Asir magic is only basic, and she seems to be causing more trouble than the entire debacle is worth. I think you were right before, my son. She’s truly better off back home.”

clever old manipulating bastard.. you can't help but admire him a little for it though lol

Odin’s lip curled into a grin and he hummed, reaching out to grab the pouch.

OK I TAKE EVERYTHING BACK, DON'T YOU DARE TOUCH THAT THAT'S NOT FOR YOU OLD MAN!!!!!😠😠

“You did what?!”

lmao i can perfectly imagine his shocked expression here

a tick she had picked up from the man, gods forbid he ever lost his hands. 

oh you are eeeeevil for this... (loves it though🤭)

“Then why won’t the All-Father show any interest in me? Has he forgotten about me?” She looked up at the man, her eyes pleading. “ Does he not see I’m willing to sacrifice myself to be of use, here? You tell him everything I’ve done right?”

aw nooooo sweet little Yen😭😭 my heart breaks for her

“Of course, Daughter. I tell him all the time about how much you’re progressing.”

ok he may be lying to her here but "Daughter" makes up for it aksks they're so sweet!!!:')))💜 the thought of their potential falling out makes me almost as nervous as hers and heimdalls ngl aksks

“You are fiercely kind in the face of the strange and taxing, you are sharp as a blade and undeniably brilliant. And the All-Father will see so soon enough.”

AWW WHAT DID I JUST SAY💜💜💜 mimir's the best honestly (even though he's lying to her here but only to protect her!!! i get it)

Tell her that everything has a shadow.

mmmm delicious line, probably my favourite🤌🤌

How was a child to know such loose rules would lead mortals to find twisted loopholes? Then again isn’t that what mortals are best at? 

another banger!

“You will be ok, goddess of peace, goddess of logic… goddess of medicine and healing…” She offered, to soften this very blow, “goddess of chaos, goddess of discord.” 

daaaaamn what a way to end it!!!🤯👏

absolutely loved it, the entire chapter. like i see why it took you so long to figure out lol it basically had everything! and at least in my case, i always need to be in a very specific mood to write angst, and in another very specific mood to write fluff, etc etc. haha so yeah, i totally understand, and let me tell you, it's much appreciated!!!💜 like honestly idc how long the next update will take you because if it'll lead to another chapter like this?? that will punch me in the gut while simultaneously making me squeal because of all the cute, and want to cry because of the utter heartbreak of it all, I WILL GLADLY WAIT EVEN LONGER.

love you girlie, keep up the good work~!!;*💜💖💜💖💜

I Am Kind not Complacent Chpt 8

chpt 8

word count: 6K

pairing: gow heimdall x reader, young

A/N: hello, again. it's been a minute. I'm sorry this is late, I have been going through it 👉👈 again! just busy end of the year craziness. also everytime I opened this document it made me want to scream. I still don't love it???? but I guess that's ok. this is for fun and I need to remember that. thank you as usual to everyone who likes and comments and thank you for your patience, I hope you enjoy it <3

P.S: I named our reader for this chapter. Her name is Yen, it's close to YN for ppl who still want to read it that way but is also more of a name for people who have an easier time with that. let me know how you guys feel about it and I can change it or not. i just wanted to test out a "name" to make the writing feel a little less clunky but idk :\

@engardeitsme I'm back!! i missed you :..) i hope you enjoy and thank you for talking with me a couple weeks ago!

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“Why are your teeth gold?”

Heimdall turned his head to look at the girl, a brow raised.

“What?”

“Why are your teeth gold?” The girl repeated, tapping her incisor with her nail. He snorted, shaking his head.

“ I heard you. It’s just a stupid question, so I was allowing you the opportunity to change it.” 

“ Oh,” she took a moment to ponder and spoke again, “Are they solid gold, or are they just gold plated?” She smirked at him. Heimdall rolled his eyes, folding his arms behind his head.

“Didn’t your mother ever tell you not to say things about a person’s appearance they can’t change?...oh, wait! I guess she couldn’t.” Yen’s mischievous smile quickly pulled into a pout. 

