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"Hello, I see you want whump asks so I was wondering do you could do something like- team captures whumper after whumpees rescue for interrogation or something, and whumpee insists on being there, but whumper keeps making comments towards whumpee which makes them increasingly uncomfortable/scared until caretaker steps in?? Idk do with that what you will"
Absolutely!
Content warning(s): creepy/intimate whumper, PTSD-type reactions, military inspiration and inaccuracies, lady whumpee
"No, I want to be there, sir," insisted Ali. Her face was set into a determined frown but all Costa could see was the silvery still-pink scars peeking out from her collar.
Costa sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose. "You know as well as I do why that's a bad idea, Turing. You're still recovering. If he-"
"I suffered at his hands for long enough. I think I deserve some answers," Ali interrupted. She took a deep and steadying breath, trying to keep her frayed nerves under control.
"I would like to be there, sir," she repeated firmly.
Costa sighed again and felt his shoulders slump as he placed his hands on his hips. "Fine. But you're not going in the room, alright? You'll stay behind the glass at all times. That's an order."
Ali's expression brightened as she nodded resolutely. "I can manage with that. Thank you, sir."
Costa had a sinking feeling in his stomach as he watched Ali move toward the heavy metal door where their teammates had Reese in custody. He shook his head and entered the interrogation room, joining one of his lieutenants who had already begun.
The room almost felt sterile: all cold steel and no color. A single overhead fluorescent light flickered ever so slightly, casting harsh shadows into the empty corners.
Reese sat handcuffed to the thin metal table, his hands folded politely as he waited. Costa's lieutenant stood with his arms crossed, glaring silently all the while. Reese had an easy smile that made Costa want to hit it off his face.
"You seem pretty fuckin' pleased with yourself," he practically growled as he entered the room.
Ali watched from behind the two-way mirror as Reese's smile widened. He didn't even flinch as his cheeks stretched his black eye.
"What's not to be pleased about, Captain? Hm?" came his voice through the monitoring speaker installed in the observation room. Ali crossed her arms and frowned. Bastard. She had a laundry list of things to not be pleased about written on her skin and here he was, cool as a cucumber while in enemy hands.
Costa pulled out the chair across from Reese and spun it around, plopping himself in it backwards. He rested his forearms against the backrest and leaned forward.
"I think you know very well why you should be concerned." The captain's voice was low and gruff. Ali could tell he was angry.
Reese's smile widened – if that was even possible – as his eyes lit up in recognition. "Ah, so this is about little Ali, then. The team pet? How is she? I hope I didn't break her in too much. I know half the fun is when they have a little fight le-"
His words were cut off as Costa gripped the front of his shirt and lifted the smug man to his feet, his metal chair skittering across the floor, forgotten.
"Listen here, you little shit... You'll speak when spoken to. Answer questions and keep your mouth shut otherwise. Understood?"
Reese laughed with delight. "Did I strike a nerve? So sorry. I thought we could bond over a shared interest."
Ali swore she could hear the grinding of Costa's teeth through the speaker as he tried to keep from throttling the man in his grip.
"Is she watching us? Behind that mirror over there maybe?" The smooth, slimy voice slipped its way into Ali's ears and a shiver went through her body involuntarily. She knew that tone well. Too well. Her stomach soured as Reese's eyes left her captain and instead stared at her as if he knew she was there.
Ali's blood ran cold and suddenly she wasn't aware of anything coming through the speaker as both her captain and lieutenant's mouths moved. Her eyes were locked on Reese and his on her, or where he thought she was.
Everything felt cold and hot at the same time. Sweat broke out everywhere and her ears rang. Ali didn't even realize her breath had sped up until she felt her vision tunneling from hyperventilation.
"I hope you're recovering well, Ali~" his sing-song tone echoed through the wall of her panic. "You'll get better soon so we can play again, right? Maybe you'll share with your teammates this time. Do you think they'd like that?"
