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at any given moment I am being stared at by at This Fuckin Thing.

#I’m peeing and then going to bed NOTHING FUN IS HAPPENING#I like when collies try to do the herding dog intense stare bc they look like. Well. Like That.#also I am immune to dog staring so too bad <3 get in ur crate idiot#kepcollie
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I love your take on Crowley!
I know that the early, non-Diasomnia stories aren't really your thing, but are you reading the novels at all?
I have been following some of the fan translations and the second book seems intense! Would love to hear what you think about them.
thank you! 💚💚💚 I'm not really sure why you think I don't like the earlier arcs though, I love pretty much all the characters and their storis! (I think 5 and 1 are my favorite of the past episodes, though 6 infected me with the Shroud brainrot something fierce.) I just...ESPECIALLY love diasomnia. :') but there is room in my heart for all of these dweebs! like, who among us is not just as ride-or-die for Adeuce as they are for us.
that said, I don't really follow the other adaptations like the manga (aside from a dip-in just to see the new Yuus) or the novels, though I keep meaning to check them out! I do like seeing the differences between the different forms of media, and how certain things get adapted one way or another! but alas, time/a lack of accessibility stands in our way more often than not. :( someday...someday I will have time to consume all of the media...
#art#twisted wonderland#i have been playing this game since the day it came out#and believe me i could not have stuck with it for the past three and a half years if i was not deep into all of these idiots#not to harp on it but i do think it's funny because i actually. really did not like the diasomnias at first.#it was like a month before their cards/personal stories were added and so we knew almost NOTHING about them#the website descriptions basically make everyone sound awful#so i thought they were kind of mean/boring compared to everyone else!#(except maybe lilia but i was mad at him for the two seconds of 'girl? 👀' hope i had when they were revealed)#but once their cards came out i fell just as hard for them as i did the rest of this silly game#well. sebek took a little longer. but his ketchup incident converted me.#anyway i have so much sentimentality for episode 1 especially#the prologue was like 'oh this is actually a very silly game! oh there is a plot!'#episode 1 was like 'oh i LIKE these characters and what they're doing with them'#(i think ace punching riddle was the moment i decided i REALLY liked this game) (sorry riddle) (you were being a huge dick though)#also...ink drips. ink drips everywhere.#look when i say this game is laser-focused at me and my tastes specifically i am not kidding
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“in your brother. you live in each other’s body.”
querelle of brest — jean genet / the white lotus — mike white / the ballad of reading gaol — oscar wilde
#txt#like. yknow what i mean?#this post is sponsored by the bewildering lack of querelle content i’ve seen in the saxloch fandom#like you guys rlly should be getting in on this#it seems like the most obvious connection to draw but i am very much enjoying getting to be the one to draw it#if this is just because you guys haven’t read querelle of brest or seen the fassbinder querelle movie. then consider this post a psa#read it. watch it. both great#i’m getting sidetracked. the point of this post? well. u can’t kill something that’s been inside u all along baby#lmao these fucking idiots think they can bury this. little do they know…. only burying themselves in the process. SAD!#if i sound insane in these tags just know i finished scrubbing through all 250 pages of querelle for this at 2 am. so there’s the context#the white lotus#white lotus#white lotus season 3#saxloch#lochlan ratliff#saxon ratliff#saxon x lochlan#twl s3#querelle#not tagging oscar wilde bc i dont want any poor poetry fans to stumble across This lmao#the three querelle fans on tumblr can handle it though#web weaving#also? dont be mean about my grainy ass querelle screenshots i used the internet archive pdf#so if u make fun of the screenshots you’re making fun of art and information preservation. just so you know
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I don't know if I've told y'all yet (and if I haven't, I've probably Strongly Hinted) but I will be going into education, because that seems to be where God is pointing me towards. Very, very strongly. Specifically English lit. Specifically high school. It turns out that if you pray to the Lord very sheepishly: "Sir, I know this is rather Gideonish of me, but if you want me to do this, please make it so loud and clear that I can't ignore it at all", you oughta be prepared for the Lord to answer in the way He so desires to, in whatever capacity or degree He sees fit. I had my mother, my father, my sister, my family friend, two school friends, an administrator, and two staff members at my workplace come and tell me I should teach in the span of about a week and a half. Some because the topic came up, some without any prompting whatsoever. The chance I had to teach was like nothing else I've experienced -- not a blinding flash of realization, necessarily, but it was good and hard and joyful, and surprisingly so life-giving. And many other things.
