#Or how many remember the levels of obsession I had with GF YEARS ago

[buttercupshands]

Honestly if I didn't know myself better I'd make a... Uh I forgot how they're called

But anyway a quiz, question whatever

Of what thing I should revisit first from my old things (not fandoms specifically)

Like idk re-watch Gravity Falls, Tangled the Series or just enjoy My Little Pony's g4 while dealing with irl stuff finally

But I know myself! So I won't, bc I usually lose ideas like that next morning if I don't actively start watching RIGHT NOW and stuff and I know I still remember them all as well pfff

[exoscreamsoda]

I want to know your opinion on this video about Jongin:

https://www.instagram.com/p/CQBsoAdgmAv/?utm_medium=copy_link

Jongin acted as a jelaous boyfriend towards Soyou because they were playing Girlfriend and boyfriend concept in today's episode of " The Devil Wears JungNam 😈".

When he saw that Soyou and JungNam CEO-nim were being too close and lovey dovey he acted jealous! Which is the first time to happen , we never see Ji being too comfortable and open with women on shows, but to the level of acting jealous over Soyou because they acted as boyfriend/Girlfriend seems suspicious to me?!

He even talked about dating in the very first episode and steps of dating a girl and holding hands, and when JungNam told him it's in his third date that he held hands with his GF and kissed her, Ji was so shocked and told him that he should take steps slower and that holding hands and kissing in 3rd date is very soon!

What I understood from it is that Ji is having a lot of dating experiences with girls, means that happened a lot that he started taking about 3rd dates and what to do on them ! because he was talking about how dates should be and what to do on each date and that third date shouldn't be about touching hands and kissing and that is so fast!

I mean if he is with Kyungsoo, means their first dates was long time ago 11 years ago! So why would he talk about third date as if it's a very recent event he had just experienced with his lover?? He seemed as if he was talking about a recent relationship, his expressions and everything he was saying as if he's living that experience very recently? LIKE NOW!! He was talking about what to do on third date and steps to take with the girlfriend to JungNam! And he was advising JungNam not to kiss his Gf or hold her hands on the third date and he said that's not what people do on their 3rd date! And he was being too detailed about what to wear and what to do on 1st and 2nd dates as if he lived them as experiences a lot of times! He said that during first dates he wears cute outfits because girls like Cute Guys ! He was telling his tactics to dating girls to JungNam! He told him you should wear a cute outfit because girls like Boys who are cute and shy at first dates ! So he knows what girls like and he does it! We know he wears his fashion in a cute boy-ish way rather than sexy and suit grown-up sexy Men fashion. He wears bear 🐻 clothes and cute beanies with 🐻 on it, and cute bears 🐻 everywhere on his pockets and 👜 handbags and cute bear 🐻 Hoodie in the shape of Bear ears 🐻. He is being a cute boyfriend material and we saw him doing that and changing his Sexy Manly fashion around 2015/2016/2017 to Cute boy-ish youngster boyfriend fashion with cut bears 🐻 everywhere in his outfits around 2018 until now! And he is advising JungNam to do the same! Like him!!

Please don't get me wrong, I'm not assuming that they're not real, I just have my analyzes and curiosities and this issue doesn't settle well with me.

If he was with Ksoo why would he start talking about their third date and what they did?? Which probably was in 2010 ? 🤷🏻‍♀️

Can you ask your followers to give me their analysis to this issue? I want to hear from everyone please 🙇🏻‍♀️

Advise me. Am I seeing things too sensibly?

Please don't hate on me, I don't mean to distrust kaisoo, Please don't misunderstand me.

oh my oh my. i got my 1st ask about kaisoo 😅 am i seen as a fully fledged kaisoo blog now?! im honored...

1st of all that video is just from a clip so we don't know the full context right? plus its not subtitled.. (i actually thought he was jealous of soyou because he likes boss bae 💀💀 you make more since there) For all of the kaisoo questions lets say we are 100% sure he is dating soo, or atleast they dated at one point? This doesnt actually mean he hasnt dated women. he could be bi or pan right? I guess you are saying if kaisoo is real they wouldve been in a solid relationship since 2010 but even if he is talking from experience from those dates why would he not remember those moments? If i like someone alot i would remember every milestone date... As for the fashion I think kai's obsession with bears and cute stuff is for the fans mostly! He mentioned once that he chose the bear because its an easy item to receive gifts for because there's always something with a bear on it. He became more crazy about bears later on in his career when he began to expand his fashion and social brand too. I dont know I think most of his advice is basically idol advice that he learned from being an idol for so long with so many female fans...

