#I'm just a mess...
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
audiovisualrecall · 20 days ago
Text
I'm just...resenting and then feeling guilty for resenting when I'm in such a privileged position but then feeling angry at that idea bc I'm luckier than I could be but it's so tenuous but other ppl make do but other ppl have made this work before me but---
#i thought i would be making art and things like crazy abd would have some small trickling income from my etsy and id be doing like volunteer#work and spending time outdoors and being super creative and maybe even applying for a craft fair as a vendor maybe#instead I'm... in nearly the same place i was 3 months ago. with barely anything to show for it. i didnt do any volunteer work#i still dont have the spoons or mental energy to do anything like protest or anything like that#and every time i do something that isnt Work (projects for income purposes) i feel guilty#especially when its like. going to cape cod w my parents. going to the beach.#spending money on clothing or art supplies. going to stores to shop for those things.#spending time just sitting around outside. gardening. whatever. i feel Bad and guilty#like oh i have time for THESE things but not - calling my reps or going to a protest or doing ANYTHING for other ppl!?#and like. I'm just trying to mentally stay afloat and trying desperately to make this thing work out#i need to make it work so i can get health insurance without needing to work for someone else#i need to make it work so i can be a Person#and i also need to let myself do fun things or useless things sometimes.#but this overwhelming guilt for not doing ANYTHING fpr anyone else while things are going to shit for so many#and I'm here safe at home. i dont have to pay rent i dont have to worry abt not having a safe place to live or abt food or anything#my parents bought me a pair of sandles. bc i couldnt pick which pair to buy between 2#and I'm so ashamed of this. like.#id be dead if not for them.#i cant fully take care of myself even if i still had a fulltime job#and when i did i didnt do anything creative at all...#I'm just a mess...#like i need to figure this out i cant fail at this#I'm spending all of my spoons on this. and on vague occasional attempts to engage with friends....#i cant even get myself to call the dentist and reschedule my cleaning#and I'm fine w going to the cape again bc.#i want to get to enjoy something#i need to spend time on the cape#and thats so fucking spoiled of me right like.#i should just make do#i should just get a job and work till I'm miserable and old and die
2 notes · View notes
themintman · 1 month ago
Text
Tumblr media Tumblr media
He's doing his best okay.
4K notes · View notes
fineapple20 · 10 months ago
Text
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
Portraits
Retouched this set from last year, because it was haunting me laying there 80% finished
14K notes · View notes
sinkfood · 6 months ago
Text
Tumblr media
did you know there aren't any god-like powers of indigestion
4K notes · View notes
calmparticles · 1 month ago
Text
Tumblr media
like glue ?
2K notes · View notes
egophiliac · 6 days ago
Note
Any thoughts on Leona’s possible sleepwear?
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
2K notes · View notes
poorly-drawn-mdzs · 6 days ago
Text
Tumblr media Tumblr media
MDZS Modern AU where Madam Lan faked her death years ago, and the secret comes out in a random burger joint, in the middle of her estranged son's first date.
Part 2 ->
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#digital art#MDZS Au#Mdzs modern AU#Burger time AU#This AU (and punchline) hinges on the fact that this family drama happens right when wangxian are like...barely even a thing.#WWX is mostly just curious about this guy and wants to be friends (Flirting is to get a funny reaction - he's not really crushing yet)#and LWJ is in the hellpit of both feeling new feelings for the first time *and* the grief and turmoil of the Lan family drama resurging.#'Oh PD-MDZS that ruins the teenxian dynamic' MAYBE. But it works so well for pre-resurrection wangxian. Here me out:#You have chronic 'I can help so I will' WWX who sticks by LWJ despite the first 'date' going thermonuclear.#and a LWJ that genuinely is falling in love with this boy but feels like he's -#trapping WWX in a 'relationship' with him out of obligation or worse - pity.#And the fact the Family drama is around his mum coming back into his life? The one who felt so trapped she faked her death to get away?#LWJ is about to have a truly tormental conga line of emotions he cannot fully cope with.#The fallout will still be there. That's essential Wangxian building blocks.#They will reunite years later...under the glow of indoor lighting.#WWX reciting such a specific burger order that LWJ doesn't even have to look to know who it is.#And they spend hours reminiscing and laughing at how messed up those years were.#There is a promise at the end of that conversation. Numbers exchanged. A fruitful change to start again.#Stay tuned for more of this AU. I'm unwell about it.