“Hey!” Heimdall cackled as a hand came down to smack his chest, and he grabbed the girl’s wrist to stop another blow. 

“I let you get one in out of pity.” she pulled her wrist free. 

“Yeah well, didn’t your precious All-Father ever tell you-... oh wait, that’s right he’s too busy ignoring you to teach you any manners.” Heimdall frowned, looking up at the girl. Yen sighed, shaking her head. “Poor poor Heimdall. You have all the training in the world on how to be a spoiled prince and a warlord, but you don’t know the first thing about how not to be a prick-!”

The wind was knocked out of her as she suddenly hit the grassy floor, and the two were rolling to the bottom of the hill, a jumble of loose limbs and shouting. Their bodies settle at the bottom, and Heimdall and Yen lay sprawled out next to each other. Heimdall looked at the girl, grass in her hair and a smear of mud across her right cheek. She had green stains on her shoulders and pebbles bunched up in the folds of her shirt. He did not look better, with dandelion seeds in his braids and rocks digging into his back. His pristine white shirt was covered in yellow, green, and brown. Their chests heaved and giggles started to bubble before they were both aware. Heimdall heard Yen’s first, her laugh bounding out of her head and out her mouth, between fits of snorts and chuckles. Heimdall found himself mirroring her, his laughter thrumming in his ears as they looked at each other. 

“ They’re solid gold,” Heimdall mumbled through a laugh. Yen calmed her own giggles and nodded. They looked up at the sky, watching the clouds shift past their vision. On slow days they had started sparing together, then stopped to talk, sometimes about how bad the other was, sometimes about how they had slept. Yen would offer a walk into the surrounding wood and the boy would refuse, ending their meetings. At some point, however, he started to say yes, despite the idea of stumbling together in twigs and bushes. At some point in the passing days, when the leaves had started to fall and the air had gotten cooler, they would meet at dawn, walk through the woods into a clearing, lay in the tall grass, and talk for as long as they could before their guardians would look for them. Yen would talk endlessly about her different plants and collect cuttings as they walked. Heimdall had somehow found himself holding her pack for her collected specimens. 

Yen grabbed her bag and sifted through the plants they had found, humming as she sorted them by type. 

“Do you know what those all do?” the boy asked, leaning up on his elbows. 

“Vaguely. I’ve learned about some of them. But I also see what the animals in this area are eating and take them home to test them!”

“Test them?”

“Mhm,”

“Like what, you eat them and see what happens?”

“Sometimes,” Yen shrugged, looking over to see Heimdall glaring at her, “What?”

“That’s idiotic! You could get sick, eating random things from the forest floor,” he shivered at the thought, grabbing the pack. Yen frowned and held it farther away from him. 

“A little late to be worried, Weasel. Besides, I only test what I’ve seen other animals use. Worse case, I induce regurgitation.” The girl explained that this is how she’s been able to make new medicines and learn the toxicity of poisons to develop antidotes. She let him read her notes and the extent of her research on the Asgardian flora. She was very passionate about her findings, though Heimdall could not stop the sinking feeling of worry. How many times she had gone into the woods alone before he started coming with her. 

“ You know we already had a lot of good Asgardian medicine right? There is no reason for you to be doing this.” 

“Well that’s not true, “ she smiled softly, pointing to her older notes, “ I’ve had to do this since I lived alone in Vanaheim. It’s important I know myself. When you are alone, who is going to help you?” she shrugged, “ sure it’s a little risky, but to be able to depend on myself? That’s not something I want to give up.”

“But-”

“Besides,” she held a hand up, urging him to let her finish, “ We will be working together in the future, right? If we end up in the middle of nowhere and you get hurt, I want to be able to help you when we don’t have access to Asgardian medicine.” He faltered. She surely couldn’t know more than their medics. Heimdall swallowed a shallow breath and looked away.

“Well… now you’re just being ridiculous.”

“How do you mean?”

“Obviously by the time we will be old enough to go on missions, no enemy will be able to lay a hand on me. So I’ll never be hurt.” Heimdall smirked and Yen snorted, shoving his shoulder lightly. Heimdall pushed his shoulder back against her hand and she giggled shaking her head. There was silence, and he could hear her thoughts swimming. She wanted to show him everything from the past week, but she felt nervous after their conversation on the medicine. 