"All right that's enough!" Costa shouted as he shook Reese hard enough to capture his attention again. The man was like a shark who smelled blood in the water and he needed to reign it in.
Reese opened his mouth to speak again before Costa slammed his head down on the cold, hard table. The resounding bang! echoed through the room as Reese blinked rapidly in an attempt to keep his focus. Hot blood ran down from a freshly broken nose and tears pricked at his blue eyes.
"Take him to a holding cell for now. I'm not done yet," promised Costa as he shoved Reese toward the lieutenant and swiftly left the room.
Ali didn't even hear the door to the observation balcony open. She jumped at the sudden hand on her arm, but a warm and calming voice kept abated the storm of emotions flooding her mind.
"Hey, kid," Costa crooned gently, pulling Ali's trembling form into a tight hug. " 'Salright. I'm here. He can't hurt you."
Ali wrapped her arms around him and buried her head in his chest. He smelled like smoke and fabric softener, a far cry from Reese's strong cologne. Safe. She was safe.
#its been a long time since I've written anything and im admittedly still rusty#I'll probably read this back and hate it#but here you go!#i chose to give the characters names and gendered because my brain was getting confused 😭#I've had a long week#whump#whumpee#whumper#whump prompt#whumpblr#whump blog#whump request#whump scene#whump scenario#ugh I'm so bad at dialogue
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here's some benreys for y'all!!! it's meal time little ones!!!! nobody starves today. i provide
also random gordo he's here too i guess-
#hlvrai#benrey#gordon feetman#i really wanna just. spit out hlvrai content everywhere all the time#STUFF. i hate the word content. 's just stuff#i just wanna give back to the fandom yk?#i've been reading so much wonderful fanfiction lately and i love everyone's creativity so muchhh#and i Wanna Create!!!!!!#i wanna give back!!!!!#i wanna inspire!!!!!#screw depression i wanna write and draw and Scream#i've never written anything before#okay that was a lie but. like#i haven;t written stories in a While#like 4 years maybe#and Definitely haven't written anything in english#and i kinda sorta have ideas but not really#and i feel like im really bad at understanding characters and keeping them in my brain#and im so desperate for ideas but there isn't a Spark that would grab my attention and make me go brrrrrrrr#what do people do in situations like thisssss#is there like a weird silly way to write fanfic that makes things less scary..#weird upsidedown stupid little fanfic game thing#okay my brain blinked i think im done#i'll keep y'all updated maybe probably?#k thanks for coming to my ted talk byeeeee!!!#art tag or whatever
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I need to stop reading the comments under videos about the referendum because it's making me evil, is making me want to kill people
#all the old people are like “I'm not gonna go vote haha i don't care i need to go to the beach”#i hope you step on something sharp or get stung by a jellyfish#the government made this propaganda of not going because “the citizenship is not gifted!! you can't get it in only 5 years”#probably these people can't even read#not even my parents voted and I'm like#i know you hate me you already told me i turned out a mistake but really?#you care so little for the younger generation and then cry when they run away from this hole#this shit hole... this stupid piece of history that is nothing but old glorious stuff that you guys know nothing about#btw this referendum is mostly for protecting the workers but there is one question for citizenship so the old farts all focus on that#i hope this place can get better one day but i'll probably won't be here anymore when that happens#BECAUSE I'LL LEAVE AND I'LL COME BACK HERE ONLY FOR VACATION
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girl i have fanfics in my head u wouldnt even dream
