#These two have been rattling around in my brain... I have Thoughts™

[otherwolves]

Entwined Souls

[boogiewoogieweeb]

11, 16, 65 🪽

hi curry! 🤗🤗🤗 thank you so much for the ask - it's always a pleasure to see you on my dash or in my notifs! (and congrats on FINALLY getting the nedward shirt🥳 i can't think of anyone more deserving after having to endure such long waiting times trials and tribulations!)

11. Link your three favorite fics right now

oh, now this is a difficult one, because how on earth do i link only three??? tell you what; i'll compromise, and we'll do five, okay? okay. and because i know you're a fellow joplittle afficionado, i'm listing five of my faves for our mutual otp (unranked and in no particular order):

To Guide His Banners by mia_ugly

quiet hours by MyresLight (aka the inestimable and my dearly beloved @maedhrus)

the comforts of home by hazelmotes

i've become the person who says darling by vegetas

ringing in your ears by @manicpixiedreamjop (hi gus! plugging your latest fic because i simply can't shut up about it!)

five, as i said; though i have so, so many more i wish i could share. and just so you know, having to choose these five alone was already an unbearably cruel, nigh herculean task 😩

16. How many fic ideas are you nurturing right now? Share one of them?

a better question would probably be "do you ever stop nurturing fic ideas?" 😂 at any given moment, there are at least ten fic ideas rattling around in the lobster pot i call a brain, most of them half-baked and vaguely formed; some of them with some actual substance and merit to them.

lately, i've been overtaken by a nefarious subset of particularly horny thoughts regarding a certain first lieutenant from a doomed arctic expedition and all the various ways in which his anger and frustration at his captain's questionable leadership might manifest... which i wholeheartedly blame on matthew mcnulty's line delivery of, "you were told not to speculate", along with that delicious little lip-curling sneer he does when he says it.

granted, it's not really sharing an idea so much as it is Thirsting After That Middle-Aged Man™, but i figured if anyone would understand, it would be you, curry ❤️

65. Tell us about what you’re most looking forward to writing – in your current project, or a future project

as everyone and their mums probably knows by now, i'm currently busy with several wips. but the ones i'm most proud of and probably the most eager to finish are my terror lieuts vampire hunters/dhampir!jops au, and the sequel to two cupped hands; both of which are sitting at about 35% completion rate. unfortunately, i haven't had much motivation to write lately, and so the actual completion of said wips remains a sisyphean task at present. that being said, i'm nothing if not stubborn, so if it takes me ten more years to publish either of those wips, so be it. i know they'll find their audience regardless of how much time passes 😁

aaand that's it! once again, thank you curry for a wonderful set of questions - i had an absolute blast answering them, and i hope you have just as much fun reading my answers! ily!

[trickstersaint]

Screaminggg saint person I just read your apple taste in the throat as sin poem and I love it so I have a childhood experience to share bc I think the vague themes will make you writhe

So! Ever since I was a child I thought The Fruit™ was a fig! And I felt probably the same way you did whenever you ate an apple as when i ate fig newton's bc of this at like 6🤷 tasty but also [grows up in the church].

Anyway, that one lil story in the bible with the fig tree where jesus is having a very human moment and got caught in 4k withering the tree out of hanger then covered his ass with bravado+temple talk had stuck with little me from this, so to ramble: the life and death that goes into a figs growth and how even in paradise there was hunger, how it exists even among the divine, and that you have to give yourself whole to it like a fig wasp (it will kill you in the end) (or do you choose to die for it) (was there ever really a choice or is it nature to find something bigger than yourself and sacrifice your life for it) and that religion only lives on bc we do but who is to separate the temple from the tree thats barren that will outlast us like a legacy to all we could've been if not withered before its fruiting season? And what of the tiny wasps when the time comes to pollinate but the tree is gone, what of the next generation that burrowed their way out of the fig/divine and what life cycle is there to choose after? Were you born into it all or is it only where your mother died? andandand?? Screams I hope this gives you inspo for more writing or that you at least enjoyed the vibes of me being insane abt figs and what it means to take of the forbidden fruit and the withering of the fig tree lol

Also princess Diana and Gerard as a saint has been rattling around in my brain and I'm going nuts plz elaborate on what they mean to you I'm dying to hear ur thoughts in depth on that

my friend is also really into the fig tree story... beginning to think that raised-christian people only have a few preset bible concepts that they come preloaded with obsessions around. the two genders... fig and apple... anyway saying that even in paradise there was hunger is crazy. i need to write more about adam and eve they drive me insane. y'all ever think about this line from an article about adam and eve that i was reading for a research project a year ago and only posted on my main account where almost none of you guys would have seen it

she is trying desperately to encase herself within the divine framework... jack katz "The Social Psychology of Adam and Eve" save me. save me... anyway...