“Right then, show me what you’ve learned,” Heimdall sat up, a small smirk on his lips. Yen frowned, sitting up on her elbows. Heimdall rolled his eyes. “Come off it, you’ve wanted to show off your little trick since we got here.” She bashfully sat the rest of the way up, fiddling with her hands. He looked at her expectantly, hearing her nervousness spinning as she siked herself up. “Any day now.”

“Okay, okay!” She grunted more to herself, shaking her hands to loosen up. She slowed her breath, holding her hands over the grass. “Rót,” she whispered, her palms glowing a violet light, the earth rippled apart as a single vine sprouted slowly, winding up and curling around the girl’s wrist and out. Heimdall’s smirk fell and he just stared as the vine wound around on itself. Leaves and small purple blossoms sprouted from it as it grew thicker. Yen let out a final breath, relaxing her shoulders as the glowing stopped and she looked at her creation, smiling as it flexed and relaxed in the cool breeze. Heimdall leaned forward, getting a better look at the plant. 

“ A root?” he asked, reaching to touch it, and had to hold back a laugh when it seemed to reach back out to him. Yen nodded with a small smile. 

“Yeah, cool right?” Heimdall shrugged, his lip once again quirked as he teased.

“Eh, sure. Would be better if it did something though. Is it for you to make flower crowns for everyone while they sign peace treaties.” He raised a brow as the girl matched his grin, raising a hand. 

“Not exactly. “Rót,” She repeated, snapping her fingers. Heimdall barely took in a breath by the time the vine had darted at him, winding around his leg and lifting him into the air. His body spun stiffly in the air as the root suspended him. A hand reached up to his shoulder, stopping the motion, and his magenta eyes met hers. He looked like a carp out of water, trying to come up with something to say. Yen giggled at the boy’s speechlessness. “You shouldn’t judge things at face value, Heimdall. You of all people should know that.”

“Put me down.”

“Oh, but aren’t you having fun up there?”

“Watch yourself, Songbird,” There was no venom in his words. Nonetheless, she put her hands under him, helping him lower back down into the grass. As he brushed himself off, her magic dissipated and the vine shrank back into the dirt. Yen rocked on her heels, a nervous grin pulling at her cheeks. Heimdall shook his head with a snort. “Okay, yes. That was fairly impressive, and can actually be useful.”

“Even though it's Vanir magic?” she shifted her weight, looking at him nervously. Heimdall’s face softened slightly. He had so many preconceptions before the two had met. How they were savage warriors. Stupid, tricky, untrustworthy. She wasn’t like the Vanir people his father had spoken to him about, and Odin wouldn’t lie to him, right? So that meant the girl must have just been different from them. An exception. 

“Don’t make me compliment you again. Once was enough.” Yen knew it was reassurance in his own way, and let it go. Heimdall nudged her shoulder, already starting to walk. “Come on, let’s start heading back.” She smiled and nodded, falling in step with the boy. Heimdall swallowed, his shoulders stiff. “So…what else have you learned?” “Well,” The girl pondered for a moment, thinking through her past lessons. “ Freya showed me how to leave markers to amplify magic, which is pretty neat. But I still need to work on my aim for it. I also know how to grab small objects without touching them now, and I can hopefully do bigger things soon…” She trailed off.

“What?”

“I just… feel like she doesn't want to teach me anymore. She keeps me at basics, but I know I understand it already… I just don’t know if she’s grown tired of it or if I’m just not getting it like I should…” Heimdall frowned. This was not the first time Yen had brought this up. 

“She’s always been a stiff. It’s not you.” 

“It’s not just her though…” Yen rubbed the back of her neck, looking away as the boy stared.” Don’t do that.”

“I wouldn’t have to if you stopped and just told me what was bugging you… I didn’t know the old goat had started shutting you out too.” Yen swallowed a shallow breath and nodded. 