#fics that i think of when i day dream/ try to fall asleep dump in the tags:#au where st1 happened but nothing since that so mike and will write comics together and el is their iconic character#and they both have a special relationship with the character...#eventually some stuff happens with brenner and or govt being like well ig u guys must know smth ab her since ur writing ab her! and thus#danger... also will still has that slug in him so that would be an issue#and eventually when el comes into the story she is sooo different from how they imagined her#wait i forget do i have others#oh i had one from awhile ago that i rembered where mike gets a vecna vision thats like hiii queen im gonna tormet u to control el and will#and so mikes like ok i'll take myself out of the equation but then like hop or someone stops him and then hes like damn did i make it weird#and eventually goes to visit max and thats all i rlly remember#ohh the buffy au#and some sort of horror au/version of the story that i havent quite worked out#OHHHH THE ONE WHERE !!! mike lowk ghosts will and goes off to college and when will comes to nyc to visit el and everyone he walks into the#apt and gets attacked by a mini mike and hes like ??? U HAVE A SON??? and mike's like yeahhh long story my TA was a catholic........ and so#the party and co has just been helping him raise this kid and i forgot why but i had a good reason that no one told will#i think mike did smth REALLY shitty to him before hs so they didnt wanna say anything bc will walks out of rooms when mike is brought up#my elmike txf au but honestly smth more specific to st but like... imagining the parents are forced to give up one of their kids for smth#like thats just fucked hp hawkins world and joyce refuses and they take will and they take el from terry and they take holly... and somehow#like someone made the wheelers choose holly and theyre like yeah we lowk hate our son bc hes our bastard son wish it couldve been him#(FOX MULDIFICATION AGENDA YK!!!) and idk he tries to get holly back meanwhile el and will meet in where#thinking ab like. karen and ted blaming mike and him blaming himself for holly like mulder with samantha ......#mmm thats all i got rn#if anyone read this far and is interested in hearing me talk more ab any particular one lmk#i will probably never write these bc i do not even have time to write my own stuff and that is literally my profession so
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coming back here feels like paying a visit to the fucking dead.
#random thoughts#(this post was made ten days before my return is scheduled. please keep in mind all my disappearances were planned.)#on the topic of the post. i keep. missing myself.#seeing my old self in pictures and reading my posts. i'm not that person anymore.#obviously i'm not going to be. i'm young. lots of changes are set for me.#i hate being sometimes. just being.#but we all do right ?#all of the past versions of me are dead. the only things i have left of them are facets.#i miss them. like i've missed you!!#but then again the attention and lack of it is. why i am here again. or maybe i'm just ready to be a person rightly.#not. really. but i'll have more to say in perhaps other posts. i'll schedule those too.#in the meantime. see you later!! sorry for being an asshole and disappearing again. i bet you really thought i was dead this time.#well. okay obviously not. it's only been a month hasn't it ?#less than even. how silly am i..... (':#i'm so fucking disgusting i need to shut my mouth. augh.#i was about to come in here and be like “ask me anything!!” because i'm crispin the dumb actor bitch.#my stupid fucking persona has taken over my entire blog. and the most ironic thing is that crispin isn't even his name.#(<- not that negative usually. while this is true it's also not nice. apologizing on someone's behalf.)#edit: 04.02.2025. eight days before return. i thought we'd have more to add but. suppose not.#this is everything whether you like it or not.#DO NOT MIND THE TORRENTIAL YAP I HAVE WRITTEN IN THE TAGS.#edit: 08.02.2025. i just want to be myself again. outlying-hyppocrate. formal and poetic and pathetic.#and i'm not. but i'll grow back into his skin subconsciously. him.#edit: 11.02.2025. i'll probably be sleeping when this sends out.#i fall asleep so early now........ 6pm and tangled dreams.#so fucking tired. doing well and not.#stream pocky boy by yeule ! ! !#no actually. i do have more to say. wait a minute.
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ahahaha. get him out of my head.
