#I'm just a mess...
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
I'm just...resenting and then feeling guilty for resenting when I'm in such a privileged position but then feeling angry at that idea bc I'm luckier than I could be but it's so tenuous but other ppl make do but other ppl have made this work before me but---
#i thought i would be making art and things like crazy abd would have some small trickling income from my etsy and id be doing like volunteer#work and spending time outdoors and being super creative and maybe even applying for a craft fair as a vendor maybe#instead I'm... in nearly the same place i was 3 months ago. with barely anything to show for it. i didnt do any volunteer work#i still dont have the spoons or mental energy to do anything like protest or anything like that#and every time i do something that isnt Work (projects for income purposes) i feel guilty#especially when its like. going to cape cod w my parents. going to the beach.#spending money on clothing or art supplies. going to stores to shop for those things.#spending time just sitting around outside. gardening. whatever. i feel Bad and guilty#like oh i have time for THESE things but not - calling my reps or going to a protest or doing ANYTHING for other ppl!?#and like. I'm just trying to mentally stay afloat and trying desperately to make this thing work out#i need to make it work so i can get health insurance without needing to work for someone else#i need to make it work so i can be a Person#and i also need to let myself do fun things or useless things sometimes.#but this overwhelming guilt for not doing ANYTHING fpr anyone else while things are going to shit for so many#and I'm here safe at home. i dont have to pay rent i dont have to worry abt not having a safe place to live or abt food or anything#my parents bought me a pair of sandles. bc i couldnt pick which pair to buy between 2#and I'm so ashamed of this. like.#id be dead if not for them.#i cant fully take care of myself even if i still had a fulltime job#and when i did i didnt do anything creative at all...#I'm just a mess...#like i need to figure this out i cant fail at this#I'm spending all of my spoons on this. and on vague occasional attempts to engage with friends....#i cant even get myself to call the dentist and reschedule my cleaning#and I'm fine w going to the cape again bc.#i want to get to enjoy something#i need to spend time on the cape#and thats so fucking spoiled of me right like.#i should just make do#i should just get a job and work till I'm miserable and old and die
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
He's doing his best okay.
#Deltarune spoilers#deltarune chapter three#Deltarune tenna#mr ant tenna#tenna deltarune#Deltarune lanino#Deltarune Elnina#Elnina and lanino#Elnina#Lanino#lanino and elnina#Tenna makes me so hungry#Not in a weird way his colours just make him look like a McDonald's mascot#I could destroy a burger rn#Clemont_ine#Idiot tv doesn't know the difference between calling someone cunty and calling someone a c*nt 😔#I need to redo that one pic I did of tenna and telly-vis now that I actually know what this freak looks like LMAO#Ignore me messing with the tags Tumblr is doing it's not showing posts thing again and it's driving me nuts. I'm going to get you tumblr#IT WORKED OB MY GOODNESS?????????? HELP????????????????
4K notes
·
View notes
Text
Portraits
Retouched this set from last year, because it was haunting me laying there 80% finished
#yes stelle is also supposed to be here but i just dont have the strength to finish that mess of a sketch she was left as 😔#so not technically a finish set but I'm gonna post it anyway#honkai star rail#hsr#hsr fanart#astral express#dan heng#welt yang#march 7th#himeko#fanart#my art#i miss hsr a bit but i just don't have time and storage capacity to play it anymore
14K notes
·
View notes
Text
did you know there aren't any god-like powers of indigestion
#crawling out of my cave to offer this tiny gerry#the guy. the dude. the fella.#i miss him deeply and i'm glad he's sort of back but i. do not trust jonny sims.#and i say this as joyfully as possible#we ARE here to suffer#whatever happens i'll be cheering for him and his totally normal grandmother but you know. never forgive never forget.#anyway i'm limited to 24 frames until i can afford a software update which is absolutely devilish#so i'm just messing around in the meantime trying to figure out how it works! actual animatics soon mayhaps?#also i swear i'll start keeping this place active. soon. at some point. in a near future#tma#the magnus archives#tma podcast#gerard keay#gerry keay#gerard delano#gerry delano#he has too many names#tma gerry#tma gerard keay#the eye#tma fanart#my art#tw eye#tw flashing
4K notes
·
View notes
Text
like glue ?
