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It's That Time Again Folks!
I've noticed that I'm not getting as many likes or reblogs as I used to get with my fics, and I realize some people may not be as active on here as they used to be, so I'm tagging everyone on my tag list and if you want to REMAIN on the list, then like, or reblog, or comment on this post. OR send me an ask, or a private message. Whatever is easiest for you to do. Remember, if I don't hear from you I will assume you want OFF the list. I need to keep this list updated and it's been a couple of years since I've updated it I think. Thanks guys!
P.S. Remember that I adore when I get likes and reblogs so please help me out, if you enjoy my stories.
Tagging:
@oreillystolemyheart @lookalivesunshine-x @shortyiceheart @vebner37 @claymorexpunisher
@kalliravenne @swamptrashwithasideofsass @beardedbarba @emisrose @sassymox
@pikapuff-316 @heavymetalgirl420 @bigpsychicbagelauthor @darktammy @waywardwrestlewritingwaif
@sultryfandoms @blondekel77 @demonqueen29 @amariemoore @letsgivethisonemoreshot
@thelastemzy @springgirlwaiting4fall @vampirepixi @wwenhlimagines @louisianalady
@swthrt890 @librathepheonix13 @ironshamelessyouth @moonwolfdemonprincess21 @moxkindagirl
@jstarr86 @oliviasinematic @southerngirl41 @claymoresofinfamy23 @faythewilsonnn
@donttellnoliebabygirl @keisha-knell @wickedval @beccalynns-world @tribalqueen20
@pittieprincess22 @potatosackk @alliecatsworldsblog @dersha89 @heerah34
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Updating the tag list!
Hey honeys! It's almost the 2025 and I think it's time to update my tag list! I've gone way over the limit once again and need to do some housekeeping.
Don't be offended if I remove you! I can always put you back on if you'd like but I'd just ask that you're at least commenting or reblogging once in a while. You don't have to comment on or reblog everything I post but the occasional reblog or comment will let me know you're actually interested in what I'm sharing with y'all. I love it when you 'like' posts too but the likes get lost within all the other likes and sometimes I miss them. Comments and reblogs let me know you're really interacting/enjoying my content. Likes get buried.
It's a lot of extra work to keep the tag list updated and setting it up after each post. I'm trying to make my life easier so it's nothing against anyone in particular. It's just me trying to stay sane!
You don't have to do anything if you've been reblogging and commenting already. If you haven't, you'll be taken off (again, it's no offense, this is for my sanity). Simple as that!
xoxo
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Tag List Update:
If you are already on the tag list and wish to stay on it. Comment on the post with what tag list you want to stay on. If you want to be added to it. Comment on the post with what tag list you want to be added too.
If you don't reply by the time this expires which will be tmrw afternoon, Saturday. You'll be removed and later on can be added back if you'd like.
Everything Peaches @mo320 @ml7010 @babizza @kmc1989 @joannie95 @coley0823 @rileyloves5 @sexyvixen7 @duckestylez @abschaffer2 @drayshadow @shirukitsune @xoxabs88xox @carostar2020 @rosalynshields @hookslove1592 @royal-sunflower @iwillbeinmynest @bellamy-barnes @geeksareunique @happydeanpotter @fanfic-n-tabulous @steel-blue-eyess @mariekoukie6661 @bless-my-demons @notyourtypicalrose @lets-talk-about-xyz @loving-life-my-way @shinycupcakebaker @also-fangirlinsweden @stupendous-science @daughterofthenight117 @dandelionsmarkthegrave @physically-a-cheesecake @letsgetfuckingsuperwholocked
Steve ���Motha Have Fucking Mercy’ Rogers: @patzammit @nickyl316h @jbbarnesgirl @nekoannie-chan @lets-roggerthat @kaylaphantomhive
Peter ‘Fuck Me I’m Weak’ Parker: @its-crystallll @lets-roggerthat
Clint ‘Destory Me, I’ll Thank You’ Barton: @nickyl316h
Howie 'Damn Boy' Stark: @nickyl316h @its-crystallll @lets-roggerthat
Bucky 'Fuck Me Up' Barnes: @nickyl316h @jbbarnesgirl @lets-roggerthat @this-is-mycrisis @kaylaphantomhive
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Tag List Cleanup
Hey y'all! It's that time of year again! I'd like to trim the tag list of those who have moved on to other interests and perhaps add some who would like to be on.
