#LET HIM SCOOOOOOOORE

[babygirlspurgeon]

SPURGE CLOSE UP ON THE STREAM FINALLY HI

[bigskydreaming]

Scoooooooore! LOL gotta love that wayback machine. Anyone remember me talking once about this series I did back in the Dark Angel fandom, one-shots of varying length focused around Max’s family who we never really saw much of in the show? So ever since then I’ve been trying to find them anywhere, since it was before Ao3, I didn’t use ff.net for that fandom, and all the fic sites and archives that were DA specific are pretty much dead and gone-zo nowadays.....but I kept coming up empty, mostly because my dumb ass wasn’t remembering my own titles correctly. So then I started searching by plugging in actual lines I could remember from the fics themselves, and that worked, and quick question self, but explain to me how it is you can remember LINES you wrote in individual fics almost a decade and a half ago, more clearly than you can remember the freaking titles of those fics themselves?

Ah, me.

Course, I still only found half of them, but that half includes most of the ones I really like best, and of the ones still lost the only one I’m really bummed about and still trying hard to find is “Little Lightning Girl,” aka Jondy’s story.

Its always a trip reading really old stuff of yours though. I’m surprised, like, there’s stuff I’ve written from around this same time, both fanfic and original, where I’m just like YIKES, no, hard pass, we’re just gonna pretend this wasn’t a thing....but most of these hold up surprisingly well? I’m pleasantly pleased? Chuffed, almost? 

Zane’s “Zen and the Art of Not Breaking Your Customer’s Fucking Face (remember: its bad for business)” is a definite keeper, heh, I amuse myself tremendously sometimes. 

Zack’s “Rules for When the Sky is Falling (plus side: this time its not your fault)” is a little weak in spots, like there’s stuff that in hindsight I could see easily strengthening the arc in that one but I’m wondering how much of that has to do with changing/evolving views on character types in general....just because Zack was never a fave of mine back when I was watching then, but falls into a character type I have a lot more appreciation and empathy for now, and that definitely would have led me to write his story differently now than I did then. 

Ben’s “They Keep Calling Me Crazy (I say: its the world that’s gone mad)” is kinda the complete reverse.....Ben falls into a character type I have soooooo much less patience for nowadays than I did back then, mostly because of well. The over-glorification of such characters and me being like okay but what about yawn though. Reading his took me back more fully to that mindset than I’ve managed in years though, so it didn’t annoy me as much as I thought it would lmfao.

Tinga’s “A Storybook Kind of Princess (a Grimm kind of happily ever after)” is as weird to me now as it was back then. Easily one of the most experimental “I have no idea what I’m actually aiming for here, just go with it” fics I’ve ever written, and apparently fifteen years later, I STILL can’t decide if I think it worked and I actually like how it came out or not. Hahaha, what is decisiveness though, other than a myth and hashtag Fake News.

Kavi’s “I Never Learned How To Play Ball (striking out comes naturally)” is still one of the weakest of the series, that hasn’t changed.....I didn’t have a really clear idea what I wanted to do with him or where I wanted to take that and that unfortunately kinda shows and the re-reading didn’t really spark anything in terms of what I would definitely have done differently if writing it now.

Vada’s “Chase Me To The Desert, Watch Me Live, I Bet I’ll Thrive (you better believe: I was born to survive)” is the complete opposite, because its another one of those very experimental pieces where I was totally winging it because we knew next to nothing about Vada in the series and I totally just pulled everything about her character and an entire storyline for her completely out of my ass and said sure, why not go with this, but surprisingly it worked I think, and it feels disconnected enough from the rest but standing alone well enough on its own that I can probably do something original with it, as I actually really like the voice I came up with for her.

Eva’s “Big Sisters Know Best (so when I say I’ll die for you: just say thank you and never look back)” I’m actually damn proud of, because its always fun when you successfully sucker punch yourself, let alone with a plot twist you don’t see coming on the reread even though you came up with it in the first place, lmfaaaaaao, and you’re like well hot damn, I do NOT remember doing that but guess I did, wow, go me.

But the big winner for me was Syl’s “The Kind of Girl You Bring Home To Meet Your Parents (when you’ve got the kind of parents that need killing).” That was always a fave, and I’m super stoked it held up as well as it did, cuz I’d hoped it would but wasn’t sure if I was just remembering it through nostalgia-colored glasses and it hadn’t actually been all that great. 

(One of the three longest ones in that series, it was a one-shot a whopping 30K in length, in which Syl wants to hijack the local mob’s operations in order to gain access to a Manticore facility in the same city so she can blow it to kingdom come, because Syl’s a little bit crazy in that ‘I know I’ve got issues and I’m totes fine with them, especially as long as I’ve got my trusty grenade launcher’ kinda way....and so to accomplish her goals, she seduces the son of the local mob boss in order to get close to his father and the inner workings of the mob. Only she eventually realizes this kid is a fucking innocent in every sense of the word, wants nothing to do with his family or their business, hates his dad, who’s abusive as hell, and once Syl concludes what she came there to do and has everything she needs, she’s halfway out the door - well, window, technically - before she stops and groans and bangs her head softly against the wall cuz she’s like, uggggh fuck, he’s totally gonna get blamed for this and his dad’s probably gonna kill him and my Jiminy Cricket’s gonna be a fucking BITCH about it forever, so, well, looks like I don’t have a choice, guess I gotta murder his dad and overthrow the mob so he can skedaddle and live a quiet life on a farm in Bumfuck, Whereverville, god, I so did not need this tonight, thanks a lot conscience, like DID I FUCKING ASK, UMM NOO?)