#*kicks down door* I'M LOVE!!!!! YEAAAAAAAAH/#hello everyone please send me asks abt ch3/4 i'm soso ready to!!! draw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'll ramble full thoughts in tags!!!/#deltarune#elnina#lanino#deltarune spoilers#deltarune chapter 3 spoilers#<- i'm just gonna tag everything as spoilers for now lol xD#also @anon who just sent me “LASER POINTERE” ily DKJFBNDB that's so next <3/#ok so.......... my thoughts:#AUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i love deltarune sm/#BARKBARK WOOFBARK/#it was very cute!! i love all the new enemy designs........ already thinking abt them all together.................../#i love the weather. i'm Love Them sm/#i love them and i def don't have a fav out the two. 0%/#also: my favs from ch3 (but i don't wanna mess up tags so i'll just like...... finesse it DFKBND): 🎺🔌🌦️📺📷💧/#<- blorbo hieroglyphs/#anyway WAUGH i'm soso happy. i have a lot more to say but i'll just draw it out!!!! <3/#thank you sm to everyone who sent nice asks over my break btw! 🥺 i've been reading them a bunch!!! thanku for thinking abt me even when-/#-drawings have been slow! x3 💖/
2K notes
·
View notes
Note
Any thoughts on Leona’s possible sleepwear?
#art#twisted wonderland#personally my money's on him wearing a robe or something that costs more than the new library wing and has never been washed#leona tries very hard to project ~apathetic slob~ but deep down he's actually kind of a priss and i love that about him#this is a man who thinks skipping class and not making his bed makes him a cool rebel#he probably wears the fanciest pajamas but (gasp) his hair's an absolute mess#leona: (undoes the top three buttons of his shirt) i'm so badass >:3#on the other hand it would actually be VERY funny if he just wore like. a sweatshirt and shorts.#held together by cheeto stains and willpower#even ruggie wouldn't touch that mess
2K notes
·
View notes
Text
MDZS Modern AU where Madam Lan faked her death years ago, and the secret comes out in a random burger joint, in the middle of her estranged son's first date.
Part 2 ->
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#digital art#MDZS Au#Mdzs modern AU#Burger time AU#This AU (and punchline) hinges on the fact that this family drama happens right when wangxian are like...barely even a thing.#WWX is mostly just curious about this guy and wants to be friends (Flirting is to get a funny reaction - he's not really crushing yet)#and LWJ is in the hellpit of both feeling new feelings for the first time *and* the grief and turmoil of the Lan family drama resurging.#'Oh PD-MDZS that ruins the teenxian dynamic' MAYBE. But it works so well for pre-resurrection wangxian. Here me out:#You have chronic 'I can help so I will' WWX who sticks by LWJ despite the first 'date' going thermonuclear.#and a LWJ that genuinely is falling in love with this boy but feels like he's -#trapping WWX in a 'relationship' with him out of obligation or worse - pity.#And the fact the Family drama is around his mum coming back into his life? The one who felt so trapped she faked her death to get away?#LWJ is about to have a truly tormental conga line of emotions he cannot fully cope with.#The fallout will still be there. That's essential Wangxian building blocks.#They will reunite years later...under the glow of indoor lighting.#WWX reciting such a specific burger order that LWJ doesn't even have to look to know who it is.#And they spend hours reminiscing and laughing at how messed up those years were.#There is a promise at the end of that conversation. Numbers exchanged. A fruitful change to start again.#Stay tuned for more of this AU. I'm unwell about it.
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
I have never drawn either of these people before but I enjoyed the court case a lot.