1K notes · View notes
tacoprophecies · 1 year ago
Text
Tumblr media
I have never drawn either of these people before but I enjoyed the court case a lot.
8K notes · View notes
starmonsterrr · 8 months ago
Text
Tumblr media
[ * Never felt more free in my life ]
3K notes · View notes
nadiajustbe · 1 year ago
Text
One of my favorite parts about the writing of Howl's Moving Castle is how easy it is to write off all the things from our world at first as him just being a weird wizard™ (also thanks to bestie @jutenium for spotting this I wouldn't put it like that without you!!/pos). Sure, Sophie uses weird descriptions, but readers have every reason to believe them because of the way Howl is presented as a character. When Sophie says he wrote with a quill that doesn't need an ink, you wouldn't think it was actually a ballpoint pen, you would think Howl had just enchanted his quill so that it wouldn't need ink! When she adds that she can't make out a single word, you think he has matchingly terrible handwriting, but in fact Sophie has simply never seen a pen writing. When she sees the mysterious labels on his books, you think he's keeping a lot of obscure magical literature, but it's really just an encyclopedia and a guide like "Top 10 Rugby Tips." When Sophie notices the bottles in Howl's bathtub, you think they're some kind of magical jars where he keeps girl's hearts, but I'm almost certain that they're just 'Dove' and 'Head and Shoulders' that he's enhanced with his spells and put silly labels on. When you read Calicifer singing a song in a language Sophie doesn't understand, you think it's some kind of ancient cipher or code, but it's actually just a rugby song in Welsh that Howl sings when he's drunk. And finally, when you see the terrifying black door, which is completely shrouded in darkness, you imagine a passage to an eerie, mythical place, similar to what Miyazaki showed us - but it's just fucking Wales.
5K notes · View notes
bl00dalchemist · 2 days ago
Text
Tumblr media
Trying to make friends.
1K notes · View notes
wardingshout · 7 months ago
Text
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
ALTTP december warm ups and doodling (and one from today, happy new year)
3K notes · View notes
milkamel · 22 days ago
Note
i want to hold pv so gently
im gonna cry just from him on my palm
Tumblr media
Not exactly on the palm but someone is holding him
Bonus:
Tumblr media Tumblr media
783 notes · View notes
h20milk · 6 months ago
Text
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
tfw you fall in love with the magicless prefect that keeps running around campus 🤦‍♀️
1K notes · View notes
thimblings · 1 month ago
Text
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
sometimes i play around with the headcanon that the companions did ask Rook to join book club or to go camping or to hang out or any of the various things they do together - but Solas obscured it/erased it/controlled Rook's responses, in order to make sure Rook would feel more and more isolated and full of regret. eventually, after being turned down enough, he didn't even have to do anything anymore - they just assumed Rook didn't have the time or desire.
(very quick and dirty/cruddy comic to illustrate an idea, like most of my comics are lmao)
663 notes · View notes
egophiliac · 11 months ago
Text
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
since Eng is getting 7.5 soon(?), I felt motivated to go back to my Meleanor rig and make her a couple of lesson animations! ...except for alchemy, because the cauldron bubbles proved too hard to photoshop around, whoops.
maybe she just got lost on her way to the classroom...?
Tumblr media
(credit: backgrounds are from the game, I just put her on top of 'em)
(aside from the backgrounds, this is not an edit, I drew her from scratch! please do not tag or treat as an edit!)
4K notes · View notes