 “He’s just… He won’t tell me much more about the other realms when I ask anymore. It’s like they gave me a hobby and dangled it like a carrot for a horse so they could take me away from some bigger picture…when he and Freya started teaching me about plant life and then left me to my own devices… “Yen plucked handfuls of grass from next to her and dropped it just as fast, over and over until there was dirt under her nails as she spoke. “ I wanted to be useful… I drowned myself in it… I wanted to see if it could help me in some way…Odin came to me, congratulating me on my new ‘goddesshood in medicine” she scoffed as she repeated the words. “...I could just tell he was filled with disappointment… at my uselessness. And who can blame him!”Heimdall rolled his eyes.

“You are not useless. Those two are just holding you back. Don’t blame that on the All-Father.”

“I’m not! I just-” She groaned, raking her fingers through the dirt, “Mimir says there’s a lot I don’t know still…but he’s also not showing me things. he says I’m doing well at controlling my powers but I’m just worried that even if I’m not trying… it’s hard wanting to talk to people and not knowing if they agree with you or being nice to you because they want to or because…” she trailed off, looked at the boy next to her, “I don’t want to be… I want…” she struggled to find her words for a moment, “ I want to earn trust, not take it.” She spoke finally, after trying to catch her words. Hiemdall looked at her for a moment, before shrugging. 

“I trust you.”

“You do?” she asked, caught off guard by the response. “I guess…I just am worried that-”

“That my change of opinion was your doing? Don’t flatter yourself, Songbird.” Heimdall snorted, bumping her shoulder with his own. “Maybe you can control those braindead Einjhar to do your bidding and treat you like a princess, but I’m a god.”

“So?” Yen frowned, glaring weakly at the boy.

“So?” So, I am the god of foresight. I cannot be swayed by petty tricks. I can sense intention, and since the beginning, I have never felt… uh..” his face grew a light pink as he realized his point. She stared at him, a brow raised, waiting for the end of his thought. Heimdall coughed into his hand, feeling the warmth radiating off his cheek, “I’ve… never felt uneasy around you…I trust you… we were using each other, and we still are,” he looked at her, his lips lifting into a shy grin, “But I don’t mind it anymore…”

Yen’s cheeks started to grow red, her eyes widening slightly and she looked away, feeling herself warm up despite the fall air. Heimdall swallowed, walking faster ahead of the girl. 

“Come on, you have your lesson with the old goat and I have a meeting with the All-Father.” Yen grinned. She quickly recovered, coughing and starting a chuckle.

“Oho! So you aren’t being ignored.” She teased, hands crossing behind her back. Heimdall sighed, his hands squeezing at his sides. Odin had wanted to talk to Heimdall about how Yen had progressed, and when she would be of use to him. She caught up the the boy, softening her posture, and nudged him with her elbow. “It’ll be fine. You’ll see. I’m sure he just wants to tell you how well you’re doing!” 

“Well of course, I’ve been doing well in my assignments, it’s just a regular report. Nothing to worry about.” Yen chuckled, reaching into a pouch on her belt. 

“Hey, I know you may not want to. But I’ve been working on this medicine for your migraines.” she held out the little leather sack to him. He hesitated looking to her for some kind of reassurance. Her thoughts were full of nothing but the want to help. “Don’t worry, it’s just Feverfew and Butterbur mixed with some mint and juniper. Steep it and drink a cup before bed.” He sighed and took the pouch, tucking it into his pocket. 

“ You’re pushing this “trust” envelope, and I’ve just admitted to it. I shouldn’t have to take anything for help. I just need to get through it until it doesn’t bother me anymore.”

“Humor me. Try it once, and only if you really can’t handle it yourself. Oh, and if you could maybe tell the All-Father how hard I’ve been working… I would appreciate it…”

‘I don’t want to be left behind.’

Her voice echoed in his head. Heimdall looked at the girl as they split ways in the large cabin

“I will.”

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“It’s been eight months!” Odin’s voice rattled through his study. Mimir stood still, hands behind his back as Odin paced to and fro. Hugin and Munin sat in the rafters, their eyes glowing as they peered down at the men. “ Eight months! And you tell me nothing is progressing with the little thing?”

