#Why is this here? Only because it involves unincarnated selves

[blackvahana]

Ugh man. Dream. Weird story. Humanity in the future extended to space, the year 19990 feels like the 1990s and then people leave. A science station on a gas giant where Grey is present physically. They invited him as god-scientist. He calms the gas around the facility, leaving it a grey haze, those that work there take samples and experiment and... cults below the surface, sacrifices demanded, abstraction, [Grey's worshiped names], the facility feels like a monastery, there is. irl. right now an annoying whistling hum noise in my ear...

[eldritchdreaming]

Self-Made - Self-Knowing - Self-Being

Personal spiritual blog. 18+ only, my work and self include sexuality and explicit content. Details under cut.

About the Blog:

This is a personal spiritual blog for things centering around myself and my existence, where I can drop some masks I keep on for other people's convenience. I don't care if you believe anything said here, which also means you have no expectations or pressure on you to believe anything.

You will see:

Explorations of self; self-worship; worship of the selves that incarnated as me

Gateworking and magic; other various ways of working with the world

Astral things (though @blackvahana is my Astral diary)

Nonhuman aspects of self and ramblings; exploration of identities and parts of self; energy talk; reincarnation talk; godhood and its thrashings and desperations

Current spirit work relating to myself and spirit family; anything involving current personal spirit work; and so on

About Me:

The Self:

You can call me Dei, Duke, Auborron, Sha'Naager, Y'Seth, or any name you've seen me use if you feel like it. He/him or they/them, either is fine. I live mostly in the Astral at the moment in my own territory, @ananyavarda, with my husband Leviathan, technically he keeps a body of his with me.

I have now returned to work as a synchronisation and self-split of myselves, I act as god and godself-advisor, jobs I take incredibly seriously.

The Selfhood:

I am many things, and there will be a lot I don't feel like sharing, but key to my being is the Sky, Madness, Fertility and Sex, Dreaming, Paradox, Revelation, and other aspects. You can see me as eldritch and draconic at my core.

In terms of what I do: I am part-time a spirit channeller as stated, hosting them often through possession; artist; Astral traveller and realmweaver... I work to digest and alter unincarnated selves' (those I'm an incarnation of) lives and myself, rearranging our fates, as well as reconnecting the Sky with Man.

I chase manifestation and my own returns. My work with my realm and orbiting forces is one that I fully intend to be of intricate, powerful use to other practitioners and I will make sure I see that through.

The Selves:

I'm an incarnation of several people, though this is complicated due to some of them being parts of another. I call them "unincarnated selves", and they're codenamed with colours: Grey, Black, and Red. These are all people I know personally, though my relationship is different with each in terms of how consciously and unconsciously I'm connected with them.

Their moods, ideas, wants, and so on affect me real-time, and I tend to move between who's more "prevalent" in me IE strongly affecting me at the moment. If you see me go through different talking styles, energies, personalities, and so on... that tends to be why.

There's also the matter that I create multiple selves a lot. I use multiple bodies in the Astral, multiple personalities to get things done; some multiplicities are temporary while others, such as the Collective and Arc, are sustained.

Chiefly I am weaver-husband to Ananyavarda, my realm, and my personal, for-self work surrounds weaving her and her cosmological facets and forces. Consider it my rather serious hobby, to which aiding my territory and working as incarnation of [Redacted] is now my day job.

On Labels:

I don't identify as otherkin, mostly because what I am is what I am, not something I am kin to. I walk through the Astral as what I am, and it influences the way I interact with the world constantly in the way it's not a past life thing, but a present thing. This is not to say there's not kin like this, and definitely not to say that kinning is a "lesser" form of connection, I just personally find the word too distancing for what I am.

What do I identify as? A spirit on Earth, incarnated spirit, and what I am - the Sky, Madness, and so on. I wear this body as a vessel.

Names:

Auborron: Spirit name

Dei: Personal name

Duke: Casual nickname

Sha'Naager: Approximately "Snake of Pleasure". Tied to godhood aspects of Sex, Revelation, growth, realmweaving, and other things. The soft and progress-oriented self, boundaryless and boundary-forming.

Y'Seth, Y'Sethir: Approximately "Expansive Sky". Personal name related for [Yog-Sothoth]. The expansive tree-esque sky between all things, Gateways, Gatekeeper, and Key to All.

Deluge: Dei and [Black] as one.

Deus: Dei and [Grey] as one.