*NO HARD FEELINGS* if you don't want to be on it, that's 100% fine! As most creators know, tagging on Tumblr can be a nuisance, so a small list of people who really want to see content is better than a big list of people who want to be polite.
MY CURRENT LISTS ARE:
Perma (all fics, edits, commissions etc.)
Open Heart Only
Ethan Ramsey All
Ethan Ramsey x MC
Tobias Carrick
Casey x Jess
Wake the Dead
Crimes of Passion
If you'd like to be added or change the list(s) you're on, please reblog, comment, or DM me no later than 3/23/2024.
If you'd like to stay where you are, please reblog, comment, DM, or just ❤️and I'll leave you where you are.
If you'd like to be removed - either let me know or just don't interact with this post at all, and I'll remove you on 3/24/2024.
I will tag my current list below the break - just let me know. Thank you to everyone who has supported me throughout my time here! 😊
Perma List (Fics, edits, commissions, etc. for all stories)
@alj4890 @annoyingmillenialnewbie @crazy-loca-blog @differenttyphoonwerewolf @genevievemd @inlocusmads @jamespotterthefirst @justyourusualash @kingliam2019 @liaromancewriter @lucy-268 @onikalover @potionsprefect @quixoticdreamer16 @secretaryunpaid @socalwriterbee @stars-are-within-me @tessa-liam @thosehallowedhalls @trappedinfanfiction @tveitertotwrites
Open Heart (Fics, edits, commissions, etc. for all OH content)
@alwaysmychoices @coffeeheartaddict2 @peonierose
Ethan Ramsey (All Ethan content including Ethan x MC, Ethan x OC, Platonic, etc.)
@custaroonie @mrs-ramsey @parisa-kh @zealouscanonindeer
Ethan x MC (Ethan x MC content only)
@cariantha @cryomyst @youlookappropriate
Tobias Carrick (All Tobias content)
@icecoffee90 @kyra75 @storyofmychoices
Casey x Jessica (OC)
@aallotarenunelma
Crimes of Passion (All CoP content)
@aces-and-angels @ao719 @brycesgirl @cariantha @coffeeheartaddict2 @custaroonie @kyra75 @moominofthevalley @shadyinternetblizzard @storyofmychoices @zealouscanonindeer
Wake the Dead (All WTD content)
@cariantha @kyra75 @storyofmychoices @dutifullynuttywitch
#tag list update#tag list spring 2024#jerzwriter#playchoices#open heart#crimes of passion#wake the dead
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It's that time...
For tag list cleaning as time springs forward today!
First off, I would like to share my appreciation with all of you for indulging me as a writer this past year! ❤️🩷Your feedback and support means the world to me.
...and thank you for wanting to join me, in a new year of stories, edits and commissions!
If you'd like to be added to my new updated tag list, please re-blog or leave a comment on this post, or DM to me by March 24, 2024.
If not, that's OK too, no hard feelings⚘️
Here is my current list:
Perma tags for all:
TRR Liam & Riley: Smoke & Mirrors Series:
@ao719 @txemrn @queenmiarys @sfb123 @twinkleallnight @alj4890 @differenttyphoonwerewolf @harleybeaumont @busywoman @karahalloway @kingliam2019 @imjusthereforliam @lovingchoices14 @kyra75 @tinkie1973 @emkay512 @malblk21 @kristinamae093 @charlotteg234
@jared2612 @irisk12 @thesvnsins @walkerdrakewalker
TRR Liam & Sophie: Marabelle Series:
@charlotteg234
TRR Liam & Riley: Turning the Page Series:
@emersyn-in-cordonia @mainstreetreader @belencha77 @walkerdrakewalker @iluaaa @mysticalfangirl @queenwalton @bascmve01 @umccall71 @choicesfrog @amandablink @ownworldresident
I will start the new, updated list on March 25, 2024
#tag list update#tag list spring 2024#the royal romance#tessa liam writes#liam rys#prince liam#riley brooks#sophie taylor#king liam
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Tag List Update: Russell Shaw
That's riiiight. I'm updating my Tag List form to include one Russell Shaw (Tracker). 😉
If you'd like to be tagged in what I have coming for this guy, go ahead and add yourself to my tag list!
If you're already on there for other characters I write for, I'll just update your tags. 💖
And a masterlist is coming soon...