#God knows I am an idiot and am part of a foolish generation that asks for signs but my mother did say that if he CALLS you it'll be hard#to ignore because it will be so clear. so perhaps He can also work through my neurotic desire to be Told what to do.#but also He has also taught me in the span of a week and a half EXACTLY what my failings are in this area and where I will find#the most trouble with temptation and with sin as a teacher and I was like OKAY (sobbing) I CAN SEE IT NOW#part of me is still a bit terrified of being presumptuous and thinks: well#what if all of this is you trying desperately to connect nonexisting dots so that it turns into a Story? since you DO have that tendency?#and another part is like but what about the week and a half of conversations. and what else would you do with your love of literature#except share it? and who else would you share it with if not the group of people you love and care about most (i.e. teens)?#and another part is like YOU?? A TEACHER??? DON'T MAKE ME LAUGH!!!!#anyway it has been quite a time of reflecting and being so drawn to it and knowing the extent of my own fear and failings#and feeling absolutely terrified and elated all at once
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ho-tan time bc i LOVE HERRRR

#storm darragh stole my power and signal so im posting this while in the car to get food lol hopefully power comes back soon!#and i hope anyone also in the storm is staying safe!!#anyways ho-tan time. I AM IN LOVE WITH HER#pen bled a bit in some places but oh well#aaaaa quick type tags before im out of signal again#yonderland#my art#six idiots#larry rickard#ho-tan#scribe elder ho-tan#yonderland fanart#aaaaaaaaAAAH
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Me, one moment: Rin is so much more intelligent than people give him credit for.
Me, the next moment: Oh god he's an idiot
#I say idiot with affection#I do think he has a lot of emotional intelligence and thinks outside of the box which makes him really smart in an unconventional way#but oh dear#that boy is so stupid#I also say stupid with affection#I am indeed referring to ep6 of the current season#shiemi says what would we do in a romantic relationship and this boy goes#uhhh uhhh we kiss and uhh uhh *STICKS TONGUE OUT* MAKE OUT LIKE CRAZY#😭what#that being said#half of rin's idiocy is due to rin being an idiot and the other half is just that he's a 15yo boy😭#the ending was great tho#I think it wrapped up rlly well and I once again say with my chest#I love that boy#idiocy and all#blue exorcist#ao no exorcist#rin okumura
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being italian online can be frustrating because some people from over usa are weirdly obsessed with our country and will bend the basic working of logic to claim they are italian too "italian is an ethnicity you don't have to be italian to be italian" brother are you listening to yourself
#'you cannot gatekeep being italian'#brother you cannot claim wild shit and expect people to call you a huge idiot#'italians are so hateful to italo-americans'#in my opinion we aren't hateful enough#and i'm also pissed at the usual argument 'most italo-americans are descendants of poor families from the south who migrated to usa be nice'#well brother so am i and you are *not* the fucking same as me (:#if anything the dialect and regional cultural aspects actually means something to me (a gift and a curse)#notes of a countryside dandy#hater moment sorry
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Pac: This is my secret base. And this is Pequito!
Fit: Pequito! *Immediately starts cooing over Pequito*
Pac: [Laughs]
Fit: Sorry, sorry.
Pac: No no, that's good! He likes you, you know, he likes you.
#FitMC#Pactw#QSMP#Hideduo#FitPac#I THINK this was October 27 but I don't remember well enough to put that as a tag#I usually am pretty good about adding dates to my file names but sometimes I forget#anyways. Why'd Fit coo over Pequito like he was a dog LMAO#''He likes you'' You don't say Pac#Y'know I wasn't huge on the minimes#However. I do think we as a community really slept on the concept of Islanders taking care of their partners' minimes#(er or I guess. Their roommates' minimes)#Like ''yes this minime is a nefarious Federation thing but it DOES look like a small adorable version of the person I have a crush on. So.'#I'm just saying. This island's greatest strength is love and their greatest weakness is also them being gay idiots sometimes#Q#Fit#Pac
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oh freckle, freckle⠁.. what makes you so s p e c i a l?
