#I have done the hyperfixation again

[theteapotofdoom]

Mutuals and beloveds would you still think I’m cool and sexy if i returned to tumblr with a newfound obsession for world sensation pop group The Beatles? Would you still find me relentlessly charming if started to casually indulge in some Beatles posting alongside our regular programming? Would you still care for me if i started to call George Harrison my babyg- [gunshot]

[pearsandrust]

hey so in the context of the equivalent exchange thing it really does make sense now why anaxa values love so much. why he travels to okhema just to speak with the families of the dead; why as i've written mentions that he's surprisingly empathetic and good at giving emotional advice. there is a logical reason behind it all:

love is the only power anaxa has never had to exchange anything for.

through love & sheer force of will, anaxa's sister basically changed his fate. her efforts (getting him books, materials, transport to the grove) are what let him become a scholar instead of an outcast. she opened the world up to him and never asked anything of him in return. even though she sacrificed so much, it was somehow worth it to her. anaxa must have seen his sister's love as an infinite source of energy, something that should've been impossible under the laws of fate and alchemy and exchange. a perpetual motion machine, where love is both the motivation and the reward. something that seemed more and more impossible the further he delved into alchemy.

even from a purely logical perspective, of course anaxa would seek to recreate that source of energy in his own life. of course he would try to be empathetic and considerate and giving, despite all his cynicism and arrogance.

because to anaxa, love is the only true miracle.

[notdysfunk]

dys do you have any band au refs i can have. 🤲 i want to draw them

HAIII SORRY FOR TAKING FOREVER FOR THIS, HERE YOU GOOO!!!

They're not coloured oopsies, but I hope these are okay for references!!

Tried to leave a few helpful notes, and leave their instruments on display too!!

I'll also add some other pics just for more refs... Not everything is consistent especially their shoes lol

feat. my sona and y/n cuz I'm too lazy to crop these down haehehe

[dndadspolls]

hey y'all! I would like to start by just apologizing for the sudden unexplained stop in this blog! now, it has been kind of a long time coming, but still, might as well make it official.

I'm done actively running this blog for the foreseeable future I think. I've mostly left the fandom at this point, and unfortunately it's not as fulfilling running these when I don't care about the characters or the show as much anymore

I won't be deleting this blog though, it'll just be left as an archive of what all we did over here

however! if anyone else is interested in starting something similar themselves by all means, go ahead! you can take whatever you'd like from what I've got here, from poll ideas to the actual way you may decide to run it, it's all yours! and please feel free to dm me if you have questions about it, I'm totally happy to help anyone get set up if you want to try but don't know where to start!

if someone does make an alternative dndads poll blog that I'm aware of, I'll be happy to put them up in a pinned post so that people know where they can actually find dndads polls :]

with all that said, I've had a blast running these and being able to really create something here in the dndads community. thank all of you for participating and having fun and just making this such a delightful space! I wouldn't have kept this up at all if it wasn't clear that everyone else was enjoying it just as much as I was! just having everyone sending submissions, cheering for their favs, even just voting in the polls, really made all of it worth it. Ive loved having everyone come together and engage with each other about something we all love, it's been great. thanks for sharing this with me, y'all <3

[drawing-pomni-daily]

day 188

sorry for the recent inactivity, exhaustion and a months long hyperfixation on in stars and time stoped me from being able to draw anything else-!

and it still persists, so hope people enjoy this isat pomni while i get back into the swing of drawing for this blog!

(going to put the non-monochrome version under keep reading)

[lemongogo]

anyways . silly thing

[princessofghosts-posts]

No but like I should totally study for my final exam that is in 3 days,but I'm hyperfixating on the new animated movie that I saw these days,so my brain brain refuse to study.

I'll probably lock in tomorrow and the next day (since those are the only ones that remain),but untill then let me gush about Kpop demon hunters cause I've been in a mourning state ever since the final scene. Their songs are so good and it's criminal how few there are,hoping for a sequel because there is so much potential to expand and lore to explain.

[sea-buns]

wow... what a season. it feels weird to say that this little 6-episode side quest, in all of the 19 seasons of d20, is one of my favorites they've ever done but it just is. it had all the stakes and humor and drama that you could possibly want, all balanced with an incredible cast of players. the table chemistry was excellent, the characters were so perfectly themselves, the TROPES were OFF THE CHARTS!

i can't quite remember the last time i finished something and ached so sharply for there to be more. i just know I'm gonna be thinking about this one for a long time

[wu-wakfu-undertale]

Re-watching wakfu for the first time in years and s1 Yugo was so silly???

dude discovered he could make portals at will and his first thought after actually acknowledging it is "i can do so many cool pranks with this"

