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Intoxicating Fear (Prologue)
Master-Post // Chapter one
Oh yeah, we're doing prequels now baby... just a little extra chapter for IF fans, I am working on the redraft atm and I hope you accept this as an apology for the absurdly long wait... but it shows the new route that IF is taking, with more plot and character development... whaaattt crazyyy
Also sorry for all the spam, I need another place to ramble for all my thoughts instead of here... if only twitter still existed, sigh...
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Atlas ducked as another ball of flame was hurled at his head. He could feel the heat of the fire as it roared over his head and past his wall of refuge.
āCome out, come out little hero. I promise I wonāt burn you alive, maybe scorch you a bit. Scars build character, Atlas, or are you too young to know that yet?ā
Atlas huffed, his ears straining to hear when the stream of fire lessened over the villainās stupid monologue. Too young to know about scars? What a dick. Atlas waited for the stream to burn out, listening as the roar from the fire-villain Arson lessened. The heat rippling in the air diminished as Atlas waited, before the absence altogether.
And then.
There.
Atlas vaulted the wall, clicking his fingers and relishing the familiar sound of cobalt electricity crackling around his hand, spreading up his arms to his shoulders. He sent one quick bolt of lightning towards Arson as he landed on his feet and kept running. The second one he aimed at Arsonās head.
His aim was perfect; Atlas didnāt have to check to make sure. He watched as the electricity touched the villainās face and simmered away. Atlasās eyes widened as the villain laughed, his mouth lighting up like a jack-o-lanterns on Halloween. āUh-oh Atlas... My turn.ā
Atlas was too slow. He was too slow in moving to get out of the way and he saw the flames coming and he was too slow. He was going to burn. He may even die. No.
The wind was knocked out of him as he felt someone barrel into him just before the flames hit him and drag him behind the safety of an alley.
Archangel panted slightly, a smile on his face. āYou were too slow.ā
āMy electricity doesnāt work with him,ā Atlas replied mutinously, glaring at his hands, his traitorous fingers curled into fists. He was too slow. āI didnāt ā I frozeā¦ā
āI saw.ā
āWhereās Tempest when you need her?ā Atlas asked, wishing the water hero was here to douse out the fire villain. He could hear the sirens in the distance, no doubt the fire trucks and police finally on their way here.
āAre all the civilians cleared?ā Archangel asked. Atlas nodded.
āYeah, I got āem out before he started burning down the entire block.ā
Archangel nodded, pressing his back flush against the brick wall. He tucked his giant, white-speckled wings in tight so they wouldnāt be exposed to Arsonās attacks. āGood. Then we can wait him out.ā
Atlasās eyes widened, head snapping to his boss. āWait him out? Heās going to destroy every building if we wait!ā
Archangel threw his hands up. āWhat do you want me to do? Hmm? Your electricity doesnāt work, and I canāt get to him without at least a distraction or back-up.ā Archangel muttered, his wings flaring in irritation. āWe want to keep casualties to a minimum. Itās not always about catching the bad guy.ā
āStop speaking to me like Iām your sidekick,ā Kit hissed. āI know itās about saving people, but the emergency responders are coming now. We have to stop Arson or at least incapacitate him before they come.ā
Archangel stared at Kit for a long time, and for a moment his gaze softened behind his mask. āGod, Iāll never escape Noble with you around,ā he grumbled fondly. Kit smirked at the number one hero.
āNot a chance,ā he replied. Atlas scanned the alley they were in. It wasnāt closed off at the end, the grey concrete floors and walls led to a corner at the back into another alley. āOkay. Hereās what weāre going to do. You slip behind the building and fly up and tell me when youāre on the roof. Then Iāll step out and distract him and you can attack from above.ā
Archangel nodded. āYouāre right. Nobody ever looks up.ā
Atlas pressed himself into the wall as Archangel passed him, wings tucked in as he disappeared around the corner.
āHave I frightened you, little hero?ā Arson yelled. āArenāt you supposed to be some kind of prodigy?! Nobleās apprentice, right?ā
Kitās blood ran cold at the mention of his Mentor. He remained silent as he waited for Archangelās confirmation he was in position. The hero had wings, what was taking him so bloody long?
āYou are, arenāt you?ā Arson cooed, a smile in his words. God, Kit wanted to punch him in his mouth until he choked on blood, until he couldnāt speak anymore. āThe original hero and see how far heās fallen. Hmm? Tell me, what does he spend his days doing now? Wiping drool from his chiāā
Kit burst from behind the wall, moving with the improved currents in the night air, and before Arson could get a stream of fire off at him, Atlasās fist already connected with the villainās jaw, and they went down.