#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH#IM SORRY THIS SONG DOES SO MANY BAD THINGS TO ME#other than the metal style cover / weezers sweet dreams r made of these / poppunk dancing queen this is THERMBADBIHTHEMESONG#THIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIS IS THEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE SONG BITCH#like OH FRECKLE FRECKLE WHAT MAKES U SO SPECIAL#HEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOO#MY HEARTS IN HEAVEN MY SOLES ARE HEEEEEELLLLL LETS ME IN THE PURAGATORY OF MY HIPPPPPPPPPPPPPS#AND GET WELL ;)))))))#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA HYYYYYYYHHHH BITCH#I KNOW THIS WAS A SPICY GREENHOUSE MAKEOUT SONG I AM SCREAMING VERY LOUD IN MY HEAD RN#*jerseykyle vc* i'm gonna ( leave you ) I'm Gonna TEACH you#HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLL NOOOOOO#IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII KNOOOOOOOOOOOO IT WAS GOING *NEW PERSPECTIVE VC* DOOOOOOOOWN DOWN DOooOOWWN#ALSO WAITER ARTIST MODEL SINGER IS LITERALLY CDS WHOLE EXPERIENCE TRYING TO MAKE IT IN THE BUSINESS#SPECIFICALLY RAVENSTAN GOING FROM WAITERING AT CHEFS RESTURANT TO COCKTAIL WAITERING AT RUFFIANS#MAKING MUSIC ON THE SIDE AND BASICALLY BEING A SOLD OUT TO THAT WHOLE CLUB AND BEING PUNK ROCK#~SUPERMODELITBOY~ AND ET TENS WHOLE BRAND AND HIS LIL PLAYTHING AND BEING A SINGER BUT...GOD...WAS IT WORTH IT????? WAS. IT. WORTH. IT.#DONT TALK TO ME HIS ENTIRE CHARACTER ARC MAKES ME MISERABLE HE JUST WANTED TO SING#AND LOOK WHAT HAPPENED! YOURE RAVEN YOURE NO ONES DAUGHTER MIDNIGHT SUN BUT YOUR WINGS ARE STILL CLIPPED; YOU CANT FLY#YOU SING BUT IT FALLS ON DEAF EARS! COVER BOY ON THE PAGE! A PACIFIST AND ALL THE RAGE!! ALL THE WORLDS A STAGE#BUT GOLD OR NOT; AT THE END OF THE DAY ITS JUST A CAGE PRETTY BIRD - AND YOU BUILT IT YOURSELF BABY!!! YOU! BUILT! IT! YOURSELF! BARS BItcH#thats my son My Son mY SOOOOOOOOOOOOOON it also has such a sexcC nitelub jerseykyle back beat hEEEEELLLO#i could talk about this for such a long time i LOVE this song#*jk having going crazy but divine intervention on his bathroom floor after a bad stan episode and ed episode head on toliet vc*#MAMA? IF WE DONT TAKE THE MEDICATION...WE WONT SLEEP FOR DAYS? MAMA...IF WE PRAY TO THE LORD#DOES HE SING ON STAGE?????? oOOOOOOOOOOUGH IM SICK AND I KNOW HES SEEING STARS AND SMILES AND PRETTY EYES AND UGLY LAUGHES#AND A BOY HE HASNT SEEN IN YEARS BUT HE SEES EVERYDAY OUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH IM SICK#I WANT TO BE GOLDEN IN YOUR MEMORY!!!!!!!! SIIIIIIIICK!!! SICK AND FUCKING TWISTED!!!!! SHUT UP AAAAAaAAAAaA#IM IN HELL jk swirling his drink trying to look uninterested *after party fb vc* watching rstan work the room like#oh freckle freckle what makes You so special? and then raven waves and winks at him and trips bc hes an idiot and jk is like AAAAAA SIIIIIC
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Vettonso x Similar Helmets
SV Germany 2012 x FA Monaco 2013: Gold & Dark Red

I think a lot about Vettonso and their mutual relationship witn gold. They're both golden boys, they're both seen lit gold by the sunshine on many podiums throughout the years, both have worn golden boots, and as you can see here: both have worn golden helmets. The parallels in these particular helmets makes me feel insane. Both are: gold with dark red accents, both have their birthplace's coat of arms(Bergstraße and Asturias), both have team animal motifs, and both have symbols to represent their two championships(You by now know the signifigance of the ones on Fernando's helmet, but I think the ones on Seb's are actually a callback to his Formula BMW days when he used to put the smiley stickers on his car for every win.)