[kmp78]

“I don't understand why Jared stays with VK?” - because he wants to, anon. Other people’s relationships aren’t for us to understand. Sometimes we get it and sometimes we don’t. Your opinion is irrelevant and your jealousy couldn’t be more obvious!!

If people just stopped to think about it with an objective mind, they would realize that VK could not be any more perfect for JL.

Think about it:

She is young, as he prefers all his people to be.

And on top if that, she was MEGA young when they first met and started to "hang out", which means she had very little (if any...) experience with men/boyfriends, which of course means that HE gets to be the "golden standard" for her against which everyone else gets measured. 🤷🏼‍♀️

And if he was her 1st (which MORE THAN LIKELY HE WAS 🤨), it also means that she no doubt worships the ground he walks on because as we know, some young women form extremely strong psychological connections with/to their 1st boyfies, especially if they themselves aren't exactly strong-willed or independent Type As which I'm sure we all can see VK most def is not! That girl is a "follower" if I ever saw one! 👀

Also VK has a good career which is not too cheap (no tacky crotch/tit shots on her resume!), but also not too flashy! If her profile as a model was on the same level as the Hadids etc., then JL would never have been able to maintain any kind of privacy which as we all know, he considers VERY important!

And as far as her social media goes: JL could have it sooooooooo much worse if he had chosen any other young 20-smthg sm-obsessed twinkie! VK only posts on/off and even then her Leto-related posts are wildly demure in comparison to what we have seen from other girlfriends! She could have burned his ass so badly with the amount of intimate situations she has been privy to, but she has not! He's extremely lucky in that regard too.

And consider the fact that those two have been "together" for almost a decade now. Not as a firm couple at first, but gradually over time.

For better or worse, they have shared their lives for almost 10 years. That's a lot of birthdays and Christmases and vacations and brunches together. And now 2 homes together!

VK no doubt doesn't even remember what it was like not having him in her life, and ditto for him - which btw he kinda showed by getting back together with her after that 2019 "break". 🤷🏼‍♀️

And remember: he started "molding her" into his perfect companion a decade ago.

If VK walked off now, what would he do?

Find a new 17-18 year old and start the same schooling process all over again?! At age 50?!

He'd be 60 by the time he has educated someone new into how to be his perfect companion!

Does that sound like a likely scenario? 🤔

And btw: it wouldn't even be a case if him finding just any chick off the block!

She would have to be mega young (aka a virgin...), not a social media slutbag (aka no trolling from his bed and no ass shots on socials), and agree to spend the next 10 years as his secret gf who cannot date anyone else but also should not expect public affection!

How many such specimens do you folks think are out there...? 🤔

Oh I dare say that would be clear case if NEEDLE IN A DAMN HAYSTACK! 🤨

[angelsonthesideline]

Tales from the Ex-Crypts Vol. 6

When I met the man who would waste my 20's, I was freshly moved out of my abusive/addict home and I will always feel that contributed to me being able to be sucked into his narcissistic web of manipulation, gaslighting, and abuse. The distance between us also made it very easy for him to do/get away with whatever he wanted...

The first 4 years of our "relationship" was very on and off.. he was massively hung up on his ex and she was constantly popping in to make sure she could still just wrap him back around her little finger. He would just disappear during those times, and then call me when she would fuck off again. I don't know why I went back, except he had some kind of hold over me, perhaps it was the comfortable/known factor. In those 'off' times are when I dated others.

So much happens in the span of so many years.. and crazy enough.. there aren't that many "stand out" moments, because the abuse was so normal..

He was very controlling, and expected me to call if I said I'd be home around a certain time. I remember one day, while living in the city and using transit, that I said I'd be home around a certain time. It was literally 4 minutes after the time I said, and he called me demanding where I was because I said I'd be home by then. I was walking across the street from the bus stop to my apartment building.