#russell shaw#tracker#tag list update#masterlist coming soon#russell shaw x reader#russell shaw x female reader#russell shaw x you#colter shaw#russell shaw fanfiction#russell shaw fanfic#jensen ackles#jensen ackles characters#yes i'm obsessed#sorry#he gave me too many ideas#zepskies updates
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With the approach of Kinktober, you all will be receiving 10 new fics from me in October! If you would like to be tagged in my fic posts to be notified when the story is published, please fill out the form below.
The form has been updated to add the members of Motionless in White and kinktober fics, if you have already signed up previously you will have to sign up again with the new changes so I can tag you in the fics you want to see.
Tag list sign up!
Thank you!!!
Royal Readers
@deathblacksmoke @mysticdoodlez @sitkowski @snarkysolaris @collapsedglasshouses @shilohrosechicken
@cookiesupplier @iknownothingpeople
@itsafullmoon @philomenie @th4t-em0-k1d @baddestomens
@sorrowsofsilence
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tag list update
hey everyone! I know it’s been a while since I’ve posted anything (uni’s being a bitch and getting in the way of what’s truly important) buuut I’ve written a few things when I had some free time and I was planning on (slowly) start posting again.
That made me realize I’d better update my tag list, so if you want to stay in my tags or want to be added please leave a like, comment, fire message etc. I will post the new list after a week or so!
current tag list: @sayosdreams @thewayshedreamed @perseusannabeth @arinbelle @caotica-e-quieta @vidalinav @swankii-art-teacher @ireallyshouldsleeprn @duskandstarlight @d0riansgray @thegoddessaltenia @dayanna-hatter @verypaleninja @awesomelena555 @courtofjurdan @valkyriewarriors @illyrianwitchling13 @silvernesta @bri-loves-sunflowers @queenestarcheron @imwritingthesewords @vasudharaghavan @rainbowcheetah512 @letstakethedawn @city-of-fae @thalia-2-rose @nestaarcher0n @rowaelinismyotp @julemmaes @dontgetsalmonella @janeslandrys @lysakirova @inardour @fatimafares123 @angelina-figjam @castielspelvis @imagine-me @18moneytoad @booksstorm @loosingdreams @live-the-fangirl-life @moodymelanist @sv0430 @oversizedbats @simpingfornestaarcheron @angelic-voice-1997 @katekatpattywack @confusedfandomslut @starryblueskies7 @shadowwolf777 (bold tags don’t work)
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New Tag
TW Spirit Death has been added to the tag list. This will be used to warn about pieces where a character's spirit is destroyed/killed after their death.
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Tag List Update
The tag Swear Warning has been added to the Tag List. It will be used on posts where the cats use strong human swear words like Bitch or Shit. The tag will not be applied to asks, only on official writing or art pieces. I hope that everyone will understand and respect that decision.
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TWISTED WONDERLAND TAG LIST
Here is another Tag List for those who want to notified for my Twisted Wonderland stories as well. Comment down below if you want to be tagged and I'll add you to the list.
Dorm Students:
@sadnessiscoldtea , @madam-strawberryrose , @aria-tempest ,
@crazed-flower , @darischerry , @inkslayer,
@91062854-ka
@lillyisfreakyy , @batmanmonstarr @coffee-or-hot-cocoa
#twisted wonderland#twst#disney twisted wonderland#disney twst#x reader#tag list#tag list update#my writing#heartslabyul#disney twisted wonderland imagine#twisted wonderland tag list#twisted wonderland x reader#twisted wonderland stories#fanfiction#fanfic writing#disney twst x reader#yana toboso disney#yana toboso#twst wonderland#twst disney#twisted wonderland fandom#fandom#savanaclaw#octavinelle#scarabia#ignihyde#diasomnia#pomefiore#malleus draconia#lilia vanrouge
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tag list update
hello all! i've been sorta on an unintentional hiatus for a little bit. But! I want to start posting again soon cause I hoarded so many edits in my drafts. Several are for my favorite sad girl Alyssa Snow and a revamped Sasha. There are a few introductions for some new ocs (for sandman and the walking dead). So with that in mind, I wanted to update my taglist. If you are already added and want to be removed, please send me an ask! If you want to be added, please send me an ask or reply here! 💙 current tag list✨: @dragonsbone @lorettastwilight @dio-nysvs @julianblackthcrns @ocfairygodmother @delicateblackrose @drbobbimorse @luucypevensie @the-october-reviewer @megdonnellys
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Off To Bed! 😴
Will get to work updating the tag list in the morning everyone! Thanks to those of you who've already let me know you want to stay on the list! I got you written down!