[abyssal-glory]

vector portrait for digital imaging class of RGB!! hey go read The Property of Hate if you haven’t already btw it’s an amazing comic by @modmad that i’ve been hotglued to since my junior year of high school.

big thank you to mod for giving their permission/blessing to wrestle with this horrible tv bastard in adobe illustrator for the express purpose of shilling him and this comic to my unsuspecting class <3

(edit: god okay pls click for fullscreen. hogy shit)

[madeby-meru]

I AM FREE I AM A FREE WOMAN I AM A FREE WOMAN TO GET LOCKED INSIDE MY ROOM TO WRITE WAWAWA

recap for myself lol of all im working on and i wanna get back to (im very serious about this okay):

company policy ch 8 + the flashbacks chapters i still dont know where to throw in

company policy ESP translation (im putting off the long chapters so much lol)

company policy edits (mainly ch3 but i need to overlook everything ig)

rafayel merman AU shortfic

second rafayel one shot

adult!zutara post canon AU (that i still dont know how to title pipipi help)

is this unrealistic? absolutely

[kitcats-1-braincell]

I DID IT AGAIN.

“How can I help you on this wonderful new loop, Stardust?"

The original picture is actually a picture of my cat!!

[bleaksqueak]

Honestly, I'm really grateful that my brain isn't wired to jump from hyperfixation to hyperfixation. It has its own unique drawbacks, sure, but I've always found it really comforting that I know what to expect from myself.

[notdysfunk]

Y'all ever get so hyperfixated on something it's ALL you look at/think about all day, learn a lot about it and then like have post-hyperfixation dread? 😭 Like "Oh my god I need to do anything but think about this right now, what am I doing"

[thegreatyin]

How did you manage to handle not one, but FOUR separate accounts in fl? I recently made the account for my HD little guy but having to do the tutorial again just seems miserable

there's... weirdly several answers to that question, actually??

a HUGE part of it is due to the way FL is structured. the 10-minute action timer is a core part of the game on a fundamental level, and the fact that i can very easily run out of stuff to do on one character and thus have an excuse to quickly and easily swap to another is just... convenient? satisfying? i'm not entirely sure how to explain it. the fact that i can make progress even while i am fundamentally simultaneously Not Making Progress is like pure dopamine for my freak insane awful little brain. there's just something really pleasing about spending all of my actions pursuing The Goal Of The Day™ on one account before casually swapping to another and doing the same without feeling like i'm wasting time or acting to the first account's explicit detriment. the downtime helps! the recharge time helps! the structure really really works!!

i'm technically only actively playing three, maybe two accounts minimum. the only reason the fourth (the one that'll be my future BaL playthrough) currently exists at all is so i can get his earlygame completely out of the way now and not have to waste time running through it all later, when what i actually want to do is play the ambition i've made myself wait a full year to play. and also getting free goodies as seasonal stuff happens,, something something surprise tools to help us later. the only two accounts i'd say i'm really "actively playing" at the moment are caeru and lark- and of the two, lark takes the most priority, since his ambition is the one i'm currently pursuing in earnest. for a couple months now- despite being My Main FL Character- the scoundrel has actually been pretty inactive on a gameplay front outside of the occasional progression in TLC and discordance content. purely by virtue of having Very little left to do outside of Very long-term grinds and vanities. they're in their "now what?" "now you can start playing the game" era. they've graduated to previous protagonist background cameo in a sequel anime series. they're like the yin FLPC equivalent of red at the top of mount silver. they're Literally just vibing rn. i only keep posting about them regardless because i'm insane and i will never ever ever ever ever let that bat go. but yeah, big TLDR, outside of doing the bare minimum to keep making waves/notability up every week, i'm not actually spending that much time on accounts i'm not currently actively interested in playing. and that accounts for way more gaming spoons than you might think.

i have a virtually lifelong history of playing MMOs, especially and specifically world of warcraft. i was born in the endless grind for useless video game pixel vanities and/or bragging rights. molded by it. you all have merely adapted to doing the same piece of content a pointlessly excessive amount of times for literally no reason besides whimsy and folly. me? i've done my time. i've served my sentence. i've spent weeks doing the original burning crusade netherwing dailies. i've devoted days to running praetorium over and over and over again, back-to-back, nonstop, long before square enix cut it in half and made it NOT take at minimum an hour and a half per run. i've perfected my silverwastes + auric basin goldfarming strategies. i've (almost) crafted dragonwrath tarecgosa's rest. i've killed the sha of anger so many times its dying scream of agony is embedded into the very fabric of my being. ""only"" doing making your name content four times over? that is nothing to me. it means nothing to me. it is so infinitesimal i can do the persuasive seduction quests in my sleep. it's not a matter of handling misery, or having the capacity, or even sighing as i remember the brass embassy raid segment of the watchful questline seriously i don't know why i keep forgetting that exists or what even is my problem with it i just am so consistently mildly inconvenienced by it and its highly specific resource requirements and it is the worst thing ever. maybe i'm just so used to the scoundrel's near-infinite money and troves of disposable items that i've completely forgotten what being poor is like. despite having done that step 3 fucking times now. ahem. anyway. i have transcended the feeble mortal bindings of my resistant-to-grinding flesh and ascended to a higher plane of enlightenment, they may call me insane but they will be the ones left laughing when they see what that "insanity" has wrought, i've usurped them, i've usurped them all-