He was also very jealous/possessive, but as a girl who has almost always been "one of the guys", I have a lot of male friends. He was not super jealous of my friends, but he would get insanely jealous of men online (we gamed together, he got me into PC gaming, and WoW especially). I was not allowed to hang out with/make friends with/talk to other men in game. I still made some amazing friends (who are still friends now). He was also fond of shaming/embarrassing/belittling me in front of others, or showing his ownership or whatever. He would openly treat me like shit, but if anyone else ever said anything even slightly negative or criticizing about me, he would rip them to shreds. One girl in his guild, after witnessing his treatment of me over Ventrillo (a voice program many gamers used back in the day, now it's mainly Discord) and who stupidly had a crush on him, decided to rip on me to him. I'm guessing she read him wrong and thought his treatment of me was because he wasn't happy with me, or didn't love me. He destroyed her so badly, she quit the guild and left the server. He was the asshole that women flocked to and fawned over, and I couldn't even say I was any fucking different. That "bad boy" aura sucked many in.

He was jealous/possessive because he was always cheating on me, with the distance, he was easily able to. The stupid thing was, that he'd brag about it to our guildmates while I was at work/offline. Probably part of why he didn't want me making friends within the guild as well. I don't think he realized this is what made a lot of those who became friends to reach out to me. They were being kind to the kicked puppy.

Most of the shit treatment happened in the last 4.5 years of our relationship, without the "off" times of the first 4 years. But most of the really great times we had together happened during that time too. He could be amazing and sweet and funny... and even with distance, we did spend 4-6 hours talking/hanging out daily.. more than most of my friends who got to see their boyfriends regularly.

The final straw for me, after all of the years of distance, and not moving to the next level with excuse after excuse, was that my sister was getting married and he refused to come to the wedding with me. I was just done at that point, and ended things.

He lost his mind, I don't think he ever expected me to leave, but I just needed to get to a point where I loved myself more than I loved him. The one benefit of the long distance relationship was that my life really didn't change after the relationship ended, minus the hole left where he used to fill my time/thoughts.

Unfortunately, his father passed away within days of my ending things. It was sudden, a heart attack during a blizzard that prevented the ambulance from getting to him in time. He was only in his 50's. My ex was devastated, understandably. He called me 30+ times and I thought he was just being a rage monster so didn't answer. I finally listened to my voicemail(s) and he was bawling in them. This is a man I knew never cried, so I immediately called him. His mother answered, she was at his place to try to comfort him, and he was a mess when he got on the phone. He wanted us to get back together because of his loss. I am sure that the double whammy of our break up and the loss of his father within days of each other was overwhelming, but I told him it was the wrong reason to get back together. I also told him I would be there however he needed as a friend, but he insisted it was the perfect reason to get back together. I told him it wouldn't fix any of the reasons we broke up, and without those things addressed, then there was no reason to get back together and have it work. He hung up on me, because I didn't give him what he wanted and he was hurting. I never blamed him, but stuck to my requirements. I told him over and over that if he wanted me back, he would make his actions meet his words, and drive to my place, knock on my door and sit down and talk like two fucking adults and sort our shit out. That was the ONLY way I would consider getting back together. He never did.

We tried to be friends after the break up, it took us 3 years to achieve it. For the first three years, he would rage whenever it became clear he had zero control over me and not talk to me for weeks/months and then come back.

We then had a great friendship for years after he finally got past that (and got a new gf). We no longer have that friendship though, as he is absolutely insane. He is obsessed with sending voice messages instead of typing/texting. Over the years he had gotten me to get numerous different apps to do so. I deleted most of them because they didn't detect my soft voice so I couldn't respond and it was useless. I have an iphone, he had an iphone, he could send me voice messages that way, but would have to wait for responses until I had time to listen to them (usually after I got home from work) and then would get miserable that I wouldn't respond right away, even though we were just friends at this point.

The last app he asked me to get was Telegram. I hate this app, it is not user friendly and it didn't work well for my non-neurotypical brain to function with. I deleted it almost immediately, told him it made me want to punch babies. He lost his mind over me not liking an app, to the point you'd think it was HIS app that he created. Fast-forward to about a year and a half ago. I had forgotten about the stupid app, started talking to some guy on a dating app who asked if I had it, I said no, they asked me to get it so I did... and then immediately remembered it was the app I hated as soon as I opened it. My ex noticed in the 30 minutes max that I had it installed and messaged me, I responded and said "I'm deleting it again, don't get used to me using it" and deleted it.