Goodnight everyone! Will be on some tomorrow! ❤❤❤
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Updated my tag list to include the @viola-verse.
If you've already filled out the form, feel free to redo the tag list form or just message me.
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PSA ! Because I've seen it be brought up in YouTube videos, in the comments section on Itch, and in quite a few asks on Tumblr... Here are some common misconceptions about "14 Days With You" that I'd like to clear up!
14 Days With You is not an otome game; it's an amare game!! The main character (Angel) is not a female heroine/female protagonist, and they're not written to be female-coded. Yes, you have the option to customise your pronouns and how others perceive you, but there is no "default" or fixed narrative perspective for 14DWY (outside of a gender-neutral perspective).
If it isn't already obvious, Ren's characterisation heavily leans into the "dere" aspect of a yandere. He genuinely loves Angel... Just to a terrifying degree.
None of the cast members are heterosexual, so please don't assume that all of Teo's exes/flings were women, that Leon has only had girlfriends in the past, that Olivia is only attracted to good-looking men, etc. In a similar vein, I want to remind everyone that Jae-Hyun is gay and Kiara is a lesbian.
14DWY is also a romance game!! The whole point is to get to know Ren, grow closer with him, and ultimately romance him. So please stop asking me to include BTD, TDDUP, or W1WD mechanics in the game. It's completely fine if you like those types of genres — and I'm not here to yuck anyone's yum — but it's not the vibe I'm going for with 14DWY, and it's not something I want to write about.
Ren dyes his hair! He isn't wearing a pink wig.
Similarly... Violet, Jae, Moth, and Teo all dye their hair as well. But I'm happy if folks want to headcanon that "unnatural" hair colours can exist in the 14DWY universe.
Ren does not have DID or BPD. He's merely a desperate yandere who changes aspects of himself + creates different "personas" to appease Angel (and essentially become their ideal type). He definitely has a pessimistic outlook on his real self, though he does not identify or feel genuine in any of his created personas. I'm comfortable for those who have DID/BPD/etc to headcanon Ren as such, but I heavily discourage everyone else from doing so as I don't want to give them an incorrect or bad reputation.
The 18+ scenes are optional!!!!! The game is intended to be played without them — it's even turned off by default. Nobody is forced to sleep with Ren.
14 Days With You is a passion project that I work on in my free time for fun. I'm not making a profit off of it, I'm not looking to turn it into a career, and in the most /pos way possible; it's not important enough for me to make a priority. So... Please stop guilt-tripping me for updates when I already don't have enough time or luxury to work on it ;v;
(last edited: 19/101/24) — I may add more here over time!!
#No reblogs; just in case I add more to the list :3 (a.k.a reblogged posts won't automatically update with new edits)#💖 — 14 days with queue.#🖤 — shut up sai.#to be tagged later#I'll also add this to da pinned posed when I'm not on mobile
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Steddie Amnesia Fic: 1/3
-> Part 2 | Part 3 | AO3
cw: lots of head trauma/brain injury/recovery stuff.
Steve wakes up in the hospital with someone snoring loudly on his leg, mouth open, drool getting soaked up into the scratchy hospital blanket over him.
Steve just stares.
It’s… Freddie? No, that’s not right... Eddie! Eddie ‘the freak’ Munson, known delinquent and drug dealer… resting his head on Steve’s lap.
What the hell…?
Steve reaches up with a wobbly, IV-ridden hand to clumsily pat along his head, but instead of meeting messy hair, he meets a thick wad of bandages. He flinches when he hits an especially tender spot.
It’s not much but it’s enough to wake Eddie Munson up with a jolt, and a random jumble of words that sounded something like, “the dice have spoken!”, but Steve can’t be sure. Not with the sharp ringing still going off inside his skull.
“Steve? Steve! Oh thank fuck, Jesus H. Christ, you scared the ever loving shit out of me.” Eddie stood and grabbed at one of Steve’s shoulders, shaking him enough to elicit another wince.
“Oh, damn, sorry. I’m like a fucking bull in a china shop here, man. There’s way too much expensive, breakable shit here. I’m not used to it. I accidentally ripped your IV out the other day... Fuck. The nurses hate my guts.” Eddie chuckles, eyes wide and solely on Steve, talking like they were old friends or something.
