#Not foggy. But similar. My thoughts are turning into taffy. I try to formulate a thought and it just‚ crumbles.

[the-flowerpatch]

It's very silly, I think. Everyone here eventually has an "oh" moment. That moment when they realize they care about you. This moment never happens for any of our other friends, or at least, it doesn't anymore. Probably did when our friends were our FPs. But. I had that moment, just a few minutes ago, and.

And I. I get it. I understand. And you could look at my SP profile and see my listed groups and go, "Well that's not surprising, you've been in the flower patch since you formed," and you'd be right. But still.

I... Don't know how to label this. Should I even bother? Does it even matter? I'm a man of labels. We are too, collectively. We feel or experience something and we have to find a word for it, and if a word doesn't exist then we'll be damned, we'll make one, but.

But. Perhaps it's fine for things to go unlabeled. Whatever this is. It feels stronger than friendship, to us. Not romance, never romance, but more intense than "friendship".

And, god, friendship. We have... Thoughts on the word, as someone who's apl.at. If we could we'd never call our friends our friends. We'd never use that word to describe our relationships with them. We'd call them our stars, they burn bright in the sky and light the sky up in the most wonderful constellation one could imagine. But... Eh. They wouldn't understand. People rarely... Get it, that aspect of our identity.

But I digress.

All I know is I care about you. On top of being a stickler for labels, I'm not one to... Feel. Strong emotion. Some of us are much more emotional than others; I got the short end of the stick there and hold onto our alexithymia. Emotions are a goddamn mystery to me half the time. But what I do know is I'm tearing up writing this and you're on my mind and my heart aches, and... I don't know.

My role here is just like Stan's, it's related to you, specifically. We keep the system from panicking when you're not doing good, to put it very simply. I can do this job no problem, I don't feel emotion very well or very much, and until today I wasn't... I dunno. Until today it didn't hit me. Whatever "it" is.

All this to say... Congratulations, I guess? You got another one. I am very fond of you.