He left me 4 raging voice messages on iMsg that were each over 3 minutes long about how I was such an absolutely horrible human (I listened to the first 20-30 seconds of the first message and then deleted the message thread) because of an APP. I was the crazy one because I didn't like an app, and somehow that made me a bad human?? Yeah... sure buddy.. pretty sure it's not normal to get that mad over someone not liking an app (especially when I had deleted many over the years). No idea why he is so obsessed and in love with that app, but we have since deleted every contact with each other and have not spoken since December 2019.

[eldritchsurveys]

487.

When was the last time you really established your favorite tv show? >> I never bothered establishing a favourite TV show, because I don’t have a reason to. There are a lot of shows I like and I don’t see any point to ranking any above the others.

Write one lyric that really explains the way your life is going as of now? >> ---

Do you ever have any fantasies that involve certain celebrities? Who? >> No.

What is your favorite brand of shoe? Where can you buy these shoes? >> I don’t have a favourite brand of shoe, but I covet Frye shoes every time I see them at Macy’s.

Does anyone ever judge you for something you naturally cannot help? >> I’ve experienced that. But that’s not my problem.

Do you support homosexuality in general? Why do you or why dont you? >> “Support” is a weird word to me. I just don’t have any reason to think about it too hard, there’s no cognitive dissonance or religious dissonance or whatever to work through. Someone telling me they’re gay is about as remarkable to me as someone telling me they have a pet, or something.

Look into your closet. What is the major color of shirts you own? Why? >> Black. Because I like black shirts.

If you had your own personal dance crew, what would you name it and why? >> I wouldn’t do this.

Do you like any other kinds of food from different nationalities? Which? >> I like a lot of foods from a lot of different cultures.

Has anyone ever called you an exact replica of one of your parents? Agree? >> No one has ever called me that.

Do you like watching television on the weekends when you're home alone? >> I’m not home alone on the weekends. Anyway, I watch television whenever I feel like it.

Where do you work, if anywhere? Do you like this job or not so much? >> ---

What would you consider the most important aspect in your entire life? >> I’ve never considered it.

Do you have a significant other at this moment in time? What's their name? >> Her name is Sparrow. I also have Can Calah and King Crimson, who are not to be discounted in either their significance or their otherness.

Have you ever claimed to be in love when you knew you really weren't? >> No.

If you had the chance to meet an annoying celebrity, would you still do it? >> Why... would I want to do that...?

Do you ever lie in the grass during summer or are you afraid of ticks? >> I don’t lie in the grass during the summer because I just don’t take the opportunity, not because I’m afraid of anything. 

Does it bother you when you see slutty girls getting all the cute guys? >> ...

In winter, would you rather wear jacket or hoodies? Why is this? >> I wear whatever suits the weather (while taking into account my tendency to overheat).

Are you old enough to legally drink alcohol? How old are you exactly? >> Yeah. 32.

Would you consider yourself a good singer or are you tone deaf? >> I think I’m comfortably somewhere between “tone deaf” and “skillful singer”.

Who was your best friend in the fourth grade? Only if you remember. >> ---

Does anyone fully understand your personality? Who is this person? >> I don’t know.

Can you touch a window from where you're sitting at this moment in time? >> No, I’d have to stand up and lean over.

When was the last time you walked to you destination? Why was this? >> I don’t remember.

What is the highest level you've ever gotten to on guitar hero? >> Expert.

Are there any holes in the walls right now that you were the cause of? >> No.

Do you sometimes feel sorry for serial killers or do you have no mercy? >> I think the pathology of serial killers is interesting and sometimes the nature of their crimes is interesting, too. I have a couple “faves”, as in ones I particularly like reading or watching shows about. But I don’t feel anything about them, positive or negative.

When was the last time you were sick? What exactly were you sick with? >> I don’t remember.

Would you like to see someone right now? Who is this person anyway? >> No.

How many times a day do you tell someone you love them, on average? >> Zero.

McDonalds. Would you consider that place gross or delicious? Why? >> It is gross because the conditions at individual McDonald’s restaurants can sometimes be deplorable, it is unethical and unhealthful because of how the ingredients are obtained and how it is processed, and it is delicious because it is engineered to be.

Do you have an ipod touch or iphone? If so, how many apps do you have? >> No, I have an Android phone and I’ve installed about 10 apps.