“Apologies, All-Father, but it appears she is still having a hard time adjusting to Asgard.”

“Pah!” Odin grunted, leaning on his desk. “I’ve seen her, Mimir. She must be holding out on you, or something! Being extra clever. Hiding her powers. Munin has seen her in the woods a few weeks back, using magic. And we know what she is capable of. The question is why is she hiding from us all of a sudden,” Odin paced towards his desk, uncorking a pot of mead. he poured a goblet at held it out to the Goodfellow.

“Ah, no thank you, All-Father,” Mimir waved a hand. Odin huffed and slammed the bottle onto his desk, taking a deep gulp from the goblet. 

“She was doing so well before. I offer her safety, offer her family, I offer her trust! And then her progression just halts.”

“Freya has been teaching her, and she has been practicing. We have both encouraged her not to use any magic until she can control herself.” Mimir tried to reassure him without bringing too much attention to the fact the girl was gifted enough to use magic without help. The two had done their best to hide the progression of her gifts to stop the All-Father’s advances from using the girl. But with how strong she was already getting, it was getting more difficult to hide, especially while keeping her in the dark about the fact she couldn’t show her true potential. It had gotten to the point even Mimir and Freya could not keep up with the pace of the girl’s learning. As though she spent hours outside of lessons practicing the control of her magic.

“Well, it’s not working. If anything she’s become stir-crazy. I don’t care if she loses control. I can do damage control! What I can’t do, is use a scared little girl that’s too afraid to use her powers, to help me gain control of the realms! She tried to use it against me! To get me to, what, compliment my son? useless! Don’t you see? We need to get this under control so we can use her, and so that she will not be a threat. It’s already starting to get out of hand. If only we had tracked her down sooner,” Odin’s voice was rough with frustration as he pulled at the ends of his beard. “ She doesn’t even know the extent of what she is. She’s a silly little child, who sees the world as back and white. And I’d like to keep it that way until she fully trusts us. Then we can finally-” Mimir was about to interject when the door to the study opened. 

“ I’m here for my report, All-Father,” Heimdall spoke with a short bow. Mimir stiffened and looked at the boy from the corner of his eye. The two gods turned to Heimdall, their figures dark and towering in the candlelight of the darkened amber of the study. They knew. They knew he had heard, how could he not? Heimdall stood ridged at the door, his eyes glowing in the darkened doorway. 

‘ The boy will ruin everything,’ Heimdall heard Mimir’s thoughts rattle into his skull. The Goodfellow’s anxiety came off in waves. ‘protect Yen… keep her safe… the lad will say too much…’ 

Heimdall looked up at Mimir, his brow cocked. Keep Yen safe from what? What wasn’t the old goat sharing with the All-Father? His father would be the one who knows best how to protect the girl if she was in danger. Odin straightened, rolling his shoulder back and nodding his head to his son.

“Come in, Heimdall. Mimir, my friend, we will talk more later. You may leave. You have a lesson with the girl now, don’t you?

“Yes, All-Father,” Mimir bowed, ready to take his leave. As he started to shut the door on his way out, Odin called out.

“And Mimir, please try to push the girl further. I’d like for her to be able to aid in the Jötunheim treaties. It's either that, “He sighed, “ or we may have to call the whole thing off… put her back where she came from.” Mimir nodded, hoping that he could keep the visage of the girl’s powers useless just long enough for Odin to lose interest. Odin however knew something was amiss. He knew just from the small passings with the child that she was brighter than his allies claimed. And he knew exactly who to ask to get the feast of information he craved. Anyone would need to be blind to not see that the two children had grown close. The whisperings from Hunin and Mugin of the two sneaking off to the others’ room in the night, to being spotted in the woods. Odin was pleased, thinking his son finally stepped up to the title of his spy and learning all he could about the Vanir creature. Still, he was worried that the girl may have also tricked his son as well, so he needed to make Heimdall give any information willingly. He picked up a scroll and licked the tip of his quill before dipping it into a pot of ink, scribbling away as he spoke to his son.