āAtlas! Shit,ā Archangel muttered through his earpiece, but Kit didnāt care. He couldnāt use his lightning alone to hurt the Villain, so instead he charged his muscles with it, using it to make his punches harder, to enhance the impact, the pain.
Arsonās head whipped to the side and straightened, and Kit punched him again and again and again, until Arson couldnāt move his head back; until blood splattered across Kitās skin that was visible through his fingerless gloves, pinpricking the flesh with vermillion speckles. A flurry of wings and wind, but Kit didnāt get off Arson. Not when he knew he was down. Not when he knew he wouldnāt harm anyone tonight again, at the very least. Not until he felt hands on him, fingers digging in.
āAtlas. Atlas. Atlas!ā Archangel yelled, grabbing Kit by the arms and dragging him up.
āWipe the drool off your own chin now, motherfucker,ā Kit growled as Archangel pulled him away from the fire villain. Archangel spread his wings wide, shielding the villain from Kitās wrathful gaze, forcing the young hero to look at him.
āWhat the hell was that, Atlas?ā
Kit pulled free of Archangelās hold, just in time as a bullet whizzed right where Kit was standing not two seconds ago. Once again, the breath was stolen from his lungs as Archangel grabbed him and shot backwards, away from the unseen shooter. No doubt Arsonās accomplice. Shit⦠can this night get any worse?
When they were successfully shielded from the shooter, a few bullets going wide, their radios cackled to life, scratching and cracking and behind it a voice. āāthe oldā¦ā Both Atlas and Archangel leaned into the walkie talkie, ears straining to make out the choppy voice. āby the ferrisā¦ā
More interference cut the rest of the sentence off, but Kit and Archangelās eyes met over the receiver. That was Tempest. Kit flinched as a bullet almost grazed his ear as it shot by and made a circular shaped dent in the concrete.
āAnother Attackāā
Kit stood up. Archangel stared at him. āIāll go.ā
āNoāā
āIām useless here anyway,ā Kit protested. āTempest needs me. If I can help her, at least Iāll feel like Iām not completely useless.ā
Archangelās eyes softened. āHow many lives did you save today? Hmm? Do you think saving people is useless?ā
Kit waved Archangel away. āYou know what I mean. Iām restless anyways, helping Tempest will help me calm down at least. Update us when this is clear.ā
Kit met the fire trucks and ambulances as he rounded the corner, heading south towards the old pier. Tempest said it was next to the old Ferris wheel, and luckily there were only two Ferris wheels in the city, the old one by the pier which had been closed for years now, and the new one they moved up town, closer to the wealthier district. The pier became the shipping docks and people got tired of seeing crates being hauled in when they were trying to have a romantic date.
The old fairground was only a few streets from where Kit and Archangel were fighting, and with Kitās abilities, and the amount of static charge in the night air he was able to propel himself faster than an athletic civilian. Though nowhere near as fast as Blitz whose power was super speed, or Crowe who could travel through any shadow, but still. Kit enjoyed the wind on his face, the power in his veins almost singing as he turned down a street and saw the Ferris wheel on the old fairground come into view.
His radio crackled to life again. It was Tempest her voice quieter now.
āAtlas⦠no, all heroes, stay away,ā she whispered, the signal better the closer Kit got to her location. āStay away from the old pier. I thinkā¦ā Tempest cut herself off with a gasp, static crackling as Atlas pumped his legs faster. He never heard Tempest so scared in his life. āI think this villain is Omen.ā
And it was as if all the wind had been stolen from him, ripped away in an instant. His power stuttered in his limbs, and he almost tripped over himself with how quickly his electricity cut out of his limbs like an old engine sputtering and spitting to a stop. The rails outside the fairground ticket booth acted as the final breaks as Kit ran into them, his heart thundering in his ears, the waves echoing back his terrified heartbeat to him.
Omen. Omen⦠Omen was a ghost story, he wasnāt⦠he wasnāt an active Villain anymore. The only time he⦠God, Kit wanted to be sick. The only attack Omen was known for was his fight with Noble. Nobleās final fight that ensured he never worked again. That he didnāt even get to remember his own name sometimes, that he would be left, stuck, in a prison of his own mind.