Does your mother or father let you normally use their personal credit card? >> ---

When was the last time you ordered something offline? What was it? >> I ordered more CBD a few days ago.

What grade are you in, if you're still in school, that is? Ever failed? >> ---

What would you consider your most prized posession? Who gave it to you? >> I don’t have a prized possession.

Do you ever buy your own clothing or does someone else do that for you? >> I do buy my own clothing, but I also get clothing as gifts.

What is the one thing in life you wish you could just take back? >> ---

Do you think regrets are better left unspoken or should they be out loud? >> I have no opinion.

Does it ever make you angry when people dont even try to use good grammar? >> No, it makes me annoyed when people are obsessed with what they believe to be “good grammar”, because I don’t see language that way.

Does anyone who is a bit younger than you try to flirt with your bf/gf? >> ---

What color is your remote? Does it have any special/interesting features? >> Black. Not that I’ve noticed.

Have you ever fist fought someone before? Did you win this fight? >> Yeah. No.

Does anyone ever tell you that you're too negative or too positive? >> I don’t think anyone’s said either of those things to me in years. When I was in my early twenties a few people said I was “too negative”, which was true because I was pretty damn depressed at the time and didn’t have much self-awareness about how that made me behave.

[time-is-standing]

top 10 songs of the year 2021

made up from the lists on statsforspotify, my yearly wrapped and songs I listened to on youtube a lot. I share some of my memories & experiences from the last year in this post with the songs too.

TW: I mention sh, mental health issues, sa

1. Obsessed by Dreamey

this was the one I streamed on spotify the most. with my 680 streams (not counting december), we can say this was my absolute fav song of the year. I still have my tattoo plans for the line "another cigarette burns a hole in my chest" but it's on hold until I confess to my parents that I'm smoking.

& this song actually made me realize, how hard the fights I have with myself actually are. the voices in my head, constant self sabotaging, sh... it is quite a heavy topic for me, and when I shared these parts of my life with others this year, I got what I always get: miscredit.

people never believe me because I've gotten so good at masking throughout the years. coming to terms with the fact that I have been metally ill ever since my early childhood was a real tough thing, but it helped me realize so much and learn much more about myself.

2. Queerball by McCafferty

I still remember the first time I listened to this song. it was a hot day in july. I was sitting on the tram on my way to a date, thinking about the fact that I can't be that bad if a boy finds me funny, kind, attractive... "and I sneak out, and I get high, and you miss me, and it made me feel beautiful" turns out I actually am because I couldn't keep him + fucked things up.

this year I went thorugh all phases of queer trying to figure out my own sexuality. it's still a mystery, maybe next year I'll have the answers. this was the time when I also found:

2,5. End of A Good Thing by Cory Wells

a youtube favourite. somehow I found myself listening to this song a lot over there. the meaning behind the lines is bright and clear: someone's trust has been broken too many times but they gave someone another chance. they fucked it all up, just like they always do. it's resonating with me on a higher level.

I believe this song was meant to find me, but it had a very wrong timing. I think I manifested the end of a good thing because a depressive episode+this song combined in my head for a few weeks making me think I don't deserve anything great.

3. DRIFTING by NF

"I'm a puzzle, got a lot of missin' pieces underneath this strong persona I put on's a kid that's screamin'"

this song had a huge part in my mental helath awareness journey this year. I've been struggling for so long, holding onto tiny things like some meaningful songs to survive. actually, to drift. I've been drifting for years, living my life like it's someone else's, having others organize my life and make decisions for me.

in august I went to a party, where I drank so much, I passed out. on the verge of consciousness I realized how crazy this all is. I decided, my life is going to change, and I started by getting tattoos. may seem like a small step for anyone else, but it started so much conflict & change in my life I never really was brave enough to start/handle before...

4. hostage by Billie Eilish

this song... it's a twisted, strange love song in my head. as someone, who never experienced proper love before - always being abused, controlled, manipulated -, I was quite touched by it. I know, this is not about a healthy relationship and it is especially not a love song, it became one for me through the year.

there is this boy (z.) who I am deeply in love with. he is the one I could sacrifice everything for, but he's in a relationship (& engaged his gf lately), so I cut him off months ago and it hurt real bad. to this day, this song reminds me of him & the love I feel. "I wanna be alone, alone with you does that make sense?"

another tattoo inspo: "gold on your fingertips, fingertips against my cheek" I really hope I'll be covered in tattoos in the next couple of years.