mmmm on princess diana and gerard way as saints. i find it interesting the way that people idolize her both as an icon of kindness and charity and also as a martyr; for the people who are really caught up in the image of her, i feel like it's absolutely as much about the fact that she died as it is about the good things that she did. not to say that people make her a christ figure lmao but if you REALLY wanted to get into it you could draw some parallels between the way that people talk about jesus interacting with the lepers and diana shaking the hand of someone with aids. and then to take this figure that you are idolizing for their selflessness and good works and to say that she was murdered is like. very evocative of martyrdom i think. these are not personal beliefs of mine i just find it very interesting to look at how people talk about her. personally i think the cultural obsessions around figures like princess diana and marilyn monroe, especially because they're women, are only ever going to grow parasocial and focus around the image or the idea of a person rather than fostering an interest in a historical figure. which. i mean. hey. me and saint sebastian for real :|

um. and then to further implicate myself in this social phenomenon. i am a freak about gerard way and i am not to be trusted around images of them in joan of arc armor or a cheerleader dress. liable to burst into tears or start speaking in tongues i think. i've been too transgender and too into my chemical romance for too long to be anything near normal about that particular person. seeing them in the joan of arc costume made me feel so crazyinsane about religion for so long that i sat down and wrote that first saints quiz. um. and you know actually i do have a poem about the way that it makes me feel so you can just go read that before i say something that's going to make me sound like i have a genuine religious fixation on that guy with like. a wife and kids. see also: trickstersaint poem "there's this feeling i get that i can't describe".

[that0nebird]

So I've been really into acnh and our life so I started making a list of villagers I think the characters would have and here's that..!!!

So for Qiu I was going purely based on vibes I won't lie, I feel like their island be super normal but in a very charming way.

So for their two Smugs I chose Shep and Henry. I think Henry would for sure be their favorite villager like look at that frog he is so Qiu coded. Shep is Qiu coded too so he absolutely stays. I have a feeling Qiu would just in general have a soft spot for smugs.

For their peppy villagers I chose Cheri and BonBon. I chose both of them for the same reasons I think step 1 Qiu would think they look very fun. They'd always be active on the island, like they would 100% be the resident island troublemakers.!!

For their Jock I chose Roald because look at those big dumb eyes, that scatterbrained bird has not a single thought rattling around in there. He would have been a starting villager that was too cute to give up.

For their Normal I chose Goldie and I feel like the reasoning behind this is obvious, Qiu's favorite color is golden (and who doesn't love Goldie?) She would be on one of their first mystery island and they would invite her ASAP.

For their cranky I chose Wolfgang because he gives me such step 2 Qiu vibes it's not even funny. Look at h i m like oh my lord there isn't a world where Qiu doesn't have Wolfgang on their island. He would definitely be a lucky autofill villager.

For their snooty I chose Whitney because of vibes alone. She's so adorable They'd have 0 choice but to keep her. Also step 2 Qiu would love her imo. Once again she'd be a lucky autofill villager.

For their Lazy I gave them Beau because 1 he's orange, 2 he looks like he'd be right at home in golden grove, 3 and most importantly like Roald they're a silly little guy with worms for brains.

And finally for their sisterly (Who I definitely didn't forget to add and had to poorly photoshop her on.) Phoebe. She's a phoenix that lives in a volcano, she is literally so cool they would love her.

It's TamaTime™ I went in extra hard for my cottagecore queen!

For her normal's I gave her Molly and Stella. I chose Stella for multiple reasons;1, I think she's such an underrated cottagecore villager 2, Not only is she a cottagecore staple she also gives me major grandma vibes so Tamarack would definitely get Stella cause she reminds Tamarack of her Omi. 3, Stella is sooooo step 2 Tamarack coded oh my godddd. Besties for life I say. Now I chose Molly because she's the cutest little duck and reminds me of Tamarack in step 1 based purely on vibes.

Onto her cranky boys ofc I had to choose Dobie. Dobie is the grandpa villager and she would get him for a similar reason to Stella and that's because he reminds Tamarack of her Opa. He would have a home next to Stella and she'd use the Happy Home dlc to make his house a little office. As for O'Hare he was definitely an autofill she got too attached to.

For her peppy(s) I chose Felicity and Tangy. Once again both of my girls are so Tamarack coded. Felicity I'm more of a general sense and Tangy is one again giving me step 1 Tamarack vibes which I love. Also semi-unrelated but step 1 Tamarack definitely would love peppy villagers as a whole.

For her lazy you know I had to go with Erik. He's a cottagecore staple, a sweetheart, he's a sleepy little orange antelope and I hate to repeat myself (not really) but LOOK. AT. HIM. He even has a snazzy lil sweater. Love him and Tamarack would too.

For her snooty I chose Willow because she's so bright, cute, she's a sheep 🩷, her catchphrase is "bo peep" and because shes a snooty ofc my girl is going to tell you exactly what she thinks at any moment. For the third time we have peak Step 1 vibes.

Her jock is Teddy not for any particular reason other than I think he'd be a starter villager she few too attached too and conveniently fit the island theme.

For her Sisterly I chose Deirdre because she's a deer, she has a forrest as her home, and her starter sweater reminds me of one you can choose in game for Franky.

I will be adding to this later but my brain will implode if I think about this anymore right now.