#☆— yapping#12:25 am rn and first thing i did today was read endo smut#i have a lot of free time today soooo#i'll probably reading more. of just him#FUCKENWJWJAN anyways#todays gonna be soooo productive yeah#yeah... yeah...#had an endo theme up for like 20 minutes yesterday#it looked weird but maybe. maybe it'll come back. better this time#fuckkkkk i hate him
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man what ARE they going to do with marius in the show. like genuinely fascinated with this as an adaptational question. anne loved that guy so much somehow and kept making him integral to the plot
#lestat's second cancellation of the season will be for going to hang out with marius.#vampireblogging#i went back to go look at how armand describes marius in his backstory mind beam in TVL#and it's less stark than what was presented so far in the show but lestat was still fucking crazy for going to hang out with that guy-#i mean i say that but the stuff with the like. secret vampire blood kiss that he can't tell anyone about is#like a very effective metaphor for abuse! surely on purpose? right?#i have no idea what was going on in anne's head fucking ever.#also i know the true answer is just that she probably decided on more details when she wrote TVA#but armand giving a very sugar-coated version of the circumstances of his turning. is pretty good!#anyway you can probably do something interesting with marius anne just never did.#also everyone's going to kill each other on twitter about it but what else is new-#obviously i would hate this and it would be terrible but i'll admit. it would be kind of funny if they said#fuck you we're sticking to the books. marius/daniel be upon you#no i STILL haven't finished qotd bc i'm sick of all this damn vampire lore and people not ripping each other's throats out. emotionally.#and just started reading sunshine instead.
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okkk ok
#logbook#ig im up. ill nap later if i need to.#supposed to call a lady abt a job this morn. . . i hate phone calls but not in an anxiety way. in an autism way lol.#i cannot tell when ppl have stopped or are still talking. blah.#i mean. whatever happens happens. just trying to hype myself up.#i will probably plan to call a lil after 9 and i think im going to sit on the porch too :)#ok thennnn i have ppl to text back. thennn i think i'll finish w clothes. thennn maybe clean out my car?? or go thru stuff in my room.#or both. . .idk im trying to go thru everything to get rid of it. ..or decide whats going back into storage.#ooh but i AM excited abt wanderstop releasing today. and i plan to play some games or read.#oh an i should shower. . .n e ways. gm. i am sending strength n love to everyone this silly tuesday
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I sure hope this is a cold I'm having, what the hell is up with those random aches that come and go.
#hmmmm#Well either way I carried in the appeal#from what I read (not on the document I got the decision on though since that thing is a JOKE that doesn't include any actual information)#I'll probably have to wait for up to 30 days now#which is uh. not good really.#Everything is up in the air now#do I keep sending CVs? I don't know. I genuinely don't know#All I know is that I hate all of this lol#I'm pretty sure my appeal states my points pretty clearly#it's the matter of whether they theoretically want to risk me taking this to court#not that I'd do that. I'm quite literally broke.#But *they* don't know that#and there's some pretty strong evidence that the candidates were treated unfairly soooooo#hmm#either way it's half past 8 but I'll probably crash soon#since I don't feel so good#slept through most of the afternoon I just watched my crime drama played some Mario Kart and now I'm back in bed
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you guys know how certain fandoms just drains you mentally and seeps any kind of enjoyment you get from the media? I thought I got over it but it's still there for pj0 and honestly, I was much happier just not seeing any kind of content.