āAtlasā¦ā Kitās earpiece cackled to life, the sound of bullets and wind in the background as Archangel spoke to him. āDonāt go there. Wait for back up. Do not face Omen, do you understand me?ā
Kitās eyes narrowed into a glare as he surveyed the wooden boardwalk. āAtlas! God damn it, for once just listen to me. I am your superior. Noble wouldnāt want you toāā
āNoble doesnāt want anything anymore,ā Kit replied, voice cold. āOmen saw to that.ā
āAtlas!" He heard Archangel curse over the receiver. "Damn it, Kit! Donāā
Kit unhooked the wire from his earpiece and turned off his walkie talkie. This wasnāt about helping Tempest, or Archangel, or his helpless restlessness anymore. No, this was personal. Kit jumped the railing onto the boardwalk, before he could talk himself out of it. His body screamed at him to wait, to fall back, but he couldnāt. He refused.
For Omen to appear one night, as if out of the woodwork itself⦠that wasnāt a coincidence, and it wasnāt a coincidence that Kit happened to be on patrol so close to him either. Despite his fear threatening to choke him, and his limbs feeling a little lighter from exerting his power, Kit continued down onto the boardwalk, scanning the kiosks and listening for sounds of a fight between Omen and Tempest over the waves lapping against the rocks below.
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I insanley love your intoxicating fear series girlie !!!! Like itās totes my absolute fav story to reread !! Genuinely canāt wait to see what happens next like I hope hero/kit gets justice one dayyy šš
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TW - intox, somno, cnc, forced breeding
We're talking on a video call like we usually do in the evenings. I'm smoking a bowl to help wind down for the night. When I finish, you suggest I might want to do another. I've been really stressed out lately, it'd be helpful to have a little more, you tell me. I have been stressed lately, why not? I fill another bowl half way, but you convince me to make it another full one. After I'm done the second bowl, you can see how faded I am. I tell you that the weed is hitting me really hard and I think I'm gonna go lie down. You wish me well and say goodnight. I stumble through the house in a stoned haze, eventually making it into bed. I drowsily strip myself of my clothes before rolling over and falling asleep. I'm too deep in slumber to hear the door unlock. I gave you a spare key for emergencies, after all. You creep into my bedroom and see my naked body sprawled across the bed. You quietly take off your clothes and climb on top of me. Kissing your way down my back while running your hands all over my limp body. Feeling up my ass and tits and then finally, my pussy. I let out soft moans in my sleep. As you rub my clit and fondle my ass, I start to become wet. You then line yourself up with my slick entrance and ram your entire cock inside me. I wake with a scream, a concoction of panic and pleasure. As you begin violently thrusting, I try to get my bearings. My head is so dizzy and my body is so heavy. I let out a feeble scream as I try to resist, but it's no use. My body is far to weak and I can't put up a fight. I am pinned in place by the weight of your body on top of me. I have no idea who is inside me, but I can't seem to focus on anything but how good it feels. You lean down on top of me and begin grabbing at my breast. You pinch my nipple and I can't help but let out a moan. You chuckle softly between grunts, you know a filthy whore like me likes being used. Your thrusts are so hard and deep that it doesn't take long for me to cum on your cock. You continue to fuck me for what feels like hours. I am so out of it that I have no concept of time. I eventually let myself drown in the pleasure. It doesn't matter who is fucking me, the only thing that matters is how good it feels. After you've lost track of how many times you've made me to cum, you feel yourself get close. Your thrusts become faster and faster. You pull my hips hard against you, forcing your cock as deep into my pussy as possible. With a loud grunt, you let your load out inside me. You pull out and let my hips go, causing me to slump onto the bed. You watch as your seed seeps out of my throughly used pussy. You then put your clothes back on and leave, locking the door behind you. I lay in the wet patch knowing I should feel mortified, but instead I feel euphoric. Having my rapists seed pouring from my violated pussy turns me on all the more. It's not long before the exhaustion and intoxication lull me back into a deep sleep. I sleep well knowing my only purpose is to be a good cocksleeve. It doesn't matter if I'm conscious or not.