“I’m sorry, Heimdall, but it seems I’ve called you here for nothing. Mimir has shared with me how our guest has been doing and it seems the lessons aren’t going anywhere.” Odin rubbed his temple, taking a seat in his chair, “their reports say she is unable to grasp basic concepts, her understanding of both Vanir and Asir magic is only basic, and she seems to be causing more trouble than the entire debacle is worth. I think you were right before, my son. She’s truly better off back home.”

“That’s not true!” Heimdall’s voice carried through the room with an echo.  He composed himself, swallowing. Odin looked up from his reports, staring at Heimdall with his good eye, head tilted. 

“Not true?” Well, I will say she has been improving her skills of manipulation. What with trying to use them on me? I wouldn’t be surprised if she’d gotten to you, boy. She’s just not worthy to be among us.”

 Heimdall swallowed. “She has been doing remarkably well, All-Father. I’ve seen it.”

“Seen it?’ Odin replied, pushing himself from his chair. “Tell me, Heimdall. What Mimir and Freya refuse to.”

“I have gained her trust, All-Father. Mimir and Freya are not being fully honest with you…” The boy’s eyes glinted as he looked at his father across the room, “But I’m not sure why, yet.”

“You are suggesting that my most trusted allies are not being truthful with me, Heimdall? This is a very serious accusation, you understand.” Odin sauntered over to the boy, making him take a step back on instinct. He swallowed, pushing himself back forward, hands behind his back. 

“I simply believe she may be… too anxious to show them what she can do. But I have heard from her myself that she is eager to serve Asgard, father. She wants to be of use to you.” Heimdall urged, taking another step closer to his father. Odin hummed, his hand tightening around his staff. Why was the old goat not telling him any of this? 

“Heimdall,” Odin started, stalking closer to the boy. “Have you noticed anything in peculiar about the child?” he circled the boy, never looking him in the eye. “Has she shown you things behind closed doors? Anything of use?” Heimdall swallowed, concentrating on his heartbeat. 

“ She is… she is able to quiet the mind, All-Father…” Odin halted his steps behind the boy, glancing down at him from the corner of his eye. Heimdall continued. “I’ve seen her… calm people, quiet unruly thoughts… I… she’s done it to me, before.” Odin scoffs. 

“I don’t need my soldiers softened.”

“I think it can be of use to you, All-Father.” Heimdall spoke quickly, turning to face the man. “To… to manipulate the other side?” Odin hummed, tilting his staff the boy to urge him to continue. “She also… She also has been studying Asgardian and Vanir magic and has been able to start creating hybrid potions.” Heimdall pulled the medicinal tea from his pocket, turning to hand it to Odin. “She made this, just today… she said it’s for headaches. It’s made from things she studied herself in the woods with the help of Queen Freya’s knowledge. With help… She could use her medicines to strengthen Asgard and weaken enemy forces. I do not know why your allies are hiding this from you, All-Father, but I assure you she is worthy of staying here.” Odin’s lip curled into a grin and he hummed, reaching out to grab the pouch. He took a whiff of the tea. What else were his dear wife and friend hiding? And was it truly even their fault, or was this girl able to weasel her way into their heads?

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“Mimir, did you know that if you mix yarrow with the inner bark of birch trees, it will cure nearly any stomach ailment.”

“Oh? And did the queen teach you that?”

“Well, sort of. She taught me about yarrow but then while I was with Heimdall in the woods we found some rabbits scratching at birch trees,”

“What were you two doing in the woods?” Mimir interjected, a brow raised. The girl frowned, as she thought this unimportant to her explanation. 

“We were brambling,” Yen said, as though this were a normal thing for two twelve-year-old gods. “So anyway, I told him, “Wonder why they’re doing that” but he didn’t seem to care. But I kept watching them and they were licking at the inner bark! so then I collected a sample and see what it could be used for, and guess what!”

“Wait wait, you tested this on yourself?”

“Well I didn’t want to poison anyone,” she shrugged, then pointed at her findings. “look see? I tested it with different plant combinations and by itself.” she rolled her sleeves up to reveal some light scares. “I tested to see if it could used for physical injuries, but it didn’t do much. So then I thought, “Maybe it’s for internal problems?” so then I ate some nightshade berries-”

“You did what?!”