#hermitcraft#docm77#joe hills#hermitcraft season 10#the banner is terrible but I think bdubs would have the name of the show plastered everywhere#the colours look a bit weird to me but I'm not sure if my laptop screen is just messing with it or not#my art
8K notes
·
View notes
Text
[ * Never felt more free in my life ]
#[ * holy SHIT i cooked ]#[ * THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE JUST ME MESSING AROUND WITH IRIDESCENCE EFFECTS N STUFF ]#[ * AND IT TURNED INTO THIS. ]#[ * “lalala oh wait rainbow brushes are a thing.” then messes with brush settings and draws this ]#[ * I'm so proud of how i drew the scarf ]#[ * btw fun fact I drew this in exactly one hour ]#corv draws#ink sans#ink!sans#inksans#inktale sans#inktale#[ * the power is returning to me. the horrors are over. i can do anything now ]#utmv#utmv ink#ink utmv#utmv fanart#ink sans fanart#undertale au#undertale au fanart#undertaleau#undertale multiverse#ut au#sans au#[ * This is pretty experimental so it's a little messy i think ]
3K notes
·
View notes
Text
One of my favorite parts about the writing of Howl's Moving Castle is how easy it is to write off all the things from our world at first as him just being a weird wizard™ (also thanks to bestie @jutenium for spotting this I wouldn't put it like that without you!!/pos). Sure, Sophie uses weird descriptions, but readers have every reason to believe them because of the way Howl is presented as a character. When Sophie says he wrote with a quill that doesn't need an ink, you wouldn't think it was actually a ballpoint pen, you would think Howl had just enchanted his quill so that it wouldn't need ink! When she adds that she can't make out a single word, you think he has matchingly terrible handwriting, but in fact Sophie has simply never seen a pen writing. When she sees the mysterious labels on his books, you think he's keeping a lot of obscure magical literature, but it's really just an encyclopedia and a guide like "Top 10 Rugby Tips." When Sophie notices the bottles in Howl's bathtub, you think they're some kind of magical jars where he keeps girl's hearts, but I'm almost certain that they're just 'Dove' and 'Head and Shoulders' that he's enhanced with his spells and put silly labels on. When you read Calicifer singing a song in a language Sophie doesn't understand, you think it's some kind of ancient cipher or code, but it's actually just a rugby song in Welsh that Howl sings when he's drunk. And finally, when you see the terrifying black door, which is completely shrouded in darkness, you imagine a passage to an eerie, mythical place, similar to what Miyazaki showed us - but it's just fucking Wales.
#howl's moving castle#sophie hatter#howl pendragon#howell jenkins#hmc#howl's moving castle book#hmc book#diana wynne jones#I love him he's a mess#he just goes 'I'm gonna make myself such a quirky horrible image so that no one wouldn't question the weird stuff I keep using'#('because no WAY I'M GONNA WRITE WITH A QUILL 20TH CENTURY GUYS)#and it WORKED#(Also that probably why Suliman can't do the same thing. He's too classic Royald Wizard™)#(and ppl would have questions to him)#(but Howl? He's fine guys he's like that All The Time)
5K notes
·
View notes
Text
Trying to make friends.
#obito uchiha#kakashi hatake#naruto#narutito#obkk#this was supposed to be a quick doodle#but then i added a background#then i did some lineart#then i added details#a mess#just so you know this is drafted and i'm doing this at 1:44 am#SANSKA LOOK AWAY#anyway obito u are supposed to bite him back!!!