#submisive and breedable#rap3 fantasy#rapekink#cnc rough#r4p3 fantasy#r4p3 kink#r4p3play#cnc drugging#cnc somno#intox cnc#rough cnc#cnc k!nk#breeding pet#breeding k1nk#f0rced breeding#somno breeding#breeding toy#weed intox#intoxication kink#cvm in me#c0cksleeve#c0ckslut#somno fantasy#somno k!nk#high sex is so. fuck#r@pe fantasy#fill me up#fear kink#r@pe kink#r@pe play
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Getting you high and dumb before I examine you⦠keeping you all sweet and pliant. All sleepy and drugged up, so obedient and good for me. The edibles I gave you getting rid of all your anxiety and fear. Thereās nothing to be scared of my love⦠you just get to feel all nice and floaty while I do my tests š¤
#nsft concept#nsft textpost#medical kink#soft nsft#medical play#intox kink#weed intox#intoxication kink#exam kink#medical examination#soft medical play#medical kink blog#medfet#doctor kink#comfort nsft#mlm nsft#praise#intox#intox to help with fear/anxiety
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what's really hitting right now is how much we love the Real Life version of them.
idk know how to explain it but back when dan was gone and we hadn't seen them together in a long time, when i thought about them i envisioned the romanticized/timeline lore/grandiose fictional version of dnp? the whimsy and hope and beauty of it all
but the past few months have just been them as they are. that barrier is gone between us and it doesn't feel like we're witnessing a performance to react to, but being invited to exist in the same space as them.
they're real people who are more genuine than they've ever been and we love them even more and in a better way because of it. idk dude. i just genuinely love those two humans and it's truly a privilege to be let in and exist alongside them
#does any of this make any sense i fear not#during the hiatus we had memories and nostalgia but also the Story which is intoxicating and so easy to get swept up in#but the real dnp...just as they are with no fanfare or performance are so so easy to love and enjoy#you know??? like the parasocial urge to befriend these genuinely cool people#because theyāre just interesting and funny and cool and nice#and not because theyāre the main characters in The Dnp Cinematic Universe
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benson getting randy so high that he goes non verbal and just talks in whines and gruntsš©·š©·š©·
randy rubbing his face on bensons old tank top because the soft fabric just feels so good on his face
benson petting randy's hair and watching as randy starts to grind down into the mattress <333333
#i fear i have an intox kink#hhhhhh#randy loves getting too high and letting benson manhandle him <33333#š¦#ranson#stockroom syndrome#the passenger
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cishet men and minors dni
#i fear i smoked the slutweed tonight#lesbian#nonbinary#dykeposting#weed intox#butch bait#femme bait#dyke bait#lesbian nsft#queer nsft#dyke nsft#nonbinary nsft#t4t nsft#t4t#šš¼ļø
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thinks abt like,,,, big sister or mom going to a club w her friends, leaving me at home because stuff like that isnāt for me (& it makes me anxious), telling me to just go to sleep n sheāll be back at home when i wake up <33 waking up a few hours later with her looming above me like a sleep paralysis demon, alcohol on her breath, hands groping me all over,,, <33 whispering sweet praises to me n telling me to be Good and just lie there so she can use me <33 yeah,,,, houhhhh
#eury yapping#siscest#siscon#yuricest#mommy k!nk#free use kink#specifically like. the fear of her being intoxicated. is the yummy part here#smthn about it is so exciting as a concept
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its amazing how sleeping with my cunt stuffed makes me dream about being kept captive and used all the time <33 i woke up sore and started edging immediately
#im breaking my brain i fear#ftm free use#ftm ns/fw#cnc intox#ftm breeding#ftm cnc#ftm nsft#trans cnc#cnc kidnapping#cuntboy#mdni#bd/sm slave#someone use me#send r3pe threats#mine
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04/18/2025 Progress Update:
TLDR: 2K written, about 24.5K so far drafted for ch 6
Lord I actually got to sit down and write today, thank God. And we got past poker! A bittersweet victory, to be past poker. I don't know if it will properly come across in the fic, and that's okay because the experience was fun anyway, but I put a lot of thought, time, and effort into these poker rounds. Thus it's both a solemn and happy parting to be done with them.
Now, we're just finishing up the last parts of section 3. They are already written, we are just fleshing them out, connecting pieces. Then we'll do the same with sections 4 and 5 and we'll be good to edit!! Maybe this'll be done at an adequate time after all (I say while knocking on every piece of wood in my general vicinity lol).
Kokichi POV has been ahhhh hard but we're doing our best. I haven't done Kokichi POV since the very beginning of ch 4, so it's been a good like two months. I gotta get back into the swing of things, put my head into my best dude, what could he possibly be thinking? The answer is lots of things and mostly self-deprecating, because I can't resist making him hate himself in anything I write. But I think I honestly just make every character hate themselves, which is... sad, but I do feel that from a lot of DR characters in general. Maybe it's just my interpretation, but it seems so few DR characters actually like who they are. And GOD that's relatable, so here I am making them all have this deep-seated hatred of themselves.