#I used to read so much of the fics too...#when I was a teen#back on ffn and some on ao3#but I think it was around hoo was released that fandom became less fun and more ... I guess stressful? More performative?#plus it was around that time I got hate comments from certain shippers that made me liked the fandom as a whole a lot less#oh well#anyway this is me saying the pjo tag is being blocked again#I'll probably see what's in the annabeth chase and jason grace tag occasionally but yeah that's pretty much it i guess
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@yuuugay tagged me to do a Thing 🦖 thank you for the tag, it was fun!!! As usual, I spent way too much time on this shdgjsd
Tagging @hampsdesu @amyreads and @snail-of-fire — I'm curious about your trope preferences, but no need to do it if you'd prefer not to 🥰💐
#yes i have an undying hatred for love triangles#like the clenching fist kind of hatred#everytime i read something in the moth to flames tier#i have to take a two week break to recover#i say i hate them but i keep coming back to them 😔#also yes to the gen fic trope#i actually don't like stories centred primarily around romance that much... esp when other characters are reduced to foils in the process#regarding unrequited love: it's complicated#perhaps it's because of how pragmatic i can be when it comes to my own emotions but#it frustrates me watching someone continuously pine over a person incapable of returning their feelings#ngl i'd probably be the irreverent scoundrel who swoops in and proposes a fling with Pining Character A to help them move on 😔🤌🏼#/j#unrequited love for an ex gets a pass. as well as other circumstances. it really depends on how the story handles it#if they're only there so the readers can coo over how deeply devoted they are... then no. ffs let them move on#if the story somehow manages to make their unrequited love complex and doesn't turn it into the character's entire personality#and acknowledges that fixating on someone so much is probably a terrible awful idea but they'll do it anyway because they're an utter fool#then fine. i'll be a hater all the way but i'll be heckling them more lovingly#aspen rambles.txt#tags
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May's locg stats because it's gay month here already (last month's stats on the left)

#locg stats#reached my monthly reading goal again#also. the inconsistency of the lists in locg drives me crazy#it says 513 here but i went into 'edit' mode nad there it's 518. it's probably 518 but what doesn't it count?#ok what did i want to track#overall comics read: 10003#comics read with deadpool: 303 and he's no. 56 on my list#time to pick this apart#read much more dc than i usually read#(grell's ga & the long halloween)#once again i don't read anything that's not big two except for the power fantasy once a month#locg thinks i've unread a graphic novel. ok.#no changes in characters in the top 20 list just placements#jean is going down down down unfortuantely#i'll get her back up somehow#piotr up one place. bro is above clark now. i hate him#still not kitty in the top 20:(#i hope she'll be there next month but idk#i think next month is the month dinah is off the list. we'll see.#i thought mystique would be in the top 20 this month but she's only 28#just noticed! i've read exactly 1000 comics with bruce wayne as batman. never reading a batman comic again to keep it like that (jk)#ok that's it#not a good month for my mental health but this was a good month for my comic reading#oh another thing i want to start tracking is my favorite 5 comics of the month which were:#house of m. x-23 (innocence lost). phoenix endsong. 'dangerous' arc of astonishing x-men. exceptional x-men 9.#honorable mentions to x-factor investigations & early excalibur (2004) & just exiles in general
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I don't feel great
#doyou ever just turn off you emotions? like#lke things just suddenly feel gray and hot and dull . and apathetic#and you know it's not good because everytime you felt like that It Was Wrong#and also you're slightly terrified because you relate this feeling of nothingness to your lowest or vulnerable moments which you would hate#to go back#and you know what this is not fucking important#it's stupidand I'm stupid and I don't know who I'm even talking to and I'm trying to insult myself and it triggers nothing in myself because#it hadn't had an actual effect in a good while#whcich is probably good but I don't care now#maybe this is pathetic I'm trying to vent to no one and feel nothing about it#I'll just go back to scroll and maybe I should read or deink water or walk outside#what is this even about?
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\\ life outside of tumblr has been eating all my time lately, but like...
Someone has to take the Grim Effigy Reaper skin from me before I make a whole verse- //
#Author's Notes [ OOC ] ;;#we've been busy with our flight rising shop and partner system so we haven't really even TOUCHED tumblr lately#but I'll try to get some stuff done and kull the muse list too probably during like the holidays or something idk.#creative writing juices haven't really been there. Feel like I've been on my phone too much too.#might sit down and read a couple of the MDZS books soon to see if that helps.#cup of hot chocolate a candle a book and a cozy blanket in the winter? sounds like what I need tbh.#lot of muses could use some winter love too-#I also really wanna work on something to explain WHY Twilight hates being a wolf! because I mentioned it back with the quiz thing but#i never explained and it hasn't come up in any thread yet.#gonna stop rambling in the tags and get back to my shop-
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my problem with the original zul'gurub mounts is that anyone who buys it off the BMAH (which is, sadly, the only way you can get those mounts now) also get the Feat of Strength achievement.