And did you know both of these helmets were designed by the same helmet design company? Yep, both of these are JMD helmets. I know JMD helmets are/were pretty popular, but still, there's something to me about Fernando commissioning the same designer that Seb has been using since he was a literal child. Parallels, am I right?
SV Japan 2010 x FA Japan 2023: White with Black & Red

Haha I remember @protocolseben and I discussing this a bit back in September when Fernando's helmet dropped. I honestly think Seb is such an innovator and trailblazer in terms of helmet design, and you can see his influence in helmet design as recently as this past season. I'm not sure if he was the first ever driver to don a matte white helmet with red accents as a representation of the Japanese flag, but it certainly envoked him in my mind when I saw Fernando's!!
I think Fernando's is pretty similar to all of Seb's 2010-2012 Japan helmets but I like this one the most so! I think if Seb wasn't restrained by the Red Bull logo, he def wouldv'e put the red circle where Nando put his so I think Fernando did a really good job, even if unintentionally, at emulating Seb's sense of design.
SV Singapore 2012 x FA Singapore 2012: Sparkly!


Like I said in the one above, it's crazy how much Seb influenced helmet design. He was pretty much the pioneer of sparkly helmets for Singapore, right? It drives me absolutely insane that there's actually pictures of them together in such similar designed helmets. It's kinda funny actually that even though they're pretty deep in the championship fight at this point, and Seb just got one up on Fernando; Fernando is wearing a helmet that is a direct influence from Seb!!! Is that not insane???
Also, Fernando trying to be camp with trying the now in vogue sparkly Singapore helmet, and Seb accidentally completely blew him out of the water with his outrageous light up LED constellation helmet. But god yeah....to have pics of them in matching helmets from this era particuarly makes me emotional ;;;
SV Hungary 2021 x FA 2022: Pink with Dark Blue

I really could've picked any of Seb's 2021 helmets, but I thought this one matched the best with Fernando's main 2021 helmet(with the color pallet.) Also one thing, it's crazy how much control BWT has as a sponsor, I don't think I've ever seen another sponsor go so hard at having a chokehold on individuality. I like that we got pink liveries and pink helmets, but I don't think they should have that much control.
I'm almost kinda sad there wasn't any Miami GP in 2021, because I think that was the only unique helmet Fernando had in 2022. But these match pretty well! Pretty in pink!! It's crazy that their parallels in the 2020s are ongoing even before Fernando actually takes over Seb's seat. Thanks BWT I guess?
SV Abu Dhabi 2022 x FA Abu Dhabi 2022: Fernando's Seb Tribute Helmet


AND HERE WE HAVE THE PIÈCE DE RÉSISTANCE!!! The ultimate conclusion, it literally couldn't get better than this!! This is still unbelievable, like how is this an actual thing that happened!? Fernando intentionally branding his helmet, the only symbol of individuality in F1, with his rival's flag colors, HIS FLAG!!!!! Not to mention the literal "Vettono Best Moments" collage he posted alongside it....and the hand-holding....and everything that happened with them at Abu Dhabi 2022....
But god, after years of incidentally making parallel helmet designs, Fernando decided to officially tie the knot of the red string of fate, and make a helmet directly referencing Seb's. I think it's funny because as I said with two of the previously mentioned ones, those Fernando designs are pretty much inspired by Seb's, and here he is openly making one directly inspired by Seb. I don't really have words for how this actually makes me feel because it's just. Yeah. The most open and clear declaration of love and respect and admiration one could ever make. TO ME.