Sometimes I hope I don't come across like I hate the characters when I write like that because I AM OBSESSED WITH THEM so... could never ever ever hate them lmao. I just like making them have inner turmoil because it's relatable and interesting. I'm also very "story-first", as I'm sure you've now guessed, so I like giving characters struggles that directly correlate with where the plot is going. Like Shuichi's alcoholism is a core component of this fic and so is Kokichi's self-hatred. Characteristics that drive what they do and how they act in certain situations. This fic's plot would not continue if neither of these things existed.
Ahhh maybe that was a little self-indulgent and pretentious. Apologies, I've had a bit of whiskey in me lmao. But I'm excited to continue, excited to have ch 6 and 7 out. I do think I'll probably take another small break after 7 to write a one-shot, or maybe do the second chapter of the vampire one. We'll see. I've been getting so many ideas lately, which is... really abnormal for me. I tend to not have many ideas, but in talking with friends and hashing out scenes, it's like... I suddenly have so many I want to write one day. Double-edged-sword for sure, because it is both delightful to imagine and also a little stressful to think about lol.
Anyway, Jesus this is long. I'm glad I do those summaries at the top because this is like... a lot of rambling lmaoooo. Well, it's mostly for me, so I'm gonna be kind to myself. I want to one day have all of this for me to read back on and see what I was thinking when I wrote certain chapters. It's fun!!
I hope you all have a lovely lovely night. I send all the good vibes out to anyone reading. This weekend will be absolutely demolished by us, squashed like a bug. Have a goodnight!!
#thwwichphantomthief#this is off topic but i always get scared of drama too lol#like I've joked about being the weirdo word-heavy writer of the saiou fandom before and truly I don't care#just cuz i like it and that's all that matters#but i don't wanna get caught up in any drama lol#and i think my mind is just going there because of like youtube recs because i personally haven't experienced any drama yet#but it is a fear of mine#i don't wanna be *known* as something#just kiwi writing kiwi things and she's having fun that's all i want#so hopefully that's what it stays as!#kiwi the āwrites too many words but has funā saiou author#i can't control how i'm perceived which is scary but i hope that's all i'm perceived as#anyway i really shouldn't write tags slightly intoxicated and sleepy because i get too introspective#hope yall have a lovely lovely night!!!
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uhhhh
goin out tonight with the homies and also new homies and I decided to have a lil drinky drink bc for some reason alcohol takes multiple hours to affect me lately so uh. anyways. I make my lil drink thats at least a double, and then my nephew calls me over to help him build a desk and I end up having 3 beers with him while also bringing my lil drink.
so Iām now 3 beers and at least a shot deep and am starting to feel with nice little buzz and I will also be drinking later and playing golf ohhhhhh boy
#cowboy.speaks#I mean#sounds like a good time fr#Iām v happy I managed to catch a lil buzz BEFORE getting home from the outing (which is what usually happens)#I know weāll be drinking beers and margs there#and one of the femmes likes to take shots and Iām the only one that will take multiple shots with her#on new years we were taking shots of tequila together lmao#so I fear I may not be sober for⦠the rest of the night#wish me luck šš«¶#intox
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the thing is kyle being irish is important to me too. but not in the way that anyone else who says āwhat about his irish ancestryā wants it to be. his mother teaching him irish isnāt value neutral. itās a connection to a language with a political context. a language that colonial systems try to equate with violence, to bely that it is rooted in liberation. a language that has fought to survive, taught by a mother who in at least one origin was associated with a significant anti-colonial conflict.
it is not equal to his brownness, nor does it supercede it, the way some people talk about it. it is complementary to it, while also whole and significant outside of it. ireland is not a country without its racism and colorism. you don't need to look far to hear how it treats the people it considers othered. that its pop culture narratives propel immigrants of color who have succeeded tells a story of all the people of color who haven't. itās why the white latino headcanons specifically rooted in his father being latino of irish descent particularly leave such a bad taste in my mouthāit matters that the irish superhero is also a man of color. he is specifically the son of immigrants. i care more how his story resonates with other people of color in similar spaces. i care about how the lone torchbearer is, no matter how you look at him, rooted in this kind of expression.