But that can’t be right. Steve doesn’t remember saying more than two words to Eddie Munson during the entire time he knew he even existed, and even then it was just to discuss weed prices.
“For real though, talk to me Harrington, how you feelin’, hm? Loopy? Gonna yak again? Apparently they got you on the good stuff,” Eddie flicks a liquid filled bag hanging above Steve and shakes his head, “but they keep cutting you back. Dicks.”
Steve’s eyes try and follow Eddie’s erratic movements but his eyes ache the more he moves them. He blinks against the harsh fluorescents and tries to open his mouth. And thank God, Eddie Munson seems to take this as a sign and shut up.
“What happened?” Steve finally croaks.
One of Eddie’s brows jumps. “You don’t remember?”
Steve gives his head a small shake. Did Eddie hit him with his car or something? Is that why he’s sleeping at his bedside and talking to him like they’re buddies?
“You fell, Stevie.” Eddie makes a whistling noise and mimicks something falling with his hands, then makes a crashing sound when his hand lands on Steve’s bandaged head. “Like a coconut out of a tree. Landed right on that big ol’ melon of yours. There was blood everywhere. It scared the shit out of me and the kids. Especially when you wouldn’t wake up.”
Steve’s throat feels like sandpaper, but he manages to swallow, his throat clicking as he did, and gets out, “The kids?”
Eddie seems to notice, even before Steve can ask, and reaches for a water bottle with a straw already in it, and half chewed. Eddie’s own, no doubt. Against his better judgment, Steve accepts it when Eddie offers it to him. He was just so goddamn thirsty.
“Don’t worry, they’re all fine. They were just shaken up. I’ll radio the little gremlins and give ‘em the good news in a sec.” Eddie’s smile falters a little, seeming lost for words. Like he wants to say something, but can’t quite get it out.
Steve finishes swallowing his few, meager gulps of water before he asks, “What is it?”
“Don’t freak out—“ Eddie begins.
And, okay, that’s exactly the thing you tell someone before they freak the fuck out. Steve’s stomach is subject to a growing, sluggish panic. “What? Dude, tell me—“
“It’s your hair.” Eddie seems genuinely pained at having to deliver this crushing of a blow to Steve ‘The Hair’ Harrington.
Steve can hear the beeping from the monitors he’s hooked up to begin to pick up speed as his heart begins racing. “My hair?”
“It’s okay! It’s okay, it’ll grow back! They just had to take a little bit off where the stitches went, you can hardest notice it—well, that’s a fucking lie, you could spot that landing strip from space—but I think if you part it to the other side it won’t look so… y’know.”
“No, dude, I don’t know.” Steve says, eyes wide, brows pinched.
“Like a drunk toddler took a pair of rusty kitchen shears to your mop.” Eddie says, huffing out a nervous sort of laugh.
Steve groans, half due to the bastardization that’s happened to his favorite feature, and half due to the migraine that’s looming on his horizon.
“You’re still pretty, Stevie, don’t worry.” Eddie grins, eyebrows raised, like he’s trying to be cute or something.
That weirdest part is, it’s kind of working.
Steve must have hit his head really, really hard.
The doctors eventually come in and perform all sorts of tests, and he tries his best to comply with them and jump through whatever hoops they make him jump through. He just wants to get the hell out of this hospital bed.
Unfortunately for him, Steve hadn’t exactly aced any of the tests.
In fact, he had failed most of them pretty fucking dismally. He couldn’t remember the date, who the president was, where he lived, couldn’t say the alphabet backwards… although, who the fuck can do that? He stands by that failing grade.
A couple of CAT scans later and it’s clear that Steve’s brain got smacked around a little more than they had originally thought.
Among a pile of other stuff, the thing that sticks out the most to Steve is his diagnosis of something called short term amnesia. They explain it like the past 2 to 3 years has just been wiped from his brain. The last clear thing he really remembers is getting the shit beat out of him by Billy, and then it all sort of gets jumbled. Fragmented. The doctors explain that this is pretty typical for head trauma patients.
He’s a head trauma patient, now.
It’s normal for memories of trauma to link, creating spiderwebs throughout your brain.
Which, that’s great. So when he gets beat up again, there’s always a chance his brain will try and erase his easy, happy years and revert back to a trauma default. Really helpful brain, thank you.