#all of my posts subheading should be: 'its probably not that deep BUT-'#i can't believe ive made two deeply researched and beloved posts in a row one day after the other#posts sponsored by: 12 am red bull consumption. my all-consuming devotion and love for vettonso. and my unwillingness to do schoolwork#i mean i felt a lot of emotions and had fun making it but like. hey. could you put this effort into school?#anyways feeling deeply emotionally affected about helmets and their symbolism#i think in the entirety of f1 seb and fernando are two of the most dedicated and passionate about helmet designs and symbolism?#so this post is very special to me :] helmet fuckers unite <3#again: they say they aren't friends and don't share any hobbies and im just staring at them like YOU IDIOTS!!!#its just that spongebob meme of him pointing out the trashcans. like guys. be fr rn. you totally share hobbies#both like helmet design. paddel and pingpong. sustainability. cars. racing. european football. THE LIST GOES ON AND ON#well im glad they swapped helmets at some point(i think nando gave seb two pretty old ones as well. now thats dedication!)#if they werent cowards i bet they couldve also had a 5+ hour long discussion about helmet design ;;;;;;#thinking also about how fernando has one of seb's in his museum >:) but if only it were one of the ones on this list. sigh.#normal posts that catie normally makes in a normal fashion#well lmk if theres any other vettonso helmets you think are similar!!! im pretty blind to seb helmets that arent rbr era tbh#sebastian vettel#fernando alonso#f1#formula 1#vettonso#we do a little bit of f1
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twelfth night is not a Shakespeare I have read or seen but now I’m a bit terrified of ever consuming it. I definitely would never touch that audio drama with a 10 foot pole though (so so tempting. I might give in)
i was normal about twelfth night and held many normal emotions about it i really liked it for being this fun very messy queer drama until i listened to david tennant malvolio which ruined my life i cannot stress enough all of my evil derangements are because of david tennant malvolio if he had not done any of that i would have been FINE
#YOU CAN HEARRRRR the heartbreak and desperation in dt malvolio's voice#you can picture his expression so clearly whem olivia says to him 'but out of question 'tis maria's hand'#the 'i'll be revenged on the whole pack of you' line reading made me lose my fucking MIND#i guess this is the biggest weakness of the audio drama is that im too busy like actively being upset over malvolio#to even feel anything about the haha funny everything all works out ending#twelfth night#ws#david tennant#when i read the play (esp 4.2) i pictured malvolio as being very very angry. still staying confident in the wake of#what's still happening around him. cuz it's like malvolio gave me a very 'i'm surrounded by fucking idiots' energy#and the only thing he has to rely on is his mind (which he takes a lot of pride in anyway).#also the play is a comedy and i feel like this is the only way for this scene to be actually funny#dt malvolio causes me evil derangements bc he is. the reverse of this lol#he is on the verge of tears throughout ALL of 4.2 his voice is all fucked up from screaming to be let out#when he says 'i am as well in my wits as any man in illyria' it's as much a desperate plea to feste as it is to himself#he's someone who once took pride in being the only sane one but now he's started to doubt himself n that's a whole other level#of horror for him. none of it is funny whatsoever. thank you david i love and hate you for this
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the urge to ignore your assigned summer readings in favour of starting yet another Dostoevsky book that will ruin your life
#I'm reading Zeno's conscience right now and it's not even bad. I hated it at first because I had just finished the brothers karamazov#so naturally any book after that would seem like shit. anyways after a hundred pages or something I finally started appreciating it#BUT.i have an old ass edition of crime and punishment that just looks so eatable.you can't understand how fucking good that edition looks#I just know it is worth it to detach from reality for like a week and come back as a changed person. cons are that I would be even less#motivated to do my actual assigned readings or any type of homework ever honestly. vacations started a month ago#and I still haven't done shit aside from reading a bit of zeno's conscience.i am so cooked#also I'm having a category five depression moment so to cope with finishing tbk I am rereading one chapter a day and watching a weirdly well#made rai adaptation of it 🙏#dostoevskij#dostoevksy#fyodor dostoevsky#fedor dostoevskij#the brothers karamazov#crime and punishment#the gambler#the idiot#demons#white nights#etc etc
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the one horse argument that pisses me off so much is like.. well it isn't an argument it's just a sound bite people repeat bc they think they're funny and/or smart (they're not 🤎) is when people go on and on and ON they just never stop, frankly, fucking talking about is how fragile and horrible horses are for various reasons that boil down to them just describing anatomical features of an animal than being like "and that's HORRIFIC" bc they're most of the time going into this with obvious bias against or even outright hatred towards this animal 😭?
like "their legs are so fragile they can break just by stepping wrong" so are your toes and fingers and ankles and wrists and legs and arms and ribs and hips and collar bones and your fucking skull. a human being can die just from falling the distance of its OWN HEIGHT. YOU can drown in an inch of water. YOU can die just from tripping over. YOU have one of the worst body plans in the natural animal kingdom. you have entire organs that are defunct and can decide to one day kill you. your bones are so fragile and your organs are ridiculously mapped out and your back and spine is absolutely fucked which includes your neck which is connected to your HEAD. we were granted as a species enough intelligence to form written and oral communication and this is the way you use it ... to be a fucking idiot who speaks like a redditor trying to write the next copypasta online because you think you have something interesting to say and end up sounding like a toddler who is scared of a dog on the street.