#sorry vincetuals. mutual reminded me of the intoxicating factor of that biracial nerd.#wait that's ambiguous given the other superhero story i'm talking about#sorry vincetuals. mutual reminded me of that biracial nerd whose arc is defined by solitude and a fear of what he may become--#it is actually like legitimately so special to me that he speaks irish.
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OH MY GDD I FORGOT TO TELL YALL MY WIFE CAME HOME YESTERDAY AND JUST. WOOP. PICKED ME UP LIKE NOTHING. AND THEN DID IT AGAIN LIKE 20 MINUTES LATER AGAIN LIKE NOTHING.
#bunny rambles#she is so strong šµāš«šµāš«šµāš«šµāš«#and admittedly ik she's been able to do this for a while cus she can throw me & ppl larger than me around in sex easy#but also like!!! i get so easily spooked when people touch my sides/waist/wrap their arms around me and my default response is to usually#throw myself on the floor but between the grief and sick and all i just. relaxed into her touch#this is a big deal for meeee i rarely let people touch me in ways where i can be manipulated physicallyyyyyy bc i so nervyyyy#yes this is why i like cnc so much. frankly cnc is like... my favorite bc i want sex often but im actually really bad at receiving touch and#cnc (whether it be intox or rape/molest play or somno etc etc) is a form of play that makes sex a lot easier bc my little white dog can have#its little freak outs without us having to Stop Completely. and i love that there is kink/play forms that allow me to be my flawed little#self and NOT feel like im letting whoever im with down bc. they're into it.#the relationship between my trauma and kink is i do kink play in Spite of my trauma btw. i fawned mostly with the experiences growing up so#being allowed to fight back is really nice. g-d i love my wife so much. when we met we started as fwb and she heard me out when i was like#hey look I'm real into u and im very carnally attracted to you and also if we take it any further with you touching me (she ate me out in#the backseat of her car our first hang out šµāš« never let anyone do that b4 her) im gonna cry and she was like āokay! thats okay!ā and we#got to have beautiful sex and i got to pleasure her and then we sat together and she let me just cry it out (bc its not something i can#control. its not me its the kid) & it turns out if im given the space to cry a couple times in vanilla settings when adjusting to new touch#I'll not only Stop but become a beloved sex pet. also this is why i say im rarely seeking and dont like pickup play as much bc i am forced#to only top in most circumstances which is fun and all but i do desire being touched also yk? and shes the only person whos ever really been#THIS patient with me. and it makes me happy that i was finally able to explore and embrace#my sexuality and desires and sexy fears and like. yeah. idk. big ramble of many topics < 3
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Ok but what if i pathetically stumbled stoned into the small establishment you run at night? What if you locked me in the back room? Dumb puppy should be in a cell for its own good, clearly it's straying around the streets without care or purpose, right? What if it was a friday night? What if nobody but you were coming in the whole weekend?
#bottomposting#subposting#t4t nsft#wlw nsft#horrordynamic#nb nsft#butch sub#butch puppy#hard k1nk#dark k1nk#kidnap fantasy#fear play#horror kink#intox#bd/sm community#bd/sm pet#bd/sm cnc#bd/sm masochist#dubcon tw
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third night in a row iāve taken melatonin and gone to bed at a reasonable hour, and the third night in a row iām gonna fall asleep thinking about all the ways someone could violate me while i slept (difference this time is iām going to bed knotted + filled with cum lube)
#iāve also been increasing the amount i take each night#and i like to think itās someone doing it to me and i have no idea the dose is increasing and i wonder why im getting tired so quickly#until one night i take enough that it knocks me out enough you can do whatever you like without fear of me waking up#ftm nsft#nsft puppy#ftm puppy#puppy sub#trans nsft#ftm sub#romeo.txt#intox kink#cnc intox#cnc somno#cnc k!nk
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Learn my damages and emotionally manipulate me, slip things into the food and drink you make for me. Iām too dumb to think for myself. Itās for the best you keep me drugged and pliable. Iām nothing but a toy for you. You treat me like you love me but you know you only want to use me. Iām yours. Never let me sober up, be possessive, cut me off from anyone but you. Whittle my world down to you and you alone.
#fear play#mommy k!nk#dom mommy#1cky mommy#subby boys#bd/sm mommy#subby men#subby puppy#fdom stuff#femdxm#domme/sub#fem domme#domme mommy#cnc fr33use#cnc k!nk#cnc free use#intox cnc#rough cnc
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