And the thing that sucks the most is that his years after the Billy beat down sound pretty great. Traumatizing, sure, but great. Once the Upside Down shit was locked up, with every scary nightmare fuel monster inside of it, life in Hawkins didn’t sound all that terrible.
He lived with Robin, who’s his best friend, (his ‘platonic soulmate’ even, as she explains it), he’s working a retail job, (also with Robin), and coaches the high school basketball team during the evenings. He’d even been talking with Hopper about joining the force.
Well, he was. Now he’s more or less useless, working full time at re-learning his life, along with a couple of fine motor skills that got glitchy after the fall.
And then there’s Eddie.
Eddie, who’s apparently also his best friend, only their soulmate link isn’t platonic at all.
The strange and weirdly exciting reality was that Steve Harrington had woken up from his 3-day medically induced coma with not only a full fledged relationship, but a boyfriend.
It’s a lot to digest, and part of him still doesn’t even know how to process it, but hearing the stories being told around him, seeing how Eddie is practically living in his and Robin’s two-bedroom apartment, and just… the way Eddie looks at him?
It’s with love—Steve can see it. Feel it. Eddie’s practically vibrating with it.
What’s even crazier is that when Steve looks at Eddie, he feels the exact same way.
It’s like looking at the stars. Steve’s heart skips a beat when those dark eyes of hit him, and Steve wants nothing more than to make Eddie smile—no, better than that, to make him laugh, just so he can watch Eddie’s adam’s apple bob up and down and hear that manic, unhinged cackle. It’s downright delightful. Steve loves being in relationships like this, where it’s all consuming.
Steve may not have the memories of falling in love with Eddie, but he has all the feelings.
No one talks about it with Steve, of course. Maybe they think it’s going to be too heavy for him to process that he’s into dudes now, but Steve isn’t a big dumb baby. Sure, he’s got a pretty severe brain injury, and yeah, alright, it takes him a minute to remember people’s names sometimes, and he has a harder time controlling his emotions, but he isn’t a complete invalid. Only a little bit of one. He’s working on it, dammit.
And Eddie is so painfully, frustratingly patient with him. He never pushes. He’s clearly letting Steve retrieve his memories before he makes a move, because despite his whole outward appearance, Eddie Munson is a goddamn gentleman. He never so much as reaches for Steve’s hands, but Steve can tell by the way their pinkies graze when they watch movies late at night that he wants to.
Steve can tell by the way Eddie teases him, the way he’s there with him through his recovery, that he doesn’t ever make Steve feel stupid when he asks the same questions over and over again, when he cries at the drop of a hat or when he gets sort of confused about the lay out of his apartment—he doesn’t care about that of that.
Because he’s in love with Steve. It’s so painfully romantic, it brings a painful lump to Steve’s throat every time he thinks too much about it.
The two of them are driving to one of Steve’s therapy sessions, Eddie in the driver's seat, Steve in the passengers, listening to a low racket of some kind of heavy metal music. Eddie always keeps the volume low now, for Steve.
He’s just been so intensely good about everything that Steve needs to try and do something good for Eddie in return. He needs Eddie to know that there’s a light at the end of this tunnel that they’re both currently lost in.
“I’m sorry about this, y’know.” Steve says when they finally pull up the building that has ‘Brain Injury Recover Center’ written on the front. So all the boys and girls with scrambled eggs for brains know where to converge.
“Don’t worry about it, man. I work the evening shifts, remember? My days are free.” Eddie explains, and Steve wonders if he’s had to be told this bit of information a couple of times now. Sometimes it takes a few times before something sticks to his brain now. His short term memory is still majorly flighty. But no, Steve remembers that Eddie bartends at a local bowling alley most evenings. He’s gone a few times. Not to bowl, of course—too much hand eye coordination involved—but just to hang out with Eddie. He’s pretty decent at Ms. Pac-Man though.
Steve shakes his head. He knows his mind must have wandered because there’s been a lull where no one’s spoken. Eddie never seems to care about that though. “I don’t mean about the drive. I was talking about… y’know.”
“Wha’dy’mean?” Eddie mumbles as he backs into his parking space, hand on the back of Steve’s headrest.
Steve sighs and decides to just come out and say it: “I mean having your boyfriend forget everything about you and your relationship. I just… that must be really tough.”
Everything in Eddie Munson comes to a jarring halt, hand frozen over where he’s turned to ignition off.