#🐉#i really so hate it i hate anyone who insists any animal is evil or weird or scary or what the fuck ever#phobias aside and all that like i have a phobia of dogs but i'm also not a fucking idiot am i#if you cannot exist on this earth that you share with other species that are important and detrimental to your own survival and the#survival of the planet we live on and as a species are killing with even the smallest amount of respect for them well#i wouldn't even know what to truly say about that. that's embarassing and strange and you're not special or smart#and i know I'M speaking from a place of passion so yeah i'm biased in that regard but come the fuck on 😭#if you cannot acknowledge the importance of the NATURAL WORLD when you live amongst it that's just WEIRD. are you a cartoon villain ?!#i hope you are haunted
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Currently trying not to vomit over the fact that I essentially just lost almost a thousand dollars brb
#why me. why is it always fucking me am I just not allowed to have good things WHAT have I done to earn this kinda karma#my stupid fucking idiot roommate decided to resign the lease at the complex so I naturally contacted the landlords like hey. how does that#work with the security deposit cuz I paid that years before she even moved in do you guys need to come inspect the place after I leave#and they were like oh no ☺️ it just carries over to her. and I’m like. so. so even though I am not living here nor am on the lease#whether or not I get NINE HUNDRED FUCKING DOLLARS BACK hinges on this JACKASS not wrecking the place???? actually not even then because say#she DOESNT wreck the place when she moves out TURNS OUT the deposit goes to her cuz it’s her name and account attached to the fucking#apartment and I’m just left sitting here like how. how is that fucking fair how does that make fucking sense I have to trust that she doesnt#ruin the place OR GET FUCKING EVICTED BECAUSE SHE HAS NO JOB AND NO WAY TO PAY RENT and then also trust her to just give it to me when she#moves out. I’m actually sick I’m actually gonna fucking throw up and the landlords were like yes exactly ☺️ perhaps you could work something#out with her and she could buy you out of it and I’m just like. she doesn’t have a job she still hasn’t paid me for LAST months utilities#let alone this months do you HONESTLY THINK she is EVER going to pay me the 900 dollars I’m fucking owed#and it’s like does this actually affect anything? no. I didn’t budget with that money cuz I didn’t actively have it and that’s not smart but#like…. 900 dollars….. I could have paid off the rest of my credit card with that and also it’s just infuriating that that money is basically#just being GIVEN to this fucking bitch who I KNOW is not gonna keep that apartment in good shape and that’s again if she somehow doesn’t get#her ass evicted cuz she’s not paying bills why they even LET her sign her own lease there I do not understand she literally has no proof of#income but ig they probably didn’t check that cuz she technically already lived there I’m just so. I’m so tired and I’m so done can I PLEASE#stop being the one who constantly gets screwed fucking over in EVERY situation no matter fucking what#while all these fucking idiots and shitty fucking ppl get whatever they want and actively BENEFIT from me getting fucked over???? I’m done.#I’m so fucking done I am never living with someone ever again never being finanacially tied to anyone fucking again and you know what. thats#great goes well with me basically being convinced atp to never be vulnerable with anyone ever again and never trust anyone ever again and#never dedicate ANY part of my life in a genuine sense to anyone ever again I will be fucking alone in every sense for THE REST of my fucking#life and that’s that. it’ll be better. this kinda shit will stop happening. financially emotionally psychologically I will stop suffering#because holy fucking shit I can’t do it anymore man I’m sick of it I’m sick of trying to be a good person and depend on people and be#vulnerable and always uphold my side of the responsibilities and arrangements just to get fucking spit on like man if this is what being a#shit person gets ppl maybe I should try because they sure seem to get all the benefits and whatever the hell they want consistently and#always while I try and be considerate of others and devote myselves to them and this is all I fucking get for it#and ik I KNOW this is just the straw on the camels back and this is a lot of issues compounding and it’s not even about the money atp#but I’m just. I’m so fucking sick and tired and beaten down and I’m tired of trying I just want to be completely on my own#so at least if bad things happen or I feel like shit I only have myself to blame and it’s safer that way and I’ll have to stop feeling like#this and dealing with these types of things UGH
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Based on my latest post I'm overjoyed that my moots (whether or not tumblr officially recognises them thx sideblog doing sideblog sht) and those who randonly stumble upon my shit are objectively some of the greatest people.