[time-is-restored]

thursday!piper word dump........ TWO!!!!!!!! this time from my assorted, extremely frenzied discord messages to my friends between sessions:

post thaya's death:

post vigil's joker breakdown:

post 'yeah those tasks will fr kill you now btw':

^ it is SO interesting reading back on this bc i REALLY expected piper to actively kill corn! all her fear and frustration was basically being channeled through iron as a substitute for hating herself ('how could you do this to me' instead of 'how could i do this'). but she couldn't do it..... she hated being part of his faction so much and really genuinely believed that if he were dead the violence would stop. And Yet!!!!!!!!!!! she still spent all that time looking for a Magical Third Option (where both vigil + corn could co-exist, surviving together) and it almost got her over the line. she kept it together for exactly long enough for none of it to have mattered and for her to have to execute someone she'd just decided might have a way out of The Horrors after all........

then post dot break up/piper Things Have Never Been Worse™ thoughts:

then gort thoughts (pre-confrontation)

^ how this part of their argument ended up actually playing out was so interesting bc like. corn didn't actually contest the 'it's not like you WANTED me to win, so you must have planned for me to fuck up eventually' part of piper's argument (which, tbf, was probably bc piper was bringing up like 300 points per second, and actively losing her mind, so iron had to prioritise LOL). but instead what she got was, essentially, 'everyone makes mistakes'. which is like. both so trite + condescending and also. kind of what she needed to hear? she gets so myopic abt her own flaws and culpability in The Horrors that she won't stop and give herself the grace of 'hey maybe no one's going to be able to be at their best while Fighting For Their Life In A Death Game'. like yeah she did fuck up her calculations (in so far as her goal was to keep the candy crew safe moreso than anyone else). but she did still try...

then post latest session (where piper has. stabilised? not recovered but like. is also not as actively declining):

ITS LIKE. [rattles her tiny pea brain around like a dog's chew toy]. one piper goal that never really materialised, but popped up on her radar around the session where thaya killed zero, was to sabotage the tasks, blocking them off with obsidian/making them a real pain to get to and turn in. since her intellectual appeals of 'this is what willow wants and currently we have no reason to give it to xem. so hold the line' were not working, she was gonna be like 'fuck off our live are not worth LOOT'. but then other worries (deaths NOT motivated by tasks) kept getting in the way, and then the tasks became mandatory. but now she is so uninterested in the core premise of willow's game ('do my fucked up and twisted tasks and cause UNTOLD SUFFERING if you want to live a little bit longer') that like. i think if a task involves dying/killing anytime soon she's just noooot gonna do it... she knows now she definitively can't pay that price, even when 99% of the impetus is put on her by someone else. she just fundamentally can't accept a world where someone dying is a necessary price to pay in order for someone else to live longer. she can't cope with having any part in that.

that being said. the specifics of the names task coming up will really influence how long it takes for her to give the fuck up. she was quite serious abt her promise to corn abt not dying unless it's useful (just like her promise to thaya, she owed iron...), and seeing how distressed dot became at the idea of being alone has further motivated her to stay as safe as she can for as long as she can (sorry lynx but piper is So Sure they'll be fine without her </3). but considering dot is now ALSO flirting with the whole 'maybe we can just. die? and be done with this?' side of things. it could really go a lot of different ways...

[party-gilmore]

I'm. I think I'm.

ACTUALLY gonna write Fic™ for this first time in... since COVID, come to think of it.

There's been a LOOOOTTTT of little batfic babies fluttering around in my brain lately and this latest one is just... OBNOXIOUSLY loud.

Today I thought of a title out of the blue that's PERFECT for it, so... to help stay accountable, please enjoy this teaser XD

A Thousand Words (But Half The Story)

"You know, you really do look so much like your mother. I can barely see Thomas in you at all," Lex grins over the top of the champagne flute. Bruce smiles vacantly, but his nails dig sharply into the palm of his hand. The fucking nerve. Speaking as if he'd known them. "Have you ever wondered why that is?"

"Can't say that I have," Bruce chuckles dismissively. "Genetics, I suppose?"

"Mmn, yes," Lex drawls, slime oozing from every syllable. "Genetics."

When Lexcorp's latest efforst at securing a partnership with Wayne Enterprises are shot down point blank, a disgruntled Lex makes one final offer - extend the hand, or have certain truths about the Wayne's brought to light.

Bruce dismisses it as a bluff, filing it away with the other frequent toothless claims against his family. After all, they've been there, done that with his father's ties to Falcone and the Arkham's . At most, he figures it'll be something silly for the gossip rags, maybe even rank a daytime talk show or two. A little controversy always helps the "Brucie" mask, after all.

But when the photos surface - faded with age but clear enough there's no denying the entwined bodies of Martha Wayne and the family butler - the shockwaves rattle the windows of Gotham from the primetime newsrooms all the way up to Wayne Manor itself.

If Alfred's going to keep their strained little family from bursting at the seams, he'll need to cut through the fear that's wrapped his heart up tight for the past 50 years and find a way to tell Bruce the whole truth.

After all, a picture may be worth a thousand words, but the rest of the pages are wrapped up in the once warm hands of the man who stood behind the camera, and the ghost of his laugh as he coaxed his lovers into frame.