hacks and coughs and awkwardly clears my throat. i mean. uh. um. Ahem.

the empress' court artistry + tales of the university nerfs helped too.

[ghostradiodylan]

hi hello i have been rotating dylan lenivy in my head like the microwave for a couple of weeks and especially how instead of lashing out or acting up at all when he’s late stage infected he just. he just gets scared by lights?? figures out how to work a crane?? saves kaitlyn?? will NOT let kaitlyn get hurt by him and he’s so scared but he’s so. my boy :(

Hi hello yourself! Thank you for this, I have been doing the same thing except for LIKE A YEAR. Someone help me. 💀

I just. I love him so much?

Like, he’s an actually perfect character?

In a game about choices, we aren’t even allowed to make any bad decisions with Dylan. Is that a flaw in the game design? Or a sign that some crucial decisions he could have been tasked with hit the cutting room floor with the other 20-30% of the script? Maybe. Does it make me love him for it any less? Absolutely fucking not.

He should be a threat to Kaitlyn, right? He should at least be a little bit pissed off at her, a little bit grumpy before he’s turning. God knows he deserves it. Can you imagine if she’s kissed his crush and he’s stuck with her for the rest of the night? Dylan obviously adores Kaitlyn, and he knows that sticking with her is his best chance at getting out alive, but those emotions would still be complicated, I would think. If the infection brings out hidden insecurities (which seems to be the case for literally everyone else), we should see Dylan grapple with not feeling like his real self is good enough, with wearing a mask for two months and hiding how smart he is and all of that.

I’m not sure why we don’t see that. We know his insecurities aren’t gone because they can come up again when he’s talking about whether Ryan would want to date him with one hand (I’m sobbing internally). The only reasonable explanation I can come up with is that he’s no longer hiding that insecurity with the people whose opinions matter the most to him (Ryan and Kaitlyn). So maybe the truth really will set you free (from being a super bitchy werewolf)? I almost wish we did see him go off a bit though. I wish we had at least some kind of chase scene in that scrapyard after he turned. It would give so much more weight to the decision to not cut his hand off, if it put him at risk of mauling his gunslinging bestie, our Final Girl.

But SMG chose for him to remain a golden boy throughout and of course that also has its charms. He has an immutable set of core values and those are being good and selfless, even when he’s terrified. Which is most of the game! And even though he gets braver, he very clearly doesn’t stop being scared! He just does what he has to do anyway. Even if he’s turning into a monster. Even if the boy of his dreams cut his hand off with a chainsaw (because he asked him to). I understand why people make him too perfect in fanfic sometimes because he’s, like, almost too good?

He has his moments early on, like wanting to keep the gun, or wanting to leave Nick and Abi behind in case what attacked them has their scents (tbh these are just his genre-savviness showing and I can’t actually blame him for either). He also gives Kaitlyn some very bad advice relating to silver bullets (kill a werewolf that turns out to be Emma, leave the bullets Abi is trying to give you behind), but she doesn’t have to take it.

But have you SEEN what he does if Emma turns and comes after Kaitlyn and Kaitlyn fails to shoot? He just fucking tackles a werewolf to save Kaitlyn. He puts himself between WereEmma and Kaitlyn like a human shield. If he’s infected, great, Emma sniffs him and leaves him alone but he is clearly shocked by that. He did not know that would happen. And he did it anyway. It was a reflex. And if he’s not infected? If he was never bitten at all or he’s missing a hand? He still does the exact same thing. He can take a second bite to protect Kaitlyn. He can get infected a second time after cutting his fucking hand off. He can die to protect her if she doesn’t manage to get a shot off to save him.

Lots of characters give us the option to be self-sacrificial. Ryan can give Laura the vial of werewolf blood to protect her during the Silas showdown. Jacob can run, barefoot and mostly naked, into the woods when he hears Abi scream. Abi can die by refusing to shoot her crush because she doesn’t know it won’t actually kill Nick if she does. But those are all choices. Dylan does not give us a choice. We’re not even in control when he does that shit. He just does it. Because that’s who he is.

I’m fine. I’m so completely fine.