“It’s ok, it was just a couple-”

“Lass, lass…” Mimir rubbed his face, trying hard not to shout with frustration. She truly had turned into quite the little scientist, and though most of the time Mimir found her brilliant, it was not hard to also easily find himself drowning with worry. Like when she had measured the amount of toxicity needed to be consumed from said nightshades to cause death and even made some medicines from the poisonous plant as well. All this to say, this was not a special occurrence, but it worried the Goodfellow just the same every time. “You are… quite the little toxicologist,” he chucked through his nervousness, reading the girl’s findings while wringing his hands together. “I thought we talked about this. About being more careful about-” he sighed, “About not using yourself as an experiment. We have all the medicine you would need here, why go and try to make more, hurting yourself in the process?” Yen’s excitement wilted as she wrang her own hands out, a tick she had picked up from the man, gods forbid he ever lost his hands. 

“Well… what if we don’t have anymore? What if someone gets hurt and the medicine we have doesn’t work? What if someone accidentally eats nightshade?... I just want to be prepared. Help people…be useful…” 

“You are useful, Sweet girl.” Mimir assured, “ And despite my points… you are right… you have found many interesting findings and new medicines for Asgard.

“ Then why won’t the All-Father show any interest in me? Has he forgotten about me?” She looked up at the man, her eyes pleading. “ Does he not see I’m willing to sacrifice myself to be of use, here? You tell him everything I’ve done right?” Mimir swallowed and nodded.

“Of course, Daughter. I tell him all the time about how much you’re progressing.” his lies stung his throat, but not as much as knowing what Odin would use her for if he knew her actual potential. 

“Then… I’m just not good enough, then…” She whispered to herself. Mimir shook his head, unable to hold in his utter disbelief. 

“Not good enough? That’s not even a funny joke, Lass!” she looked up at the puck, confused.”

“But I’m not-”

“Nope! Surely you’re mistaken. It must have been a joke. Because I’m sitting in front of a child goddess who’s been here less than a year and already knows more about medicine than most of our damn medics! A girl, who can command the attention of an entire room! A girl who put that little brat prince in his place and even became his friend!”

“I-I wouldn’t say we’re-”

“That boy would not bother walking into the woods and waiting, albit annoyed at your birch bark notes if you weren’t friends.” she shut her mouth, a flush on her face. Mimir chuckled, crouching down to her level. “ You are fiercely kind in the face of the strange and taxing, you are sharp as a blade and undeniably brilliant. And the All-Father will see so soon enough.”

The girl left after her lesson and Mimir dropped his hopefulness, falling into his chair and grabbing his book of observations. A list of words describing his little companion.  his face faded as he read down the list after a few months of teaching the girl.  his hand trembled as he wrote down his recent evaluation. Odin had been right. She saw the world as black and white, and truly wanted to be good. But the truth was simply not that simple. Nothing ever was. Mimir had wanted to keep her in the dark for just a day longer. Let her see herself in the sun for one more day. But that was dangerous and he knew it. Mimir moved to the margin, where he had her goddesshoods marked, on the first day, he had written her base abilities and what they thought she was at first. “Goddess of peace, goddess of logic…goddess of medicine…” goddess of…

He needed to speak to Freya. She would be better at giving Yen the news. Tell her that everything has a shadow.

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“I need to show you something,” Yen looked up from her notes to see Freya standing in front of her. Her face was stone, and the shadows of the sun through the window fanned over her face, painting her worry marks. Yen frowned, sitting up a bit straighter and setting her pencil down.

“Show me what?”

“ Just come with me, and we'll talk, alright?” Freya offered a steady hand, and Yen took it, her little fingers enveloped fully in the Valkyrie’s gloved hand. She ushered her tenderly towards the fireplace and they sat down on the bundle of furs and tapestries on the floor. Yen sat across from Freya and watched as she pulled some research journals, illustrations, and scrolls. “When you are ready,” Freya spoke, sliding the scrolls to Yen. There was not another word between the two, just the crackle and pop of wood splintering in the fire. As Yen stared at the pages, Freya was patient, watching and waiting for the girl to start reading when she was ready. Yen finally picked up the journals and did not finish reading until she had gone through every document.