I love this weird corner I found myself in and the general mindset and views on things.
And I may be too scared nd socially awkward to approach anyone directly but be assured I'm on the sidelines rooting for folks in a very cutesy, very demure manner and y'all should feel loved.
#i expected stones to be thrown but i found understanding#what an odd thing to happen#either way even if larian fumbles and even if the purity culture swaps over here more based on us developments#i mean the tiktok ban#i shall try my best to keep the dove evermore rotten#while also indulging in the fluff y'all make#but mostly the later cuz i'm still scared of sharing whatever the fuck I've done to bg3 lmao#someone read it and even said it was good but the doubt refuses to leave#why is creativity like that why cant we just love ourselves and be confident and unapologetic about ourselves as a whole#yeah it may be shit but it was made with lots of blood sweat and love#why am i getting so profound about this what is wrong with me today#anyway someone wanna read how gortash and durge start a bitch fight with each other that never ended#and instead just festered for a few decades#including political sheming - somehow jealousy - inexplicably yearning and an overwhelming sense of tragedy and dread#cuz 40 years passed but nothing changed in fact its only starting to unravel more#'look at how far they've come and how theyre slowly slipping right back into being a monster' - the longfic#still dont know how the kid that was raised by them and a bunch more other idiots turned out as well adjusted as she is#i mean okay there may be some patricide but yk its family tradition atp#yeah okay ive absolutely lost the plot in my own tags now#anyway point stands y'all r cool nd feel loved
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You ever get that feeling like you're f/o-ing characters by proxy? Like, you don't necessarily want to f/o them yourself, but you still want them to be f/os to someone and see other people self ship with them? Well, because I think I do ...
So I started rewatching Star Wars Rebels a few weeks ago and oh boy I think my dormant Star Wars hyperfixation is no longer dormant but instead coming back full force - AND NOW I WANT TO SEE THESE DORKS GETTING KISSES GODDAMMIT
These are just the first few that came to my mind but there's more (it's just that it's half past 5am and my brain is soup), but I'd love to see some self-inserts (or OCs) being shipped with them! And even if you don't like Imperials you could also just make them defect with/for you😌
In oder: Lieutenant Yogar Lyste, Commandant Cumberlayne Aresko, Minister Maketh Tua, Admiral Kassius Konstantine, Agent Alexsandr Kallus, Grand Admiral Thrawn
I wasn't quite sure about including Kallus (bottom left) and Thrawn (bottom right) in this list, because 1. they're not nearly as underrated as the others (although I haven't really seen them around in the self ship community), and 2. I also very much ship Kallus with Zeb (I'm rarely crazy about canon x canon pairings but those two are really cute), and well Thrawn is also on my own f/o list anyway xD (I usually don't mind sharing though)
Bonus: Admiral Yularen, however I prefer his look in The Clone Wars, but he makes an appearance in Rebels too!
(I really want to rewatch TCW as well once I'm finished with Rebels it's always been such a joy to watch when I was younger😭 I hope I can get my sister to watch it together with me like we used to)
#I'm not even sure why but I want those characters to be loved#I don't even particularly like all of them actually; like for example Konstantine is kind of a big idiot sometimes#but I want to see him being someone's cringefail husband#I AM considering f/o-ing Lyste though even though he's like the opposite of my usual f/o type😭 but I just find him so adorable#also I was surprised to find out that aresko actually seems to be slightly popular? like I found a few ppl on here swooning over him#when I saw that I was just 'yas go get yourself your man!!' many of the people who love him seem to be inactive nowadays tho :(#so mayyybe I'll have to jump in there as well xD I found some cute screenshot collections of him over the past days👉👈#I don't even know what this post is but I guess I'm making self ship advertisements or whatever#like cmon I can't f/o the Empire all by myself (or you know what maybe I can though👀)#self ship#self shipping community#self insert x canon#f/o suggestions#star wars rebels#lieutenant lyste#commandant aresko#minister tua#admiral konstantine#agent kallus#grand admiral thrawn#admiral yularen#selniasoriginal#selnia talks
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