It’s sort of unnerving—Eddie is always moving, fidgeting. Damn near bouncing off the walls. But now it’s like someone hit the poor guy with a freeze ray gun.
Steve chuckles softly as he reaches out and touches Eddie’s arm, giving him a playful jostle, to loosen him up a little, “it’s okay, Eddie. I know. You don’t have to keep going easy on me. I’m gay! Or, bi-sexual. Whatever.” Steve shrugs, “see? Not falling apart. I can handle being in love with another dude. You don’t need to keep babying me.”
The side of Eddie’s mouth twitches into a downturned smile that he seems to be trying to hide.
“I know, I know. Not just any dude.” Steve rolls his eyes, a smile still firmly on his face. He takes Eddie’s hand from the steering wheel, and Eddie seems to watch it go in a detached sort of awe. Steve wonders if Eddie’s proud of him for being so cool with it all. “In love with you.”
“Steve, I don’t think—
“Wait, just let me finish.” Steve asks, and Eddie blinks and works on closing his mouth. Knows it’s important to let Steve get his thoughts out quickly, lest they be lost to the giant black hole inside of his beat-up brain now. “I know that I don’t remember any of the important stuff with us. Our first date, or our first kiss or, y’know, any of our other first firsts. So maybe it feels like you’re cheating on the old Steve with me? But… Eddie, I know it’s crazy but even though my brain forgot all of the specifics; my heart didn’t. I look at you, and it’s all there. I’m still so into you, dude. I can feel it, even though I don’t remember how I got here. I’m in l—“
“Steve! Stevestevesteve wait, holy shit—!” Eddie’s eyes snap up from his intense stare at the place where their hands are linked. “Steve—”
“Yeah?” Steve prompts when Eddie doesn’t seem to be able to find the words. He runs his thumb gently over Eddie’s knuckles. It feels so nice to finally be able to hold his hand again. They fit together so well, and Steve wonders briefly if it’s some kind of muscle memory.
Eddie opens his mouth a few more times before he remembers how to make the words come out.
“Steve. Buddy. We’re… we’re not dating.”
Steve’s face falls, and he can feel a lump form in his throat, but he keeps a firm hold of Eddie’s warm hand in his own. “Yeah, I know, I know. We haven’t had any time to be a couple. And it’s probably been torture for you, man. You’re so busy taking care of me and making sure I don’t freak out over everything that you’ve clearly been neglecting your own hierarchy of needs.”
Eddie raises a brow.
Steve chuckles, “Shut up. It’s a therapy term.”
Eddie laughs in his throat. “Steve, you gotta slow down and listen to me.”
He turns his shoulders so that he’s fully facing Steve while he reaches his free hand over and tugs at one of his earlobes. “Got your hearing ears on?”
Steve rolls his eyes, but he nods just the same.
“We… we weren’t dating before your accident,” Eddie speaks slowly, his voice warm, gentle. “Hell, I didn’t even know you were, y’know, into dudes like that. Much less me.”
Something throbs dully behind Steve’s eyes. It’s the start of a migraine—the one that makes it hard to process much of anything. Steve squints, trying to make sense of what Eddie’s saying. “…you’re not my boyfriend?”
Eddie shakes his head very, very slowly. “No.”
Steve snatches his hand back like he’s only just now noticed how burning hot Eddie’s hand is.
He settles back in his seat, staring out the front window. The sounds from the outside world are muffled, and everything feels far away and sort of… Made up. Just like everything he’d imagined was going on between him and Eddie. Not real.
He feels painfully detached from reality. Unmoored. Maybe this was the disassociation thing the doctor mentioned might happen…
“Are you sure?” Steve asks, risking another glance over to Eddie, who hasn’t taken his eyes off him for a second.
“Pretty fuckin’ sure.” Eddie snorts.
“Oh, God. This is… I’m—sorry. I’m so stupid. Fuck, I gotta—“ Steve suddenly attacks the door handle with a clumsy fury that has his hand fumbling with the handle for way too long. Fucking busted up, bruised as fuck fucking brain-!
“Steve, it’s okay, dude,” Eddie says from behind Steve, but that’s easy for him to say; he didn’t just humiliate himself in front of his not-boyfriend, definitely-crush, possibly ex-friend—“Steve, wait!”
Steve flees the van on unsteady feet, not daring to look back.
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