Kind of bothers me tbh. Achieve says 'obtained the mount from *boss name* when in reality they just paid gold for it. That's not really fair tbh. But I guess the year they got the achievement proves how they got it (unless they bring it back as a rare drop again, which is unlikely, but I want it to happen, lol)
#i hate that a lot of things have returned through the bmah#but still cant obtain it through a drop or horrible currency grind#there should be alternatives#like man i want the plagued proto drake but theres zero chance of me ever getting gold cap#at this rate i'll be at gold cap by the time im 50 or something lmao#im not a very good gold maker#delete later#this is probably a hot take for some people. you can disagree#if anyone replies just dont be mean about it. i have read many arguments against bringing things back#i know how it goes. ive heard it before
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Ok so I’ve had this question for a while and I feel like you’ll be able to give me a good answer. I understand that we’re absolutely not supposed to support anything JKR does monetarily and I never intend to do so. However is engaging with Harry Potter media *at all* also something I should not do or is it only things that give her money?
Like, would there be anything wrong with me playing Hogwarts Legacy if I pirated it? Is fanfiction and fan art ok to consume? Or is engaging with the IP at all going to be harmful in a way that I don’t see atm?
Thank you for your time!
I don't really think a cis person is the right person to ask about this, but I also know that trans people are sick to death of having to field these questions so I'll do my best to answer this, if everyone who reads my answer will promise me that you will NOT use anything I say in this post as an annoying argument against a trans person who has a different opinion on the matter. Remember whose opinions are actually important here.
And look, number one, you can do whatever the fuck you want. Nobody can stop you. If you, in yourself, in your soul, feel morally comfortable consuming Harry Potter by some convoluted method of Ethical Consumption™, then go and do that, and own it, and have the strength to be judged for your decisions.
Trans people might not trust you - hell, I'll probably not trust you either. They might get angry at you, and criticize you, or roll their eyes and call you a fucking loser. If you have the moral conviction that what you are doing is right, and that you are acting in accordance with your beliefs and you are not doing harm, then stand by that conviction and face the consequences. Have that strength of character.
But if you feel the need to go around posting and arguing that it's unfair, that you shouldn't be judged, that you should get to be a special exception and people are unreasonable when they get mad at you... then that is evidence, proof positive, that you are a fucking loser. That you are cowardly, and you don't actually believe that what you are doing is right, you just want the world to affirm your fragile ego while you enjoy your little treats.
To be clear, I am not accusing you of doing this (you seem to just earnestly be asking for guidance), but there's a hell of a lot of people who do do this, and you don't want to be one of them.
So that's number one. Do whatever the fuck you want, and face the consequences with a spine.
Number two is... just fucking drop it. That is my earnest advice to you. Just fucking drop Harry Potter. They are children's books from the early 2000s, they just are not that fucking good or important. The Hogwarts Legacy game is live service slop; the movies are passable at best and their quality comes from the actors being better than the source material. Just drop it. Harry Potter has nothing to offer that you can't get elsewhere from better media with better authors, or problematic authors who have good grace to at least be dead.
Don't waste your life thinking about complicated ways to circumvent the moral problem of JK Rowling's rancid transphobic hate-aura at the center of the franchise, don't waste your finite time on Earth trying to thread that stupid needle. Harry Potter isn't worth this. Rowling is old, and shriveling from hate and mold fumes, at the very least just wait for her to fucking die, and for her political project to fail, before you pick that world back up again.
I speak as someone who read the first book at age 11, hyperfixated on relating to Harry, and whose entire cultural life was consumed by the franchise for over a decade. It is not worth it. You don't need it, you don't need the stress of trying to navigate how or whether to engage with it ethically. You almost certainly have an enormous backlog of other books, games, movies and TV shows you've been meaning to get around to, so just go do that instead. I promise you it will be infinitely more rewarding, and infinitely less compromised by stress and guilt and cognitive dissonance.
And while you're at it, send some money to a trans charity and go scream invectives at a transphobic politician some time.
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