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
ALTTP december warm ups and doodling (and one from today, happy new year)
#my art#tloz#a link to the past#link#zelda#also in order bc the evolution of 'just a little thing' to putting too much detail in is a little funny#however I. rly do not like the first ones so it feels weird starting with those...#I abandoned tumblr for so long I feel a bit anxious about posting here right now so uuuh only doodles and me running away again#I'm very determined to fuck his legs up and like I swear they're both fucked but I keep messing up which one is visibly so oopsie#also I'm extremely haunted by how visible the messyness on the last one became on my monitor instead of tablet rip
3K notes
·
View notes
Note
i want to hold pv so gently
im gonna cry just from him on my palm

Not exactly on the palm but someone is holding him
Bonus:


#mmelart#cookie run kingdom#pure vanilla crk#pure vanilla cookie#shadow milk cookie#shadow milk crk#shadowvanilla#pureshadow#vanilla milkshake#I was doodling this and then decided why not reply to the ask with this lol#Just a little warm up cause I don't have a lot of inspiration at the moment#Also my side profiles are meh that's why I don't draw them often wahh#I just realized I messed up with the colors of Smilk's sleeves- SHHH you didn't see that they always were like this I'm not gaslighting you#This is what happens when you don't draw Smilk for a week
783 notes
·
View notes
Text
tfw you fall in love with the magicless prefect that keeps running around campus 🤦♀️
#aceyuu#just in case u cant read my shit writing ;#Ace: Y-you! Grim is doing a terrible job at taking care of you while I'm gone! Your hair is a mess... Let me fix it...#Yuu: “Thank you Ace.”#Ace: UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#twisted wonderland#ace trappola#ace trappola x yuu#twst#disney twst#twst ace#nyuudle#oc x canon#twst oc#twst yuu#my art#pupheart#2025#hi i love aceyuu so much i think abt them even tho im not even into twst as much anymore#something abt their dynamic kills me soooo good liikeeee fuckkkww#WHO DOES HE THINK HE ISSS#my yuu is constantly overworked cuz she feels like she needs to compensate. like she doesnt mind being burned out but theres a reason why-#-she always looks a little scrunkly. she has no time for self care she just helps people constantly no matter what#ace doesnt like that
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
sometimes i play around with the headcanon that the companions did ask Rook to join book club or to go camping or to hang out or any of the various things they do together - but Solas obscured it/erased it/controlled Rook's responses, in order to make sure Rook would feel more and more isolated and full of regret. eventually, after being turned down enough, he didn't even have to do anything anymore - they just assumed Rook didn't have the time or desire.
(very quick and dirty/cruddy comic to illustrate an idea, like most of my comics are lmao)
#datv spoilers#dragon age the veilguard#dragon age fanart#rook datv#solas datv#not gonna tag the others because they're just a garbled mess in there lmao#dragon age spoilers#Marisol de Riva#is this the headcanon i'm fully going in on? idk lol#not excusing poor/rushed writing but i do think narratively it's a super interesting idea PERSONALLY#like Solas being in Rook's head and making them forget like a WHOLE MAJOR EVENT and continue to just NOT NOTICE OR REALIZE#is pretty fucking powerful blood magic and we also know even from Harding's throwaway line that Solas is capable of A LOT of mind fuck#so i like the idea that he has a lot more influence than is let on narratively in the game#but only when at the lighthouse - outside of the lighthouse he doesn't have as much control i think#like he still obviously does but i think he can only dream visit Rook in the lighthouse#also Marisol's hair is impossibly long in her fade-walking self for ~reasons lmao#JUST FUCKIN AROUND honestly lmao
663 notes
·
View notes
Text
since Eng is getting 7.5 soon(?), I felt motivated to go back to my Meleanor rig and make her a couple of lesson animations! ...except for alchemy, because the cauldron bubbles proved too hard to photoshop around, whoops.
maybe she just got lost on her way to the classroom...?
(credit: backgrounds are from the game, I just put her on top of 'em)
(aside from the backgrounds, this is not an edit, I drew her from scratch! please do not tag or treat as an edit!)
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 5 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 5 spoilers#gif warning#gifs that will inexplicably never get a perfect no matter how many cupcakes you use warning#let's just say she hasn't been added to the alchemy schedule yet#AS PER USUAL#(sam sneaks in at night and messes with the schedule so we have to buy candy from him instead)#(i promise i will stop spamposting eventually) (they gotta stop giving me characters to obsess over first)#anyway in my continuing efforts to manifest a meleanor card into existence#it's time to remember i made this a million years ago#just blow off some of the dust and cobwebs that have accumulated here...#'i'm only gonna add a couple of things i won't do too much'#(spends ten minutes trying to decide what color goggles she should have)#(flipping back and forth between green and purple) it's no use she looks good in everything#spineposting#(not me stealth editing because i didn't realize the wrong arm attachment had somehow popped in whoops)
4K notes
·
View notes