4,5. Achilles Come Down by Gang Of Youths

youtube fav at it's best. this song found me with my DreamSMP fever. I loved it last year but listened to it even more this year. anchient greek myths are real close to my heart. achilles's story is one of my fav's closely after Icarus (another tattoo reference, lol).

this doesn't have any deeper meaning, maybe that's because I see myself so clearly in his actions and story & in the lines of this song.

"you are absent of cause or excuse, so self-indulgent and self-referential. no audience could ever want you. you crave the applause yet hate the attention, then miss it, your act is a ruse. it is empty, Achilles, so end it all now; it's a pointless resistance for you."

5. It’s called: Freefall by Rainbow Kitten Surprise

I spoke about interpreting this song a bit differently, than it's meant to be in the last post of mine. but to fully understand it, you have to know the circumstances.

I was drifting (from now on, this is what I'm calling the times when I'm not really concious) and listened to the song - first on tiktok. first, I thought about the darker parts of it. knowing, that sometimes even the Devil doesn't care about your shit... been there, it is the most lost one can ever feel. devastating, to be honest and it can really destroy someone.

and as I was wondering about stuff, I heard it like "you could let it all go" and when the "it's like:" and the music... oh man. made me realize that I (and you) need to let it all go if you don't want to be consumed by your past or the future. this is not the way to live your life - and this message made me feel so free.

6. Snowflake by Powfu

such a powerful song with deep messages. this is the one, where there is no explanation needed if you know the song. it's a story of a love and a heartbreak told so beautifully.

"yeah, the hurricane came, broke all our feathers, roses that we chose don't go together. stars, I'm sorry that you face no shine" so special, so unique, something is so catchy about it.

7. Star Shopping by Lil Peep

the first seconds of this song make me feel things I cannot deal with. I spent a whole summer listening to this song, being distracted, trying and failing over and over again. this man was the greatest songwriter ever and I'm deeply sad about finding him after he died.

"this music's the only thing keeping the peace when I'm fallin' to pieces." "Look at the sky tonight, all of the stars have a reason - a reason to shine, a reason like mine and I'm fallin' to pieces" the lines are so perfect for describing what I'm going through. the hardest thing ever to deal with is finding this reason/for me, reasons that keep you going because nothing else is important enough to stay alive for. this song is one of the reasons I'm still here, trying to prove a point.

8. Alligator Skin Boots by McCafferty

this is something so close to my heart. it started from a tiktok, where it was showing the part "twinkle twinkle little star, alcoholics don't get far - unless they drink and drive. let's go for a ride and I hope I crash and die tonight". this got my attention.

I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts and self-harm for almost 10 years now, and it shows. I still am shocked by others openly talking about these kinds of issues, so hearing "I hope I crash and die" was like a slap in the face. I always get so angry about others hurting themselves so I was furious and wanted to listen to the whole song for context, but... I got so much more than just some context to a terrible joke.

this song became the anthem of my whole summer. for me personally this song is more than a few random lines following each other. it's so deep, it would need it's own post to talk about it all, so let me just finish with one of the final words: "with broken wrists I climb from these walls". no matter how it hurts, no matter how badly you got injured, leave. run away if you can and try to find something better, to become something more.

9. Since I Saw Vienna by Wilbur Soot

there is no way Will is not on this list. I wasn't really thinking about him as a person when I first started to listen to his music. it was all about spending time with this boy, who is telling several stories through his music.

it became so special and meaningful to me, that I got into watching his streams and videos as well. this song is one of the best songs he ever wrote. the close second is Your sister was right, that is a masterpiece as well. his songs are full of emotion and truth and it hurts me to think Will has been through so much that he can write and think this way.

and I saw Vienna like two years (108 weeks) ago, so it felt so special and I wrote many poems about the whole concept of the song.

10. Constellations by Jade LeMac

this song was a slight suprise. I don't really listen to these kind of songs but this summer, when I believed that I could get into a real and serious relationship, I was listening to this non-stop.

I felt like a teenage girl full of hope and excitement again, but turns out, I have more things repressed than I would loved to. memories from previous experiences being sexually assaulted made it hard to let myself get into this relationship and even kiss this silly boy. I have problems, I know.

next year, we're going to theraphy together, I promise.