So like, I think that one’s got definite potential to do something else with, possibly turn into an original project, lol.

Anyway, randomness is random, but yay Wayback machine! Still kinda bummed that I could only seem to find half of them, you’d think that’d be enough to make it easy to find the other seven but nope, apparently not. Its really only Jondy’s fic that I still really want to track down though, the other six I could live without. Okay, I kinda want to reread Brin’s and see how that one holds up too. Okay and Jace’s so never mind, scratch that, still wanna find all the other seven, lmao. (I did NOT make it easy to keep track of anywhere I was or anything I was doing fifteen years ago. The mutuals on here who knew me all the way back then can attest to that, lol. Ah me, part two).

[imagineproduce101]

Kim Donghan Harry Potter AU

like youngmin, donghan is the type of gryffindor to be comfortable with being in the background of things (a bit like neville longbottom)

quiet to most people, but definitely not afraid to speak his mind hahahah

he plays quidditch as well as a chaser

his teammates joke that one day someone will fly into his long legs lol

you’re a gryffindor and of course have that lion pride

you go to all the gryffindor quidditch matches, and one day you notice donghan and what a good player he is

but not that many people are cheering for him and ur like um wtf why does he not have like a million fangirls

you start cheering for him and after the game you approach him and tell him he had a good game

he thanks you with a blush and you’re surprised at how humble he is

sometimes you’ll see him in the great hall eating meals or in the hallway and you’ll greet him

he’s a bit surprised that someone out of his immediate social circle is like friends with him?

tbh he isn’t even sure if you’re okay with him calling you a friend lol

sometimes your social circles will cross paths 

(aka sanggyun will ask you for homework help and donghan will tag along in the library bc he needs help too)

you’re ish friends with sanggyun, kenta, taehyun and sungwoon so you’ll study in the library with them

and one time theyre working on essays and donghan joins them

and you notice something about him

“hey kim donghan, your hands are really large”

all the guys start snickering as he kinda blushes

you’re pretty sure donghan kicked taehyun under the table lmao

another time you were in hogsmeade with your own friends and you saw them at the three broomsticks

and of course your friends join them, talking about various things

your friends go to grab drinks, but you’re trying to save money so you don’t buy anything

and then donghan buys you a butterbeer and you’re like wow thanks

his friends tease him

“it’s a thank you for making sure my friends don’t fail fifth year”

you snort at that bc wow donghan’s a lowkey savage

wait is that your heart beating

no way~~~~~

so then there’s this really big quidditch match between gryffindor and ravenclaw

and obv gryffindor wins and there’s this huge party in the gryffindor dorms

somehow your friends convince you into thinking that drinking half a bottle of Firewhisky would be a great idea

so of course, you get completely drunk

the next morning you wake up with this huge hangover and your friends see you and start snickering

“what?” you groaned, rubbing your eyes, “stop laughing at me, assholes”

they inform you that the night before, you’d made out with kim donghan

for like half an hour

“what?”

you’re half horrified, half embarrassed that something like that would happen

then someone knocks on the door to your dorm and donghan sticks his head inside, blushing a bit

your friends let him in, all giggling like the traitors they are and hurry out, closing the door behind you

one of them mouths “use protection!” to you and you cover your face in embarrassment

“hey (y/n),” donghan said sheepishly, handing you a mug of something that smelled herbal and strong, “i figured you might need this”

as soon as you drank it, you felt the severe pounding in your head melt away

he watches you carefully, biting his lower lip nervously

“so do you, um,” he started nervously, stammering a bit, “do you actually remember anything from last night?”

you blush 

“to be honest, no”

donghan sighed, ruffling his blond hair

“i don’t really either, but my friends told me we kissed?”

“my friends said we did a whole lot more than just kiss,” you replied dryly after downing the rest of the mug

donghan laughed, leaning back in the chair he’d sat in

“well, i’m sure by now you’ve figured out that i like you, huh~”

you stare at him

“what”

“wait, shit, you didn’t know?” donghan leaned forward quickly, almost falling out of his chair “ahh this is embarrassing.”

you laughed loudly at his pout 

“it’s okay, you’re cute”

“(y/n), don’t tease me,” he whined, crossing his arms, “i’ve liked you for a while now!”

“donghan, let’s date then”

“wait, really?”

you giggled at his dumbfounded expression, getting out of bed to quickly kiss him on the cheek

“yes, babe”

he blushed reaaaaally hard at that omg

he’s super cute as a bf tbh

brings you food, walks you to class (and asks you for homework help lmao)

sometimes he’ll do something RUDE AF like call you babygirl or backhug you

his friends roast him for days lmao

whenever he has a match you cheer super loudly for him

commentator seongwoo: “and kim donghan scoooooooores-- (Y/N), CHILL PLEASE I WOULD LIKE MY EARS INTACT)

super supportive of each other and you two hype each other up it’s adorable omg

kim donghan is just amazing omg