 The day her village had burned to the ground. 

The first time she told Freya she should have died, were she mortal, but didn’t.

 The resources of different towns and villages, of a girl wandering into their domain and leaving without a trace. Some spoke of her kind words and the peace she brought to them. But in the timeline, soon it was nothing but stories of ruin. Of villages filled with nothing but drones. shells of what were once beautiful towns and cultures reduced to nothingness. What was once left to be peaceful and logic-built structures soon dissolved into a spiral of selfish behaviors. Stealing instead of trading, abandoning children, and killing people to take their land. How was a child to know such loose rules would lead mortals to find twisted loopholes? Then again isn’t that what mortals are best at? 

“Why are you showing me this?” Yen whispered, rubbing at her eyes as her vision got blurry. “I know all this already, I know that I made a mistake b-because I was stupid, why are you doing this to me?” she spoke, her voice harsher this time as she finally looked up at Freya, who sat still, keeping her eyes cast down.

“Because you need to know why you can do these things,” Freya spoke, sifting through the journals, bringing one up and flipping through to a page. “Here. this one. What did you say to this village before you left them?” 

“I don’t want to do this-”

“What did you say.” Freya’s voice boomed against the walls of books surrounding them, and Yen squeezed her hands against the knobs of her knees. 

“I said…” she mumbled, trying to remember her last commands, “I told them to  walk away from the battlefield….to take care of themselves…”

“And they did…” Freya spoke softly now, “And when they take care of themselves, they stop taking care of their community. They left each other for dead.”

“I didn’t mean to,” Yen’s voice crumbled into sobs, her shoulders shaking, “I-I didn’t want them to-”

“Breath, Yen…breath,” Freya rested a hand on the girl’s head, letting her take her time to ground herself. “Your words have power, but so do your intentions. If we can practice properly, we will be able to give simple demands without worrying how they will be interpreted. On the other hand…” Freya continued, pointing at a different passage. “It almost seems as though your powers currently default to pushing people towards disarray… which means I believe we have found for certain the two sides of your coin.” she grabbed the girl’s shoulders, squeezing just slightly. Yen looked up, her tears slowing. Freya sighed, calming her heartbeat. “Yen, ever since you came to Asgard,…even before we met, I have seen you. You are the goddess of peace and logic and that can be seen from your ability to defuse altercations and to calm even the most ill-tempered…but I’ve also seen how out of sorts your own temper can get…how angry you are inside…”

“I’m not angry,” Yen whispered, but Freya shook her head, shushing the girl.

“You are angry, and in pain and uncertain. You use logic at one turn and act on impulse at the other. You are a paradox, sweet girl.” Freya held the girl’s face in her calloused hands. “ And I know you know…you are a smart girl, and you’ve been putting the pieces together yourself.” Yen placed her hands over Freya's, and she could feel her little fingers tremble over her own.

“I don’t know what to do…”

“Chaos is not something to be afraid of…” Freya smiled just a bit, holding the girl’s face tighter. “It is the order of the world. It is an order of all things. And it is also not all that you are. Do you remember what I said before? About how we were going to find all your sides and help you put them together?” Yen could barely nod with her face trapped in the woman’s hands. The Valkeryie laughed, pressing their heads together. “You will be ok, goddess of peace, goddess of logic… goddess of medicine and healing…” She offered, to soften this very blow, “goddess of chaos, goddess of discord.” 

A Cocauphany. That’s all you could call it. As sobs reverberated through the room, thrumming between the two until there was nothing left.

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[winteryreads]

can’t wait for me n’ my mutuals to match however that situation may arise. like i see myself in most, if not all of my mutuals and i hope that’s a good thing?? BUT LIKE MY MOOTS N’ I WOULD BE THE BEST OF FRIENDS IRL FRFR! hehe! i should make all of us go on a picnic and we hold hands n’ shit and sing kumbaya or smth! 💜 love you guys lots! :3